Date: Tue, 16 Feb 2016 19:16:13 +0000 From: Max Dowling Subject: Never Give Up- Codes You Awake 9 Codes you awake 9 Maxieplus. Please donate to Nifty to keep these wonderful stories alive. Conner finally came home and he was a little more than pissed off. He slammed the door to his bedroom and Dan immediately got up so I grabbed his arm. "No dad I will go, now is not the right time for discipline, he needs a shoulder I think." I smiled at him; here I go again. Going to Conner's room I took a deep breath and then entered. He was on his bed crying his heart out. What was that I said about little kids? This little kid had fears and deep ones he possibly can't talk about but I sure will get him to try. "Now what's up?" I slid in beside him putting my arms around him. "He lied to me." I heard through his sobs. "Who lied, Ben?" "Yes." He started to sniffle like a little kid not a six two hunk, full of spunk. I might add with ratty dreadlocks. "How did he lie to you Con?" I leant back and pulled out some of his tissues and wondered if he used them to clean up his cum after a good pull. Wiping his face I made him turn around and look at me, he eventually calmed a bit. "He said he had to do a double shift so I thought on the way home I would call and say hello but the waitress told me he didn't work today, so he lied to me." "Do you think maybe he's trying to avoid you Con? It's got to be so hard for him you know. I believe he likes you a lot, maybe love's you and you know what I went through with Mitch. It's agony Conner when those feelings surface and they aren't returned." I dried his eyes and whispered to him and I could feel his breath on my face. "Are you sure you don't love him Conner? You can whisper it to me you know, no one will hear you." It was another game we played, if we whispered secrets to each other no one would ever know about them. "Cody." His tears almost started again. "Cody, I can't be gay, you are the gay one. I have to look after you and have to be strong in case you need me, but Ben..." He stopped abruptly and cried. "Conner, listen to me, I am strong and I've got Mitch to back me up so don't hide behind me. I don't want that for you. I want you to be as happy as I am and I believe Ben could make you so happy. But like you, at the moment, he's probably so sad and lonely. He's the one that needs you not me. Give him a break sweet Con and tell him you love him." Conner's eyes opened wide, I have known those eyes for years now and they are a different sort of comfort, a belonging sort of feeling, he belongs to me and I belong to him. "The dads," he again whispered. "They won't care Con, you know that. Telling them will be easy and as for the team, you don't have to tell them a damn thing. It's none of their business until you feel comfortable in your own skin about it." "But Codes why did he lie to me?" "Why are you lying to yourself? It's because of that I believe he's trying to slow down on the friendship and I don't blame him. Now grow some balls and I will ring him and find out what he's up to, okay?" "You will do that?" I saw hope. "For you I would do anything and you know that." I kissed him on the lips and he smiled then took a deep breath. I did the same, it's another game we played, it reminded us of when we slept together smelling our smells, just us together. "I love him. I didn't think I was gay up until I met Ben. I think I really do love him," Con whispered. "I already know, I just wanted to hear you say it," I replied. "Can you ask dad Codes to come see me?' "Sure Con, he's the safer bet." I giggled. "Thank you Codes." "My pleasure big brother, my pleasure." "How is he?" Cody asked. "Hurting really bad dad, he needs your hugs and kisses for awhile." I watched dad Cody almost run into Conner's room and close the door. "It might be a big night tonight dad, just remember you love him." "He told you didn't he?" "Yes, finally, he's so mixed up inside at the moment. But I reckon Ben will fix that problem. I'm sorry he asked for Cody but I agreed he was the safer bet." I smirked and just as he was about to slap my head, Mitch swept me up and kissed my neck. "You weren't going to hit my boyfriend were you coach?" Mitch hugged me. "No." Dan blushed. "Well that's all right then, I would hate to have to ask you to come down the beach for a punch up ...dad." "Sorry son, sorry Mitch, err son," Dan groveled, as we both burst out laughing. "Where's the funeral, where is everybody?" Mitch asked. "Conner's a bit worried about Ben. He said he was working today but when Con went there to see him he was rostered off, he's kind of a bit upset Mitch, wink." "Oh the old wink is it, well I can clear up that mess for you. Ben works every other Sunday at a squat house in town, he makes up heaps of hamburgers and chips for street kids that are either too old or too fucked up to be put into