Date: Fri, 30 Sep 2005 19:46:58 -0700 (PDT)
From: gaymormonwriter@yahoo.com
Subject: BORN TO BE A MISSIONARY Chatper 37

(Author's notes: This story is protected by copyright. The other usual
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Born To Be A Missionary
Chapter 37


>From Adam's perspective:


I gazed upon Tyler as he watched the grounds crew clear the area around the
plane so we could take off, his hand, firmly in mine. The flight crew was
busy getting everyone ready and the cute male crewmember stopped near me,
saw Tyler's hand in mine and winked.

This one business trip definitely was productive, but not necessarily like
I had imagined. Tyler turned and brought his eyes to mine. The sadness that
I had known in those eyes was gone. He managed a smile at me. When he
smiles now, his face lights up. He seems happy, maybe happy with himself.

We haven't said much to each other this morning. When I awoke Tyler was
already in the shower and I lay there in the bed, naked, wondering why I
was falling for Tyler. Yes, I kept reminding myself that I was falling for
him. My resistance was low. I didn't fight the feeling growing inside for
him.

It wasn't my intention on this trip with him to start any kind of
relationship with him. I have always had a rule that nothing happens
between management and employees. It's in our employee handbook. I wrote
the handbook. I violated my own policy.

After Tyler asked me what a 'bathhouse' was, he leaned in and kissed me on
the lips. At that moment, time stood still and the only thing I knew from
that moment on was Tyler.

I feel that what Tyler was needing was on an emotional level. I could feel
his need to be close, to be touched and to be loved. It's been 3 weeks
since Gary died. It was his need for comfort that he wanted me to make love
to him. I didn't resist. I succumbed to his need and mine. Our needs were
different, but the act was just as important.

After his shower, he came out of the bathroom, naked with the towel hanging
off his shoulder. Over the years, I always admired naked men. Soft with out
erections was, to me, the most beautiful vision of male sexuality. Tyler
was beautiful in every way. He walked right over to me and leaned down and
kissed me. It wasn't a peck. It was the kind of kiss lovers have.

Even though I was lying there, openly with a full erection, he never
touched it or acknowledged it. He gently rubbed my face with his
fingers. When he backed away he told me to hurry with my shower since he
was starving.

In the shower, as I washed my body, I moved in what seemed like slow
motion. I felt out of control with the whole situation. My hands brought
soap to my body, and all I could think about was Tyler's hands on my body,
than his body on mine and mine on his.  Without thinking, my hands found
their way to my erection, which still hadn't gone down, even after emptying
my bladder.

After relieving the pressure in my erection, I washed the semen from my
body. When I finished, I stood under the water's spray, my head down as it
washed over my neck and back. Thinking that I haven't felt this way about
anyone is such a long time and wondering what I was going to do about it.

As I was drying off, I knew we had to talk about what happened between us
and where do we go from here. I had left the bathroom and he was out of the
bedroom watching TV.

I got dressed and we had breakfast. I couldn't bring myself to say
anything. I feared he was going to tell me it was a 'momentary'
situation. He needed comfort and he had no interest in me other than
that. But could I think that Tyler could be that shallow?

No, I kept telling myself.



>From Joel's perspective:



Terry was holding my hand as the plane took off from Salt Lake City. I
loved when he touched me. It was without reservation or hesitation. As we
soared over the Rocky Mountains towards Houston, I prayed that Terry would
never be out of life. He's seems so strong. I knew in my mind that we have
only known each other for less than 3 weeks, that it seemed like we moved
pretty fast in our relationship. It just seemed so natural.

Gary holding our hands in the dream gave me a soothing and comforting
feeling. But it was Gabriel's touch, his connecting us, heart to heart,
that sealed our future together. It felt like he melded us, opening our
hearts, letting the other in, creating that bond that some people are never
blessed to have.

I squeezed Terry's hand and he turned from the window and gazed into my
eyes. I brought my lips to his ear and said, "I love you so much. Don't
ever forget that."

Terry took me in his arms.

"I love you so much too, don't you forget it either." He said.

I fell back in my seat knowing I am so happy.

