Date: Thu, 15 Jul 2004 13:38:56 -0300
From: ottootto@fastmail.fm
Subject: The Parkers 19

Chapter 19 - Being gay

Matt Parker couldn't wait to get back home, after school, that Monday
morning. He arrived as soon as possible and, when he did, he quickly said:

"Jack, we need to talk."

"What? Why?"

"Upstairs, bro."

As Jack was going upstairs, Matt told everybody:

"No one interrupt us."

Lucy asked:

"What's the problem, son?"

"No problem. I just have to talk to him. Everything's okay, it's just a
little thing. Late I'll talk to you."

Lucy was a little worried. But hell, they were teenagers, she had not
sensed any rage in Matt's tone, so everything was okay. Soon she started to
think about the things she would do and see that night. With Roger and his
brother. Wow!

In the bedroom, things were not as easy between brothers. Jack had not gone
to school that morning. His grades were too good, and his parents didn't
even ask him why. If the boy didn't want to go to school, okay, as long as
his grades were good. After all, it was just a day, right?

Obviously, no one knew that Jack didn't want to go back to school so
soon. Or ever. After his failure with Kate Shaw, Friday night, he was too
ashamed.

But Matt knew. And Jack knew it. From his tone.

They went to Matt's bedroom, and Matt sat on the bed. He told his younger
brother:

"Sit down."

"What do you want?"

"Sit down!"

Jack sat next to Matt. And asked:

"What?"

"I want to know what happened between you and that cunt Kate Shaw Friday
night."

Jack almost had a heart attack. He didn't want to talk about that. He said
nothing, he was almost crying, but he couldn't.

"That's why you didn't go to school today, isn't it?"

Again, Jack said nothing.

"Jack... Are you gay?"

"No!"

"Because, if you are, that's okay with me. I... I have a confession to
make, Jack. Look at me. Jack... I'm bisexual."

"What?"

"I'm bisexual."

"What's that? First Julie, then Laurie, now you... What the fuck?"

"Look, Jack, I have no problems with it. I like both girls and boys, okay?
So, I'll ask you again: Are you gay?"

"No. I mean... I don't know."

"Kate talked to me, and he said some bad things about you. She called you a
faggot, she said your dick is small and everything. I told the cunt to shut
up, and later I'll think on what I'll do to her, but I was more worried
about you. Talk to me, Jack. I think you just need to talk to someone."

Jack started to cry:

"She's right, you know? I tried to fuck her, I wanted to fuck her, but my
dick is too small, and then it got soft, I guess I cannot fuck. I guess I'm
gay, I don't know, it should not get soft."

"Look, Jack, I know Kate. She's hot, yes, but she's a bitch. I've fucked
her a couple of times, but she does a lot of things that turn me off. Why
do you think she can't find a boyfriend?"

"It's my dick. It's too small, Matt!"

"Let's take a look at it."

"What? No."

"Come on, Jack. I know cocks, you need someone to tell you if you really
have a problem, or if it's only in your mind."

"No."

"Jack. Come on, bro. You'll have to go to school again, eventually, and you
will see her again, and... It will be easier if you know that's nothing
wrong with you. Let me see."

Jack removed his pants. And, then, his boxers. And showed his cock to his
brother. Matt saw it, and did not resist:

"It's soft. I have to see it hard."

So Matt held Jack's cock and started to stroke it.

"What... What are you doing?"

"I told you, I need to see it hard."

And, indeed, Jack's cock was quickly getting hard. Matt smiled. Jack was
feeling so good that he thought he had to be gay. Funny enough, he wasn't
scared. Matt knew what he was doing, he was trying to help, and Jack knew
Matt would never try anything gay with him; after all, they were
brothers. But, he kinda wanted Matt to try something.

When Jack's cock was completely hard, Matt said:

"Well, it seems normal to me."

"Isn't it too small?"

"No. It's normal size."

"Yours are much bigger, isn't it?"

