Chapter 14
Craving's
POV
"Love is up..."
We had been in the cabin for two days now. My mouth dropped open.
Wrath had called us all for a meeting in the living room. It was so
odd. We were all gathered around the fire in the woods. For some
reason it felt comforting here in this college. It felt like home.
You wouldn't have thought this was a group of assassins. You would think
we were just old friends gathered around...happy.
"I need to see him," I said getting up.
Wrath held out his hand at that moment stopping me before I
made my way to the back room o the huge cabin where Love was laying last.
"He has to recover."
"You don't get it...he needs me," I stated, "He needs a
familiar face."
I was grabbed again. This time it was by Desire. A
part of me wanted to pull away but I couldn't pull away from my best
friend. He touched me delicately as though wanting me to know that
everything would be ok. I worried though. It felt like he was
waking up alone after being attacked by god knows who.
"He'll be ok," Desire stated.
"My grandfather will look after him," Wrath stated, "He'll
be fine. You'll be able to see him soon."
I sat back down and shook my head. I didn't want to do
this. I didn't want to leave him alone. I guess the others didn't
understand. Allure was looking like a ghost at that moment and Urge
wasn't even staring my way. Desire sat next to me though. He rubbed
my back making me feel a little better. The fire was going.
"Is that why you gathered us around?" Allure asked Wrath.
I was wondering the same thing. I didn't know how to
feel about Wrath. He wasn't a good person. He wasn't a sane person
from what I remembered. Supposedly he did this whole change and I didn't
know how to feel about that either. He still looked kind of off to me.
Wrath shook his head at that moment, "I have something to
tell you guys. It's something good. There is a way to permanently
disable our trackers..."
Desire shook his head, "I thought you said just temporary."
"With the gadget it would be temporary. However there
is a way to have us offline from the assembly forever. However in order
to do that the assembly will have to come here. I didn't disable the
trackers for today. They will be on their way here shortly...probably be here
within 24 hours. I believe they'll be sending multiple teams."
We looked at one another. Panic. Allure got up
off the couch. Desire took a deep breath. I kept looking back and
forth trying to understand what the fuck Wrath was even talking about.
This guy was psycho. He lost his mind. What the fuck was wrong with
him?
Before I knew it was trying to hold myself back from
swinging on him. It would have been so easy. It would have been so
easy to take him out right now. The others would back me up. Back
in the day I remembered Wrath beat up the whole team. We were just in
training back then though. He wouldn't be able to take us all now.
"What the fuck!" Allure stated, "You didn't disable the
trackers? You lead them right to us. They will fucking kill us!"
"I told you guys not to trust him," Urge replied, in his
calm stone-like manner.
He could be calm all he wants but I was pissed. I got
up at that moment. I was about to charge at him. I was about to
take his ass out. If I killed him fast enough, we could find the
gadget. We could get Love. We could disable the trackers. We
could make a run for it before the Assembly came for us. I would have to
act now though.
A hand stopped me.
Desire.
"What are you doing Desire?" I asked.
Why was he holding me back?
"Let him finish," Desire stated.
Desire looked suspicious but clearly seemed interested in
what Wrath had to say. I didn't get it. Wrath had killed his
fiancé. A few days ago we had to stop Desire from cutting off his dick
and now all of a sudden he was protecting Wrath of all people. I didn't
get it.
I looked back at Wrath. He must have knew I was about
to charge him because for some reason he had his hands up as though giving up
or something. What the hell? This guy was full of surprises.
"Listen. I knew you guys would be mad about it, but
it's not what you think," Wrath stated, "In order to turn off the tracker
someone has sacrifice themselves and go to the Assembly. From within the
Assembly there is a computer room. Room 134. It's the only
room that is numbered in the building. You can disable our trackers by
logging into the main computer."
We all looked at one another.
Shit.
"One of us will have to sacrifice ourselves?"
Wrath nodded, "That is why it's important for the assembly to come here..."
He wanted them to come here to bring someone back to the Assembly with
him. I shook my head. The idea of going back to the Assembly scared
the fuck out of me. We had gone against Tom. We were enemies of the
Assembly now. I could only imagine what the punishment would be for
that. Everyone looked at one another.
