From: rankamatr@aol.com (RankAmatr)
Subject: Have you committed incest? #9
Date: 22 Sep 1996 12:13:41 -0400

Of all the taboos in human society, incest may be the greatest.
No wonder, then, that it is also one of the best kept secrets....

We now know that incest is much more common than previously
imagined.  Many people first begin to fantasize sexually about
family members.  Cousins and siblings may help us explore
another person's body for the first time.

I want to hear from you if you have had sexual contact with a
family member, and what impact that had on your lives.  The story
doesn't have to be very long, or detailed, or even sexy.  Just
let me know:

        ...with whom (brother, niece, father, aunt)
        ...at what age
        ...who initated the activity
        ...and how you feel about it now
 
I assure you, the confidentiality of any information provided
will not be compromised.  If you have a story you would like 
to share, please send mail to RankAmatr@aol.com.

Here are a few of the stories I have received so far. Thank you.
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Starting when I was about 10 I spent several weekends over the course of 
several summers with my cousins who lived about 20 miles away in a small 
town.  My male cousin, Warren, who was about half a year younger, showed 
me how to masturbate, (which I kind of already had figured out,) and we 
would do it to each other every chance we got. 

My older cousin, John, who was about three years older, joined us 
occasionally, and would sometimes suck our dicks.  I was fasinated by 
their uncircumsised dicks and by the end of the summer we were all 
sucking each other every night I was there.  Sometimes we took turns and 
other times we would figure out ways to get in different positions to 
suck each other all at the same time.

John ejaculated semen, which was scant and I didn't mind swallowing.  
Warren's orgasms were dry, as were mine, at least the first summer and, 
I think, most of the second.

John fucked Warren in the ass a couple of times while I was present.  
John would sometimes allow Warren to recriprocate in his asshole, but 
would usually suck him instead, and sometimes would give him money 
afterward.  

I remember that they called anal sex "cornholing."  Warren let me 
cornhole him once in a while, which he seemed to enjoy.  I would not let 
either of them do that to me, although John never quit asking for it and 
would put his fingers up my butt while he was sucking me, which I didn't 
mind.  I wish, now, that I would have let them do it, at least once, so 
I would know what it felt like.

Their older sister, Eva, who was about 16 at that time, knew about our 
activities and would find opportunities to let us get glimpses of her 
naked body, ie, in the bathroom or when changing clothes in her bedroom. 
She had nice titties and a hairy pussy.  I suspect that John and Eva 
were having sex, but was never able to prove my suspicions.  

I often tried to have some kind of sex with Eva, but the closest I ever 
came was one night in the car on the way home from somewhere I stuck my 
hand under her skirt and played with her pussy in the dark.  She 
pretended to be asleep.  Even though I didn't know what I was doing, 
exactly, I got my finger inside her vagina and got her wet.  

That same year, when we were taking a bath together, I showed my younger 
brother, who was seven, how to masturbate and, later, I sucked his dick. 
With a little encouragement he would suck mine, but he would tend to 
lose attention after a short time until I figured out how to mutually 
suck each other in the 69 position.  That way he came to realize that if 
he quit sucking mine, I would quit sucking his.  Often, my brother would 
initiate sex by asking me if I was "hungry" which led to us sneaking off 
together to one of several isolated spots we used to have sex.

Sex with my cousins was an occasional thing after a few summers, but I 
continued to have sex with my brother regularly for several years after 
that.  

I had him fuck me in the ass a couple of times, but he said he preferred 
having me suck him.  He would never let me fuck his ass, and I didn't 
press the issue.  He would let me put fingers up his ass while I sucked 
him, like my cousin had done to me.

The reason we finally quit was because my parents found out and we got 
the big lecture from them and our church Pastor.  After that we had to 
sleep in seperate bedrooms and were watched all the time when we were 
together so it was pretty hard to get together for sex, although we 
managed to do so once in a while.

Today, my brother and I are practicing heterosexuals and neither of us, 
to my knowledge, have had sex with any other males outside the family.