care, he basically looks after the dregs of Brisbane." I looked at dad and he knew what I was thinking, but Mitch caught on. "This is Ben's thing dad, leave it be." "But if he needs help we can do that through the foundation Mitch, we can help him," my dad pleaded. "Some of the kids are wanted for various things by the police, Ben has their trust that's why he has to be careful. Please don't get involved, he won't thank you for it, I guarantee it." Mitch was adamant about that. "Okay we can talk about some donations at least, no Mitch and not through the charity, personal ones." "I will talk to him but please coach, just forget I said anything." "Okay Mitch all forgotten. Dad smiled. "He personally pays for the food but gets it wholesale through the restaurant, I give him money and his friends help out too. He won't do any fundraisers, he just helps the kids with no hierarchy looking over his shoulder, but that's Ben. He will be there until everybody's fed; he sometimes stays all night if there is someone that needs his help or a shoulder to cry on. Please don't tell him I told you all, he's a really private person and doesn't want anyone to interfere because if the authorities find out they might shut him down." He looked at my dad with pleading eyes. "Well we have a boy here that is very worried about him and needs his shoulder to cry on and who I think would make the best boyfriend in the world for Ben," Dan said. "You mean Conner don't you?" "Yes Mitch, another secret to keep for awhile." I smiled at him. "That's so awesome,Ben will be stoked, he's so in love with him. He told me the other day but doesn't hold out much hope. His luck with guys has been a bit of a non-event for him, he's looking for love not a one night stand, something that's hard to find in this world." Mitch was reflective. I guess he knows all about Ben's past and I will ask him later but for now what to do about my gorgeous brother? Then Mitch had a thought. "Holy shit Codes, Conner's bloody perfect for Ben." He looked at me and I winked in agreement. We started dinner and Luke and Jamie came up, they looked so relaxed I could have screamed. They had news but I think our news is bigger and when Cody came out looking like he had gone ten rounds with a brown bear, Conner followed, he took Dan's hand and said quietly, "I'm gay dad." Dan stood there for a moment, hand on his hip then replied, "I'm Dan, pleased to meet you Gay." The laughter was quite warming and everybody kissed Conner and hugged him, the ice was broken. What a big thing for him to do, it must be a relief for him. I looked over and winked and he winked back. After a moment and after everyone had a good laugh he pulled me aside. "Did you find him?" "Yes Con, go for a walk with Mitch and he will fill you in. It's all good but just don't repeat what he tells you that's all, in the meantime give me your phone." "Why?" "Just give me your phone Gay." I cracked up. "Mitch can you fill Conner in on Ben's disappearance." "Sure Cody, Gay walk with me." He chuckled all the way down to the beach. I heard a slap. "Ouch not so hard Conner, Cody he hit me,"Mitch whined. "Serves you right, don't call him Gay, its Poof to you." "Cody!" "Sorry Squirt." "I should think so." Everyone was still laughing and it was good to see, Uncle Jamie was the worst, he was almost crying into Luke's arms. Trent and Tom finally couldn't stand it anymore, they had to come and see what all the noise was about. They could hear us from their place; we filled them in while dad poured the drinks. I think dinner has been forgotten, but I will go check it in a minute. "Is he okay dad?"I whispered to Codes. "Yes son, he will be just fine, we have known for awhile you know Codes." "What?" "What? Do you think we are stupid? Of course, the parents know if their kid is gay, what do you take us for, bogans? And anyway, at eighteen and looking like he does, and he's never had a girlfriend, it's unheard of. Well except for uncle Mike but he was just a little to far off in the country to catch the ladies."He kissed me then we hugged. I sent the message that will probably make my brother mad as hell, or pleased as punch as they say, now all I have to do is sit and wait. "What are you up to Codes?" "Nothin Dad." "Oh that nothin thing again?" "Did you tell him?" he added. "Yes dad but in a different way, I used Mitch's idea, I just said,'I Love You.'" Nothing gets past Squirt; I can tell you in all honesty, nothing. It's uncanny, no spooky. Squirt and I checked the lasagna it was done so we set about making some salads then it occurred to me I hadn't asked Luke what the news was. "Come with me dad, we forgot Lukey and Jamie." "Oh shit, I'm a dead man." I chuckled out to the porch holding my hands on Luke's shoulder and asked, "What's your news uncle?" Luke patted my hand and smiled then replied. "I sold the business