Date: Sun, 23 Dec 2012 16:57:18 -0800 (PST) From: J J Subject: Chapter 11 - Leo and James Chapter 11 – Defining the Relationship I awoke after hearing the front door close. I sat up and shook off a nearly blinding headache when Leo walked in to the bedroom, carrying a large bag. "Hey" said Leo. I was already relieved he seemed his usual self. "Hey" "You look like crap" said Leo as he unpacked his bag, placing things in the dresser. "I feel like crap." "I'm going to fix something to eat, and then we have to talk." His tone was matter of fact and dry. His lack of the usual affection bothered me but considering recent events I wasn't surprised. I walked in the kitchen to get some water and try to being a conversation with Leo but he was unusually quiet. We ate in silence. Time to ponder what I was going to say and how much I was going to reveal. Leo broke the silence. "You acted very childish last night." Not what I wanted to hear. "How so?" "The fact that you don't know bothers me. I have always been truthful to you James, but you continue to doubt me." "I do apologize for that but I do believe the omission of truth is like a lie." "Granted, I should have told you I still had the apartment and that John was still living there. But even after I told you that you still did not believe me. What's with that?" "My insecurities I guess. I don't like to wonder." "You don't have to with me. I will be honest with you at all times, even if it means hurting your feelings. That's the way I am. Take it or leave it." After telling him about last night I had the feeling he'd be leaving it. Leo continued. "One last time – I am not doing anything with John. I went back to my apartment last night, gave John his walking papers for lying to you last night. He's gone. I packed the rest of my belongings to bring back here." Damn, this is not getting any easier. Leo's loyalty to me was apparent. I had no such revelation of strengthening our relationship to tell. I sat up to prepare for the big moment. "Leo, you're a damn good man and I'm lucky to have you in my life. But I fucked up and wouldn't blame you for leaving my ass right now. I slept with someone last night." There – said it. I felt like covering my head to prepare for an onslaught of truthful insults to my persona. But it didn't happen. Leo remained calm. "Really? With who?" "A guy I met at The Hole. I went there last night after we fought to have a drink." Leo interrupted "And the next thing you know you're on your knees sucking his dick." Leo said dryly. "Did you let him fuck you?" I wasn't ready to tell Leo all the details. I figured I'd get past this hurdle and divulge the rest later – maybe. "No – just oral." I never was a good liar and Leo was very good at spotting one. "So what all else did you do? You go back to his place?" "Yeh I did." I went on to describe other sexual acts we performed on each other but left out the fucking. I couldn't tell Leo and at that point vowed to never do anything again that I could not tell him. Leo was a much better man than I and I felt really bad. "So you want to get back with him?" "He's a hot guy." "Answer the question boy!" Leo slapped me somewhat playfully on the side of the head. "Yeh, I'd like to. But that's something we have to discuss. Are you comfortable with that?" "No I'm not. I don't want nobody else's hands on you unless I'm in same room." "That's cool Leo." "I got to back to my place for a few more things. You coming?" I really wanted to sleep but felt this was a time for me start giving up my own selfish needs and learning to satisfy my partner's. "Yeh, let's go." When we got to Leo's apartment he told of stories of parties that went on there. He obviously enjoyed the place and I full realized how much this man was investing in me. I felt dirty and ashamed for not having the self-control last night and not divulging the truth to Leo today. I vowed to not let that happen again. On the way back Leo announced he wanted me to meet his mother and we'd be going to her place the next day. Leo wasn't out to his mom but felt comfortable with me meeting her. She showed obvious dislike for John – probably because of his outwardly effeminate disposition. "Hell Leo, she has to know you're gay after bringing John." "She knows but we just don't discuss it." "My mom thinks I'm totally straight." "Wait until she meets me and I grab your ass in front of her." "You better not." We both laughed about our situations. I was really looking forward to meeting his mom – she sounded like a fun person. "There's something else you need to know James. I have a kid." "What?!" I was flabbergasted. This is something I definitely should have known but quickly calmed down and let him talk. Leo had a child when he was 17 back in Alabama. That made the kid 10 years old. Apparently the mother was doing a good job raising "Little Leo" and he wasn't worried about him. He did say we needed to meet at that we'd have to take a road trip to Alabama to meet the rest of his family. His mom and dad were divorced. His dad was still in Alabama living with a woman and Leo's kid was close by. I told Leo I was looking forward to meeting his family. "Is there anything else I need to know Leo? Maybe you're a Nobel Peace Prize winner, you're the king or president of some small island nation? "NO babe, that's everything, except one thing..." "Damn, I knew it." "I don't think you know how much I love you." We were at a stop light so we kissed. Although I was not comfortable showing affection in public, Leo could care less. "I love you too Leo." We got back to the apartment and had very intense sex later that evening. Leo was more like his old sexual self, lot of spanking and rough handling. He was back to fucking – this was not lovemaking. I couldn't help but think it was a revenge fuck for me going home with Lawrence. And I realized how much I missed it. The slow screwing was hot and sensual but there was something about getting turned out that really excited me. I came for the first time ever without touching my dick while Leo pounded me on my back. My sperm shot on my face and Leo licked it off and fed it to me. We fell asleep that night in each other's arms. This was probably the best person I had ever met. We truly loved each other and knew our boundaries that were never stated before.