Date: Fri, 06 Apr 2007 10:00:59 +0100
From: Nathaniel Andrews <tigertike@operamail.com>
Subject: Nathaniel part 1 "GM" adult youth

It sucks you know, like no matter what you do theres this sign that says
kids keep out, yeah hello?? like thats going to work ?

but theres them signs always there to warn you, you sneak into nifty to
have a read and there it is the diclaimer stuff *If you are under 18 do not
read this* hey least it doesnt say about writing anything, but I do read
here right or wrong, good or bad its helped me. So much is written here
that sometimes helps with all the confusion there's some things you just
cant talk about but writing can be a whole lot easier.

 My name is Nathaniel or Natty which ever this is my story and yep theres
going to be some mega mistakes and punctuation mistakes in this and if you
find them well you can always offer advice on how to make it better.

My life is average and good, I think for most things Im a average kid, I do
pretty good at school not big on mixing with others at all I got this shy
problem which is why I like the internet because well dont have to make eye
contact with people on here which is something I have lots of troubles
doing the worse is I have light grey eyes which makes people look which
makes me totally unconfortable.  I dont remeber much of it but I was born
in iceland dont live there now I live in australia thats enough on that you
will get to know me more personal in the story. I discovered nifty by being
some where else Im guessing I shouldnt have been never thought much about
sexuality dont know why I started reading these stories but i did discover
why.

It was just another Saturday no big plans I rode my bike across to the
plaza to check out the games shop they sell alot of second hand games which
I buy for my PSP or PS2 Little Mr quite the dude at the shop calls me I
never talk much but hes always awesome with discounts for me sometimes I
only pay half the ticket price he knows I look after my stuff and when I
want to trade gives me a fair trade back price. I had found a pretty cool
game and was sitting in the middle of the Plaza on one of the bench seats
playing on my PSP, its just the local plaza theres some people around all
the time but not like totally packed out. I dont really stay to long I play
the game for awhile just to be sure Im happy with it then I get a shake so
I guess maybe a hour and a half I stay there for, the weird thing about it
is people you see become familiar not just the people working in the shops
but the ones shopping I guess just like me they have their days and times
to come in.

Anyway so I was playing my game not paying attention to much else I looked
up just as I finished a level and sitting across on the opposite bench was
some buisnessman dude holding a keno ticket lot of people sit and play keno
in the lunch breaks as I looked up at him he smiled really big and said "
hi there" and I just lifted my hand in like a small wave and whispered a
really quite "hi" back at him, its my way of being polite at the same time
kinda telling them im not big on talking. I know I've seen him before dont
know where he works or who he is Im pretty sure I had sat playing before
and he had been there.

This is where things got different, I went on playing I knew he was still
sitting there wasn't like I was looking at him or taking any notice more
like you just know when someone moves away and I kind of felt like he was
watching me, so I half looked up and yeah he was looked like he was staring
at my hands as I played, its really weird sometimes like how a few seconds
can seem like a few minutes as if everything slows down. He didnt seem to
notice that I was looking back I hadnt really moved my head up just my eyes
so maybe he just didnt know, I kept watching him his eyes sort of moved up
and down but kept focusing on one spot at first I thought great my t shirt
is on inside out or i have odd socks on or something just as dumb, but
thats when my cheeks and ears started to feel this hot feeling, I was
sitting on this bench in one corner kinda using the back and the arm
support to lean against I had one leg down the other resting on the bench
with my knee sort of point to the left I dont know why I even knew it but
just like a light comes on I thought he's looking up my shorts leg at least
on the leg that was pointing away.

This was kind of tricky I straight away went back to playing the game but I
couldnt really concentrate, its like inside you is having this big talk "
is he really looking up my shorts? , why is he?, is he one of them pervy
men that people always talk about and whats so exciting about seeing a tiny
bit of colour from my undies cause he wouldnt be seeing that much, maybe I
should just pack up and leave its not like he knows I know"

But I didn't leave I just sat there half playing, watching and wondering
what this dude was thinking some where in the middle of all of that I
suddenly mega jumped when a voice came from beside.

" that looks like fun, new game?"

" yep" I answered kinda fast mostly because I wasnt ready at all, the guy
had moved from his seat and was now sitting next to me and I hadnt even
notice him move I was totally nervous the same way I am around anyone but
not scared this was the middle of the mall there were other people around.

" I often see you down here playing, I thought it must be when you get a
new game, what's your name?"  he asked.

just what i didnt need a dude that wanted to talk but at the same time some
part of me was a little but curious what he was up to and why.

" umm Nathaniel or Natty" I answered quietly

" Thats a nice name, mine is Jack it's nice to meet you" The man said.

 Im thinking noooo please dont do all that lame introducing stuff it makes
me feel so totally uncomfortable and dont you dare be thinking we are going
to shake hands its just so not cool, but there is one word that you can use
that covers everything and I used it

"cool"

such a good word to use cause it like covers everything without having to
say much at all.

