Bob Learns Toby's Secret

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Bob is a single man, just thirty one years old, decently good looking, has a reasonable job, and lives in a decent apartment in a decent building, in a decent city. Everything about his life is mediocre, and that is how he likes it, but he has one brilliantly bright light in his life, yet to counter it, he has a very dark hole as well.

Toby is an incredibly beautiful eleven year old boy, he is tall for his age, but so skinny that he is underweight for said age and height. He has unruly and curly reddish brown hair that just does what it wants, no matter what Toby wants it to do, but it suits him. He has deep brown eyes that look too sad at almost all times, until he can see Bob.

Bob is now the manager at the appliance store that he started working at when he was just fourteen, and when he first moved into the apartment building when he was seventeen, it was on the lowest floor, in the smallest bachelor suite, but in his mid twenties, when a really nice two bedroom unit opened up on the second to top floor, he took it, and likes it a lot better. He has no car, he has never needed one, and no one thought it important enough to teach him to drive anyway. He works only a block away, there is a mall only two blocks away, and a grocery store just across the street. His apartment building is one of the few in the city that actually has a pool, which was why he wanted this building, because he loves to swim.

Toby moved in just barely two years previous, had just turned nine, and at first, Toby knew nothing of him, but when his mother, Pam, was moving their things in, he saw that she was struggling, and so, being the kind hearted person that he is, he offered to help. It was on his third trip in, when a boy that nearly stopped his heart, exited from what clearly must be his bedroom. They both stopped and stared at each other, and only when Pam walked in, did they move again. She explained to Toby that Bob is their neighbour just down the hall and that he had offered to help.

That night, when Bob went home, he jacked off furiously to the vision of the shockingly pretty little boy, which of course made him feel guilty again. Bob had fought those urges from the time he was a young teen, he has known since he was ten that he is gay, but the desire to be with young boys started when he was thirteen, and it scared and disgusted him. He has never even so much as seen a naked boy, though, as much as he has dreamed, he has made certain to keep his distance. Even at the pool in their building, he only goes late at night or early in the morning, long before or after anyone else is around to ensure that he does not do anything wrong.

The same night that Bob was jacking off furiously to Toby for his first time, Toby too had to jack off for his very first time. Oh, sure, he had played with his little dinky before and made himself feel good, but, no, that night, he full on jacked off, caused his very first orgasm, and then promptly had three more after that. That night was the first time that Toby realized what the feelings coursing through his body were, and he put a name to what he is, something that he had truly felt for a while already, he is gay, and he totally has a crush on Bob.

At first, Bob tried his best to keep his distance, but Toby refused to allow that, and would invite him over, he would go to Bob's place, and he would talk Bob's ear off, which was the only time that Toby ever truly talked at all.

The day that Toby found out that he could trust Bob with any secret at all came only three months after they met. Bob had needed some flour for a recipe that he was trying for the first time, and had not realized that he was out, so, headed to Toby's place to see if Pam could loan him some. She said sure, to come in while she grabs it, and when Toby sauntered out of his bedroom, totally not knowing that Bob was there, wearing nothing but a Goodnites Pullup Diaper, he stuttered when Bob saw him, and he started crying. Bob got down on one knee, and looked Toby right in the eyes, having to lift his chin up to do so, and promised him that this changes nothing, that they are still friends, and that Toby's wetting the bed means nothing to him.

The next day, Toby made Bob promise again that his wearing diapers like a baby means nothing to him, and that he doesn't think less of him, something that Bob gladly did, but then admitted to Toby that not only did he also wet the bed, but that he still does, and that he too wears diapers to bed, and will have to for life.

Well, after that, the only thing that neither ever admitted to the other, is that they are gay. They both know it anyway, but Bob was very careful to never ask nor insinuate, nor tell that he is. The older that Toby gets, the more Bob can see what Toby is wanting and needing.

Shortly before Toby turned eleven, he started taking pictures of himself in just his diapers, both dry and wet, he did not know why he was doing it, but he enjoyed doing so. Then he thought that Bob might enjoy them as well, and so, started emailing them to Bob. At first Bob tried to tell Toby not to send him those kindsa pictures, but both knew how much he liked them, and even Toby knows and understands just how much Bob is jacking off to them. Bob had even printed out a few of the most stunning photos, and has them framed on his bedroom wall.

Then the shit hit the fan.

Pam had needed something, so, she went to Bob's to see if he was home, and if he would give her some sugar, but he wasn't home. For some reason, she tried the handle anyway, and it opened, it was not locked, so, knowing that Bob would not mind at all, she headed in. As she passed the bedroom, she spied something through the open bedroom door, it looked an awful lot like Toby, wearing nothing but a very soggy Goodnite, and so, she entered the bedroom, and sure enough, that is exactly who it is. She was furious.

Toby got home then, and found it odd that his door was open, and thought someone had broken in, so, grabbing his can of pepper spray, in case someone was still in there, he crept in, and when he saw Pam, in his bedroom, looking at a picture of Toby in nothing but a soggy diaper, he knew. Then she turned, and saw him, they locked eyes, and he knew she was furious.

“What have you done to my son?” She yelled.

“Nothing, I promise, I've never even touched him.” He whispered, already crying.

She stormed up to him, and started hitting him and hitting him, saying nothing, just hitting him. Bob just took it. He is crying even harder as she hits him as hard as he has wanted to do to himself for so long. Finally he crashed to the ground, and she stormed out.

“Toby, get in here?” She yelled when she made it back to their apartment.

“What?” He said in a panic, thinking that something was wrong from his mom's tone.

“You're never to go near to Bob ever again, he's a sick sick man, he's somehow taken pictures of you in your wet Goodnites and has them hanging in his room.”

“I sent him those pictures, I took them, what'd you do to him?”

“You took them?” She whispered dangerously.

“Yes, what'd you do to him?”

“Hit him, lots.”

“So, you did to him exactly what dad did to the both of us. You were so fucking weak, you couldn't even try to protect me from him, now the one man who actually likes me, you beat him up.”

“Toby, I'm only doing what's best for you.”

“No, you see him as a dirty sick pervert who's only out to hurt me. He won't do it though, no matter how many hints I give him that I want it as much.”

“Toby.” She whispered in shock.

And then he ran from their apartment to Bob's, to make sure he is okay. But he is most certainly not. When Toby entered, he found Bob in the kitchen, the pool of blood getting shockingly large.

“I'm so sorry Toby, I'm a horrible person.” Bob whispered to Toby, crying so deep, a knife still in his hand, still carving slowly up his arm.

“No, don't do this Bob, I love you, I can't live without you.” Toby said, starting to cry as well.

He grabbed the phone, and called 911, told them that his friend is bleeding, that he's tried to kill himself. He hung up after giving the address, saying that he needs to try and stop the bleeding, even though the lady tried telling him to stay on the phone. As soon as Toby hung up, he went and took the knife from Bob, and grabbed some towels to wrap his arm.

“Bob, listen to me, I love you, I don't wanna lose you, you're not allowed to die. Say nothing of why you did what you did, I'll protect you from my mother, though if you die, she won't be any more for doing this to you.” Toby said, and then kissed Bob.

“I can't live with myself any more, I'm a monster, please Toby, just let me go before I hurt you.”

“No, you're not, you're a caring gentle man who'd never hurt anyone.”

“What I want, what I need, though, it will hurt you.”

“No, it won't, and when you get better, I'm gonna prove it to you, now, no more talking, and remember, say nothing to the hospital psychiatrist about the real reason you did this, just tell them you're depressed because you're a diaper lover, because I know you are now, just like I am too.”

