Date: Wed, 13 Aug 2008 15:01:22 -0700 (PDT)
From: Thomas Gaige <togaige@yahoo.com>
Subject: Confusing Pleasure

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                             Confusing Pleasure
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My name's Steven.  I'm 13.  With the exception of one incident that
occurred about a year ago, I've never questioned my sexuality, until now.

That incident that happened a year ago, happened between my older brother
Jeremy and me.  Jer's four years older than me.  I know a lot of guys'
older brothers can be a pain in the ass, but Jeremy's usually always been
nice to me, even when I've been a pain in his ass.  He spends time with me
sometimes, which I really like, and usually tries to teach me things I need
to know about.  This incident was one of those times.

I knew about sex, and about how my body would start changing when I was
about 11, 12, or 13, and I'd seen my Dad and Jeremy naked often enough, so
I knew how I was probably going to look, once I'd gone through puberty.  I
couldn't wait for that to happen, so I had a big dick and pubic hair, like
my Dad and Jeremy did.  I wasn't sure though about the wet dreams my Dad
told me I'd start having.  They sounded messy.  When I asked Jeremy about
them, he told me they felt really good, and that when I started having
them, I should tell him.  I asked him why he wanted to know, and he just
smiled and told me I should tell him, so I said I would.

Anyway, it was about a year ago, actually on the Fourth of July weekend,
when I had my first wet dream.  Talk about celebrating the Fourth with a
Bang!

I was asleep, of course, and I was dreaming that I was looking at one of my
Dad's Playboy magazines, as I sometimes did when I was upstairs alone.  He
kept a couple under his dresser, which I'd noticed once a few months
earlier, and had investigated.  Anyway, I was looking at a picture of a
beautiful blonde girl, whose legs were spread apart, so her pussy crack
showed, and I was day-dreaming about what it would be like to touch her
down there.  As I imagined my hand petting her curly light brown pubic
hair, my dick started to harden.  Like I usually did, I shoved my hand down
the inside of my pants, and began feeling it.  Lately I'd noticed it seemed
to be a little bigger than usual when it got hard, but I still didn't have
any pubic hair.  Anyway, as I day-dreamed about letting my finger slip into
the girl's pussy crack, I wrapped my fingers around my stiff dick, and
began playing with it.

My dream continued for some time with me doing this.  And, eventually in my
dream, I felt myself getting that familiar happy feeling in my crotch.

As I dreamt on, wondering what it might feel like to stick my penis into
the girl's pussy crack, my dick and whole crotch began feeling better and
better, and I started playing with it more firmly, rubbing up and down the
underside of it quickly.

After a minute, in my dream, my body suddenly felt ready to explode with
pleasure, like it did whenever I really played with it enough.  Then it
happened!  My cock and balls exploded!  Rather than the usual pleasure I
felt when that happened though, I suddenly woke up as I felt something
sharp ripping through my piss tube!  After it passed through, I suddenly
felt wetness against my lower belly.  I didn't have time to wonder about it
though because immediately, my crotch suddenly exploded again, and it felt
like it did when I really had been playing with myself.  Again though - it
was different.  Stuff was squirting out of my dick!

"Shit!" I gasped, as I thought I was peeing my bed.

Before I thought to try and stop from peeing, it happened again!  I
realized it was different then peeing, and it felt good, but still I was
getting wetter under my belly.  I felt one more spasm of pleasure, and a
little more stuff shot out of my dick, then it was over, and my body
relaxed and I felt warm and happy.... except that my lower belly was lying
in a small puddle of warm, wetness.  Quickly I rolled onto my side and
reached down into my boxers to check what it was.  I was surprised that it
felt thick - almost mucous-like, when I touched the wetness.  It actually
felt a little disgusting, so I got up and turned on my light.  Then I
pulled the waistband of my boxers forward and looked down at the mess I'd
made inside them.  They were wet, but instead of just being wet, the wet
spot was coated with some globs of white-streaked, clear goo.  After
looking at it for a moment, I decided I must have had my first wet dream.
As I gazed at the
 first cum I'd ever produced, I couldn't help smiling a little.  I was
finally becoming a man!

I stripped my wet, gooey boxers off and wadded them up, and used them to
wipe myself dry.  Then I got out fresh ones and put them on, and went back
to bed.  I had to lay on one side of my bed though, to avoid the spot where
some of the fluid must have seeped through the fabric of my shorts and
created a damp circle.  I didn't fall back asleep right away.  Instead, I
laid awake for awhile, thinking about what had happened, and trying to
decide if I really liked what had happened or not.  It sure had felt nice,
like Jeremy said it would.  But it was really messy!  I wasn't sure I
really liked it because of that!  Finally, as I wondered if Jeremy felt the
same way about it, I eventually fell asleep again.

The next morning, when I got up, I noticed that the damp spot on the lower
sheet of my bed had dried, but that it had left a slight stain.
Immediately I felt embarrassed, and wondered how I would explain it to Mom
when she eventually changed my sheets.  I prayed she wouldn't notice and
wonder if I'd peed my bed!

As I thought about it, I suddenly realized to my horror that it would
probably happen again, and that it was probably going to be a chronic
problem!  I wondered just how often it would happen!  Right away, I thought
about asking Jeremy.  He must know, and he must know what to do so Mom
wouldn't see the stains!

It was Saturday morning, so Jeremy would be sleeping in.  I looked at the
clock and realized though that it was already going on 9:00.  Maybe he'd be
awake!

Quickly I made my bed to hide the evidence, pulled on some shorts and a
shirt, then opened my door and stepped out into the hallway.  Jeremy's door
was shut yet, so he was still in his room.

I stepped over to Jeremy's door and paused in front of it.  As I stood
there, I heard a soft, fast, rythmic squeaking in his room.  I wondered
what he was doing, but realized he must be awake, so I knocked on the door.
Instantly the squeaking stopped, and I heard some muffled sounds before his
voice asked in a strange, slightly annoyed, tone "who is it?"

"Me!" I said.  "Can I come in?"

There was a few more muffled sounds before he finally said, in a
disappointed, but resigned sounding tone, "Um... OK."

I opened the door and stepped inside.  Jeremy was still in bed, with the
covers pulled up over him.  His face looked pink and he seemed to be
breathing heavily.

"Shut the door!" he said, sounding a little urgent.

I was planning on shutting it anyway, so nobody would hear my question, so
I pushed the door shut, then went and sat down on the foot of Jeremy's bed.

"Can I ask you a question?" I asked, before he said anything.

"Um... sure," he said, in what was almost a sigh.  I noticed his color was
starting to return to normal, and his breathing was slowing down.

"Remember you said I should tell you when I had my first wet dream?" I
asked, feeling slightly embarrassed.

"Yeah," he said.  Then he smiled in a conspiratorial way.  "Did you have
one?"

"Uh huh," I said, nodding, and looking away from him as I felt my face
heating up a little.

"Awesome!" Jeremy cried, grinning.  He pulled his left hand out from under
the bed clothes and held if up.

We high-fived, and I couldn't help grinning back at him, because he seemed
genuinely happy for me.

"So, did you like it?" he asked, still smiling.

"Welllll..." I began.  "I guess.  But... I messed the sheet, and there's a
spot on it now.  What am I going to tell Mom?"

Jeremy laughed and said, "Nothing!  She'll just know you started having
'em!"

"But - I don't want her to know!" I cried, mortified.

Jeremy laughed again and said, "Relax!  It's normal to have them!  You're
supposed to have them!  She won't say a word.  It'll be cool!"

"Really?" I asked.

"Yup!" Jeremy said.

"Well... is there anyway to stop it from being so messy?" I asked.  "I had
to change my boxers, and then lay on the side of my bed!"

Jeremy chuckled and said, "Guess you shoot a lot - just like me!"

I couldn't help smiling at his comparing us the same way.  I really admired
Jeremy, and wanted to be just like him!

"So I just have to put up with it?" I asked, as my smile dissipated and I
felt disappointed.

"Well," Jeremy said, oddly looking a little embarrassed.  "There is a way
around it!"

"Really?" I asked, hopefully.

"Yeah!" he said.  He smiled in a dopey way and said, "You know how I've
caught you with your hand down your pants, playing with yourself
sometimes?"

"Yeah," I said, after hesitating a moment.  I knew my face had gone red,
because of how hot it felt.

Jeremy chuckled and said, "Relax man!  It's perfectly normal to do that!
All guys do!"

"Really?" I asked.  Immediately I pictured Jeremy with his hand down his
pants playing with his penis, or, doing it when he was laying in bed before
he went to sleep, like I often did.  Then suddenly I realized what the
squeaking sound I'd heard through his door must've been!  I couldn't help
smiling myself then, as I looked at him.  I'd wondered why his right hand
was still under the covers.  He must've been holding his boner down, so I
wouldn't see it holding the bedding up!  As he looked at me, he suddenly
looked a little embarrassed, as he realized I might've guessed what he'd
been up to before I came in.

"Were you doing that when I knocked on your door?" I asked.  I normally
wouldn't have said something like that to him, but I was so surprised to
figure out that what I did with my penis, was something other guys did too,
and that Jeremy did it too!

Jeremy went brighter red, and looked annoyed.  A minute later though he
smiled in a semi-good natured way and said, "Well duh, yeah Dufus!"

He pulled his hand out from under the covers then, and I saw that it was
coated with white stuff and at first wondered if he'd cum and it was cum
all over his hand.  But as I stared at it, I realized it looked more like
lotion.

As he reached for some tissues to clean his hand with, I asked, "What's
that on your hand?"

"Lotion," he said, tinging slightly pinker.

"What were you doing with it?" I asked, clueless.

He stopped reaching for the Kleenex box and looked curiously at me.

"Well... I was jacking off with it.  I mean... it's always better with
lube!" he said.

As I continued to look curiously at him, he furrowed his brow and said,
"So... just how do YOU jerk off anyway?"

It was my turn to turn red then.  I didn't answer right away, because I
wasn't sure what to tell him.

"Seriously, you do know how to jerk off properly, don't you?" he asked, no
longer embarrassed, but looking more curiously at me.

After a minute of trying to avoid his look, I looked up at him and said, "I
don't know.  What's the proper way to do it?"

Jeremy stared at me for a minute, then said, "Well... you wrap your hand
around your dick when it's hard and move it back and forth like this!"

He illustrated by wrapping his lotioned hand around the forefinger of his
left hand and sliding it up and down a few times.

"Oh!" I said.  I'd never done exactly like that before, and especially not
with lotion.  Usually I just rubbed the palm of my fingers up and down
along the underside of it, while it was hard and pointing at my belly
button.

"So... you've never done that before?" he asked, scrutinizing me carefully.

"Um... yeah, but not that way," I said, feeling hotter.  "Basically, I just
rub my fingers up and down the bottom of it."

We looked at each other for a minute, then I suddenly had an idea.

"Um... since you have a handful of lotion already, um... well... would you
show me how to do it the right way?" I asked.  For some reason, I felt my
penis getting stiff at the thought of watching my brother jerking off.  I
didn't know why I was getting hard.  I was just curious to learn how to do
it right.

Jeremy stared at me with a surprised look on his face for a minute.  Then
his face began to turn pink.  I noticed his eyes drop downward and realized
he probably could see my boner poking the front of my shorts out.  I turned
red-faced too, but my boner didn't go down.

"Um... I guess I could," he said.  "Pull off your boxers and lay down."

"HUH?" I asked, my eyes opening a little wider.  Why'd he wanted me to get
naked?  I thought he'd pull back the blankets and show me on himself.

"well, you wanta learn how or not?" he asked.  I noticed his nostrils were
flared, and he was breathing deeply suddenly.

"Um... uh... well..." I hesitated.  As I thought about it, I realized, he
was my brother afterall, and he'd seen me naked loads of times, even
sometimes with a boner, so, it really wasn't a huge deal.  Maybe he was
going to explain and make me do it to myself.

Finally, I stood up.  As I did, my dick tented the front of my boxers
completely.  Quickly, I bent forward and pushed them down to the floor, and
kicked them off.

Smiling nervously, Jeremy said, "Wow!  You got a nice size hardon for your
age!  OK, lie down here next to me."

As Jeremy shifted to one side of his bed, I couldn't help smiling because
he thought my penis was big!

Jeremy pulled the covers back off the half of his bed he wanted me to lie
down on.  With my dick pulsating, and my face still feeling a little warm,
I laid down next to my brother, on my back, naked, with my fully erect
penis sticking up.  I'd never felt so exposed or vulnerable in front of
him.

"OK," he said, his breathing sounding almost raspy.  "This is what you do!"

I was shocked when he reached over then with his lotioned hand and wrapped
it around my boner!

As Jeremy's warm, lotioned hand made contact with my stiff rod, I gasped
with surprise over the unexpected pleasure I felt right away!  I couldn't
believe how fantastic his hand felt holding my penis.  Of course I flexed
with pleasure, and felt my cock expand, then recede in his hand, and my
face suddenly felt hotter.

Jeremy's face was almost scarlet by then too, and he was breathing very
heavily, as he suddenly started to pump his closed fist up and down my
dick.

"Oh Frig!" I gasped as sensations I'd never felt before began to vibrate
through my body!

Jeremy grinned at my reaction to what he was doing to me.  I noticed then
that the look he had on his face was the same look I got on mine whenever I
stood in front of a mirror and watched myself playing with my dick and
nads.  He looked just like I did when I got to the point I felt ready to
explode.  Jeremy was excited by what he was doing to me!

"Feel good?" he asked, a little breathlessly.

"Yeah!" I gasped, half smiling.  He smiled back at me.

After a few more strokes up and down, I expected Jeremy to stop and take
his hand off me, but he continued pumping slowly and firmly, up and down my
penis.  It felt fantastic, so I didn't care.  I just hoped he kept on doing
it!

Neither of us spoke for a while then, while Jeremy kept moving his hand up
and down my dick, and I basked in the awesome feelings I was experiencing.
As I did, I noticed the bed springs squeaking softly like I'd heard through
the closed door earlier, when Jeremy was jerking off.  A moment later,
Jeremy reached over with his left hand and cupped my nut sack, and began to
fondle my balls as well, which sent even more pleasureful feelings
shivering up and down my spine.

After a minute or so, I was breathing heavier, and felt the excitement
start rapidly building in my body.  Within seconds I felt like I was going
to burst.  I realized then that Jeremy was going to keep going til I
exploded!  Instantly I wondered if I was going to squirt sperm again.  Was
Jeremy trying to pump it out of my body?  Was I going to make another mess,
just like I did during my wet dream?  What would Jeremy do if I made a mess
on his bed???

"I'm gonna splode Jer!" I gasped, grimmacing as I fought to hold it back.

Jeremy grinned and said in an almost low growl, "Cool!  Whenever you're
ready, let 'er rip!"

