He Dove Into My Heart
****Caution, this story involves love and sex between consenting males of different ages. It also contains diaper wearing and use in a sometimes fetish nature. If this does not suit you well, then please feel free to leave now. I by no means ask that you stop reading if you care to read it though, I care not if you are nine or ninety nine, that is your choice and yours alone. This story does not involve any abuse, it is a very loving story, and is light on the sex, although there is plenty of that. If all you are looking for is a quick jerk, then this may not be your choice. If however you are looking for a true loves tale, then please read on. I would love to hear from you to hear your thoughts on this story, if you would like to contact me, do so at erich5748 @ ymail.com. Thanks for reading, I hope you enjoy.****
James had gone to the local pool this evening to sit and relax in the hot tub there, since his at home had broke down, and he was too sore to not go. And although he hated going there, feeling more than a little self conscious of his body, he did enjoy the sights that he could see. Tonight there were a few, not many, but that too was good, because then he could concentrate on the ones that were there. There were a few really cute little guys there, but the one that really caught his eye this evening was a beautiful brown haired boy of at best thirteen. His hair was of course darker being wet, but it was probably a light brown when dry he figured, it was cut just a little long, and he envisioned that he wore it in a shaggy fashion, just letting it play all over his head and his smooth face. He had very beautiful brown eyes, something he noticed when the young man walked passed him a few times. His chest was developing nicely, and his tummy still had a little of the puppy fat left, but looked as if it were melting away quickly. Sadly, he wore shorts that were far too long and bulky to be at all attractive, but when he sat down on the pools edge and leaned back, he did have a rather enticing lump inside, showing that he had promising attributes, and when he bent over, his assets were very intriguing.
For over half an hour James watched the young man from the hot tub as he mostly played in the water, but then the diving board cleared up, there had been a bunch of younger boys playing on it, so he had not bothered to go there then. Once it was clear, he hopped out of the pool and went and got up on the board and prepared to do a dive, and then ran and did so. For almost twenty minutes James sat there enraptured by the stunning young man showing off on the board for him, although he had no idea who he was really showing off to tonight, just that he was. Finally he had had enough and headed toward the hot tub.
Oddly enough, at least to James, was that the young man sat within arms reach of him, even though there was not another person in the entire thirty or so capacity hot tub. James looked to him as he sat down and smiled, and the boy smiled back and leaned back, sighing as he did so.
“I noticed you up on the board, you do very well.” James said softly to the young man, surprising himself with his boldness.
“Thanks. I don't get to practice a lot, but I enjoy diving, it's relaxing.” He said softly.
“If you enjoy it so much, then you should train to dive, you could do very well at it. Although, I daresay you're doing well enough on your own. Granted, a couple of those dives looked as if they hurt, the one you pulled out too soon and the other too late.”
“I'd love to, but I can't. It sounds like you know a bit about diving though.”
“Yeah, I used to dive, many years and pounds ago. Once, long ago, I was a gorgeous young thing like you and had a body to die for, now I have this old wreck of a thing, hideous as it is.”
“I don't think you're hideous, and you're not that old. Heck, you're younger than my parents are, and they're in their forties I think.”
“No, I'm only thirty four, you'll have to excuse my piss poor attitude toward myself, a stupid youth has left my body less than what I wish it was. Thanks though, I hate coming here, because most look at me like I'm a whale, but my hot tub broke down, so I had no choice if I wanted to soothe my sore back and knees.”
“What do you mean a stupid youth? Were you stupid as a kid, or did some kid hurt you?”
“No, I was stupid. I've done a lot of stupid things in the past that I now regret, because they've left me nearly broken, and feeling far older than I truly am.”
“So, did you used to dive or something then?”
“Yes, amongst other things. I was a promising diver and gymnast, but a skiing accident when I was eighteen ended all that. I killed one knee, wrecked the other, damaged my back, and even managed to collapse both my lungs.”
“Ouch, that had to hurt.”
“Not as much as two years later once I was finally all fixed up and healthy again, to find that I now weighed nearly two hundred pounds more than I did two years previously, and that with that weight came a couple other health problems. But you don't really want to talk to me about my problems. Why can't you go into diving?”
“Actually, getting to talk to someone is nice. So few people will talk to me, especially my parents.” He said sadly.
“Why not?” James asked in shock.
“Because they hate me, I was a mistake that should've never happened, a mistake they've regretted ever since the day they found out they were pregnant. That's the reason I can't go into diving, they pay for nothing. To come here just to play around I usually sneak in or save up the money to come.” He said softly, tearing up slightly from admitting it.
“Well, I for one would be proud to call you my son, but sadly, having children isn't in the cards for me.”
“Why, are you gay or something, or just can't have kids?” The boy asked curiously.
“That's probably not something that I should discuss with you, since you're a stranger and all.” James said softly.
“Oh, I understand. I'll leave you alone now.”
“No, please don't misunderstand me, I enjoy the company, I talk to so few people, and those who do talk to me only do so to get something from me, it's nice to just talk to a friendly person for once. It's not that I want you to leave me alone, far from it in fact, it's more that discussing sexuality with a boy of probably thirteen isn't exactly looked upon favorably these days.”
“Oh, are you sure?”
“Of course I am. So, was I correct with your age, are you thirteen then?”
“Just turned three weeks ago actually.” He smiled sadly.
“I take it from that look that a big thirteenth birthday party was not had by you, and that it was nothing special?” James asked softly.
“No, I didn't even get a gift again, I've never received a gift. My parents pretend that we're Jehovah's Witnesses just so that they don't have to worry about giving me gifts and stuff, saying that that sort of behavior is against our religion. Yeah right, I might believe that if they stepped foot in any sort of church more than once in their lives.”
“That's truly sad, I'm sorry that you have to live like that. So many kids like you though exist, and it's heart wrenching to say the least. I do what I can, but sadly it seems like so little.”
“What do you do to help kids?”
“Whatever I can, but mostly donate money and items to the needy, time at the local soup kitchens to help feed those who need it whenever I can, and things like that. I do what I can, but sadly it's not really much.”
“Maybe not to you, but to someone who's needed help before, it's huge. You do way more than most do. Even my teachers at school just turn a blind eye to me. I never have new or clean clothes, they never fit, I get twenty dollars once a month to go to the thrift store to buy clothes, and I do what I can with it, but it's not a lot.”
“I realize that I do more than most, which is even more sad really, but still, there's so much more I wish I could. Sadly though, no one would allow me to do more than I do, because of what I am.”
“What are you?” The boy whispered.
“I'm gay. As soon as most people find that out, they refuse to let me help out the kids, to work directly with them. No one says anything to my face, but I know they don't feel comfortable around me. You're free to go now too, most do.” James said softly.
“I'd never leave someone just because of that. To tell you the truth, I think I am as well.” The boy said softly.
“I admit I suspected it. Thanks for sticking around though kid, it's been nice to talk to you. I hate to say it though, but I have to get out, before I turn even more hideous than I already am.”
“You shouldn't say that about yourself. You're a very nice guy, and even if maybe your body's not perfect, it's not that bad.” He said softly.
“That's very nice of you to say, I appreciate it, even if I don't entirely believe it.” James smiled warmly.
“What, it's the truth. You're not exactly small, but you look cuddly, you're definitely not ugly, especially on the inside where it really counts.”
“Thanks.” James said, actually blushing in the hot water.
“Could I go with you somewhere, I'd like to stay talking for a bit?” The boy asked softly.
“I'd love nothing more than that, but before I say yes, there's something I should tell you, so that you don't freak out if you accidentally find out.”
“Well, a couple things really. First is that I have to wear diapers permanently due to a failed bladder, and second is that I'm what's known as a boy lover. It's really tough admitting that, either thing, you're the first person I've ever told in person, but I think you need to know.”
