Date: Mon, 14 May 2001 13:07:21 -0400 (EDT)
From: maxwelllite@webtv.net
Subject: Lee & me chapter 9

Worm and i loaded everything onto the boat and took our places at the
oars.
It occurred to me how natural  this relationship had become. There was
them and there was us, me and Worm. They didn't even speak to us unless
it was absolutely necessary. We were there to serve, to be used abused
and humiliated at their discretion. However it also occurred to me that
this was better than no contact or relationship with them at all.
   My rump was still burning from the stroke that Lee had administered
with all his force.
As i attempted to sit on the hard wood bench i quickly rose as if having
sat on a hot stove.
I then tried to shift from one cheek to the other in a vain attempt to
relieve the very painful discomfort.
I looked over to see Kay who had noticed my dilemma once again, placing
her fingers over her lips as if to stifle a laugh. She had obviously
found Lee's abuse of my butt amusing.
  Just as before, they laughed and snuggled as Worm and i rowed and
sweated.
I tried not to show the discomfort that sitting caused, but did try to
shift as often as possible.
It seemed each time i did Kay would notice and have a pursed lips grin
on her face.
  We all parted company at the dock. Carter and Dawn got in the back
seat of the town car with worm at the wheel. Lee hopped behind the wheel
of my car with Kay at his side and i got in the back just as before.
  Lee dropped me off first and then took off with Kay, taking her home.
I had something to eat and then hung out near the window waiting for
Lee's return..whenever that might be.
It was hours later when he finally got back.
I hurried over on the pretext of asking for the keys, which it was up to
him whether or not he wanted to do. I think by now he pretty much knew
he owned me and could keep the car for as long as it pleased him.
  When i entered his room and assumed my servile position..Lee said,
"Ya know..seeing you that way reminds me of something: a toad. From now
on your name is Toad."
My first thought was, oh no, not that and said,
"Come on Lee, don't do that. You know how those names stick."
I knew my plea was falling on deaf ears.
If his friend Carter had a worm, he would have a toad.
He didn't even answer and said,
"O.K, toad you can get up now."
And just like that, my new name had become Toad. I hated the idea but i
couldn't really blame him. That was a real power trip for any guy. I
mean to levy a demeaning name on a lackey signified just about total
ownership and raised  that guy in stature to the highest level in the
teen community..right where Lee wanted to be. It also reduced the one
getting the name to the very lowest level..right where Lee wanted me to
be.


  Things had gotten completely out of hand.
It was more and more apparent that Lee had taken complete control of my
life. I had relinquished my will to an arrogant and cruel master. I had
no say at all. Whatever Lee wanted, Lee got. A snap of his fingers and i
would be on my knees and he knew it, and took full advantage.
  That night he would test just how much control he really had. He sent
me down to the kitchen to get him a cold drink. When i returned i heard
the shower going and i waited. When he appeared he was drying himself
with a towel and he was naked. He had an erection, he looked down and
said with bravado as if half in jest,

"On your knees slave."

I gulped and hesitated, but it was something i had actually thought
about and wondered what i might do if the opportunity ever presented
itself. Our eyes met..he had a knowing smirk on his face and then almost
as if i had no control over my actions i found myself on my knees.
He pressed his rod against my lips and i opened. I gagged and pulled
back but he held the back of my head and slid forward.
It was like some weird dream where i was giving a blow job and couldn't
wake up, or didn't want too. The next thing i knew Lee's hips were
moving back and forward like a piston. Then he slowed, wanting his
pleasure and my humiliation to last. He no longer found it necessary to
hold my head in place either.  He was doing his best to make it last but
finally he could hold off no longer and once again the piston.  I don't
remember how many times he spurted until my mouth was so filled with his
cum that i couldn't swallow it all, the rest running down the sides of
my mouth and it was over. He then arrogantly wiped his rod in my hair.
This was definitely not a new experience for him.
  I was red faced with shame and humiliation  and said,

"Lee, please don't ever tell anyone about this.
I never did anything like this before"

His reply,......"We'll see."

"Come on, don't say that. I'm begging you.
I'll do anything you say, i'll be your slave for life.
Anything."

This time....."I'll think about it."

"Thanks Lee. I mean it..anything."

Now he really had me by the balls.

