Date: Wed, 16 Dec 2015 19:57:48 +0000 From: Max Dowling Subject: Never Give Up- Codes you awake 3 3 Codes you awake 3 Maxieplus 3 We had training tonight so I went to shower while Dan called Uncle Jamie. I knew they would be waiting for me and later I let Jamie drive my car. Conner will already be there I suppose chatting up the girls. We didn't take long to get to the club and because I had my shorts on under my sweats I changed on the oval. I saw Mitch and started walking over to him. But he waved and started jogging around the track doing warm ups. Harper had already taken off so Con and I paced each other. It wasn't a hard night with only light training because dad was taking it easy on the team. He doesn't want any damage before the next season but training will ramp up in a couple of months. We all met after in the player's bar. Con and I are allowed to drink now but I held off while Con proceeded to get a cold beer. "Well men, down the hatch," he proposed and started to lift his glass in salute. "Ah Conner," Dan said. "You driving home?" he added. "Yes dad." "Zero alcohol." "No!" A shocked look appeared on my brother's face. He put the beer down defeated by our drink driving laws and walked over to Harper and Mitch's table looking very downbeat. Dad chuckled as he lifted his fresh beer and saluted Conner. "He doesn't realize I could drive him home." Dad chuckled again, poor Con. While talking to Uncle Jamie about my car, Harper came over and said hello to everybody then started rubbing his bum that was quite close to my face, and when he did, I wanted to lick it. Then he returned to Con and Mitch at their table and an argument or what looked like an argument erupted between Mitch and Harps. Conner was trying to calm them down and Uncle Jamie went over and got them to cool it. Conner left them to it and came over to dad and my table. "He's a fucking dickhead," Con said. "Conner!" Dad said quite loudly. "Well he is dad, you saw that little performance he did in front of Codes. He said it was just a joke, but I think he was having a go at him and so did Mitch, he's absolutely livid." Then he added, "Well he had better not start taking the piss out of Codes, that's all." "Do me a favor Cody, go get me another beer and when you do..." "Uh? You want me to do that?" "Normally no but I want to see something," Dan explained. I got up and went to the bar and ordered more beers then spread my legs a little wider than usual leaning on the counter. I heard the room go sort of quiet, or maybe I imagined it. Walking back with the tray I noticed my dad smiling. "Thanks son, I think I solved your problem, it's not Harper, it's Mitch who's been sending you the texts." "How so dad?" "Harper didn't notice you at the bar but Mitch sure did, and judging by the bulge in his pants, I reckon it's a sure bet he's got the hots for you. I wish Squirt was here, he's so much better at this than me." "He's straight dad," I repeated for the umpteenth time. "So was I apparently before I first laid eyes on your father, wink, wink." I mulled it over and recalled he was a bit over friendly at the party and he does love to run with me but fucked if I know. I watched Mitch make his move. He downed the last of his beer and walked over to me. "Cody I apologize for the, you know the," he faltered. "Doesn't matter, have a good night," was all he got out before he walked off towards the car park exit. His fists were happening by the time he reached the stairs then he disappeared. I was onto him this time and in a flash I was down those stairs and running up behind him. He had just turned the corner to the car park when I heard a terrible scream. "Mitch?" I suddenly stopped. He was slumped with his hands on his knees and he was screaming. "Mitch, what's the matter?" He stopped and I didn't realize it then but I had tears forming and a gut wrenching feeling. How could I have got this so wrong, this guy was in so much pain. "Mitch, are you okay?" "Yes Codes, just a moment," he breathed out heavily. "We all have those," I said as I moved in closer. "Mitch, I'm about to do the most amazing or the silliest thing I have ever done in my entire life so forgive me in advance if I have read this all wrong." I put my hand on his shoulder then leaned in giving him a gentle kiss on the lips, my body was trembling all over from feeling both terrified and excited. He moaned loudly and his fists banged on the brick wall. I apologized several times but he wasn't listening to me so I started off back to the bar. "Cody wait, please wait," he pleaded. I slowly took a few steps back to where I had left him and he grabbed me by the shoulders and kissed me with so much force it took my breath away and my knees nearly buckled underneath me. One of his hands was now running through my hair and his other rubbing my back, it was my first kiss and I absolutely fucking loved it. "I love you," he kept repeating. "I love you." "Finally got your shit together I see," someone said in the dark. It was Harper. "Eh?" I sort of answered, getting a bit panicky. "Good one Mitch, about time you found your balls. If you hadn't I would have, Cody's the perfect catch for you." Just then my dad and Jamie walked up. "Everything okay here boys?" He was looking at Harper. "All's sweet as coach, sweet as," Harper said as he moved to open his car. "Cody?" "Yes dad, you were right as usual." "Mr. Lawrence