Date: Sun, 30 Oct 2005 04:37:36 -0800 (PST)
From: ero-ti ca <acitoredxb@yahoo.com>
Subject: Ahmed, first installment

My name is Ahmed, 25 years old. I will tell you about my first gay
experience which happened to me when I was 11 years old. As a young boy,
I was shorter than all the other boys in my class. I had shiny olive
color skin, dark brown hair, and big light brown eyes. I was very good in
school, and my only friends out of school, were the ones that lived
closest to our house. My mom was so protective of me that I was always at
home watching TV and doing nothing. On Fridays, which is our official
weekend here in the Arab world, was the only day I was allowed to go to
the store at the end of the street, where I can by sweets, soft drinks
and the like, And that's where it all happened.

The store man was Kathim, an Iranian guy, whom I think at that time could
have been in his early/mid 50s. He was tall, 6 feet, and a bit heavy. Not
heavy as in like over weight but more like monster heavy if you know what
I mean, in simple he was huge. He had dark skin, strong black eyes, and
the biggest mustache ever. He was so nice, very helpful, always smiling.
So every Friday that I go there, he asks about how im doing school, and
why doesn't he sees me except on Fridays etc. for some reason I use to be
really shy around him, he has I don't know this thing that makes you feel
really small next to him, and also because he has this thick voice that
makes one feel so vulnerable in his presence.

So one Friday as usual I go to the store to buy whatever candy I can with
the money I had. I enter the store and there was Kathim sitting on his
desk talking on the phone, I said hi and went straight to the sweets
section. After a few minutes of shopping around, I hear kathim yell,
"hey Ahmed, how are you? Long time no see?" I looked at him, smiled shyly,
and said " in fine, thanks" he comes to where I was standing, I looked at
him and there he was in all masculinity god can put in one person. He was
just so manly, so strong looking, towering on top of me. He smiles and
said " why are you so shy, and pats my head" im sure he thought I was
like 8 or something, I don't know. He was wearing those wide kind of
cotton made pants that showed his legs clearly, and a t- shirt that also
did not conceal his big frame. He smiles and walks back to his desk. I
took whatever I wanted and followed him to his desk so I can pay for my
stuff. And since his desk was too wide for me to hand him the money from
where I was standing, I normally go to his side and pay there. He was
sitting on his chair punching numbers on his calculator, I showed him
what I bought and gave him the money. He gave me the change back, which I
remember was 2 coins. When he was handing me the coins, a coin slipped
from my hand and fell right underneath his chair, I crouched down to get
it, he opened his legs so he wont block my view. And when I was getting
up, I saw a cut right where his crotch would have been, I couldn't see
clearly what was inside, but I saw black thick hair sticking out and a
bit of skin, it could have been his ball sack. This all happened in a
split of a second, but im sure that he noticed that even though my body
was moving, my eyes were fixed to one place. He looks down to see what
was I looking at, he saw the cut, smiled and said "old pants" I just did
not know what to do or say so I just smiled and ran out of the store.
That night before going to sleep, I couldn't stop thinking of how much
hair I saw inside kathim's pants' hole. I don't know why, but it gave me
this shiver every time I thought about it. I think I wanted to see more,
I was intrigued. I had all these questions why was hair there? And how
come it's so thick? And how would it feel to have hair between your legs?
And how would it feel to touch Kathim's hairy crotch? My mind was just
giving me these images that I did not understand, nothing was making
sense to me, but I wanted more. I couldn't wait till the next weekend, I
was counting the days, and feeling more excited the more I thought about
it.

Finally, Friday was here, I walked to the store, knowing that kathim
might not be wearing the same pants, but just seeing him again would
bring that rush back to me. I entered the store and there he was sitting
behind his desk reading something. I said hi, and flashed a huge smile;
he says hi back, smiles and waves to me. I go to the sweets section,
grabbed whatever close to me, and went to the desk. I wanted to be close
to him, I wanted something to happen, I don't know what I wanted, but I
wanted it. I get close to where he was sitting, and he was wearing the
same thing, the same t- shirt, and the same pants. My heart started
beaten 438946 beat a minute, I blocked out for a minute, and I remember
what I saw last weekend, and I remembered what I thought about every
single night on my bed, its here and im very close and its all happening
again. I paid for what I bought and this time I couldn't stop but stare
at his crotch, waiting to have atleast a peak of that hairy thing. He
hand me the change, and he dropped a coin on the floor, right between his
legs. And for a second my world stopped.

