Date: Wed, 5 Dec 2012 13:51:24 -0800 (PST) From: Richard Stuffer Subject: My Lifelong Love Affair with Cock and Cum Part 1 From about the age of 9 or 10 I knew there was something different about me. I had no name for it, I didn't know exactly what it was, but knew anytime I hinted at it I would see a look in people's eyes that made me not continue to talk about it. I guess I was a late bloomer. I kept this 'different' feeling to myself to avoid the strange looks on peoples faces. I do recall that when I was 11 years old I started noticing mens' bodies. I kept this to myself and often had to try hard not to get a hardon when I saw a man or pic of a hot man when in the company of others. At the threshold of puberty you often felt things, and your body reacted to things, in ways you didn't understand. I became a bit sullen knowing I felt differently than others. Once I hit 13 and started sprouting hair in places I hadn't expected, these feelings became stronger. I had seen pics in nudie magazines but they were mostly of women. The idea of seeing women naked was curious but not exciting to me. Yet, anytime I saw a man's chest that would get my attention. At the age of 13 it didn't matter how young or old the man was. Although, at that time, mostly the pics were of young guys in their 20s and 30s. When I was alone I would stare at these pics for hours. I would run my eyes over the neck, shoulders, pectorals, and abdomens of the guys. It didn't matter if the guy in the pic was hairy or smooth.....just seeing his chest was enough to get me excited. The idea that I could stare at his body without fear was a real turnon. After doing this over a span of time I found that I was particularly interested in the guys's nipples and navels. Some guys had nipples that really turned me on, for some reason. Just seeing some of those pink buttons on guys's chest would get me staring and drooling. Sometimes, for some reason, it might be the navel that turned me on. Sometimes, it was both the nipples and navels that caught my eye, This is not to say that every bare chest I saw got me hot and horny, but most did. Again, this was when I was entering puberty which is a long time ago. These pics were usually of models advertising swimwear or underwear. They were young adults, looking very smooth and had fit bodies. In time, I started noticing below the waist of these models. I would look at the contours of their crotches in the swimsuits and underwear they modeled. At that time there was no internet and no male (gay) porn magazines that I knew of. Also, most porn to be gotten was on projector-type films and was straight sex. A close friend and I would often talk about sex when we hung out together. We just talked about the prurient interest that all teenage boys have with sex. He would often say he wanted to see a naked woman and how adults had sex. Some weeks later he got his hands on a straight porn film. We were in his garage and we played the film on the projector. This was the first time I'd seen a porn film. Almost immediately I noticed the man in the film and couldn't have cared less about the woman. I had never seen an adult cock up to this time. I was mesmerized. I had started masturbating, secretly, but had dry cums still. I didn't know if my friend had starting shooting cum yet, since we weren't that intimate with details about ourselves. Anyway, my attention was on the male in the film. Both of us started rubbing our cocks through our pants as we watched enthralled as the man and woman starting undressing. Both looked to be in their late 20s or possibly 30. Both of us were breathing hard and stroking through our pants. Neither of us said a word. Based on my friend's reactions as clothes were removed he was concentrating on the woman. I, on the other hand, was getting more excited as I saw clothes come off the man. Each article of clothing he removed got me hotter and hotter and made me breathe faster. The same seemed to happening with my friend in regard to the woman. They were now down to their underwear: she in black bra and panties, and he in white tee shirt and white briefs. My friend commented about her big knockers and her hot ass, while I concentrated my eyes on the man. This was very exciting to me: to see people undress in front of others My friends eyes were riveted to the woman as he commented on her big tits and nipples, while my eyes were riveted to the man. He pulled off his tee shirt and had a nice chest. He wasn't fat or thin, just right, and had a smal patch of hair in the center of his chest. The woman started taking down her panties as my friend commented, while I watched the man pull down his briefs. His cock looked amazing! This was the first adult cock I had ever seen. It really looked like I imagined a man's cock to look: it was thick and veiny and long and had a big head on it. Once they were both naked