I couldn't believe he didn't care if I made a mess of his bed, but he
started pumping me faster then, and within a few seconds I was straining to
hold back, because I wasn't sure exactly what would happen with my dick
completely uncovered when I blew.

Suddenly, I couldn't hold back any longer, and with a high-pitched gasp, I
felt like my body was exploding.  I blew a huge glob of whitish fluid
straight up into the air.  It felt so incredible, I couldn't believe it!
Nothing had ever felt so GREAT!  And Jeremy was still pumping away on me,
as my cum splatted down on my belly!

A second later, I groaned, as again I shot more sperm into the air.  Still
Jeremy kept on pumping on me.

I gasped and spasmed joyously a few more times, before my orgasm finally
receded, and Jeremy slowed his pace.  As he grinned at me, he kept on
pumping my dick, but a lot more slowly.  It still felt good as he did it.
And, a few seonds later, I was surprised when my body twitched and I gave
another squeeze and a final small glob of semen oozed from my dick.  It
dribbled down the topside of my dick head and trickled right over Jeremy's
thumb.  He didn't seem to mind though.

"Oh my God!" I gasped, smiling increduloulsy at Jeremy, as my jizz-streaked
belly heaved up and down while I fought to catch my breath.

"Good?" my brother asked, grinning.

"Hell yeah!" I said, smiling at him.

"Cool!" Jeremy said, grinning, but still breathing deeply through his nose.
He hesitated a couple seconds and appeared to turn redder, then in a
strange tone, asked, "So... how 'bout you do it to me now?... You know - So
I can make sure you know what you're doing!"

I felt my eyes open wider, as I stared in surprise at him, and his face
darkened with color, and he looked guilty.

"OK," I said, much to my own surprise.  I wasn't sure why I agreed.  I know
it was something I'd be doing to myself again - soon!  But, I hadn't
considered that I might ever do it to someone else.  Still... Jeremy was my
brother, and he had just done the same thing to me, so it was only fair.
Besides, I wanted to do something to help him feel good too!

Jeremy looked a little surprised, but quickly pulled the covers off himsef.
When his dick came into view The first things I noticed was that it was
stiff, and still somewhat slathered with lotion.  I also couldn't believe
how big it was!  I'd never seen him with a full hardon before, and he was
huge!  I wasn't sure why, but I suddenly felt my own dick beginning to
harden again, and my heart began fluttering strangely!

"Here," Jeremy said, reaching into the drawer of the stand next to his bed
and pulling out a jug of hand lotion.

Quickly Jeremy opened the jug and told me to hold out my hand, which I did,
and he promptly squirted some lotion into it.

"Rub it around in your hand a minute to warm it up," he said, as he closed
the jug and put it away.  "It feels a lot better than using it on yourself
cold!"

I made a mental note of this tip, and did as he told me to, then after a
half minute, he said, "OK, you can start now."

Smiling, I reached for my brother's long, thick, hardon, and picked it up.

Jeremy gasped softly as my hand made contact with his sex organ.  And a
moment later, he groaned passionately, and his nostrils opened wide, as I
began sliding my closed fist up and down it.

I couldn't help smiling at Jeremy's reaction to my actions, and he briefly
smiled back at me.

I tried my best to duplicate just what Jeremy had done to me, and I must've
been successful, because shortly, he was moaning softly, and had his eyes
half closed.  As his hips started to twitch up and down a little, I could
tell he was really enjoying it.  I was surprised at how much I was enjoying
playing with his penis too.  It felt so big, and hard, and hot!  As my hand
moved up and down it, it was as if I could feel Jeremy's excitement surging
through it, and I was surprised that my own dick was hard as a rock again.

I continued to slide my hand up and down Jeremy's rod for the next minute
or so, and also gently fondled his testicles, like he'd done to me.  As I
did, I noticed that his moans were becoming more and more urgent, and his
body was starting to tense up.

Soon, I saw that Jeremy's nostrils were wide open, and his back was arching
up off the bed a little, as he moaned deeply.

Jeremy's breathing suddenly became much heavier, and his whole body tensed
up.  I began pumping a little faster on his cock, like he'd done to me, and
this seemed to arouse him even more.

Seconds later, Jeremy tensed up fully, gasped and shot a huge, thick, long
string of semen out of his cock.  I couldn't believe how much he squirted,
and how far it went!  Some of it landed on his cheek, and streaked down
over his lips to the underside of his chin!

I continued sliding my hand up and down Jeremy's dick as fast as I could,
and I kept fingering his balls, which had gotten bigger, as his sack shrunk
up toward his body.  As I did, Jeremy tensed, and groaned, and ejaculated
more and more semen.

Finally, I noticed that Jeremy's orgasm was ending, so I slowed my pace
down.  As he'd done for me, though, I did for him as well.  I kept on
sliding my hand slowly up and down his rod.  He had another last spasm then
too, like I'd had, and a bit more cum oozed from his piss slit.  It
dribbled down over my thumb too.

Eventually, as Jeremy looked up at me, breathing heavily, with a faint
smile on his lips, I let go of his shrinking cock.

"So... did I do it right?" I asked.

Jeremy's smile spread into a grin, and he nodded and said, "Oh yeah!
You're damn good little Bro!  Just like me!"

I grinned a huge grin then, over his comparison of the two of us, and
because of the love I could hear in his voice.

Once Jeremy recovered from his orgasm, he got up and said, "Guess we better
get cleaned up and dressed."

He reached for some tissues and handed me some, then got some for himself.
First he cleaned up his hands, then his cock.  I did the same as he did.  A
moment later he reached for a pair of shorts that were laying on the floor
and pulled them on, so I picked up my boxers, and put them on too.

As I stood up, I noticed that Jeremy was studying me.

"Um... I don't need to tell you that what we just did needs to be kept to
ourselves, do I?" he asked, looking just a little worried.

"No," I said.  "I won't tell anyone."

He grinned and said, "Cool!"

"Jer?" I said.

"What?" he asked, looking at me, still smiling.

"Um... a-are we ever gonna do this together again?" I asked.  Again, my
face felt hot.

Jeremy's smile faded, and he looked undecided.  Finally, looking almost a
little sad, he said, "I don't think that'd be a good idea.  What we did was
so you could learn how to take care of things for yourself.  Umm... If you
have any questions yet, we can talk about it, but... if we did anything
like this again, well... it might be more than just educational, and
well... we're not like that, right?"

I understood that when he said "like that" he meant "gay".

"No," I said.  I wasn't gay.  At least I never thought I was.  But, I
couldn't help feeling disappointed that what I'd just done with Jeremy
would never happen again.  It had been awesome, and I wished he'd said we
could do it all the time.... then again, I began to wonder - did that mean
I was gay?

Almost as if reading my mind, Jeremy said, "Hey!  We're brothers, and I
think we're pretty close to each other, so what we did was OK.  You needed
to know how to do stuff.  I know it felt great when we did it - it was
supposed to, or we wouldn't have been doing it right!  Anytime someone does
something like that to you, it should feel great.  But it doesn't have to
mean anything more than it did, OK?"

"Uh huh," I said, still feeling disappointed, and confused.

"OK, I'm gonna go shower," he said, smiling hopefully at me.

"OK," I said.

I turned and opened his door and walked across the hall to my own room
then, and Jeremy headed for the bathroom.

After that morning, Jeremy and I never did anything like that again, but he
did knock on my door that night and handed me a jug of hand lotion.

Grinning, he said, "There's usually a few jugs of this in the hall closet.
You don't need to use a lot all at once - go easy on it, otherwise Mom'll
wonder where it's all going if we use it up too fast!"

I grinned back at him and thanked him.

>From that night on, I masturbated like we'd done 2 or 3 times a day, and I
always used lotion.  I was somewhat disturbed though that my thoughts while
I jacked off were always of Jeremy and our morning together, rather than of
the bunnies in my Dad's Playboy magazine, like I used to think about.

                * * *

For a few months, things went on as usual.  I was pleased that my cock and
balls seemed to grow larger, and I began to grow pubic hair!!!  I jacked
off Morning, noon, and night, and sometimes in between, and as a result,
never had another wet dream again!

Then, the school year started, and I had a bunch of good looking girls to
watch!  When I'd get hard thinking about them, I'd think about jacking off,
but, then suddenly I found myself looking at the guys in my classroom, and
wondering if they jacked off too, and if they'd been lucky enough to have
an older brother show them what to do.

Of course, each afternoon as soon as I got home from school, I went to my
room, closed my door, stripped and masturbated.  Usually, I started out
thinking about the girls I'd watched at school, and it was pleasant.  My
orgasm never seemed to develop as I thought about them though.  And
disturbingly, my thoughts usually switched over to some of the boys in my
class too.  Finally, as I zeroed in my thoughts on one of them laying in
bed jacking off too, or imagined doing with him, what I'd done with Jeremy,
my orgasm would finally begin to build up.  Shortly then, I'd explode with
pleasure, making a mess on my torso and belly.

As a result of all this, for a while I worried about possibly being gay.
That changed though when Kristin came into my life.  Kristin was a
beautiful brunette girl who was in many of my classes.  I'd noticed her,
and watched her for a while, but never thought I'd have a chance to end up
being her boyfriend.  I was shocked, and pleased one day when she walked
over at lunchtime and asked if she could sit with me!  As I said "yes", I
felt my dick begin to grow, and inside, I felt my heart get warm and start
beating faster.  I couldn't help smiling to myself.  I knew then I was
straight!

Kristin and I sat together at lunch every day from then on, and within a
few days, I'd asked her out, and we were boyfriend and girlfriend.  And I
was stoked that whenever I was around her, my cock was in a state of
semi-arousal!

Shortly after we began going together, the school had its first dance, and
I asked Kristin to go with me.  Of course she said yes!  Because we didn't
live far from the school, we walked.  We had a great time at the dance,
then walked home together.  When we got to Kristin's house, nobody was
home.  Her parents had gone to a movie, and apparently it ran longer than
the dance.  And she didn't know where her older brother was.  Kristin
seemed scared to go into her house alone, so I offered to wait with her til
her parents came home.  She was relieved, and invited me in.

We had a soda, and still her parents didn't come home, so we sat down on
the couch to watch some TV.  Kristin sat right next to me, so I reached
over and took her hand in mine, and she leaned into me.  As we sat there, I
could feel the warmth of her body, and my dick began to grow.  It only took
a few seconds, before my lump was evident, and I prayed Kristin wouldn't
notice.

As I felt my face heat up with embarrassment over my situation, I tried
desperately to think of a way to keep her from noticing my bulge.  Finally,
I tried the only thing I could think of, to keep her from being able to see
it.  I turned to her and kissed her gently on the lips.

Kristin smiled and wrapped her free arm around me, and kissed me back,
hungrily.  We didn't part, and continued kissing, rather sloppily actually.
My hand was still holding her's, and as we turned into each other, my hand
naturally pulled back a little, still holding her's.  She pulled downward
to lean on her hand, so she wouldn't fall completely into me, and the back
of her hand settled right down on top of my hardon.  Of course, she
noticed.  And of course, I couldn't control it from flexing at the feel of
her hand, and she noticed that too!

"Oh!" she said, and pulled our hands up.  Breaking our kiss, she leaned
back to look down.  My face must've been scarlet, I felt so hot!

"Ohhh!!" she said, smiling.  Her eyes never left my lump, which was still
flexing involuntarily, due to my extreme arousal.

I couldn't believe what she did next.  She dropped my hand and reached down
and ran her fingers over the bulge in the crotch of my jeans, sending
shivers of joy ricocheting through my body.  My cock flexed violently at
that point.

"Can I see it?" she asked, looking up at me then, breathing seductively.

My eyes opened wide, as I sat staring at her, shocked.  Kristin wanted to
see my cock!  Suddenly, my heart skipped a beat.  Instantly I recalled the
only time anyone else had seen my boner - it was that time when Jeremy and
I jacked each other off. Then, I couldn't help remembering how awesome it
felt when he jacked me off, and I wondered if Kristin would do it to me
too!

"Nobody's home!  If you let me see it, I'll give you a BJ!" she said,
smiling, but breathing heavily.

I stared incredulously at Kristin for a moment.  She was offering to suck
on my cock!  After a couple seconds of incredulously staring at her, I
stood up quickly, and began opening my pants.

As Kristin stared at my crotch, which was a her face level, I quickly
opened my jeans and shoved them and my boxers down, fully exposing naked
body to her.  Her eyes grew bigger, and crossed, as she stared at my penis,
which was pointing right at her face.  The head of it was only a couple
inches away from her nose!

Suddenly, without warning, she smiled, then opened her mouth and leaned
forward so my cock entered her mouth.  Then, when I felt the head of my
cock hit the back of her throat, I gasped as she closed her mouth and began
sucking up and down on me.  The first few strokes felt awesome, but quickly
it wasn't so great.  Her teeth began raking up and down roughly on my skin,
and she was going too fast.  She needed to slow down at the beginning.  I
didn't know if I should tell her or not, so I didn't.  Even though it
wasn't as pleasant as I'd expected, I couldn't help becoming excited, and
within seconds I felt my orgasm building.

Suddenly, just as I was about to blow, a car pulled into the driveway.  She
began sucking me for all she was worth, and a second later, I exploded, and
flooded her mouth with my cum!  She gagged and pulled off me, making faces
and coughing.  QUickly I reached for my dick and started jacking off to
finish off my orgasm.  Of course, my cum was flying all over the place.  It
got into her hair, onto her face and her sweater, as well as the carpeting!

"Quick!" Kristin gasped, as the back door of her house opened.  She began
pulling on my arm, while I was still masturbating and cumming.

I let go of my cock, but my orgasm continued and I ejaculated again, with
my jism falling onto my pants, which were bunched up around my ankles.

I reached down and pulled my cum-splattered jeans and boxers most of the
way up and let Kristin pull me to the front door and shove me out it.  I
only had my pants up to mid-thigh, and my ass and genitals were fully
exposed yet as I stumbled out of the door.  I thanked God it was dark out,
and no lights were on outside.  Quickly I side-stepped behind the
shrubbery, which thankfully was tall.

As the door closed, and I heard kristin running up the stairs inside, I
quickly pulled my pants up and re-dressed, then slipped out the side of the
bushes by the corner of the house and ran off down the street.

My heart was racing as I ran the rest of the way home.  When I got there, I
went upstairs to my room, and collapsed on my bed.

I couldn't believe I'd just had my first blow job!  I also couldn't believe
how lousy it had been!  Even if her parents hadn't come home and she'd had
more time to work on me, and even though I'd managed to get off, Kristin's
blow job was nowhere near as good as my own hand jobs felt!  I hoped it was
just that she didn't know what she was doing, because I'd really looked
forward to enjoying being sucked on, but what she had done really wasn't
enjoyable!