Did he drop it on purpose, im I dreaming, should I get it, or wait for
him to get it? He opened his legs and smiled. I looked at his crotch, and
there it was, the hole. It was bigger, it was wider. I saw his balls,
hanging right out of his pants, covered in thick, long black hair, it was
everywhere. I couldn't believe what I was looking at. His sack was very
loose, and you can actually see both balls clearly, and they were kindda
moving, and the hair was just indescribable, it was jetting in all
directions. I lift my head and looked at him, I was looking for some kind
of smile or nod maybe, I don't know. He was looking straight into my eye;
he turns his head towards the door, like he was checking if someone was
looking. He said, " get your coin" I kneeled down looking for it, I
grabbed it and while I was standing I felt his hand on my head. He said "
did you find it", I nodded yes. My face was inches from where his balls
were, and I swear I even smelled them. The smell was very strong, it was
not bad, but it was musky, ripe, masculine, sweaty and heavy. He said, "
Are you OK?" I nodded, he said, " you are such a good boy, very shy and
sweet" and continued saying, " even though these pants have a hole right
there, I still wear them because they are comfortable, and wide", " did
you notice the hole?" he asked, I said yes. He said " its wider than last
week, isn't it?" I said yes. " What did you see through the hole last
weekend Ahmed? I stayed quite, " what did you see through the hole?" he
asked again. I said I saw hair. He smiled real wide and said " and what
do you see now?" I smiled shyly and said, " I can see your balls, kathim"
" Have you seen man balls before?" he asked, I said no. He had this
shocked look on his face " you've never seen balls before? You've never
seen big balls before? No I said. He got up, went to the door and locked
it. He asked me to follow him to the back of the store, there was a door
on the left of the store that takes you to a storage and an office. I
followed him inside the office, there was a tiny sofa, a T.V., and piles
of papers everywhere. We sat on the sofa looking at each other. " You've
never seen balls? You're a boy you have to see how older guys balls look
like, one day you will be a man too, and you need to know how your balls
should look like" he said. For some reason I knew that the problem here
was not that I've never seen balls, and its more interesting than that,
but I did not say anything and just trusted and wanted what he wanted,
even though I did not know it. So he lay down on the sofa, with both feet
on top, he opened his legs, and there I was basically facing his crotch
from one end and him looking at me from the other end. He nodded towards
his balls, as if saying go ahead check them out. I did not move, I was so
scared, maybe he was just tricking me, and maybe he just wanted to see
whether I was gonna do it or not. " What, are you shy? Come on its only
you and I here, no one is going to know" he whispered. He grabbed a
blanket from behind the sofa and covered himself. "Get underneath the
blanket and examine my balls, I wont see what you are doing, so you wont
get shy" I went underneath the blanket and I was inches from where his
balls were, the smell hit me again, very strong and I loved it, I knew I
was suppose to get disgusted, but I was getting hard at the same time. I
got closer and closer to his balls, I was less than two inches away from
the them, I sniffed really slow, so he wont know that I was smelling his
balls. Suddenly his hand was under the cover, he pulled on his balls, and
made sure that they were both hanging out. His balls were really big,
hanging very loose in their sack, they moved in different direction, one
would go up and one would go down, and when I get closer to them they
both kind of move closer to his body. They were covered with curly black
hair, that was very dense and cores. I just kept looking at the folds,
and how thick the veins were, and how heavy they looked. His hand was
back touching his balls; he grabbed his balls and kind of squeezed them.
The more he squeezed, the tighter the sack got, and more visible his
balls were. The skin became very thin around the balls, and you can
actually see two huge beans like balls. I couldn't stop looking, I did
not want this to finish, and I wanted more. My cock was so hard, my heart
was beating really fast, and I was shivering from excitement, fear, and
curiosity.

His finger went inside the hole, he was pulling something, and more
thick, heavy, dark skin was coming out. Oh god, it was his penis. For a
minute I couldn't breathe, I wanted to say no, but I just couldn't. It
was really big, it was soft, and looked heavy. The head was flared, flat,
with a huge slit that was semi opened, and it looked a little wet. The
shaft was also wide, but not as wide at the head. The shaft was full,
same width from top to bottom, and had a vein running through it. It
looked perfect on top of his low hanging balls. The smell of his crotch
was musky and very strong, especially that I was covered with the
blanket. " Touch it," he said, and suddenly his hand was back in looking
for my hand. He gabbed my hand and put it on his cock. The first touch is
very hard to describe, for some reason you expect it to feel one way, but
it's totally the opposite. It was soft, very warm, loose skin, damp,
hairy, and it was moving. His cock started to move, it was twitching. It
moved to one side, and started to go up, it was moving with his
heartbeat. Finally it stood up right towards the sealing. It was wider
than before, and the head became dark red, more flat, and the slit opened
even further. I touched his balls, pulled them, and tried to see how
heavy they were. I ran my fingers between his balls and thigh, there was
sweat there, and I wiped it off and brought my fingers to my nose to
smell him. It was very strong, very warm, and very different. I did it a
couple more times. I think he heard me sniffing on my fingers. He pushed
his balls on one side and said, " get in there and smell how real men
smell like". I got closer and smelled him, inhaling slowly and very deep.
" Smell some more, you like this smell don't you?" I sniffed more and
more, I was getting high. His hand pushed my head, and my nose was stuck
in his bushy crotch. It was dirty, smelly and very sweaty, and I really
liked it. I started sniffing really hard, I closed my eyes, and just took
it all in. I belonged there, that I knew. I wanted him to like me, I
wanted him to keep this our secret, and I felt very close to him, I felt
like I was under his mercy, a feeling of submissiveness took over me.
He pushed the covers off us, and looked at me smiling, and kept rubbing
his crotch all over my face. I was covered with sweat and precum. He
played with his cock, while I kept sniffing his balls. He pushed my head
away from his balls, bent his cock towards me, and squeezed his cock's
head. Precum accumulated on his piss slit, " smell this," he said. I did,
but there was no smell. His finger gathered some precum and he smeared in
my nose and lips. I tasted it, it was salty. "You want more?" he asked,
but I did not say anything. So he squeezed his cock some more, and gave
me more precum, and I licked it from his finger. He did this like 4 or 5
times.

I was in heaven. I had know clue what was going on, but I felt that from
now on I am a new person, more interesting, more daring, and more sexy. I
looked at his face, dark strong features. A big manly nose, high
cheekbones, dark eyes, a stubble, very rough looking, he had this I know
what I want and im gonna take it kindda look. He rubbed his cock over my
lips, and then drew my mouth with his cock head. "This will be your toy
from now on, look at how hard my cock is, I think he really likes you" he
said to me. " Show me your tongue," he asked me...I opened my mouth, and
stuck my tongue out. "Nice, small and pink" he said. "Move it up and
down, like you are licking an ice cream" I did pretend to lick something,
while he was squeezing his cock and looking at my tongue. He put his
finger on my tongue and rubbed it a little. He took some of my spit and
rubbed it over his cock's head. He did this a few times more.

To be continued.