A few seconds later, the paramedics arrived, and took over for Toby. Knowing he is only in the way now, he mouthed I love you one more time to Bob, so that only he would see it, and headed back to his apartment. Pam was still in the kitchen. When Toby arrived, covered in Bob's blood, and looking even more furious than Pam was when she found out about Bob, she knew then that the relationship that the two of them had, which was already rocky at best, hung by a very thin thread.

“If he dies, you and I are done. Understand.” He said icily.

“Toby, I love you.”

“No, if you loved me as much as you've tried telling me, Dad wouldn't have beat me so horribly every morning I woke up wet. If you loved me, he wouldn't have beat me every time I pissed my pants. You are weak, or you agreed, either way, that's not love. I finally called the fucking cops on him, you just watched as he did it, oh sure, you'd say, that's enough, you're killing him, but a real mother who loves her child, no, she woulda called the cops, or stepped in.”

“He was beating me too though, I wasn't strong enough to protect you, because I wasn't strong enough to protect me.”

“Do you think I didn't know that. You I can see, but the second he started beating me, no, a mother who loves her child woulda screwed up the courage to call the fucking cops.” He says, crying even more now.

“Bob doesn't love you, he just wantsta use you.”

“No, he loves me a great deal more than I've ever felt in my life. He's never so much as touched me, but the way he looks at me says he loves me far more than you ever could, and like I said, if he dies, I'm gone. Also, if you say anything, to anyone, about who or what he is, I'm gone. You may be too weak, but I'm not, not any more. I'm finally going after what I want and need to make me happy, I'm no longer caring about what other people think of me. The one and only person I love is currently on his way to the hospital, because of you.”

“What happens when you get too old for him, he's a boy rapist?”

“If he were a rapist, I'd already be fucked, I've given him ample opportunity, and I already know how he feels for me, because I feel the same for him. Whether it lasts three years or until we die, makes no difference, but I feel that we'll last for forever. By the way, I never threw you under the bus for not protecting me, but, trust me, you standing there, letting him beat me, watching him do it, that doesn't look good on you, regardless of whether you were strong enough or not. So, cross me on this, and you don't escape jail either.” Toby said, and then turned to walk away.

“Wait, where are you going?” Pam asked, crying deeply, Toby's words hurt, but the look of pure hatred and resentment hurt far more than even that.

“Away from you. I'm gonna go get cleaned up, and then I'm walking to the hospital, to find out if I just keep walking or not.”

“Please, don't go. I truly do love you. You were the only reason I didn't kill myself. Your father raped me, he beat me, he used and abused me, he swore that if I got in the way of him raising you good and proper, that he'd make me watch as he killed you slowly, and then he'd kill me even slower. I know you hate me, but I hate myself more. If you leave me, I'm as good as dead anyway.”

“I'm sorry that he did that to you, but that's still no excuse. You shoulda called the cops. Now, I'm going.”

“No, I'll take you. If he dies, I'll take you anywhere you wanna go, and then I'll go and kill myself.” She said, and though she did sob, there are no more tears.

“Do you honestly think killing yourself changes or fixes anything?”

“No, it doesn't, but it'll stop the guilt.”

“Your guilt for what you allowed to happen to me you mean.”

“Not just you, but yes.”

“Then it's my say whether you live or die. No, you're not to kill yourself. You're to check into the hospital and get the help you clearly need. Even if Bob survives, I'm still demanding that, and for the entire week or two it takes you to heal there, I'll stay with him, and I'll help him heal.”

“Toby, please don't.”

Toby held up his hand, stalling the rest of what she was going to say. “Stop, I'm not listening to it, I've already told you what I'm doing. You can drive me to the hospital if it'll help relieve your guilt, you can even come in the room when they allow it and apologize to Bob for what you did to him to relieve more of your guilt, because his blood's on your hands way worse than it's on mine.” He finished, holding up said bloody hands, and then headed to his bedroom and the bathroom to get cleaned.

While in there, Toby stripped, took a long hot shower, and cried, then finally got out, headed to his bedroom, naked, shocking his mom, and got dressed, only instead of underwear, he put on one of his Goodnites.

When Toby exited his bedroom, Pam could see what Toby was wearing. “Why are you wearing one of your Pullups?” She gasped.

“Because, I'm a gay baby boy diaper lover. From now on, I'm wearing diapers all day, every day. After you drop me off to the hospital, I want for you to go and buy me lotsa thick thirsty tape on baby diapers, baby clothes, including baby diaper shirts, and maybe even a few cute baby accessories.”

“But....But.....But.....”

“It's non negotiable. Just like after Dad went to jail, I told you that I'm not a freak, and that clearly I need diapers, and that I wanted you to get me diapers for my bed wetting. I actually wanted thick thirsty tape on baby diapers even then, the urge for them's even stronger now, and so, that's what I'm getting from now on.”

“Fine.” She sighed.

“Good, let's go.”

“You should at least pull your shirt down, so that your Pullup doesn't show.”

“It's a diaper, and I don't actually care if anyone sees it.”

“Aren't you afraid people will tease you?”

“No, not any more. I'm living my life for me and for Bob now, no one else. No questions asked or permitted.”

The drive to the hospital was rather quiet, but when they arrived, Pam told Toby to go in first, that she is going to go shopping and then come after Toby has had some time alone with Bob. Toby just nodded and got out, then headed in to find where Bob is. The lady at the desk said that he has now been moved up the the psychiatric ward, which means that he clearly survived.

The nurse up there asked who Toby is and who he is there to see, so, she allowed him in.

“Hi Bob, I'm glad you survived.” Toby whispered, wiping the tears from Bob's face that came the instant he saw Toby standing there.

Bob had just been laying there with his eyes closed, so had not seen Toby enter, and only opened his eyes when Toby gave a light cough to alert him as to his presence.

“I'm so sorry Toby, I'm a horrible disgrace.”

“No, Bob, you're not. Just because you're a diaper lover doesn't mean that you're a disgrace. I am too, we're so much alike, that's why you've been my only friend for these past two years.” Toby said, and he knows there is a doctor behind him.

“I know you are, and you've been my only friend too. When your mom accused me of hurting you, making you the way you are, making you wear diapers, I crashed.”

“I know. Now, I've never told you my history. It was too painful, and honestly, I didn't wanna say it, it's so hard, but I think you needta hear it now. My dad's in jail, I made sure of it, he abused me so bad that most days I prayed that death would find me. Every morning I woke up in a pissy bed, he beat me. Every time I pissed my pants, he beat me. Finally, just before we met, I called the cops, and had him arrested. My mom was too weak to protect me, and I've already promised her that if you died, I was gone. Now, I know you were so low when she did that to you, I know that even though she never told me, that she probably also accused you of raping me, which we both know you'd never do, and I told her that as well. Now it's time to pick yourself up, I'll be there to help you. I promise, now, give me your hand, and promise me.”

“Oh, Toby, I'm so sorry. You and your mom were so tight lipped about your past, now I know why. Without you in my life, I truly am empty, I promise that as long as your bright smile still lights up my life, that I'll live.”

“Thank you Bob. I want you to know, I've loved you like a father since the day you accidentally found out I was a diaper wearer and didn't hate me.”

“And I love you as well, and I've wished that you were my son from the day we met. You're such a special young man, and the world truly is a better place for having you in it, and I'm far better for having you in my life as well.”

“Well, I guess I'm not needed.” The doctor said.

“Oh, hi.” Toby said, turning around.

Bob had known he was there as well.

“I was told you said that the reason you were here was because someone found out you're a diaper lover, though you never said anything about this young man, and his mother having caught you and accusing you of that as well. It's okay, really it is. While diaper love isn't exactly common, even amongst fetishes, there's certainly nothing wrong with it, and from what I've seen, it's certainly becoming far more popular. So, as soon as your medical doctor approves your leaving, then I do as well, but, if you ever get so low again, talk to someone. Being different isn't bad, being the same as everyone else is boring.”

