Date: Wed, 9 Jan 2008 02:43:51 -0800 (PST) From: Tyler McHary Subject: Beat Of My Heart - 1 Disclaimer: This story contains homosexual themes, if you are offended by this or are not allowed to read this because of age or any other reasons... don't continue. Otherwise for the rest of the readers enjoy! This is my first story ever written and I hope you all like it! "I love you Eddie." "I love you too Bryan." Those were the last words that we said to each other... "AHHH! Why do we have to be here Dustin?" "Well...do you want the obvious answer?" "Shut up, I know. I'm so tired and rehearsal now doesn't sound like a good idea." Dustin and I (Bryan) were walking to our dance studio getting ready for another round of late night rehearsals. We've been friends for about two years now, but we have been dancing together since we were little kids. We didn't get along with each other back then because we were competition kids and we were always against each other. We decided that since we are on the same dance team that we should try to get along. It worked, we've been inseperable since. We're roomates and teammates and we are both gay. "The reason that you're tired is that you're OLD!" "Fuck you Dust, I'm only 22! Hell, you should learn to stop drinking from a bottle!" "Ooh good one Bry, the only bottle I'm drinking out of is from a fifth of vodka." "Yeah and guess who buys that for you asshat?" "One more year...that's all I'm saying one more year. It sucks being 20!" I walked ahead of him and went straight to the bathroom, literally there's a shower and everything, who knew that there was one in a dance studio? Anyways, I looked at myself in the mirror...I really didn't like what I saw. My hair was great as always, short with the bangs parted to the right side and it was dark brown. My body...not so much, I'm not fat, but I could lose a few pounds. I finally snapped myself out of the mirror and walked out of the bathroom. Then it happend, without even looking to where I was going I ran in to him. "Oh God! I'm so sorry!" I looked up in to his beautiful brown eyes, I couldn't speak. All I could do is just stare then all of a sudden he spoke again. "Um, hello? You there? I'm really sorry for bumping into you, I wasn't looking and I..." His voiced trailed off, I came back down from space and finally paid attention. "No, no. It's my fault, I wasn't looking at where I was going. Sorry, my name's Bryan." "Hey, I'm Eddie. It's nice to meet you." "Likewise, it looks like you just got out of class. How was it?" "It was fun, really hard. What are you here for?" "I have rehearsal which starts...NOW! Crap I gotta go, see you 'round the studio?" "Yeah, have fun!" "Trust me, I'll be really sore after this!" I started to go into the rehearsal room, then something he said caught me off guard... "If you need a massage, just let me know." And he walked out the door. "What did he just say?" I thought. "Was he trying to get fresh with me? I just met the guy! Although, he is cute...great chocolate brown eyes, nice wide shoulders..." Daydreaming and in my own world, Dustin slapped my ass and I quickly turned and punched him in the arm. "What the hell was that for Dustin?!" "I saw the way you were looking at him! Don't try to hide it!" "Yeah he is good looking. He said something weird before he left though." "What?" "Well, I said that I'm gonna be real sore after rehearsal tonight and he said that if I needed a massage that he'll give me one." "WELL! Get real sore and invite him back to our place!" "I can't do that! You know I just broke up with Daniel and the last thing I need right now is another boy to complicate my life." All of a sudden the tone got really serious. "I know that you really loved Daniel, Bryan. He was a great guy and all, but he had to do what he needed to do. I know that he didn't want to leave you. Australia is an oppurtunity that he couldn't pass up on." "Right...but he could give up on us." I walked away from Dustin really heated. Daniel was my very first boyfriend. I was 21 and he was 22...6'2", brown spikey hair and brown eyes and a body of a swimmer...I hit the jackpot. We met at work, we both were servers at a country club. He had a girlfriend before he met me and who knew that we would actually end up together for as long as we did. It started as friends, then it escalated...real fast. During a house party that one of our co-workers threw, Daniel and I got real drunk fast. We sat on the couch and started talking about life, he said that he was having troubles with his girl and he didn't know what to do. I told him that I didn't have that trouble because I didn't date girls. He laughed and we stared at each other for a very long time. He made the first move and we started making out. His soft red lips parted mine, I told him that we should stop, that he was still with is girlfriend and that he was really drunk. I didn't want it to stop but we were both drunk and he didn't know what he was doing. The following morning was weird and awkward because of the fact that we were both on the floor with his arms around me. It felt right and his hot breath spreading through my neck sent chills down my spine. I was still wrapped in his arms when Daniel woke up. "Dude..." He said. "Yeah?" "Did we just spoon?" He asked innocently. "Yeah..." I started to get up to make sure that he wasn't uncomfortable with the fact that it was me not his girlfriend. "No...Bry...come back." I went back to Daniel and he put his arms back around me and he whispered into my ear. "Can we talk later? It's too early to do it now, I just want to lay here." With that he went back to sleep, and in toe as did I. About a couple of hours later we both woke up and stared at each other's eyes, he smiled and I smiled back. "What are you smiling about buttface?" I chuckled, buttface was my term of endearment for him. "The fact that you were in my arms." Daniel said with that smile in his beautiful mocha brown eyes. "What? What about