                    * * *

The next day, Kristin and I met at the school's soccer field, and sat and
talked.  She told me that she really hadn't enjoyed the blowjob she'd given
me, because of the way I'd flooded her mouth.  I told her I hadn't enjoyed
it either, because of how rough she'd been - especially with her teeth.

We both sat looking at each other, disappointed for a minute.  Finally, she
said we probably shouldn't do it anymore.

"How about using our hands on each other?" I ventured.

She smiled and said we could try it.

"When?" I asked, feeling my dick beginning to grow in my pants.

"How 'bout we take a walk in the woods?" she said.

I grinned and got up.  So did she.  Hand in hand then, we walked to the
edge of the soccer field and took the path into the woods.  A little ways
in, we found what seemed like a secluded spot - a grove of thick pine
trees.  Grinning, we stepped between some trees, til we found a nice spot
big enough for us, yet, very private.

"Pull your pants down!" she said, grinning.

"You too!" I said, wondering why I was the only one to get naked all the
time.  I wanted to see her nude too!

Smiling, she began to open her pants and dropped them, exposing herself to
me.

My cock surged as I saw Kristin's brunette bush for the first time.  I also
smelled a faint odor I'd never smelled before that seemed to be coming from
her crotch.  I found it quite arousing, and my cock danced as I lowered my
own pants.

"Take off your shirt too," I said, wanting to see her breasts.

Smiling, she took off her shirt and bra, exposing her small, pear-shaped
breasts with little pert nipples.

Grinning, I reached for her nipples.  As I touched them, she gasped.  Then
as I gently pinched them she moaned.  I played with them for a minute, and
as I did, I began to smell her crotch odor a little more strongly.

Suddenly, as I continued playing with Kristin's nipples, I felt her hand
encircling my hardon.

"Like this," I said, and I showed her how to grip it properly and
masturbate me.  She did as I said, and it felt better.  In fact, it felt
pretty good!

As Kristin jerked me off, I reached for her muff, and cupped it, squashing
her pubic bush in the palm of my hand.  It felt moist, and I could feel her
heat.  Instinctively I reached lower and pressed upward with my middle
finger.  It slid easily between her cunt lips, which I was surprised to
feel were soaking wet!  As my finger dipped deeper inside her crease and
pulled back, I felt a hot depression, that was obviously the entrance to
her vagina.  As my finger slid further upward, the tip of it raked over
what felt like a little nipple.  I was surprised to feel something like
that in there, but Kristin moaned passionately, as my fingertip rubbed over
it.

I realized I'd hit a sensitive spot, and smiling, I began to move my
fingertip back and forth over the little nipple inside Kristin's cunt lips,
and she began grinding her hips a little and groaning loudly nearly
continuously as she continued to masturbate me.

Whatever I was doing to Kristin, I realized, it was the right thing, and
that she was really enjoying it, so I continued.  She continued jacking me
off as well, and after a a minute or so, I felt my orgasm building up.  I
could tell the Kristin was becoming more excited as well.  I wondered if
she was going to have an orgasm, and if she did, what it would would be
like!

Suddenly, Kristin started humping against my hand, and gasping in a
high-pitched way.  As I kept fingering her, my hand became soaked with hot
fluid that drooled from her cunt.  Her scent grew still more pungent, and
her hand began beating me off even faster.

As I continued fingering Kristin, she came and came, to the point she
finally cried out for me to stop!  I didn't though, somehow I intuitively
knew that whatever I was doing was causing her the ultimate pleasure, and I
wanted to give her even more joy!  Only when she was nearly in tears
begging me to stop, and had let go of my cock to try to pull my hand from
her, did I quit, and let my hand slide from her cunt.

I quickly grabbed my cock myself then, and began swiftly beating off,
sliding my hand, which was wet with Kristin's cunt juice, up and down
myself, as she stood gasping for breath.  The knowledge that I'd caused
such a violently wonderful orgasm for Kristin, and the pungent odor of her
cunt quickly drove me to the edge as well.  I tried to hold off as long as
possible, but could only do so for a few seconds.  Suddenly grunting, I
blew a streak of semen out of my cock.  It landed in a streak on the forest
floor, as panting, I continued molesting myself, and every second or so,
blew another stream of love juice forcefully from my dick, while Kristin,
who was still breathing heavily, watched with her mouth hanging open in
surprise.

Eventually, my orgasm ended, and I stopped masturbating.  The two of us
stood grinning incredulously at each other, breathing heavily.  When we'd
both recovered, we realized we were both late getting home, so we quickly
re-dressed, and headed back to the school.

On our way home, we both agreed that our tryst in the woods had been pretty
awesome, and that we wanted to do it again as soon as possible.

After that, Kristin and I got together nearly everyday - usually at her
house after school, because both her parents worked, and usually her
brother wasn't home.  When we were alone, we went to her room, and got
nude, and kissed, and snuggled together, often with my humping against her
belly, and of course we ended up fondling and masturbating each other.  I
tried to talk Kristin into sucking on my dick again, but after that first
incident, she really didn't want to.  Besides, she wanted me to go down on
her in return, and as exciting as her cunt odor was taken in small doses,
anytime I got my face too close to her down there, I gagged and almost
puked due to the pungent odor.  And of course, we were both too afraid of
an unwanted pregnancy to consider fucking - even with a condom.  Anal
intercourse wasn't even thought about.  So... we ended up sticking to
mutual handjobs.

                    * * *

One afternoon when I was at Kristin's, her brother Matt, who's as old as
Jeremy, was home.  His friend Jake was there too.  So, Kristin and I
couldn't do anything.  I was annoyed by that.  As it turned out though,
their parents came home soon after I arrived, and Matt and Kristin had to
go somewhere with them shortly afterward, so Jake and I had to leave
anyway.  Jake lived on the way to my house, so we walked home together.
He'd been around Kristin's enough that I knew him well enough, and I felt
comfortable making small talk with him.  He seemed to be a nice guy.  I
often wondered why he and Matt weren't friends of Jeremy's.  When I'd asked
Jeremy once, he was non-committal as to the reason, but I got the
impression there was one.

Anyway, as Jake and I walked along, it got cloudier and cloudier, and
suddenly, just as we got a block from his house, the heavens opened and it
poured down on us.  Shrieking, we both ran for his house.  By the time we
got there, we were both soaked through.  Jake invited me in anyway, to wait
the rest of the storm out.  so I went in.

Nobody was home at Jake's, and since we were so wet, Jake suggested we take
our clothes off and put them in the dryer.  It seemed a little weird to get
undressed with an older boy I didn't know too well, but, he started to
strip down, so, rather than have him make fun of me for not doing it too, I
joined him.  We both stripped down to our boxers and Jake put our clothes
in the dryer and started it.

It seemed a little strange the way we were both standing around wearing
nothing but our boxers.  Glancing at Jake, I couldn't help but notice how
good looking he was.  He had creamy white skin, great muscle tone, and a
beautiful mop of dark, glossy, hair.  His face was handsome too.  Oddly, I
found I couldn't stop looking at him, and as I did, my glance fell
downward.  I could see his cock was pressing the front of his boxers
outward, just a little.  He must've had a semi going!

"Cold?" Jake asked, and my eyes snapped up at his.  I hoped he hadn't seen
me staring at him.

"Huh?" I asked.

"Your nips are all pointy," he said, smiling a little lewdly.  "Thought
maybe you were cold!"

Instantly my eyes dropped to Jakes breasts, and I saw that his nipples were
sticking out in little points too.

I looked back up at his face, into his dark brown eyes, and said, "Well,
your's are too!"

He chuckled and said, "Yeah, it's a little cold in here I guess!"

He turned up the heat then, and made us mugs of instant cocoa in the
microwave. As he worked, I couldn't stop looking at him, and was surprised
to feel my dick stirring.

I was surprised when as I watched him, Jake poured a shot of brandy into
each mug from his father's decanter.

"It won't get you drunk - it'll just warm you up!" he said, smiling.  "My
mom makes it this way all the time!"

Again, not wanting to look like a wuss in front of Jake, I just nodded, and
drank the cocoa when he handed it to me.  It actually tasted pretty good,
and I did feel warm soon after drinking only a little of it.

"So," Jake said, smiling at me after we'd been sitting at the kitchen table
a while drinking our cocoa.  "You and Kristin!  She seems nice.  You
gettin' any action?"

I had already felt a little warm, probably from the brandy.  But, when he
asked that, I immediately felt my face warm up even more.

Jake chuckled and said, "You can tell me, I won't tell Matt or anyone
else!"

I wasn't sure if I should trust him or not, but, he was smiling in a
genuine way, and I was feeling good, so I nodded and said "a little."

Jake grinned and asked, "You fucking her?"

"No!" I said.

"Does she suck you off?" he asked.

I didn't reply right away, and felt myself blush even deeper, as I recalled
the one time she'd sucked my cock in her living room after the dance.

"Ahhhh.... so she IS sucking you!" Jake said, grinning.

"NO!" I cried, feeling somewhat mortified.

"Bullshit!  You hesitated, and got red in the face.  I can tell!" Jake
said, grinning devilishly.

"No!  She isn't!" I protested.  "Really!  We tried it once, and..."

I trailed off, realizing as my face became very hot, that I'd said more
than I meant to.

"Uh oh," Jake said, his grin fading.  He thought a minute then said in a
rather benevolent way "So, you tried it and it wasn't any fun?"

My face betrayed me when I looked at him, both shocked that he'd figured it
out, and miserable that I had admitted it thorugh my expressions to another
guy.

"Probably just her inexperience," Jake said, trying to sound optimistic.
"So... that the only time you ever were sucked on?"

I nodded miserably.

"It's OK," Jake said, reaching over and patting my cheek.  "A person
doesn't always know what to do the first time!  But once they do - Fuck!
Blow jobs are awesome!"

"They are?" I asked, dubiously. Suddenly I realized Jake must have been
sucked on one or more times, if he knew that.  Oddly, at the same time, I
suddenly felt my dick starting to stretch out as in my mind's eye I saw an
image of Jake laying naked on a bed, as a girl sucked on him - and Jake was
obviously enjoying the blow job!

"Oh yeah!" Jake said.  "There's nothing like someone who knows what they're
doing, and uses their hot, wet, soft, mouth - sliding it slowly up and down
your rod, getting a little faster all the time, til suddenly your whole
body goes stiff all over like a board, and your face twists up as you try
to keep from blowing, then BANG!  You explode anyway and send a gusher down
his-her throat!  There's nothing more fucking awesome!"

I just sat holding my mug, staring at Jake who suddenly blushed profusely
as he finished talking.  As Jake described the blow job, my cock instantly
became hard as a rock.  Immediately, my boxers were tenting severely!  And
on top of that, Jake had slipped!  He had said "his", the quickly corrected
it to "her" when he was talking about cumming down someone's throat.  Had
he just admitted to being sucked off by another guy - not a girl????  It
would certainly explain his red face!

"Bet I got you hard now, huh?" Jake said, huskily, breaking into my
thoughts.  He had a strange, serious look on his face.  As I looked at him,
I suddenly realized what his expression reminded me of.  He looked sort of
like I did when I looked at myself in the bathroom mirror just before I got
in the shower, after I'd stood naked, playing with my semi-erect cock, and
my balls for a couple minutes!  He was horny!

Quickly Jake leaned sideways and looked under the table.  Obviously he was
checking out my crotch.  I felt my face go scarlet as I realized he was
seeing the tent in my boxers!

Jake chuckled, and after pausing to purposely stare at my arousal for a
moment, he sat back up and grinned and said, "don't sweat it, I got the
same thing going on too!"

I didn't reply, but just swallowed trying to take it all in.

"Seriously, you can check me out too if you want!" Jake said, looking a
little embarrassed himself then.

Not knowing what else to do, I leaned sideways and looked under the table
in the direction of Jake's crotch.  Instantly my mouth dropped open!
Rather than seeing his cock tenting his boxers, I saw a lot more than I
expected.  He was definitely hard and his cock was standing straight up,
but rather than tenting his boxers, it was actually sticking out of his
fly!  I was looking right at his exposed dick!... and what a gorgeous dick
he had too!  My own cock surged with excitement as I stared at Jake's!

Jake snickered when I finally sat up, and he saw the surprised look on my
face.

When I just looked seriously at him without responding, Jake suddenly got
serious, and after hesitating a moment, nervously he said, "So, how'd you
like to feel a good blow job like I just told you about?"

Well, I'd have been lying, and would've looked stupid if I said "no", so
smiling slightly, nervously I nodded.  Of course I did!

Jake smiled again then, but looking at him, I could see he was extremely
aroused, just like Jeremy had been when he suggested he teach me to
masturbate.  Jake's nostrils were open a little wider than usual, just like
Jeremy's had been, and he had the same desirous look in his eyes that
Jeremy had had!

Suddenly I realized what he was asking - but I couldn't believe it!  Was he
really offering to suck my dick?????

Jake hesitated for a moment, nervously studying me.  Finally as his
nostrils flared wide, and with a wanton look in his eyes, he said in an
oddly raspy voice, "I'll give you one if you want.  I'll give you the best
blow job you'll ever have - if you want!"

I couldn't believe my ears, and just sat staring at Jake, positive I'd
mis-heard what he'd said.

Jake's face darkened, and began to look mortified, as I sat staring
silently at him.  I knew I had to respond.

"What?" was all I could come out with.  How stupid was that.

"Oh come on," Jake whined nervously, swallowing the rest of his
brandy-laced cocoa.  "You heard me.  I offered you a blow job!"

I hesitated again and said, "y-you mean it?  You're not trying to make fun
of me?"

Jake looked at me curiously for a moment, then said, "Check my cock out
again."

I leaned sideways, and saw Jake's penis still stiff and sticking out his
fly, and the tip of it, where his piss slit was, looked like it had a drop
of fluid on it.

"You can't tell anyone about this though! You understand?" Jake said
tersely, as I sat back upright.

"I won't.  But do you really mean it?" I said, still incredulous that he
was offering to suck my cock!  As I looked at him, I felt my cock surging
with desire.  I didn't understand why though - because he was a guy!

"Yes," Jake said.

I thought a moment, as he looked at me.  I couldn't deny my body's desire,
so finally I said, "OK."  I wasn't sure exactly what I was getting into,
but I couldn't help myself.

Jake looked a little surprised, and a little relieved.  Quickly though, he
said, "But like I said, you can't tell anyone - OK?"

"I promise - I won't," I said.

Jake smiled a little then.  A second later, he looked even a little more
aroused, and said, "Cool!  C'mon up to my room then.

As Jake got up, his dick stuck straight out in front of him, through his
boxer's fly.  I couldn't help thinking what a nice looking dick he had.  I
noticed too, the drop of fluid on the tip of it looked a little bigger than
before.

