Cody's Diary
By Joe Camp
Copyright 2002
Warning: The following story is a work of fiction. It is a fantasy.
It never happened, except in the author's imagination. This story contains
sex between a man and teen boy along with scenes of gay group sex. The
author does not encourage or condone sex between adults and children.
If you are underage, or this is illegal where you are, you already
know what your supposed to do. If this kind of story turns you off, find
something else. If you lied about your age in order to access this story,
remember this is only a story. Real life doesn't always work out like
a story.
Fiction and Real Life: This story is all fiction. The characters
in this story engage in unprotected sex. That's not real life if you
want to live to old age. The characters are a product of my imagination,
and can't catch anything unless I want them to. Any resemblance of characters
to an actual person is purely coincidental.
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that copyright.
In Part 1
"Thanks for having me, Tim. I hope I can come back the next time
you have a party."
"Your welcome anytime, Cody. Dusty knows I have a party every Saturday
night."
"Thanks, Tim."
I was a little surprised when he gave me a tender kiss on the cheek.
"Come on, Stud," Dusty exclaimed. "We're going to be late if you
don't start moving it."
Cody's Diary
Part 2
Cody was at the next 3 or 4 parties. I
of course enjoyed watching him play with the others. There would usually
be 10 or more guys in the 16 to 20 age group at the parties. Cody seemed
to prefer that age group. That's okay. At my parties everyone is free to play
with whomever they want. If anyone complains about it, they get shown the
front door. Yeah, several have been shown the door over the years when
they got possive over someone that didn't want them to be possive. Cody
was a pleasure to watch. Yeah Cody only played with an older guy one other
time at a party. Me once again
The next afternoon after that party, Cody was sitting on my porch waiting
when I got home from work.
"Hi, Tim,," Cody greeted me.
"Hey, Cody," I responded, "how's it going?"
"K," he answered. "I hope you don't mind my dropping by."
"No, I don't mind," I assured him as I unlocked the door.
Cody followed me into the kitchen and leaned against the counter watching
me as I started a pot of coffee. He didn't say anything. He just rested
there and watched me.
"I think there are probably some cokes left from last night, unless you
would rather have coffee," I offered. "Help yourself, they are in the
frig."
"Thanks," Cody responded.
Cody dug around in the refrigerator and found a drink.
He popped the top and sit down at the table. I poured a cup of coffee
and joined him. We just sat a moment as I waited for Cody to tell me what
was on his mind.
"I really had fun last night. Thanks."
"You're welcome." I told him. "you are a lot of fun to play with."
Cody grinned real big. He has the most tempting grin. I wanted to lean
across the table and kiss him.
He paused a moment as if he was making up his mind. "I can't stop thinking
about what we did last night. I'm so horny I can't stand it. Can we do
it again now?"
I looked at him a moment before answering. "Why me,
Cody? You know you are a very good looking guy. You can have your pick of
any guy you want. Guys you own age are falling all over themselves to
play with you at the parties. Why an old guy like me? Why me?"
"I don't trust the guys my age," he responded.
I was waiting for more. When he didn't continue I asked. "But why me? Why
not one of Dusty's friends? Or why not one of the younger men that were at
the party?"
Cody bowed his head and was quiet a full minute before
looking up and answering. "You see the way they all look at me? Do you
hear what they say? Telling each other they can't wait to fuck me? Looking
at me like I'm nothing but a slab of meat on the bed for their pleasure?
Do you see that? I don't want to fuck anyone I'm not in love with! I'm
not sure I will ever want anyone to fuck me!"
I could tell he was upset. I put my hand on his shoulder
and said in a soft voice. "Yes, but Cody, that is the kind of parties
they are. You are the best looking guy that comes, and of course everyone
wants you. Everyone including yourself comes here for the sex play."
Cody let out a long sigh. "I know, and I don't really
blame them. It is just sex for fun. It doesn't mean anything to them except
they got off. It's just that I have been getting those looks for as long
as I can remember. When I was little, I enjoyed the attention. Then when
I was 10 or 11, I figured out what those looks were. I used to look too
much like a girl and men with little kids holding their hands would look
at me like that. It makes me sick to think what the little kids must think
of me to see their dad looking at me like that! Even some of my friends'
dads do it to me. Gown men would try to have sex with me and I was just
a little kid. Even if they didn't try, I knew that was what they were thinking.
Then the girls! One girl I used to know when I was 13, invited me over to
her house. Her 'rents weren't home and she said she wanted to show me something
in her room. As soon as we got into her room she took off her shorts and
panties and lay on the bed with her legs spread wide open waiting for me
to stick it to her. It made me so sick I had to leave. I never know if someone
likes me for me or because they like the way I look and just want my body.
I get so horny and I want someone to hold me, but I don't know who I can
trust."