  What a dilemma..this had gotten even beyond serious. For someone like
Lee to have this kind of hold over me was frightening.
What was really scarey was that before this i could have walked away,
now i had no choice at all.
 Sure i could deny it, It would be my word against his. But who would
they believe..Lee or his lackey.The way i did whatever he said and
practically kissed his ass they probably all thought i was blowing him
anyway. No, they would believe him, no doubt about it. I just had to do
whatever it took to keep him silenced about that. That was something
that could never be lived down, especially in a small town like mine.
  Then i thought, what the hell, i'm practically his slave now. This
will be really exciting. I mean for him to have unlimited power. Instead
of fear it was becoming a turn on. That's the way i felt when it came to
Lee. I hated him but there was no doubt in him i had met my master.
  I had come for the car keys but didn't have the nerve to ask for them
now. I was feeling uncomfortable after what had just happened and didn't
know what to say or do. Finally i said,
"Will you need me for anything this weekend."
Boy was i being humble.
"Yeah, i was going to tell you. We are going to the beach. Carter and i
want to have another race. The last time was fun..right?"
"Right, yeah sure, anything you say Lee.
Your the boss."
Fun for him and Carter, not so much for me and Worm. Definitely not fun,
but i had thought about it many times and it had been exciting.
Then a troubling thought, so i asked,
"Will the girls be going?"
"Sure they will. Why, you have a problem with that."
"No, no problem, i just wondered. Like i said, anything you say,
anything you want, your the boss."
He had a smirk on his face and said,
"That's right, and don't forget it..Toad."
   When i got to my room i couldn't sleep thinking about what had
happened, what i had done. It had been an incredible experience, the
most exciting experience of my life.
Despite the position it had put me in i wasn't sorry. I was ashamed, but
not sorry. If i could go back to that very moment I knew I would do it
again. In fact i was wondering if or more likely when, Lee might have
use for my services again as i now hoped he would.
  As i thought about the forthcoming race, i remembered what i had found
in the attic chest. I went down to the kitchen and got some brass polish
and leather cleaner..then the spurs and riding crop. I spent the rest of
the night cleaning and polishing the rusty spurs until they shined and
did the same with the old crop till it looked like new. I now had a
present for Lee.
I hoped he would be pleased. Somehow i knew he would be. It would be up
to him how my present would be used.

  The next morning when i heard splashing from Lee's pool i went right
over. He was alone and climbing out of the water. Because of his great
looks and perfect body i had always felt humble and inferior to him and
today was no different in that regard. But after last night there was a
new feeling in me. I felt vulnerable, totally at his mercy, and i knew
with Lee there was no mercy.
  After last night it was difficult to appear casual and i didn't know
where to begin or even how to make eye contact. When i finally did he
had a knowing smirk on his face.
  I had an idea how to bring up the spurs and crop, but i hesitated
thinking that i must be crazy to be even considering such a thing.
Then i looked at Lee, so arrogant, so superior and i thought of last
night and the compulsion to debase myself, to submit totally to him was
overwhelming. I actually felt i should be on my knees to him right then.
That was the effect he had on me.
  Lee's mother was interested in antiques, so i said,
"I found some old stuff in the attic. Maybe from world war one or
earlier. Your mother would probably know if they are antiques."
He was disinterested until i told him what they were. He then perked up
right away and said,
"Sounds interesting, go get them."
When i returned he was seated at a low patio table..there was no other
chair, so i knelt and placed the items on the table. He was definitely
interested.
  While he was inspecting them i heard the fence door open and turned to
see Kay.
I felt my face redden with embarrassment.
Here i was on my knees at lee's feet as he sat back comfortably in his
bikini with his legs crossed.
"Well, whats going on here."
she said mischievously.
I had not gotten over the feeling of despondency i felt each time i saw
her. The jealousy i felt knowing she was now Lee's and the pride i had
known when she had been mine. But there was also that strange excitement
of having turned over such a prize to Lee. Just weird mixed emotions
that i didn't understand.
  She seemed more sexy and beautiful every time i saw her and today more
so than ever. The bikini's seemed to be getting smaller and more
revealing. The dark glasses she wore gave her an exotic look and today
she wore a wide brimmed hat..just stunning.
  She picked up the riding crop and ran her fingers up and down it's
length saying,
"My this looks interesting and what are those?"
pointing to the spurs.
"Just some artifacts or maybe antiques that Toad brought over to show
me."
"Toad?" she said with amusement.
I cringed.
"Oh just a nickname i gave him."
"Oh you did, did you." She was obviously amused and no doubt even more
impressed with Lee than ever as she sat on his lap and placed her arms
around his neck, looking at him almost adoringly and totally oblivious
to me.
They seemed to be discussing me as if i were an inanimate object.

