BROKEN

By Wes Leigh

 

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Chapter Three

 

I decide to sit beneath a tree to eat my lunch. I want to be alone today, not that anyone ever sits next to me during lunch most days. After all, they're too good to eat with the poor farmer's boy. And that's really stupid, because I always eat better food than they get from the cafeteria. Momma packs incredible lunches for us. Like today ... I have a thick sandwich on homemade bread with a huge slice of ham and two different kinds of cheese, a salad with fresh tomatoes, carrots, and lettuce out of our greenhouse, and a slice of homemade apple pie. The town kids think they're better than us because they stand in line to get boring cafeteria pizza and canned mixed vegetables. Nasty.

But even if they did want to sit with me, I don't want to sit with them. Not today. Not after the crap the guys pulled in the shower after PE. Why are they such creeps? I've never done anything to any of them, except maybe be smarter than they are, but I've never said hateful things to them like what they say to me all the time. I've never shoved them into lockers as I walk by. I've never called them names or made fun of their bodies. I've never hidden their clothes or thrown their towels into the floor.

And I don't know how to fix this, because I don't know how it got broken. When did I become the guy the other kids hated? What did I do? Did someone paint a big sign on my back that says: `This guy is a real loser so make him miserable today?'

Even my mom's apple pie can't pull me out of my bad mood. I feel like crying, but I won't do that. No, `cause these jerks would love to see my cry. I'll just eat the rest of the pie and sit here under this tree and think about all the ways I'd love to see those guys get humiliated like they've been humiliating me.

A shadow falls on the grass in front of me. I turn and see Carson standing next to the tree, holding his sack lunch. The older kids eat after us younger kids. Staggered lunch schedules. Seventh, eighth and ninth graders eat from 11:30 until noon. All the rest, including my brother, eat from 11:45 until 12:15. I don't know why. I'm sure some adult somewhere decided it was a good idea to slightly separate the rabble from the school royalty.

"Eating alone again, Squirt?" he asks.

I want to say, `Duh. What gave you your first clue?' But I know better than to be a smart ass with Carson. Besides, he sounds like he's worried about me, even if he did call me a squirt, which he knows I hate.

I just nod my head and take another bite of apple pie.

Carson sits down next to me and opens his bag. Momma made him two sandwiches, both like mine, but Carson is twice as big as me, so he eats more. He takes a big bite of one sandwich, looks around while he chews, and asks, "Why did you eat out here? It's kinda windy today."

He's right. It is windy and a little cold, even with my windbreaker on. I shrug and say, "I didn't want to eat inside. I don't mind the cold. I like it."

He nods thoughtfully, takes another bite, and chews slowly. I finish my pie and carefully fold up my lunch bag. Momma can use it again tomorrow. She likes it when we don't waste stuff.

Carson looks around, like he's searching for something, then he looks back at me. "Anything I should know about?"

"Like what?" I ask.

"Like ... are the guys giving you a hard time?"

I wish I could ask Carson for help, but I'm sure it won't do any good. He can't watch out for me all day long, and he graduates in two months. When he's no longer here, what will I do then? I sure can't stand up for myself, and even if Carson stomps a few kids for bullying me, they'll eventually get even. I look at Carson, sigh, and say, "It's okay, Carson. Really. Nothing I can't handle."

Carson nods but he's also frowning, so I know he doesn't believe me.

I try again. "I'm not a whiny bitch, Carson. I'm not going to run to my big brother and rat out the jerks who give me a hard time. I'll just handle it myself. Somehow."

Carson takes another big bite of his ham sandwich. The bell rings, so I know I have five minutes before my next class starts.

As I stand up to leave, Carson says, "I know you're not a bitch, Truman. I'm proud of you, bro."

I turn and look closely at Carson. He doesn't usually have nice things to say about me. "Thanks, Carson."

He nods.

I turn and walk away, feeling his eyes on my back as I head into the building.

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I make it through the rest of the day.

Fourth period English, which I like, because I want to be a famous writer someday like Robert Heinlein or Isaac Asimov or Frank Herbert.

