Date: Mon, 23 Mar 2009 19:37:12 -0700 (PDT)
From: Jacques Longshore <scamper10002@yahoo.com>
Subject: Gay Feelings Exposed / Chapter 5 / Part 1 / Installment 5

This a fictional story, based on a 100% true feeling.  I write this story,
in hopes that many males who read this -- can "finally" understand where
their "gay feelings" may have come from, and why they feel this way.  I do
this, in hopes that others can benefit from my thoughts, and figure out
what they are missing in life, and may be able to decide on how to fix
things.  From this, males may be able to better decide what to do about
their "ill feeling" -- so they can start living a better life.

This is Chapter Five, the fifth- of many more chapters, I plan on writing.
...

About 15 minutes later, and I conclude it is normal for boys Ted's age, to
ask an older male for this kind of information about sex.  Because no sex
was involved, I also figure it normal that I gave him the sexual
information he was asking for.

I walk back to the guest bedroom, and look inside.  I hear light snoring.
I smile, and walk back into the living room.

I think, "If I can only keep up the giving him `only' information ... I
think this will work."  Tomorrow is Sunday ... the day we go to Wakulla
Springs.  I have to remember to get the boys bathing suits.

I walk into my bedroom ... straight to my bed, and as soon as I pull back
the covers, I jump in bed ... and I fall fast asleep.

In the morning ... Ted and Tom are up at 7:00 am.  I hear them rustling
quietly in their room.  "They are probably doing brother things ... I'll
leave them alone."

I start to doze off ... and suddenly I feel two small bodies crawling on my
bed.

I look up, and see Ted and Tom coming towards me.

Ted says, "I told Tom what you told me last night ... and he tried it also
... and he said he had the best sleep last night."

"Oh ?" I pondered, and as I said that, I looked up and over at Tom.

"It felt great !" Tom looks back at me.

I lay back down ... and reply, "I am glad you liked it too."

I feel both boys crawl up the bed, and snuggle next to my sides -- so I
put my arms around each boy.

Ted asks, "Can we get under the covers with you ?"

I gulp ... and think, "I pull the covers up, and look under to see I went
to bed last night dressed in my underwear."

Ted smiles, and says, "Tom and I are only in our underwear too, so it will
be fair."

I smile, and think, "Now how did he know that ?"

I say to Ted and Tom, "I am in my underwear ... so if it doesn't offend you
guys ... I guess."

Ted replies, "No, that doesn't bother us.  I don't think Mom would mind
either."

So, Ted and Tom crawl under the covers, and snuggle with me.

As Ted and Tom snuggle their almost-nude bodies right next to mine, they
put their faces right in the nook between my arm and chest.  We are all
facing the ceiling,

I think, "OMG ... the feel of their bare skin on my bare skin feels so
nice.  It's almost erotic."

Tom moves his fingers, and places them on my stomach.  He slowly rubs them
through my chest hairs.

"Dad used to like me doing this for him," Ted says.

I close my eyes, and try to restrain the normal desire to want to ask him
to keep doing that, until I have an orgasm ...

But I quickly snap myself out of that thought, and start massaging my
fingers across his bare skin back.  This causes him to stop massaging me,
and I can hear him start to snore.

I think, "Whew ... That was close."

I am also doing the same "light finger-tip" massaging for Tom, and can also
feel him falling asleep.

Both boys are now cuddled in my arms, and we are all under the covers only
in our underwear ... and it is such a nice peaceful feeling.

"I would love to stay like this forever."

10 minutes later, Ted starts to stir ... and I look at him and say ... "Did
you guys want to go to Wakulla Springs today ?"

Ted rubs his eyes, and says, "Oh Yeah ... "

Ted dinks his brother in the arm, and says, "Get up, sleepy head."

Tom starts to stir ... and looks at Ted, and says, "I was having such a
good sleep."

I think, "Wow ... and he was sleeping with me ... and he `was having such a
good sleep.'"

Ted and Tom get out from under the covers, and Ted says, "Can we take a
shower ?"

I say back, "Sure."

Ted and Tom both start walking towards the bathroom, and pull down their
underwear on the way ... and walk naked into my bathroom.

I pick up their discarded underwear, and I can remember when I was younger
... wearing size 14 and 10 underwear.  Looking at their underwear, the size
14 has got Batman cartoons on it, and the size 10 has SpongeBob Square
Pants cartoons.  "Boy who would of thought of this ?" I wonder.

I ask through the door, "Did you guys bring extra underwear with you ?"

I can hear Ted answer back, "No."

So I take the underwear, and throw it along with some other things I need
washed ... into the washer.  I figure the boys would like to have some
clean underwear for the day.

