I'm Not
Gay: Philip's Story
by Ashley
Hardric ©2006
ahardric@gmail.com
Disclaimers:
This is a work of fiction.
That means it is not true.
Didn’t happen. It’s a figment. No boys were involved or harmed in
the writing of this story and no trees were sacrificed. Author
assumes no
responsibility for seminal damage to
keyboards. Author does
not condone sex with
boys; he just writes
fantasies about it. Further, sex in reality requires caution and
protection, but my characters won’t catch any bad bugs unless I write
them in. Be safe and legal in the real
world, and enjoy the story
only if you are of age and location to do
so legally.
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Esteemed Readers:
While Ferris seems to be about done
with his story, Philip has some details to wrap up. He has not
shared all of them with me, yet, so I have no idea of how much more
there is to tell. We'll just have to wait and see. Thanks
for being patient with him. -- AH
Philip's Story, part 1
Ferris asked me
about why I wouldn’t use my JiuJitsu when I got picked on at school,
and I wouldn’t tell him. I guess I’ll have to pretty soon, but
the memory is still painful for me, even after this long. My
therapist says it would be good for me to talk about it with other
people, and Ferris is the only one I can even consider telling, at this
point. Maybe if I try writing the story out I can make it make
enough sense to tell. Although I’m not sure that it even makes
sense to me, yet.
I still can’t
believe that I nearly killed that boy. I can’t believe that I was
capable of doing it. I can’t believe that I would’ve done
it if they hadn’t pulled me off him. And I still can’t believe
that my skinny little body had that kind of strength, not to mention
anger, in it.
I guess I was
more upset about the sex than I even realized at the time. I
mean, sure, I knew I was gay. I’ve known that since I was old
enough to know what gay meant, which was pretty early, since my parents
started the sex ed stuff early with me. Really early. They
didn’t want me to get in the same kind of mess my step brother was in,
with the AIDS and all. I guess it was really tough on them seeing
him die. But that was before I was even born, so I don’t have any
emotional connection to him. Anyway, they taught me everything
there was to know about sex, both straight and gay, and I knew way
before puberty that I liked boys and that boys made my dick get hard,
and that I liked it when it did. And that I liked having it
touched, and I liked touching other boys’ dicks. And men,
too.
Like that time
at the beach about five or six years ago, in the public shower room,
with that incredible hunk of a lifeguard. And those other men,
all hard, holding me up, so that the lifeguard sucking on my dick could
do it standing up. I’d been staring at him half the day, and I
had a hard on most of the time, and he knew it, and he let me see his
dick by spreading his legs and pulling his board shorts up almost to
his hips. I could see right up to his crotch, his balls and
his dick and everything. When my dad told me it was time to
get cleaned up, I made sure the guard knew where I was going. I
headed to the shower, watching behind me to see if he was following
me. Which he was. In the shower room, there were about five
or six guys that I’d seen earlier on the beach, most of them with their
own little kids playing in the sand. I took my swim suit off and
I was already hard, and so were they. The guard walked in, naked
and hard and he came over to me and put his hands on my shoulders, and
pulled me against him. He was so big and I was so little, he just
engulfed me in his arms. It was so great. My face was about
at his crotch, his hard cock against my cheek. He didn’t ask me
to suck him or anything, just held me against him for awhile. And
then the other men lifted me up by my arms and between my legs, held me
so the guard could suck me. Someone was doing something to my
butthole, too, but no one fucked me. They shot all over me,
though, which I thought was quite amazing. The sucking was
incredible, and I had my first ever dry cum. Boy when that
happened, I knew that I was already in heaven. And having those
guys cum all over me while the lifeguard sucked me, that had me totally
turned on. And since I hadn’t started puberty yet, my dick stayed
hard and the guy kept sucking on it, and I had another dry cum before
they put me down and let me rinse their cum off. I was still hard
when I left the showers.
So yeah, I’ve
known I was gay for a good long time. But other than jerking off
with other little boys--and totally liking it--I hadn’t done anything
beyond simple fooling around with another boy. Until that day in
the locker room. When I got raped.
When I nearly
killed that boy.
Thend.