Chapter 14
Craving's POV

 

 

"Love is up..."
We had been in the cabin for two days now.  My mouth dropped open.  Wrath had called us all for a meeting in the living room.  It was so odd.  We were all gathered around the fire in the woods.  For some reason it felt comforting here in this college.  It felt like home.  You wouldn't have thought this was a group of assassins.  You would think we were just old friends gathered around...happy.
"I need to see him," I said getting up.
    Wrath held out his hand at that moment stopping me before I made my way to the back room o the huge cabin where Love was laying last.
    "He has to recover."
    "You don't get it...he needs me," I stated, "He needs a familiar face."
    I was grabbed again. This time it was by Desire.  A part of me wanted to pull away but I couldn't pull away from my best friend.  He touched me delicately as though wanting me to know that everything would be ok.  I worried though.  It felt like he was waking up alone after being attacked by god knows who.  
    "He'll be ok," Desire stated.
    "My grandfather will look after him," Wrath stated, "He'll be fine.  You'll be able to see him soon."
    I sat back down and shook my head.  I didn't want to do this.  I didn't want to leave him alone.  I guess the others didn't understand.  Allure was looking like a ghost at that moment and Urge wasn't even staring my way.  Desire sat next to me though.  He rubbed my back making me feel a little better.  The fire was going.
    "Is that why you gathered us around?" Allure asked Wrath.
    I was wondering the same thing.  I didn't know how to feel about Wrath.  He wasn't a good person.  He wasn't a sane person from what I remembered.  Supposedly he did this whole change and I didn't know how to feel about that either.  He still looked kind of off to me.
    Wrath shook his head at that moment, "I have something to tell you guys.  It's something good.  There is a way to permanently disable our trackers..."
    Desire shook his head, "I thought you said just temporary."
    "With the gadget it would be temporary.  However there is a way to have us offline from the assembly forever.  However in order to do that the assembly will have to come here.  I didn't disable the trackers for today. They will be on their way here shortly...probably be here within 24 hours.  I believe they'll be sending multiple teams."
    We looked at one another.  Panic.  Allure got up off the couch.  Desire took a deep breath.  I kept looking back and forth trying to understand what the fuck Wrath was even talking about.  This guy was psycho.  He lost his mind.  What the fuck was wrong with him?  
    Before I knew it was trying to hold myself back from swinging on him.  It would have been so easy.  It would have been so easy to take him out right now.  The others would back me up.  Back in the day I remembered Wrath beat up the whole team.  We were just in training back then though.  He wouldn't be able to take us all now.
    "What the fuck!" Allure stated, "You didn't disable the trackers?  You lead them right to us.  They will fucking kill us!"
    "I told you guys not to trust him," Urge replied, in his calm stone-like manner.  
    He could be calm all he wants but I was pissed.  I got up at that moment.  I was about to charge at him.  I was about to take his ass out.  If I killed him fast enough, we could find the gadget.  We could get Love.  We could disable the trackers.  We could make a run for it before the Assembly came for us.  I would have to act now though.
    A hand stopped me.
    Desire.
    "What are you doing Desire?" I asked.
    Why was he holding me back?
    "Let him finish," Desire stated.
    Desire looked suspicious but clearly seemed interested in what Wrath had to say.  I didn't get it. Wrath had killed his fiancé.  A few days ago we had to stop Desire from cutting off his dick and now all of a sudden he was protecting Wrath of all people.  I didn't get it.
     I looked back at Wrath.  He must have knew I was about to charge him because for some reason he had his hands up as though giving up or something.  What the hell?  This guy was full of surprises.  