“Boy lover, as in you like boys like me in a sexual way?”
“Yes and no. Yes I love to dream about boys, but I'd never actually do anything of that nature with a boy, for to do so would be to hurt him, and I love boys far too much to ever do that to them. No, I'll do almost anything within my power to help them, to nurture them and to protect them, but never anything sexual.”
“And what if a boy wanted that?”
“Then he'd just have to wait 'til he's legal or when he found someone his own age.”
“Oh. By the way, what's your name?”
“I'm James, how about you?”
“It's good to meet you Nathan.” James smiled warmly.
“Likewise. You know, if you hate the way you look so much, why not exercise and lose some weight?”
“It's not quite that easy really, and I have actually lost weight, almost sixty pounds in the last year. For me though, due to a chemical imbalance, as well as a sleep breathing problem that I have, it's very difficult to maintain the energy I need to exercise regularly. I'm on medication for the chemical imbalance and I sleep with a machine that actually pumps air into my nasal cavities to keep them open so that I can breath properly as I sleep, and I'm getting better, but it's taking so long. Almost a year already in fact. I knew it wasn't gonna be instantaneous, but a little faster would be nice.”
“Wow, all that on top of everything else, no wonder you're depressed, and I thought I was bad.”
“Yeah, it's been a really hard past sixteen years I tell you. Anyway, let's get out of this hot tub before we both turn into raisins.”
“Okay. Where should we go after this though?”
“You still want to go somewhere?”
“Sure. I like you.” Nathan smiled genuinely.
“Thanks, I like you too. I'll treat you to a hot chocolate and doughnut if you'd like though.”
“Are you trying to bribe me?” Nathan teased.
“Nah, just tempt you into spending more time with me. I like your company.” James smiled warmly, and for the first time in a long time, he meant it too, and it had little to do with the fact that Nathan really was beautiful, both inside and out.
“You don't have to buy anything for that. It would be nice though, can't tell you the last time I had a doughnut.”
“Then let's go.” James smiled and hopped out of the tub and headed toward the change rooms. He grabbed his things from his locker and went into a private stall to change into his diaper and clothes, and when he was ready, he headed out to the main area to wait for Nathan, who was already ready and waiting for him. He could see that Nathan's comment about clothes had not been far from the truth, they really did not look at all new, or good for that matter.
“Where do you live and what time are you supposed to be home?” James asked.
“I just live a few blocks from here, in the trailer park actually, and it doesn't matter when I get home. No one 'll be home anyway, almost no matter when I get there, and as long as I make no noise, they never say a word. Last year I actually ran away for four days, but then went back home, they never said a thing, I doubt they even realized I was gone.” Nathan said nonchalantly.
“That's really quite sad, you know that right.”
“Yeah, I know, it's certainly not normal, but whatever, I learned and accepted a long time ago that I don't have parents, I have birth devices, nothing more, nothing less. I'll use them for as long as I can to get what I need to survive, but I expect nothing more. More than likely the day I turn sixteen and they don't have to legally care for me any more, I'll be told to get lost, because the social worker told them that just not wanting kids wasn't a valid reason to ask for me to be fostered out, at least that's what they told me when I asked them why they kept me around. Not really sure why they didn't just put me up for adoption to tell you the truth, or for that matter just abort the pregnancy altogether, although I did learn that by the time they found out they were pregnant, it was too late for that. Don't take me wrong, I'm glad they didn't, but I do wonder. Maybe some day I'll even ask them.”
“Well, I'm glad that they didn't either, and I'm glad that you seem to have adjusted well with all that. It's still so sad though, and sick too really. Well, let's head out, I walked here, and the closest place is only a five minute walk, so I think we'll be fine.”
“If I go anywhere at all, I walk, so I'm used to it.”
The two of them headed out to the nearest place to get what they were looking for, and James went to grab what they both wanted, while Nathan went and found a table. He found one that was furthest away from anyone else, not that that was difficult at that time of the evening, there were only three other people there at all. James came and sat down, and they both started on their treat.
“So, where do you live then?” Nathan asked.
“Only a few minutes walk from here, over on Maple street.”
“Oh, nice area, all the houses there are huge and expensive looking. What do you do for a living then if you get to live there?” Nathan asked curiously.
“A little of this and a little of that really, but mostly I write.”
“Really, as in books and stuff?”
“Yeah, but I doubt you'd have read anything I write. I'm what's known as a cynicist, so I write mostly conspiracy type novels and stuff like that. I've done the occasional murder mystery though.”
“Wicked, I actually love those types of stories. What's your pen name, because I don't recall a James on any of the books I've read or seen?”
“You would've if you'd seen mine, but as my last name, I actually switched them around.”
“Wait, you're not Bryan James are you?”
“Actually, that's the one, heard of my books have you?” James asked in shock, almost no kids read his stuff, they were usually very dark and mysterious.
“I've only read every book you've ever written. I knew you lived somewhere near here, but not that you lived here. No wonder you can afford to live there, you have twenty four books in print already, and the librarian said your newest should be out in a month or so.”
“Three weeks now actually, I just received the release dates today.”
“Wow, that's so awesome. Why would you have to come to a public pool, you must have the biggest and best there is?”
“I wasn't lying earlier when I said my hot tub was broken. The heater unit went on it, and I swear it's cooling the water instead, it was bloody cold when I went to climb in it this morning.”
“Ouch, that had to have been a shock.” Nathan giggled.
“Um yeah, you could say that. Let's just say all the boy parts that are normally on the outside retreated inside rather quickly. It's my own damn fault though for not realizing there was no steam when I lifted the lid.” James laughed as well.
“I'll bet you just looked like a girl alright. I trust someone's coming to fix it for you soon?”
“Yeah, should be there tomorrow some time, hopefully. So what made you read the types of books I write, they're not exactly geared towards your age group?” James asked curiously.
“Not too sure actually. I just remember a few years ago finding one of your books at the library and thinking the title sounded interesting, so I grabbed it and read it. I couldn't put it down, and ended up staying up all night long, I didn't even sleep at all and had to go to school dead tired, but I finished it in one night. I went back and looked for anything else by the same author, and I've read each one at least twice now.”
“You sound a lot like me. I can take a book and read it in one night as well if it's really good. In fact, I've even written a book in twenty four straight hours, just a hair over actually, but I didn't go to sleep at all, and that's one of my best sellers.”
“Oh, Murder at Midnight, definitely my favorite too.”
“Yeah, it's sold quite well, that's for sure. Enough about me, what about you, except your parents, I don't care to hear any more about them?”
“Not much to tell really. I go to school, avoid as many of the kids who bully me as I can, I spend almost all my free time in the library reading or at the pool swimming and diving when I can.”
“Oh, that's not much. How do you do in school?”
“Pretty good actually. I get all A's, I've never failed a test, and all the kids hate me for it. I try and stay as invisible as possible though, the teachers almost never call on me, because I hardly let them see me even, because the last thing I want is to go to the front of the class again and get teased and called dirty names by the other kids.”
“Why would they do that though? I mean, you're very good looking, you're smart, and you're easy to talk to.” James asked in amazement.
“Thanks, I guess, but I don't normally talk to people like I've been able to do with you. I guess it's because it feels like we have so much in common. If anyone else thinks I'm good looking, they certainly don't tell me, instead they call me all sorts of names, trailer trash being the kindest of the names they call out.”
“Oh, I can understand that, I was teased as a kid too, just not as bad as it sounds as if you have it. What else do they call you?”
“Baby Nate, gay boy, freak, poor kid, moneyless gay baby freak, you name it, I've probably been called it. Kids just aren't very nice to others.”
“No, that's for sure. How do they know you're gay, and why would they call you a baby?”