"I have decided to take my GED when we get back. I don't want to go back to
school." Terry said.

"Than we can go to college together?"

"Yes, silly, of course we can." He said.

"We haven't discussed what we will major in."

"Well, Joel, I really don't know what I want to do other than be with you."

"I know, Terry, but we can't pay our bills if we are in bed all the time."
I said with a smirk.

Terry looked up at me in a 'faked' shock expression.

"Is that all you can think about? Sex and more sex?"

I grinned at him and said, "Yes, with you all the time."

The smile on Terry's face was so wide I thought his cheeks would crack.

"Well, we are responsible adults. We can control our sexual desires long
enough to get an education and get jobs that will keep us in the luxury
that I am sure we both will grow very accustomed to." He said.

I gave him an evil grin and said, "Adults? Huh, not you. You are still a
teenager."

Terry just smiled again and said in a very husky voice, "At least I am
legal, you adult you."

We laughed.

The flight back to Houston was great as we talked about what we wanted for
our future. Our future.  We both could hardly wait to see what it would be
like to work for Adam and Aaron, working in a movie theatre. A future? It's
nice to think I have one now and someone to share it with. I had been
lonely far too long.




>From Adam's perspective:



"Tyler, we need to talk before we land in Houston."

Tyler continued to look out the window and said, "I know."

Finally he turned to me and waited for me to say something. I looked at
him. I froze. I realized that he's got me, what ever he wants. I think he
saw my confused state and spoke first.

"Adam, you want to know?"

I just looked at him. For a guy who always has something to say, me, my
tongue was stuck, unable to utter anything.

"You want to know if I want more?"

I think he was enjoying watching me be completely dumbfounded and
speechless.

"Adam?"

I finally managed to mumble, "Yes?"

It was so unbelievable. I was the one in charge here, saying we had to talk
and all I can do is mumble. I need to get a grip on myself.

Tyler continued to watch me. Whether he was enjoying this or not I had to
say...something.

Finally he spoke.

"I know you have been awfully quiet all morning."

I just nodded my head.

"I know that..."

Tyler turned back to the window, not looking at me.

"I...ah...want to be with you Adam."

I was stunned. The words were like music to my ears.

"I just don't know where we go from here, Adam. That's up to you I guess."

Get a grip I kept telling myself. Why does he have this effect on me? I can
stand toe to toe with businessmen and politicians, but with Tyler?

I panicked and got up and went to the lavatory.



>From Tyler's perspective:



Oh great. I went too far. I knew I moved too fast, maybe too soon after
Gary died, but I was so tired of being depressed. Gary told me in the dream
not to grieve too long. Adam was so kind to me in Dr. Haines office. I knew
than, almost immediately, I wanted to be with him. I felt so alone and I
wanted to feel good again. Selfish I guess. I knew in my heart that I
wanted Adam, but I didn't want to seem like I was using him. I have
feelings for him, but it may not be enough.

Isn't that the way of a gay man?

Moving too quickly, feeling too quickly, falling in love too quickly,
having sex too quickly. It's a life about regrets and false truths. Of high
hopes, and big letdowns. Fear and pain a constant, hovering
element. Letting missed opportunities slip away. I didn't want this one to
slip away.

I hadn't planned on being in bed with him. The first night it was just for
comfort, being near someone. I felt so lonely. Adam was a gentleman. Gave
me my space and I slept better than I had since Gary died.

When Adam told me that Gary told him to take care of me, in my foolish mind
I took that as Gary approving of Adam and for me to move on with him. How
delusional can I be?

But last night, I felt so bold walking into the bedroom naked and see his
reaction, to see if he wanted me. The look on his face was priceless. He
looked me up and down, his eyes inspecting every square inch of my body.

When I slipped into bed and lay next to him, placing my hand on his
genitals ...I knew he wouldn't reject me. I leaned in for the kiss and he
melted right in front of me. He took me and I took him. It was the best sex
I have ever had.

This morning when I awakened, I looked upon Adam in all his natural naked
beauty. For a man of his age he looked great, obviously taking care of
himself. His chest and belly were covered in a fine dusting of hair, the
hair around his penis was trimmed neatly and the hair continued down his
legs.