    "Listen.  I knew you guys would be mad about it, but it's not what you think," Wrath stated, "In order to turn off the tracker someone has sacrifice themselves and go to the Assembly.  From within the Assembly there is a computer room.  Room 134.   It's the only room that is numbered in the building.  You can disable our trackers by logging into the main computer."
    We all looked at one another.
    Shit.
    "One of us will have to sacrifice ourselves?"
Wrath nodded, "That is why it's important for the assembly to come here..."
He wanted them to come here to bring someone back to the Assembly with him.  I shook my head.  The idea of going back to the Assembly scared the fuck out of me.  We had gone against Tom.  We were enemies of the Assembly now.  I could only imagine what the punishment would be for that.  Everyone looked at one another.  
I looked at Allure.  I looked at Desire.  I looked at Urge.  No one was just jumping up and saying that they wanted it to be them.  It was clear none of us wanted to go back.
"We probably won't be alive long enough to disable that tracker...not after running away from the Assembly," Allure stated.
    "I can," Wrath stated, "My father won't kill his son."
    "Are you volunteering?" Desire asked.
    "Yes."
    "Why?" Urge asked.
    Urge wasn't having it.  I didn't blame him.  I think we all knew why he was doing it.  We all saw at that moment how Wrath looked over at Desire.  He loved Desire in this sick way back in the day.  What was he trying to prove?  Was he trying to win Desire's favor or something like that.
    "When they get here, there is a three-way fork in the woods.  It leads three ways.  I'll distract them and you guys can get away.  You'll have to split up," Wrath stated.
    Urge had his arms crossed, "You're ignoring my question."
    Wrath continued almost as though Urge wasn't even there, "You should probably stay separate for a while.  Even with the trackers disabled they may be able to track the old fashioned way.  Your chances at survival will be better if you are all apart."
    Separate.
    "I'm going with Love," I stated.
    Wrath nodded, "That's fine.  I assumed you would want to.  I assumed Urge and Desire would want to go the same way as well.  Allure are you comfortable being alone?"
    Allure nodded almost feeling funny about this as well, "I'm a big girl. You should be more worried about yourself..."
    "Why do you say that?" Wrath asked.
    "When Tom finds out that you disabled our trackers permanently I don't even think he'll spare his oldest son."
    "I'm sure he'll kill me.  I've thought about that," Wrath stated, "This will be my last mission..."
    "WHY ARE YOU DOING THIS!" Urge asked Wrath.
    Urge walked up to Wrath.  
    He grabbed him by the collar of his shirt.  He pulled him close.  I could see the suspicion in Urge's eyes.  He didn't trust Wrath at all.  Maybe there was something deeper than that.  Maybe there was some brotherly competitive agenda that I wasn't aware of.  Things looked really intense between the two at that moment.
    What was even weirder when Desire walked up and separated them.  At that moment it all kind of made sense. These two brothers were so into Desire that they were willing to risk their lives just for his favor.  Was there anything they wouldn't do?
    "Stop Urge," Desire stated before turning to Wrath and saying, "Thank you...you are saving us all..."
    Then Desire did the oddest thing.  He did the oddest fucking thing.  He hugged Wrath.  I saw the look in Wrath's eyes at that moment.  I saw how they lit up.  
    "Holy shit,' I whispered under my breath.
    I wasn't the only one.  Allure's eyes had gotten wide.  She looked shocked.  Desire was hugging Wrath.  He was hugging the guy whose dick he wanted to cut off just a  few days ago.  He was hugging the monster underneath his bed.
    Wrath was smiling.
    Urge looked completely confused and broken at that moment.  He had even taken a step back completely.  I figured at that moment Desire wasn't afraid of Wrath any longer.  Wrath had become a hero in his eyes or something like that.  Wrath was sacrificing himself for us.  Who knew?  Who knew the same guy who was the person we hated the most would be saving us.
    