“Not sure how they know, I've certainly never told another soul 'til I told you today. I guess they just figured they'd call me that, and it just stuck, because I neither conformed or denied it. As for baby, well now that's for a good reason. I used to pee my pants a lot as a kid, and even though my last pants wetting accident at school was almost three years ago, kids never forget, and they remind me of that, usually daily. Even when we transferred to middle school, the names followed and I was ostracized at the new school totally by the end of the first day, no one, and I mean no one has ever said anything nice to me, let me sit anywhere near them, let me join in and do anything at all. No, if I got a chance to do so, I'd leave there in a heartbeat and start new somewhere else, but as you know, my parents are totally oblivious to my monumental discomfort, and when I asked to be transferred, they told me to shut the fuck up and stop my babyish whining. So, I get it at home too. Most kids at least have their parents to go to, but I don't.”
“I understand fully. My pants wetting accidents started at the age of fifteen, when my bladder started failing, and I got teased for that. When I went to the doctor though and he told me what was happening and what to do about it, I told the others that it was a medical problem, but it didn't matter. I poured myself fully into gymnastics and diving, trying to work out my frustration, and then I went skiing with my cousin and left the hill in a helicopter to get to the hospital.”
“Wow, what happened to your bladder, and you really wear diapers for it?”
“Yeah, I really truly do. It's as simple as my bladder started failing, to the point that eventually it just failed totally, and now I have no control at all.”
“Doesn't that suck though, having to wear diapers?”
“Not really. I got used to it a long time ago, and really, no one ever notices. I saw you checking me out when we left the pool to see if you could see them, and I don't think you could tell, even though you really tried to see.”
“No, I couldn't tell at all.”
“That's because I wear a diaper shirt and looser fitting clothing that helps to conceal it far more than you'd suspect. I've never had anyone notice, ever.”
“That's good at least. I'm surprised though that someone hasn't found out somehow and blabbed it to the papers.”
“I'm not exactly famous or anything. I've never even been interviewed before, nor have I done a tour.”
“Well, I think your books are the greatest.”
“Thanks, that means a lot to me. So, what's your favorite subject at school?”
“Math and creative writing I guess are tied for first place. I dream of being a writer one day too.”
“Then one day you'll be a writer to be sure. I assume you'll do books similar to mine then?”
“Not necessarily, I'll just write whatever strikes my fancy at whatever time. I like so many different subjects, so I'd write about almost anything.”
“That's good, I wouldn't want you as competition, you'd probably bankrupt me.” James teased.
“Yeah right, like that'd happen.” Nathan blushed.
“You never know. You know, the first book I wrote I thought sucked, but a friend offered to read it to see how it was, I told him to be brutally honest with me, and two days later, he said he couldn't put it down, he told me that he had found me someone to publish it, that it was amazing. I called him a liar to his face, and that there was no way it was good enough to be published. A week later I had my first meeting, and they accepted me instantly. I couldn't believe it, and it was my first one, and it wasn't even perfected yet. They helped me to perfect it, and the rest as they say is history. Do you want to know when that was?”
“You were seventeen when you were first published.”
“Oh, you knew that?”
“Yeah, I know everything about you, at least what was published anyway.”
“Oh. Well, after my accident, I was pretty much laid out for two years, I had very little real mobility, so I wrote six books in that time alone, and as you know, I gained a lot of weight too, but I made a shit load of money. I bought my house as my twentieth birthday gift to myself, and have lived there in solidarity ever since. You know, I've never even had a visitor, except repair people.”
“Then I'd love to be your first visitor. Why don't you have any friends?”
“Part of my cynicism more than likely I suppose, because I don't really like getting too close to people. I've been betrayed by too many friends in the past, and that was before I had money. No, money does bad things to people, and I've never really trusted anyone. I don't know why I'm telling you all this to tell you the truth, I almost never talk this much with anyone either, but like you, for some reason I trust you, we seem to be a lot alike.”
“I'm glad that you trust me, and I understand about money making people do bad things. I for one don't really care one way or the other about money. Money can't buy what's important, but I guess it does make some things a lot easier.”
“Easier sometimes yes, more a pain in the ass others more often than not though.”
“I believe it.” Nathan laughed.
“Well, as much as I'd love to stay and talk to you all night Nathan, I really should be going soon, because I don't normally stay up too late, and it's actually nearing my bed time.”
“Oh, that's too bad. I just started summer break, is there any chance that I can come and visit you tomorrow?”
“I don't know Nathan.” James said softly, fearfully.
“When will I ever see you again though, I want to sit and talk to you more?”
“I don't know.”
“Come on, tell me what house is yours, or I'll just go door to door and ring every one 'til you answer. There's only like twelve houses on that entire long road, so it won't be hard to track you down.” Nathan said softly.
“Okay, I'm the last one on the right.”
“Wow, that's the biggest and nicest place, as big as a golf course and all.”
“Yeah. That's the one. To tell you the truth, I've thought of selling it and finding a smaller and less conspicuous place, somewhere there's less maintenance and work.”
“I can understand that. How many people do you have working for you there?”
“Just three, and only part time. I don't like a lot of people around, so I do most of the work there myself.”
“Then maybe you should move.”
“I probably should. I bought it all those years ago, because I thought I should have the big huge house and be all rich and snooty, but it isn't me. I don't think I've ever used more than five or six rooms in the entire place.”
“That you're definitely not. You don't even look rich to tell you the truth, you dress the same as my dad does, kinda like a slob to tell you the truth.” Nathan chuckled.
“That's the point. I don't drive a big flashy car, I don't dress and act rich. Only my house shows it at all, and I hate it. I should walk you home, it's starting to get dark out.”
“You don't have to, I'll be fine. I stay out late most nights and have walked home in the winter when it's far darker than it is now.”
“No, I probably don't have to, and I understand that, but I'd feel real bad if something happened to you and I could've prevented it. I'd rather you not become just another statistic, thanks.”
“I appreciate it.” Nathan smiled warmly.
They put their things where they belonged, and then headed out. They headed in the opposite direction to James' house, and toward the lesser nice portion of town, but at least it was still nice, the trailer park at least being a higher end version and not run down at all. As they walked, they talked a lot more, mostly just getting to know each other better, and when they arrived, they said goodnight to each other, that they would see each other the following day. James then headed home for the night and had a spring in his step all the way home, he had met an amazing boy, so much like him it was scary, and he did not think he was hideous, like most did, at least in his mind they did.
When James got home, instead of going to bed like he should have, he did some research. Out of laziness and being in a rut, he had not done what he had known for a long time that he should do, move. He searched for more than an hour to find the house he liked on the real estate web site and finally found one that he liked the looks of. Finally he headed to bed, but he was still wide awake, and with a problem that he so rarely had. He ended up having to jack off three times in a row in order to go to sleep.
Nathan had went straight to bed himself, and he too could not sleep. He had suspected for a long time that he was gay, had even somewhat admitted it to himself, but never before had he met someone that made him feel the way he did now. He never felt that it would be an adult that he fell for, but fell he surely did. When he tried to go to sleep, he had a problem that he had to take care of first, and ended up having to jack off three times in a row to take care of it.
The following morning, as soon as Nathan woke up, he got dressed and headed out right away, hoping that James would be up and that they could spend the day together. He made it to James' house a short while later and walked up the long drive, heading toward the large front doors of the mansion. When he rang the doorbell, he could hear the ringing all throughout the house and was amazed that anyone could like such a thing. But then James answered the door.
“Good morning Nathan, but please don't ever ring that infernal thing again, just knock, it annoys the hell outta me.” James smiled brightly as soon as he saw Nathan.
“Gee, I can't understand why that would be, I thought it sounded retarded. Good morning though, I hope I'm not too early.”
“No, not at all, I've been up for almost an hour already. You'll have to excuse the fact that I'm still in my robe though.”