My eyes came back to his penis, soft and sleeping. The head was nestled
upon his testicles. He had some foreskin left, partially cut with skin
reaching about halfway over the head.

Watching him sleep so soundly, I felt close to him.

I didn't want to push my luck with him, so I got up and took my shower. Oh,
how I wanted him to be in the shower with me. I handled my erection and
washed off. When I came out from the bathroom, he was still lying there
naked, except his penis was up and alert. I ignored his penis as I kissed
him on the lips. His lips were soft and tender and I slipped my tongue past
them. I knew if I kept it up, I would be all over him. Why I felt I had to
be cautious with him, I don't know. But I was.

Adam was quiet all morning and even through breakfast. I stared into his
eyes and found them lost and confused. Uncertainty was the face he wore.

I knew he would want to talk about what was happening between us. When he
just now brought it up, I was at a loss for words until I realized he was
too. I was just being honest and told him how I felt.

I looked back over the seat to see if he was coming back yet. I didn't see
him.

I got up and went to the lavatories to find him. I knocked on the first
door and called his name. The door opened enough for me to slip in. I stood
there face to face with Adam and his eyes were red. It was apparent he was
crying. I placed his face in my hands and brought my lips to his and kissed
him long and hard. I could feel his erection pressed against mine.

We didn't have much room but I moved my hand down to unzip his pants and
free his erection. Adam reached for mine and slipped me out of my pants as
well. Without words being spoken, our erections were brought together and
our hands were wrapped around them. My lips never left his. I knew that I
wasn't going to last long. I felt Adam moan in my mouth and I heard myself
moan as well. I felt his erection stiffened, I knew he would climax soon.

That sent me over and I spilled my seed all over our hands and
erections. Then I felt Adam start to erupt and he backed his face from mine
gasping for air.

I as sure we were quite a site. Crammed into each other, wet with semen on
our clothes. Adam looked into my eyes and smiled. I brought my hand up and
stated licking our mixed fluids clean. The taste of was incredible. He
followed suit. Our hands kept going back to get more. Being cramped it was
the best we could do to clean up. I kissed him with my sticky lips and I
started giggling and he just smiled at me.

"You know, Tyler, I want to be with you, but we need to talk about how we
are going to do this with you working for me."

"I know."

"But I think we need to get out of here before we get caught."

"I know."

I cleaned myself up after Adam put my penis back into my clothes and zipped
me up. I did the same for him. I washed my hands and wiped my mouth and
tried to paper towel the wet spots on my pants. It didn't help. I slipped
out first and tried to act as 'normal' as possible. I grabbed a magazine
hoping to cover the wet spots. I got seated and waited for Adam.

After a couple of minutes, Adam sat down next to me. He looked somewhat
flushed, but had a big grin on his face.

"I have never had sex on a plane before, I swear." He said.

I laughed and he did too.

I took his hand in mine.

"Adam, I know we have a lot to talk about, but not here, please, with so
many people around."

Adam gave me a strange look. It turned into a smirk.

I had just had sex in an airplane lavatory and here I was worried about
what people would hear.

I looked up and there was a male flight attendant standing next to Adam's
seat. He looked back and forth between us. He winked at us and said, "I saw
you guys come out back there, congratulations."

Then he whispered something in Adam's ear and Adam got this really big grin
on his face. The flight attendant moved on.

"What did he say to you?" I asked.

Adam leaned over and whispered in my ear that the flight attendant said to
him that I was one hot guy and that he was extremely lucky.

I looked back at Adam.

"I am?" I asked. "Are you?"

"Yes and Yes."



>From Rick's perspective:



It was getting towards lunch when I saw him walk in the front door. I
immediately went out to him and brought him into my office.

"You came back?" I asked the man who had been here only a couple of days
ago.

The man sat down and sat next to him.

"I came back for the results and hopefully talk to you."

"Okay."

"I am sorry I ran out, but it was kind of overwhelming for me. I...ah..."

I was going to give him all the time he needed to open up to me, so I am
being patient.