“Thanks Doctor.”

Toby sat next to Bob for almost an hour more, talking, both telling each other even more, when Pam walked in.

“Bob, I'm glad you survived. I hope that Toby told you everything that transpired after he left you, and I truly am sorry.”

“Thanks, he did. I too am sorry for having such thoughts of your son, and if you ask me to never touch him, I won't.”

“And I won't let her tell you that.” Toby said, looking to his mom.

“No, I can't, not now, not that I know exactly who and what Toby is. Toby, I filled almost the entire trunk of the car with what you asked for, I spent more than five hundred dollars on it for you, I already dropped it off at home for you.”

“Good, thanks.” Toby said happily.

“You really should, what Toby wants is wrong.” Bob said.

“Yeah, but he doesn't think so, and from seeing how he feels for you, I'm not thinking so any more either. Toby's never shown even a fraction of that much emotion to me, he already loves you a great deal, and he deserves someone who I can tell will love him back just as much.”

“I do love him, but I love him enough to not hurt him, and that will.”

“No, it won't.” Both Toby and Pam said at the same time.

“And no more about that.” Toby said, giving Bob's hand a squeeze, because he is still holding it.

“Fine.”

“Toby, as soon as I found out that Bob was gonna be okay, I already asked to be admitted to here for evaluation, once I'm done here, I'm gonna go talk to the doctors. With any luck, I'll be here for only a day or two, but the way I feel, it might be a week or a month. You can stay home by yourself, and once Bob comes home, he can look out for you as well. I want you to promise to follow your heart, but listen to your head too, you're smart, almost too smart, and though I don't tell you enough, I do love you, you truly are a special young man, and thanks.” She said, and then turned and walked out before Toby could say anything further.

Before Bob and Toby could even start talking again, Bob's doctor entered.

“Well, Bob, it sounds like your psychiatrist has already cleared you to leave, and only needs for me to clear you as well. Is this your son?”

“Yes and no.”

“Understood. Would you like for him to leave?”

“No, he's the one who got me wrapped up and called 911 and more than likely saved my life.”

“Good. I just needta unwrap you and look at the cut and make sure that the stitches are holding. You were fortunate enough to not have cut your artery, and the cut wasn't too large yet, so, other than being painful, and super itchy once it starts healing, I see no reason to keep you here.”

“Thanks.”

The doctor made quick work of unwrapping Bob's wrist, and checking it all out, then wrapped it back up. He wrote a prescription for pain killers and antibiotics, to ensure he doesn't get an infection, then told him he is free to head home. Bob is still in blood soaked clothing, his shirt was mostly ripped off to get it out of the way, and so, therefore he is not really in the best of condition to be going anywhere. He asked if he could take a shower first, and then if they have clothes that he can use to go home in, he was allowed the shower, but told all they have are hospital gowns, so, Toby took Bob's bank card and his sizes, and headed to a store near to the hospital. Toby told him to have a really nice long hot shower, so to give him time, and so, he did.

Toby went right to the store and picked out a pair of sweat pants, a good shirt, a pack of socks, and went and paid for it. He then headed to another store nearby and bought Bob the largest pack of the thickest diapers they had in stock, as well as lotion and cream. Now with everything he needs, he heads back to the hospital, and was buzzed in right away. When he made it back to Bob's room, he closed the door, then pulled the curtain to afford them some privacy, and went and opened the bathroom door, calling in and telling Bob that he is back.

Bob came out a few minutes later with a towel wrapped around his waist, to find Toby there, ready and waiting for him, there is an open pack of diapers there, with one spread out and ready to be taped onto him.

“Come on Baby, come lay down and let me diaper you.” Toby whispered.

“We shouldn't be doing this.”

“I know, but we both know it's what we both want and need in order to heal. Come lay down Baby, let me take good care of my big baby boy.” Toby whispered, and so, Bob did as he was asked.

Just as Bob was about to lay down, he let his towel drop, exposing himself to the boy who had stolen his heart, the boy who has given him every reason to live. He is not hard, but even soft as he is, Toby feels that Bob is still easily three to even four times larger than he is. Toby groaned from deep inside as Bob laid himself on his diaper, thus exposing his man in a way that he has dreamed of for quite some time already. With shaking hands, Toby starts applying lotion to Bob's groin, and still he is not hard, but he is no longer fully soft either. Then Toby started applying easily twice as much diaper rash cream as is necessary, and by the time he is done, Bob is nearly hard, but he is trying so hard to not get hard, but Toby was trying harder. Finally Toby pulled up and taped onto Bob the ultra thick diaper that he had bought.

Then, just because he wanted to truly baby his man, Toby grabbed the pack of socks, opened it, grabbed a pair, and then slipped them onto Bob's feet. He then grabbed the pants, and worked them up Bob's legs as far as he could, before instructing Bob to sit up, so that he can put his shirt onto him, which Toby did next. Last, Toby had Bob stand up, and he pulled Bob's pants all the way up, and ensured that his diaper is not actually showing, but the pants do not truly hide it anyway. Toby grins, thinking that this is how Bob looks best.

“There you go Baby.” Toby whispered hoarsely.

“Thanks, that was the nicest thing anyone's ever done for me. I haven't been diapered or dressed since way before I remember, in fact I don't remember someone ever doing so for me.”

“You're very welcome. I can't wait for you to change me as well, I really want it so much.”

“I know, every bit as much as I know I really can't do it for you.”

“Yeah, but you still will anyway, right?”

“Yes.”

“Good. Well, come on, let's go, before we get sick.”

“Yeah, no shit.” Bob had to laugh.

Bob gathered up the clothes that he had arrived in, and dumped them in the trash, while Toby repacked everything that he had bought, and then they headed out. Bob had to sign out when they left, and then they headed to the nearest bus stop to get home. Even though both have quite obvious diaper bulges showing, they live in such a large city that no one really even paid any attention to them at all. When they got home, they first went to Toby's apartment, so that he could pack up what he wants to take to Bob's with him, not that it is far if he needs anything else. Once packed up, they headed to Bob's.

“Shit, guess I haveta clean that up now.” Bob said when they walked into the kitchen, finding the pool of blood that he had left behind.

“It's not that much, so that's good. Did they haveta give you any blood?”

“I actually don't even know. From the time I saw your mom looking at the pictures you sent me, to the time I saw your face at the hospital, it's kinda all a blur already. At first I thought I'd died, and my angel took your form, not that I believe in angels or anything of that nature, but I was kinda still loopy from what they gave me.”

“That's kinda funny, and believe you me, I'm no angel.”

“You are to me though. The first day we met, I thought you were, it's only gotten stronger, then when you started sending me those pictures, I knew it.”

“Thanks, but you are to me as well. When you talked to me like a person, and then didn't hate me for being a baby, I fell for you, hard, even though I had no idea what I was feeling.”

“Thanks.”

“Even though it truly doesn't matter to me, I do wanna ask, what's gonna happen when I grow up, get hair, and become a man?”

“Wish I could say. I know I'm gay, but I'm also a boy lover, I'm also more a diaper lover, so even though I was attracted to some men, they weren't and wouldn't be diapered, so, that turned me off, and so, I'm every bit the virgin you are. I've loved you for a long time already, and while I feel that we could very well be forever, I simply don't know, any more than you can know it either, and it could just as easily be you that moves away from needing me like I know you want.”

“Honestly, that's what I thought as well, so, let's just cherish the moments we have together and not worry about what tomorrow may or may not bring.” Toby smiled warmly to his man.

“Yeah. I don't wanna move fast, though, I love you too much to hurt you.”

“I don't wanna move fast either, but, trust me, you won't hurt me.”