“No worries, it's your house, and if you wanted to just go around in your diaper, that'd be fine with me, you should be able to relax in your own house.” Nathan said with a hint of a blush.
“Thanks, but no.” James said, wondering if Nathan had meant that he wanted to see him in just his diaper.
“This sure is some house, I've only ever seen it from the road. It's huge.”
“Yeah, it is, fourteen bedrooms, sixteen bathrooms, restaurant sized kitchen, banquet sized dining room, theatre, games hall, and I hate it. I found a new house last night though after we talked, I'm gonna go buy it today I think.”
“Really, where is it?”
“Just down the road from your house actually, and no, that wasn't my plan, it just happened to be the nicest for what I was looking for. It's got four bedrooms and bathrooms, nice size kitchen, living and dining rooms, and it still has a nice big in ground pool and hot tub. It was the only one I found that actually did have, and I wanted them right away. That's the main reason why I chose that one.”
“Yeah, and it's already empty, so I can move pretty much right away I think, if everything goes through quickly. What would you like to do today?”
“Do you have a diving board for your pool?”
“Sure do, both low and high, and a fourteen foot deep end to go with it.” James smiled.
“Wicked, could I try it out some time today?”
“I don't see any reason why not, but maybe later once it gets nicer out. It's still pretty cool out yet, and I haven't even had breakfast yet. Have you?”
“No, I came straight here. I'm not exactly used to getting breakfast either, I don't normally get any, except sometimes at school.”
“Oh, then come on, let's go get some breakfast then.” James said and led the way to the kitchen.
“Wow, this is a huge kitchen.” Nathan gasped when they entered it.
“Yeah, I'll give you the tour later if you'd like.”
“Nah, not really, just the rooms that you like to use 'll be just fine. Like you, I don't really like houses like this so much. To tell you the truth, when I read about you, after reading all your books, you didn't strike me as the type of person who'd live somewhere like this either.”
“Even when I bought it, I never really thought I'd ever want to live anywhere like this, it was an impulse buy. I hadn't even looked at it, my Realtor just said here's one in your price range with everything you wanted, I took a look at a few of the pictures and said yeah sure, why not.”
“Wow, what kinda price range did you set the Realtor at?” Nathan laughed.
“No more than five million.”
“Yikes, he musta went right to your max to make his paycheck real good.”
“I'm sure he did. It only took like a month before I realized how big this place really was and how much it wasn't me. I've just put up with it ever since, just because I was too lazy to do anything about it. Now I'm in a rut and last night talking to you kicked me out of it and I decided to move.”
“Glad I was able to help.” Nathan smiled warmly.
“Me too. So, what would you like for breakfast?”
“Whatever you're having is fine by me.” Nathan said.
“Okay, but you get to help make it. Are you any good with a knife?”
“Fair I guess.” Nathan smiled, happy to help.
For the next half an hour they worked side by side in the kitchen, making a huge fattening breakfast, and then they sat down to eat it at the small table that James had set up in the kitchen for his meals, he never used the formal dining area.
“That was really good, but man I ate too much. Do you eat like this every day?”
“Yeah.” James said.
“I don't mean to insult you, but don't you think that if you really want to lose weight that you'd eat something not so fattening every day?” Nathan asked softly.
“Yeah, I suppose, but I just love that so much, I can't help it.”
“Do you really want to lose more weight?”
“Yes, I want to get back below two hundred again. I used to be one eighty with lots of muscle, I'd love to get back to that again.”
“Why don't you hire yourself a personal trainer to come and help you?”
“Once again, I don't like a lot of people around me.”
“Then let me be your personal trainer, and you can teach me what you know about diving?” Nathan asked hopefully.
“I don't know Nathan. Too many people know that I'm gay, if you spend too much time with me, some may start asking questions, and I think you're old enough to understand what I mean.”
“Yeah, I do, but you don't let anyone near you anyway, so no one really knows you at all right? Well, who's to say we're not related and I'm just spending time with my uncle or something. And besides, if we don't do anything, no one can say anything.” Nathan pointed out, but secretly thinking that he would like nothing more.
“I'll think about it, okay.”
“Okay, but I think we could help each other out a lot. This new place you're gonna buy, what kinda pool does it have?”
“Almost as big as the one I have now. The ad says that it was used by a swim and dive trainer, but that it was no longer needed, so it's perfect for you.” James smiled warmly.
“Wicked, thanks. Is it private though?”
“Pretty private I guess. The pool has a pool house with smoked glass. Why?”
“Just wondering is all.”
“Are the shorts you were wearing last night all you have for swimming and diving, and did you bring them with you today as well?”
“Yes and yes, they're in the bag I dropped by the door.”
“They're not really all that appropriate for swimming and diving in if you want to do well though. They're too baggy and restrictive to move properly.”
“Yeah, any time I've had a dive fail on me, it's because the shorts got tangled in my legs, at least normally.”
“That's the problem with them. What you need are a good pair of Speedos if you want to dive and swim properly.”
“Yeah, I know, but I've never found any at the thrift store, and I would've been too embarrassed to wear them in the public pool anyway.”
“Know how you feel, but I got used to it. My gymnast outfit really wasn't any better either mind you, they sorta show all you have to offer, leaving very little to the imagination. I still wear a gymnast outfit pretty much every day, only now as a diaper shirt. I started doing that back when I was still in gymnastics and had to start wearing diapers. Now that was embarrassing, because I tell you, when you're only wearing one of those outfits, a diaper really shows up.”
“I bet, but it looks like they hide them well under clothes too.”
“That they do. Had it not been for my love of gymnastics, I would've quit, but I just couldn't, not 'til I was forced to that is. I still miss it, but even when I do get back into shape, I won't be able to do any of it any more, my knees and back just won't take it any more.”
“That's too bad. Would you teach me gymnastics as well?”
“We'll see. You certainly have the right body type for it, small and strong. I noticed last night that you're already forming a nice six pack, and your arms are pretty well toned as well.”
“Thanks. I get a lot of exercise running from bullies, but otherwise almost nothing else. I'm not actually that strong.”
“You sure look it, at least with your shirt off.”
“Thanks. Have you thought about it yet, can we help each other out?”
“No, I haven't thought about it yet.” James smiled.
“I'm gonna keep pestering you 'til you say yes, you know that right!” Nathan grinned.
“I had a feeling you were gonna say something like that.” James laughed.
“Then come on, give in, we can help each other out so much.”
“Let me just think about it okay Nathan, I'm not exactly used to all this remember. I haven't really talked to anyone like this in so long, and like I said before, I've never had guests over, I'm sorta anti social.”
“Me too, but that's perfect, we can be anti social together and learn a lot from each other. You can even teach me more about writing if you want, I'd really like it, and you can teach me lots.”
“Have you written anything yet?”
“A few short stories.”
“Then next time you come over, bring them with you and I'll read them and grade them pretty much, I'll tell you everything I can to make you a better writer. I'm not really a teacher though, and to tell you the truth, I pay people a lot of money to do the editing crap, because I kinda suck at it. I'll do what I can though.”
“I'd really appreciate it. So, what should we do today then?” Nathan asked curiously.
“No idea. I should probably go and get more supplies and groceries though, so you wanna spend the day with me shopping, and I should call a realtor and ask about buying the house.”
“Sure, why not. Doing anything with you is bound to be at least a million times better than what I would've been doing otherwise.”
“I'm sure it will be, and I'd be happy to have the company.” James smiled.
“You know, you have a very nice smile.” Nathan said softly.
“Thanks. No one's ever told me that before, but you have a very nice smile too, so bright. It's amazing you can still smile and act so happy considering the life you've led. It's very good though.”