"I talked to my bishop last night. I told him about my attraction to other
men."

I watched him as he gathered up his courage to tell me.

"The bishop is an old friend of mine and he wasn't to happy to hear what I
had to say. I told him I didn't know what to do. I was lost. He asked if I
had acted on my inclinations. I told him yes."

"What did he do?" I asked.

"He told me about the Evergreen program and other support groups with men
who have the same sex attraction."

"I know Evergreen."

"He told me that they could help me overcome my problem."

"It doesn't always help from my experience." I said.

"I asked if there was any support for those men who believe that they are
gay and nothing can change it."

He paused for a moment.

"He said go home and read my scriptures and pray. When we finished he said
to me if I wasn't willing to seek support from those programs that my
church membership would be suspended. That my temple recommend would be
rescinded and I would be facing a disciplinary hearing for
excommunication."

"So in reality, your life as a member of the Mormon church would abruptly
end?"

"Yes."

"What do you want to do?" I asked.

"I don't know."

"Have you told your wife?"

"No."

"What do you want to do?"

"I don't know," than he turned to me, "What should I do?"

"Well, we all have a path to follow in our lives. Yours has hit a fork in
the road. On the right, maintain the life you have known, seeking help and
counseling and no longer see other men. Or you can take the left. Give up
everything you have known and live the life that you have been hiding."

"I don't like my choices."

"I completely understand that.

The man sat back in his chair, laying his head against the back. He was so
quiet, like he was praying.

"I saw my attorney this morning."

I wasn't expecting that.

"I asked him to prepare a divorce package to best take care of my wife. I
have 5 sons. Two are grown and married, one is on his mission and the
latter 2 are in high school. I wanted to make sure that they didn't want
for anything."

"So you have chosen the path you want to take?"

"Yes."

"You know your family better than anyone. How are they going to react to
the revelation that you are gay?"

"I hope I taught them enough about tolerance and acceptance."

"You have doubts?"

"Some."

"If you didn't have any doubts, I would suspect something was wrong." I
said. "So what are your plans?"

"This weekend, my youngest sons are on a church field trip, I will be alone
with my wife and I will tell her."

"Make sure you have provided your wife with information on counseling and
support. I can give you some information for that."

I watched him for a moment.

"Are you ready for this?"

He looked me right in the eyes and asked me, "Has there been anything in
your life you have always wanted to do and haven't been able to?"

Wow! I had to think for a moment.

"Yeah, I suppose it would be writing a book. I always liked the idea of
writing, but every time I tried, I lost interest in it after 9 or 10
pages. I have no trouble keeping my journal up, but to write fiction...it
seems to be out of my reach."

"Maybe fiction isn't what you're suppose to write." He said.

"You might be right." I said. "What about you?"

"I have always wanted to travel the world."

"Are you planning on doing that now?"

"Yeah...I think I am."

"Going to go alone?"

"Nope. With the guy I have been seeing. I want to go with him."

"It's your path, map it out and go."

"Yeah."

"Would you like your test results now?"

"Yes I would."

I went over to my desk and pulled out the sealed envelope. I opened it and
read him the results.

"I am relieved." He said.

"I am sure, but I can't impress upon you more about safe sex. You're
results may be negative this time, but as a gay man, it behooves you to be
tested often."

"I understand."

"Here's my card, if you need to talk to me or feel like you need someone
far more advanced in psychology I can help you with that too."

I handed him Jim's card.

"If you feel that your wife will need that kind of help, Dr. Haines can
help you there."

"Thanks Rick."

I watched him walk out of the center. Still I didn't know his name. I hope
things will work out for him.



>From Adam's perspective:



I had invited Tyler to stay with me at my condo. He accepted. I am sure we
will be sleeping together tonight. The plane arrived at Hobby International
Airport and we grabbed our bags and headed to the parking lot. I called
Aaron and told him I was back and he told me there was nothing pressing at
the office for me so I didn't have to come in. So Tyler and I headed to the
condo. I decided to grill steaks and have a quiet evening with this young
man that I am taken with.