“Why, how long have you been practising, and how much can you take?”

“Since shortly after we met, I'd had a massive crush on you, I finally understood who and what I was, and so, I did research, lotsa research, I'd already hadta learn how to jack off, seeing you just made me so hard and it wouldn't go down, so I learned then. I learned about anal sex not long after with all my research, and how to prepare for it, and so, I've been doing that, pretty much every night, after I'm in my diaper, and I wet it, I stroked and fingered myself. I can take three fingers easily now, and honestly, I'll be able to take four soon.”

“Glad I'm not the only one that developed an instant crush, and I hadta jack off lots because of you as well. I felt so guilty for it though, but the longer we knew each other, the more I knew it wasn't just me that wanted it. I hadta turn a blind eye to your almost ceaseless flirting, I knew what you were wanting and needing, but I couldn't have possibly given it to you. Then when you started emailing me those pictures of you in your diapers, fuck, I've never cum so hard in my life as the first time you sent me a picture of you in a saturated Goodnite.”

“Good, and I kept hoping and praying that you'd send me a picture of yourself in just a diaper as well. I wasn't gonna ask, I hadta leave it up to you, but it's what I wanted so much.”

“Yeah, I know, and if I had a camera, I probably woulda seriously thought of it, but I also knew what'd happen if I did that.”

“Yeah, I'd probably already be able to take my fist with how horny that would've made me. You really don't have a camera?” Toby laughed.

“No, don't even have a cell phone, no need. I damn near bought a camera, but I forced myself not to, not knowing what it'd do to you, or to me for that matter.”

“Oh. So, I wanna strip down to my diaper, and I really want you to do so as well.”

“This really isn't a very good idea.” Bob said.

“I know.” Toby said, but is already stripping, so Bob followed suit.

“Fuck, you really are stunningly gorgeous.” Bob sighed as soon as Toby was down to just his slightly soggy diaper.

“Thanks, and you are as well.”

“Thanks, though I certainly don't see it.” Bob blushed.

“No, I don't think you do either. You were already shockingly close to suicide, you have no self worth, you had nothing to live for, I think I've known that since we met. You were too hard on yourself, but I don't want you to think like that any more, okay.”

“Yeah, but what I am, what we want, that makes me a monster to nine hundred and ninety nine thousand people out of a million. If we're ever caught, that's it, were both done for, and I think you're smart enough to know just how bad they'll torture you as well. Neither of us escapes if we do what we want, and yes, even need. I've known that since I was not much older than you are now. Knowing that every person you see or meet hates you, thinks you're a horrible freak, or a monster, even though they don't know it yet, that does things to you that I hope you can't understand. I too was abused and neglected as a child, treated like nothing more than a nuisance, or a downright pain in the ass. Add those two things together, and the fact that I've had nothing to truly live for, it's kinda a miracle that I'm still here. It wasn't even that I was afraid to die, but I just guess I never got low enough. 'Til today I guess. When your mom caught me, I knew that death would be preferable to what'd happen to me once the police got me. I was so sad to lose you, though. You, you are my one and only bright light in my life, you are the only person I love, have ever loved, and it's for you, and for you only that I'd sacrifice everything to save, or to see smile again.”

“I never got suicidal, the beatings ensured that, because I just hoped instead that he'd go too far and just kill me. I suppose, at the end of the day, it amounts to the same thing. You're right, I do know all about what'd happen to the both of us if we were caught, and in a way, it'd be me that got the worst end of the deal. If I had my full sanity intact at the end of what they'd do to me, it'd be a shock. We can't live our lives thinking what if the worst happens, though, tomorrow isn't a guarantee at the best of times, so, we needta live our lives for now, and just be careful and discreet. When I saw you sitting there, bleeding, I wondered if I'd have the power to live after if you died. I've never loved anyone, not 'til you came around. I know my mom doesn't hate me, but there's no way she can say she loves me, and I think it's resentment that I've felt for her my whole life. You're also the one and only bright light in my life, without you, I really am nothing, and I too would sacrifice anything just to be with you, to see your beautiful face. Now, let's get this cleaned up, shall we, and pretend this never happened.”

“Thanks.” Bob whispered.

“So, what are you gonna tell your employees?”

“Not really sure.”

“Well, unless you end up with bruising on your face, but it doesn't look like you will, I don't know how much or where my mom hit you, you can just tell them that you had an accident, and hope that they accept it.”

“She didn't hit me in the face I think, mostly my chest and stomach, but then, I didn't even try and protect myself at all if I remember correctly. I just let her do it.”

“Yeah, that's what I thought.”

They worked to clean up the mess, and then, when it was done, they made dinner together, because it is now that time. After dinner was eaten and cleaned up, Toby admitted that his Goodnite has now reached capacity, and that he would like a proper baby bum change, and asked Bob to baby him.

Bob tried to say something, but he just could not do it. As much as they both know just how slippery this slope is, it is what they both want and need, so much more than anything that they have ever wanted or needed before.

Toby laid on the bed in soggy baby bum change position, and Bob came in with shaking hands. He ripped the sides of the Goodnite, opening it up, and exposing Toby in all his eleven year old hardened glory. He is maybe a bit better than ten centimetres long, probably five around, his foreskin is long and is still puckered up at the end, but only just barely in Toby's hardened state, he has a gentle upwards curve, and pulls to his right ever so slightly. His balls already look to be growing and dropping, and are a good size for his age, but are nowhere near fully grown yet. He is perfectly hairless still, and is as soft and smooth as silk.

Seeing Toby so incredibly hard, caused Bob to shoot to his full hardness in less than a second, he swears. Never before has he gotten a full blown erection so fast. He even feels that he is harder now than he has ever felt before. It is very uncomfortable.

Bob pulled out the soggy diaper, slipped underneath Toby a fresh one, then grabbed a wipe and proceeded to clean Toby well. It was almost a second before it was too late, when Bob realized he was no longer cleaning, and pulled away. Toby, though, had wished that he had not pulled away.

Then Bob started applying the lotion, and that was it, that was all Toby could take, and exploded in his most powerful ever orgasm. He may only be eleven, but it has already been almost exactly two years since he started masturbating, and as such, has already learned well the feelings of a well deserved orgasm. Toby has even managed some phenomenal orgasms in himself, especially when he edges himself for a couple or a few days, then plays with himself through a soggy diaper, such as the first time he fucked himself through his soggy diaper, with a rather large cucumber, which was only just a little more than a month ago, but, the orgasm he just experienced, dwarfed that previous best by a long shot, and Bob has just barely even touched him. However, just having Bob change him was his biggest fantasy, well, other than feeling Bob slip his diapered erection deep inside him while also diapered of course.

Well, Bob could not take it, and exploded into the front of his soggy diaper, the largest load, from the most powerful orgasm he too has ever experienced, totally hands free. His every fantasy is coming true, and when Toby came, it simply was too much for him. Oh sure, Bob has dreamed of the day he could diaper a stunning baby boy, he has even dreamed of making sweet gay baby diaper love to a stunning baby boy, but, actually feeling it, and then causing an orgasm in said stunning boy, it was just too much.

“Fuck me.” They both moaned at the same time.

“Wow, that was my best yet.” Toby panted.

“Me too.” Bob admitted.

Then Bob started applying the diaper rash cream, and this time, even when he realized he was no longer creaming Toby up, he could not force himself to stop, and kept going the extra three or four seconds that it took for Toby to cum again. This time Bob did not cum again, but he feels that he is so very close. Finally, with great difficulty, Bob pulled up and taped closed Toby's wondrously thick baby diaper. At least Pam had bought Toby exceptionally thick, thirsty, and comfortable diapers. Toby had been very clear on the fact that he is a full on diaper lover, and so, she knew what he would want, so, got that for him, so to maybe, just maybe, try and make him happy, and to try and feel at least a little love from him.