today. The other two doctors are buying me out. I'm free as of next month and Jamie, once again, over to you." Jamie was so farkin happy, he said, "I got the plans submitted today and we have a start permit so building our dream home starts next week and we will have a ground breaking ceremony." So good, that is so good my heart was bursting for them. I pulled Lukey up and hugged him then dad pushed me out of the way to do the same. I saw tears and I saw my Mitch, he was watching me again, it might be a late night. "Well I guess our news isn't going to be that good then," Uncle Tom said. "What news Trent, Tom?" Dan asked. "Tim and Donny land tomorrow." The place went dead quiet and I heard Squirt groan, "So soon." Then everyone roared with laughter. Dinner was a chef's delight and there was plenty for every one. Con was still down in the dumps and Ben didn't answer the message. I thought about sending another one but didn't want to dig a deeper hole, if Ben had decided it was too hard for him. Tim and Donny are in the air and land just after lunch. Trent and Tom are meeting them and bringing them home so we all decided not to go to the airport but rather to just organize a small welcome home party in the evening. They left and kissed us all and would see us in the morning. Luke dragged Jamie downstairs saying something about hearing a biker pull up in he car park. "God hasn't that biker had enough of your ass Lukey?" Dan yelled. "No, he's only just starting to get it right brother." Luke laughed. We heard giggling as they closed the downstairs up for the night. Maybe Ben and Con will move in there and there's always Bobby and Rory's downstairs, it's awesome, they put a home theatre in there for their sort of adopted son, Will. I say sort of but not legal, they loved him to bits and he returned that love by being a beautiful person in their lives. There was a knocking on our door so I went to answer it. "Ben," I said, to a rather red faced gorgeous hunk, he had been crying so I pulled him in for a hug. "Is Conner home?" His muffled sounds found my ears. "Yes, still on the porch, we had a sort of party tonight and everyone's just gone home." I smiled. "Can I see him Cody?" He looked lost. "Of course you can Ben come through." "Ben!" Conner jumped up. "Err, hello Conner, I got your message." His face went almost purple with embarrassment; he didn't know where to look. "What message?" Con asked. "Umm, this one." Ben handed his phone over. Con read it then looked at me. "I didn't send this message Ben, Cody's been having a laugh." He handed back the phone. "Oh Cody? Well thank you Cody, sorry to disturb your night, I'm off now, maybe see you around sometime." Tears started dripping down Ben's face, he looked beaten and was so embarrassed. I saw Dan kick Conner in the shin as Ben turned to maybe run away forever. Conner went after him and we could see he was new to all this and conscious of our watching things unravel in his life. I felt so sorry for Ben, he was very upset and was shaking his finger at Conner, who was blushing. Just as Ben started towards the door again, Conner grabbed him and twirled him around then kissed him, thank god. Ben's shocked face said it all, he turned on his heel and left. Conner walked back crying and landed next to Cody. "Con, for god's sake, go after him," I said. "He thinks I'm dicking with him, he doesn't like me anymore," he sobbed. I took off out the front door to try and stop Ben from leaving. He was sitting in his car doing a little weeping of his own so I opened the passenger door and got in. I pulled him over to me and stroked his head. "Why did he do that to me, why did you do that Cody I never hurt you?" he sobbed then added, "Another failed attempt by me to be loved. I feel so stupid, he made me feel stupid, no you made me feel stupid Cody, why?" "Because he loves you, that's why." "Then why didn't he tell me himself, why did you send that message for him? I need to get home Cody, maybe see you around." He leaned over to open my door but I held it fast. "Conner went to see you after picking his car up, he thought you had lied to him about working double shifts and spent most of the afternoon being sad in his room. I cuddled him and he admitted he loved you then he found the courage to tell our dads he was gay. I sent the message hoping you would turn up and maybe make yourself and my brother feel better at the same time." I smiled at him. "So he does love me." "Oh yeah, he so does love you but keep in mind Ben, he's new, untouched and still finding new confusing things about his feelings every day. But I know he loves you, we all knew that, it was hard for him to admit and he probably won't say it out loud but I will give you a good starting point, whisper it in his ear." I grinned. Ben's sad tears turned to happy ones in an instant he said, "Come on, I