I gave Tyler the tour of the condo, which included the private screening
room of mine. With a big screen TV and a big Dolby Digital sound system. A
room I always love to be in. It has two big recliner chairs set directly in
the center of the room. Tyler was in awe of the screening room and when I
put some music on it was awesome. I love movie soundtracks and I was
playing the soundtrack from THE BOURNE SUPERMACY. I love the score behind
the Moscow car chase sequence.

I told Tyler to sit down and I turned down the volume so we could talk.

"First, I need to tell you about the part of the dream you don't know
about."

"Am I going to be freaked out about this, Adam?"

"Maybe." I said. "Joel and Terry know and haven't said anything to anyone
but Aaron and I about it. Aaron told me on the phone in Jacksonville that
another young man Dr. Haines is seeing has revealed his knowledge of the
dream. Including Gabriel."

"Gabriel?"

"Yes, the arch angel Gabriel."

"Yeah, this WILL freak me out."

I proceeded to tell him about in chronological order what transpired in the
dream. About Joel and Terry and their experiences and I told him about our
summations and pleas to let each of the 3 men continue their lives. I told
him how Gary offered himself so Joel and Terry would live on. That Gary had
whispered to me what he did about him.

I told him about the white light and how brilliant it was and when it had
dissipated, Terry was gone. When I told him about Gabriel he had all kinds
of questions. I explained everything the best I could, except I didn't
mention the Hale maps.

When I was done with the dream, Tyler scooted over and sat across my
lap. The armrests took most of his weight. He put his right arm around my
neck.

"Okay, Adam, what about us?"

I looked into his eyes. I was looking for something, not sure what it was,
but I didn't see it.

"We kind of moved into this pretty quickly. So from here on out, we take it
slower."

"How do we take it slower? We have done everything already." He said with
an evil grin.

"Well, I am going to have to have a talk with Aaron and see how this will
effect our working relationship. We have company policies about what you
and I have done."

"Ah...fraternization with the help is a big NO-NO?"

"Yes it is."

"But it was me who violated the policy. I came on to you."

I gave him a big grin and put my hand on his chest.

"Yes you did. But I responded to your advances and such I violated my own
policy."

"So we both get fired?" He said with a devilish grin. "That's not fair, I
just got hired."

"I doubt we both get fired, I can't see Aaron firing us."

"Okay."

Tyler leaned in and gave me a kiss on my lips.

"Are you trying to start something, young man?"

Tyler just smiled at me. I lowered my hand from his chest to his groin
area. He had an erection already.

"You like that?" Tyler said.

"I like you better," I said.

"But that is me too." He said.

I unzipped his fly and moved his erection out into the open. I marveled at
it. I have made love to it with my lips, tongue and mouth. I felt it inside
of me. I have felt it climax several times already. It seems to have a
personality all of it's own. My hand wrapped around it.

"I could become addicted to this," I said.

"I hope so." He said. Than without any warning, and out of left field, as I
have to come realize that he does this, he told me he had an appointment
with Dr. Haines tomorrow. Then he kissed me as I stroked him.



>From Jim's perspective:



"So you two wanted this session together."

"Yes," said Joel.

I could tell by the way they looked at each that their relationship had
gone to the ultimate level.

"So, how was the trip to Salt Lake City?"

"It was great." Terry said and than told me what it meant to him. He talked
about how Joel seemed to find some peace with Brian's mother.

"Joel, what did you find by going there?"

"I found Brian."

"How did you do that?"

"I read his journals. I found out who he was, things I never knew."

"Were you written into his mission journal?"

"Yes."

I watched as Terry took Joel's hand and squeezed it.

Joel told me what he read in the journal and how he felt when he visited
the grave. I was moved. I was watching and listening to the same young man
whom weeks earlier, was totally different, lost and depressed.

And Terry sitting there, supporting his man, unaffected by Joel's feelings
about Brian.

I was looking at two young men, who found each other, bonded together out
their own grief.

Joel and Terry told me how Brian's mother gave them a tour of the area. I
would love to meet her. When they finished, they were all smiles.

"The trip did both of you a lot of good it seems. Glad you went."