                    * * *

I followed Jake upstairs to his room.  When we got there, he pulled off his
own boxers, so I pulled mine off too.  Then, for a minute, we stood looking
at each other.

"Nice!" Jake said finally, smiling a little, as he stared at my cock and
balls.

All I could think was how gorgeous Jake looked naked.  Finally I said, "You
too!"

Jake smiled.  As I looked at his penis, I noticed the drop of fluid on his
dick was gone.  The tip of his cock just looked moist.  He had a big bush
of dark hair, the same color as on his head.  His nut sack was smooth, with
some dark hairs poking out of it, and his eggs were good-sized.  He had a
nice line of hair that stretched from his pubes up to his navel too.  I
couldn't help wishing I could run my fingers through it, and that I could
feel his cock and balls too.

After looking me over for a minute, Jake said in a husky voice, "Lie down
on the bed."

Nervously I stepped over to Jake's bed and laid down on my back, with my
head on his pillow.  He got on the bed right away, and gently pushed my
legs apart a little, and knelt between my knees.

A moment later, as I looked down at him, Jake tenderly picked up my penis,
which was laying hard and flat against my belly, and examined it.  He
pulled a stray pubic hair off, which was stuck to its head.  Then, he
looked it over.  As he held it in his hands, I could feel his hot breath on
it, which made me stiff as possible.

Tentatively then, Jake leaned forward and licked up along my piss slit.
Then, as I gasped softly, he licked all around my dick head.  It felt good.
He licked all the way around and around my shaft a couple times then.  That
felt even better.  Finally, he licked upward from the base of my cock,
along the tube on the underside, then slid his mouth fully down over the
entire length of my shaft, and slowly and sensually began sucking up and
down it with his hot, wet, soft, mouth as I moaned with pleasure.  It felt
awesome - just like I'd hoped a blow job would feel!  Nothing had ever felt
better on my cock than Jake's mouth!  I couldn't believe how awesome it
felt!  He sure knew what a guy likes to feel!

As I looked down at the glossy dark hair on the top of Jake's head, as it
bobbed back and forth in front of my crotch, I couldn't believe what was
happening to me!  I couldn't believe anyone would do to me, what Jake was
doing to me!  He was gently and sensually sucking on my penis, in an
obvious attempt to cause me to have the most physical pleasure I'd ever
experienced!  As I stared down at Jake, awestruck by what he was doing, I
felt my body getting more and more excited, with each stroke of his mouth!

Suddenly though, Jake pulled off my cock, sucking in air through the
corners of his mouth, like you do when you're sucking your spit off a
lollipop you're pulling out of your mouth.  I felt disappointed that he was
stopping, but before I could think anything else though, Jake bent a little
lower and gently began licking my nut sack!  Of course, my immediate
reaction was nervousness.  Anytime anything gets too close to my balls that
I'm not sure is going to touch or hit them too roughly, I get nervous.
I've taken a few hits to the nads in my life, and I hate that gut-wrenching
feeling you get when they get hit or smashed!

After a moment, I realized Jake wasn't going to hurt them.  He was being
real gentle - just lightly licking at them, so I relaxed.  A second later
though, he opened his mouth and pulled my right nut into it with his
tongue!  Immediately I was alarmed!  All I could wonder was - Christ was he
going to chew on it???????

Of course he didn't do that.  Instead, he just moved it around gently in
his hot, wet, mouth, before spitting it out.  It felt OK.  He did the same
to my left nut, then.

As he spit my testicle out, I wondered what he was going to do next.  I
hoped he was going to suck my dick some more!  He didn't though.  Instead,
he reached down and pulled on the backs of my knees.  I didn't know what he
was going to do, but decided to let him pull them upward.  He smiled in a
strange way as he pushed my legs up toward me, so that my thighs ended up
resting on of my belly.  What the Hell was he going to do now?  As he
looked down at my ass, which was wide I open, I began to wonder if he was
going to try to fuck me????  Again, I felt alarmed!

I couldn't believe what happened next.  Jake spread my legs apart, and
leaned further down, so his face was right in front of my fully exposed
asshole, which I was actually feeling a little embarrassed about.  Nobody
had ever looked so closely at me down there, and it seemed strange Jake was
doing that.

Suddenly, we were both surprised, when a little fart blew through my hole.
I felt even more embarrassed, but Jake just chuckled, and blew through his
mouth, as if to blow it away.  The feeling of the air he blew brushing over
my pucker felt great! A moment later, he leaned in really close and
sniffed.  I was glad I'd showered after gym class, and had managed to sneak
my soapy hand down into my ass crack a couple times when the other guys
weren't looking, so I was clean back there!

I wondered then, why if Jake intended to fuck me, he was spending so much
time inspecting my ass so carefully.

All thoughts left my brain a second later though, as I watched in shock as
Jake leaned in all the way and planted a firm kiss smack dab in the center
of my ass - right on my hole!!!!  His puckered lips were pressed firmly up
against my pucker!!!  Then, as he started to pull away slightly, I felt the
tip of his hot, wet tongue poke me gently, right in the center of my
hole!!!

As I lay in shock, staring down at Jake's forehead, he began licking my
anus!!!  I couldn't believe he was doing that - but I didn't care!  It felt
fantastic!!!

As Jake pulled back just slightly and began lapping at my pucker, and its
surrounding area, it felt so good!  After a few seconds, the shock of what
he was doing wore off, and I was able to focus on the pleasure he was
giving me, and it felt so awesome, I couldn't help moaning happily.

Jake heard my groan of pleasure, and apparently was pleased, because he
began really working on my ass with his tongue then.  He lapped away at my
hole and the edges of it, licking firmly, and every so often, pausing for
just a second to poke at the center of my opening with the tip of his
tongue.  He kept at it for about a minute.  By then I was relaxed and had
my eyes closed as I was thoroughly enjoying the special washing Jake was
giving me.

Suddenly though, my eyes shot open, as I felt something completely
different!  Jake had stopped licking for a moment, to poke teasingly at my
hole with the tip of his tongue, as he'd been doing all along, but this
time, he didn't pull back and start licking me again.  This time, he kept
on pushing and drilling at the center of my hole with the tip of his
tongue.  Then, suddenly he pressed hard with his tongue, and I felt him
sliding up inside my asshole!!!  What the fuck was he doing????

As my head snapped forward and I looked down at Jake, I could see and feel
his lips plastered up against my body, and I felt his tongue pressing
firmly forward, even deeper inside me!  Again I was shocked, and slightly
horrified by what Jake was doing!  Christ!  What if I had shit up there?
What if his tongue touched my shit???

I didn't have time to contemplate the idea of Jake ending up tasting my
shit, because suddenly, I felt his tongue press against something that sent
a wave of pleasure vibrating through my pelvis.  Shortly after Jeremy had
taught me how to properly jack off, he'd talked briefly to me again, and
had explained about my prostate just up inside my asshole.  He's said that
it was OK for a guy to reach in with a finger and rub it when he jacked
off.  I asked him if he'd show me how to find it, but I was disappointed
when he told me I should try to find it by myself.  I know he was excited
by the idea of helping me though, because of the huge bump in his crotch,
and the redness of his face.  I don't know why he didn't just do it if he
was so excited by the idea, but he didn't.  Anyway, Of course I'd tried it
out on my own, and found that he was right!  I couldn't believe that Jake
was trying to reach it now with his tongue though, but that's obviously
 what he was doing!  Again, as he pressed on my gland a little with the tip
of his tongue, a wave of pleasure washed through me.

Still reeling from the shock of what Jake was doing to me, I gave into the
pleasure he was giving me, and laid back to thoroughly enjoy it.  Jake's
hand moved to my dick and he began masturbating me as he continued to use
his tongue to nudge at my prostate gland with.  Together, the two actions
were electrical, and I suddenly felt my orgasm beginning to build up.

As Jake prodded my prostate and slid his hand up and down my still
spit-slick dick, the pleasure I was feeling began to multiply
exponentially.  Within seconds, I felt like I was going to blow my load!

As I fought to hold off the inevitable, I managed to gasp "I'm gonna jizz!"

Instantly Jake's mouth left my ass, and moved directly to my cock, and as
soon as he was sucking on it, his hand moved to my ass, and I felt a finger
sliding up into me.  As Jake's mouth began sliding swiftly up and down the
entire length of my hardon, his fingertip began rubbing firmly, but not
roughly, on my prostate.

Within seconds, my body returned to the level of excitement I'd been
feeling a moment earlier, when I felt I was going to explode!  Again, I
tried to hold off.  I hoped Jake meant to have me cum in his mouth, because
I was about to do just that.

"Gonna cum! Now!" I gasped, just in case he wanted to back off.  He didn't!

I managed to hold out another 2 seconds, then as Jake rubbed my prostate
even more roughly, and sucked furiously up and down my dick, I gasped as I
felt my entire body explode with joy!  I tensed for a second, squeezing
Jake's finger firmly within my anal ring, then I blew what felt like the
biggest load of cum I'd ever shot, out my dick, into the back of Jake's
throat!  I could feel him swallowing as he sucked back up my dick, and my
body tensed up in another spasm of pleasure!

Jake never stopped sucking on me, or rubbing my gland, as I thrashed about,
tensing and relaxing, and moaning as I expelled massive amounts of cum down
Jake's throat.

Finally, after I'd blown about nine or ten times, I felt my orgasm
beginning to fade.  It had been the best one of my life, and my entire body
felt warm and alive with spent energy.  Jake slowed down his sucking and
gland rubbing, but didn't stop.  He was bringing me down slowly, and it
felt great!  As he continued doing so, I felt my body tensing up again a
little, and suddenly I twitched and tensed and blew one last dribble of
jism into Jake's mouth.  He didn't swallow that time, but slid his mouth up
and down my rod, just a couple more times, then pulled off, again sucking
in air through the corners of his lips, so he didn't leave my dick soaked
with spit and cum as he pulled off me.  At the same time, he pulled his
finger out of my ass.

As Jake smiled down at me, I could see he was moving his tongue around in
his mouth.  Finally, a moment later, as my crotch muscles flexed and
relaxed involuntarily yet, he swallowed, and his smile spread into a full
grin.

"So, how was that?" he asked, as I lay panting, looking up at him, with
what I can only assume was a stupid grin on my face.  I could feel my
asshole muscle still pulsating as my hole tried to close up after being
stretched open for so long.

"Fucking awesome!" I finally said, as my chest continued rising and falling
more rapidly than usual.

Jake wiped his wet lips with the back of his hand and said, "Excellent!
Now that's how a blow job's supposed to feel!"

I looked incredulously at him and all I could think to say was "You mean
they're all like that?"

Jake laughed heartily then and finally, smiling brightly, he said, "Only if
the guy giving it to you's good!"

I noticed he'd said "guy".  I'd so thoroughly enjoyed Jake's blow job, that
I'd completely forgot!  Jake was a guy!  Jake had just sucked my cock!  He
must be gay!  And... if I'd liked it so much when a guy did me, but not
when a girl did, ... did that mean I was gay too????  Suddenly I felt
confused - and worried.

"What's wrong?" Jake asked, breaking into my thoughts.  He was looking at
me with a concerned expression on his face.

I didn't know exactly what to say, so, I said the first thing that popped
into my mind.  "Umm... so... you're gay then?"

Jake's face darkened and his expression melted away and morphed into a
slightly nervous, almost hurt look.  I wanted to say it didn't matter if he
was, but something stopped me, and I just laid there, looking at him.

Finally, Jake said in a voice that sounded a little defensive, "After what
we just did, you really have to ask?"

I felt a little stupid then, but also like I might have hurt Jake's
feelings, which I hadn't meant to do.  I was just confused.

"I guess not," I said, a little sadly, as it began to sink into my brain
that I might be gay too, because I'd liked what he'd done to me so much.

After a minute, Jake said, "well, is that a problem?"

"NO!" I said.  "It's OK with me!  I-I like you.  And, well... I really
liked what you did.... I - it's just that, well, I always thought I was
straight, but now..."

Jake's expression softened again, and he smiled sadly at me.

"Thanks," he said.  "I like you too Steven.  You seem like a really nice
guy.  And you have a great body!  I get what you're feeling though.  You're
confused.  I felt that way once too - then I realized I didn't like girls,
just boys, and I knew.  Then I was depressed for a while."

"So - you think I'm gay too?" I asked, beginning to feel depressed.

"I don't know," Jake said.  "See - you just laid there and let me suck and
play with you.  I might just as well have been a girl doing it to you, and
it might've felt the same to you.  So - you can't decide you're gay, just
because you liked what I did to you!  You have to decide what it is you
like to do yourself.  And who you like to do it with.  Then you'll know."

"What do you mean?" I asked, not sure I understood exactly what Jake meant.

"Well...," Jake began.  "If you like to see boys nude, and touch them, and
play with their dicks, and suck on them, and rim them, like I did to you,
then you're probably gay.  If you don't, but you like girls bodies, and
want to touch them and finger their cunts, and fuck them, and stuff, you're
probably straight."

"That's just it!" I cried.  "I think I like both!"

Jake looked at me for a minute, then said, "Well... maybe you're bi then!
I guess what you have to do is try out being with girls and with guys, and
see what you like more.  What have you done with a girl before?"

I told him about what Kristin and I did.

"And you liked it?" he asked.

"Yeah... well... not her blow job though," I said.

"Well, that's just because she didn't know how to give it right," Jake
said.  Then he asked.  "Besides what we just did, have you ever done
anything with another boy?"

I hadn't expected him to ask that, and was about to blurt what I'd done
with Jeremy when he taught me to jack off, but I stopped short, when I
remembered I wasn't supposed to tell anyone.

"So you have done something with a guy other than me then?" he asked,
looking closely at me.

I felt my face heating up, and didn't reply.

"I'll take that as a 'yes'," he said.  "It's OK if you did."

"I can't talk about it - just like you don't want me to tell anyone what we
did!" I blurted finally.

"OH!" Jake said, smiling a little.  "That's cool.  Tell me though - did you
like it?"

As my face warmed a little more, I looked at him and nodded.

"I see," Jake said.  "Well... maybe you are bi then....  But, that'd be OK
too.  Listen, I know everyone makes fun of anyone who's not straight, but -
well - you have to do what you have to do to be happy.  I found out I'm
gay.  I don't like it.  Hell - sometimes I hate myself for being gay!  But,
I've learned to live with it, and to quietly find other gay guys to have
fun with.  And, well, it can be great!  I just have to keep it quiet
though.  That's why you can't ever tell anyone - OK?"

"I won't tell anyone Jake!  I promise!" I said.  "I don't want anyone to
hurt you, and I don't want anyone to know I liked what you did to me
either!"

Jake smiled a little, then seeing how sad I was feeling, he reached over
and rubbed my hair.

