Date: Sat, 1 Mar 2008 11:00:04 +0300 From: Jorge Grossao Subject: dear-grossao/i-dont-want-to-be-gay I DON'T WANT TO BE GAY by Jorge Alvarez Dear Grossao, I ran across your stories while trying to help a young man to change from gay to straight. I'm a former Navy seal officer and an evangelical minister. I, myself, had homosexual tendencies when I was young, especially regarding the father of this young man. But I found the right way and I'm helping others. Then I ran into you, Grossao. Juan is the name of this young man, who is in his late teens. His father, Manuel, asked me to help him. He caught Juan with another boy. So I took Juan with me to what I call a personal boot camp, just the two of us. I have developed a very effective way of correcting deviant sexual behavior, putting men back into the right path. So I take Juan up the Sierra, in cold weather, and make him run up and down the hills every day, swim in freezing water, carry heavy rocks and otherwise spend every waking minute busy, to keep his mind off this sexual obsession with men. I admire Juan's strength. He's a big boy, like his dad at his age. Manuel was also a Navy seal when I met him. Very muscular, with smooth white Latino skin, large brown eyes and a killer smile. I am myself black, a little bigger and stronger than Manuel and Juan, tall like a basketball player. Juan has, like his dad, incredibly powerful buttocks, very masculine. I used to long for those big round globes, but I learned to check my evil impulses. The first day, after all the hard work, Juan collapses when we lie down in our tent. We have just one sleeping bag to share, which makes sense in the freezing weather. We need to keep our bodies close to get warm. I watch Juan's beautiful face as he falls asleep. I think of the bright future ahead of him, with a pretty wife and happy kids. Then I notice that Juan is clutching some sheets of paper that he was starting to read when he fell asleep, a computer printout of stories he found online. Your erotic stories, Grossao. I take the papers without disturbing him and start to read. As I read your devilish plots of seduction, a strange heat takes over my body, a tingling sensation from head to toes. And sure enough, my cock starts to become engorged and soon I have a raging hardon. All that caused by your filthy words. You were describing how an older black man was aroused by the sight of a younger white boy's buttocks. And that's exactly the situation I find myself in. Juan has turned on his side, the top leg bended, offering me an exquisite view of his naked backside. I can't help but stare at the amazing shape of his ass, the spit image of his father's at his age... It all comes back to me, that night when Manuel and I shared a sleeping bag in boot camp, alone in our tent. The sight of those white, smooth buttocks... And the same raging hardon... Our warm embrace when he reached for me and pulled me against his hot body, me hugging him from behind... The way he gently guided my throbbing manhood to the entrance to his hungry hole... Manuel was not inexperienced, quite the opposite. He showed me that night all the wonders of male-to-male love. And secretly we became lovers. But that was before we found the right path, before we both got married, had kids and I became involved in gay-to-straight boot camps. And now here I am, because of you, Grossao, back to the old ways, horny for Manuel's boy, the strong and beautiful Juan, offering me his naked buttocks just like his father had. I am too ashamed to beg the Lord to help me. So I address my guardian angels, begging them to have mercy on me. "It's out of love that I am like this", I tell them. "It's an enormous tenderness for this beautiful boy that makes my dick so big... Please let me touch him, just once, and I promise I won't do him any harm, I just want to make love to him". And so, shaking all over, I rest my hands on his smooth thighs. He keeps snoring. My fingers seem to have a mind of their own, caressing the silky skin, sliding towards the gorgeous buttocks that heave softly with his deep breath. I promise my angels that I will take only a quick peek at the boy's anus and that will be it. So I squeeze my hands between his strong thighs and raise my fingers against the full cheeks of his round buns, opening them up. Then I see, in the amber light of our tent's lamp, the pink rosebud, in the center of a small crown of short, smooth hairs, clearly no longer virgin, just like his dad's, looking more like a little pussy than a proper boy's