"Not that much, no. Maybe an inch, or two, I'm not sure."

Matt didn't want to leave anything for imagination, so he removed his
clothes. All his clothes.

Then he sat next to Jack, again. His cock was semi-hard, so he started to
stroke it.

"I need to be hard for us to compare," he explained.

As Jack watched Matt masturbating, he almost did it too. But he
couldn't. He was afraid he might cum.

Obviously, Matt noticed it. But said nothing.

In a minute, both of them were hard. And Matt said:

"See? Just an inch or so bigger. And my cock is big. Yours is completely
normal. You can fuck anyone with it, I had already guys with cocks like
yours. No problem."

Jack blushed. And asked:

"Were you serious when you said you're bisexual?"

"Sure! Look, I don't want anyone to know, at least not now, but... If I
have a gay brother, he has the right to know."

"I don't know if I'm gay. I mean, I like to look at girls in magazines. And
porn videos."

"Jack... Do you have any curiosity about having sex with men?"

"Yes. I kind of wondered about Greg and Troy, this last couple of days."

"I see. Well, I think you should try."

"I could never... Do anything about it."

"Do you want to have sex with girls?"

"Yes. I don't know why I couldn't, but..."

"Hey, man, Kate's full of shit. She probably did it to you, and made you
blame yourself, it's her fault. Are you a virgin?"

"Yes."

"Well... Look, Jack, you failed. Okay? There's no reason to lie to you. You
tried to fuck a girl and you couldn't, so you failed. Even if, as I
believe, it was her fault, you failed. So you have to try again. You need
some success, as fast as possible, or this thing will scare you through the
rest of your life."

"I don't think I... I mean, I... I... I'm always nervous around girls, I
don't know what... What to say to them. I blew my only chance."

"You have to try again. If you want to have sex with men, try it. After
that, you'll probably be more comfortable around girls."

"I can't ask Greg or Troy to... Fuck me."

"Well, I think you're pretty, Jack. And my cock's hard, and so is yours,
and we're not touching them for several minutes, now. And I'm bi. So? Do
you want to try?"

"You're my brother! No!"

"Jack. Look. There's no romance between us. I would like to fuck, in fact,
I will try to fuck a girl tonight, but I would also like to have some sex
right now. And I think you need to fuck as soon as possible. So?"

"I... I can't."

"May I just suck your cock? We'll see if it stays hard. Just that."

Jack wanted to accept the offer. He truly believed he was gay, he had to be
gay, that was the only explanation for his behavior Friday night,
but... Could he? I mean, it is a big step.

"I don't know."

"Tell me if you don't like it."

And then Matt Parker went down on his little brother. Jack's cock was hard,
and Matt didn't suck a hard cock since Friday afternoon.

And Matt knew how to suck a cock! He had the experience, he knew when to
move his lips, when to really suck it, when to lick it... He knew where he
should lick, and the result could be only one:

"Oh, Matt!"

Matt licked Jack's peehole and asked:

"So? Is it good?"

"Yes."

And Jack blushed again.

"Well, let's get comfortable, okay. Take all of your clothes off."

He did. And they went to bed. Again, Matt put his brother's cock in his
mouth. And sucked it.

"Oh, Matt! Yes! It is good! So good!"

Jack could not believe it. That blowjob was everything he always hoped a
blowjob would be. Everything. It was so much better than Kate's. Jack knew
he was gay and, if he was, he should better enjoy it. His hips started to
move. He was being sucked by his big brother, and it felt so good!

Matt was so excited! Let's face it, he was, really, trying to help his
brother, and everything he had said was true. He thought that Jack should
try to fuck again, as soon as possible, or he would be too scared. But, in
the meantime, he was sucking his brother's cock! And Jack seemed to like
it. Well, of course he was, who wouldn't? Matt even started to wonder about
fixing Jack and Sally. Yes, first Sally, now Jack... Maybe, one of these
days, he could get his hands on Martin, Laurie, Julie, Linda or, even,
Amy. Yes!