“Best fucking baby bum change ever. From now on, I so totally want you to change me.” Toby sighed deeply.

“We really shouldn't, but it's what I want so much. Seeing, feeling, hearing you enjoy your soggy baby bum change, that's been almost my largest dream since I was your age, making sweet tender gay baby diaper love to a gorgeous gay baby boy through his wondrously thick and soggy baby diaper, then having him do the same to me, has always been bigger, but not by much. Just getting to change you, not even making you cum, that's huge for me, and as much as I know we shouldn't, I just can't make myself say no.”

“Good, because it really wasn't negotiable, I'm a baby, I can't possibly change my own soggy baby bum, so I need you to do so for me. I hope that you too are a baby and need for me to change your soggy baby bum for you as well.”

“Oh yeah. Earlier, at the hospital, having you change me, that was my third largest dream, and it was a dream come true.”

“Good. Now, kiss me, deep and tender, like I've dreamed of since the day we met.”

Without words, Bob pulled Toby to him, he bent down slightly, Toby stood up on his tip toes just a little, and together they learned the ways of kissing. They duelled tongues sensually, they kissed deeply, and powerfully, and most importantly, they kissed as the lovers they are. Toby was the first to reach down and start stroking Bob's soggy diaper, but Bob also reached down and started stroking Toby's still fresh baby diaper, and within seconds, they came. Toby slipped his hand inside as soon as they came down, scooped up as much of Bob's cum as he could find, pulled his hand free, and licked it all off, then continued the kiss as if nothing had happened.

Seeing Toby lick his cum off his hand like that charged Bob even more than he had ever been before, and when they continued to kiss and rub each other, it caused them to cum again only a few moments later, Bob truly enjoying his cum from Toby in this most special way, far more than he had ever enjoyed his own cum before.

As soon as they were down from their latest cum, Toby once more dug deep and scooped up the tiny amount that he was able to find, for Bob had clearly not shot near as much, because he is pretty much done, he pulled out, licked it all off, and then shared it once more with Bob in more cum kisses.

This time they did not cum as they kissed and stroked, neither is even hard any more, though they are not actually soft either, it just feels wondrous to them, and they are loathe to break free from what they are experiencing.

Finally, damn near twenty minutes after their final orgasms, they both fully softened, and they broke their deep loving kiss.

“Wow, who knew kissing could be so amazing.” Bob sighed deeply.

“No shit, but that wasn't just kissing.”

“Mmmmmmhmmmmmm.” Bob sighed deeply.

“Bob, I love you more than life itself.” Toby sighed and smiled to his man.

“And I love you that much and more.”

“It's gonna really suck to haveta go to school and work tomorrow and not get to be with you, but, I suppose life doesn't stop just 'cause we're in love, huh.”

“I agree, but we also can't spend every moment together, people do need alone time too. We're just gonna haveta make the best of it, though, do what we know we needta do, and cherish the moments that we have together. Once your mom's outta the hospital, you already know she's gonna need you there, you know as well as I do how messed up she must be, and so, even though you don't love her, and maybe never can, you're gonna haveta man up and show her the compassion and understanding that she needs to heal.”

“Yeah, I know you're right about alone time, and about my mom, all parts actually, but, we live two doors down from each other, I sleep here, cuddled up to my man, and I get my soggy baby bum changes from you and you alone. I know she's gonna need me, especially at first, and hopefully by then she comes to realize why exactly I might not love her, but she is my mother, for better or for worse, she's gonna need me there for her, to help her where no one else probably can. It won't be what I want, but, like I said, we live close enough that I can still be here for my soggy baby bum changes and sleeping, she's just gonna haveta accept that.”

“I imagine that the doctors at the hospital will help her to realize a lot, and I'm pretty certain from what you've told me, that the first thing she does when she gets home is to apologize to you for the abuse that she allowed. You have far more strength of character than she ever will have, even more than me. You said you purposely didn't throw her under the bus, even though you knew full well that she'd be in just about as much trouble, I wouldn't have, I totally woulda ratted her out as well.”

“Yeah, but I also didn't wanna go to foster care, where I knew that's where I was headed if she went to jail. I have exactly one other family member left, my dads sister, and if you think he was a backwards stupid man, she was worse, I haven't even seen her in like three to four years, because I point blank refused to go visit the bitch, so clearly I wasn't gonna go live with her. I'm smart enough to control my mom, so, she was the most logical choice, even though I can't make myself love her, and maybe never can. I hope I can, eventually, but right now I can't.”

“Oh. Outta curiosity, what grade are you in?”

“Nine.”

“Shouldn't you be in grade six?”

“Yes.”

“I thought they didn't like skipping kids ahead any more?”

“They didn't wanna, but I forced the school board to do so a little more than a year ago, and I've already done two years worth, and am just about finished grade nine now. They tried to make me do so at home if I really wanted to, but, like I said, that doesn't really help me with my already meager people skills. I mean, I don't actually enjoy being there, I do get teased lots, but I just grin at them and ask them if they feel better about themselves now that they've teased the little eleven year old grade nine student. Meh, they're just stupid, and it really is better than sitting at home all day.”

“Oh. I barely escaped high school alive.”

“I might not either, especially now going in diapers, but, whatever.”

“Yeah.” Bob snorted. “So, you're really gonna wear baby diapers all day, every day, even to school?”

“Oh yeah, every bit as much as I know you're gonna wear all day every day, even to work now.”

“Yeah, I really think I haveta now. It used to be a fight to not diaper up all day, every day, even to work, now there's simply no other choice.”

“Same. It'll be so much nicer though, even when the kids start teasing me for that as well, which I know eventually they'll likely find out and start doing.”

“Same for me, though I wonder what my employees will say about it.”

“Hard to say. I mean, honestly, as long as we don't wear 'em wondrously thick, and/or allow ourselves to start leaking, as well we wear baby diaper shirts and proper fitted clothes, there's really no reason anyone should notice. I have worn my Goodnites out more than a few times, and no one ever saw them.”

“Yeah, and me too, well, not Goodnites, but thinner diapers, and I do have diaper shirts as well. Did your mom buy you any?”

“I asked her to, so I hope she did. I asked for lotsa baby accessories and clothes, so I hope she did. Wanna come with me and check it all out, and see what all she managed to buy me? We didn't even really look earlier, just grabbed the few things I needed right away, but there also wasn't lots, certainly not five hundred dollars worth from what little I saw, so hopefully she put the rest in my closet.”

“Okay, but I doubt our pants will hide these ultra thick diapers?”

“So, I doubt anyone will even see us, not to mention, we'll be visible for a whole five seconds.”

“True.”

They both got dressed, their ultra thick diapers creating mouth watering bulges, both groaning when they saw the other like this.

“Fuck, you truly are the most stunning boy I've ever seen, but with that mega thick baby diaper bulge under your pants like that, it's making me hard again.” Bob admitted.

“Ditto.” Toby giggled.

Toby grabbed his key, and then they headed for the long walk to his apartment, and like he said, they were visible for a whole five seconds, and only because three of them were because Toby had to unlock the door. Finally they are inside and heading to Toby's bedroom. On the floor by his dresser were the two bags of diapers, one ultra thick, one regular thick, both are the largest packs that there are. Toby first looked in his dresser, but found nothing. Then he went to his closet, and found all the rest, and here he found several large bags. Two of the bags held a further two large packs of the thickest diapers, one more bag had four large packs of diaper doublers, one bag was filled with diaper shirts, but only plain colours, and the final bag had diaper rash cream, baby lotion, baby powder, baby bottles, and baby soothers. All the lotions and creams, and the bottles and soothers, though, came from a different store, because they were proper baby ones, and even the really good smelling baby powder, cream. and lotion.