I think about now is the time people need to begin to see the characters,
Im 134 cm's tall below average for my age but thats the way it is Im 12
years old not that far away from 13, you know about my grey eyes, I have
blond hair which ever since i was 3 I always had long at the back not real
long maybe 7 cms longer than the collar of my t shirt the sides just cover
my ears Im not fat or skinny I guess besides my size Im pretty average, Im
not a nerd or dorky but Im not into all the brand clothing and being mega
cool, Im still totally into playing and I like my clothes to be useful for
that like cargo jeans or shorts or just plain jeans and t shirts that fit
and you dont have to be pulling up every time you move.

Jack well any adult seems tall to me so I can't tell you how tall he is but
Im guess he would be average for a man not any taller than other men or
short, anyone over 16 is old and I dont have much idea on working out how
old someone is i figured he was around 40 I was close he is 47, he dresses
neat in buisness suits not fat but he had a bit of a tummy like alot of men
do, sort of dark hair but bits of grey at the sides and brown eyes I guess
really just a average man, the only thing I really noticed when he moved to
my seat was his after shave, not something i ever taken notice of before it
wasnt strong but it did smell kinda nice and fresh maybe it seems weird to
you but the first think I thought was bet he drives a cool car and I dont
know why just felt from the way he was that he had cool things.

So we are sitting on this bench he tells me he works across the road and
what he does and I just nod my head thats my way of saying yeah Im
listening but Im not getting into a talk with you mister it was right then
i froze while he was talking he moved the hair near my ear and suddenly
said " you have a ear stud"

no kidding had one since I was 9 just a tiny little gold one no big deal I
think all this stuff then say something like "um yeah"

" I like it" Jack said " you look cute"

CUTE! helllooo anyone inside there mister 12 nearly 13 not 6 !  but what do
I stay to make sure he knows Im no little kid " thanks" how lame can i get
I just feel so hopless at talking with people and saying what Im really
thinking but the weird thing is I dont think I would have said anything,
for that few seconds it felt I guess nice for someone to say something nice
he didnt mean it as a put down.

" Would you like to go get a drink at the food court" Jack suddenly asked

I dont know this man at all 5 minutes ago he was looking up my shorts a
minute ago he was calling me cute now he's inviting me to get a drink, the
food court is right in the middle of the plaza no risk there, Men going
after boys ok yeah i know about it have like 5 stranger danger leaflets at
the bottom of my back pack from school, I hear things on the TV I know you
dont hop into strangers cars, I know they can trick, you dont accept gifts
and you sure dont go anywhere with them, I knew all that but i was still
curious was he really one of them men trying to pick me up or something I
dont think i really believed he could be which is why I just shrugged my
shoulders and said "ok sure"

I packed my game away and walked with him to the middle of the plaza, how
bad could it be I was getting a free shake and some hot chips saves me
spending my pocket money. We sat in the court he had just coffee I had my
shake and hot drinks.

" So what game are you playing Natty? Jack asked

" Umm need for speed carbon I really like the racing ones" I replied

" I like those as well, but I'm not very good at playing them I just bought
the PS3 great graphics but I'm flat out useless at playing them" Jack
smiled

PS3 ! Im thinking thats like every boys dream console well its mine anyway
but its 1000 bucks thats like a massive christmas present when youve been
totally good which I am and I kinda knew I would get it at christmas but
that was months and months away, Jack told me about the games he had and
chatted about other things and you know I totally forgot about him looking
up my shorts, I didnt have to say much he didnt seem bothered that i didnt
and happy to just talk about anything I just nodded or said yep and nope or
a few short sentences. I think about a hour passed and he had to go back
and finish his work he told me he really enjoyed my company and hoped we
could do it again soon I said seeya and that was the end of it.  Well end
of it for that day see after that I still did my Saturday ride to the mall
and played my psp and he would either be there or come a little while
later, and he always invited me for some lunch at the food court, but there
was always that first part where he sat opposite and had a perv, and it
began to not bother me at all, If I got to be honest I was even sitting
that way I think so he could Im not really sure why just something kind
exciting about it.

I think it was about our 5th lunch when things changed big time, Jack was
chatting like normal when he suddenly asked " whats your fav colour?"

" umm blues and greens I like all colours cept for pink way to girly, how
come?  whats yours?"  I answered wasnt really sure where that question came
from

Jack smiled " me to I like pale yellow and the blues and greens and Im not
into pink either, you were wearing a yellow t shirt last week I was
thinking how nice it looked on you" Jack answered but he seemed a little
nervous or something maybe because as he said it he had reached across the
table and put his hand on top of mine as he talked he was kind of rubbing
my finger with his thumb not the coolest thing to be doing but not really
uncomfortable just sort of strange as he kept rubbing my fingers with his
thumb he looked across at me way more nervous than I had ever seen him and
said " I was hoping you might have some yellow undies you might wear next
week"

whoaa well there it was like this bucket of water tipped over you, you cant
not hide from what is right there it took away the was he or wasnt he
looking question and made it for sure not just that he was telling me thats
what he did, what i didnt understand was why it was so exciting I just sort
of stared at my shake but i was thinking well I have light yellow ones with
white yachts on and pale yellow ones were the elastic stuff around the legs
and waist is light pale orange and then came my totally big reply

" not sure maybe"

Jack just smiled and squeezed my hand and then went back to drinking his
coffee, I know that was the smartest reply but its not like I had said for
sure and yeah I will, how do you answer a question like that anyway yeah i
know it should have been something more like in your dreams dirty old perv
and I should have got up left and never seen him again , but i didnt
instead i just said maybe and you know what that next saturday I had my
shower got ready to go over and what did I do?  but yep got the yellow
undies with white yachts on out put them on them my shorts and t and off I
went like duuuh Im doing exactly what a perv wants and i shouldnt be but i
was.

