Date: Thu, 7 Oct 2004 15:54:38 -0700 (PDT) From: Thomas-Alexander Kind Subject: Mihai-05 'The truth is out there.!' And now here as well, as this is true and not all that long ago...or maybe too long ago.! No disclaimer, as the ones that hold the power do what they want anyhow. Everybody else does not need one. Storycode:M/b Mihai-05 Days after... The 'mice' are our only visitors tonight and after cooking and washing clothes, while the boys are cleaning themselves, eat and than sit mesmerized looking into the eyes of the cobra like the mice they are,...Television, it is almost midnight already. Mihai has been sleeping on the couch in front of the TV the last two weeks, when they are here. I find him huddled under the blankets there in the morning, sometimes with the set still on. * I had gone to my room, closed my door and gotten into bed, moving the lamp down to cast a gentle glow. The curtains are filtering out the lights of the city outside of the window. The close of the day, just a few noises from the 'mice' shutting off the TV and Daniel making his way into my friends room. Mihai is taking a noisy pee, the bathroom door must be open. Suddenly the door to my room opens and Mihai trots into the room. Stands at the foot of the bed...I am wide awake again.! Sheds sweatpants and top, and one small, skinny,...naked boy jumps into bed. Smiles and slides under the covers,...close. Closer, until his body is wrapped around mine. He is shivering a bit. He seems not afraid of my nakedness. Am I scared of his.? Squeezes closer and his head finds a place on my shoulder, next to my neck. I am scared.! Fish a cigarette out of the pack from the night-table and nervously light it to smoke. Mihai smiles at me expectantly. So after the first drag I hold it to his lips. He inhales, but his arms never leave the hold around my neck. Mihai sighs, but does not say anything. I switch off the light. Mihai's lips are on my neck as I stomp out the cigarette in the ashtray. My arms around him, I hold him close, he is not shivering any longer. We are warm under the covers. I am very aware of his skin on mine.! His body nearly on me.! My body reacting to all this closeness.! As I turn my head to look into Mihai's face, I find his lips on my cheek,... than on my lips and between them. Soft purring, happy noises from the boy that pushes his small tongue into my mouth and sucks on mine. We are melting together into the wetness between our teeth, Breathe each others breath. I am taken by surprise by the passion that brings little teeth around my lips, nipping on them and biting my tongue. I am shaking, am not quite sure this is real. Yes, since that night a few weeks ago, I have allowed myself fantasies of holding Mihai close. Have played elaborate games in my head about how to do something more for and with him than food and washing, shelter at night and Television. Had somehow never really included Daniel, who I knew was sleeping in my friends room, when they were over. Had been caught more than once by Mihai, when watching him too closely, and had found myself being smiled at wistfully. Yes, there seemed to be always a time during the evenings where Mihai would stand close, sit close or otherwise finding ways to be ... well, intimate with me. Like taking drags from my cigarette with me still holding it, leaning against me while I was washing dishes and he was drying them. Had gotten me to wash his hair every time he was here. Not that I minded. Looking at me with... well almost an expectation in his eyes, when saying good-night to him, on my way to my room at night. But it didn't really add up... until now. Mihai's eyes sparkle in the soft light. He rubs his face against mine, against my lips. Has his hand behind my head... just in case I try to get away... it seems.! His eyes only close and he hums softly...when my hands start to explore his body. I am afraid I will hurt him just by running my fingers over his chest...I can count every rib, can feel the bones in his body too readily, beneath his soft skin. He kicks off the cover,...my hand strokes his stomach. He does not let me go from his clasping thin arms around my neck. Inhales sharply, his mouth on mine, sucking the breath from deep inside me, as my fingers travel down from his navel.! Oh gods, it has been so long, since my fingers have traced the small creases to a boy's center. My hands are shaking, my mind is shaking... maybe the world is shaking right now.?! My consciousness is screaming at me: This will have consequences.! My heart is mumbling that this is what I have been longing for.! And my hands keep touching Mihai. My mouth is dry, but Mihai keeps feeding me his small wet tongue and I keep sucking on it as if it would nourish me. Well, maybe it does. He has rolled onto his back, and his legs open wide,...and I hold him in my hand. Trace the hard slim penis with the tip of my fingers, uncovering him, and beneath. As I break from the kiss he smiles at me. I am panting and kissing my way down his body and give him reasons to pant and moan his pleasure as I lift him into my mouth. Mihai is laying back on top of me. Relaxed from the release of the tension that was pulsing in him. Once around the moon and back, with his fists clutching my hair. He is wrapped around me, as close with his body as possible. The blanket covering us, I am softly stroking his back as his breathing slows and his eyes close to sleep. I know, I have stepped out into the void again. While we sleep, a new world will create itself. It will look like the old one, but both Mihai and I will know that it is different, shiny and new. Despite his bony body he is soft in my arms, as I hold him close and let myself drift off slowly into the realm of dreams. Thinking briefly whether I was already there,...these last few hours. More in Mihai-06