Date: Mon, 20 Jul 2009 00:06:08 -0700 (PDT) From: Jacques Longshore Subject: Gay Feelings Exposed / Chapter 9 / Part 1 / Installment 9 This a fictional story, based on a 100% true feeling. I write this story, in hopes that many males who read this -- can "finally" understand where their "gay feelings" may have come from, and why they feel this way. I do this, in hopes that others can benefit from my thoughts, and figure out what they are missing in life, and may be able to decide on how to fix things. From this, males may be able to better decide what to do about their "ill feeling" -- so they can start living a better life. This is Chapter Nine, the ninth - of many more chapters, I plan on writing. The past eight chapters are based more on situations that could happen. From this chapter, and beyond, it becomes more of "the way I wish things were." ... Ted runs off to his apartment, and yells back, "Let's go swimming." I respond, "Sounds good. I'll get my bathing suit, and meet you down at the pool in about 10 minutes." Ted says, "Good," and his door closes. I walk to my apartment, undress ... quickly put on a swim suit and t-shirt ... and walking back out the door, think, "Show time." .................. Our jacuzzi is a new one, and has a black bottom. The water in it is chlorinated, but when looking at the water, it appears black -- but that is because you see the black bottom of the jacuzzi. About 10 minutes later, and I see Tom and Ted walking towards the pool area. "Hey guys ..." I say to the boys. "Hey J ... We can call you 'J' can't we ?" "Sure," I respond. Ted throws his towel on the lounge chair, takes one step ... and launches himself into the air. I see his jump ... and startled ... I quickly cup my arms to catch him. As he is flying through the air ... he sees me look at him, and smiles. He almost goes right past my arms ... but lands right in the middle of the hole I have made with my arms. I start out, "Ted ... are you ..." He finishes my sentence with, "I knew you'd catch me." I ask him, "What if I hadn't ?" "I didn't think about you not catching me. I knew you would." He had me stumped there ... so I smiled at him, and he gave me a sexy eye stare back. His gaze had me hypnotized. It must have been 10 seconds ... before I looked away. I quickly looked at his brother, Tom, who lazily had submerged all of himself, except his head. He had his head cocked back, eyes closed ... and was enjoying the bubbles and the sounds of the jacuzzi. With Ted on my left, and Tom on my right ... I slowly threw each one of my arms around each one of the boys. I set my head back on the jacuzzi, and closed my eyes. As I started to doze off ... I could feel Ted starting to rub his fingertips across the bare skin of my side. I thought, "The Dr said, 'Ted is not being sexy ..." ... Then I felt my my crotch start to fill with blood. I tried to readjust myself ... to get my erection to go back to its non-erect state, but it wasn't working. As Ted rubbed down the side of my ribs with his soft fingertips ... I hoped he wasn't trying to be sexy with me. I firmed up my left arm ... letting Ted know that I enjoyed the feel of his fingertips. Then he started me by rubbing his fingertips towards the middle of my stomach. My erection only got harder. My hormones had now taken control. With my erection harder than it has ever been ... and Ted's fingers getting ever so close to the top of my bathing suit ... I thought, "I hope he's not being sexy with me." Ted's fingertip rubbing has now gotten me so relaxed ... I don't even notice that wasn't rubbing my side anymore. He now started softly and slowly rubbing my stomach in a circular motion. Starting on the left side of my stomach ... he slowly goes higher, going down on the right of my stomach -- and then softly rubs his fingertips below my belly button. By now, I have lost all control of my better-senses ... and am totally entrapped by the feelings of Ted's fingertips. I make a small sigh -- which I hope is not too inappropriate for the situation. Ted continues his massage ... and whispers in my ear, "Do you like this ? 'Cause I love doing this for you. If you were doing this to me ... it would feel oh-so-good." Taking the hint ... I start slowly rubbing my fingertips over across his smooth shoulder. Tom startles both of us by saying, "I'm getting a little hot ... so I am going up to see Mom, and maybe watch some tv. You coming too, Ted ?" Ted answers, "I'll be up in a few minutes." Tom says, "OK." Tom grabs his towel ... waves to both of us ... and leaves. Ted goes back to his massaging my stomach .. and I go back to massaging his shoulder. After a few minutes, as I start to make larger circles with my massaging Tom's shoulder ... he stops circling his fingertips on my stomach. Ted says, "J ... let me see your hand." I give him my right hand, and he brings it down into the water. He places my hand over the crotch of his bathing suit. My hand touches the hard lump covered by his bathing suit. I look at Ted. Ted says, "Do you feel that ? I have no idea why that happens. Have you ever had one of those ?" I start to snicker ... and say, "Oh Ted ... that is a part of growing up. What you have," and as I say that, I spider my fingers over his erection, "is called an erection. You may have heard other boys at school talking about having a boner." As I say that, I squeeze my fingers around his erection -- letting him feel my fingers. I continue, "Can you feel how it feels hard like a bone ?" Ted responds, "Oh ... yes ... that feels so good ... please