“Wow, now that's a nice selection.” Toby groaned.

“No shit. Had I've been able to have that at your age, I never woulda been outta diapers, like ever again.”

“And I never will be ever again, and the person to try and make me do so might not survive the experience.”

“Same.”

“Well, I'm totally taking some of the diaper shirts, a container of each lotion, cream, and powder, a couple bottles and soothers, and a pack of the doublers, the rest I can just leave here.” Toby says, and then empties one bag, then promptly refills it with what he wants to take with him back to Bob's.

“Nice. Now I think I'm gonna haveta order myself a few goodies.”

“We could just go to the store too!”

“Yeah, except what I'm wanting, for the most part, we can't buy here, we'd haveta buy it online anyway. I think we can just share your lotion, cream, and powder, as well your doublers, and we'll replace them when needed from the local stores, no worries there.”

“Oh, what?”

“Well, now I totally want a baby bottle and a baby soother of my own, as well I wanna get some really cute baby diaper shirts, and maybe a couple other things that you just can't buy from a regular store.”

“Cool.” Toby grinned.

Now with his bag of goodies in hand, as well Toby grabbed his computer, they headed back to Bob's, locking the door on their way out again, and then, before too long, they were stripped back down to just their soggy baby diapers. Bob then grabbed his computer, set it up on the kitchen table, and booted it up. As soon as the computer was ready, the two of them started researching all sorts of amazing adult baby accessories, and both found that if they really wanted to, they could easily spend thousands upon thousands of dollars. Even Toby grabbed his bank card and ordered a few extra things, even though Bob said that he would happily pay for them, Toby refused.

“So, even you spent a few hundred dollars on baby accessories Baby, how much money do you have, and how'd you get it?”

“Yeah, it's gonna be amazing when it all gets here. As for how much, lots, let's just put it that way. When my moms parents died, all their money was left to her and me, and they were pretty well off. That was only three years ago, it was sweet actually, grandpa died first, and then only a few months later, Grandma went, saying she couldn't do it alone any more. I guess they were best friends from the time they were five years old, and started officially dating when they were ten, got married when they were sixteen, they were only three months different in age, and died when they were eighty five. My mom came along well after they stopped trying, because they could never get pregnant, and it was a shock, she wasn't even supposed to survive. Then, my dad had a really good job, though how he could've is beyond me, because he was such an ass hole, but, my mom gave me all his money when the courts awarded all his assets to her after court. She said for what I lived through because of him, I deserved it. By the sounds of it, she got it as much as me, but, I guess that's her guilty feelings for not protecting me that warranted that generosity. Granted, she didn't need it anyway, like I said, her parents were really well off, and what dads money added to mine hardly showed, and it was pretty decent. So, yeah, I'm pretty well set for life, most of it's in trust, of course, and I get a hundred a month deposited into my account, but I've hardly spent a penny of it, though, until today. I actually spent more money today than I have in my whole life I think.” Toby said, giggling at the last bit.

“Wow. That's good, I guess, and yeah, it's sweet about your grandparents.”

“That's the love I feel for you too, by the way, if you go first, I likely won't last long after either.”

“Same. Hopefully that's not for at least a hundred years.”

“Man, I hope I don't live that long, but I'll still love you longer.”

“Yeah. Same.” Bob laughed.

For the rest of the day, they cuddled up, played games, talked, peepeed their baby diapers, changed their super soggy baby diapers, went doubled, came a few more times, and had possibly the best day together that either has ever experienced in their lives. When they went to bed, they curled up together, something that neither has ever done before, and went to sleep, holding each other night all tight long. They had such a good sleep, that they were damn near late for work and school by the time they did wake up, but, before even realizing how late it was, they started kissing, and stroking each other through their soggy night diapers, causing each other to cum twice to start the day right.

When they realized the time, they both laughed, saying, 'oh shit', and got ready as fast as they could, changing each other into just a single regular thickness diaper, then a nice plain white diaper shirt, before dressing each other fully. They grabbed breakfast and ate that as they made lunch, and then they headed out. Toby's school and Bob's store are almost exactly the same distance away from their apartment, just in different directions, and so, they headed out. Neither had a great day, they were wanting to be back home with their baby, yet, at the same time, they both had a great day, because they are both so happy and in love, and even if someone had have tried bothering either of them, neither would have noticed it at all.

“So, how was work/school?” They both asked at the same time, as soon as Bob made it home from work, because clearly Toby was home first, waiting for his man.

“Really long.” They both said together again, giggling.

“So, what'd you tell your employees and what'd they say?” Toby asked.

“Well, because I just have the bandage on one arm, I just told them that I accidentally hit my head on something while I was doing dishes, and then as I fell to the ground, the glass I musta had broke, and my arm landed in it, but thankfully I had a friend over that was able to call for help right away, and that it actually looks worse than it really is.”

“Good story, and they accepted it?”

“Yeah, one of my guys said he did damn near the exact same thing, and then showed me his scar from it, it actually doesn't look all that different than my stitches do, so, unless he was lying and did the same thing, which is of course wholly possible, then I doubt anyone will really pay much attention to it.”

“That's really good. It was so great getting to wear a baby diaper all day, I never hadta concentrate on not peeing my pants, or going to the bathroom where I was always afraid some of the bigger and very mean boys there would rape me. I mean, I wanted to be fucked as much as the next horny gay boy, but I definitely didn't wanna be raped. I need a super soggy baby bum change, though, and I definitely wanna be double diapered again.”

“Same.” Bob said, and so, they went and changed each other, only, that was truly the secondary reason for their soggy baby bum changes, because they both came four times.

It has been two and a half weeks since the hospital, and Bob and Toby are doing amazingly well. Bob's stitches came out only three days before, and other than a pretty wicked scar, there will be no lasting effects, and because of where it is, almost no one would ever be able to see it. Bob and Toby, though, are the happiest that they have ever been in their lives, they have not peed in a toilet so much as once since that day, and they promise that they never will either, and no one has noticed either as of yet, at least none have said anything. They still stroke each other while kissing, at least twice per day, but still they have not even gone past that, even though they both truly wish to, just not yet.

It is Wednesday evening, and Bob and Toby are just sitting on the couch, cuddled up, wearing nothing but soggy baby diapers, watching TV, when Bob's phone rang. When he answered it, he found Toby's mom on the other end, saying that she is home, and that she would like to come over. Bob said okay, and to come on over, but to give them a few minutes. When Bob told Toby that they need to go get dressed and why, Toby refused, saying that she is just going to have to get used to them in just their baby diapers, because why should they get dressed to make others more comfortable, when they are more comfortable themselves in just their diapers in their own home. Bob shrugged, but agreed, and so, a few minutes later, they had the knock at the door, so, Toby went and answered it himself, hiding behind the door, so that no one would see how he is covered should they be in the hall at the time.

“I see you're still enjoying the diapers I bought you. Good. Do you need more?”

“Not yet, and yes, thanks, they're great, and I haven't peepeed in a potty once since that day, and I never will again.”

“I'm glad you get something to make you happy. Can I come in, so that we can talk?”

“Yes.”

Toby led Pam to the living room, and Bob stood to greet her as well, and if she was shocked that he too was diapered, she did not show it. Pam was offered the chair, while Toby and Bob cuddled back up on the couch, the TV now shut off. Toby said nothing, he wanted his mom to say what she needed to say first. It only took a few moments.

