Date: Wed, 02 Jul 2008 17:23:23 +0000 From: Moore Subject: Man or Boy MAN OR BOY BY MOORE CHAPTER ONE The slick, unsheathed penis remained erect between my ovalled lips for several minutes after delivering the fruit of a powerful orgasm. The wiry pubic hair, damp and matted down with my saliva, playfully tickled at the tip of my nose. Too sensitive now for more tongue swirling activity around the circumcised head, I held the spent but rigid organ deeply in my mouth while savoring the once so familiar texture and unique taste of the thick, creamy semen. The soul of the body next to mine was a wonderful blend of passion, sex and love. It had been years since I'd felt this way about a man and more years since I had let any man ejaculate in my mouth. The naked penis and the fresh sperm in my mouth conjured up long time past, but not forgotten memories of the youthful emergence of my rampant homosexuality. I felt like an innocent young boy again, barely eleven years old and sucking my very first cock at summer camp. I was thrilled when my counselor, who had demonstrated masturbation for us that afternoon, came to me that night and asked me to kneel between his legs and take his erect penis in my mouth. "Suck the head like a lollypop," he instructed. "Nice and easy." Thrilled too when, after sucking him for a while, he held my head steady with his big hands and then climaxed in my mouth. The warm spurts sent tingles up and down my spine. "That's called a blow job or cock sucking, Steven," he explained, leading me back to my bunk. "You did it really well. And the stuff I spurted in your mouth is called sperm or cum. I think you really liked sucking my cock and eating my cum. I think you just might be gay or, at the very least, a natural cocksucker." His explanation went over my head, but it didn't matter because I did like sucking his cock more than words can express. His penis felt, well, comfortable in my mouth and his sperm was so warm, the creamy taste made me tingle all over. I liked sucking him off again the next night, doing it naked this time when he told me to take off my pajamas and play with my tiny, hairless prick while sucking his big, hairy dick. And the night after that, naked again as I would suck him off each night for the rest of the summer, and with one other counselor watching me suck his pal's dick. I felt so grown up giving them both nightly blow jobs when all the other campers were fast asleep. How naive I was that summer...and that fall when I went back to school. I really grew up a year or so later when I learned the painful truth about having normal sex with girls as opposed to the abnormal queer stuff I was doing with...or more accurately since no one touched me back in a sexual way, doing for the boys in my class. The knowledge that I was considered a sexual queer came much too late to salvage my tainted reputation. Not that it changed anything because I was too far gone into the depravity of promiscuous homosexuality to much care that every single boy in junior high school who could, had cum at least one time in my mouth and that every boy knew me as "The Fag." Since the onslaught of HIV, engaging in casual gay sex with a total stranger without a ready supply of condoms and lube, sucking a naked cock...to say nothing of taking another man's sperm in my mouth or ass, was an infrequent event. Sperm, the holy grail of homosexual sex for me, was, like drugs to an addict, dangerous to your health. But this wonderful man in my bed was different somehow. Not more than thirty minutes earlier, after a wondrously sensuous blow job that left me doubting the quality of my own oral skills as my orgasm neared, I had, with his full knowledge and permission, happily ejaculated in his warm and talented mouth. To my further unexpected surprise he had willingly swallowed my sperm. So now it was my turn to service his engorged penis and despite my usual reluctance regarding exchanges of body fluids, I felt I had to be fair and return the favor. By the unwritten rules of homosexual gentlemen, of civilized cocksuckers if you will, I had to allow this fantastic, sexy man to climax in my mouth and swallow his sperm too. A risky act on both our parts considering the fact that Allan Foster and I, though lying naked together like long-time lovers in a hotel bed, barely knew each other. We had only just met that very afternoon at New York's St. Regis Hotel. The physical attraction was immediate, Allan's dark good looks turned more heads than mine as he crossed the room towards the bar. Gay, I thought briefly for no conscious reason, then dismissed the idea as mere wishful thinking because of my own lack of sex the past week. "May I?" He asked, standing at the bar stool next to mine. He could have chosen from ten empty seats, but he opted to sit next to me. Curious