Date: Wed, 11 Feb 2004 13:34:31 -0800 (PST) From: Gay Mormon Writer Subject: Born To Be A Missionary Part 1 Gay Male, Adult-Youth Born To Be A Missionary Chapter One When I awoke, I was snuggled up to my lover and life partner Rick. Rick and I have been together now for 13 years and are very happy together spiritually and emotionally. Spiritually we are united in our faith to God and our religion...Mormon. I know, the term "gay" and "mormon" sounds like a contradiction but it is there and there are thousands of us out there. Though we are not practicing or "active" Mormons, we do follow with our faith with our continued study of the scriptures. We do not agree with everything the church preaches or politically lobbies for, especially when it comes to Homosexuality. Rick and I met nearly 20 years on our 2 year church mission. Actually, we were assigned companions. We lived together for 9 months, which is highly unusal for companions to be assigned that long and I am thankful to our Mission President for leaving me with Rick for those 9 months. I would like to think that the Mission Prez was "devinely inspired" to leave us together as our baptism counts were usually high. I was the senior companion and Rick was my junior. I was 21 and he was 20 when we met. We were both gay but didn't dare tell anyone. We both lied to our respected Bishops in our missionary interviews about having homosexual thoughts. And, of course, neither of us admitted to the "masturbation question" as that was considered a sin as well. We, as missionaries for two years, are expected to do the Lord's work with no sexual thoughts whatsoever. Well, looking at Rick twenty years ago, most of my thoughts were sexual. The Missionary Elder Rick Williams was 6 feet tall, about 165 pounds, beautiful blue eyes, blond hair and the sweetest smile you ever saw. During baptisms, Rick and I saw each other naked on several occasions. Rick's body was smooth, he had a six pack and a wonderful soft 4 inch uncut cock that I would have sexual fantasies of during my jacking off time in the shower every day. Today, Rick is 40 years old, still blond, though I swear he colors it but I haven't caught him yet. His eyes are still blue and his body weight has only increased slightly. That 4 inches of his expands to a very healthy 6 and half inches when I turn him on. Rick is still an "hunk" in my book. I slip out of bed, naked and walk into the bathroom to relieve my morning piss urge. Ahhh, relief...always a piss away...hehe. I turn around and look in the mirror. I am 5 feet and 11 inches tall, weigh about 180 pounds, I am hairy from top to bottom. I love the hair. My eyes are green. My hair is light brown with some small greying appearing at the scalp in places. Rick says it is sexy. Yeah, right. I am proud of how I look and in the cock department, the same as Rick's except I am cut. I turn and enter the shower stall which is big enough for both of us. "Good morning, Jim", Rick says has he enters the shower with me. We immediately enter into a lip lock. His body is so warm and wet crushed into mine. We are both hard. Rick slips away from my mouth and kneels before and takes my cock into his mouth. This is going to be a good day. Rick knows just how to get me off and he does and swallows all my cum. Rick stands and kisses me again. I then drop to my knees and take his beautiful cock into my mouth, I love the foreskin as I tease and chew on it. I know all to well how to get Rick off quickly and I do. Then we washed each other, oh so completely and got out and dried ourselves. We cook breakfast together. "So, what is in store for you today?" Rick asks. I am a PhD in psychology. My practice spealizes in teens, usually male, trying to deal with emotional or/sexual problems that also includes the religious implications that go with it. My patients do not know that I am gay or that I am Mormon as I have had young Mormon men as patients. "I have a new patient today for an evalutation. He is Mormon. Denies being gay but has been sexually active with men now for about five years. Still plans on going on a mission, been his life's dream and then marry and have kids. He is 21 and might be complicated and interesting." "I assume you will be doing the usual therapy?" "I don't know yet. Sounds pretty cut and dry. A guy in denial. I will let you know." I understand the doctor-patient confidentiality, but Rick has always been there for me when someone gets me down. Rick and I have set up a gay youth center downtown, which Rick manages in his off time. I don't make an appearance there as that I usual encourage some patients to visit the center. The center is an information hub for those teens who need mild counseling. Each visitor is given information and safe sex and how and where to be tested for HIV and other transmitted virsues. "Would you like to meet me for dinner or do you want a nice dinner here at home?" I ask Rick. "Here, with you. I will be out of the office early and I will cook. Steaks?" "Sounds great. I got to run." We kiss each other and out the door I go. My first 3 sessions went fine. I had my lunch at 12 and my 1 o'clock appointment is scheduled for the entire afternoon for the accessment of a new patient. I walk out to the waiting room and my office manager has a question for me and then I went to the waiting room to be in my new patient. "Hi, I am Dr. Hanes, you must be Tyler Miller," he rises and I extend my hand for his. Firm handshake. Tyler is a very handsome young man, about 6 feet 2, 190 pounds, Blond, almost yellow hair and brown eyes. He follows me to my office. I shut the door. "I have two recliners and of course, the couch. Please feel free to sit where ever you like." He chooses one the recliner rockers and I sit in the other. "Tyler, this will be an extensive evaluation, that is why the time is unlimited. There is no rush to our activities here today. Do you want to tell me why you are here?" Tyler looks around the room some, apparently trying to feel comfortable and then he turns to me and meets my eyes. "I am here because my bishop from church...ahh, I am a Mormon, want an evaluation before he will reccommend me for a 2 year church mission. I am sure you have that information on my referral don't you?" "How do you feel about that?". Standard question. "I have seen a few shrinks over the years. I have been told I am manic depressive." "The referal says you have been having sex with men since you were 16, is that correct?" "Yes." "Are you gay?" "No." "Tyler, how do you explain the fact you have been having homosexual relations with men, and I assume that includes oral and anal sex?" "Yes, I have had sex with men. Orally and annally. I explain it as a phase."