I put an arm around him and gave him a hug. "I'm sorry,
Cody. I guess I don't know what that would be like. I never had that problem."
"Why you?" Cody asked as a rhetorical question, "the
look I saw in your eyes that first night was different. I saw the same
thing as I saw from the others, but there was something else too. I saw
that you thought I was good looking. I saw you wanted my body But I saw
that even though you didn't know me, you cared about what I wanted. You
asked me what I wanted. Then you asked Dusty if I was ready. Even
that wasn't enough. You told me we could stop at any time and you wouldn't
be mad. Even last night you asked if I wouldn't rather play with one of the
younger guys. You held me and I felt safe. That is why you. I trust you
and I'm comfortable with you and you don't make me feel dirty."
I couldn't help but be full of tender feelings for Cody
as we moved to my bedroom. Yes, I have had wild hard man on man sex in my
life. I have known tender, loving sex. But that afternoon with Cody was one
of the most tender and fulfilling times of my life. Of course I was full
of lust as he undressed. He was proud of his body and enjoyed my enjoying
seeing it. But, he knew I cared.
Yes there was a tenderness I felt towards Cody as I
sucked him. I know he felt it too. It was a deep and meaningful climax for
him when at last his cum erupted into my mouth. Maybe it was just my imagination,
but the way David sucked my hard on into his mouth made me want to give
him my cum not for the sake of cumming but as a gift. There was a need inside
him. A need to have my dick in his mouth. When he cupped my balls it felt
as if he was making love to me. When my climax hit it was the most powerful
I had had in years.
"Cody......................... Oh........ Cody!"
It seemed to go on and on as I strained into Cody's mouth.
Bulldog came to the next party. He had gotten
his nickname from his football team mates, but it fit his looks. Bulldog had
the sweetest personality of anyone, but he had a face that was like the old
saying. "A face only a mother could love." No, he really wasn't that bad
looking but his looks did fit his nickname. He had the same face a bulldog
has. He was very good natured about it and had introduced himself to the
group using that name. Yeah, his build fit his nick name too. Bulldog is
almost 17 and a star tackle on the high school football team. We had never
played with each other, but I had watched him with some of the younger guys.
Bulldog had been coming to the parties off and on for about six months.
I was sitting in the living room watching Cody play
with Toby Johnson. Toby is 19 and on the football team at the college. I
guess it showed I was enjoying watching them. Bulldog sat down next to me
and watched too. It was plain he was watching only Cody.
"Cody is so beautiful," Bulldog sighed.
"Yes he is," I responded.
I was almost sure he and Cody had never played together. Or at least I
had never noticed them together.
"Why don't you ask Cody to play sometime," I off handily asked.
Bulldog gave a sigh. "Oh, I couldn't do that! Cody is so kind and thoughtful
of others that he would play with me just out of sympathy. I wouldn't want
him to do that when there are so many good looking guys he can play with."
"Bulldog," I earnestly told him, "don't put yourself down or sell yourself
short. You are a pretty nice guy yourself."
"Yeah, what's that old saying? Nice guys finish last?" Bulldog sighed.
I didn't know how to respond so I didn't.
It was a few days later that Cody dropped by the house.
"What do you think of Bulldog," I asked.
"I don't know," Cody responded, "he's all right I guess. Seems kind of
shy."
"Yeah," I told him, "he is, but he is worth getting to know. Why don't
you talk to him sometime, I think you would like him."
At the next party I saw Cody join Bulldog off in a
corner. They were just sitting on the couch talking. Two hours after the
party had started they were still dressed and still just sitting and talking.
Sure I have a tender spot too, so I was keeping an eye on them. I noticed
when Cody got on his knees in front of Bulldog and reached for his zipper.
I noticed the enchanted look on Bulldogs face as he helped Cody get his
pants down.
Bulldog's pants and underwear were around his ankles.
Cody spread Bulldog's knees apart and leaned in. Bulldog's dick was rock
hard as Cody placed a kiss on the swollen head. I made sure I had a good
view as Cody's tongue licked up the pre-cum Bulldog was leaking. I watched
as he placed a kiss on each of Bulldog's fat balls. Cody gave Bulldog's balls
a tongue bath before sucking one into his mouth. Bulldog gave a long satisfied
moan. Cody played with Bulldog's ball in his mouth for a while before turning
it loose. Cody's tongue laved every inch of Bulldog's dick. His tongue caressed
the glans. Cody was intense as he worked every pleasure point on Bulldogs
swollen cock head. The look on Bulldog's face said he was somewhere beyond
the rest of us.
Cody took Bulldog's cock into his mouth. Bulldog started
humping. I'm not sure Bulldog even realized he was fucking into Cody's mouth.