I looked at Allure. I looked at Desire. I looked at Urge. No
one was just jumping up and saying that they wanted it to be them. It was
clear none of us wanted to go back.
"We probably won't be alive long enough to disable that tracker...not after
running away from the Assembly," Allure stated.
"I can," Wrath stated, "My father won't kill his son."
"Are you volunteering?" Desire asked.
"Yes."
"Why?" Urge asked.
Urge wasn't having it. I didn't blame him. I
think we all knew why he was doing it. We all saw at that moment how
Wrath looked over at Desire. He loved Desire in this sick way back in the
day. What was he trying to prove? Was he trying to win Desire's
favor or something like that.
"When they get here, there is a three-way fork in the
woods. It leads three ways. I'll distract them and you guys can get
away. You'll have to split up," Wrath stated.
Urge had his arms crossed, "You're ignoring my question."
Wrath continued almost as though Urge wasn't even there,
"You should probably stay separate for a while. Even with the trackers
disabled they may be able to track the old fashioned way. Your chances at
survival will be better if you are all apart."
Separate.
"I'm going with Love," I stated.
Wrath nodded, "That's fine. I assumed you would want
to. I assumed Urge and Desire would want to go the same way as
well. Allure are you comfortable being alone?"
Allure nodded almost feeling funny about this as well, "I'm
a big girl. You should be more worried about yourself..."
"Why do you say that?" Wrath asked.
"When Tom finds out that you disabled our trackers
permanently I don't even think he'll spare his oldest son."
"I'm sure he'll kill me. I've thought about that,"
Wrath stated, "This will be my last mission..."
"WHY ARE YOU DOING THIS!" Urge asked Wrath.
Urge walked up to Wrath.
He grabbed him by the collar of his shirt. He pulled
him close. I could see the suspicion in Urge's eyes. He didn't
trust Wrath at all. Maybe there was something deeper than that.
Maybe there was some brotherly competitive agenda that I wasn't aware of.
Things looked really intense between the two at that moment.
What was even weirder when Desire walked up and separated
them. At that moment it all kind of made sense. These two brothers were
so into Desire that they were willing to risk their lives just for his
favor. Was there anything they wouldn't do?
"Stop Urge," Desire stated before turning to Wrath and
saying, "Thank you...you are saving us all..."
Then Desire did the oddest thing. He did the oddest
fucking thing. He hugged Wrath. I saw the look in Wrath's eyes at
that moment. I saw how they lit up.
"Holy shit,' I whispered under my breath.
I wasn't the only one. Allure's eyes had gotten wide.
She looked shocked. Desire was hugging Wrath. He was hugging the
guy whose dick he wanted to cut off just a few days ago. He was
hugging the monster underneath his bed.
Wrath was smiling.
Urge looked completely confused and broken at that moment.
He had even taken a step back completely. I figured at that moment Desire
wasn't afraid of Wrath any longer. Wrath had become a hero in his eyes or
something like that. Wrath was sacrificing himself for us. Who
knew? Who knew the same guy who was the person we hated the most would be
saving us.
"You plan on being out here all day?"
It was Urge. I was sitting outside of Love's
room. I literally had been out here all day.
"He needs me," I stated.
Desire handed me some hot chocolate, "You should be getting
ready to leave. Wrath says that once the Assembly gets close we should
leave immediately. He is helping Allure pack up some essentials
that she'll need. You should make a bag yourself. That way they think we
are all in the same place. You need to worry about yourself as
well. Love would want you to be ready."
I didn't care about essentials.
Love was the only essential that I needed.
"If Urge was in this situation, where would you be?" I asked
him.
Desire nodded at that moment and smiled.
"Damn. You're right. Is he that to you?"
"What you mean?"
My bestfriend shrugged his shoulders as he sat next to me on
the floor outside of Love's bedroom.
"Is Love your Urge. You know how I feel about Urge
clearly," I stated, "Do you feel the same way about Love?"
I shook my head to think about it.
"I've always been so afraid to love. You know? I've
always been afraid to let someone else in after what happened in my old
relationship. I don't know the answer to your question to be
honest. I don't know what Love wants. He's always been so into Urge
that I never gave it much thought besides wanting to have sex. But there
is emotion."
"Emotion huh? And you make fun of me."
I pushed him at that moment playfully. Desire laughed
about it.