think I owe him an apology." He opened his door, his excited voice made me happy. Back inside he looked at a very upset Conner and said, "Do you want me to have a sleepover tonight or not buddy?" "Yes please," Con whispered. "Well come on, we need to get some sleep, it's been a big day." Ben smiled. Conner kissed us goodnight and he went to his room, just a little kid at heart that brother of mine. I felt like I had achieved something tonight, sometimes it's nice to be an adult. We kissed my folks and went to shower, my man needs some attention as I have nearly ignored him all day, but I can fix that easily. Mitch was rubbing his fingertips lightly up and down my body, you have no idea what that was doing to me inside and out. He had been doing that for the past twenty minutes as I told him I thought the message was a brilliant idea. I had pinched it off him, and about what Ben said and Con and he smiled. His fingers had incorporated my knees to my balls then up my cock, my pubes and stomach muscles, nipple and throat then down again. He had thrown the doona off me so he could see my body and I could feel his monster slowly rubbing my thigh, the pre-cum had made it slippery. "God, Mitch, I'm trying to be serious here." "I know keep going." He blew air into my ear then gently licked it. Those fingers moved my legs apart some more, knees, thighs, bum crack, balls, cock, back to bum crack then opening my cheeks and probing my bum then up again. I was nearly breathless by this time. "If you don't fuck me real soon Mitch I will, and I promise you, I will scream the fucking house down." He laughed, moved over the top of me and scrunched my legs up so he could get a better angle. He started on my hair, forehead, eyes, nose, mouth, throat and chest; his tongue was dancing to a merry tune as he slipped into my tight velvet sleeve. I gasped when he bottomed out. "Too much baby?" "No, keep going." He gently slid out then in, his moaning coming from deep inside of him. I put my hands on his bum and gently felt the movement of his cheek muscles.Every movement gave me a different reading but every moan said it all. I loved him and I loved what he was doing to me inside and out. It was one of those well drawn out ones. He would get to the brink then stop. After a lot of kissing he would start again. Finally giving me release when he came hard and plenty. We lay there for ages just kissing and nipping. "I love you so much Cody, so fucking much." "Me to Mitch, I love you more." I smiled. "I love you morer." I left him to believe he did but I knew he didn't. "Codes you awake?" I opened my heavy eyes and looked at the clock, Mitch had spooned me and I could feel his hard on nudging my bum. "I am now Mitch, it's two in the morning, not now." "Go for goal mate, go for a goal, do me, ride mee," I heard someone scream; my god it was Ben and Conner was fucking him. I turned over and looked at Mitch who was bursting with dimple giggles, I pulled the doona over us and joined him. "Well that answers that question, I guess my brother is a gay after all." I shook with laughter. When everything died down Mitch rolled me on my side and his arms held me safe in a vice, I couldn't dream to achieve, he was whispering in my ear, "Just a quick one Codes, pleeeease." I lifted my leg and my hunky man slipped into me again. Go for a goal Mitch. I felt the bed bump first then I slipped one eye open, in the lamplight I could see Mitch's perfect ass being covered with striped boxer briefs then jeans that hugged them like a padded bra. My hand slipped between my legs, cupping my balls as this free live porn show played in front of me. The arms stretched and the fingers went through his hair as his back muscles popped out everywhere. "Did you get a good look Codes?"he whispered. "Yes thank you Mitch, I love you." He was going to help his dad early; he's only had four hours sleep and must be exhausted. "I hope he's ready for another round tonight, well maybe not," I said to myself as he leaned over me and kissed my neck while slipping his hand around the back of it then finding my lips, his tongue probing my mouth. How could he love me more than I loved him at this very moment, answer me that one? He finished off with so much force I boned up and surprisingly was ready to go again. But it wasn't my time, he smiled and then left; I was cold again. My alarm went off at seven thirty as I had work today so had better move it, feeling a little slow I showered then dressed. I was making the coffee when dad came out looking like he hadn't slept all night. I made his coffee and took it to the porch. "Is Dan sleeping in?" "Yes Codes, he had a big night the poor old fella." He grinned. "Well he wasn't the only one, we stopped at two and I think Ben and Con shortly after, if my hearing is right." "Yes that started your father up again, persistent