can I have a word with you?" Mitch asked. "Yes Mitchell, what is it?" my dad put on his police officer voice. "Can I have your permission to date Cody?" Dad looked stunned and I was stunned. I guess he wasn't expecting that because I sure wasn't. He took his time to find the right words while my dick was jumping around in my sweats. Looking back this was the one time I was actually deaf, red faced, numb, shaking and sexed up all at the same time, I'm a beginner, you all know the feeling. "Cody, are you happy to date Mitch?" "Yes dad," I said but thinking that no sound was coming from my voice box. I was jumping from wanting to vomit; wanting to pull Mitch's pants down to finally look at him close up. "Okay but don't hurt him Mitch. I will hunt you down if you do." "Never Dan, never will I hurt him." "Okay be home by twelve Codes. I don't want to have to come looking for you." I heard a giggle as he walked away and they got in my car to drive home. I felt a hand on my face and the sweetest tasting lips met mine. His smell was wonderful and I gasped inside as I took it all in. "Looks like I'm driving you home baby," he whispered in my ear as his gorgeous eyes met mine. My dick was rubbing on his sweats and I'm sure he could feel it. Everything was getting away from me. I wanted to feel his rubbing on me but the kiss was taking away all my concentration. I broke away and answered, "Umm looks like it, keep going." I was so boned up I thought I would cum in my shorts. He was a god this Mitchell and he loved me. I guess I loved him too but what do I know about it except I really liked what he was doing to my mouth. Mitch shuddered, his knees buckled and I thought something was wrong but he laughed. "Well that was a first. I just sort of cum, no hands." He chuckled, I blushed, umm sex talk and so open about it. I had better just go with the flow and pretend I'm a bit sophisticated. We moved to his car then he drove us up to the bluff where I had to put a stop to his roaming hands. Kissing is good but I don't know much about sex except of course what I have seen on the internet. I was guessing Mitch didn't either because he was nervous as hell. "I'll take you home now," he whispered in my ear. "Yes before I reach the point of no return." "Oh then maybe I won't." He smiled that gorgeous smile at me but his hair was a mess so I patted it down. "You had better, dad will be worried." "I don't want to, I want to stay like this forever." "Me too babe but I have to go." My face was hot; I had never talked to anyone like that. My cock was so stiff I thought if I moved it might break. "Mitch before we go, can you do something for me?" "Anything Codes." "Can you show me your cock?" He looked stunned. "It's just I have never seen another cock like this, you know excited. Well I've seen Conner's but that doesn't count." He grinned then unzipped his fly and this enormous cock flopped out and it was iron hard. "Can I touch it?" "Yes," he panted. I did and it was hot. He had pre-cum on the tip. "Thank you," I moaned. He kissed me again then said, "My turn." I wiggled my sweats down and he held my dick in his hand and sort of moaned, he does that often. "Okay we gotta go," I said. He groaned loudly this time but knew we wouldn't dance tonight. He got me home all horned up and on time. Dad was standing at the door looking at his watch but I think it was more show than anything. "Did you have a good night Codes?" he asked as we waved to Mitch driving out. "Yes dad, we had fun but we didn't talk much." I sort of giggled. "Anything you want to tell me?" He raised an eyebrow. "No dad, just kissing, it was wonderful," I lied. "Okay we approve, you can see him again." "Thanks dad, I'm going to bed, I'm so tired." "Okay, goodnight son, see you in the morning." He kissed my forehead. I jumped into bed and put my right hand to my nose and smelt Mitch's smell on it then I rubbed one out, fully pressurized cum spat in my face. I woke during the night and did it again; God I wish Mitch was here with me, that cock felt so wonderful. *** "Did he jump your bones Codes, what does anal feel like, did you suck his dick?" All the blue jokes were out at breakfast. My brother Conner was having a ball. "Conner, I don't want to have to tell you again," Squirt warned. "Sorry dad but do you have to rub ointment on your bum Codes or are you used to it?" I was mortified. "Conner don't ask things like that. Mitch is one of the good guys, I would hate to think you are having those thoughts about us." I tried to calm him down. "Sorry Codes, me bad." "I should think so Conner Lawrence, as if he would ask you those sort of questions when you lose your virginity," Dad said. "Already have seven times." "Conner! Out to the porch, it's time we had another talk," Squirt insisted. "Aw dad." "Now!" Well at least they are leaving me alone. I think they trust me enough to be responsible. My phone went. "I love you." "I love you too Mitch." "Mitch? Who's Mitch?" "Some guy I fell in love with, sorry mate you lucked out." "Want to go to lunch today?" "Pick me up at twelve?" "Okay, love you." "You too." "Dad I won't be home for lunch, Mitch is picking me up." "Want some rubbers Codes?" "Conner, stop it now!" Squirt shouted. I went and showered giving my bum extra attention. I guess he wants to fuck me but I don't know. From what I've seen he's really big, bigger than me, maybe he