 

    "You plan on being out here all day?"
    It was Urge.  I was sitting outside of Love's room.  I literally had been out here all day.  
    "He needs me," I stated.
    Desire handed me some hot chocolate, "You should be getting ready to leave.  Wrath says that once the Assembly gets close we should leave immediately.   He is helping Allure pack up some essentials that she'll need.  You should make a bag yourself. That way they think we are all in the same place.  You need to worry about yourself as well.  Love would want you to be ready."
    I didn't care about essentials.
    Love was the only essential that I needed.
    "If Urge was in this situation, where would you be?" I asked him.
    Desire nodded at that moment and smiled.
    "Damn.  You're right.  Is he that to you?"
    "What you mean?"
    My bestfriend shrugged his shoulders as he sat next to me on the floor outside of Love's bedroom.
    "Is Love your Urge.  You know how I feel about Urge clearly," I stated, "Do you feel the same way about Love?"
    I shook my head to think about it.  
    "I've always been so afraid to love. You know?  I've always been afraid to let someone else in after what happened in my old relationship.  I don't know the answer to your question to be honest.  I don't know what Love wants.  He's always been so into Urge that I never gave it much thought besides wanting to have sex.  But there is emotion."
    "Emotion huh?  And you make fun of me."
    I pushed him at that moment playfully.  Desire laughed about it.
    "We will be free, after this.  You know that right?" Wrath stated at that moment, "It will all be over.  No more Assembly.  No more assassinations.  They won't be able to track us."
    "They've tracked me before."
    "They tracked you because of Grayson.  Urge is not Grayson.  He'll be more careful.  He'll take care of you.  I have a feeling you guys will be safe."
    "I love him," Desire stated.
    He said it in the most pure way.  It was Desire that made me believe in love again.  What he had with Urge was special.  I had to admit it.  I wanted the same thing with Love.
    "He's your soulmate," I stated.
    "Wow.  Craving saying something nice about Urge.  It must be the end of times," Desire replied laughing at that moment.
    "I don't like him.  I don't want to be around him and I think he is so cocky with that smug, handsome face of his.  But I'll give him props where props are due.  He loves you.  There is nothing he wouldn't do for you.  Nothing.  If I can't be around to take care of you there is no one else besides Urge that I trust with you."
    "You'll still be around. Don't say that."
    "You heard Wrath. We'll have to separate.  I'll go with Love.  You and Urge.  Allure will be on her own.  It'll be safer that way."
    "One day we'll meet again."
    I smiled, "Of course.  Hopefully by then I'll win over Love.  Maybe hopefully by then you and Urge will be married with kids."
    "Kids?"
    "Yeah.  I know you want them.  I can see it now.  You teaching them how to ride bikes while Urge teaches them how to dodge bullets."
    Laughter.  I loved seeing Desire laugh.  I think we deserved it.
    Just at that moment Wrath's grandfather opened up the door.  He walked out of the room and into the hallway.  
    "How is Love doing?" I asked the grandfather.
    "He's ready to have guests if you guys want to go in."
    I got up immediately.  I was more than excited to see Love to be honest.  I was a little too excited.  My body was shaking.  
    "You go in," Desire stated, "You two should be alone.  We don't have much time.  The Assembly is on the way.  I should go meet with Urge and find out what we are going to do anyway."
    "Ok."
    "Wait."
    Desire hugged me at that moment.  His hugs were those legendary kind of hugs.  He had the hugs that made me know Desire was never suited to be an assassin.  He was such a good person and I was glad to call someone like him a friend.
    "Be happy," I told him.
    "Be strong," he replied.    
    I watched him walk away.  I knew what he meant by telling me to be strong.  My strength was my thing and when it came to love I had to be strong.
    I walked into the room at that moment to see Love.  I was nervous.  I just hoped he was ok and he would be fine.  Maybe we could start that life together.  Maybe he would finally be able to give me that chance that I wanted.

    When I walked in the room I saw Love.  Immediately he scurried away.  He scurried!  Like a roach when you flicker the lights on.  What the fuck?  Before I knew it he was under a table on the opposite end of the wall, crouched down like a child playing hide and seek.
    "Love?"
    "Craving?"
    He got up at that moment.  He looked confused.  He let out a deep sigh at that moment.
    `Who did you think it was?"
    He looked scared, "Craving thank god.  Thank god its you."
    He ran over to me and hugged me at that moment.  I was worried.  I was worried by the fact that he didn't look like he was safe.  He was shaking even when I hugged him.  His light body was shaking in my arms and I felt completely crushed by it.
    What the fuck was the matter with him?
    "Love, are you ok?"
    "I'm fine now that you are here.  Where are we?"
    "We are in a cabin that belongs to Wrath's grandfather in the woods," I explained, "The assembly is on its way here."
    "The assembly?"
    "Yes but relax.  We'll be gone before they come.  We are all separating.  Wrath is going to turn himself into the Assembly and disarm our trackers permanently.  It's good news.  Love.  It's good news.  We will be free."
    Love gave a half smile, "No yeah.  It sounds good.  How are we separating?"
    "Well you and I can leave together...I was thinking...if that's ok with you."
    Love smiled, "Is that what you want?"
     I nodded, "I almost lost you.  You almost lost me.  I'm not ready for that to happen again..."
    I was putting it all out there.  I had laid it all out there and I was just waiting to see how received it.  Love was smiling.  He seemed happy.  He even leaned forward and kissed me at that moment.  The kiss was all that I wanted.  Fireworks.  I wondered if this was what Urge and Desire felt when they kissed.  It was real.  It was real emotion.
    "We should get ready.  The others as well.  Allure is going to go out on her own.  Desire is going to go with Urge."
    "Urge!"
    "Love, whoa, calm down.  Why are you shaking?"
    "Urge."
    He was panicking.  He was moving all over as soon as I mentioned Urge.  What the fuck was wrong with him.
    "Love.  I'm going to need you to calm down.  I'm here.  I'm here for you."
    I felt like I had to protect him.  Why was he freaking out over Urge like this?  His whole body was shaking.  I tried to calm him down hoping that he would be able to relax a little bit.
    He was finding it hard to talk.  He looked like he just saw a goddam ghost or something.  He was reacting like a crazy person.  I didn't fucking get it.
    "It was Urge," Love gasped, "Urge was the one who tried to kill me.  He wanted to shut me up about the fact that he killed Grayson."
    My mouth dropped.
    It seemed time stopped at that moment.
    "No..."
    Love wasn't lying, "He did it.  He did it all..."
    