I made no attempt to rise. It was an incredible experience kneeling
there as they unashamedly began necking as i looked on. I must say i was
very surprised, even shocked at how quickly Kay had dismissed the
relationship we had for over a year and flaunted herself with Lee as i
looked on. It was as if we had never even known one another.
  After a while Lee said,
"Let's dive in, it's getting hot."
She looked down at the prominent bulge in his bikini and said,
"It certainly is." and laughed.
She had never been that risque. Lee was bringing out a Kay i hadn't
known.
I hadn't even kissed her on our first date.
  Then she said,
"O.K. let's go"
She straightened her leg and pointed her foot towards me saying,
"You don't mind, do you..Toad."
Unquestionably referring to the service performed for Dawn by Worm and
also she was acknowledging acceptance of my new identity as Toad, and
Lee's right to have planted that demeaning name on me.
I did mind the new name, but there was nothing i could do about that.
Lee wanted it and that was that. As to her request, I didn't mind at
all. This would be an opportunity to touch her again, even if only for a
few moments. Bizarre wasn't it. Just a couple of day's ago she had been
mine and now i felt grateful for the chance to just touch her, filled
with jealousy and knowing i had brought the whole affair to be.
  Lee's control over me was such that i actually looked at him for
acceptance. It's hard to understand i know, but i felt so subservient to
him that i felt i should not even touch what was now his.
He nodded his assent...Kay noticed.

This was turning out to be an incredibly exciting day. Kay was treating
me just as Dawn had treated Worm. I had thought about just such a
possibility and wondered what that might be like. It had become one of
my fantasies..
a very exciting one, and i actually hoped that Dawns bitchiness would
rub off on Kay.
Once again i thought of the old saying,
"Be careful what you wish for..you may get it."
  And then i had asked Lee's permission simply to touch her. Lee must
have loved that.
I had been her steady beau for over a year..
he had known her for a matter of days.
My subservience and his total mastery of me seemed to be growing by the
hour, and all with my very willing assistance.
  None of it of course could equal last nights events. That had to be
the ultimate in submission and degradation, but also pure excitement. I
wondered how Lee must have felt after such a conquest. Not that i would
have wanted to trade places with him. No that thought never entered my
mind. My place in this relationship was firmly established in my
thinking..and that was on my knees to Lee.
I didn't know why that was so..it just was.
  Last nights event was constantly in my thoughts and it even occurred
to me that if i had the choice of having Kay back or blowing Lee again,
i would choose the latter. I tried to push that thought out of my mind.
It just didn't seem natural. But then none of all this was natural.
  I knelt at Kay's feet and began to untie the string leather wrap
around cords as she looked down at me with an amused grin.
Her nail polish today was an emerald green.
I have already mentioned that her feet like the rest of her were
perfection. The two toes next to the largest were longer and then
graduated downward to the smallest.
I had occasionally at every opportunity  kissed her feet. It had been a
real turn on for me.
I was wondering if she was thinking about that now..probably yes.
I was thinking that would never happen again and that the next feet i
kissed would more likely be Lee's.
  I was taking my time savering the moment when Lee said,
"Hey whats going on over there."
Kay laughed and said,
"I thing he's having too much fun."
I felt my face flush and quickly completed my task.
  I hung around while they frolicked in the pool.
Lee's mother came out, she also wore a very brief bikini. An extremely
attractive woman.
She watched them for a while and said,
"My, Lee's new girlfriend is gorgeous. Don't you think so Robert."
"Yes ma'am."
And then she added,
"Didn't you bring her to the Pool party the other Nite."
She of course knew i had and said,
"Humm, interesting. I'm sure Lee must have thanked you for that."
"Yes ma'am."
She was gloating and enjoying it.
"Aren't you going in the water"
"No ma'am, i didn't wear my suit."
"Oh, then why don't you go in and fix lunch for the three of us. You
know where everything is."
I assumed the "three of us" meant them
and not me.
I fixed sandwiches and drinks and served them under a large umbrella
feeling and being treated like a house boy. They talked among themselves
and ignored me.
  Finally i said,
"I have to go now" and added "O.K?"
 Lee's mother looked to Lee for a response.
Lee said,
Yeah O.K., but don't forget where going to the beach tomorrow.
How could i forget. I had also not forgotten to leave the spurs and crop
on the chaise lounge.