"It's OK man," He said.  "Obviously I won't be telling anyone either.  And,
now you know you have someone to talk to if you want!"

I looked up at Jake and saw him smiling sadly at me.  I felt sorry for him.
But, I felt more sorry for myself.  At least he knew he was gay.  I didn't
know what I was.  As I looked at him, I kept thinking about what he'd say
earlier - that I needed to try both girls and guys and see what I liked
most.  Glancing down, I saw that Jake's dick was still semi-hard.  I had an
urge to reach out and touch it.  Instantly, I felt my own cock starting to
grow again.

When I looked up at Jake again, he was smiling.

"I see you're getting hot and bothered again," he said.

"Well, you are already yourself!" I replied.

"Yeah, well, you got off - I didn't!" he said.

I'd forgotten that.  Jake had done all the work, and hadn't had any fun
yet.  Instantly in my mind, I saw myself going down on Jake and sucking his
cock.  Instantly, I felt my cock stiffening fully!  Instantly the
realization hit me that in the back of my mind, I always knew I liked guys,
and wanted to fool around with them.  So... I was probably
gay!.... but... I liked girls too.  Maybe I was bi afterall!

I was Confused about my orientation, and as I looked down again and saw
Jake's fully erect dick, the tip of which looked moist, poking upward
invitingly from his crotch, I became even more confused and distressed!
All I could think about was how much I just wanted to get my hands, and
even my mouth on Jake!  And as I realized this, I felt grief-stricken!  I
didn't want to be gay!  I was so distressed, my dick even began to deflate.
Maybe that was a good sign!

I was about to voice my confusion, when suddenly a car pulled into the
driveway and up to the house!

"Fuck!" Jake cried, jumping up.  "My mother's home!  We have to get
dressed, and you probably should go!"

"OK," I said.

"Quick!  Put on your boxers and follow me!" he said, as he reached down and
picked up his boxers and pulled them on.

I did the same and followed him quickly out of his room, and down the
stairs to the laundry room.

Jake opened the dryer, and ripped our clothes out of the dryer, then,
pulled me into the living room.

"Quick! Get dressed!" he hissed, as he quickly pulled his own clothes on.
I did the same.

Just as we finished dressing, we heard the back door open, and a woman's
voice calling "Jake!"

"You ready to go?" Jake asked.

I nodded and he pulled me to the front door, and opened it.

"See you tomorrow then," he said.

"OK," I said.  "Bye."

"Bye," Jake said, smiling and winking at me.

I stepped out the door, and he quickly shut it.  I heard him calling
"Coming", as I walked down the steps and headed for home.

The rain had stopped, so I took my time trudging home, thinking over all
that had happened.  I'd loved Jake's blow job and rimming!  I hated that I
loved it so much though - because he was a guy.  I also hated that I
couldn't suppress my thoughts that I wished Jake's mother hadn't come home,
so we could've done more.  I kept picturing Jake sitting there naked with
his hardon, and couldn't stop wishing I'd gotten the chance to touch it,
and jack him off, like I'd done to Jeremy that time... or maybe even to
suck on it, like Jake had done to me!  I hated myself for wanting to do
that to another guy though.  But I couldn't deny my desire.  I was so
fucking confused!

When I got home, I went straight up to my room and laid down on my bed and
thought about it all some more.  After a while, I finally gave up and
admitted to myself that I had to be at least a little gay, because all I
could think about was how much I hoped Jake would want to get together
again!

Disgusted, I got up and went to the bathroom.  As I stood over the toilet
and opened my fly, I noticed that my boxers looked strange.  Pulling my fly
open some more, I suddenly realized, I was wearing Jake's boxers!  I
couldn't help chuckling, as I wondered if he was wearing mine, and what his
reaction was going to be when he finally noticed.

                        * * *

The next day at school, as I dug around in my locker for something, Jake
sidled over to me, and stood leaning on the locker next to mine.  I was
squatting, trying to find a science folder, and as I looked up, I couldn't
help noticing the bulge in the front of Jake's jeans.  He was grinning at
me.  Instantly I felt my crotch starting to bulge.

"You probably should come over this afternoon.  I think I have something of
your's!" he said, smiling.

I chuckled and said, "Yeah, I noticed!"

"That's good," he said.  "I'd hate to think you just pulled them off and
tossed them in the laundry and your mom found them and wondered!"

I hadn't thought of that possibly happening, and for an instant, felt a
slightly haunted feeling.  Jake's chuckle brought be back to reality and I
smiled.

"No one's gonna be home at my house this afternoon either, so ... if you
want to... maybe we can have a little more fun!" he said, in a low voice,
close to my ear, after I stood up.  My cock flexed, and when I looked at
him, I could see the arousal in his eyes.  His nostrils were flaring a
little too.  He licked his lips in a sensual way, and I thought I was going
to cream Jake's shorts, which, because I didn't know what else to do with
them, I'd left on when I got up that morning.  Besides, I can't explain
why, but I liked having Jake's underwear on.

As Jake said that, I felt my heart start beating faster, and my cock
hardening.  At the same time, I felt shamefully guilty.  I didn't want to
want that.  I wanted to want to be with Kristin!  And, as I thought about
Kristin, I did want to be with her!

"Well?" Jake asked, breaking into my thoughts.  Then I saw Jake's sensual
lips and recalled the previous afternoon, and I knew I wanted to feel his
hot mouth on my cock and ass again, more than a I wanted to be with
Kristin!

"Um... yeah, I'll be there," I said, in a strangely hoarse feeling voice.

Jake grinned, and said, "Cool!"

Then he leaned slightly forward and I felt his hardness press into my hip
for just a moment.  My cock surged with desire, as he quickly turned and
was swept away into the crowd moving through the hallway.

When school let out, my heart was racing, as all I could think about was
lying on Jake's bed, naked, as he sucked on my cock, and shoved his finger
in and out of my hole, rubbing my prostate gland.  I was actually feeling
better about my desire to go to Jake's for sex, because all afternoon, I'd
thought about it, and decided, it was OK that I liked what he did to me,
because, if he'd been a girl, it probably would've felt the same, so maybe
I wasn't gay!

Then Kristin came along.

"Wanta come over?  Nobody's going to be home!" she asked.

Suddenly I felt excited over the thought of being alone with Kristin at her
house, and all I could think about was getting her naked and on her bed,
and playing with her little breasts, and her cunt.  Again, my cock surged
as I imagined dipping my fingers into her hot, dripping crack, and
fingering her clit, until she was writhing joyously on her bed, and my hand
was getting drenched!  Damn! I thought, grinning to myself!  I'm straight
afterall!

Then suddenly I recalled the horrible blowjob she'd tried to give me, and
my dick began to deflate.  Of course I remembered then how great it had
been with Jake, and that I had said I'd go to see him, for more too!
Again, my dick stiffened.

"Fuck!" I thought.  "What is it I really want?"

"Well???" Kristin snapped, impatiently.

"Oh!" I said.  "Um... sorry.  I uh was just thinking about all the homework
I had to do, and I'm not sure if I can.  Um... I want
to... but... well... if I can come, I will, if not, I'll call you.  OK?"

Kristin exhaled huffily, and said, "Fine! But if you come over, I'll suck
your dick!"

My cock surged, but at the same time, I remembered her blow job from
before.  Then I remembered Jake's.

"If I can - I'll be there!" I said.  "I gotta go now though.  I gotta get a
book from my locker before I miss the bus."

"OK, see you later," she said, looking a little annoyed.  She took off for
her own bus then.

As I headed for my own bus, Jake passed me and said "Later?"

"Um... yeah!" I said, as I felt my cock stiffen fully, and suddenly
remembered I had to stop at his house anyway to switch boxers.

He winked and was gone.

                * * *

After I got home, I thought about what to do, and decided, I should go to
Jake's.  I had to go there anyway, at least to switch underwear, but
besides that, I knew he wanted to have sex, and he probably would give me a
great blow job again... and hopefully suck on my hole too!  Besides, I'd
already lied to Kristin about needing to do homework, so I called her and
told her I couldn't come over, that my mom was home and mad about
something, so I had to do my homework and I'd call her later that night,
and she better not call til then, cause of my mother being mad.

Kristin sounded annoyed, and disappointed, but finally, after I
sweet-talked her a couple minutes, she said dully that she'd talk to me
later, and we hung up.

Immediately, I felt my cock start to stretch.  Quickly I got up and ran
upstairs to the bathroom.  Quickly I stripped and hopped into the shower,
and washed myself all over.  I paid especially close attention to washing
my crotch and ass!  As I did, of course, it took every ounce of willpower
not to jack off!  I managed to restrain myself though, and quickly dried
off, and re-dressed, putting on Jake's underwear again.  Then, with my hair
still wet, I ran down the stairs and headed out the back door, to go over
to Jake's.

When I got there, he opened the door even before I rang the bell.
Apparently he'd been watching for me!

"What took you so long?" he asked, as I glanced down and saw a prominent
tent in the front of his jeans.

"Had to call Kristin and get out of going to her house," I said.  Then as
Jake chuckled, I added, "besides, I wanted to shower for you."

Jake grinned and reached down behind me and gave my ass a squeeze.

"Thanks!" he said.  "Guess that means you want your boy pussy eaten again
huh?"

I blushed, but snickered at Jake's terminology for my ass.

Jake just grinned and said, "it'll be my pleasure to eat it too!"

My cock was throbbing at the thought of Jake sliding his hot tongue up
inside me again.  I was stoked when he grabbed my hand and said "Let's go!"
and pulled me toward the stairs.

Less than 4 seconds later, we were in Jake's room.  The door was closed,
and we were both ripping our clothes off.

Jake laughed when he saw I was still wearing his boxers.

"Well, I didn't know how to get them here, without carrying them in a bag,
or having a weird lump in my pocket!" I said, feeling funny.  He wasn't
wearing mine.

Jake reached under his pillow then and pulled mine out and tossed them to
me.

"I had a great jack-off late last night with them laying over my nose!" he
said, grinning devilishly.

Smiling, I handed his to him, and he tossed them in the corner, on the
floor.

Jake reached down and pulled his socks off, so I did the same, and then we
were both starkers, standing staring at each other.  Both our dicks were
sticking straight out toward one another.  Jake stepped over toward me, and
instantly fell on the floor in front of me and devoured my hardon, as I
gasped in pleasant surprise.  Almost immediately, I noticed my excitement
level building.

Jake only sucked on me for a minute, then pulled off and a little
breathlessy, said, "How 'bout you get on the bed like yesterday?"

Grinning, I laid down on Jake's bed.

Before he crawled on the bed though, I blurted, "Could I have your boxers
to smell while you do me?"

Grinning back at me, Jake reached down and picked up the boxers he'd been
wearing all day, and handed them to me.  Then, as he crawled onto the bed,
and got between my legs, which I spread apart, I folded them so the crotch
portion was exposed, and held them to my nose, and breathed in Jake's musky
scent.  The aroma was awesome!  It made me wish I was going down on him!
As I contemplated this thought, I suddenly felt the hot, wetness of Jake's
mouth sliding down over my dick, and I gasped with pleasure.

Jake sucked up and down my dick again, just like he'd done the day before.
Then after a while he stopped and again licked and sucked on my balls.
When he was done, I couldn't help smiling as he pulled on my legs.  This
time, I raised them up and opened them for him, eager to again feel his
sensuous prodding of my hole with his tongue.

Jake didn't make me wait.  Instantly he fell forward and began lapping at
my pucker.  Again, for the second day in a row, I was in absolute heaven,
as he began pumping my cock and prodding my anus with his hot tongue.

This time when Jake pressed on my opening with his tongue, I didn't resist.
In fact, I pressed back, as if I was trying to take a crap.  I couldn't
wait to feel his tongue inside me again.  It was as if I had an itch that
needed scratching!

Jake obliged and once again, shoved his tongue through my sphincter, and
began poking toward my prostate.  It felt awesome, as he pushed and rubbed
at it, and I lay with my eyes closed, and his underwear over my nose,
breathing in his essence!  I can't explain the feeling I began to have
then, as Jake worked on me so ... lovingly.

After a couple minutes, Jake pulled back from my hole, much to my
disappointment.  Looking up at me and breathing a little heavily, he said,
"You like that a lot don't you?"

All I could do was smile and nod.

"Let me try something else then," He said.  "I guarantee you'll love it!"

He reached for a tube of lubricant then, and I began to wonder what he had
in mind.  He squirted a little on his fingers, then reached for my hole.
Suddenly, I let out an involuntary groan of pleasure, as I felt a long thin
finger slide up into my rectum, and turn and begin rubbing my prostate.
Jake grinned down at me, and continued finger-fucking me for a minute.
Then, suddenly, his finger felt thicker.

"I just added another finger," he said, realizing my be curious look, that
I must be wondering what had happened.

At first it felt a little uncomfortable as Jake shoved two fingers in and
out of me.  But shortly, it felt good, as he rubbed both fingertips over my
prostate!

I closed my eyes then and let Jake continue to shove his fingers in and out
of me.

After about a minute, I felt some movement on the bed, then suddenly I felt
him pull his fingers out of me.  Just as I was opening my eyes, to see what
he was doing, I felt something a little wider than his fingers pushing
against my opening.  And, as I looked up at him, Jake was kneeling up close
to me, and the head of his cock, which looked slick with lube, was pressing
against my asshole.  Jake was going to fuck me!

He must've seen the scared look I felt crossing my face, and quickly said,
"It's OK.  I promise I won't hurt you, and that you'll love it!"

Without waiting for me to respond, he began to push forward, and I suddenly
felt the head of his dick pop through my still rather tight ring muscle.
It didn't hurt really, but it felt a little uncomfortable, especially as
more and more of Jake slid deep into my insides!

Suddenly, Jake stopped pressing into me, and I felt his hips, and pubic
bush press firmly up against me.  He was all the way inside me - as far as
he could go.  I had another boy's penis up my ass!

I didn't know what to think, as Jake smiled down at me, and held his body
still, with his cock shoved all the way inside me.  It didn't hurt,
but... it was a little uncomfortable.  On the other hand, the thought that
Jake, who's scent was still filling my nostrils, actually had a part of his
body, bigger than the tip of his tongue or a couple fingers - inside mine!
My cock began to stiffen fully as I thought about it, and felt his ball
sack laying against my ass.

Jake leaned forward and balanced himself so he was just inches above my
body.  I could feel his heat, and smell his various body scents.  Slowly he
began to pull his cock out of me then.  Suddenly, I felt disappointed that
he was leaving!

A second later though, just as I felt the head of his dick, which was
fatter than his shaft, pulling up against the inside rim of my hole a
little, he stopped and started to slowly press downward, back into me.  The
pressure of his cock being shoved back into my intestines was a little
uncomfortable, but when he came to a stop, buried again to the hilt, inside
me, I felt happier again.  I realized then, I liked the feeling of having
Jake inside me like that!  From the look on Jake's face, I could see that
he liked being inside me too!