asshole. Manuel had told me how he had caught his son under a black boy, humping back to get a huge cock up his ass. Just like his dad at his age, he can't get enough. A real slut for big black dick. And I had promised Manuel that I was going to put his son back into the right path. But now, at the sight of the marvelous male pussy that opens and closes its sweet lips with the boy's gentle breathing, I make a deal with my angels. Just the head... Yes, let me place just the head of my dick on that wonderful ring of soft flesh, for a moment, and Ill lead a righteous life for the rest of my days. And so I lean closer to the sleeping boy, carefully hold his butt cheeks open with my hands and aim my raging hardon at his irresistible male pussy. Just when my hard glans touches the tender lips and a big drop of honey flows from the eye at the tip of my cock down the tiny mouth of his pucker, Juan gives a deep sigh and moves in his sleep. I almost fall on top of him, but manage to hold myself up. But I can't avoid the inevitable. The head of my cock slips inside the welcoming hole, and gets trapped in the squeeze of the tight male pussy. I fear above all to wake him up. What will Juan think if he finds me with my penis inside his anus? All my effort to change his ways would be for nothing. So I decide to let nature take its course, to take the path of least resistance, which in this case is to allow my big cock to gradually disappear inside his gorgeous ass. Juan sighs again. He is having some sort of sweet dream in which he moans softly. I lie by his side, my dick now deeply embedded in his body, and rest my face against the smooth back, smelling his delicious manly scent. I remember how his dad and I used to stay like that for hours, almost immobile, lying against each other, his ass barely moving, squeezing my cock with each breath, and only once in a while I would flex my hard meat, making him shudder... That's how I take the son, opening his young flesh, feeling at home in the firm embrace of my penis by his warm temple of male flesh. Waves of manly love flow uniting our bodies. I swear I can hear my angels singing. Hot currents of light surge up in my groins and I feel the amazing release of years of pent up lust, exploding through my cock and into his body. Even more wonderful, the sleeping boy reaches a powerful orgasm in perfect synch, his soft pussy squeezing my dick hard, draining the last jets of cum from my balls. I sleep with my cock still plunged in his hot ass, and I wake up several times during the night, again hard, and reach new multiple orgasms, always together with the snoring Juan. The next day nor he nor I say a word about what happened during the night. As the day goes on, I push him even harder, so he will be exhausted and will sleep even deeper at night. I can't wait to find my pleasure again between those lovely buttocks. And so at night in the tent, with my angels as my accomplices, I take Juan from behind in his sleep. But I start to notice that his sleep is not as sound as it seems. His snoring is uneven, and the way he moves his hips, humping back to meet my thrusts, makes me suspect that he is not entirely innocent. So after I fuck him, I pretend to be snoring in deep sleep. But my cock is still rock hard inside his ass. I feel that Juan is awaken, working his pussy on my cock. He moans like a bitch and talks to himself. "Fuck how I love your big black dick, man, I've never been so well fucked! I only wish you could own it that you love to fuck me and drop all that gay-to-straight shit. God what a fucker! I only wish you weren't sleeping and you could hear me just as I heard you when I pretended to be sleeping the whole time and you talked about how you fucked my dad and how my pussy is just like his. I only wish dad would get real too and own his desire for you, we could all be happy and our pussies too". I hear him and I shudder when I realize, Grossao, that Juan is right, we could be happy. But no, I can't allow myself to surrender to your filth! Please my angels, help me, I don't want to be gay! Suddenly I realize that I'm screaming, "I don't want to be gay", and at the same time I'm cumming like a bull deep inside Juan's ass. "Yes, fuck me", he yells, "cum in my pussy you big black stud... You're the man I want and now you are mine". Please Grossao, help me, my angels have left me and I don't know what to do. As I'm writing to you, Juan is sitting on my lap, slamming his pussy down on my hard dick. Fuck, I'm gonna cum, talk to you later. grossaoisback@hotmail.com