Date: Sun, 23 Jun 2019 08:58:18 +0100 From: Reickard Masters Subject: Caleb 37 This work is copyright protected © 2018. You may not copy or reproduce it in anyway whatsoever without the express permission of the owner. Caleb Chapter 37 The day Caleb made his decision that he was gay he stayed up to wait for his mum to return home from work so that he could tell her. He had just helped Sheila use the loo and was sitting on her bed when Judy arrived home. "Goodness! Why are you still up?" Judy asked. She showed no anger but clearly she was concerned because this was not like Caleb at all. "I have something to tell you and I want you to hear it from me before anyone else." Caleb said. "Okay, this sounds important. Do you want to tell me in private or go ahead in here?" Judy asked. "Here's okay, Sheila already knows anyway." Caleb said. "I see. Do I need to sit down or is it not that shocking?" Judy asked. "Please can you sit down so that I can be level with you." Caleb asked. Judy sat down in the chair she had spent many long hours in, during those first few weeks, after bringing Sheila home from the hospital following the accident. Caleb looked directly at his mother and began, "I hope you won't be disappointed but I'm sure I'm gay." "I'm not disappointed at all. I thought you might be leaning that way with some of the things that have been said and done. It doesn't change anything at all. I still love you as much as I can and that will never change. I still want you to be happy and have what's best for you. And I will treat Mark just the way I've been treating him already. He is your boyfriend isn't he?" Judy was smiling as she said it. "How did you know? I didn't know until today." Caleb asked. "Come over here and give your mother a hug. I didn't know for sure, but when you talk about Mark your tone of voice changes and your eyes sparkle just that little bit more." Judy told him. Caleb did as he was asked and hugged his mother with great love. "You're saying I was already in love with Mark without even knowing I was gay?" "That's the way it happens sometimes. But I think it takes someone who knows you well to be able to spot it." Judy said. "Did you see that as well?" Caleb turned to Sheila. "Some time ago. Mum and I have talked about it for a couple of weeks." Sheila admitted. "Caleb, thank you for making sure I was not the last to hear. I do appreciate that very much. Now you'd best be getting off to bed or you'll really struggle at school tomorrow." Judy said. "I did ask Mark to make sure his parents didn't say anything to anyone until I let him know that I've told you. But I didn't want to wait until tomorrow morning either." "I understand that, but now off to bed please." Judy ended the conversation. Judy was right; Caleb did struggle at school the next day in more ways than one. He was tired and found concentrating much harder. He also found his mind drifting off into a space inhabited solely by him and Mark with not a care to trouble them. When he met up with the group at a break time, he was pleased that none of the girls were with them because Mark basically outed both of them, "Guys, we're going to need your help please. Caleb is now officially my boyfriend and it's going to be hard to make sure that doesn't show at school. If you see us doing anything that could let the cat out the closet please stop us." "For a starter you can stop staring dreamily at Caleb. That gives away one side of the pair straight off." Allan said. "And perhaps you should always have at least one person between the two of you. You guys spend too much time standing so close you are as good as touching." Ewan said. "By the way, I'm happy for both of you." "We'll have your back covered as much as we can." Simon added. "Congratulations." "You better not let the three girls in my year know anything. I don't know how good they will be at keeping it quiet. They haven't done too well on some other things." Caleb added. "Does your sister know?" Ewan asked. "Of course. And my mum. And Mark's parents." Caleb said. "I'm glad you've been able to tell your parents. I know how hard it was to tell dad about my issue with the girls, but I was so relieved after I had got it off my chest and he just supported me – no mocking or laughing or anger; just love." Ewan said. "Actually I think we've all seen that our parents aren't as bad as we believed them to be." "I wish I could tell my parents." Graeme said. "I don't even think I could tell Brian or Michelle." "Well, at least you're allowed to come round to my place after school today." Ronnie said. "We'll have some fun." As they were returning to their classes after the break, Natasha joined the group and then pulled Caleb to the side to asked if she could talk to him privately in the next break. Caleb agreed, and they settled on meeting behind the Science block. It was open enough that they would be able to see anyone approaching before they could be overheard. For the lessons leading up to that break Caleb had possible ideas popping into his head as to what Natasha wanted to talk to him about, which made concentrating even harder. But he had to wait till the break time to discover if he was right or not. Once they felt they were in a safe enough place Natasha began, "You know you said you'd listen if I wanted to talk. Was that all you were offering?" "I don't know if I'm able to offer anything more. I don't have a lot of experience and no training in counselling or anything like that." Caleb began. "No, that's just it. You know I'm seeing a professional counsellor and she has suggested I try something if I can find a willing helper." Natasha said. "Well I did say I would help in whatever way I can but I'm not sure there is much I can do except to listen and be a shoulder to cry on if you need that." "Okay, I need to give you the detail and we'll see from there what can be done. You've seen the pictures and vids..." "Only a tiny bit of them, remember. I didn't go at them whole hog." Caleb interrupted her. "Yeah, but you have an idea of what was happening to me." Natasha said, "Okay, it was not fun. I didn't like being forced to let those men do that sort of thing to me. But I did like the feelings; the orgasms and the tickles. There was one man who never actually fucked me. In fact he never even took his clothes off. All he did was use his fingers and tongue to make me cum. I kind of liked that except that I was not given a choice in it. Ever since that stopped, I've kind of missed the feelings part of it and doing it myself just isn't the same. I was kind of wondering if you'd be prepared to help me get some of that fun part back." "You mean you want me to masturbate you till you cum?" Caleb asked in surprise. "Yeah. Or maybe even fuck me if you'd like to try that too." Natasha said. Caleb stayed