and most welcome. "Yes, of course," I replied. "Best not to drink alone. My name is Steven, Steven Ross." "Allan Foster. Nice to meet you, Steven." No ring I noticed as we shook hands. Not a sure sign of anything since lots of married men don't wear a wedding ring. Though he did hold my hand a tad longer than a straight man might think proper and he did brush my thigh lightly as he settled into his seat. The gay vibes I'd felt returned stronger than before. "A single malt scotch," he said to the bartender. "Oban if you have it." "That's what I'm drinking, Oban." "Really," he said, turning towards me. "And your suit is Armani like mine. I wonder what else we have in common." Quite a lot, as we discovered over the next hour and two more Obans. Including our ages, forty seven, owners of successful small businesses, and sexual orientation. "Queer as a three dollar bill," Allan whispered in my ear as I hurriedly signed the check. "And horny as a goat. I haven't had sex for a week." We all but ran to the elevator, drawing the attention of a young desk clerk I'd foolishly invited up to my room on a previous trip to New York. I ignored his not so subtle nod and knowing smirk, recalling with shame and disgust the way I had slavishly submitted to his selfish lust and how he had used my mouth and ass for his pleasure, then had the gall to slap my cheek with the used condom and call me an old faggot. Allan Foster would be different, I hoped, as the elevator whisked us silently upwards to my luxury suite on the 29th floor. Homosexual men, because of guilt or perhaps the peer pressures of growing up gay, are more readily prone to deviant behavior and sexual fetishes than the average heterosexual. Humiliation and submission, master and slave, bondage and torture; Allan might be into any of these...or worse. I fumbled with the keycard, nervous as the gay teen I once was anticipating a new homosexual encounter with another male, finally getting the door unlocked on the third attempt. Without exchanging a word, only a nod that spoke volumes, we both got naked in seconds, leaving a trail of expensive clothes behind as we hurried to the bedroom. He kissed me tenderly on the lips and I opened my mouth to receive his probing tongue. We fell back together on to the bed, a mass of writhing, quivering, sexually charged male flesh, clutching each other's nude body shamelessly. "I want you," Allan gasped, while nibbling my earlobe. "I want all of you." My cock, already erect and throbbing, surged at his words. My heart was beating frantically under the weight of his naked body atop mine. I wanted Allan to have me, have me any way he wanted. "Take me," I moaned. "Take me." Allan Foster took me alright, straight to the special place in heaven reserved for homosexuals, kissing and licking his way down my body and then back up between my legs to my crotch. Allan licked my testicles lightly and kissed my inner thighs. Then, when I thought I would explode from the stimulation, Allan rose to his knees, looked me straight in the eye and took me in his mouth. CHAPTER TWO "So what brings you to New York?" Allan asked as I poured him a scotch from the well-stocked bar. We were sweaty and nude, not bothering to shower or dress because we planned a return to the bedroom for more sex after a short break. His ample dick was already showing signs of a speedy recovery and I was not far behind. "Business mostly...and a little fun. It's rather dull in Cincinnati. And you?" "Same. I have several clients in Manhattan and Madison, Wisconsin is not exactly a hot spot for meeting someone special like you." Allan raised his glass at me and smiled. "You're quite the cocksucker, Steven, I haven't cum like that in ages." I raised my glass in return. "Takes one to know one," I quipped. "Though I haven't been called a cocksucker since college." "Does it bother you?" "No, not really. After all, that's what I am...we are, cocksuckers." "It used to bother me a lot, the whole put down routine against homosexuals. Queer, fag, cocksucker, pussy...high school was pretty rough on my self esteem. My so called friends didn't mind the locker room blow jobs from a fag, but the queer wasn't welcome the rest of the time." We finished our drinks and happily followed our resurgent erections to the bedroom for more consensual sex. I made a stop at the bathroom to pick up the tube of vaseline conveniently provided by the hotel. The blow job had been great, but now I intended to discover if Allan Foster's ass was as good as his mouth. And too, selfishly, it had been a long while since I'd done it bareback, without a condom, or with a considerate man like Allan. I wanted to be pussy for him as well and to feel his naked dick deep inside me. I wanted to feel him climax inside me...I wanted to be fucked. Allan laughed aloud when he