I think Bulldog was beyond knowing what was going on around him and going
on natural instincts. Cody's eyes showed a look I had only seen when he
was sucking me off. The look I had seen when I knew it was my dick he had
to have in his mouth. Now that look said it had to be Bulldog's dick and
no one else's. Bulldog tensed and his butt came off the couch as his shoulders
dug into the backrest.
"OhohOhohOhohOhohOhohOh...." Bulldog moaned in a wobbling cry.
I saw Cody's throat working as he swallowed over and
over never spilling a drop of the cum emptying from Bulldog's cock. Cody held
Bulldog's cock in his mouth as Bulldog recovered. I saw a smile cross Bulldog's
face and tenderness as he pet Cody's head. There was tenderness in the eyes
that saw only Cody as he reached down and lifted him up. There was a look
of reluctance on Cody's face as Bulldog's soft dick slipped from his mouth.
The look was replaced by a look of contentment as Bulldog held him in his
arms. I couldn't hear what they were whispering to each other but no, I wasn't
surprised when I saw them kiss. The kiss was a deep need fulfilling kiss.
I could tell Bulldog's tongue was inside Cody's mouth. At the same time Bulldog
slipped his hand down Cody's pants and was playing with his dick. There was
an urgency when they broke their kiss. Bulldog pulled his hand out of Cody's
pants and they were both rushing to get Cody's pants down.
Cody stood and his pants fell around his ankles. He
shoved his boxers down. The sight of his creamy alabaster butt is always
thrilling to me but Bulldog had eyes only for Cody's hard on. There was
a reverence on Bulldog's face as if he were worshiping Cody's dick. Bulldog
opened his mouth and Cody's dick disappeared inside as Bulldog closed his
lips around it. Bulldog's hands went to Cody's butt and he held each cheek
in a hand. Cody's hands were on Bulldog's head as he tenderly guided him
as Bulldog started working Cody's cock in and out of his mouth. Cody was
soon humping into Bulldog's mouth and all Bulldog could do was hold still
waiting for his reward. Cody had a driven look on his face. A look I knew
to mean he had to give his cum to Bulldog. It wasn't long before Cody's butt
muscles tensed.
"Oh, baby," Cody moaned. "Oh! I'm going to cum, baby! Oh.......
ugggggh!"
He strained into Bulldog's mouth as he delivered his
gift. Bulldog eagerly accepted what Cody offered. Cody's eyes were closed
and his head tossed back as he relaxed and pet Bulldog's head. The small smile
on his face showed he was pleased with the world. I don't know how long they
stayed like that. It had been so beautiful I felt a little guilty for having
watched. I got something to drink and wandered around visiting with the other
guests. When I got back to the living room they were gone.
Neither Cody or Bulldog was at the next two parties.
It was Sunday afternoon when they dropped by the house together. I invited
them in and we headed for the kitchen to get some drinks.
"We just wanted to say thank you, Tim," Cody told me.
Bulldog had his arm around Cody's waist and they looked so natural and
comfortable as they stood close together that way.
"For getting us together," Bulldog responded.
"I didn't do anything but suggest you guys talk," I reminded them.
Bulldog smiled over at Cody. "But I would never have had the nerve," he
told us. "When Cody first spoke to me I was so nervous I almost wet my pants."
Cody smiled at him. "You know I'm not into water sports."
Bulldog giggled as if they were sharing a private joke. Both boys turned
to me as one and stepped closer.
"We know what you have done for us and we want to thank you," Cody told
me.
Both boys leaned in and wrapped me in a hug. Of course
my arms went around them both. They each kissed me on the cheek so of course
I kissed them. We stood there a long while as we just hugged. No there wasn't
anything sexual about it and we were all close enough together that we would
have known if any of us got hard.
"Alvin and you are my two closest friends," Cody told me. "So far, Alvin
is the only person to see this," he informed me as he handed me a small
diary. "I want you to see it too so you know how much I appreciate you."
I hadn't known before that Bulldog's name was Alvin.
The boys turned to leave. "I'll leave it a few days," Cody told me, "but
please don't show it to anyone or tell them what's in it."
"Of course I won't do that," I promised Cody.
I opened the diary and started reading.
January 12, 1998
Dusty gave me this for my birthday today so I guess I have to write
something in it. He said it helps to write down stuff and how you feel about
things. I made him swear he wouldn't ever peek at what I might write. If
12 is supposed to be so mature, why does everyone still treat me like a little
kid?
May 10, 1998
Steve invited me over to his house today. His dad didn't
say anything but hi, but he was looking at me like that! I hate it
when men do that! Steve and the man's wife were sitting right there. I felt
like a slut. Why does everything have to be about sex?
July 17, 1998
I have started puberty. It scared me and I didn't like it when I woke up
and my underwear was wet and sticky. Dusty made me tell him what had happened
and he assured me it was normal just like they had told us in school. He
told me how to masturbate so I won't do that when I'm asleep.