Laura?" "Oh boy...Laura." He paused. "I told her before the party that I wanted to break up with her." "How did she take the news?" "Pretty well, she said it was time that we did because the spark that we used to have was gone." "So you sayin' that you want to be with me?" "Uh...yeah. That's if you want to." "I thought this day would never come." With that we kissed, much more laid back than our full on face eating the night before. That happend a year ago, but a month ago Daniel decided to end our relationship. I never felt more love and undivided attention till I was with him, we had our fights like any other couple and we worked it out. Knowing that he was willing to work on our relationship showed me that he was in it for the long haul. Was I wrong. Daniel's dream was to be an ad exec at a big company. He got an internship at a firm here in Seattle, then he told me the news that the frim wanted him to relocate to Australia. He said that they wanted him to get there the following day and I told him that I can't drop everything to move down that quickly. That's when his face changed. "Baby...I was planning to go by myself." "So with or without me, your mind was set to leave?!" I was getting really aggrivated. "Please don't make this worse for me, I really need to do this. An oppurtunity like this comes once in a blue moon." "But Daniel, are you really willing to give up on us?" Tears were forming in my eyes. "I'm not giving up on us, I promise. I just think that you..." "That I'm what?" Cutting him off. "That I'm holding you back?" "NO! You're taking this way out of context!" He started yelling at me, he never raised his voice at me even when we argued. "What then?" "I just think that you're not ready for me, for Australia...for us." "Not ready for us? How could you say that? Why didn't you tell me earlier, instead of waiting a year into our relationship?" "I don't know..." "Is that all you can say? If you want to leave then go!" I stormed out of his place and never looked back. The next morning his flight was set to leave, he called my cell phone many times that morning but I couldn't get myself to answer knowing that the voice on the other line was leaving me. He left me a voice mail message from the last time he called. "Bryan, it's me Daniel. Please pick up" I can hear the hurt in his voice and it broke my heart. "I know that last night was rough for the both of us, but I just wanted to tell you that I love you and that I'm really going to miss you. I hate knowing that you're mad at me right now, if you're ready to talk please call me. I land in Australia the following day, please call me babe." I started crying real hard, the reality finally hit that he was actually gone. I waited till the next day to call him and he picked up. He said that his flight was fine and that he was really tired and that he was going to call me later. That call never came, I got worried and I called a million times but no answer. I called his mom to see if she heard anything and she told me that he's fine. I began to wonder why he hasn't called me. 2 weeks later I checked his myspace page and saw a picture of him and a blonde guy holding hands. "Wow, he moved fast" I thought. I guess my buttface was gone for good... "Bryan...hello? Earth to Bryan!" Dustin said waving his hand in front of my face. "Oh...sorry" I said with hurt in my voice, everytime I think of Daniel my chest aches. Rehearsal got done at around 1:30 in the morning and everyone in our group was tired. Dust and I left the studio and got to our house. I threw my keys on the table and quickly got out of my sweaty clothes and headed for the shower. The nice hot water running down my body felt great, all of a sudden I heard the bathroom door open. "Shit!" I thought, I always forget to lock the door! "Hey Bry!" A familiar voice said to me. "NATE! When did you get here? What are you doing in the bathroom, can't you see it's a little preoccupied?" "I just got here, Dustin called me about 10 minutes ago. And I know that you always forget to lock the door. The reason I'm in here is that he told me that some guy wanted to get into your pants." "He didn't want to get in my pants, he was being nice and offered a massage." "What's his name? Is he cute? I want details Bry!!" "Can I at least finish my shower?" Starting to get really annoyed, but I can never stay mad at Nate. "Oh yeah haha! I forgot." He walked out and let me be. 10 minutes later I got out of the shower and headed for my bedroom only to find Dustin and Nate on my bed! "OK fine, I'll describe him!" I said as I scooted myself onto the bed. "His name's Eddie. He's about my height, short brown hair, killer smile." "Ooh!" Nate said getting really excited. "He has wide shoulders, and bulky..." I continued. "Bulky? As in fat?" Nate innocently asked. "No, he's not fat at all. It's all muscle, trust me...I ran into him remember." "Ooh, what else?" "His face, it's the most angelic face I've seen in awhile since..." "Daniel?" Dustin butted in. "Yeah..." The room went completly silent, knowing that a sensitive subject had been touched. I stared at my bed. "Well, I think that's our cue to leave babe." Dustin said to Nate. "You're right Dustin, it's getting late. Let's go to bed." And with that they both went to bed. I layed in bed thinking about Eddie and how we ran into each other, correction how I ran into him. What he said before he left bothered me though. We just met but he wanted to give me a massage? I slowly closed my eyes and went to sleep, not knowing that I'll be seeing Eddie much more sooner than I thought. AUTHOR'S NOTE: I know that this is starting slow, but I needed to introduce the 4 main characters and the ex-boyfriend. I promise that it gets better! Thanks for sticking with me. I would love to hear your comments! Constructive critisim is always welcome, I want to grow as a writer. And if you don't like it, then that's fine too. Thank you again for reading! Part 2 will be up soon!