they started kissing and running their hands over each other. Soon, they plopped down on the bed and the camera showed the man kneading the woman's tits and then he started licking them and sucking on them . She was obviously enjoying it based on her smiles and moves. The man did this for a few minutes and started licking and kissing downward towards her waist. Then he went lower and spread her legs wider, The next shot showed a closeup of her cunt. I had never seen a cunt before and was curious. The he stuck his finger in her cunt and started pushing it in and out. Then he started rubbing a little nib near the top and then started licking it. You could see that she was writhing on the bed as he did this. I had never seen or knew of anything like this. Then he pushed his face against her cunt and started licking and sucking all over her cunt. You could tell by the movements of her upper legs that she was enjoying this. I was enjoying seeing the man service her in this way, Her cunt looked strange to me and didn't really get me excited, It did seem to excite my friend who was making comments. After a few minutes of eating her cunt, they changed positions. He lay down on the bed and she stood at the end of it between his spread legs. His cock was hard and stuck straight up towards the ceiling. She knelt down and the camera moved in for a closeup. She started stroking his rock hard cock. Then she brought her face to his crotch and started licking his shaft. Man, I felt like I was going to orgasm in my pants at this site. The one good thing about my dry cums was that there would be no wet stain to have to hide on my way home. She licked his shaft all over and then started licking the head. Man, this guy had a really hot cock, it was so thick and hard and long (average really, but what did I know at that time.) Then she took the head of his cock in her mouth and started moving her head up and down on it. I could see the man humping his hips to push his cock into her mouth. She did this for a few minutes and then they changed positions again. She lay back on the bed and the guy kind of lay a bit above her with his crotch near hers. The cam moved in for a closeup and we saw the guy guide his cock to her cunt and push in. His whole cock disappeared in her cunt. Then he started to pull it out and push in again . The closeup stayed on this scene, with his cock disappearing and reappearing at her cunt for a few minutes. My friend was commenting and breathing hard and stroking his mound in his pants, as was I. He kept commenting about her cunt while my eyes focused on the guy's hot cock. This scene was the longest and went on for about ten minutes. Then, suddenly, he pulled his cock from her cunt and held it above her crotch. He continued to stroke his cock above her crotch. Then, suddenly, a thick, white substance started shooting from his cock and landing in big globs on her crotch. More and more of this thick, white stuff came out as he continued to pump his cock. After about two minutes he stopped pumping and stopped shooting. There looked to be about a dozen big drops of this white stuff on the area just above her cunt. My friend muttered, "Man, he shot a big load of cum! That was really hot! " So, I guess my friend was already shooting cum while I had a dry orgasm. Once he finished shooting, the cam stayed on his spent cock for about 30 seconds and it seemed to start to soften. Then the film ended abruptly, This was a projector film and they only lasted about 30 minutes in those days. Once the film was over, my friend and I talked about how hot it was. He said the woman had really hot tits and a hot cunt. I (to cover myself) agreed. In reality, the hottest scenes for me was the man and his cock and his cum. We packed everything away and said our goodbyes until next time. That night, the sight of the man's body, his chest and nipples, and belly and navel and balls and cock made me very excited. I got a hardon and stroked myself as I replayed the scene where he shot his cum. So, that's what cum looks like, I thought to myself. I couldn't wait to shoot cum. I jacked until I had a dry orgasm with the cum scene playing in my head , and then drifted off to sleep. The next day, all I could think about was seeing that naked man in the film. I replayed in my mind the scenes of various parts of his hot body. I didn't know for a fact what this was called, but I knew I liked to see mens' bodies and wasn't interested in women's. Since the strong feeling viewing the film evoked in me at the time and afterward, I was even more guarded about stating sex things that interested me. Remember, this was years ago before VCRs, the internet, cell phones, etc. Straight porn wasn't easy to obtain by kids, and I don't think gay porn existed at the time. I contented myself to looking forward to more straight porn so I could see more naked men.