Jake pulled back out of me again, again stopping just before he popped all
the way out, then he slid back into me once again.

"Feel good?" he asked in a soft, husky voice.

"Mmmmm..." I moaned, smiling a little, and looking into his eyes.

Jake smiled a little then too.  Then he did something I didn't expect.  He
leaned forward, and kissed me softly on the lips!  My cock lurched with
passion, in response!  Jake must've felt the tip of it hit his pelvis, and
he smiled slightly, then opened his mouth a little and licked at my lips,
trying to press his tongue into my mouth.  Jake wanted to have even more of
himself inside me than just his cock!

As my cock throbbed with desire, I opened my mouth, and let Jake's tongue
in.  I'd never been kissed like that before, but I knew instantly I was
enamored by it.  Hungrily, I responded to Jake's tongue movements, trying
to immitate them.  As Jake's lips closed over mine, and our tongues
stretched toward each other, we both began breathing deeply and urgently
through our noses.  As we kissed, I think some of the air my lungs
received, entered my body through Jake's nose, and some of the air entering
his lungs, came in through my nose.  As our tongues did a dance together in
our vacuum-locked mouths, Jake mewed a little, and pressed his pelvis
forward as hard as he could, and I felt his cock slide another half inch or
so, deeper inside me!  In response, I wrapped my arms around him, and
pulled him tightly to me, and tried to clamp my asshole tightly around him,
to hold his dick in place, as far inside me as possible!  Jake's arms
pressed up against
 the outsides of mine, as he "held" me in them the only way he could, given
our position, and he began kissing me more ardently.  As I laid there under
Jake, my bowels deeply impaled by his stiff, dripping manhood, and my mouth
being so consumed by his hungry mouth, I began to feel a feeling inside
myself that I'd never experienced.  It was a euphoric happiness I couldn't
even begin to describe!  At that moment, I knew only one thing for sure - I
never wanted that moment to end!  And I as I lay there in ecstasy, I was
shocked to feel my eyes filling with tears!  I was actually so happy, I was
nearly crying!

Suddenly I noticed that Jake's cock was starting to slide back out of me.
He was pulling his pelvis upward.  Before he totally dislodged, he plunged
back down into me, causing me to groan with passion.  Instantly he pulled
back out again.  Then pressed swiftly back into me.  Again I groaned.  With
each movement of Jake's cock, he was rubbing my prostate, and as his body
pressed against mine, it rubbed against the underside of my cock.  The
combined feeling was glorious!

Jake never stopped kissing me, as he began to thrust his hips up and down,
fucking me.  And I didn't want him to stop kissing me, or fucking me.  It
felt even more fantastic than just having him inside me!  My feeling of
euphoria grew, and all too soon, I felt my orgasm building.

Almost as if he was feeling what I was feeling, Jake began pummeling his
hips back and forth, and grinding his mouth against mine.  I could barely
breathe anymore, we were both breathing so hard.

A few seconds later, Jake was pistoning in and out of me, slamming himself
as deeply into my bowels as possible, and at the same time assaulting my
prostate, and grinding against my cock.  Our nostrils were wide open as we
breathed in and out in unison, quickly and deeply, and our tongues fought a
battle in our coupled mouths.  As my orgasm built, the overall joyous
feeling in my body grew stronger as well, and again more tears welled in my
eyes.  Fighting to hold off my joyous explosion, I wrapped my legs up
around the small of Jake's back, but left him enough room, to continue
fucking me!

Suddenly, I was at my climax!  I held off as long as I could, then, just as
I felt my body was going to explode, I groaned deeply and loudly, and blew
a huge glob of semen all over Jake's belly, just as he was plunging home,
deep into me, and groaning deeply himself.  Jake was cumming too!  At the
same moment I was!

Suddenly, as my climax built again, I felt tears of joy dribbing from the
corners of my eyes, as Jake continued passionately kissing me, and slamming
his cock in and out of me, spasming again with joy himself!  I ejaculated
again, spraying Jake's belly with more sticky wetness.

We lay locked in a tight embrace, wrapped in each other's arms, my legs
around Jake's hips, as they continuend to fly up and down, as he shoved his
manhood in and out of me.  Our mouths stayed locked together in passion, as
we both mewed and moaned, while our bodies spasmed with the most joyous
feelings I'd ever experienced in my life.

As our mutual orgasm continued, I lost all conscious thought.  All I could
focus on was the awesome feelings I was experiencing!  For a minute, I was
so consumed by what I was experiencing, I wondered if it was possible that
I'd died and gone to heaven!

Slowly then, my orgasm began to recede.  And I never thought I'd feel the
way I felt then, but I was happy it was ending.  It had been so good, that
I was certain if it had continued, I would've died right there in Jake's
arms, with his penis buried deep inside me!

Jake's orgasm must've slowed down too, because he stopped fucking and
kissing me so hard, slowing his speed down continually, until he finally
stopped, leaving himself buried to the hilt inside me yet, and our mouths
still coupled.  He finally broke our kiss, and I sucked in a deep breath of
cold air through my mouth, which felt oddly swollen.

As Jake looked wonderously down at me, I shuddered, and snuffled, and felt
more tears running down my cheeks.  Jake smiled and kissed them away, as we
both heaved for breath yet.  My balls actually ached, I'd cum so much!  It
was a good ache though.

"Fuck!" he gasped finally, a minute later.

"Yeah!" I said, in a raspy voice.

He smiled at me, and I smiled at him.

A moment later, as I squeezed with my ass muscles as best I could, I felt
Jake's softened, but slick cock pop out of my ass, like a little turd.  I
was disappointed he wasn't in me anymore.

Smiling, Jake crawled up off me, and my belly felt cold where it was
smeared with my cum.  Instantly Jake leaned foward, and began licking all
of it off me!  Some of his tongue action on my belly tickled a little and I
giggled.  when he'd licked me clean, he sucked my small, flacid dick in his
mouth and rolled it around in his mouth a moment, before spitting it out.

Jake looked down at my ass then, and smiled, and pressed his finger against
my hole.  It slid inside with complete ease.  I let out a soft moan as his
finger slid over my swollen prostate.

"You're starting to leak my jizz out!" Jake said, smiling, as he pulled his
finger back out of me.  "C'mon, to the bathroom!"

Jake led me then to the bathroom, but it was a little late.  Apparently my
hole wasn't fully closed yet, and I felt his cum dribbling out of me, and
down the inside of my thighs.

When we got to the bathroom, Jake wiped my thighs and had me sit on the
toilet.  While he got the shower ready for us, I let his semen run back out
of me.  Eventually, I didn't feel anymore coming back out, so I wiped, and
got up, and we got into the shower and showered together, washing each
other.

As I was leaning against the tiled shower wall, like Jake had told me to
do, and he was gently washing my ass, I thought about what we'd just done.
As Jake's finger slid into my rectum, it suddenly dawned on me.  He'd
fucked me like a man would fuck a woman.  Even though he was gay and liked
guys, he'd used me like I was a woman!

Before I knew it, tears welled up in my eyes, and broke loose again.  This
time though, they weren't tears of joy.  They were tears of frustration and
sadness!  I had to be gay if I let a guy use me like that, and liked it as
much as I did!

Jake realized I was crying and straightened up.

"Hey!" he said, tenderly, reaching up and rubbing away my tears.  "I know
what you're feeling.  It's OK.  It'll be OK - I promise!"

Then he kissed me tenderly on the cheek and took me in his arms and held
me, til I calmed down.

After a minute, I apologized, and got busy rinsing off.

We were quiet then, as we got out of the tub, and dried off.  Jake wanted
to dry me off, and I wanted him to, too, but at the same time I needed to
do it myself - to reassert some of my independence.  Looking a little sad,
he let me.

We went to Jake's room then, and got dressed.

As I was getting ready to leave, he asked if I'd come again the next day.

"Of course!" I wanted to cry out.  "I love what we did and I love you too!"

I didn't say anything though, and thought a moment.  I was too confused to
know what to do.  Finally, I just shrugged, and said I had to go.

As I left, Jake looked upset, and I felt bad.  I couldn't go back though to
try and fix things.  Quickly I broke into a run.  As I ran, tears began to
stream down my cheeks again.

I'm supposed to be straight!  How could I love having another guy's cock
shoved deep inside me so much?  How could I love kissing him so much?  How
could I love HIM so much???  I didn't want any of it to be true, but at the
same time it felt so fucking wonderful - how couldn't I want it???  Why the
fuck did the world have to give a shit about whether someone was straight
or gay??? If they didn't care, it wouldn't matter, and I could be happy!

After running a couple blocks, and thinking these frantic thoughts, I
stopped and dried my face, before someone came along and saw me crying.
Then, breathing deeply, I tried to get home quickly, thinking nothing, but
about the things around me - the grass, the sky, the street, anything -
anything but Jake!

That evening I managed to get through my meal, then went to my room saying
I was going to do my homework.  I didn't do my homework.  I didn't call
Kristin.  I just laid on my bed thinking.

I knew for sure, I wanted to be straight.  But, I also knew now, that I
didn't really enjoy sex with girls.  Even the little bit that had been OK
with Kristin, was merely pleasant.  I knew I'd never have with her, or any
girl, what I had had with Jake earlier.  When his cock was shoved deep
inside me, and our mouths were locked together, and we were rocking back
and forth cumming together - that had to be the most awesome feeling I
would ever experience, and it was never going to happen with a girl.

"Fuck!" I whined, as tears filled my eyes again.

Not knowing what else to do, I got up, stripped, crawled into bed, and
exhausted, I cried my self to sleep.

                        * * *

The next day at school, Kristin was mad at me for not calling her.  I lied
and told her my mother wouldn't let me.  She asked if I could come over
after school.  I thought a minute and decided the best thing I could do
would be to throw myself into being heterosexual, and ignore my feelings
for other guys.  So, smiling determinedly I said I'd be there.  Kristin was
all smiles all day.  Oddly, I felt doomed.

At lunch time, I found a note in my locker.  Jake had shoved it through the
air vent slot in top.  It said simply "Come over this afternoon!"

Although I'd told Kristin I was coming over, by afternoon, all I could
think of was having Jake's cock inside me again!  When I got home, I called
Kristin and again lied to her, saying I couldn't come over.  Then I quickly
showered, and ran back to Jake's.  When I got there, he asked me if I was
OK, and I lied to him and said I was, and changed the subject, asking him
if he'd fuck me again.  He grinned and took my hand, and led me to the
stairs.  We had a repeat performance of the previous afternoon, and again,
it was awesome!  I didn't cry this time though - not after our encounter,
nor on my way home, but again, I was confused.  Not quite so confused
though.  I was beginning to understand, I was probably gay.

That night, as I laid in bed, I thought more about it.  I realized then,
that while I liked having sexual acts performed on my by guys, unless I
liked doing them to guys too, maybe I wasn't gay!  Oddly though, my dick
stiffened at the thought of sucking on Jake.  It worried me, that I was
excited about sucking on Jake, but, I thought, maybe it would be
disgusting, and I wouldn't like it!  With that hope running through my
mind, I finally fell asleep.

                       * * *

The next day, I told Kristin up front that I wasn't coming over, and I went
to Jake's again.  This time, as we took off our clothes, I took a deep
breath, and asked him if I could try sucking on him a little.  He smiled
and said "Sure! As long as you're sure you want to try it!"

"I am," said.

He furrowed his brow a little as he looked at me.  Maybe it was because I
wasn't smiling.  My dick was semi-stiff though.

We got on the bed then, and Jake laid down, and I got on my knees between
his legs, and leaned forward.  As soon as I caught a whiff of Jake's crotch
scent, my cock hardened, and I knew I was doomed.  Tentatively I picked up
Jake's engorged organ, and studied it closely, as he peered down at me with
a quizzical smile on his face.  I licked the head then, which was moist
with pre-cum.  My heart sank, as I felt my cock surge again, when I
realized the flavor of his pre-cum wasn't bad.  Actually, in that small
dose, I kind of liked it... um... I actually liked it a lot!

I leaned down again then, and sucked the entire head of Jake's cock into my
mouth, and began rolling it around a little, as he gasped, softly.  Then, a
moment later, I plunged my mouth down fully over his hardon, and sucked all
of it into my mouth, up to his pubic hair.  As my nose became buried in his
dark, thick bush, I breathed in deeply, and as he moaned with pleasure, I
realized sucking on him wasn't disgusting, actually, it was actually
exciting, to be sucking on his hard cock.  As he flexed it in response to
the pleasure I was giving him, it felt alive in my mouth, and I even
thought I could feel it pulsing, as his blood pumped through it.  My mind
started to leave behind any thoughts about hoping I wouldn't like sucking
on guys, as I began to realize how great it felt to be giving Jake so much
pleasure!

I sucked on Jake for a minute then, the same way he usually sucked on me,
until he suddenly gasped that he was going to cum.  Quickly, I pulled off
him, and looked down at him, as he lay breathing deeply.  I waited a
minute, then leaned over again, and like Jake usually did to me, I started
to carefully lick his scrotum.  After a minute, I sucked first on one nut,
then the other.  I couldn't help smiling as he seemed a little nervous as I
took each testicle in my mouth, just as I had the first could times.  When
I finished sucking on Jake's balls, which wasn't bad either, I decided it
was time to try the ultimate test.  I reached down then and pulled up on
Jake's legs.

"You sure about this?" he asked, surprised.

When I nodded, he looked curiously at me, but allowed me to pull his legs
up.  I leaned down then, and peered closely at his ass, as he continued
looking down at me.  Jake's ass was gorgeous.  His hole was a tight, dark
pink pucker, surrounded by a sparse fringe of dark hairs protruding from
his creamy skin.  My heart sank deeper, as I realized as I breathed in and
relished Jake's aroma, that I really wanted to eat his ass out!

I hesitated for just a minute, then suddenly dove for Jake's rosebud, and
began kissing and licking it!  And it wasn't disgusting either!  In fact,
my cock started throbbing with desire, when Jake started moaning happily!

Again, I stopped worrying about whether I was gay or not, as I became
engrossed in what I was doing.  I licked away on Jake's ass for a while,
then decided to try tongue-fucking him too, ignoring any thoughts that he
might have shit on the other side of his sphincter.  All I wanted to do
right then was get my tonuge inside Jake!  As I poked and prodded with my
tongue, Jake's muscle relaxed more and more, and suddenly, as I pressed
hard at one point, he gasped, and I felt tongue pushing through his tight
ring!

"Oh Fuck!" Jake gasped as I began sliding my tongue in and out of him.