Fifth period Science, which is an easy class for me, with all the reading I do.

And sixth period Geography, which is especially boring at the end of the day when everyone is just waiting for the last bell to ring.

Finally, the sound of freedom echoes through the school and everyone, students and teachers, achieve escape velocity at last, launching ourselves away from the Black Hole We Call School.

I wait in line for the bus with the other kids who live south of town. Riding the bus isn't so bad in the afternoon. In the morning, our farm is the next to the last stop, so that means the other kids can pull their stupid seat grabbing game, claiming all the seats and making me look for a place to sit. In the afternoon, it's different. We line up on the grass in front of the school. If I'm near the front of the line, I can find a seat easy, as long as I don't try to take Mattie's seat at the back of the bus with her stupid witch friends.

The bus pulls up and we climb inside. I grab an empty seat halfway down. Because the other kids basically hate me, I get a seat all to myself. I'm okay with that. The bus is headed to the elementary school next, and Toby Welsh will sit next to me. I wonder if Toby will want me to throw my windbreaker over our laps again so we can ... you know. I start to chub up just thinking about it.

When we get to the elementary school, Toby and the rest of the little kids climb on. But Toby doesn't sit with me. One of his friends from school is coming home with him this afternoon, probably to ride horses at Toby's house, so they sit together in one of the seats up front. I have to admit I'm a little disappointed. I sort of wanted to see if Toby wanted to play with my boner and let me play with his. Why am I so stupid?

I look out the window and watch the houses go by until we're out in the country, headed for our farms where we will have afternoon chores to do, then supper to eat, and a little time to watch television or read a book before bedtime.

Then we'll start all over again tomorrow.

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But there's a change in the routine tonight. After we finish our afternoon chores, Carson grabs my arm and pulls me into the barn.

"What's going on?" I ask.

He points at an old weight bench that was stored in the corner. I remember he begged Poppa to buy it for him when he started playing football years ago. Carson doesn't use it anymore because he began working out at school instead. Some rich oil baron guy bought a fancy weight room for the school, to help our team win a state championship or something. But for a couple of years, Carson was always out here, lifting weights, getting stronger and stronger.

Carson walks me over to the bench and makes me sit down. Then he brings over the smallest dumbbells and hands them to me. He shows me how to lift them up slowly, hold them, then lower them just as slow. "Don't just drop it. Make your muscles work all the way down too," Carson says, holding my fist as I lower the dumbbell. "Nine more," he adds, watching me.

I lift and lower the dumbbell just as Carson said, then I switch hands and do the same with the other arm, ten times.

For an hour, Carson shows me different exercises I can do to build up my arms. My muscles are burning and wobbly at the end, and I'm struggling to even lift the weights. He tells me that's good, actually, because it means I've torn the muscles slightly, and they'll heal back stronger than ever. I guess that's how you get big muscles. First you break down the tissues. Then you eat good food to fuel your body for repairing the damage. It's weird, but I get it. I guess this is one time when being broken is a good thing.

Carson tells me we'll do different exercises tomorrow. For my legs. And he says we'll work on my core the day after that. I'm not sure what my core is, but I'll do whatever Carson says. Maybe when I have muscles like him, the jerks in my PE class will think twice before they mess with me. This is so great. Carson is the best big brother a guy could ever have.

There's just one thing I don't understand. Why's he doing all this?

We push the weight bench back into the corner and head into the house. Carson lets me shower first. He sits on the toilet in his underwear and talks to me about what I should be eating now. Lots of meats and proteins. And beans and milk and peanuts and rice. All foods I like, but he tells me I need to eat more of them, now that my body needs the extra fuel to grow muscle.

I finish my shower and step out. Carson glances down at my dick, but doesn't say anything. He just squeezes my shoulder gently and strips off his own underwear. His cock is huge. A man's cock, but he's seventeen, so I guess it's supposed to be that size by now. He steps past me into the shower and keeps talking to me about how I can make sure I'm getting enough food and what to do when my muscles are really sore. I sit and listen. This is so cool. Carson and I have never talked like this before, and I don't know why he's doing it now, but I'm glad he is.