“Thanks. I'm as happy as I can be, knowing that I was nothing more than a mistake that my parents hate, because I don't let it get to me. Like I said before, I realized a long time ago and work to make myself happy, be damned with them.”
“You're very smart and confident, I wish I had some of your confidence.”
“Yeah, for a famous writer, you don't seem to have much self esteem at all, do you?” Nathan said pointedly.
“No, it came with twenty years of abuse I guess. Even still now, it feels like the same thing would happen if I let it, let someone too close. It was my best friend in the world when I was fourteen that crushed me most of all though.”
“He found out I was gay, or more accurately I told him what I suspected. He called me so many dirty names, and told me I was no friend of his. As he left the house, he told me I was dead to him, and the next day at school, he told everyone, even told them I was a bed wetter and everything. He had at least kept that secret 'til then, but not after. Every time I saw him for the next month I burst into tears. I tried asking him how he could be so cruel, but he just pretended that he didn't hear me at all. After that, I poured myself so fully into diving and gymnastics that I nearly crashed from exhaustion. My coach realized what was happening and stopped me and we talked. I never told him why my friend left me and started bullying me, but I think he guessed, and of course all the other teasing came out then as well. It was then that I swore to never let anyone close again, because friends hurt too much. The only person I could remotely call a friend was the same cousin I went skiing with, and he died shortly after that trip. He was home on leave from the military, he was a helicopter pilot, a few years older than me obviously, and his chopper was hit and all aboard were killed. I was devastated. He was the last real friend I had, he never treated me any different because I was gay or wore diapers, he said I was still the same person I always was. I sure didn't feel like it though.”
“Wow, and here I thought I had it bad.” Nathan said softly.
“Yeah, and sad but true, I've heard stories far worse than both of ours, in some cases both. I know I'm depressed, but I just can't seem to snap out of it. My doctor wanted to put me on pills for it, but I refused, I hate taking medications as it is, and I already have to take too much just to stay alive as it is, what with my chemical imbalance and asthma too, I feel some days like a walking pharmacy.”
“Wow, asthma too, when did you get that?”
“That as well as eczema I was born with, but I learned when I was young how to control it fairly effectively, but I take twice daily a steroid inhaler to help manage it, and the skin problem I just have to stay away from those things that I'm allergic to.”
“Yikes, I guess I'm lucky that way, I don't think I have any medical issues.”
“Be thankful of that, and be careful, don't be stupid like I was. There were a few years there, pretty much after fourteen to the time I almost killed myself that I was just doing anything and everything for a thrill, I didn't care if it was dangerous or bad for me. I dove off cliffs into shallow water, by myself, I went mountain climbing by myself, I did river rafting by myself, I did everything I could think of all by myself. That in itself was utterly stupid, you should never do anything like that by yourself. Even when I was skiing, the entire reason I almost killed myself was because I was trying to do stupid things that were way beyond my meager skills. I guess I was trying to hurt the bad feelings out of myself, well it didn't work.”
“You know, you probably should have gone to see a psychiatrist or someone, it sounds to me as if you were trying to kill yourself, but didn't have the guts to actually do it.” Nathan pointed out quite smartly.
“And you'd be one
hundred percent correct. I wondered if you'd catch that. I wanted
to die, so bad I wanted to, but I couldn't do it in the normal way, I
wanted it to look like a bad accident or something, to save my
parents the grief. Yeah, that worked. They died only shortly after
my cousin did, they were the last of my family, so I literally have
no one else. My cousin lived with us after his dad died, his mom had
died giving birth to him, and he was the one to get my first book
published. I loved him so much, mostly because he accepted me for
who I was. I was so sad the day he told me he was leaving for
training, that was only a few months after my book was released, and
he told me not to be sad if he died, because he would have died doing
what he knew was right to help those who were innocent. I don't know
if he knew he was going to die there or not, but he wasn't afraid of
it happening. Just another reason why letting people get close to me
is so hard, those who I did love all died.” James said,
actually shedding a couple tears now.
“Oh James, I'm so sorry. I wish I could've known you back then, I'd have helped you out, I'd have let you know you weren't alone, I wouldn't have left you like that, and I won't now. Of course I can't say I won't die, but like your cousin, I'm not afraid of it happening, I know it will eventually, I just hope it's not too soon.” Nathan said softly and went and hugged James tenderly.
“Thanks Nathan, you really are a very nice person.” James smiled, wiping away a few stray tears. He had not talked about any of this in so long, and it hurt to say it all, but it felt good too to get it out.
“Thanks, no more so than you are though. You're the first person in I don't know how long to actually talk to me like a person. My teachers talk to me as if I'm a poor little soul that needs pity, my parents talk to me like I'm trash, and the kids at school talk to me like I'm disease ridden. From the moment we started talking I knew we were gonna be friends forever, I just felt it, and I feel it more so now.” Nathan smiled brightly.
“Know how you feel, only my parents did love and want me, although they did have a hard time with my sexuality, only they never bothered me about it. I too felt that connection, it just feels like we should be friends, like we were meant to be somehow. I don't honestly know how I got the courage up to talk to you there, I certainly wouldn't have normally.”
“It was the same with me though, the entire hot tub was empty, I could've sat on the opposite side as you, I didn't have to sit right next to you and hope you'd talk to me, but I did, I just had a feeling about you, I wanted you to talk to me. I almost said the first words, but you beat me to it.” Nathan smiled warmly once again.
“Well, should we head out then and get the shopping done first, or should I call the Realtor first?”
“Call the Realtor first, that way you can get that over with, because it'll take longer.”
“Good thinking.” James smiled, and went and grabbed the phone book.
It took no more than fifteen minutes for James to call and talk to a Realtor, arrange to come and pay for the house, and make all the arrangements. So, before too long, James and Nathan were headed out.
“You know, for being rich, you sure don't drive a fancy car. I mean, even my dad drives a car about the same as this.” Nathan smiled.
“I'm not a flashy kinda guy, normally, and I don't like those big gas guzzling cars and SUV's, I prefer my small sensible cheap to run Hybrid car. In the entire five years I've owned this car, I probably haven't spent as much in total with all the gas and maintenance as I would have spent on just the car alone if I'd have bought a real expensive one.”
“Well, I for one am glad. There's too many of those big gas guzzling cars on the road as it is, and I like this car.” Nathan smiled genuinely.
A few minutes later they were at their first stop of the day.
“I'll ask that you stay in the car for this one, I doubt you want to come in to buy diapers with me.”
“You're right, I don't think I really want to do that.” Nathan blushed a little.
“Be right back.” James said and headed in.
He went to the incontinence section and grabbed the diapers he liked, they were thick and soft, comfortable, and most importantly very thirsty. And then he thought why not, and just because he thought Nathan might eventually want to try them, he grabbed one in his size as well. He then grabbed a new container of diaper rash cream and a few new packs of wipes. He also grabbed a new tube of lube, because he was running out of that too. He went and paid for his things and the lady bagged it all up for him and he left, stashing it all in the trunk of the car, Nathan not even paying attention at all to what he bought.
“Man, that must be embarrassing to have to buy diapers, I don't think I could do it.” Nathan said once James had climbed back in.
“I had to get used to it at a young age. Even my mom hated buying them, and more often than not, she sent me in to get them, since it was my problem, so I had to get used to it. You'd get used to it as well if you had to, but I wouldn't make you go buy them 'til you were more comfortable with the idea of wearing them in the first place. Really though, in a medical supply place such as this, they sell so many diapers to everyone that they don't even pay attention to it. That's why I come here, well one of the reasons anyway. They're the only place that carries the really good diapers.”
“I have no doubts my parents would never go to buy me diapers, but you would if I needed them, wouldn't you?”
“Are you asking me to buy them for you or asking if I'd buy them for you if you needed them?” James asked softly.