“Toby, and even Bob, I truly am sorry for how I treated you. Toby, you're right, what I allowed your father to do to you, there's simply no excuse for that, and while I know you must resent me, possibly even dislike, and maybe even hate me, I do love you more than anything in this world. There's absolutely no amount of apologizing, nor showering you with gifts that could possibly make up for what I allowed to happen to you. I know and understand that now. I hoped that that's all you'd need, but, the doctors made me understand that no, absolutely not, and that it might even be the worst thing I could do for you. It'd be like trying to buy your love, which is worse than you hating me if you ask me. While I'm no longer in the hospital being treated, my doctor has suggested that I still come and see him at least once a week for the next little while, because he says I still have a lot of healing to do, but that I no longer needta be in the hospital to do so, so he sent me home. I'm no longer suicidal, so, I guess that's good. Seeing how you and Bob are cuddled up, and how much love for each other that you're both radiating, that makes me happy, and that you did find someone who could make you smile, who could make you happy. When we moved here, and you first met Bob, but especially after he found out you still wore diapers and didn't hate you for it, that was the first time I ever saw you smile, ever saw you happy. I truly am happy for you.” She said, and paused.

“Thanks Mom, I truly am happy now.” Toby smiled serenely.

“Good. Now, I wanna tell you something that I finally admitted to myself. I'm a lesbian. I want another female, not another male. Whether that's the way it's always been, or because of what your father did to me as well, I actually don't know. He raped and beat me so much that I actually don't remember a lot. I think I usedta love him, but not now, now my hatred of him exceeds anything you think you could hate him for. I got outta the hospital yesterday morning, and the first place I went, was to his prison. I told them there that I was gonna tell him lotsa stuff that he didn't wanna hear, but that he wasn't allowed to leave the room, that he hadta hear it all, but that I wanted them there, because I wasn't sure what he'd do to me. Me and him, and four guards were in a room together, and I told him that I hate him, that he's a horrible excuse for a human being, that I hope he's being raped and beaten by the bigger men in there far more than he ever did to me, and more than he ever beat you. I even looked right at him and told the guards that maybe they should let it slip that he raped and beat his wife, repeatedly, and that he beat his son from the time he was two years old, so that maybe he'd get a little taste of what it's like. I hope they do, and I hope he enjoys it as much as he enjoyed doing so to us. There's more, far more than I'm gonna tell you, because, believe it or not, you didn't even know a fraction of what he did to me. Anyway, I was there for more than an hour, and at the end, I told him that I hope he dies the most long and horrifyingly painful death possible, and that if I can be the one to do it, I will be, but that he better stay in jail, because if he ever comes near you or me ever again, I will end up in jail from what I'll do to him, but that it'll takes months, maybe even years for him to finally die.”

“Good for you mom. I'm glad that you did that. Was that a suggestion of your therapist, or was it something you just wanted to do?”

“No, he actually suggested the opposite, that I just let him be, that he can no longer hurt me, but that if I go there, it might tear open old wounds. Oh it did, don't get me wrong, it hurt more than you can imagine to go and do that, but, as those wounds closed up, and this time for good, it made me stronger.”

“Good. Now you just needta go to a gay bar, find yourself a woman, come home, and have wild sex all night long, and maybe you'll be healed. Understandably I won't be home, so that I can't hear that, talk about disgusting.” Toby giggled.

“Yeah, I would've made sure you were here.” Pam laughed.

“Good. Now, just so that you know, I will be spending every night with my baby, and I'll also be coming here for every super soggy baby bum change, but I will live with you if you need me to.”

“I understand, no worries, and I thought for sure you were gonna say that you were just gonna stay living here, and I'll be okay if that's what you want.”

“It is.”

“I thought as much. You're only offering to come live with me because you feel obligated to do so, to help me heal, aren't you?”

“Yes. You're right, I do still resent you, I don't dislike or hate you, but I haven't been able to make myself able to love you, but, I knew how weak and damaged you were, and so, I told Bob that I was gonna haveta go and live with you, to help you heal, even though it's not what I truly want. I don't know if I can ever love you, but I do wanna, but your letting dad beat me like he did, did hurt us, possibly too much to fix, and I think you already know and accept that, that's why I'm laying it all on the line as plainly as possible, you don't want or need beating around the bush, and you certainly don't want or need me to lie to you either, since that'd be probably the worst thing I could do to you. I know I don't need to see a therapist, I know and understand what and why everything happened, and it no longer affects me at all, but I do think that when your therapist suggests that I come in with you, because I'm sure he will, that I should do so, so that he does understand my feelings on all this, and so that he can help you out more. I'm guessing it'll be in the next week or two.”

“Thanks, you're right, I wanted you to lay it all on the line for me, and plainly tell me your feelings, and I appreciate it. My therapist told me that that's at the very least how you'd feel for me. I don't want you to come and live with me, though, I want for you to be happy, I want for you to have what I could never give to you, and no, I don't want you to feel at all guilty about it, because I don't. I can make it on my own now, and maybe it'll be best if I do. It's possible that having you with me all the time could actually hinder my healing, because every time I think of you, or even look at you, I feel guilty, I think we both know and understand why that is, but I'd feel even more guilty knowing what keeping you from your baby would do to you. I do ask to see you often, and I do wanna getta finally hug you and hold you, and at least try for being your mother. Like I said, I do love you, but, I don't love you as much as a mother clearly should. A real mother would do anything to protect their child, clearly I never did, so, would you please come and hug me?”

Toby got up and went to his moms chair, crawled on, and they wrapped their arms around each other. Pam even held Toby by his soggy baby diapered bum, and rubbed it softly as she held him. It took at most a minute for her to start crying, and for well over half an hour, Toby felt his mom crying on his shoulder. Though Toby did get misty eyed, he never truly cried either. Pam had to have held Toby for nearly half an hour after she stopped crying though, because feeling Toby hold her like he is, is the nicest thing she has ever felt in her life. Finally she pushed him away, and kissed him.

“Thanks Baby, I think I've needed that for a very long time. You truly are a beautiful baby boy, and I love you more than I ever thought my battered heart could. I didn't feel you cry, though.”

“You're welcome. As for why I didn't cry, it's not for the reason you think it is. It's not because I have no feelings for you, and it's not because that wasn't the nicest thing you've ever done for me, I finally felt love from you, which is all I've ever wanted, no, it's because I've already cried out all that pain and hurt. For the first few days here, Bob held me lots and let me cry all that I needed to help start healing me, of course he cried lots as well, because we've started healing each other.”

“I hoped that was the reason, but I did fear it's because you still couldn't even have a glimmer of love for me.”

“No, quite the opposite in fact.”

“Good, thanks. Now, if you'll excuse me, I'm gonna go get ready to go out, and maybe, just maybe get something else I've needed for a very long time.”

“Okay.” Toby smiled warmly and climbed off his mom, and let her up.

“Thanks Baby. After school tomorrow, before Bob comes home from work, I'd liketa take you out and go do something.”

“Okay, I think I'd like that. Go, have a good night.”

“Thanks. I love you.” She said, and then hugged and kissed Toby once more.

“Thanks Mom.” He smiled warmly to her, and they both know and understand why he cannot say it back yet, and Pam is okay with that.

Before too long, Toby and Bob are by themselves once more, cuddled up and talking, both happy with how Pam is coming along. They had a very nice night, and when it was time for their soggy baby bum changes, they did so, only tonight they sucked each other for their very first time, and by the end, poor Bob was completely drained, softer than he has ever been, certainly far more satisfied than he has ever been, and damn near passing out from the sheer intensity of it. Toby had enjoyed it every bit as much, but had much preferred sucking and getting his treat direct from the source.

Their work and school day went well, and when Toby got home, he went and changed himself, which of course he does not care for, but is necessary, then headed to his moms apartment to see her and see how her night went, and to go and do something. When he entered, Pam greeted him with a hug and a kiss, and from the smile on her face, Toby can tell that she got something close to what she needs last night.