I walk back to the kitchen, and start cleaning up from the night before.

My cell phone rings, and I look at the caller ID ... and it's Michelle.

"Hi Michelle."

"Hello.  I think you said you were taking the boys to Wakulla Springs today
?"

"Yeah, that was our plans."

"That's good.  I had one thing I wanted to talk with you about."

"Sure ... go ahead."

"I know that Ted is 12, and he is about to start puberty."

My mouth starts to go dry.  I start defensively thinking, "Did he already
tell her about my explaining to him how to have an orgasm ?"

Michelle continues, "The boys tell me each day, they come home, after
spending time with you ... that it seems strange ..."

I think, "Oh no ... here it comes."

"That it seems strange that they feel so comfortable with you.  That makes
me feel good.  I know it has only been a few days ... and if it were 2
years ago ... I'd be more cautious.  But, you seem like a nice man.  You
have a job, and you don't seem overtly obsessed with anything.  I don't
have an evidence that you are a bad person ... so I will give you the
benefit of the doubt, and presume you are the opposite."

I can not believe I am hearing what I am hearing.

"This is kind of hard ... but if you can ... I would like you to help them
through the tough times with growing up."

"You mean puberty ?"

"Yes ..."

"Ok Michelle. I will do my best."

"Ok, thank you.  I am not male, so I am not physically able to help them.
I can't explain about how it feels to be male."

I start to laugh.  "Michelle, I think I know what you are talking about."

"Ok ... thanks a lot."

"Thank you, Michelle.  We will be home later on in the evening."

"That's fine.  Make it a great day -- for all."

"OK, Goodbye."

"Goodbye."

I end the cell phone call ... and right as I do, Ted and Tom come running
naked out to me.

"Can you help us get dressed ?"

"Sure.  Let's go back to the bedroom."

"Can you carry me ?" Ted and Tom ask in unison.

I lean down, and put my arms around their backs ... and hoist them over my
shoulders.

They start laughing profusely.

I can feel their naked soft penises on the tops of my shoulders.  Both of
them feel to be about the same size.

I get to the back bedroom ... and put both boys on the floor.

I sit down on the bed ... and pull both boys, so they are standing facing
me.

Ted penis starts to extend itself out to 3 ½ inches.  Tom's penis starts to
erect itself to 3 inches.

"Boys," I start.  "Your mom would like me to help you with growing up.  She
said she was aware you both are about to enter puberty.  She felt I was the
man to help you guys with any questions you might have about what you are
feeling."

"So, with that said ... I will let you know what I can."

Ted starts, "Tom and I hear at school, where other older boys are talking
about making white stuff come out of their penises.  We both have no idea
what they are talking about."

"Ha ha ha ...  Yeah ... well, that is what you two will be able to produce,
when you get a bit older."

"Yeah ?"

"Yes.  As you get older, you will have weird feelings, and your penises may
start erecting when you don't want them too."

Tom blurts, "That happened to me today.  I was in 5th period.  As I got up
from my desk ... my penis kind of slid on the underpart of my table.  That
felt good ... but it also caused my penis to become hard."

"Well, Ted ... that's normal.  That would be very normal, if that happened
to you, too, Ted."

Ted says, "One of my friends came up to me today ... and wanted me to go to
the boys room with him.  I almost went with him, but Mrs Spencer told me to
sit down."

"Well, Ted ... what do you think he would of wanted ?"

"I don't know ... he has kinda been sexy with me recently.  You know, the
boy who has the blonde hair / brown eyes ?"

"Yeah, I know who you are talking about."

"Do you think I should go along with it ?"

"I think it is very normal for young pre\-teens, your age, to experiment
sexually with each other.  Yeah, if he does it again ... see what he
wants."

"OK"

"But what will I do ?"

"When it happens ... your feelings will know what do."

"Oh yeah ?"

"You'll be surprised."

"Hey Teddibro ... let's go get our swimsuits."

"Ok."

The boys trot on back to the guest room ...

I have started to fix myself some dinner ... but decide to make some extra
... just in case Michelle doesn't make to pick up the boys on time.

I look up, and see Ted coming out, and he looks sad.

"What's the matter," I ask.

"Tom and I don't have any swim suits."

"I bought some for you guys - when we were out.  There in the car," as I
flip the keys to him.

Ted looks at me confused ... catches the keys ... and walks out to the
garage.

Tom comes out, and says, "I forgot my bathing suit ... but I see you have
some.  Can I wear one of yours ?"

I chuckle and say, "No.  I don't think they'd fit.  I think they'd be a bit
too big."