silent for a while as he thought it over. "I know that I won't be the first girl you've seen naked because I overheard Jasmine and Carol talking one day and I think they were both naked and you gave each of them a cum. But I don't mind that. I just want to get that good feeling again." "I can't give you an answer right now. I can tell you that I won't fuck you. I want my fucking to be with someone I love and intend to spend the rest of my life with. Also I will have to check with someone because I don't want him to get upset about it." "Him? You've got a boyfriend?" Natasha asked. "Please, I shouldn't have said that. Please you can't tell anyone else." Caleb begged. "You know that I can keep a secret just as well as you can. Don't worry; I don't want to see you get beat up for being gay. But I'm a little confused, how come you can finger the others but not me without getting your boyfriend's agreement?" "Because, when I was with those two girls, I didn't have a boyfriend, and didn't even know I was gay, or maybe bi." Caleb told Natasha. "Oh, so the boyfriend is quite new. So would it bother you to do stuff with me?" Natasha asked. "I have to be honest and admit that I find doing stuff with boys much better than doing it with girls, but I don't dislike doing it with girls. It would only bother me now, if my boyfriend didn't want me to do it." "Okay, I understand that. What if you talk to your boyfriend and then let me know? Does your boyfriend know me?" "He knows who you are, but he doesn't know it's you on those flash drives even though he has an idea of what's on them." Caleb told her. "I'm guessing then that your boyfriend is Mark. If I'm right I think I can trust him as much as I can trust you. You can explain to him what this is all about and let him know I trust him to keep it private." "What makes you think Mark is my boyfriend?" Caleb asked. "The way he goes when he is near you. He clearly loves you and practically worships the ground you walk on. And even now, when you said his name, your voice changed and your eyes sparkled." Natasha was smiling as she told Caleb that. "Shit! How many others have noticed that?" Caleb said. "Not many. Other than most of the guys in your group. Although Graeme and Ronnie seem to only have eyes for each other so they might not have noticed. I don't think any of the others in our year group would have noticed because they only see you and don't hear you talking about Mark." Natasha showed some insight that might have come about as a side effect of her abuse "Hopefully you're right because then it'll be okay. Only don't tell Jas and Carol. They didn't keep me doing stuff with them very secret if you found out about it." "Well that's what gave me the courage to approach you about it. It was knowing that it wasn't exactly something strange to you." Natasha said. "Okay then, I'd like to help you if you think that it'll be good for you, but I want you to be sure this is really what you want before I speak to Mark." Caleb said. "I'm definitely sure. Jane, that's my counsellor, said I might find, if I try it, that it's too hard for me, but that it might just help me to learn that sex can also be fun. Would it upset you if we tried and I found I couldn't go through with it?" "No. If you find it too hard to take, then just say so and we stop. That's been our rule for all our things already." Caleb assured her. "I'll let you know once I've had a talk with Mark, Okay?" "Thanks, I can't believe that I never noticed that there were so many nice people around me and you're one of the best." Natasha said. "You had a lot of other things clouding your judgement and knowing a bit about that now, helps me to understand why you struggled so much with us." Caleb said. "How do you do it? I was a class A bitch to you all, and now you just say I `struggled'?" Natasha asked. "Maybe because of what I've had to go through, I have more feeling or understanding for others. Some of the others seem to think that anyway." Caleb answered. "What do you mean? What have you been through?" Natasha asked. "I don't have time to tell you now. Maybe we can talk again another day." Caleb said. "But we'll have to be careful or Graeme might get jealous. After all, he befriended you first." "Would it bother you to tell Graeme at the same time? That would take away the opportunity to get jealous and he is a really nice guy too." "Not really. He already knows some of it. It just might be difficult for me." Caleb said. "Oh! Yes, sorry. Kind of like me finding it difficult to talk about my problem. I should have been more thoughtful. Sorry, you don't have to tell me if you don't want to. But if you want someone to listen, I can do that." Natasha said. "Thank you. There is another aspect in that there are some things I can't talk about just yet for another reason that I can't tell anyone about either, so please don't ask. Hopefully that won't be for much longer, but we haven't heard anything yet so have no real idea how much longer it might take." Caleb said. "Now that was mean. You know that we girls are as curious as cats and now you've got my curiosity at top level and can't do anything to help me out with it." Natasha said, smiling. "Sorry, I didn't think about this other side to things before I had started talking. Anyway, we best be getting back now. The break must be almost over." Caleb said. "Well Mark is one lucky guy and I have to tell you I'm a bit jealous. I hope he isn't watching from a distance either." Natasha said. "Why?" Caleb asked. "Because of this." Natasha said and quickly put her hands on both sides of his head and kissed him full on the lips for a couple of seconds. "Thank you for being such a nice guy and for being willing to do stuff if Mark agrees to it." "One thing I've just thought of. What if Mark wants to watch?" Caleb asked. "You know that I've been in front of a camera or two. Those doing the filming were also watching so I guess I'm used to it. What about you though? How do you feel about it?" Natasha answered. "I think I might like it. What if he wants some hands on with you?" Caleb asked. "I'm not so sure about that, it will depend on how we get on together first." Natasha replied. "Okay, I mean I know he's seen naked girls before, but I don't know if he's done anything with one, or even if he'd want to. But I thought I best know the answers to give him if he asks when I talk about this with him." Caleb explained. "One thing. I bet there are already some rumours flying around about us now. Let's just let them develop and see where they get to. It might be fun." Natasha suggested. "Yeah; okay. It might also help to cover any rumours of me being gay." Please try and spare a few coins for Nifty to help keep the site running. Click on the `DONATE' button and follow it through – simple ??