"Oh, Matt! Yes, you know what you're doing! This is too good!"

If Jack couldn't stop thinking when he was with Kate, everything was
different with Matt. He knew what was happening, his big brother was
sucking his cock, but... That seemed okay. In his mind, it made more sense
than his attempts with Kate. He wasn't thinking too much, not anymore. He
was just enjoying his sensations. He wouldn't put his hand on Matt's head,
if he was thinking.

Matt felt his brother's hand. And he knew that the battle was over. He
would suck Jack until Jack came.

And he did everything. He deep-throated Jack. He lick the underside of his
cock, he licked his balls, he licked the peehole. Jack was not the first
boy Matt seduced, he knew what he was doing.

When Matt started to play with Jack's balls, Jack lost control.

He came!

Jack was a little ashamed. He had never had an orgasm induced by someone
else, he had no idea he was so close, he knew he should have warned Matt,
but... He didn't.

Matt didn't mind. He swallowed everything, and licked the cockhead in
search for more. Then, he said:

"Wow! You came really hard and fast!"

"Sorry. Was it wrong?"

"Oh, no, it just showed me that you liked it, that's all."

"So... I guess I'm gay, uh?"

"I guess you're bisexual. But that's okay, it just proves that you cum when
someone sucks your cock. There's nothing wrong with this. In fact,
everything is too right."

Matt smiled. And Jack asked:

"Now... Do you want me to... Do the same for you?"

"Well, if you want, yes! Sure! Why not? But only if you can, you owe me
nothing, bro. I already had my reward when you came in my mouth. That's all
I wanted. Well, if you get hard again, if you want to fuck my ass, that's
okay."

"I... I... May I touch your cock?"

"Oh, sure! Be my guest, Jack!"

Jack held Matt's cock. And started to move his hand, up and down, he knew
how to do it, but it was so different to do it with someone else! And
Matt's cock was much bigger than his. But it was too exciting to stop.

"Yes, Jack, that's it! Oh, you have lots of experience masturbating, uh?"

Jack looked at Matt. Matt answered:

"That's okay, so do I!"

That's what Jack liked about Matt. Matt had no fear. He was saying
everything, and everything (Jack could tell) was true. Unlike Kate, Matt
wasn't trying to be superior. He was just being himself, and he didn't make
a big deal of it, and that made it easy for Jack to not make a big deal
either. If he liked men, so be it. Matt did, and it was obvious that he was
not worried or disturbed. He just relaxed and enjoyed. For instance, while
Jack was jacking his brother off, Matt had his eyes closed and was moaning:

"Yes, yes, that's it... Hm, bro, your hand's so hot! Yes. Oh."

And, if it wasn't a big deal, Jack found the nerve to do it. He put his
lips around Matt's shaft.

Then Matt opened his eyes. He said nothing, he decided to leave Jack
alone. Pressure could only ruin this moment.

And Jack sucked Matt's cock. Once. It was a funny feeling. First, it wasn't
unpleasant. In fact, it felt kinda nice. To have a big cock between his
lips. He had already wondered about it, and... It was maybe even better
than he expected.

Jack started to move his head. He decided to suck on it, really suck on,
and Matt's aproval was obvious:

"Hm!"

Jack looked up. He saw Matt. And, with his brother's cock in his mouth,
Jack blushed.

Matt said:

"If you want, keep doing it, because it's very good."

Jack thought about it for a second but... Hell, he liked what he was doing,
Matt liked it, why should he stop?

He moved his head, up and down, around Matt's big cock.

"Lick it, Jack! Lick my cockhead!"

Jack took Matt's cock out of his mouth. It was wet, thanks to his
salive. He saw the cockhead, and it was also wet, thanks to both salive and
precum. Jack licked it.

"Oh, Jack! Do you like what you're doing?"

"Yes. Funny enough, yes."