“Asking if you'd buy them for me if I needed them.” Nathan answered too quickly, blushing a fair bit, and James had his definitive answer.
“That's what I thought. If ever you need them, you come see me and I'll get you all set up.” James said softly, purposely keeping his eyes straight and on the road to avoid embarrassing Nathan further.
A few minutes later they were at the local mall and they headed in to look around for a bit.
“Now Nathan, would you like for me to buy you a Speedo for swimming? I'd buy you one, as long as you understand that I won't just buy you anything you ask for, first of all it's not good, and I really shouldn't buy you things at all, and I think you know the reason for it as well.”
“I understand, and you don't have to buy me anything, not even a Speedo, thanks though.”
“Well, you should at the very least have one of them for swimming and diving. Your shorts look pretty good and relatively new, but they won't last long if you swim a lot, and like you already know, they really aren't good for diving.”
“I know, but I don't want you to spend money on me.”
“Just this once, we'll buy you a couple things that you need, okay.” James said softly.
“If you insist, but you don't really have to.” Nathan smiled warmly.
They headed to a sports supply store and went to their swim suit section. They were probably the only place in town that carried such things, and even then their selection was relatively small. James asked which color, and Nathan said you pick, so James did, and he picked out a really nice royal blue with a red stripe on each leg. Next to that rack was also a display for gymnastics one piece outfits, so James grabbed one of them in Nathan's size, also in the same colors. Nathan was about to protest, but James just shook his head. They looked around the mall for the next hour, until it was almost time for them to go see the Realtor.
“Hello James, it's good to meet you. So you want to buy the divers paradise house that I have for sale on Bentley place?” The realtor asked.
“When would you like to see it?”
“I don't. I don't care about the viewing or the inspection, I just like the house, location and the pool most of all. I have no doubts it's in good condition, and if there's something wrong, I'll get it fixed, no worries. I'll write the check out right now, or if you take debit or credit cards, and your machines will accept that amount, I can do it that way as well.”
“What, really? You could put that much through on your credit card, the house is over five hundred and fifty thousand dollars?” The Realtor asked, nearly swallowing his tongue.
“Quite easily actually, I just may have to call my bank to have them put it through. If a check is easier though, I know it'll go no problem.” James said nonchalantly. Nathan just sat there passively, knowing that James was that rich, and more, but not caring about the money.
“Wow. We don't have a debit machine here, so check will do just fine. I trust you must have a lawyer to deal with all the legal work for you?”
“Nah, don't want or need one, but I'll get everything taken care of if anything needs to be done.”
“That won't be necessary, we can have our lawyers do all the required work if you'd like, you just have to pay him, but he's right in this office. We'll have to sign the offer papers right now though, so that the owners can accept or decline, and once I get all their stuff, then it can be done. If you can come back in an hour or two, we might be able to get it all taken care of right away.”
“Shouldn't be a problem. We have to go grocery shopping anyway, so we'll be a couple hours. I understand the house is empty, so would it be ready to move in right away once we have it?”
“I'll ask, but I
don't see any reason why not. When were you wanting to
“Tomorrow, next day, whenever, doesn't much matter.” James shrugged.
“Are you just moving to the area then?”
“Nah, just don't like my house and I want to change. Once I'm moved, maybe I'll call you to arrange it's sale. It's on Maple street.”
“You're moving from Maple street, and you don't like your house?” The Realtor asked, recognizing the most upscale neighborhood in the entire city.
“Yeah, it's too big and not really my style. I bought it when I was young and stupid, but I'm neither now.”
“I can actually understand that. Especially if it's just the two of you.”
“Yeah, too much house, not enough people.” James confirmed, but keeping the truth veiled.
It was only a few minutes later that they had everything that they could do right away printed and signed, and not even half an hour after entering, James and Nathan were headed out again. They headed to a local grocer in their area to get their grocery shopping taken care of.
“So, what all do we need from here?” Nathan asked as they entered.
“Not much actually,
but we'll go up and down the aisles to make sure I get everything I
need for the next week or two.”
“Okay.” Nathan said, so they started.
“Why are you buying so much junk food and pop?” Nathan asked.
“Because I like it.” James answered.
“Come on, put it back. You want to lose weight, well I'm gonna help you. None of that, okay.” Nathan said softly.
“I haven't even agreed to you being my personal trainer.” James laughed, but he did put it away.
“Doesn't matter, I'll still help you out whenever I see something like that, to help guide you in the right direction.” Nathan smiled warmly.
“Thanks.” James answered softly.
They went through the entire store, Nathan often grunting whenever James went to pick up something unhealthy, he never said anything, just a quick grunt, and James put it back, a couple times chuckling. The cart was half full by the time they were done, but there was not one bit of junk food in there when they hit the checkouts, and James could not remember the last time he did not at least have a little something extra.
“There you go, now all you have to do is get rid of all the junk food at home and you'll be all set. If you want something sweet, have an apple or some other fruit, and don't add any extra sugar.” Nathan smiled approvingly as they were heading to the car.
“Thanks.” James smiled.
“So, where to next then?” Nathan asked.
“Back to the house to put this stuff all away.” James said as they were putting all the groceries into the back seat of the car.
They got to the house a few minutes later, and Nathan took a couple bags from the back seat, while James grabbed the diapers from the trunk and took them right up to his room. He then went and helped Nathan to grab the rest of the groceries, and then they put them away. James excused himself to go change his diaper, and Nathan headed to the bathroom to go pee himself, because he was bursting to go.
“Would you like to go out for lunch?” James asked once they met back in the kitchen?”
“No, we can have lunch here.” Nathan answered, heading to the fridge.
Once there, Nathan grabbed everything to make a nice big salad for each of them. James had to laugh, because he was doing everything on his own. A few minutes later and Nathan had everything all done and they sat down to eat.
“I can't say's I've ever had just a salad for a meal before, but man was it ever big.” James said, actually quite full.
“But you should have, lots, and not because you want to lose weight either. It's about all I ever eat, salads and other fruits and veggies, because my parents say meat's expensive and I'm not allowed to eat much of it. You'll get used to it though, don't worry.”
“I know, but I so love the junk food.” James sighed.
“I'll help you out, don't worry.”
“Thanks Nathan. No one's ever wanted to help me out before, it's nice.”
“Well, same here. You're helping me, so I'll help you, easy.”
“Easy for you to say. I'm just gonna help you dive better and maybe do gymnastics, you're gonna help me lose weight, eat better, and be happier.”
“You'll help me be happier too. I'm not exactly miserable, but nor am I truly happy.” Nathan smiled warmly.
“You still have the harder end of the deal.”
“Well, should we head back to the Realtors office now?”
“Sure, let's just clean this up real quick, then we can go.”
They headed out a few minutes later and were there just as the Realtor was getting off the phone with the owners. When he saw them, he smiled and gestured them into his office.
“Well, they accepted, but I knew they would, they're dropping off the keys in half an hour and signing the last of the papers. The lawyer here is available and you can go see him next to sign all the papers if you'd like, and then we'll just take your check. Obviously the sale isn't finalized 'til the check's cleared, but that normally only takes a day or two, and then I'll call you to come pick up the keys. However, if you'd like, I can take you over there right away and show you the place.”
“You'll find that the check will be cleared by tomorrow, no worries there at all, but sure, we'd love to go see the place.” James smiled.
“Excellent. Let's take care of all the nasty business first, and then we can head over there.” He smiled, this had officially been the easiest sale of his life.
They were gone half an hour later once again, following the Realtor to the new house. He unlocked the door and told James and Nathan to go ahead and look around, and that he would just stay in the car.
“Wow, it's quite the nice house, isn't it?” Nathan said after looking around for a few minutes.
“Yeah, surprisingly so. I like it, it's nice and homey, nice and warm. Want to go check out the pool now?”