spied the small tube in my hand, then spread his legs for me seductively. "I do hope there's enough in there for two," he said as I mounted him. "Or you'll have to call room service for more when it's my turn to fuck you." Well lubed, I slipped into Allan like the proverbial hot knife through butter. His anus gripped my dick with a warm, welcoming embrace. "Oh, god, oh, god," he moaned as I eased my way in. "It feels so good to have your cock inside me. Fuck me, Steven, please fuck me. Make me your pussy." I made passionate love to Allan Foster, showering his handsome face with kisses as I fulfilled his wish to be my pussy. He met my deep, penetrating thrusts, rising up as I drove down, then he wrapped his legs around my body and rolled me over on to my back. Now that he was on top impaled on my cock I could not hold back any longer. "Gonna cum," I gasped as my orgasm hit. "Oh, god, I'm cumming in your ass." There was enough vaseline left in the small tube for Allan to lube up my ass and his cock for a smooth and easy penetration. "How do you want to fuck me?" I asked when my breath and heart rate had returned to normal. "Woof", was his single word response, which sent me scurrying to my hands and knees. Head down on the pillow and ass way up in the air. The first man to fuck me, a teacher back in high school, took me from behind...doggy style. He had me kneel to suck his fat dick first and then he pulled down my pants and bent me over his desk, a humiliating position which I still believe is best suited for animals. The pain was excruciating as he worked the head of his dick into my virgin asshole and frustrating because I couldn't see what he was doing. "Stop, please," I cried out. "You're killing me." He slapped my ass, hard, and continued his physical and verbal assault. "Take it pussy boy, take my big fucking cock. Your pussy ass is mine now, faggot." I took it, every thick, painful inch, and his flood of semen which ran down my legs when he finally pulled out of me. I couldn't sit without pain for a week and only let him, and others since then, fuck me again in the face to face missionary position. I bent over for Allan because he was different from all the other men I'd been with in a homosexual relationship. I was in love with a man I'd only just met a few hours ago and that made all the difference in the world. CHAPTER THREE Allan Foster spent the night in my bed, naked as I was, and in my arms. We didn't sleep very much, coupling as frequently as our erections allowed. Licking and kissing every square inch of flesh, and often joining together in a lazy sixty-nine but for no other reason than to keep our mouths filled with a lover's warm cock. It was a heavenly night that I wished would never end. The wake-up call from the hotel operator came promptly at seven. We both had business meetings to attend, otherwise we would have surely spent the day in bed making love. He slept soundly through the call so after a quick visit to the bathroom I roused him with a lingering kiss. A kiss that travelled wetly down his gorgeous body to his sleepy cock. Allan's eyelids fluttered when I kissed the tip of his flaccid penis, opening fully when I took him fully in my mouth and began to gently suck. "I thought I was dreaming," he said through a yawn. "Ahh, this is much better than any dream...what a way to wake up." His sleepy organ was coming awake as well, lengthening, hardening and thickening, until my mouth was stuffed with the thick shaft of a fully erect cock, the head at the top of my throat. I kept my hands away from his body, a silent message between homosexuals that showed my trust that he would not thrust up violently, an instinctive male reaction under the circumstances, which would certainly choke me and cause me discomfort. Allan rewarded my trust, cock sliding smoothly between my lips. I would have sucked him to a satisfying climax and for me his warm, morning sperm. Before that could happen, however, he presented me with another decision to make. "Mother nature is calling," he said. "Don't move, Steven, I'll be right back." In my mouth, I thought, holding him firmly between my lips. Why not. We had already shared saliva, sweat and semen, one more body fluid from the man I loved could do no harm. It wouldn't be the first time a guy had urinated in my mouth and drinking the salty urine hadn't made me ill. Granted, I last did it during my wild high school days when the word humiliation was not in my vocabulary. I did a lot of crazy, desperate things back then in my insatiable search for cocks to suck. Many of which I'd rather forget. The guys on the team thought I was bluffing when I agreed to the outrageously humiliating offer out of desperation. They laughed at me, but they all learned something about homosexuals that they wouldn't soon forget. I'd