I'll say it again. Carson is the best big brother a guy could ever have.

Soon, I'll have muscles like Carson. Maybe then my dick will get the message and start growing too. That would be incredible. Having muscles AND a cock as big as Carson's.

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Supper is great, because Momma serves up one of my favorite meals. Fried chicken with mashed potatoes and cream gravy. Fresh green beans from the greenhouse. Hot, buttery corn on the cob. And more of Momma's homemade biscuits.

Carson tells me to eat another piece of chicken and drink an extra glass of milk. I know why. My muscles need fuel.

Mattie must think we're up to something, because she gives us a distrustful look. I ignore her and take another big piece of chicken off the platter at the center of the table.

Momma smiles really big because I'm eating so good.

Poppa nods his head, clears his throat, and says, "Those two-year-old colts and fillies need to be broken to saddle and trained this summer. Carson is going to be busy helping me with the lower pastures. I want to clear out some river bottom land and plant bermuda grass down there. Should grow fine without irrigation, being so close to the river and all. That means you'll have to train the horses, Truman."

The good feelings I had been having stop. My stomach churns. Suddenly I don't want any more chicken. "Wha-a-at?" I stutter.

Poppa grins. "I want you to break the horses and train them. We'll take them to auction at the end of the summer and sell them for a good price."

"But, ummm, I don't know how to do all that," I manage to say.

Poppa looks at Momma. He grins, so I know he's up to something.

She shakes her head at Poppa and says, "Quit teasing him, my love. Tell him the rest."

Poppa chuckles and looks back at me. "I've hired a young man to come work with the two-year-olds. He'll be here Saturday. He'll do most of the training, but I want you to work with him. Be his helper. Do whatever he needs you to do, but also learn what he knows. You're good with animals, Truman, so this will be a new skill you can bring to the farm, once Monty teaches you."

"Monty?" I ask.

"Yes. Monty McDowell is his name."

I nod. My stomach isn't churning so much now. I like learning new things, and working with the horses is probably my favorite thing to do on the farm. This should be fun. I hope Monty McDowell is a good teacher, like Mr. Jacoby. I hope he likes me. I hope he doesn't mind a smart student who listens well and works hard.

Carson reaches over and spoons more green beans onto my plate. I smirk at him. Muscles!

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The next morning, I wake up in excruciating pain. I try to lift the heavy quilt off my body, but my arms refuse to cooperate. The muscles in my chest, shoulders, and arms are burning. Oh, my God, something is really, really wrong!

"Carson!" I shout. When he doesn't respond, I yell again. "CARSON!"

My bedroom door opens and Carson, dressed only in his underwear, sticks his head in my room. "What?"

"Carson. Something's bad wrong. My arms won't move, and they feel like they're on fire."

The alarm in his face disappears and is replaced by amusement. "Stay right there, little brother. I'll be right back."

He turns and walks out of my room, returning soon with a small tube. He lifts the quilt off my body and says, "Just stay still. This will help." He squeezes out a thick gel onto his hands and gently rubs it into my chest. Whatever it is, it makes my eyes sting. It feels hot on my skin wherever he spreads it around, and the heat gradually soaks down into my muscles. He squirts out more and rubs my shoulders and arms, which makes me grit my teeth and squeeze my eyes shut.

"What's wrong with me?" I ask.

Carson chuckles and helps me sit up. He rubs more ointment into my back while he explains. "Nothing's wrong, bro. I told you yesterday that lifting weights makes small tears in the muscles. Your body is letting you know with pain this morning. It will go away, but you'll be sore all day. We might have done too much yesterday, so we'll take it easy this afternoon when we work your legs."

"It didn't hurt this bad when that colt kicked me in the hip."

More chuckling. "It'll stop hurting soon. The liniment will help. And getting up and moving your arms will too."