I did run into Warren when I was in College.  We took a couple six-packs 
back to his apartment.  After a few beers, he wanted to have sex, so we 
got naked and had mutual oral sex.  I was kind of put off by his hairy 
body and his cock was, of course, adult sized and I had trouble fitting 
it in my mouth.  When he came in my mouth I almost gagged.  

Afterwards, he wanted me to fuck him in the asshole, but I was too 
grossed out and couldn't get another hard-on.  I wouldn't even consider 
letting him cornhole me.  He was pretty disappointed, and he's never 
contacted me since then.

As an aside, I find the pictures of naked young boys on the newsgroups 
to be sexually exciting, but grown men don't do anything for me.  I 
would probably be open to a sexual experience with a young teen boy, but 
the risk of getting in deep trouble with the law make it not even worth 
considering.

I consider my sexual experiences with my family members to have been a 
positive thing.  I learned a lot and have a tolerance for gays and 
lesbians that a lot of people I've met don't have.
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Hope this helps:

My mother worked 2nd shifts at a factory after i started jr high 
school, and my father used to be in charge of seeing that i did my
homework, then bathed and went to bed on time.  As a girl i used to
parade around the house nude at bedtime, and didn't realize the effect 
it was having on my father as i reached menarche.

At one point he got very flustered when i walked into the bathroom on 
him, naked and began brushing my teeth.  He kept staring at my breasts, 
and i remember feeling what i now know is arousal.  

A couple nights later i was masterbating in bed when he came in to kiss 
me goodnight and caught me.  I knew he had seen me, but he didn't say 
anything about it, just the usual things, talking about our day, family 
chit-chat.  But his hug that night was more intense and he stayed 
sitting on my bed caressing me.  i let him continue, but eventually he 
just kissed me and left.  

This continued for some time, with the caressing taking more and more 
time till finally he was touching me breasts and vagina, and bringing me 
to orgasm.  I was only 13 at the time.  It became our nightly ritual, 
and ocassionally at first started even before i got ready for bed.  

At some point i noticed he was rubbing himself while he got me off, and 
i asked him what he was doing, pretty much knowing, but not all the 
details.  So he told me, and i asked him to show me, and could i do it 
for him like he did for me.  Well this went on for a while, with me 
looking forward to our nightly sessions.  Finally i had to ask him to 
fuck me.  After that we were lovers, almost every night.  We have been
lovers ever since, even when i was dating, and since i've been married. 
it continues to be the best sex i've ever had, and it is entirely 
possible that some of my kids may be his. 
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I hope this helps:

When I was about 13 & my cousin Hayley was 11, her brother Glenn about 
7 or 8, we would play games whereby Hayley would end up naked & usually 
I (Occasionally Glenn) would rub her pussy or lick it. I was the one 
who started it, and no-one suffered from it.

At 15, I started undressing my 8-year-old sister. Eventually, it got to 
the point where I would lick her ass & pussy & she would suck my dick. 
The last time was when my brother caught us. He said nothing to mom or 
dad, but we stopped nonetheless. I think she's now forgotten about it, 
but I still fantasize about her.
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My sister and i when we were about 6 or 7'ish were still having baths 
together, and we used to play things like house, like any other 
children. but this lead to "boyfriend and girlfriend" my sister seemd 
to know more about sex at the time then i did, and this soon lead to us 
trying to have sex. we didn;t know enough about it to get full 
penetration. but it still felt good. with in a few years all sexual 
contact had stoped. i tried to re initiate it, but it almost seems like 
my sister has forgoten it all. It has left me with a strange attraction 
for my sister even to this day, and if presented with the chance to do 
something again. i would.

I hope this helps yer survey. and i would appreciate getting back other 
letters you have recieved. as i am interested also in the effect icest 
has on people at later ages. and other such things.

[Ed. note: I don't redistribute mail.  If it's interesting, you'll see
it here.]
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If you have an incest experience you would like to share, please
send it to:  RankAmatr@aol.com.  Anonymity guaranteed.

[Thanks to 548@prostar.com who started this survey.]
"You can't do this to me ... I'm a tourist ... I'm an American ... I'm a
Republican!"
 -- Daulton Lee (Sean Penn), Falcon & the Snowman