As I shoved my tongue in and out of him, I realized again that what I was
doing wasn't disgusting, and that I loved giving Jake so much joy!  The
only problem I had was, I couldn't reach his prostate with my tongue!  I
finally gave up trying, figuring I'd ask him later how to go about doing
that, and decided to attack his gland with my finger instead.

I disengaged from Jake's ass, and sat back for a moment, and reached for
the lube, and squirted some on my fingers.  As Jake was opening his eyes to
look down at me, I quickly slid my middle finger up inside him, just like
he usually did to me.  Within seconds of feeling around, I located his love
lump, and began rubbing it.  Jake began groaning passionately then.

I could see Jake's cock throbbing with each beat of his heart, and the tip
of it was wet with pre-cum again.  Quickly I picked it up, and licked the
drop of pre-cum off.  Again, I was disappointed, but happy too, as I
confirmed that I liked the flavor of his semen.

Looking down at Jake and realizing the pleasure I was causing him, caused
me to stop thinking about my problem.  Suddenly I just wanted to give Jake
as much pleasure as possible!  So, I dove for his cock and began sucking
swiftly up and down on it, as I rapidly fingered his prostate.  Jake's body
twitched, and he gave a high-pitched cry then, which died into a passionate
moan, and I couldn't help smiling.

Within seconds, Jake gasped urgently, "Stevie!  I'm gonna blow man!"

I wasn't sure how I'd feel about taking a whole mouthload of Jake's juice,
but I wanted to try - not to see if I'd hate it - but because I wanted to
give him as much pleasure as he always gave me!  So, I kept going, as I
felt his body tensing up.

"Gonna blow!" he gasped a couple seconds later, as he went stiff as a board
and tried to hold back.  I kept going as Jake's body stiffened completely,
and his balls pulled up as close to his body as they could get.

Suddenly Jake growled deep in his throat, and as his body began to relax, I
felt a flood of warm, salty tasting fluid forcefully squirt into my mouth.
I couldn't believe how much jism he blew!  I almost gagged there was so
much!  Like Jake had done, I quickly swallowed it.  As I did, I
contemplated the flavor.  At first, with my mouth full of it, I wasn't sure
I liked it, but once I'd swallowed, the taste in my mouth wasn't bad.

Before I could think anymore about it, Jake tensed, and exploded again,
groaning passionately, as again my mouth filled to almost overflowing with
his sperm.

Again, I swallowed quickly, and kept working on Jake.  I was happy for him
- that I was able to cause him so much joy, but at the same time, sad for
myself, as I realized that because I wasn't disgusted at all, and in fact,
kind of liked what I was doing, that it probably meant I was gay.

I didn't have time to think or worry though.  Again, Jake tensed and blew
another load into my mouth, which I quickly swallowed.

As I continued sucking on Jake's cock and fingering his prostate, he put
his hands on my head and gently began rubbing them around in my hair.  I
took it to mean he was happy and grateful, and continued sucking and
finger-fucking him, til he was finally finished.  Each time he spasmed
after that, his hands stopped moving, and gripped my skull a little more
firmly.

When his orgasm seemed to be over, I kept sucking on Jake and gently
rubbing his gland for a minute.  As I did, his hands lovingly rubbed my
head.

Suddenly, about a half minute later, Jake's body tensed a little and
trembled, and I tasted a bit more cum that seeped from his dick into my
mouth.  I knew then that his orgasm was completely over, and I pulled off
him and slid my finger out of his rectum.  Glancing at it, I was surprised,
but happy, that there was no shit on it.

Looking at Jake, and seeing how happy he appeared, I finally gave up and
admitted to myself that I liked giving him the blow job, and I even liked
the flavor of his juice.  I knew then, I had to be gay!  My only
consolation was that I'd finally returned some of the joy to Jake that he'd
given me so often!

Jake's smile faded as he looked at me, and looking concerned, he asked me
what was wrong.  Sighing, I explained.  He smiled sadly at me as I finished
telling him.

"I wondered that too when I first figured out I was gay," He said.  "Listen
- just because you liked doing me, as much as I liked you doing it, and you
like when I do you too... doesn't necessarily mean you're gay.  You could
be bi!  Maybe you'll find you like doing all this with a girl who can do it
well too!"

My eyes opened a little wider as I looked at Jake and smiled.  I hadn't
thought of it that way!  I did kind of like sex with Kristin, even if it
wasn't great!  Maybe if I had a girl who was good at it - I'd like it
better!  Maybe I was bi - and not just gay!

"Didn't think of that before did you?" he asked.

Smiling I said I hadn't.

"OK, well, til you can figure it out, how 'bout you calm down and lay down,
and let me give you a blowjob like you just gave me?" he asked, hopefully.

Grinning, I nodded.

Quickly we changed places then, and Jake gave me an awesome suck and
finger-fuck job!

That night in bed, I thought about what Jake had said, and decided I needed
to have sex with a girl some more to see if I liked it at all.
Unfortunately, at my age, no girls would probably want to do anything -
except Kristin.  Damn that girl was a little slut!  Smiling, I decided
maybe I'd try to do more with her to see.

                  * * *

The next day at school, Kristin was elated when I asked her if we could get
together at her house after school.  Grinning, she said we'd be alone.  I
was stoked to feel my cock bulge a little at the thought, and grinned back
at her.

We met at her locker after school, and went right to her house.  As soon as
we got there, she led me to her room.  When we got there, she closed the
door, turned toward me, and reached down and groped my genitals.  I was
happy I had a semi going, so she wouldn't wonder about me!

"Let's get naked," I said.

Grinning, we both began stripping.

As soon as Kristin was naked, I reached for her nipples and began tweaking
them.  She squealed and twitched, as her face flushed and she grinned
wildly at me.  After a minute, I reached for her twat with my right hand
and cupped it, letting my middle finger press into her cunt crease.  She
was dripping with hot, smelly, cunt juice!  Again she squealed with delight
as I began rubbing her nipple-like clit.  As she squirmed with delight, I
felt her hand wrap around my cock, which quickly stiffened fully as she
began masturbating me!

"Kristin!" I said, breathlessly after a minute.  I stopped rubbing her
clit, but didn't take my hand from her cunt.  "I know we're not supposed to
fuck!  But, I so want to feel what it feels like to slide my cock into your
cunt!"

"I know!" She gasped.  "I want to feel it too!"

We both looked at each other, fraught with desire.

Finally, I said, "What if I just put it in you for a minute, then take it
right back out?"

She looked worried at first, but as I started fingering her clit again, she
smiled, and her nostrils flared.

"OK!" she said.  "But just for a minute!  And you CAN'T cum in me!"

Grinning, I pulled my hand from her and promised not to.

Kristin said, "How should we do it?"

"Lay down on your bed and spread your legs," I suggested, as I felt my cock
throbbing.

Smiling, she quickly laid down on her bed and spread her legs apart.
Quickly, I got on the bed, kneeling between them, and laid down on top of
her. I moved into place, so my cock was laying on her bush, then reached
down and pushing my hips up off her, directed the head of my cock toward
cunt opening.

"Ready?" I asked, as the tip of my cock nestled in her hot, wet, crevice,
sending shivers of pleasure through me.

"Uh huh," she said, looking a little worried again.

Gently as I could, I began to press my hips downward.

"Wait!" Kristin cried.

I stopped, and instantly felt her hand close around mine, which was still
holding my cock, directing it at her.

"It's more this way," she said, pulling my hand downward a little.  "Push
now."

She let go of my hand then, and as I pushed again, I felt my the head of my
cock pushing into her hot, dripping, tunnel.  I pulled my hand away, and
pressed forward, and suddenly, I felt my cock slide easily up inside her,
as she gasped passionately!

I couldn't believe how easily I slid into her.  And how hot her cunt felt,
as it gripped my cock.  It felt incredible!  Hot, Wet, and soft!

"Mmmmm..." she moaned.  "It feels so good!"

"Yeah!" I gasped, smiling.

After a few seconds, I pulled my hips up, sliding back out of Kristin.
Then, just before I pulled out, I plunged back deep down inside her.  The
sensation was awesome!  As I settled down on top of her again though,
Kristin looked scared.

"You have to get out of me Steve!  We can't fuck!" she cried.  "I don't
want to get pregnant, and you don't even have a condom on!"

Sadly, I knew she was right, and pulled my hips back up, and let my cock
slide out of her.

"Sorry," I said.  "It felt so good!  I just had to try one stroke!"

"I know!" Kristin cried, in a disappointed tone.  "I really wanted to go
all the way, but we can't!

Frustrated I thought for a minute, then smiled as I came up with an
alternate idea.

"How 'bout I fuck you up the ass instead?" I said, smiling.

Kristin looked blankly at me for a minute, then finally said, "I suppose we
could do that."

"Cool!" I said, grinning, as my cock, which was still wet with her cunt
juice, throbbed with desire yet.

I asked her then if there was anything we could use for lube, like KY jelly
anywhere in her house.

She smiled deviously and said she'd be right back.  She left for a moment,
and returned quickly with a handful of KY.

"Matt has a tube in the drawer by his bed!" she said, grinning devilishly.
"He won't miss some!"

She reached down then and wrapped her lube-filled hand around my cock.  I
gasped slightly, because the KY felt cold, but smiled as she began sliding
her hand up and down my rod, greasing me up.

A moment later, she stopped, then got on her hands and knees on her bed and
said, "How's this?"

As I gazed at her ass, the pucker of which was winking at me, I felt a
surge of desire to bury my cock deep inside her.

"Awesome!" I said, grinning.  She grinned back at me.

I stepped over to the bed, and got on it, on my knees, between her legs.

"Go slow at first!" she said.

"OK," I said.

I knew from my times with Jake that I should use my fingers to loosen her
up, but for some reason, I felt an aversion too sticking my fingers in her
asshole.  For some reason, it seemed like a disgusting idea, even though I
didn't mind putting them in her cunt.  In fact I loved putting them in her
cunt.  I didn't understand why I had this feeling that I didn't want to put
them in her asshole, even though I had no problem with the thought of
stuffing my cock up there!

Anyway, all I knew was I wanted to get my cock in her, and fuck her, so I
just got into place behind her, and using my hand, pointed my dick at her
pucker.

slowly I began to push forward.

"Ohhhh!!!" Kristin gasped, and she grimmaced, as I felt the head of my cock
press through her sphincter.

"You OK?" I asked, stopping, concerned she'd want me to pull out.

"Just wait a sec!" she gasped, as she lowered her torso to the bed, leaving
her ass poking up in the air in front of my hips, with the head of my cock
still stuck through her hole.

I waited then, until after a few seconds Kristin told me to go ahead again.
I started pushing forward then, and it felt good as I started sliding into
her.  Again though, her body felt very hot around my cock!

I slowly pushed forward then, as Kristin grimmaced and gasped softly a
couple times, until I was all the way inside her, with my pelvis pressed up
against her.

"Fuck!" she gasped.  "I can't believe how big you feel!"

I couldn't help grinning then.

Finally after a few seconds, I began pulling out.  It felt excellent to
have my cock sliding through another person's body!  When I was almost all
the way out, I plunged slowly back into Kristin, as she groaned.

Slowly I continued my movements then, sliding back out, then plunging back
into her, and within a few seconds, I was slowly long-dicking her, as she
groaned with of my inward thrusts.

After a minute, I started to speed up, and soon I was shoving my hips back
and forth at a good pace, as Kristin grunted and gasped into her pillow.

As I felt my orgasm starting to build, I realized she didn't seem very
excited, so I did something I'd seen in one of my brother's porn magazines.
I reached down around her, and began fingering her pussy - more
specifically, rubbing her clit, as I continued fucking her.  Suddenly,
Kristin became alive again, and her grunts and groans were pleasure
related, rather than just generated by the pressure of my inward thrusts.

As my orgasm built, so did Kristin's.  She climaxed first though, suddenly
crying out and thrashing and squeezing my cock with her asshole, then
releasing it.  Her excitement sped up my own climax, and soon, as she was
still spasming, I exploded and groaned, pumping her intestines full of my
jism.

I kept on fucking Kristin, until my own orgasm had ended.  Her's was still
going though, and suddenly, frantically, she began ripping my hand from her
crotch, and saying, "Stop already!"

Instantly I stopped, plunging fully into her one last time.

"You OK?" I asked, concerned.

"Yes!" she hissed, heaving for breath.  "That - was - awesome!  But -
enough - already!"

I grinned then, and pulled out of her, and twisted around and flopped down
on my back next to her.

I grinned up at her, and she smiled as best as she could, as we both panted
heavily.

After a minute, she turned and laid down next to me.

"So, that was good?" she asked.

"Uh huh? For you too?" I asked.

"Uh huh!" she said, smiling broadly.

We both lay quietly for a minute, lost in thought.  As I contemplated what
we'd just done, I realized I had really enjoyed it.... This made me very
happy!  But... I also couldn't ignore the fact that I realized the sex I
had with Jake was better!  So... was I bi, because I liked it with Kristin?
Or was I gay because I liked it better with Jake?

I didn't have time to think about it anymore, becuase as we lay there
recovering, each thinking our own thoughts, we suddenly heard noises
downstairs!

"Shit!" Kristin gasped.  "Hurry up and get up and get dressed!"

Quickly we jumped off the bed, and ripped our clothes on.  The noises were
still going on downstairs, as we opened the door to Kristin's room.

Quietly we snuck downstairs, only to be caught at the bottom by her brother
Matt!  And Jake was with him!

Jake grinned when he saw me, and I couldn't help smiling back at him.  Matt
and Kristin didn't notice, because Matt was glaring at her.

"You're not supposed to have boys up in your room!" he said, sternly, still
glaring at her.

I noticed then, her hair was a mess, and her face was flushed.  My own face
felt hot too.

I felt myself blush deeper, as Matt's attention turned toward me.  He
stepped a little closer to me, looking threateningly at me, and breathed in
through his nose, almost as if he was sniffing me.

"C'mon Matt!" Jake said suddenly.  "I only have a few minutes!"

Matt's concentration was broken, and he looked at Jake.

"C'mon!" Jake said, a little urgently.

Out of my peripheral vision, I saw the lump in Matt's crotch bulge outward
a little more.  Obviously they were going to go have sex too!

Jake grinned at Matt lewdly, and Matt forgot about us, and said, "OK, let's
go."

He headed upstairs then.  Kristin quickly fled toward the kitchen.

As Jake turned to follow Matt, he mouthed the word "Tommorow?" to me and
looked questioningly.  I grinned and nodded, and he grinned too.  As he
took off after Matt, I couldn't help noticing the tent in the front of his
jeans too, and suddenly I felt a little jealous that he was going to be
with Matt, instead of me.

When I got to the kitchen, I told Kristin I thought I should leave, so that
if Matt came back downstairs, he wouldn't find me there, and might forget
we'd been upstairs.  She seemed disappointed, but agreed.  Then she asked
me if I would come over again the next day.  I lied and told her I was
busy, and she looked more disappointed.  I told her I'd see her in school,
and left.