He stands up and motions for me to get out of bed. I let out a small yelp when I try pushing off with my arms. "I'm not trying to be a wimp," I tell Carson, gritting my teeth.

"I know," he replies, very patiently. "Let me help." He takes my hands and pulls me to my feet, then turns and grabs my pants and holds them for me, while I slide my legs inside. He works them up my legs and even tucks my dick in for me. He pulls up the zipper and snaps the button.

I look at my shirt laying on the chair. I glance at Carson and grimace. He nods and picks up the shirt, holding it open for me to slide my arms inside.

"You're doing fine, Truman. Let's get you dressed and moving. Doing chores will get the blood flowing in your arms and make you feel better."

I tell myself over and over, `Don't complain. Don't be a wimp. Carson is helping you.'

And he is helping. When there are chores I can't do, he jumps in and helps me out. When we finish everything up, he helps me undress and get in the shower. The hot water feels incredible on my sore body. Carson even strips down and climbs in with me to shampoo my hair. My dick starts to get hard when I feel his man-cock brushing against my hip, but I turn sideways until it droops back down. I don't think Carson notices.

Toweled dry by my big brother, I don't feel like a little baby at all, because Carson is really amazing the entire time. He talks to me about how it will take a few months before I'll see results and where the first muscles will show up. Then he dries himself off and walks with me to my room.

"Can you dress yourself now?" he asks, in a concerned but not mean way.

"I think so."

"Call me if you need me."

"Okay."

We eat our usual big breakfast, then grab our lunches. Walking down the lane in front of our house, headed for the main highway where the bus picks us up, I shake my head in amazement. I can't believe everything Carson has done for me, but he's not finished.

Carson puts his arm across my shoulder and says, "Sometimes bullies fuck with you only because you let them."

Mattie glares at Carson because he said the f--- word, and none of us are supposed to say that.

Carson ignores her. He pulls me against his side and says, "Like on the bus. They take all the seats and play their little games because they know they can. But a guy who isn't a little bitch won't care about their stupid games. He'll let them know it doesn't work. You know what I mean?"

I nod. I guess I've been letting this go for a long time, giving the jerks a chance to fuck with me. I think I'm allowed to use the f--- word in my head, now that Carson said it out loud. That's really what they're doing. Just fucking with me. Trying to see what I'll let them do. Carson's right. They're only doing this because I let them.

Of course, knowing what they're doing and stopping them from doing it are two different things. I'm not sure I can stand up to them. I'm afraid I'll give up at the last minute and give in to their games. I don't want to be a wimp. Carson is showing me how to get big muscles, and starting this weekend, Monty McDowell will be teaching me to train horses. A big, muscular horse trainer isn't a wimp. He wouldn't put up with shit from the other guys.

We reach the highway just as the bus is screeching to a stop. Carson holds back. Mattie pushes ahead and gets on the bus, headed for her "reserved" back seat.

Carson gives me a nod and a grin, squeezes my shoulder one more time, and pushes me gently toward the bus.

I climb up the steps and look down the aisle. Yeah. Like always. Someone sitting in every seat, and they're looking at me, grinning or snarling. Ugly little space pirates.

I choose one seat and stand next to the kid sitting there. "Move over," I say, staring him down.

He seems surprised I'm even talking to him. He shakes his head. "I was saving this seat for someone," he mumbles.

"Yeah? Well, thanks. Thanks for saving it for ME. I'm here now, so move over."

He frowns and swings his legs into the aisle so that I can get around him and sit next to the window. That's fine by me. I plop down next to him, drop my backpack at my feet, and hold my lunch in my lap. I look up and see Carson grinning at me.

He moves down the aisle and points at one of the other space pirates. The kid squeaks and scoots across the aisle. Carson sits down, saving the spot next to him for Nancy Jo, who I can see standing at the road a mile down the way, waiting to be picked up next.

The bus rumbles into motion and heads off.

I look out the window and smile really big. Muscles. Horse trainer. Disintegrated space pirates.

 

The end of BROKEN, Chapter Three