"Yeah, we are too." Terry said.

"I need to ask you two a question though."

"Okay." They both said in unison.

I watched them closely. They didn't take their eyes off me. Not knowing
what I was about to say.

"I know about Gabriel."

You could hear a pin drop. The silence was deafening. Both of them dropped
their eyes from mine.

I than heard a very weak response from Joel.

"I am sorry about that Doctor, that's my fault."

Slowly he looked back at me.

"I told Terry that I wasn't ready to talk about it and suggested that we
not mention it."

"Why didn't you want to talk about?"

"The whole dream was so surreal and when Gabriel made his appearance, I was
so taken back. He touched me here." He said pointing at the cleft in his
upper lip. "Then he touched me here, at my heart."

"He touched me too." Terry said. "I didn't quite understand all that he was
saying, but what I felt when he touched me was incredible."

"What happened when he touched you here." I said as I pointed to my upper
lip.

"For me," Joel said, "It was like I knew everything in the universe. All
the knowledge that I think I once knew and than it was gone."

I nodded my head.

"You don't know do you?" I said.

Both Joel and Terry shook their heads.

"It is believed that Gabriel's work as an angel includes being with those
souls just before they are passed on to the human babies, he takes all the
pre-existent life knowledge away from them by touching the cleft of their
upper lip."

"Wow!" Terry said.

"Gabriel is like a hobby for me. I enjoy reading about him. He isn't
mentioned a lot in the scriptures, but he does leave an impression where he
is written about. A lot of speculation about him is written about him."

"Is he gay?" Terry asked.

I laughed at that one.

"What gave you the impression he might be gay?"

Both guys started giggling.

"Okay, let me in on the joke."

They told me how Gabriel was acting, the way he talked and how it seemed
that he knew so much about being gay.

"Are you saying he was a flaming queen?"

"Pretty much from my point of view." Joel said.

"Wow, that does give me a whole new perspective on Gabriel now."

I thought Rick would get a kick out of this.



>From Tyler's perspective:



I came into Dr. Haines office and checked in at the desk with his
receptionist. I sat down and noticed another young man waiting also. He was
reading THE FRONT RUNNER. Probably the same copy I read.

"How's the book?" I asked.

The young guy, who looked to be about 18 or 19, looked up and said,
"Actually it's a pretty good book."

"I know, I have read it."

"The doctor give it to you too?"

"Yeah he did. It helped me."

"Yeah. It's has opened my eyes a lot."

"What part are you at?"

"Harlan and Billy are in their room, the night before the big track event."

"Okay." I said.

He's about to pages where Billy runs the last race and I remember how I
felt when I did.

"By the way, my name is Tyler."

"Hi, my name is Jared."

"Nice to meet you."

"I assume you are like me?"

"Like you?"

Jared looked me over. His eyes came up to mine.

"Gay?"

I nodded my head yes.

"Mormon?"

"Yes."

"You're the second one I have met. Me too."

"I sort of figured you were gay when I saw the book. The Mormon part I
didn't know."

"Yeah. Did Dr. Haines help you a lot?"

"Yeah, he did. He opened my eyes so I could see myself for what I was or
am."

"Is the doctor gay?"

"Yes."

"Mormon?"

"Yes."

"Okay, so you are the third gay Mormon I have met."

"I have a feeling you will meet more of us, Jared."

"I suspect you may be right."

About than, the door opened and Dr. Haines walked out. He said 'Hi' to
Jared and took me back to his office.

I walked in and Joel and Terry were there. I went right over and hugged
both of them. We all sat down.



>From Jim's perspective:

I noticed that Tyler seemed to have a spring in his walk. He seemed to be
in a good mood. Wonder what's up with him, now.

"I wanted to talk to all three of you for a few minutes. I want to start a
group of young men who are gay and Mormon, or nearly Mormon." I said
looking over at Terry. "Are you guys up for that? I can work it so it
doesn't affect school or working at the theaters."

The all agreed that it would be a great idea and wanted to be involved.

"Now, there is someone I want you guys to meet. He's out in the waiting
room. I think he could benefit from your friendship."