he was but I soon got him sorted out." The door opened and Ben stepped out and the sun made his olive skin glow, we said our good mornings and I poured him a coffee, he looked relaxed and so hunky in his boxers. My dad asked him if he slept well, he said he had the best sleep and could have gone another hour or two but he was on morning shift and had to get to work. "Thank you for that whispering trick Codes, I get it and it's kind of cute." He grinned. "Good, it always worked for us, did he say the words Ben?" "Not at first, he was mainly still calling me mate, buddy that sort of thing until I remembered your words so I whispered in his ear. He was stumped for a second then leaned in and whispered those three words. I thought I was going to die and go to heaven about that time." He had tears in his eyes. "I love him so much, he's my dream come true." "Yes and he obviously loves you by the way he showed you at two this morning." Squirt chuckled which broke Ben's solemn mood. "That was the fifth time Mr. Mitchell, he just had to try everything that was on offer, it was wonderful, he was wonderful." "I remember it well," Squirt sighed. We looked at each other and grinned. "Good morning mate, sleep okay?" was Conner's answer to a romantic greeting in company. "Sure did mate, what are you up to today or shouldn't I ask?" "Yeah of course you can ask, I'm going to the gym at ten then off to training around three thirty. I should be home by seven and I don't know what after that, my brother Tim's coming home today so I might catch up with him, maybe." Conner was reeling off his itinerary for the day, I sort of know how this works, he was giving Ben a rundown on where he would be for the day. "Well I've got work until four, I might just go do some weights and I don't know after that, if it's okay with you maybe I can come here and meet Tim, maybe. Got nothing else to do mate, we can hang together." "Great, you can probably stay the night but don't drive all that way home, it's safer if you stay here, is that all right with you dad?" "Perfectly fine son." Dad smiled. "Okay mate then, I will catch you later." Ben smiled and Conner blushed. "Well shower time," Con said. "Hang on mate I have to get my wallet, won't be a minute." He winked at us. They were more than a minute and judging by Ben's wet hair me thinks a lot of whispering was done in the shower. Ben left for the day and Conner went to mope in his room. He was playing with his phone, a new kind of whispering I think. "What's with the whispering thing Cody?" dad asked. "Conner and I played this game where if we whispered secrets to each other no one would know about them. I think we got the idea off Rory and Bobby although it was pretty crude compared to their silent ones." I giggled at the thought. "I told Ben if Conner doesn't open up, he should try whispering to him about private things, it worked and opened a dialogue about their love for each other." "It all sounds fine to me, nothing wrong with that." "Well I think you will find Ben won't go to the player's bar or be seen with Conner for quite some time, but that's okay, I don't think Ben is the type to want to share him with everybody, not at the moment at least and Conner is still finding his way." "Thank you Cody, you have done a great thing for those two boys, you really are growing up aren't you?" He smiled at me. "I suppose so," I breathed out. "Well to us you will always be our little boy, doesn't matter how adult you get." He kissed my cheeks and I started out for work but not before saying goodbye to my other dad. He was awake and I kissed him too. "Dan we are alone at last," Squirt yelled. "What do you want Squirt, jocks, uniforms or kilt?" Dan's eyes lit up like fire. "Kilt Dan, no option, bye Cody have a good day," he said as he eagerly pushed me towards the front door. "Parents," I muttered as the door was firmly closed behind me. My day started with a beautiful man giving me a good show and now I'm at work running around chasing my ass trying to find the other man in my life, Drew. Drew is my off sider,that's when he's not in the bar chatting the girls up, that's his playtime he reckons. "Drew can you please help with the tables, we have to get the cloths on for the luncheon," I yelled at him, a pimply twenty year old Casanova, who was bloody good at the job. "Yes boss." He saluted. We walked into the dining room and it was all set up, it looked amazing and I stopped in my tracks. "Which table did I forget boss?" he sniggered under his breath. "What time did you start?" "I got in around six, I thought I would get a head start on the luncheon, now can I go back and finish my talk with Judy?" "Be my guest and thanks." I smirked. As he ran off Mr. Aslan tapped me on the shoulder. "Great job Cody, you have outdone yourself with this one." He smiled. "I wish I could take the