“For sure.” Nathan said happily, so they headed out there.
“Wow, nice pool.” They both said as they got out there.
“It's so big.” Nathan said.
“Yeah, surprisingly so actually, it's about the same size as the pool house I already have.”
“I haven't seen yours yet, but I like this, and there's lots of room to put some more exercise equipment around.”
“Yeah, there is. That's not something I already have though, so if you think we need it, then we'll have to go buy it.”
“I'll help you pick that out. Let's take a look at the rest of the place now.” Nathan said excitedly, and they looked around for almost half an hour. When they exited the house, the Realtor came up to them.
“So, what do you think?”
“It's really nice, I'm glad we bought it.” James said happily.
“Lots of people have looked at it, but it's quite pricey, and very large, easily the largest in the area, on the largest property too, so there've been no offers, and the owners have had it on the market for more than three months.”
“Why are they getting rid of it, it's a great house?”
“The husband built it because he was a diver, as well as a dive instructor, but a few years ago had a bad diving accident and is in a wheelchair now. The house doesn't really lend itself well to a person in a wheelchair, and while he still needs and wants a pool, he wants a smaller house, which they've already found and moved into.”
“That's too bad. I can see why they'd have to move though, there's only like two rooms downstairs he'd have had any access to at all, well that and the pool.”
“Exactly, and for almost three years he's lived in those two rooms, almost totally segregated from the rest of the family.”
“I'm glad that they were able to get a place that was more suitable then.”
“And they're glad that this place sold, they desperately needed the money, they had to use all their savings to buy the new place.”
“Glad to help out.” James smiled.
“Glad to help you as well.”
“Yes, well thanks very much, I'll be waiting for your call tomorrow to come pick up the keys then.”
“As soon as I have word, I'll call.”
They headed out a few minutes later once all the pleasantries were done with, and James and Nathan headed back to the other house for the rest of the day.
“Can we go swimming now?” Nathan asked once they made it there.
“Sure, I guess so. The hot tub won't be fixed yet, so you'll just have to make do with the pool for now.”
“That's okay with me.” Nathan smiled.
“Oh, there's a note on the door.” James said when they walked up, because James had not bothered to park in the garage, because he would take Nathan home later.
“Who's it from?” Nathan asked curiously after James pulled the note off to read it.
“It's from my pool guy, he says the heating unit just blew a fuse and that he replaced it and that it was heating up and should be ready by tomorrow morning some time. He also says he checked all the levels for me and that everything is good for now, but that the pool and hot tub are both looking like they might need salt soon and I'm out, so he's gonna drop more off next week some time.”
“Oh, that's good. Your pool and hot tub use salt?”
“Sure do. Remember when I told you I have eczema and that I had to stay away from things I'm allergic to, well chlorine's one of those items, so I have to make sure and clean off very well, such as last night, whenever I go into a chlorinated pool. That'll be the first upgrade to the new house I do, change over the purification system to salt, so that my skin doesn't itch so much. It's also lots better for your skin.”
“Come on upstairs, I'll show you to the bathroom up there that you can use, it's off one of the bedrooms, and you can change in there.”
They headed upstairs and James headed into his bedroom first and grabbed the Speedo for Nathan, and then showed him into the only other bedroom in the house that was furnished, this would be the room that Nathan would use if he stayed the night, assuming of course he still lived there, but that was not likely now. Once Nathan took the tiny suit, James headed to his bedroom to put on his shorts. A few moments later they both met in the hallway.
“Wow, those really do show everything, don't they?” James gasped when he saw Nathan in all his near naked beauty. The shorts the night before just did not do his amazing body justice at all. And the bulge that Nathan's ample young penis created nearly made James faint. He had never seen any boy with as nice a bulge, and figured that Nathan must either be half hard or five inches and thick while soft.
“Yeah, if there was anyone else here, there's no way I'd wear anything like this.” Nathan said, a hint of a blush. He knew his half hard dick was making James lose his concentration, and he liked it.
“Let's head out to the pool.” James said, having to swallow a couple times to create the saliva he needed in order to speak, and with great difficulty he turned and led the way.
Nathan smiled shyly and followed. He may know who and what he wanted, but he was still a bit embarrassed, he was not used to this either. He followed James all the way out to the pool, it was quite the walk in that large house, and by the time they made it there, and James turned around, he could see that he had been partially correct, Nathan had been partially hard, because he was not quite so endowed now as he had been, but still nothing to sneeze at, he still had an impressive lump for a thirteen year old.
“Go ahead and hop up on the board and show me what all you can do already, and I'll critique you and give you pointers.”
Nathan went and hopped up on the board and took a simple dive, breaking the surface with a minimal slash.
“Very good, you already have excellent form, you just need to make sure your feet stay together, or you'll create too much of a splash.”
“Yeah, I felt them stray slightly at the very last second.”
“It's okay, you've never been trained properly. Now, I know you can do simple flips and whatnot, but what all can you do?”
“What you saw last night was about it.”
“Okay, not too bad though, considering you've had no training.”
“Thanks, I learned from watching others.”
“That's really good then. Go ahead and just go through all your dives, and each time I see something that needs to be changed, I'll let you know.”
“Okay.” Nathan said, and then went and did just that, and for nearly the next hour, that was what they did.
“You're doing really good now, but now I think you should take a break.”
“Thanks, I was gonna say I needed a break. You should hop in the pool now and do some laps, and I'll work you, okay.”
“Okay.” James sighed, but hopped into the pool and started doing laps in the pool, Nathan calling out to him to push harder, to dig deeper, so on and so forth, having him change styles every few laps.
“I can't go any longer.” James panted almost half an hour later.
“You did pretty good though. We can try again in a few minutes and get you going a bit more. We'll get you doing an hour every day, and you can work me for an hour every day as well. By the end of the summer, we'll both be a hundred percent better for it.” Nathan smiled warmly.
“You're quite the persistent little thing, aren't you?” James smiled.
“Only with you, because I like you. James, I think I know what your answer's gonna be, but can I spend the night tonight?”
“And what you think my answer is gonna be is correct, you shouldn't.”
“Give me one good reason why not though?”
“I'll give you a few. First, we just met, second, what would others think, and third, it isn't really appropriate.”
“So what if we just met, we both like each other, we're both a lot alike. Who cares what others think really, because if nothing is going on, then what have they got to say against it. And same with being inappropriate, what do you think we'd be doing?”
“It's not what I think we'd be doing, because it won't be anything, but it's what others would think. Everyone in the area knows I don't have any family, so if they see a kid staying the night, what are they gonna think?”
“Do you think they pay that close attention to what you do?”
“Are you kidding, snob central, they're always watching each other for the next big gossip. Trust me, they know you're here.”
“Then who's to say I'm not supposed to be here for some unknown reason. If they're curious enough to ask, then tell them I'm a friends kid staying with you for a while, but I doubt they would.”
“No, because they're more likely to just draw their own conclusions and go from there. None of them talk to me, but that's more than likely because I never talk to them, other than the odd hi.”
“Well then, it's settled, I'll stay the night then, because even if they do wonder, they'll never ask, and in a few days you'll be moving, so who cares what they think.”
“It's not settled, I'm sorry, you really shouldn't.”
“Fine, start another twenty laps.” Nathan said smoothly, too smoothly, James knew that Nathan knew he was spending the night.
James just sighed and started swimming again, and this time Nathan pushed him just a little harder, until a little more than twenty minutes later James stopped, saying he had nothing left.
“You did good James, we'll do it again tomorrow and soon you'll feel better.”
“I don't think I believe you right now, I hurt all over.” James said, still gasping.
“Yeah, but it's a good hurt, you'll live. I'm gonna swim for a few minutes now and relax.”