    Rage.
    Anger.
    Betrayal.    
    There were all these emotions that came through me as I stormed out into the living room.  The others were out there.  Wrath was pulling down canned food from the shelves.  Allure was packing a bag on the counter.  
    Then I saw Desire.  He was packing a bag as well.  Just in that moment Urge snuck up behind him.  Urge pressed himself up behind Desire.  Desire turned around and kissed him.  It was clear they were happy.  It was clear that they were happy with all of this.  I wouldn't allow it.  
    "You fucking snake!"
    "What are you tripping about?" Desire asked laughing as though I was telling a joke.
    I wasn't waiting.  I pulled Urge off of Desire and slammed the fuck out of him.  I slammed him hard against the floor.  He screamed out in pain clearly not realizing that it was me.  I started to punch him on the floor.  
    Urge kicked me off.  He swung at me and connected once I was off of him.  The fist slammed into the side of my face.  I could feel myself spitting out blood on the floor.  Shit.   He hit hard as fuck.  
    I jumped on him again, trying to get him in a wrestling form.  He struggled to get off.  There was laughter from Wrath on the other side of the room.  Love was looking on.  Urge was a fighter. There was no doubt.  He evaded me and started punching me a few times to the sides of my stomach.  They hurt like shit but I wasn't giving up.  I managed to finally get a hold of him and I slammed him into the counter.  I dragged his body across the counter.
Desire tried to pull me off but I was able to push him away.  I had a hold of Urge now finally.  I wasn't letting him go no matter what.  I wasn't letting him go no matter how hard his kicks to my abdomen were.  
He kicked at me trying to get away but I didn't stop until I dragged him all the way to the end of the counter and slammed him into the fridge.
Urge lay on the floor bloody and bruised.
A part of me wanted to kill Urge.  I wanted to kill him right then and there. The only thing that stopped me was the fact that my best friend had laid over him guarding him almost.  Having beat his ass finally one good time seemed to make up for it.  
"Catching someone off guard?" Urge asked from the floor, "Nice one."
"What is going on?" Desire asked.
"I should kill your boyfriend.  That's what's going on.  But I won't even kill him.  There are worse things like death."
"What are you talking about?" Desire asked.
Wrath looked away.  Allure looked away.  There was a look of knowing on their face.
"You all knew didn't you?" I asked, "They all fucking knew."
"Knew what?" Desire asked.
I looked over at Urge, "They knew what Urge did.  Urge why don't you tell him.  Why don't you tell him what you did."
Urge wasn't being so smart now.  It seemed like the chickens have come home to roost.  All his bad deeds had come back finally.  Everything was about to come to light.
All he could do is stare at Desire.  Desire stared back at him.  Everyone else stared away.  It was hard for them to look but it wasn't hard for me.  I wanted to see this.  I wanted to see Urge completely fuck up his chances of love with Desire. This was a betrayal unlike nothing else.
Urge looked at Desire, "I tried to kill Love."
Love was standing behind me.  He was afraid even now.  I hated Urge.  I hated him because he hurt the two people that were most important in my life.  He hurt Love and he hurt Desire.  
I hated him more than anything.
Desire looked back at Urge confused, "Why?'
It hurt to see Desire so confused.  It hurt that the man he loved the most in his life had held him in the dark for so long.  
Urge was the one afraid now.  Urge was the one shaking.  A part of me almost felt bad for him too but this had to be done.  He looked at Desire.  I could almost see Urge's heart break at that moment.  I could almost see him not understanding how to let this out.
"He knew something," Urge stated.
"Urge spit it out," Desire pushed on, "What are you saying?"
"I was the one who killed Grayson."