"We will be free, after this. You know that right?"
Wrath stated at that moment, "It will all be over. No more
Assembly. No more assassinations. They won't be able to track us."
"They've tracked me before."
"They tracked you because of Grayson. Urge is not
Grayson. He'll be more careful. He'll take care of you. I
have a feeling you guys will be safe."
"I love him," Desire stated.
He said it in the most pure way. It was Desire that
made me believe in love again. What he had with Urge was special. I
had to admit it. I wanted the same thing with Love.
"He's your soulmate," I stated.
"Wow. Craving saying something nice about Urge.
It must be the end of times," Desire replied laughing at that moment.
"I don't like him. I don't want to be around him and I
think he is so cocky with that smug, handsome face of his. But I'll give
him props where props are due. He loves you. There is nothing he
wouldn't do for you. Nothing. If I can't be around to take care of
you there is no one else besides Urge that I trust with you."
"You'll still be around. Don't say that."
"You heard Wrath. We'll have to separate. I'll go with
Love. You and Urge. Allure will be on her own. It'll be safer
that way."
"One day we'll meet again."
I smiled, "Of course. Hopefully by then I'll win over
Love. Maybe hopefully by then you and Urge will be married with kids."
"Kids?"
"Yeah. I know you want them. I can see it
now. You teaching them how to ride bikes while Urge teaches them how to
dodge bullets."
Laughter. I loved seeing Desire laugh. I think
we deserved it.
Just at that moment Wrath's grandfather opened up the
door. He walked out of the room and into the hallway.
"How is Love doing?" I asked the grandfather.
"He's ready to have guests if you guys want to go in."
I got up immediately. I was more than excited to see
Love to be honest. I was a little too excited. My body was shaking.
"You go in," Desire stated, "You two should be alone.
We don't have much time. The Assembly is on the way. I should go
meet with Urge and find out what we are going to do anyway."
"Ok."
"Wait."
Desire hugged me at that moment. His hugs were those
legendary kind of hugs. He had the hugs that made me know Desire was
never suited to be an assassin. He was such a good person and I was glad
to call someone like him a friend.
"Be happy," I told him.
"Be strong," he replied.
I watched him walk away. I knew what he meant by
telling me to be strong. My strength was my thing and when it came to
love I had to be strong.
I walked into the room at that moment to see Love. I
was nervous. I just hoped he was ok and he would be fine. Maybe we
could start that life together. Maybe he would finally be able to give me
that chance that I wanted.
When I walked in the room I saw Love. Immediately
he scurried away. He scurried! Like a roach when you flicker the
lights on. What the fuck? Before I knew it he was under a table on
the opposite end of the wall, crouched down like a child playing hide and seek.
"Love?"
"Craving?"
He got up at that moment. He looked confused. He
let out a deep sigh at that moment.
`Who did you think it was?"
He looked scared, "Craving thank god. Thank god its
you."
He ran over to me and hugged me at that moment. I was
worried. I was worried by the fact that he didn't look like he was
safe. He was shaking even when I hugged him. His light body was
shaking in my arms and I felt completely crushed by it.
What the fuck was the matter with him?
"Love, are you ok?"
"I'm fine now that you are here. Where are we?"
"We are in a cabin that belongs to Wrath's grandfather in
the woods," I explained, "The assembly is on its way here."
"The assembly?"
"Yes but relax. We'll be gone before they come.
We are all separating. Wrath is going to turn himself into the Assembly
and disarm our trackers permanently. It's good news. Love.
It's good news. We will be free."
Love gave a half smile, "No yeah. It sounds
good. How are we separating?"
"Well you and I can leave together...I was thinking...if that's
ok with you."
Love smiled, "Is that what you want?"
I nodded, "I almost lost you. You almost lost
me. I'm not ready for that to happen again..."
I was putting it all out there. I had laid it all out
there and I was just waiting to see how received it. Love was
smiling. He seemed happy. He even leaned forward and kissed me at
that moment. The kiss was all that I wanted. Fireworks. I
wondered if this was what Urge and Desire felt when they kissed. It was
real. It was real emotion.
"We should get ready. The others as well. Allure
is going to go out on her own. Desire is going to go with Urge."
"Urge!"
"Love, whoa, calm down. Why are you shaking?"
"Urge."