On my way home, I was happier than I'd been in a while.  I was happy
because, I'd had sex with a girl and liked it.  I was a little disappointed
that I still thought sex with Jake was better though.  And I was depressed
as I thought of him being with Matt.  But then, the next day he wanted me
to come over, so I was happy about that too.

With all the conflicting thoughts washing through my mind, I almost walked
right past my own house when I got there!

I spent the rest of the night contemplating whether I was gay or bi.  I
didn't come up with any answers though.  Oddly, I didn't feel as distraught
anymore about it though.  I slept well that night.

               * * *

The next day after school, I went to Jake's.  Happily, we were alone!
Immediately we went up to his room.  As we were undressing, he asked me
about the day before - had I had sex with Kristin?

"Did you have sex with Matt?" I countered, still feeling a little jealous
of Jake's and Matt's relationship.

Jake smirked a little and nodded.  Then said, "and?"

"Yeah," I said, disappointed that I'd been right about the two of
them. Dully I added, "Me and Kristin did it too."

He looked a little quizzically at me, so I told him then about all we'd
done.  He seemed a little concerned when I told him how I'd put my dick in
her cunt.  He was relieved when I said I pulled it out after only one shove
in and out.  But, he lectured me anyway, telling me that even that could
cause me to blow my load in her if I wasn't careful, and I could get her
pregnant.  He told me that sometimes there's some sperm in pre-cum too, and
that if I'd leaked any of that I could've gotten her pregnant too!  I
didn't realize that, and suddenly I was frightened, wondering if that
might've happened.  He sensed my fear and told me to relax, that it
probably was a long-shot that it could've happened that one time, but
warned me to never do it again.  I agreed.  Getting Kristin pregnant was
the last thing I needed!  Although... if everyone found out, it'd stop any
questions anyone had about my orientation!

"So how'd you like it with her?" Jake asked, changing the subject.

He looked disappointed when I told him I'd really enjoyed fucking her up
the ass, and I got off great.  But, he smiled when I told him I liked being
with him better!

"So... she sucked you a little and you tried putting it in her cunt, then
you butt-fucked her!  How come you never ate her out?" Jake asked.

I crinkled my nose and said, "There's no way I'd ever be able to do that.
Her stench down there makes me want to vomit!"

Jake grinned and said, "I know what you mean!  Think you'd ever rim her
ass?"

I thought a moment, and remembered how I hadn't wanted to even put my
finger in her, and sadly I shook my head.

"So, do you you think this means I'm gay?" I asked.

Jake smiled and looked at me a moment, and said, "You know, you worry too
much about whether you're gay or bi.  The fact you like doing things with
girls as well as guys means you're bi - OK?  You're bi!"

"Really?" I asked, unable to hide a smile.

Jake looked a little annoyed, but smiled and nodded.

"What's wrong?" I asked, realizing he seemed upset.

Jake looked seriously at me for a minute, then said, "It's just... you seem
to feel there's a problem with a guy who's totally gay, but not with a guy
who's bi.  I mean - both those guys want to do it with guys!  So, they're
really both gay!  Just the bi guy is straight too.  So... do you have
problems with a guy being gay?"

I wasn't sure what he was driving at, but I thought for a minute, then
said, "No."

He smiled a little then and said, "How come you're so stuck on hoping
you're bi and not gay then?"

Again, I thought and finally, I said, "I don't know really.  But... I guess
- well - so that I'm able to be straight in front of everyone.  I mean, I
get picked on enough by a lot of the guys at school who think I'm gay - if
I can at least try to act straight - maybe they won't pick on me as much as
if they really think I'm gay."

"Oh!" Jake said.  He thought a minute, then said, "I don't know if that'll
really work.  I think if anyone's gonna pick on you, they're gonna do it
anyway.  A lot of guys are assholes!  But, I get why you're so stuck on
that now.  I hope for you, it'll work."

He looked sadly at me, and it suddenly dawned on me that maybe he got
picked on at school too.  I felt bad then for being so self-centered about
my problem.

I was going to ask Jake then if he was picked on too, but maybe he sensed
my coming question, and quickly he changed the subject.

"So, you think having sex with me is better than with Kristin?" he asked,
the corner of his mouth turning up a little.

I smiled and nodded shyly.

"Well, I'm not sure how you could think that's true, if you butt-fucked
her, but you've never had your dick up my ass!" he said.

As I looked at Jake, his eyes twinkled, and he smiled slightly.

"How'd you like to try fucking me for a change?" he asked.

I was so used to Jake fucking me, and loving it, that I'd never thought
about trying fucking him!  The thought of sliding inside Jake for a change
caused my cock to flex with desire, and I couldn't keep from smiling.

"Really?" I asked.

"Sure!" Jake said, grinning.  "We've done everything else pretty much.
Might as well try swapping positions once!"

I grinned as he reached for the tube of lubricant and laid it on his bed,
then crawled onto the bed.

"Let's suck each other a little first though," he suggested, smiling.

Smiling, I got on the bed too.

"Lay down in the opposite direction, and we can '69' a little.  We haven't
done that yet either," he said.

The prospect of sucking on Jake while he sucked on me excited me.
Grinning, I got on the bed so my face was in front of his dick, and my dick
was by his face.  Immediately, Jake reached for my penis and began sucking
on it.  I did the same, and within a few seconds, we'd both opened our
legs, and began fondling each other's balls, as we sucked on each other's
cocks!  It felt great!  And I really enjoyed smelling Jake's rich, musky
crotch scent while I sucked on him!

Jake licked a finger and let it slide into my ass crack.  I did the same,
and soon we were both fingering each other's rosebuds!  That was really
nice too!

After a minute, Jake surprised me by pulling off my cock, and leaning
forward a little more.  Then I felt him spreading my cheeks, which was
quickly followed by his hot wet tongue lapping at my pucker!  Grinning I
pulled off Jake's cock and attacked his asshole similarly!  Then, for a
minute or so, we both concentrated on nothing but probing and drilling our
tongues into each other.  Jake's mouth felt fantastic as he worked on my
ass.  And I could tell he was enjoying my mouth on his too.

After a while, I began to notice that Jake was tongue-fucking me in a
rather urgent way, and I began to feel my orgasm start building.  As great
as it felt, I really wanted to fuck Jake instead, so I stopped.

When I stopped, Jake pulled away from me as well, and panting asked,
"what's wrong?"

"Nothing," I replied, breathing a little heavily as well.  "Just, I thought
I was going to fuck you!"

"Oh," Jake said.  "OK."

He started to untangle himself from my legs and I did the same.

"Wanta try the doggie position once?" he asked.

I thought a minute, but decided I didn't want to fuck him the same way I'd
fucked Kristin.

"No!" I said.  As he looked at me surprised, I said, "I like the way you
fuck me, and want to do it that way!"

Jake smiled and said, "That's cool.  I like that a lot too!"

Smiling, I took the tube of lubricant he'd picked up and was handing me.  I
squirted some into my hand and greased up my hardon, which was throbbing
with anticipation, as Jake got comfortable on the bed.

A moment later, as Jake pulled his legs up, I got on the bed, and gazed
down at his gorgeous ass!  Smiling, I leaned forward and attacked his
pucker with my tongue again.  It was still loose from my earlier work on
it, so my tongue slide right up inside him, causing him to moan with
pleasure!

I ate Jake's asshole out for a minute or so, then backed away, and slid a
greasy finger inside him.  He moaned as I rubbed the tip of it back and
forth over his prostate, and I saw a glob of precum appear on the tip of
his cock.

After a minute, I added a second finger.  He flinched slightly, so I slowed
down a moment.  Shortly though I began pushing both fingers in and out of
him, and his groans let me know he was enjoying it.

"Give me your cock Stevie!" he said, finally, smiling up at me.

Grinning, I positioned myself over him and held the head of my cock up to
his hole.  It nestled comfortably in the center of his pucker, which was
slightly open from all my fingering.  Then, as I leaned over him, I pushed
downward, slowly, but steadily, and Jake gasped softly as my manhood slid
into him.

My dick's not quite as big as Jake's, so it wasn't too much for Jake to
handle, so I didn't stop, like he had to for me.  Instead, I just slid all
the way up into him, until my pelvis was pressing against him.

"Damn you feel nice!" Jake said, smiling up at me.

"I know!" I said.  "I don't know why, but doing this with you is so much
better than with Kristin!"

"Maybe it's because of this," Jake said, and he leaned up toward me, and
kissed me gently on the lips.  I kissed him back.

Then, as he sank back down onto the bed, I leaned further over him, and
kissed him on the lips.  He responded as well.  Hungrily then, I opened my
mouth, like Jake usually did with me, and he opened his too, and we began
kissing each other, deeply, and passionately.  Our kiss continued, as I lay
on top of Jake with my cock buried inside him, and my excitement grew.
After a minute, I began pulling my hips up, sliding out of Jake's hole.  I
stopped before I fully pulled out, and then let my hips sink downward
again.  Jake groaned deep in his throat, as our kiss continued, and my cock
filled his rectum again.  Slowly, I continued pulling out and pushing back
into Jake then, as the whole time we continued kissing.

Eventually, of course, as my excitement grew, my speed increased, and soon,
I was fucking Jake rapidly, as our kissing, and our breathing through our
noses, became more urgent.

After a minute, I felt my orgasm starting to build, and Jake's body seemed
harder to me.  He must've been tensing up as his own climax was approaching
as well.

Suddenly I felt Jake's legs wrapping around behind me, like I did to him,
and he began rocking a little under me.  I started to slam my hips up and
down, pounding my meat in and out of Jake, and once again, I realized we
were breathing not only through our own noses, but also through each
others, as desperately we both fought to hold off our imminent orgasms.

I heard a cry escape Jake's throat then, and suddenly felt his asshole
clench my cock a little - then a blast of warm wetness splashed my belly.
Jake sighed as his body relaxed for a second.  He tensed almost immediately
again and again squeezed my cock and blew more cum between us!  My orgasm
was about to start too, so I started fucking Jake even harder, and fought
to hold back.  AS he came for the third time, I lost my battle, and
groaning, I blasted a river of cum deep up Jake's love canal.

As I continued fucking Jake, the two of us remained lost in our embrace,
and our bodies spasmed joyously for a few more seconds, soaking the space
between our stomachs, and coating the insides of Jake's bowels.

Finally, both our orgasms ended, and I slowed my pace, so I was very slowly
sliding in and out of Jake yet.  The urgency left our kiss, and for a
minute, we continued kissing each other, but much more gently.

Jake grunted after a few seconds and his asshole contracted again slightly,
and a moment later, I gave a shudder and oozed more cum too.

Finally, I pulled my mouth from Jake's and collapsed on top of him,
squishing his semen between us, as we both heaved for breath, and my dick,
which was still inside him, began to shrink.

"So..." I said, after a minute.  "Is doing it with Matt as good for you?"

Jake smiled and turned and kissed my ear.  Then he surprised me by saying,
"You have to ask Silly?"

I pulled up off him and looked down at him, a little uncertain of exactly
what he meant.

He blushed as he looked at me, and shyly he said, "It's OK with Matt, but
you're the best Stevie!  I thought you realized that!"

I was shocked when I suddenly felt my chest warm up, and my eyes fill with
tears.  As I fought to not start crying, Jake grinned and hugged me to him.

"I love you Stevie!  That's why it's so much better with you!" he said.

I buried my face against his neck then, as some of my tears began dribbling
out of my eyes.

Jake loved me!  Instantly I realized I'd never felt anything so awesome,
and my heart felt ready to burst!  And then, I realized... I must be in
love with Jake too!  I couldn't hold back my tears then.  I knew Jake had
to be smiling as he wrapped his arms around me and held me, gently kissing
my shoulder, as I buried my face against him and wept softly with tears of
joy.

When I got control of myself, I pulled away from Jake, and looked down at
him.  He was smiling at me, but had an uncertain look in his eyes.

I smiled then and as I rubbed my face dry, I said, "I love you too Jake!"

Jake's eyes suddenly started to glisten, as his face lit up in a brilliant
smile, and I knew he had tears of joy in his eyes too!

He pulled me into a hug, and we just laid together, cemented at the stomach
with his cum, and my dick still plugging his hole.

After a couple minutes, my cock had shrunk enough that it slid out of Jake,
and laid slack against the depth of his anal crack.

Snickering, Jake said, "I think we need to shower!"

I agreed and crawled off him.  We went to the bathroom then, and Jake sat
on the toilet for a minute, while my jism leaked back out of him.  He peed
too.  After he finally got up, I peed as well.  Then, we got into the
shower together and washed each other.

Later, after we'd dried off, and dressed.  We sat down on Jake's bed, and I
looked at him and said, "So what now?"

Jake looked questioningly at me, so I said, "Well... you said you love me.
And... I love you... so... are we boyfriends or something now?"

Jake chuckled, but then looked serious and thought a minute.  Finally he
said, "Do you want to be?"

I thought then for a minute, and realized, I really didn't know.  I was
confused.  I loved Jake.  I knew that.  But... something didn't seem
quite... well... I didn't really know if I loved him that way or not.

Finally, I looked at Jake, and realized he looked confused too.

"I do love you Jake," I said, feeling guilty.  "And I really rather be with
you instead of Kristin... but... I'm not sure if I love you that way - or
what."

Jake smiled and said, "I know exactly what you mean man!  I love you to
death Stevie, but actually, I think I love you like I would if you were my
little brother!  Not like a boyfriend!"

I thought a minute, then grinned as I realized, that was just how I felt
about Jake too!  I loved him like he was a big brother to me!

When Jake saw my grin, he knew how I felt, and he grinned as well.

"So... what now?" I asked again, after we'd talked about it and decided
that's how we felt about each other.

"Well," Jake said.  "I think it's better than being boyfriends, because
boyfriends can come and go, but brothers are forever!"

I grinned when he said that, and he grinned back at me.

"So, I guess we can still both have boyfriends, or... if you want one, a
girlfriend, but we can always have each other!" He said.

"But... can we always have sex?" I asked, hopefully.

"Hell yeah!" Jake said, laughing.  "I want you to come by everyday after
school!"

"That's what I want too!" I cried, grinning.

So... that's what we're doing now.  Everyday after school, I go by Jake's
and we have the most fantastic sex!  Sometimes we just suck and rim each
other.  sometimes one of us fucks the other too.

Without dicussing it, both of us have stopped seeing Matt and Kristin as
well!  We may feel brotherly toward each other, but I'm a little confused
yet.  Maybe that's not all I feel for Jake.  One thing I do know - I'm not
confused about what I like anymore.  I'm sure that although I like sex with
girls, that it's a lot better with guys - especially if you care about
them!

                                  The End

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