gone to the locker room after a game hoping to score some dick. They knew I was gay, an avid cocksucker that had gladly serviced each of them at one time or another when they needed my kind of service. I'd made this kind of service call several times before so my presence in the locker room was neither unusual nor unwelcome. I got my usual greeting from Tom Burns, the captain, "Hey faggot," and sat down on the narrow bench by his locker. Sometimes he called me queer or cocksucker, depending on his mood. He was hyped after leading the team to a big win over an arch rival, strutting around in his jock strap like a peacock. Tom was big, black and gorgeous; with a dick and an ego that perfectly matched his size. Nothing went down on the team without his permission, including me, so I posed my question directly to him. "You wanna blow job, Tom?" If he said yes as he'd done before and as I expected he would again tonight, then the whole team would line up behind him for a turn with me. Twelve blow jobs would slake my lusty needs for cock and cum for a while. But if he said no I'd be off to the park for a rough and often dangerous night of cruising with the other homosexuals for dicks to suck. The competition was fierce for the limited supply of dick. Fag watching and fag bashing were popular sports among the gangs in town. Forced to engage in homosexual acts with another gay boy or simply jerking off to climax in front of a gang was humiliating but harmless. Fag bashing was different and many's the night I slinked my way home from the park, used, bruised and in shredded clothes, or no clothes at all if the gang felt particularly mean. Tom took a step closer to me so that his crotch was in my face. So close that I could count the black pubic hairs peeking through the mesh fabric of his bulging white jock strap and smell the stinging smell of his sweat. Then he looked down at me grinning broadly, his big white teeth glowing in sharp contrast with his ebony skin, and rubbed his wet jock in my face. My spirits soared along with my dick and then came crashing back to earth. "Nah, don't think so, faggot" he said, backing away. "I'm meeting my girl later. I want to be ready in case she's ready to put out tonight. Don't want to waste my jizz on a fag cocksucker." How did the girls do it, I thought naively from a gay boy's biased point of view. The sexual power they exerted over straight guys was a secret I'd love to learn. He was willing to give up a sure thing....a bird in the hand, his cock in my welcoming mouth, for the off chance that his girl might put out. A rushed, sloppy hand job if he got very lucky, but I knew his girl friend and there was no way in hell that she was going down on him tonight or any other night. Nice girls talked about it plenty, but unlike a gay boy they did not suck dick. I was crushed by Tom's negative answer, but not ready to throw in the towel or try to preserve the last shred of my dignity. If I could get his dick in my mouth, even for a minute or two, then the rest of the team would be free to follow their leader. I'd gladly settle for eleven blow jobs, though begging a guy for his dick was a new and humbling experience. "Please, Tom," I said cautiously, falling to my knees at his feet. "Please let me blow you. I won't make you cum, promise, just hold your dick in my mouth." "Piss off, cocksucker," Tom said, removing his jock and heading to the showers. He stopped halfway there and turned back to me with a strange look on his face. "You want my dick so bad, why don't I just piss off in your faggot mouth....after you crawl over and kiss my big black ass." Kissing Tom's ass was no big deal and I got to lick his balls. As for his piss, well, Tom put his cock to my lips and let it flow. A steady stream of hot urine flowed into my mouth and I drank it. It wasn't as gross as I thought it would be and I hardly heard the laughter. The loads of semen that followed from blowing the rest of the team displaced the acrid taste. I looked up at Allan's sweet face and said, "Do it in my mouth, lover. I want to drink your urine." His expression did not change. "Sure?" Neither did mine. "Absolutely sure." We took a hot shower together, washing away the remains from our night of serious love making and the taste of urine from my mouth. We then made plans to meet at the bar after work. We kissed goodbye at the door and then I watched him, my new lover, walk down the hall to the elevator. CHAPTER FOUR "Sorry I'm late," Allan said as he sat down beside me at the bar. "I bumped into an old friend from college, my roommate actually and former lover." "Former?" I said anxiously, trying to keep the jealousy I felt out of my voice. "Definitely former, Steven, I haven't seen Gene since graduation. He was kinky then, sexually speaking, and, well, today he was with a