He was panicking. He was moving all over as soon as I
mentioned Urge. What the fuck was wrong with him.
"Love. I'm going to need you to calm down. I'm
here. I'm here for you."
I felt like I had to protect him. Why was he freaking
out over Urge like this? His whole body was shaking. I tried to
calm him down hoping that he would be able to relax a little bit.
He was finding it hard to talk. He looked like he just
saw a goddam ghost or something. He was reacting like a crazy
person. I didn't fucking get it.
"It was Urge," Love gasped, "Urge was the one who tried to
kill me. He wanted to shut me up about the fact that he killed Grayson."
My mouth dropped.
It seemed time stopped at that moment.
"No..."
Love wasn't lying, "He did it. He did it all..."
Rage.
Anger.
Betrayal.
There were all these emotions that came through me as I
stormed out into the living room. The others were out there. Wrath
was pulling down canned food from the shelves. Allure was packing a bag
on the counter.
Then I saw Desire. He was packing a bag as well.
Just in that moment Urge snuck up behind him. Urge pressed himself up
behind Desire. Desire turned around and kissed him. It was clear
they were happy. It was clear that they were happy with all of
this. I wouldn't allow it.
"You fucking snake!"
"What are you tripping about?" Desire asked laughing as
though I was telling a joke.
I wasn't waiting. I pulled Urge off of Desire and
slammed the fuck out of him. I slammed him hard against the floor.
He screamed out in pain clearly not realizing that it was me. I started
to punch him on the floor.
Urge kicked me off. He swung at me and connected once
I was off of him. The fist slammed into the side of my face. I
could feel myself spitting out blood on the floor. Shit. He
hit hard as fuck.
I jumped on him again, trying to get him in a wrestling
form. He struggled to get off. There was laughter from Wrath on the
other side of the room. Love was looking on. Urge was a fighter.
There was no doubt. He evaded me and started punching me a few times to
the sides of my stomach. They hurt like shit but I wasn't giving
up. I managed to finally get a hold of him and I slammed him into the
counter. I dragged his body across the counter.
Desire tried to pull me off but I was able to push him away. I had a hold
of Urge now finally. I wasn't letting him go no matter what. I
wasn't letting him go no matter how hard his kicks to my abdomen were.
He kicked at me trying to get away but I didn't stop until I dragged him all
the way to the end of the counter and slammed him into the fridge.
Urge lay on the floor bloody and bruised.
A part of me wanted to kill Urge. I wanted to kill him right then and
there. The only thing that stopped me was the fact that my best friend had laid
over him guarding him almost. Having beat his ass finally one good time
seemed to make up for it.
"Catching someone off guard?" Urge asked from the floor, "Nice one."
"What is going on?" Desire asked.
"I should kill your boyfriend. That's what's going on. But I won't
even kill him. There are worse things like death."
"What are you talking about?" Desire asked.
Wrath looked away. Allure looked away. There was a look of knowing
on their face.
"You all knew didn't you?" I asked, "They all fucking knew."
"Knew what?" Desire asked.
I looked over at Urge, "They knew what Urge did. Urge why don't you tell
him. Why don't you tell him what you did."
Urge wasn't being so smart now. It seemed like the chickens have come
home to roost. All his bad deeds had come back finally. Everything
was about to come to light.
All he could do is stare at Desire. Desire stared back at him.
Everyone else stared away. It was hard for them to look but it wasn't
hard for me. I wanted to see this. I wanted to see Urge completely
fuck up his chances of love with Desire. This was a betrayal unlike nothing
else.
Urge looked at Desire, "I tried to kill Love."
Love was standing behind me. He was afraid even now. I hated
Urge. I hated him because he hurt the two people that were most important
in my life. He hurt Love and he hurt Desire.
I hated him more than anything.
Desire looked back at Urge confused, "Why?'
It hurt to see Desire so confused. It hurt that the man he loved the most
in his life had held him in the dark for so long.
Urge was the one afraid now. Urge was the one shaking. A part of me
almost felt bad for him too but this had to be done. He looked at
Desire. I could almost see Urge's heart break at that moment. I
could almost see him not understanding how to let this out.
"He knew something," Urge stated.
"Urge spit it out," Desire pushed on, "What are you saying?"
"I was the one who killed Grayson."