wants me to fuck him? Oh fuck here I go again. I rubbed another one out in the shower. It's true; I am going to go blind. Mitch arrived on the dot of twelve and he smelt so nice as he kissed me at the front door. Dad offered coffee and we sat on the porch and talked about the season coming up and our first senior's game. Cody asked Mitch about his parents, pretty standard questions I thought. They just wanted to get to know him better. "My dad owns the nursery in town, he does all right and my mum works at Ralph Watson's Real Estate, she's a consultant." "Any brothers or sisters?" Dad went on. Mitch fidgeted for a moment. "I had a little brother but he died." Cody put his hand up to his throat and gasped. "Can we go now Codes?" I could see his eyes watering; he was looking a little agitated. "I'm sorry Mitch, I didn't realize who..." Cody said. "It's okay Mr. Mitchell, it was a long time ago." He hung his head. "Where are you going for lunch kids?" Dan changed the subject. "I don't know really, I don't actually go out to restaurants and things much," Mitch replied. "Okay we will go to the Fish and Chipper on the pier then go up to the bluff and have a picnic." "Good," Mitch half-heartedly said. I kissed my dads goodbye and we drove to the small seafood restaurant on the pier in town. On the way Mitch asked if we could not go to the bluff, could we just sit at the shop. I agreed but wasn't sure what was wrong so I didn't push it.We ordered our food and found a quiet table in the sun and away from the other patrons. I kept looking at him and he was very quiet. "Do you want to talk about it Mitch?" "No Codes, I'll come good soon, I'm sorry. I kinda put a damper on our date, sometimes it hits me hard and sometimes I can shrug it off, I'm sorry." "Don't you ever apologize to me Mitch. I won't bring it up again and I'll talk to dad about doing the same. Are your parents going to go to the games next season?" "No Codes, my family sort of fell apart after my brother's death, mum might but my dad probably won't. He doesn't like me much, we talk but I know he doesn't like me." I saw tears. "Oh my God Mitch, I had no idea. I guess your day is getting worse and worse thanks to us Lawrences." I took his hand. It was as if a switch was turned on then off, his whole body language changed. "I'll take you home." "No, you're not taking me home, we are going up to the bluff." He didn't say anything but just paid the bill and opened the car door for me. Well he zapped it open. We drove up to the bluff where he parked in the back car park and we sat there not saying anything for ages. "When I was six I had a little brother who was three and I loved him just as much as dad and mum. He was so funny and full of life. We used to come here for picnics once a month, dad would play ball with us and it was my responsibility to look after Jimmy. I took him to the toilet and when we were coming back he let go of my hand. It was so quick and before I could turn around he was at the edge of the bluff, then he fell." "Mitch, you don't have to go on, I get the terrible picture." I kissed his wet cheek. "By the time dad got down to the bottom it was too late, he had drowned. Whenever I'm depressed I come here and cry it out, my dad blames me for his death and I don't know what to do. I loved Jimmy and I loved my dad but things changed and it's never been the same." He cried into my shoulder telling me he was sorry. Sorry for what? It was an accident, he didn't kill his brother, rather it was an accident. I told him this over and over again but he wasn't listening. After some time he started the car and drove me home, no making out this time and no tingles. Pulling into our car park he looked at me, he was totally drained of any emotion and even I could see his pain. "I'm so sorry Codes but I can't do this relationship thing, not now. I'm not what you are looking for. There's too much baggage and you don't deserve to be bogged down with my family problems. I'll see you at training sometime maybe, I'm so sorry." "Mitch we can get through this together? I'm sure if we work on it we can make it. I love you Mitch, I love you," I begged. "I'm far from what you deserve Cody, I will see you around." I could see more tears filling his eyes but I was so stunned I didn't know what to say. I didn't think he would do that to me; he had taken my heart and filled it with love then crushed it without even a warning. He threw it away like it was rubbish. Welcome to my life now piss off. Slowly opening the door with my eyes not leaving his, I just wanted to hold him and keep him safe as he lifted his hand to his face and wiped it then stared ahead. I stood silently and watched him roar off up the road. I was standing there letting the tears flow down my face feeling like I had just lost my best friend. That horrible knotting in my stomach, fuck it was painful. I shook all over and a headache started to form. Walking into the house past dad in the kitchen, he started to say something to me but I was too quick. I wanted my bed and some quiet time, my head was spinning, my gut was full of pain. I slammed and locked my bedroom door, something I have never done before then fell on the bed sobbing for Mitch, Jimmy and their parents. I finally cried because he fucking dumped me before we hardly even got started. I wrapped myself into a ball wanting it all to be a dream. I