"I just met him, Jared. He seems like a nice guy. He's reading THE FRONT
RUNNER and he's just at the part where Billy..."

Suddenly, Tyler stopped and you could see his mind turning around and than
his eyes got big.

"Jared's his name? The other guy with the dream." He said.

"Yes, he is. He does know that the dreamed was shared by others, he has met
with Aaron."

"Oh, wow. I didn't know his name. I just guessed." Tyler said.

The buzzer suddenly went off and I got up and went to the phone. My
receptionist told me that Jared was crying in the waiting room. I asked if
he was reading the book and she said yes. I told her it was okay, I would
be out in a minute.

"Tyler, where in the book did you say Jared was at?"

"He was about to read about the Olympic race where Billy is..."

"Okay." I said.

I looked over the three of them.

"Tyler, did Adam talk to yet about the rest of the dream?"

"Yes, he told me about Gabriel. That was awesome. I missed it." He said
somewhat disappointed.

"Yeah it was." Joel said.

"Well, Jared told me about Gabriel, that is how I found out...since a few
others thought to keep it a secret." I said with a smirk looking over at
Joel and Terry.

"You didn't tell the Doctor?" Tyler asked Joel.

"No and I wish I had now." Joel said.

"I know now." I said. "I am going out to get Jared and bring him back to
meet you guys. I want to tell him about the dream being shared. I am
counting on you guys to be supportive."

They all agreed and I left the office for my waiting room. I found Jared
still reading the book, I could tell he had been tearing up. I sat down
next to him.

"Hi Jared."

"Hi, doctor."

"I cried too."

"You did?"

"Yes, everyone I have known who have read the book has."

"It's so sad."

"I know. Are you ready to come in?" He said putting his bookmark into the
book.

"Yes."

I lead Jared back to my office.

Tyler, Joel and Terry were waiting for us as we came in. I introduced Jared
to everyone and everyone to Jared. Jared said he already met Tyler.

"Are all you guys Mormon?" Jared asked.

"Nope, I'm not." Terry said. "They are." He said pointing at Joel and
Tyler.

"Okay." Jared said.

"Jared, remember Aaron and I mentioned the others who had the dream?"

"Yeah." I could see the workings of his mind on his face. He was quick.

Jared turned towards the guys. I watched as he studied each one.

"Yes, Doctor, I know these guys." Jared said.

"What do you know, Jared?"

"They were in my dream, too. I saw two of them naked. I remember that
especially."

Joel and Terry both slightly blushed.

"Jared, we had the dream too. It kind of freaked us out at first when we
learned that others had had the same dream." Joel said.

"All I know is that it was a shared dream. You are one of 7 I believe had
the dream. You already met Aaron." I said.

"Welcome to the club." Joel said putting a hug onto Jared. Terry and Tyler
both gave him a hug.

"Who were you in the dream?" Tyler asked.

"I was at the table, I was one of the 'judges' so to speak."

Tyler turned Jared around. I saw his expression turn slightly agitated.

"Did you help make the decision for Gary to go through the veil?"

Jared got a scared look on his face.

"Gary?"

"Yeah, the man in the middle, between Joel and Terry." Tyler said.

"Tyler." I said hoping to defuse him.

"No, I didn't vote or make any decision about him. He offered himself to
go..." Jared said pointing to Joel and Terry. "...so they could go
back. Tyler, I had nothing to do with what happened. I swear."

"Tyler." I said again. "It was a dream, Gary's dream. Jared was just a
witness to everything."

I saw a single tear leave Jared's eye. "Did Gary really die?"

Tyler seemed to relax and took his hand up and wiped the tear with his
finger.

"I'm sorry, you didn't know. Yes, Gary died."

"I'm sorry, Tyler." Jared said. Tyler embraced Jared and told him
everything was all right.

Joel and Terry came over and put their arms around them both.

"Jared." I said, "Did you bring it with you today?"

Jared looked up at me from inside the group hug.

"Yes."

"Guys, you are not going to believe this. Go ahead Jared, show them." I
said.

The guys stood back and gave Jared some room. Jared reached into his pocket
and brought out the feather.