credit, it's amazing but it's all Drew's doing, all of it." "Well I will thank him later then." "Oh dad loved plan number two by the way, he helped me change a few things." I smirked as I handed Mr. Aslan's papers back to him and he chuckled. "See I knew you were perfect for the job, I will get these to Jamie, he can start on the plans." He chuckled on his way. Well more work for Jamie and looks like dad is still working for the club for free but I think he already knew that, I laughed to myself. The ladies were so happy when they saw the settings. I overheard one say it hasn't looked like this since that nice boy Cody Mitchell did it; they were saying they had missed his laugh. "He's my dad and he's still laughing ladies," I said to them. "Oh Cody's boy how wonderful, please pass our fondest hellos onto him, do you need scone lessons?" "My name is Cody too and yes that is what my dad said you will offer me, and yes I would love them." "Okay Cody, tell your father Flo and Ita said hello and here's my card, ring me when you have time and I will book you in." She laughed as they walked away. "Cody Mitchell's son, who would have thought? What a nice young man and looks like his father too." I pulled into the car park at home and Tim came running out to meet me, he threw his body at me and tried to hug the life out of me, he's a lot shorter than me and skinnier. "I missed you little brother like no other, it's so good to see you and I hear you have a man in your life too, how awesome is that?" "Pretty awesome Tim, Mitch is a great guy." "Well he was always a bit standoffish at the games, he didn't like his picture taken that's for sure. I think he's perfect for you, and Conner who would think?" He giggled. "You will like Ben, he's such a spunk and he's so Conner. They are still acting straight, well Con is but hopefully when he relaxes a bit things will work out." I kissed his cheek. "I missed you Timmy, did you have a good time in Paris, how was the work?" I leant against the car as he held me. "Fantastic bro, I had loads to do and got plenty of offers, one was to go to Afghanistan to photograph the French troops, good money but Donny made me decline it, too dangerous." He put on a sad face. "Well those troops are hunky." He giggled. "But hey I did some Harpers Bazaar stuff that was awesome, they loved my shots and I'm hoping they will use them in the next edition or the one after. Bobby and Rory send their love and don't be surprised if they turn up someday soon, his mentor slash tutor, is pulling his hair out, he can't teach him much at all it's so funny. He paints the masters and adds his ghostings to them, they can't work out what they mean but Bobby insists that what he added is the true meaning behind the paintings. They had to stop him copying the Mona Lisa, they wanted her to stay a mystery." He laughed and pulled me back. "Come on Codes, let's get Donny to get us a drink." He wiggled his eyebrows. Donny stood up and hugged me and also kissed my cheek, I welcomed him home and saw Tom and Trent grinning from ear to ear, they are so proud of their son. "Donny can your Timmy have a cola?" My god Timmy stop that, get your fucking own, I screamed inside. "Of course Timmy." He started to go inside. "Donny can you get Codes one too and a bag of tato chips? Do you want another drink dads in law, Donny's going to the bar?" "No thanks Tim, we are grown ups, we can get our own." Trent sniggered. "Okay," Tim sighed. "Dad Codesy?" Squirt shook his head, I think he's about to explode holding that laugh in. I sat next to him and he took my hand and kissed it. "How did you go with Aslan?" "He loved it and is shooting it off to Jamie to get the plans done." "Good, see it all works well Codes." He grinned at me. "Oh and by the way Flo and Ita send their love, and yes I have to ring for scone lessons." I smiled and squeezed his hand. "Those ladies are such fun Codes, I miss them." "Well when I ring why don't you come with me, they miss your laugh dad and remember you so fondly, they said I looked like your son." "They did? Then maybe I will come do a refresher course, Dan loved my scones but I stopped making them because he couldn't stop at one, he had to eat the lot." He chuckled. "Hey when he comes home tell him he's got a paunch going on, see what he does, I bet he runs straight to the bathroom," Squirt said in my ear. "Oh no you don't, you're not pulling me into your games dad, you tell him." "No I can't Cody, he will chastise me." "And he won't tell me off?" I said back. "No Cody, you're his son, he would never do that." He roared laughing. "No Squirt!" "Oh Cody, your no fun anymore." He dropped my hand as I shook my head. Jamie had cooked a load of spaghetti so there was no work for me to do except sit and bask in Tim's Parisian stories. Donnie was enthralled and didn't take his eyes off Tim all through it.