keep doing that." I start to get nervous ... but Ted reminds me, "Remember, this is a black-bottom jacuzzi." "Oh yeah," I respond. Not quite sure how to do this ... I feel Ted's fingers start to push down on my hand, which in turn, pushes down on his erection. He keeps that up for a few seconds ... and then, takes his hand away. I ask Ted, "How are you feeling ?" Ted responds, "Like I got to go pee." I say, "You don't actually need to pee ... but the urge actually is the beginning of a very very good feeling." All of a sudden, Ted starts humping my hand. I start to take it away, but Ted says, "No .. no ... keep it there !" As asked, I leave my hand on top of Ted's erection. I figure he is feeling the onset of a dry orgasm. As Ted continues humping my hand, the water starts to ripple very choppy. Ted exclaims, "Arrrggghhh !" His humping slows down to a stop ... and I can tell he just had a very intense dry orgasm. I ask Ted, "Have you ever had that before ?" Ted groggily responds, "No." I continue, "That, my boy, was your welcome into adulthood." Ted asks, "What do you mean ?" I respond, "When you were humping my hand ... your erection was having very good feelings, and after you do that long enough ... you have what is called an orgasm." "That was the bestest feeling I have ever had." "Yes, and every male can have those -- and just as intense. Usually boys your age have what is called a 'dry orgasm' in that nothing comes out. Though, in a few more years, when you have an orgasm, sperm will shoot out. I look over to Ted, and see his eyes closed ... and appears fast asleep. I hook my arm around him, and hug him into my side. I think to myself, "I could stay like this forever." I doze off, and hold Ted close to my side. A few minutes later, I am snapped back into reality ... open my eyes, and see Michelle looking directly at both me and Ted. "You guys look so cute together." "Thanks, Michelle." "I don't want to bother you guys, but can you let Ted know that dinner will be ready in about 15 minutes ?" "Sure." Michelle turns around, and heads back up the elevator. I look at Ted, and hug him closer to me. We spend a few more minutes, with me hugging Ted warmly. A few minutes later, and I wrap my left arm around Ted's back, and scoop my right arm under his legs. I lift him out of the jacuzzi, and cradle him out of the water. I grab our towels, and together, we walk towards the elevator -- me with Ted cradled -- fast asleep -- in my arms. As I get to the elevator, I look down at Ted -- who looks like an angel ... a sleeping angel. I start to wonder, "Will I be ready for any questions Ted may have about sex ?" "What if his brother gets interested ?" We walk to the elevator, with Ted cradled -- fast asleep - in my arms ... and we go up to our floor. I walk Ted to his condo ... and as soon as I get to the door, Michelle comes running out. "I have to go to work. They are having a problem with our network. Would you mind watching Tom and Ted ?" "Uhhh ... sure." "Thank you so much. I left some money on the table for dinner." Michelle leaves ... and I walk inside their condo. I go to put Ted, who is still asleep, on their couch. I walk back over to the table, grab the money ... and then call out to the back bedroom, where Tom is, "Tom, do you want to go over to my place ?" "Sure ... let me shut off the PS2." As he comes from the back bedroom ... I explain, "I still have some things to do back at my place, and figured you guys would like to stay with me." I go to the couch ... scoop Ted up with my arms ... and cradle him. I kiss him on the nose. Tom, Ted and I walk out their condo, and onto my place. We get there, unlock the door -- and walk inside. Ted is still asleep in my arms ... and Tom has run over, and popped-on the tv. I lay Ted down on the couch. Looking at my watch, it shows, "5:47 pm." "You guys interested in some pizza ?" Tom says, "Sure ... and I know Ted would love some pizza." Ted starts coming out of his sleep ... and says, "Did I hear someone say 'pizza' ?" I look at Ted, and say, "How long have you been awake ?" "Only since when you were talking to Mom." Ignoring that, I call the nearby pizza joint ... and order a large Pepperoni with Extra Cheese. By ordering the pizza, I purposefully got Ted to think I had forgotten about how he fooled me ... and I quickly walk over to the couch, and say, "You little snicker ..." and start to tickle him. "You will pay for that." Using all of my fingers ... I lightly poke each one in his ribs. I start moving all my fingers, and since they are on his ribs ... he starts in a fit of laughter. I sit down on him, using my weight as a leverage -- so he can't move ... and I continue tickling him. Ted says, "You better stop ! ..." And with that, he reaches around my bum and dinks me in the balls. I don't let that faze me ... but intensify my tickling him. He sees that he will not win this match ... so he pulls back his hand ... and attempts to prevent the inevitability of peeing in his pants. This goes on for another 5 minutes. Ted is entirely out of breathe ... so feeling I had won the tickle match ... I get off Ted -- leaving him all bundled up in the fetal position on the couch. No sooner than I turn around, Ted has wrapped his arms around my legs -- causing me to loose balance -- and fall to the floor. I look down at Ted, and see he has a devilish grin. After I fall, I reach around to where Ted is ... and continue my tickling his ribs. This time, I start with the intensity I had just finished him with. He immediately starts laughing ... oh but now ... his brother, Tom, gets in on the tickle match. Using my weight ... I steam-roll over both boys. This causes barrels of laughter from both boys. "Ding-dong ... ding-dong." "Oops ... guess the pizza is here." I get off the floor, and go answer the door. It is the pizza boy, and I gladly pay him for the pizza ... and give him a nice tip. I turn around with the pizza ... and notice that both boys are exhausted from our play, and lay motionless on the floor. "If you guys want some pizza ... you had better get off that floor ... and come to dinner." Both boys immediately jump up ... and go into the kitchen. I hear the water running, and presume they are washing their hands. Ted and Tom come out from inside the kitchen ... and say, "We washed our hands ... but we can't find any towels." I walk back into the kitchen, and show them the towels hanging on the refrigerator door. Next, we are all sitting around the coffee table, watching tv ... with only 2 slices of pizza left. After dinner ... I lay down on the lazy boy chair ... and recline it fully. Ted crawls onto my right of the chair with me. A few minutes later, Tom joins us ... crawling onto the right of the chair. I place my arms around both boys ... and hug them both. I can feel both of them melt into my hug. All of us watch tv together ... in that exact position on the lazy boy -- for the next 1.5 hours. Having my arms wrapped around both boys, at a commercial, I look at Ted -- who is again, fast asleep. I look over at Tom, who is also fast asleep. I go back to watching tv. Soon, I get tired too. Next thing I know, I am awoken by a whisper. I look at the tv ... and look around and see Michelle next to us. She whispers to me, "I wish I had my digital camera." She continues, "Don't let me bother you guys. I am just going to my room, and go to sleep." Tom sturs ... and groggily says, "I am going to go to bed too." Ted is still sleeping. Now that Tom has left his spot, it gives me a bit more space ... and I scooted over a bit -- to let Ted fall a bit more onto the chair. As I did, Ted also began to stur. I ask him, "Do you still want to watch tv ?" He rubs his eyes, and says, "Not really ... but I would like to do more of what we did earlier today." I roll my arm closer to me, which brings him closer in contact on my body. "Are you sure you want to explore these feelings ?" Ted doesn't answer ... but gets up, and takes off his shirt, and lays back down next to me. I rub my bare arm on his bare arm ... and rub my hand on the bare skin of his back. "Hmmm .... that feels so good." I keep lightly rubbing his back with my figertips. Ted starts to rub over my shirt with his fingertips. I reach up, to dim the light in the room. As I do, Ted moves his hand on the bare skin of my stomach, and starts to lightly rub his fingers over and around my belly-button. Ted looks up at me, smiles ... grabs the hand on his back ... and moves it around his crotch. He spiders my hand over his erection. I feel it get hard ... and when I try to move my hand away ... he starts humping my hand. A few more seconds go by, with him doing this ... and all of a sudden, he starts pumping my hand with his erection -- and after a few more humps, he stops. "J ... that felt so so good." "Yeah ... you remember what I said that was ?" "A dry orgasm. ... I can't wait until I can shoot sperms." Ted goes back to finger-tip massaging my belly-button. I close my eyes, as it feels very good. I think to myself, "Ted is not being sexy with me .. he is just learning about the feelings he is having." The next thing I know ... Ted has his hand down below the wasteband of my swim suit, and is rubbing the rubbing the tops of my short pubic hairs. "J, when will I have these ?" Coming out of a hypnotic trance ... I respond, "In about 2 -- 3 years. Some boys get them when they start puberty ... and other boys get them after they have been in puberty for a few years. There is no timetable for when you will get pubic hairs. It will happen, though. I don't think there is a boy, who hasn't gone through it." Running out of appropriate things to say, I stop -- to let Ted digest what information I have given him. Though, Ted continues, "You said, 'It happens to all boys ... I mean the organism thing." I correct him, "Orgasm." "Yeah. Does that mean you can do it too ?" "Yes, silly. It happens to me too." "How long have you been able to do it ?" "Oh, for about the past 5 years." Ted asks very nervously, "Can I do it for you ?" Before I could get, "No," out of mouth ... Ted has wrapped his fingers around my erection ... and has started a very good massage. Again, my hormones have taken over ... and I let Ted continue his ministrations. Ted has put me into an emotional land I have never dreamed ever existed. His fingers have wrapped themselves into a perfect grip around my erection. He is expertly massaging my erection with an up-and-down rhythm. I think to myself, "He is learning. He is learning." I let him continue his quest. In a few minutes, I start to feel my erection thicken. I let Ted know that I am about to cum ... and he says, "Good." A few seconds later, on one of his upstrokes ... my first shot flies 7 inches, and lands in my chest hair. I throw my head back, close my eyes ... and can feel a second shot land just above my belly. The rest of my orgasm results in my sperms oozing down Ted's hand. Ted says, "That was the coolest thing I have ever seen." He wipes his hand on my bathing suit, puts his head down on my stomach, and I start to fall soundly asleep.