would sleep then he would come back and I would wake up in his arms, but there's little chance of that happening. I felt so ugly and freezing cold. There was light tapping on the door, first it was dad Cody then Dan but I didn't open it. Conner bashed on my door then my dads were arguing with him quite angrily. I thought enough is enough so I got up and walked out to the kitchen. "I just need to be alone for awhile please. I love you all but I need to be on my own." Turning around I headed for my bed before they spoke to me. Is this how it feels to have a broken heart because if this is it then I'm done, this hurts too much. I didn't care, I just sobbed off and on into my pillow. How could he do that to me? I know I'm slow but I know after two days I absolutely loved him and he loves me. What did I do, did I say the wrong thing, did I laugh at the wrong time? A hundred questions and not one answer. After some time I settled a bit and just stared at the ceiling. I checked my phone but no messages, I so wanted to hear Mitch's voice that I sent a message, 'I love you,' but received no answer. Dad Cody knocked gently on my door again. "Codes dinner is ready, come and eat something baby boy, it will make you feel better."He made me feel like I was a little kid again. He has that effect on me sometimes and I have to admit, it fills me with love. I didn't answer him but went to shower and the tears started again under the spray. I vowed never to get involved with anyone, ever again, maybe it was too soon for us and maybe my man is just around the next corner. But I couldn't imagine anyone else but Mitch in my life right now. I sat on the shower floor rocking back and forth and tried to cry the pain out. The noises I was making were alien; again my legs hugging my chest, my arms wrapped around them. Someone came in, it was Dan and he sat with me, held me, kissed me for some time then when my shaking had settled he stood me up and wrapped me in a big fluffy towel, kissed my head and said, "No more son, no more. You haven't done anything wrong except fall in love. We will get it sorted out, come and have something to eat, you need some food and fresh air baby." He made me feel better because it was at that very moment I realized his smell was the same as Mitch's. I smiled at the thought. "That's better, see you on the porch." Dried and dressed I opened my door and walked out to the verandah. Three sets of eyes followed me as I sat down and they half filled my plate with vegetables and a piece of steak. No one said anything to me; they just let me go my own way. I ate half of it then pushed my plate forward. "Do you want ice cream baby?" Squirt asked. "No thanks dad, I think I'll have an early night, but thank you." I loved my dads and brother and I hated this so much but I wanted so much to be back in bed wrapped up in my blankets, nice and warm, and safe. "Sure Codes." I walked back to my empty room and lay on the bed. My dad Dan came in and laid next to me then pulled me over into his chest. I felt calm and safe in his arms. "Now, tell me what's upset you so much that you don't want ice cream?" It took me some minutes to even figure out where to start but I did and I told dad everything that happened, not embellishing anything, just the truth. And I also told him about my vow saying I was still too young for a relationship. All the time I was talking he rubbed my back and kissed my head. He was my medicine, my sleeping pill, my painkiller. I love both my dads to the moon and back but Dan was my security blanket, my pacifier, my warm place. He didn't say anything except, "It will all look different tomorrow Codes, why don't you try and get some sleep." "Dad, can you stay a minute?" "Of course son, just close your eyes and rest." I must have fallen asleep but before I did, I remembered my dream about Mitch falling off a cliff and my stomach turned. Waking during the night dad was gone to be replaced with Conner. He was snuggled up to me and I detected a boner resting in the small of my back. That wasn't unusual for us, we often slept together and threw woodys but we both laughed it off. I still felt safe but I wondered if Mitch's dick was firmly planted in some guy's ass tonight? Tears flowed again and I was cold. Conner pulled me in tighter. Early in the morning he went for a piss then jumped back in with me, he stretched then leant over to kiss me. "I'm going to kill him you know." "No you're not Con, don't go near him. He's hurting badly and won't let me help. He broke up with me because he's depressed all the time. I guess he's trying to get his head straight before he tackles a relationship." "Well I want to kill him." "You won't and you won't be nasty to him either. What he's going through I wouldn't wish on my worst enemy so please don't treat him any differently than you did before. Promise me Con, it's business as usual." "Okay I promise but I still don't like it." "Boys, better get up, Rory and Bobby are here and they want to make an announcement." Squirt was leaning on the doorframe. "One can only guess with those two, their announcements usually end up being about what's for breakfast," Con said and we all laughed. Well it wasn't what we wanted to hear. They were moving to Paris and Uncle Bobby finally decided to do some training at the Louvre against his better judgment. We were shocked but dad Cody kissed them