"Lick my peehole, Jack! Yes! Oh."

Jack was no longer ashamed. He was having his first taste of cock, and it
was exciting. He understood that he probably was gay, and saw no problem
with that. He was learning that he could do many good things just being
gay.

He was also realizing that, despite his true interest on girls (he had
masturbated watching them so many times), this thing, gay sex, was
something he had wondered about for years. And that Monday afternoon, at
last, he was trying.

Jack sucked Matt's cock, again. And, this time, he tried his best to use
his tongue while he did it, like Matt had done to him minutes before.

Jack, being a virgin, without any experience, was a little like Amy. He
didn't know exactly what he was doing, he didn't know how to get the best
of his mouth and tongue, but...

It was exciting. He was a 16 year-old guy tasting a cock for the first
time, and he was getting better at it as the seconds gone by.

And he was Matt's little brother. That, enough, was already enough to
excite Matt.

"Harder, Jack! Suck it harder and I'll cum, you'll see! Oh, bro, you're
gonna make me cum, I can't believe this!"

Jack was excited by that. He had surely been a failure to Kate, but he
wasn't to Matt. Like Matt had said, it was important to succeed as fast as
possible. He had only one worry, but Matt made him comfortable by saying:

"I promise you I'll let you know when I'm ready, so you'll take my cock out
of your mouth. But keep going! Yes!"

Yes, that was all Jack needed to know. Now, he did his best to make his
brother cum as fast as possible.

Then, Matt said:

"Push a finger into my ass!"

Jack was surprised, but excited. He stopped sucking Matt, so he could find
his brother's asshole, found it and inserted his middle finger into it.

It entered so easily, and it was so hot that Jack's cock got instantly
hard. This was hot. He put Matt's cock in his mouth again and sucked it as
hard as possible.

"Fingerfuck me, Jack! Fingerfuck my ass! Yes!"

Yes, Jack was fingerfucking Matt, as he sucked that big cock. Yes, this was
fun. Yes, this was exciting. Yes, this was much better than his experience
with Kate had been.

"Take it out, Jack! I'm ready to shoot!"

Jack took it out of his mouth and used his left hand, while his right hand
was still working in Matt's ass. It was beautiful.

And, then, it became more beautiful. Matt came, and Jack saw the wonderful
show of his cock cumming. Matt's sperm fell on his belly and chest, and it
was fantastic. Jack almost put that cock in his mouth again. But he
didn't. He look to Matt, and Matt was smiling:

"Wow! This was great."

And, that said, Matt ran his finger of his chest, took some of his jism,
and licked his finger. He tasted himself.

And Jack did almost the same thing. He used his finger on Matt's belly,
took some oh his jism and tasted his finger. When he did, he couldn't
believe that he had took that cock out of his mouth. Why? Well, it was his
loss.

So the two brothers just spent the next few minutes laughing, taking jism
from Matt's chest and putting it into their mouths.

Then Matt did the unthinkable. He crossed the line. He kissed Jack. French
kissed.

Jack was a little scared:

"What?"

And Matt understood:

"Sorry, I... It was just an impulse. Please, don't get mad."

"No. No. I'm not... Mad. I was just... S.... S... S... Surprised."

"Okay."

They remained in silence for a minute or two, then Jack said:

"I liked it."

"I'm glad. You see, now if you have another opportunity with a girl, or a
guy, you must..."

"I liked the kiss, too."

"Oh."

And Jack kissed his brother.

That was the last line. They said nothing for five minutes, just made out,
Jack on top of Matt. When they broke the kiss, Matt asked:

"Hey, for how long do you have such a boner?"

"Since I fingerfucked you."

"You're kidding me!"

"No. I mean it. And it stayed hard!"

For Jack, this was already a victory.

"Well, then it's time to make it soft. What about... What about fucking for
the first time?"

"What do you mean? Your ass?"

Matt smiled:

"Yup."