“Okay, I think I'm gonna head in and get changed. I just wish that the hot tub was working, I'd love to sit back and relax in there right now.”
“Okay, I'll be in in a few minutes then.” Nathan smiled.
James headed in while drying off with the towel he had grabbed for himself, and went to his bedroom. He got himself into a diaper and then got dressed, and then took the bag of diapers he had bought for Nathan and took them to what was to be his bedroom for the night he guessed, and put them in the closet, wondering if Nathan would snoop. He then headed back downstairs and out to the pool house to watch Nathan swim for a bit.
“Finally decided to stop did you?” James asked Nathan some twenty minutes later when he pulled himself out of the water after swimming far harder than he had made James do.
“Yeah, it's nice to really push hard and not worry about others getting in the way. I never get a proper swim at the public pool, but oh well.”
“You certainly know how to push yourself hard though.”
“Yeah.” Nathan said out loud. 'If only you knew how hard I could push if you'd give me the chance.' Is what he said in his mind though.
“Go ahead and go get changed and then come down and we'll make dinner.”
“Okay. What are we having?”
“Whatever you'd like.”
“Okay, have any steak?”
“Yeah, I have some. Steak it is then.”
“And a small potato each and a large salad.”
“Okay, as long as I do at least get sour cream on my baked potato.”
“As long as it's no more than one tablespoon.”
“Fine.” James sighed animatedly.
They both headed into the house and Nathan went back up to the same bedroom and got dressed. He figured that he had a few minutes to spare, and was curious just how big the closet was, he had never seen a walk in closet before, so went in. It was empty, except the bag of diapers on one of the shelves in there, and he smiled. He had wondered if James had figured it out that he had wanted to wear a diaper. He grabbed the pack and opened it up and pulled one out. He felt and sniffed it, and then opened it up and felt the inside too. He went back to the bed and stripped off his pants and underwear and got ready to diaper himself. He had wanted this for so long, so often he wished he could wear a diaper, especially when he was peeing his pants all the time. His dick was rock hard, but for the time being, he left that alone, maybe, just maybe he could talk James into taking care of that for him as well.
On a whim, Nathan whipped off his shirt and sauntered from the room, heading to the kitchen in only a diaper and a smile. When he walked in the kitchen, James had his back turned to him, so he had not seen him enter. He had a knife in his hand, looking to be cutting fixings for the salad, so Nathan coughed to alert James of his presence. James turned with the knife in his hand, caught one look of Nathan standing there in only a diaper with a rather sizable bulge in the front, and he dropped the knife to the ground with a clatter. He also came in his diaper instantly. Never before had he seen such a vision in his life.
“You like?” Nathan asked coyly when he saw James come back down.
“Um......um......um.....” Was all James could say. His dick was pushing the front of his diaper and pants out quite obscenely, he had never been so hard in his life, and Nathan liked the looks of what he saw.
“Thanks for these by the way, I wondered if you guessed I'd wanted to wear them.” Nathan said while spinning around, giving James the full show.
“Oh Nathan, you're beautiful.” James said softly.
“Thanks. Could you strip down to just your diaper too please?” Nathan asked softer still.
“I don't think I should.”
“Why James. We both know where this is going, we both know we want it, a lot, I want to see you now how you've dreamed of seeing me, are getting to see me, I want us to see the real us.” Nathan said only slightly above a whisper.
In answer, James started peeling off his clothes. He was powerless to stop this, he knew it was wrong, he knew what Nathan wanted, he knew he would follow, he knew it was going to be pure heaven. Once James was down to just his diaper, it was time for Nathan to go into involuntary orgasm, and he squeaked and squealed so cutely. It made James very happy to hear it, and it showed.
“Wow, I was right, you do look hot like that.” Nathan whispered a few minutes later.
“Not sure how you can say that, I'm so fat.” James blushed.
“So what, I know the real you, the real beautiful you, and if you hate how you look so much, I'll help you fix that, it'll just take some time and patience.” Nathan said softly as he stepped closer and wrapped his arms around the man he had fallen in love with at first sight the night before.
“Nathan, we shouldn't be doing this, you know that.” James said, starting to cry softly.
“I know, but it's what we both want and need, and besides, it's only those outside this house that believe that, you couldn't force me to believe that, not for a second. I fell in love with you last night, when I first really looked at you. When you look in the mirror, you see a fat man who no one likes. But when I see you, I see a kind caring and compassionate man who'll treat me proper, who'll never use or abuse me, not like my parents do. There's one reason and one reason only my parents keep me at all, and that's for the money the government gives them every month. They make a few extra bucks, otherwise I'm abused all day every day, maybe not physically or sexually, but abused none the less. I know you wouldn't, you couldn't do that to me. What we want though is mutual, what one does the other will do as well, as partners, as lovers.” Nathan whispered, reaching up just as he finished to press their lips together.
At first James was passive in the kiss, but dammit he wanted this so bad as well. He had never dreamed that he could have what his heart had known all along that it wanted, but now here was this beautiful boy throwing himself at him, offering himself up wholly and fully for the taking, all he had to do was reach out and take it, take the love that Nathan was offering. Finally he did, he reached out, he threw himself right back at Nathan, and there in the kitchen of the huge house two lovers united, two souls combined, and as they broke their kiss, they both had tears in their eyes.
“I knew you were the one for me, I just knew it. I do love you, I love you so much. I'll be yours for forever and for always.” Nathan said, tears unashamedly running down his cheeks. They were still holding each other, but they were looking right into each others eyes.
“I knew it too Nathan, I knew we were meant to be together. I fell for you at first sight last night too, not only were you stunning in your beauty, easily the best looking boy I've ever had the pleasure to meet, but you're so much more than that too. I felt a connection to you, I knew we needed to be together, but I knew I had to fight it, but I just can't any more. We'll take it slow and easy, we'll be each others first I'm sure, but we'll be there for each other, forever and for always like you said.” James said, tears also streaking down.
“Thanks. I guess we better make and eat dinner now.”
“Yeah, we better.” James said, wiping his eyes and pretty much setting Nathan down, because he had picked his little lover up slightly as they had been kissing.
They worked quietly together to make dinner, and then they set the table and sat down to eat the nice meal together. They both enjoyed it, but they enjoyed each others company even more so, often staring right into each others eyes, and neither one said one word the entire time they ate. It was easily the slowest either of them had ever eaten a meal, taking nearly an hour to eat their small meal.
As soon as they finished eating, they cleaned up the mess and then went to the living room together, where they laid down on the couch and just watched TV, all cuddled up to each other.
“You're wet.” James whispered when they finally got off the couch.
“Yeah, I've peed a few times, it was nice. You're more wet than me though.”
“Yeah, I never really stop peeing. So, you're a diaper lover then huh?” James asked softly.
“Yeah, but you are too, aren't you, even though you do need them?”
“Yeah. I think we're both good 'til morning though, so let's head to bed now, but no playing around, okay.”
“Okay, only kisses and cuddles is all I wanted anyway.” Nathan smiled warmly.
“Sounds good to me.”
They headed up to James' master bedroom, and if Nathan had thought the guest suite was nice, it was nothing in comparison to the master suite, it was huge, but in Nathan's thoughts though it was too opulent for his taste. James pulled back the blankets and they both crawled in, cuddling right up to each other, facing each other. James turned off the light, and as soon as it was dark, Nathan moved forward and pressed their lips together once again, and in the darkness in their bed they kissed each other long and tenderly. They only kissed for at most half an hour, but it had felt like hours had passed when they both finally pulled apart with a deep sigh.
“Goodnight, I love you.” James whispered.
“Goodnight, I love you too.” Nathan whispered back, and they curled right into each other, falling fast asleep. James forgetting to put his breathing machine on, nor did he take his night time medications.