Just then, Ted walks in with the bag from Marshall's ... and takes the
smaller of the suits out, and throws it to Tom.

"Oh wow !  Blue !" Tom exclaims.

"And I got a Red one," Ted says.

"I hope they fit."

"Mom must have told you our sizes."

I just smiled.

"Go on back, and change into them," I suggest.

Both boys run back to the guest room.  In about 30 seconds -- they appear
in the family room, proudly wearing their new swim suits.

"How do they feel ?  Too tight ?" I ask.

"No ... they fit perfectly," Tom says.

Ted looks at me, and knods his head in approval.

"Are you coming ?" both boys ask.

"Yes, give me a minute ... and I will get my suit on too." I reply.

I walk back to my bedroom, and leaving my door open, and quickly change
into a swimsuit.

I walk back to where Ted and Tom are waiting ... and say, "Ok guys
... let's go."

We all double-time it out the door -- to the elevator, and down to the
pool.

As we get to the pool, Ted walks to the diving board.  "Watch me, first."

As I walk to a chair, I place our towels down, and look up to watch Ted
jumping high off the board, and landing in a cannon-ball in the water.

Tom is next, and he dives off ... making very little of a splash.

Ted surfaces, but is immediately pulled back under by his brother.

So Ted and Tom water-play for a few minutes.

I go over to the deep end, and do a long high-jump from the side of the
pool.  Just as I hit the water, both boys surface ... but their faces
receive a rippling of water from my plunge.

As I surface, Ted and Tom both try to dunk me under the water.

I can't stand up where I surface, so their attempts of pushing me back
under the water don't go without some success.

I pull myself totally under the water -- below their grasp ... and swim
to the shallow end.  As I come up, I look behind to the deep end ... and
see Ted and Tom fast approaching.

Now that I am able to stand ... I rise out of the water, and walk to Ted
and Tom.

Seeing me approaching them ... they squeal, and start to return to the deep
end.

I quickly grab each boy by his arm ... and pull them back into the shallow
end, and into my arms.

The water causing slow movements for all ... I reach around them both, and
grasp my hands together.  Ted looks at Tom with a look of capture ... and
starts to reach his hands on my arms to push himself up and get away.  But
... I move my arms around them too quickly.

After I have firmly grasped each of the boy's wastes ... and tightened my
hug ... they squeal.  I hold them in that position for about 5 seconds
... and they looked all exhausted from the hold, and I finally let them go.
They both sank right into the water.

I laughed as they sank like two 89 pound barbell weights.

Ted comes up first ... and says, "Man, that felt so good.  I haven't been
hugged like that for years."

Tom comes up next ... and takes a water-swing at his brother ... and
swishes a bunch of water at both of us.

Ted swims around behind me, and grabs both my upper legs, and starts to
move from side -- to -- side, dodging the water his brother is
splashing at him.

I think to myself, "OMG ... Ted has his thumbs right on my legs ... if he
pushed both of them ¼ more of an inch, he'd be rubbing my ballsack."

Of course, I start getting an erection.  And boy, does it go up fast.
Though, because of the water covering my swiwsuit -- neither boy can see
it.

My mind is wrestling over whether I should stop the wrestling match between
Ted and Tom ... or should I allow the high emotional feeling (from Ted's
fingers so close to my ballsack) to continue.

Logic says, "Be grown-up, and say something to Ted."

But my body says, "Let him keep moving around ... and if he rubs his
fingers down there ... you can pretend the erotic touch was an `accident'."

The boys keep playing ... and I keep getting aroused -- more and more.

Then, all of a sudden, the erotic feeling of Ted's thumbs "right at my
ballsack" is too much ... and I shoot with such force -- that the cum
shoots through my bathing suit, and skips on top of the water, stopping
about 4 inches from Tom's face.

Tom sees this, and shoots backwards in the water -- towards the ladder.

Tom seeing the white stuff in the water, shouts, "What was that ?"

Startled, Ted releases his hold on my legs ... and looks around to see what
Tom was talking about.

Ted looks down in the water, right where Tom used to be, sees the white
stuff floating, and exclaims, "Ewww ... what did you do, Tom ?"

Tom answers back, "I didn't do anything."

I kept my mouth shut, as I come down from my euphoric feeling ... and the
boys go back to playing.  Though, Ted didn't put his hands back on the
backs of my legs.

Tom calls his brother over to the side of the pool -- where they again
start playing.

I start walking through the water -- very slowly.  My erection now
wilting back down to it's normal 2 inch unerected size.

I wade to the ladder, and slowly rise out of the water.  I walk over to one
of the lounge chairs, and slowly lay down.  I put my arm over my eyes, and
I immediately doze off.


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