August 3, 1998
Dusty said 95 percent of all guys masturbate. It feels so good when I do
it, but I feel so guilty for doing it afterwards. Maybe I'm supposed to
be one of the 5 percent?
April 10, 1999
Sherry invited me to her house. I didn't know her parents wouldn't be there
or I wouldn't have gone. She said she wanted to show me her CD's in her
bedroom. She lay down on her bed instead and took off her clothes. She opened
her legs and said let's do it. It was so gross. I ran outside and I thought
I was going to gag. I don't know how I'm going to ever face her again. Guys
are supposed to want that to happen. Does that mean I'm gay? I didn't think
John looked gross when I saw him naked. When I get sad and lonely it is John
I dream of having his arms around me. But John likes girls. That is all he
can ever talk about. I wish John would look at me like That!
December 2, 2001
I just found where I had hidden this so many years ago. I read it now and
think back to what a little kid I was then. I still get those looks but
now I don't let it bother me. I stopped feeling guilty about jacking off
a long time ago. Am I gay? I think so. At least I have never met a girl
I want to have sex with. I don't think I'm bisexual like Dusty. I have been
thinking a lot about sucking off a guy, ever since Dusty told me about the
parties he goes to. Dusty says it would probably gross me out because everyone
looks at everyone else with that look I hate. Maybe it will gross me out.
I don't know. I won't know until I try. I talked Dusty into letting me look
at the magazine he has of guys doing things. I had to jack off while looking
at it.
December 14, 2001
I just realized everything I have ever written here is about sex.
December 29, 2001
Dusty has promised to take me to the party on my 16th birthday. My birthday
is on Saturday this year. He said he would only take me if I promise to
do it with the old guy that gives the parties for my first time. Dusty said
he is the only one he would trust me with in case I change my mind after
we start. I don't know if I can do it with an old guy. Especially if he looks
at me like That! Dusty says when it is just for fun it doesn't matter
who you do it with or how old they are. I guess we will see.
January 12, 2002
Tim gave me my first blowjob tonight! Man is it ever a lot better than
jacking off. Once he touched me I forgot all about how old he is. I just
felt how good he made me feel. He did give me That look, but it was
different. When he looked at me that way, I didn't feel cheap and dirty.
I felt he wanted my body but that he also cared about me as a person and
about how I felt. I was afraid I wouldn't be able to suck off an old guy,
but I didn't even think about it. I was worried about what to do with his
cum. It didn't bother me at all to swallow it. Now I know. I'm gay.
February 23, 2002
I met someone tonight. Everyone calls him Bulldog but I like his real name
better. Alvin. I would draw hearts around his name but that would be too
girlish. To think I would never have talked to him if Tim hadn't told me
to! Alvin looked at me like That, but it was like a puppy dog look.
It was really cute. He was so shy that at first I thought he wasn't going
to say more than hi. Once we started talking I found myself telling Alvin
everything about myself and I wanted to know everything about him. I didn't
have to explain to Alvin about that look. He understood what I meant.
Just like with Tim I didn't feel dirty telling Alvin I was horny. Just like
with Tim I didn't feel dirty taking care of his needs. I hope Alvin likes
me half as much as I like him.
February 25, 2002
Alvin talked to me at school today. He asked me to go to the movie with
him tonight! He is picking me up at 6:45.
Alvin let me suck his cock after the movie. We drove out to the woods and
found a spot. I could suck on him forever. When it was my turn Alvin didn't
much more then get my dick into his mouth before I was shooting.
March 7. 2002
Alvin and I have been dating for almost 2 weeks now. We have sucked each
other at least once every day and still I want more. When I'm not with Alvin
I feel so lonely. I can't hardly stand it when he drops me off at home and
I have to go to my empty bed alone. I know I love Alvin. I'm sure he loves
me. I have decided I'm ready to be fucked. I was thinking I would ask Tim
to be the one but I'm going to ask Alvin tomorrow.
March 8, 2002
Alvin is afraid of hurting me. He wants to have sex with me but he has
never done it and is afraid he will do it wrong and hurt me. I had let him
read my diary and he suggested we ask Tim to do it with us so he can teach
us how to do it right. Alvin said he was okay with me doing it with Tim alone
and then teaching him, but I want Alvin to be with me my first time. Alvin
suggested I let Tim read my diary and then we decide. We are going to take
it to Tim tomorrow.
I closed the book all ready knowing what I was going
to do. The same as David had done for me when I first feel in love and wanted
to give myself to Joshua. I would be there to help them and give them all
the support and confidence they needed. A love like theirs doesn't need a
third party. Yes, I would be there for them and teach them how to make love
to each other, but I won't join in. Maybe some other time, but not their first
time together.
The End
Thanks for reading,
Joe Camp
copyright 2002
idc90@hotmail.com