Jack remembered the last time he tried to put his cock into an asshole. A
total failure. But, that time, he wasn't as hard as Monday. And he wasn't
as comfortable. And Kate was talking all that shit.

"Would you take it? For me?"

"No, I want to take it for me. I want to take it because I want to feel
good! And I want you to make me feel good."

"Yeah, but is my cock enough?"

"It sure is!"

Matt didn't give much time for Jack to think about it. He got on his hands
and kness, on the bed, and offered his asshole:

"Come in, bro. Come in and make yourself comfortable. Please. I'm asking."

Jack wondered about it for a second. But Matt was right. It was his chance
to succeed, and Jack knew it. Plus, he wanted to try his brother's ass.

So he got himself in the right position. This time, his instincts were
right and he used his hand to guide his cock. He put it right at the
entrance of Matt's asshole. And asked:

"Are you ready?"

"Are you kidding me? Put it in!"

Jack did it. Maybe a little faster than he should, but that was okay. Matt
could take it. Soon, it was all inside Matt.

"Okay, bro, just a tip: next time, go a slower when you first push it,
okay? But now it's inside, and you can fuck me. Please, do!"

A little worried, Jack started to slowly fuck his brother's asshole. It was
so hot, and so different than his hand used to be. Jack always expected
that fucking would be like masturbating, and he was surprised to feel that
Matt's ass was more than just a tube. It was such a nice surprise...

"Okay, Jack, you can fuck me harder. You can fuck me as hard as you want,
I'm used to it."

And Jack fucked him harder. Yes, this was good, very good! Jack couldn't
say anything about taking it in the ass, but he could see why Matt loved to
fuck an ass, male or female. He had a good reason.

"So, Jack... Is it as good for you as it is for me?"

"Yes. It's much better than I expected. It's different, too. But it's
hot. And it feels so good, Matt!"

"You can fuck me as long as you want, bro. Just keep fucking me because, if
it's good for you, it's great for me."

"Really?"

"Hold my cock."

And Jack, still fucking his brother's ass, moved his right hand, until he
found it. It was hard. Very hard.

"Wow! Is it like this because I'm fucking you?"

"You can bet it is. Not just that, you're fucking me so well... Just a
little harder, Jack! Yes! That's it! Oh, keep going!"

Jack couldn't believe it! Here he was, fucking his brother's ass, and it
was such a receptive ass! Matt was shaking his ass, trying to get the best
of Jack's cock, and he was succeeding.

And, if Matt's asshole felt so good around his cock, Matt's cock felt so
good in his hand! Jack started to stroke it.

"Yes, Jack! Play with my cock! Fuck my ass! This is good, too good, shit,
I'm gonna cum again!"

"Yes, me too! Your ass, Matt... Your ass is going to make me cum again!"

"Yes, don't you love this?"

"Yes, Matt... Yes, I love it. This is the best, oh! Yes, I love to fuck
your ass!"

"And I love to be fucked in the ass!"

Matt could see that Jack was more relaxed now. More than that, Jack was
confident. Without any word, Jack started to fuck really hard. His fantasy
of a great fuck was now a reality, and Jack felt like the stud he always
wanted to be:

"Take it, bro! Take my cock in your ass! Take my cock deep in your ass, you
love it, tell me!"

"Yes, Jack! Yes, I love it! Yes, that's good, too good, that's... Wow! Fuck
me! Fuck that ass, man, fuck me in the ass! Yes, like that, like that, oh,
Jack!"

"Do you like it, Matt? Do you like the way I fuck your ass? Do you like my
hand on your cock?"

"Yes! Yes! Faster! Faster, I wanna cum!"

Matt meant that he wanted Jack's hand to move faster, and Jack did it, but
he also fucked Matt's ass a little faster.

And Matt did not complain:

"Yes, oh, that's it! Oh, Jack, yes, yes, keep going, my! Yes, fuck me,
deep, Jack, oh!"