boy." "His son?" "Not likely since the boy was black, maybe twelve years old and pretty as a girl. Gene always fantasized about having sex with young boys and I think his fantasy has been realized." "I'm having a fantasy right now, Allan." "Hmmm, really? You want to share it with me?" I downed my drink and signaled for the tab. "It's about you, lover boy. Your sexy body in my bed upstairs, naked of course, and that big dick of yours.... Allan took my hand in his. "Let's go." Four fantasy-filled hours later we talked about dinner. "Eat in or go out?" I asked, tasting the semen that coated my tongue. "Out," Allan responded. "Give housekeeping a chance to change these sheets. A girl could get pregnant by laying down in this bed." Sperm was oozing from his ass and mine, there wasn't a dry spot to be found on the bed. "Good idea. Where?" "Gene invited me to the private club he owns on the Upper West Side." "Who?" "Gene, my college roommate, remember?" "Oh, yeah, the boy lover. I wonder if it's a gay club?" "Would that bother you? We don't have to go." I'd been to one gay bar in Manhattan, alone, only to see what the experience was like. The scene was uninspiring and more than a little depressing; a mix of middle aged homosexual men, much like myself, seeking a long-term relationship, and randy young stud muffins looking for a night of raw sex. I might have been tempted by the sexual advances of one black fellow, until he brazenly put my hand in his crotch and described exactly what he had in mind for me and where I was going to do it. "You're gonna love going down on my big cock, pops," he said aloud with the confidence of youth. Like he was doing a big favor for an old man by offering me the chance to suck his dick. "Suck it real good, pops, and we'll keep your mouth busy all night." "How big is your dick?" I asked, stringing him along for the fun of it. "Ten inches, nine? I hear you black guys are really hung." "Six inches," he said in a whisper, apparently ashamed to admit that he had just an average size dick. "You wanna suck it?" I declined politely because big or small, blowing him and his friends in the back room of a gay bar was not my kind of sex. This time I would be with Allan and it just might be fun. The club was in a nondescript, four story building on a quiet residential side street. Allan knocked on the door, unmarked save for a plaque with the address, and we were promptly admitted inside after giving our names. Allan's friend Gene, with an Asian boy at his side, met us at the entrance to a dimly lit lounge. The boy was young, early teens, slightly built...and pretty as a girl. Except for the jeweled collar around his neck and the sandals on his feet the boy was naked as the day he was born. "Glad you could make it," Gene said warmly. I didn't want to like him, pedophiles are scum in my opinion, but he was so open and friendly, and the boy appeared to be unfazed by his nudity, that it was easy to forget what he was. "Follow me," Gene said as he took the boy's hand. "I have a table by the stage and the evening's entertainment is about to begin." When my eyes adjusted to the dim light I noticed that each table in the smokey lounge was occupied by men. Happy men, judging by the buzz of conversation and hearty laughter. And darting between the tables, serving drinks and food, were a slew of naked boys. "Beautiful creatures aren't they?" Gene said when he saw me staring at the unexpected sight. "I keep them naked because there's nothing so lovely as a smooth skinned naked boy just entering puberty." "Where do you get them?" Allan asked as we settled into our seats. "Here and there," Gene said noncommittally. "Ah, now here is your boy for the night, Ishan. He will provide you with food and drink and whatever else you may desire." "Your friend is sick," I said to Allan who was staring at the brown boy waiting by our table. The boy was nude like the others and absolutely faultless, the wispy curls of black pubic hair above his uncircumcised penis the only clue to his age. "Huh? What did you say?" Allan asked the boy to bring two Obans and turned to me at last. "Who's sick?" The stage lights came on before I could respond. A shroud of silence descended upon the room as the show began. The boys, seven of them, paraded onstage nude, firmly holding the penis of the boy to his rear. They performed for an hour, erotic, homosexual acts, concluding with a group masturbation and a simultaneous ejaculation of sperm. The appreciative audience, many with erections in hand or in a boy's mouth, cheered its approval. Ishan, silent throughout the evening, finally spoke in fractured English. "Suck and fuck now," he said, kneeling between us. "Man and boy make sex." "Man and man make sex," Allan said with a twinkle in his eye. "C'mon, Steven, let's go back to the hotel."