"Oh wow." Joel said.

"He's got the feather." Terry said.

"What's that?" Tyler asked.

This time it was Jared who told his version of the dream to the guys. Tyler
was blown away when he realized where the feather came from and that Joel
and Terry knew about it.

Tyler had to hold the feather. He was amazed by it.

Joel and Terry both took their turns.

Jared looked at Joel and asked, "Is what happen to you true?"

"Yes." Joel said.

"And you Terry?" Jared asked.

"Yes." Terry said.

Joel and Terry told Jared about their lives since the dream and how they
are together now. Jared seemed amazed.

"Next Friday guys, I want to schedule a group with all of you, including
Kevin, Adam and Aaron. I think you guys have a lot to talk about."

They all agreed and they left together. I suspected a long-term friendship
was going to happen with that group.

I wrote my notes in their files and drove home to Rick. I found Rick in the
kitchen, cooking dinner. I figured the boys were in their room since Rick
wasn't naked. I kissed my man and hugged him.

"How was your day?" I asked.

"Interesting, the man with 'no name' came back today."

"Still didn't get his name huh?"

"Nope."

"I suspect he will be back, mark my words."

"I believe you."

"Where are the boys?"

"They are in their room."

"What are they up too?"

Rick turned around and gave me that look, the one that tells me he is about
to tell me something unbelievable.

"I guess I had better let them tell you."

"Really."

"Yeah. Really."

I turned and went to Jamie and Steve's room. The door was open so I
knocked.

"Hi Dad."

"Hi Jim."

"Hi, boys." I said, "So what have you guys been up to?"

Jamie looked over at Steve and both came away with big smiles on their
faces. Both came over to me. It was Jamie who was going to tell me.

"Dad, Steve and I have decided to go on our missions...together."

Wow! Where did that come from?

"Are you guys nuts," I said to Jamie and Steve. "There is no way that can
happen."

"Why not, Dad?" Jaime asked.

I just looked between Jamie and Steve like they were nuts.

"That's ridiculous. How do you expect the church, the Mormon Church to
accept you as missionaries? Let alone let you guys into the temple."

"Well, Dad, Steve and I will petition the church presidency with a letter
of request to be considered."

"And as a gay couple, you expect them to take exception and allow two
sexually active young men to go their missions?"

"Ah, yeah Dad."

I looked between the two of them. Trying to figure out just what they were
up to.

"This is a joke isn't? Rick put you up to this?"

I turned and went to the kitchen.

"Is this your idea? It's funny you know." I said to Rick.

Rick turned around from the stove and didn't have that kind of look on his
face that told me he was joking.

"Oh shit. They're serious?"

"Yes they are, Jim."

I sat down at the kitchen table and let it sink in. The boys came in and
sat down with me at the table.  I looked at Steve, than Jamie, than Rick
and realized that I was the only one not excited about it.

"Okay, how do you guys plan on doing this? You said a letter?"

"Yeah." Steve said. "Jamie and I were talking about how it takes some
aggressive lobbying to get anything changed. The best way we could do this
was to write a letter and spell out our request. We both know that it will
likely never happen, but we can get the ball rolling."

I thought about it for a moment or two.

"Dad, things are changing. If San Francisco hadn't started issuing wedding
licenses for gay couples, the whole debate would never have happened. Now
some states, as you know, recognize gay marriages."

"Well, that may be true, but I think the timing was all off and they should
have waited until it wasn't an election year. I think the 'gay marriage'
actions got Bush reelected. And you guys know how I feel about George W."

"Yeah, I agree, Jim, but the gay movement has began." Rick said. "So what
would it hurt for the boys to send the letter?"

I thought for a few minutes. I started thinking how hungry I was.

"Okay, I think you need to work the letter respectfully, using scripture
quotes where appropriate. You should send copies to your bishop and the
stake president so they know what's going on."

"Cool Dad."

"Yeah, well...how can I not support you guys."

I looked up at Rick to see his approving look.

"Yeah, yeah...you know me too well." I said to Rick.

Rick just laughed at me.



The end of Chapter 37