“So, how'd it go last night?” Toby asked. “Though, please don't tell me dirty details, I don't wanna puke my guts out.”

“I wouldn't anyway, just like I don't want those details from you, for the same reason, though mothers and sons probably shouldn't share those details anyway.”

“No, probably not.”

“So, yeah, went to the bar, met a pretty young girl, she was just barely legal to be there, she's scared shitless of her family finding out, and we had to have talked for near on two hours there. I really like her, but, somehow, for some reason, of all the people I could meet and like right away, she admitted that she's a diaper lover. I just laughed, then apologized and explained why that caused me to laugh. She admitted that that's pretty odd chances for sure, and asked if maybe I'd liketa try, because she thinks that maybe we were meant to find each other, and have that one thing unite us. I admitted that I'd never thought of it in my life before you admitted it to me, but that it'd made me insanely curious, and so, she came over last night, diapered me up, and we played, lots. She only just left a little more than an hour ago, and I'm still diapered. I think I understand why you love them, and am thinking that maybe, just maybe, that I do too, already.”

“Hmm, funny how that works, but I'm happy for you. I hope it works out for you two, and that you both grow and learn together. So, what should we go and do?”

“Thanks. I was thinking we could go to the arcade and play there for a while.”

“Okay, I've never been there before, it sounds like fun.”

They headed out, and went to the arcade and had a really good time. Whenever possible they played two player games, neither really any good at any that they tried, but they had fun none the less. Once it was time for Bob to be getting off work, Pam took Toby home to see his baby, but asked to take them both out to dinner, and that she was going to call her hopefully soon to be baby girlfriend and invite her as well. Toby thought that was a great idea, and went home to wait for Bob, and let him know the plans for the night.

Bob was okay with that, and was happy for Pam as well, and then when Pam called and told them when dinner is, they were good with that, and then waited the little more than an hour for Pam to come and get them. When she did, she was not alone.

“Toby and Bob, meet Sierra. Sierra, this is my son Toby, and his baby boyfriend Bob.”

“It's good to meet you two.” She said softly.

“You're not actually nineteen are you?” Toby asked. “Mom said that you were just barely legal to be at a gay bar, which means you're nineteen, but you have fake ID, don't you? I'm pretty sure I've seen you at my school.”

“Um, yeah, sixteen.” She said, blushing at having been caught. “I think I've seen you there before as well.”

“I don't have a problem with that, and honestly, I kinda thought as much.” Pam smiled.

“Really?” She said.

“Really. Clearly I no longer have any issue with that sorta thing, granted, I think at sixteen you're at least considered legal for me, but clearly you must say nothing of Bob and Toby.”

“Clearly. That's what I was looking for from the time I was eight or nine, to tell you the truth.” She admitted.

“Then I wish we coulda met then.” Pam said.

“Me too.”

With that now out of the way, the four of them headed to dinner and they had a nice night out. They stayed at the restaurant for nearly two hours, talking and laughing, enjoying the company. When finally they headed home, Sierra stayed with Pam, but when Toby asked her if her parents knew, she snorted and said that they rarely have time for her, and never ask where she is anyway.

Toby dragged his baby to their bedroom, where they had a repeat performance of the night before, only Bob did fully pass out, but only because Toby edged him so much for three hours, then made him cum four times in rapid succession that it clearly caused him to go into meltdown. Bob never even got to suck Toby, and Toby only came once, because he was humping his soggy diaper as he sucked Bob. Toby was still painfully hard, though, when he changed both their diapers, but just left it, hoping that he would get a nice repayment in the morning, since it is Saturday morning, and they can afford the time to do so.

And Bob did absolutely repay Toby, edged him for damn near three hours, then made him cum five times in rapid succession. Toby passed out for damn near an hour, and when he woke up, he was the happiest that he has ever been.

The next month went by fast, and at first, Sierra would go home most nights, but after a little more than a week, she just stopped going home, and has stayed with Pam almost solely, and so far her parents have yet to even contact her. Sierra and Toby walk to and from school every day, and are pretty much each others only friends there too. They both actually really like each other, they have lots in common, and at least there will never be any sort of sexual tension between them, because they both laughed about the fact that a few people at school had asked if they are dating, and admitted that they absolutely do not like each other like that in any way.

It was almost exactly a month after Sierra moved in with Pam, that her parents even bothered to call her and ask her where she has been, and she laughed, asking them when they had realized that she is gone. They did not answer that question. She laughed at them, and said they only just realized it, but that she has moved out, that she is sick of being invisible, and that she is a gay baby girl diaper lover. That was the last time she spoke to them, ever.

Toby and Bob are still enjoying their soggy baby bum changes at every opportunity, sometimes they just stroke each other sensually while kissing deeply, other times they suck each other. Sometimes they suck each other one at a time, one after the other, or sometimes they suck each other at the same time, since it just barely works with their height difference. They have always lotioned and creamed each others baby bum holes very well at every soggy baby bum change, even going so far as to slip a finger inside each other to pleasure each other even more, but lately they have been enjoying doing so as they suck each other as well, and it is always Toby that sets the pace as to when he is ready for more, because Bob only just follows suit, and when Toby slips another finger in, that tells Bob that Toby wants the same thing, they talked about it, and in this way, they are getting seriously close to being ready to become one, finally, because Toby is damn near taking three of Bob's fingers inside himself all the way easily.

It is the Friday night after Toby finally took Bob's three fingers all the way inside himself with absolutely no pain, when Toby stood up after dinner, extended his hand to his man, and led him to their bedroom, saying that it is time for them to finally lose their virginity, and to become one. It had been six in the evening when they entered their bedroom, and they finally curled up, after changing each others ruined diapers at just after ten, whispering to each other just how much they love each other, and in deep love, they slept.

After their first time of making love, they do so to each other at least once a month, but normally two to three times, the rest of the time, they still stroke and or suck each other most often, at least once a day, but usually twice per day. They love each other so much, that when out, they have to be careful around others, but then, Pam and Sierra have the same problem, but it usually helps that they are all together, so that does help to mask it somewhat.

They all spend a lot of time together, they are all good friends, and eventually Toby did learn to love his mom, and they are far stronger for it. Toby's dad died in jail shortly after Toby turned thirteen, and a tear was never shed in the least. Toby started cumming good and proper almost half way through his thirteenth year, and Bob enjoys it every bit as much as Toby enjoys Bob's, but they both love most of all to suck each other, then hold their loads in their mouths, then kiss sensually, sharing the cum in this way.

And they all lived happily ever after.

****Thanks for taking the time to read, I hope that you enjoyed. This is a pretty short story this time, and has minimal sex in it, mostly just alluded to really, but that was all it was meant to be, because what inspired this story had no sex in it. This story was actually inspired by a video that came up in my Youtube feed, though the boy was a little younger than Toby was, and I used a boy that I had met at work that day as the inspiration for Toby. Clearly the video was not a diaper love one, and cut after the character who became Bob was in the hospital after attempting suicide, but it struck something in me, and this story just came out. I actually don't know the name of it, and it wasn't in English, so I can't really say too much more than that. They all say that loving a boy is bad, that it harms him, but, I truly don't think that's the case, sometimes it's what the boy himself wants, I know I did at that age, and why shouldn't they be allowed if that's what the boy wants. I know, that'll never happen, so sadly these stories will only ever be in our heads. So, as always, should you wish to contact me about this story, or any of my other many stories, feel free to do so at erich5748 at ymail.com, I would love to hear your thoughts, though don't require them to continue to write, since, as I've said before, I write for myself, and simply share it with others who may also enjoy. Please donate to Nifty to keep this service running, I can't tell how much it means to me that I have a place to share my work. Thanks, and may your diaper always be soggy and free of leaks.****