both and said they will be over to see them in a month or two, he had work to do at the Armani head office and his shop there needed a revamp. "I touched your painting up last night Codes." Bobby looked at me. I went inside and looked closely, he had added to it, 'Look to the skies and see the beauty in god's gifts,' was written in the vacant spot. I also noticed Conner wasn't looking like Conner, he was looking like Mitch, it tossed me, whatever that meant? "What does it mean Uncle Bob, the whole painting has changed?" "I had a dream about a cliff top, it was painful and dangerous looking but when I saw the sky, the pain went away and I knew this painting was about you, not Conner." I thought about it long and hard, Bobby's predictions mostly come true but this one got me thinking. "I am also seeing seagulls, thousands of them but if you go and squint I think they might have ended up hidden." He smiled. I looked, as did the others and the seagull ghosts were there, all over the painting. I snuggled up to dad Cody on the couch and he was very quiet, I think he was upset about Bobby and Rory leaving as they were like his other sons. He and Rory argued a lot but it was all in fun and dad called him his little rascal buddy. "How did dad get into my room, it was locked from the inside?" I was curious. He laughed as Conner came and cuddled his other side. "No show without punch," I said to him. And he did just that, he punched me. "The locks don't work Cody, they never have. Haven't you two ever tested them?" "No dad, we assumed they worked because you never came in when the door was closed, ever." "Well we disabled them when you arrived. We didn't want to be breaking down doors if we couldn't get to you so it was a safer bet to just not have them working." I never thought of that but I never tested them either. My dads gave us our privacy always but I must admit the doors were hardly ever locked anyway. If we wanted privacy we would do our business late at night or in the shower. "They don't work either,"Cody said. "What dad?" "The bathroom ones, what if you slipped in the shower, we would have to damage those beautiful doors to get to you?" He let out one of his dad like chuckles and we sort of got it. I didn't hear from Mitch that day and I didn't join in training with the guys. I thought I would give him some space but my heart ached all the time. I ran on the beach and did some weights at Donny's house. Trent and Tom were still at home but I think they are going off on holiday too, with Tom's family. "Be strong Codes, don't make any sudden moves to get another boyfriend. From what I hear Mitch is a good guy, just give it time honey," Trent was talking to me while I did some stretches. "I'm not Uncle Trent. I can wait for my knight in shining armor. I had a taste of his lips and I want more, so much more, and I'm prepared to wait for it. If it's not Mitch then I will try to move on," I replied. "Well do your exercises and come sit with me on the porch. I might have a little story for you to hear but it goes no further than this house." I wondered what he was talking about but as I sat listening to his story tears flooded my eyes. I had no idea Trent had it so bad years ago. He has always been our family. Many times we ended up at his place hiding from dad Cody who I must add knew where we were twenty four seven. He was telling me he was in love once and the boy was weak and dropped him to get married. He said he was so desperate for love he became a drunk and slept with a lot of guys. I couldn't believe it; he's always been with Tom. He said Cody and Dan along with Rory and Bobby had saved his sanity and Tom and Donny gave him the life he so desperately craved. "Please Codes wait for Mitch, he's new, he's gay and I believe he loves you very much. Let him work it out. He will come back to you soon. Tom was telling me Mitch was very upset you weren't at training last night, to the point he exhausted himself and Dan had to send him home." "Thank you Uncle Trent." "Let's just keep this little secret to ourselves Cody, there's no value in airing it. The past has a lot to answer for, unfortunately, but I urge you to finish what you started with Mitch before you move on. It will be the best thing for both of you." Detecting a tear in his eye I realized he will never get over his broken heart. I know he loves Tom to the moon and back but I suppose a little bit of the past crept through today. He kissed and hugged me and I kissed him goodbye and thanked him then did my run up the beach. No Mitch all this week so I spent my days at the charity and I didn't go to training, just ran up the beach or up to the bluff. But one afternoon while I ran there to just do something different I saw Mitch's car and as I got closer I spotted him standing near the edge of the cliff, arms spread. I screamed at him, he turned and looked shocked, tears were running down his cheeks and my horror dream had nearly come true. As I neared he headed for his car but I was too slow and watched his taillights blink in the afternoon gloom. I sat on my grassy area and sobbed. I will have to get dad to fix the gate that had blocked this road and to lock it permanently. "What were you fucking thinking Mitch? Don't ever do that to me again, stay away from the bluff," was the message I sent him, no answer. Please donate to Nifty, these stories must be kept alive.