Jack was almost losing, too. He could feel his orgasm arriving. And, as
great as the blowjob had been, he knew he would cum harder this
time. During the blowjob, he was still a little nervous, a little worried,
a little ashamed.

But, fucking his brother's ass, Jack was no longer worried. He wanted to
try everything, he was so satisfied to himself, at that moment, fucking,
and fucking without any problem, his cock was hard, in fact it felt harder
than ever, and he had no guilt. The pleasure was too much for guilt.

Matt Parker, his brother, was giving him what no girl had ever
given. Confidence. He felt powerful, fucking his brother's ass.

And he started to wonder about the other side. About taking it in his
ass. Could it be that good? His asshole was so tight!

But that wasn't the moment to think about it. It was the moment to enjoy
Matt's ass all around his cock. It was the moment to enjoy Matt's hard
prick in his hand.

Until the moment when that cock was no longer hard.

Because Matt came first.

"Yes, yes, fuck, Jack, yes, I'm cumming! Oh, I'm cumming!"

And Jack could feel, in his hand, that cock cumming. He could feel it, like
he had felt minutes before, and how he had felt so many times before,
during all those countless times when he masturbated. He felt Matt's cock
cumming!

And, again, he cursed himself for losing his brother's jizz.

But, on the other hand, it made him feel more powerful than ever. He had
made his brother cum! There was nothing wrong with Jack Parker, he knew it!

He released Matt's cock and held Matt's hips. Hard. And fucked his
brother's asshole, as hard as he could. He had to finish this, and he knew
he would, there was no doubt in his mind.

"Yes, Jack, yes, fuck me, fuck me, until you cum! My ass is good, isn't
it?"

"Yes, Matt! It's wonderful! It feels great around my cock! Take it, bro,
cause I'm gonna cum soon!"

"Yes, cum in my ass, cum deep in my ass! So deep in my ass, please, Jack,
please, cum! Fuck me, yes! Oh!"

"Oh, Matt, I never knew! I never knew my brother's ass could be so good!
Oh, my! Shit! Shit, I'm gonna cum!"

"Cum, Jack, cum, deep in my ass, cum!"

"Yes! Yes! Oh!"

"Cum in my ass, bro! Please, cum in my ass, I want to feel your hot spunk
deep in my ass!"

"Yes, oh! Yes!"

Yes, he came! Oh, he came. Yes, he came deep. Oh, it felt so good, Jack
could hardly breathe. He took his cock out of Matt's ass. Oh, it felt so
good.

He did it. Sex. Jack Parker just had sex, yes! And it felt so good.

He kissed Matt. And said:

"Thank you. Thank you for being so wonderful."

"So? Are you still scared?"

"No. Not anymore. Thanks. Now I'm wondering about taking it in my ass. How
about that? Will you be my first?"

"Not today, bro. I'm spent, and I have a date tonight. But..."

Tuesday, Matt would have Sally and her girlfriend, unless Sally failed on
seducing a girl, which Matt doubted.

"Maybe tomorrow. But maybe Wednesday. You have to think about it. I want
you to be sure if you're really ready. I want you to be prepared. And I may
even get a girl to you. I think you must try one, I think you want to try
one."

"Yes. Yes, I do."

Obviously, Matt had already a girl in mind: Sally Parker, their older
sister. But he couldn't tell Jack. So he said:

"So. But think about it. You have to. I want you to be sure, next
time. Completely sure."

Matt kissed Jack again, for the last time that Monday. After that, they got
dressed.

And, funny enough, Jack quickly went to the bathroom. He had to take a
bath, he had to be alone for a few minutes.

He decided his fears were part of the past, now. He knew he could have sex,
good sex. He knew he could make someone (other than himself) cum.

He was more confident. And he promised himself he would be more confident
and even more agressive with his next girl. His first girl. He promised
himself he would make her cum.

Of course, he didn't know that the first girl he would fuck was his sister.


Next week: Trying girls

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