Yeah just like normal Jack had his 3 minute perv I played my game but i was
thinking all through it wonder what he really gets from that I mean he can
hardly see anything at all in a way it just sort of seems a bit lame, but
then that was the last of that routine everything was about to change again
mega time. Just like normal Jack came and sat next to me on the seat but
there was no lets go get some lunch or what game you playing today Im not
sure what doing what he had asked meant to jack but he squeezed my shoulder
and said

" How about we go over to my house for awhile it's not far only about a ten
minute walk , we can have some lunch there, relax a little and you can
check out the PS3 what do you think?"  Jack raised his eyebrows a little I
think it was his like hopeful look.

For a minute I clicked the game off and looked up and down the mall, Jack
was still a stranger you just plain shouldnt go with strangers but like
always my mouth didnt come out with the right thing to say which should
have been no i better not but instead my normal shrug and " I guess i could
for a little while"

 yeah not a smart thing for sure but you know I still never felt scared of
Jack, sure he perved and that wasnt a secret now and as i rode along next
to jack on my bike while he walked, I had to think I let him perv even wore
something he asked me to wear, Im not the smartest kid in the universe but
not the dumbest either if something or someone bugs you, then you dont go
along with what they ask but I did and it was still somewhere deep inside
of me exciting there was heaps of boys in the mall on any day but Jack kept
taking notice of me maybe that just made me feel a bit special or
something.

Jack had a pretty awesome two story house a black mitsubishi GTO sports car
in the drive way, inside was clean massive plasma TV and stereo equipment ,
computer, video cams on tripods all sorts of stuff, really nice furniture
oh yeah PS3 sitting on a coffee table hooked up to the plasma, Jack lived
alone but as I looked around the lounge room he said he had a cleaner come
in once a week to clean the house cept for a couple of rooms which he
locked just the main rooms lounge, kitchen bathrooms things like that which
meant nothing to me at all just that the place was clean and nice.

" I bet you are busting to check out the PS3 little one " Jack smiled at me
, he had this way of keep adding things in like cutey , little one or
sweety it bugged me at first I thought he was teasing because of my size he
kept making me feel as if I was 5 or 6 years old but he had always been
like that and I stopped feeling like he meant it in a mean tease way, i
figured its just his way, sometimes I wanted to say thats not cool, Im 12
not a little boy but he never did it when people were close only when he
was sure noone else could hear so it never really bothered me anymore.

" sure that would be cool" I answered looking at the ps3 on the table as
jack sat down on one of the big arm chairs that i was standing next to as
he did he reached for both of my hands pulling me gently so I was standing
between his legs facing him.

" How about we get you a little more comfy baby boy before we start?" Jack
said as he rubbed his hands up and down my arms softly

you are pushing it with baby boy dude least thats what i was thinking and i
thought of throwing in something to remind him I was 12 but didnt seem to
be worth getting stressed up over and i wasnt sure what getting me more
comfy meant I wasnt uncomfortable anyway but you know me by now I come back
with my huge reply

" ok i guess so"

As soon as I said it Jack reached down and began to untie the laces on my
runners, I could have told him I never bothered untying them just pulled
them straight off but I didnt and it made sense what he meant by being more
comfy normally i would take my shoes off soon as I was inside but Jack
didnt stop there after he pulled off each runner he them lifted each leg
and pulled my socks off that was no big deal either

" up with the arms baby boy" Jack said as he reached for the bottom of my t
shirt

I really needed to think this out, there was that baby boy thing again to
make it way worse I lifted my arms up like some 5 year old letting Jack
take off my t shirt, I havent been undressed for 6 or 7 years and not by
someone i hardly know but I just stood there letting him take it of and
then finally my mouth come out with something half smart for a change.

" I do know how to dress and undress myself " I said staring at Jack as he
folded up the t shirt and put it on the floor next to the chair.

" Of course you do sweety " Jack smiled as he rubbed up and down my arms
softly again " but you don't mind me doing it do you?" he asked as he lent
forward and kissed just above my belly button " do you want to take your
shorts off or would you like me to? then I can have a good long look at
you" Jack asked again before i even had a chance to answer the first
question the weird thing was the way he talked the sound of his voice made
me feel like I was some little kid , I wasn't really sure what to think or
say take of my shorts?  where did that come from what makes him think i
want to be half nudey anyway this was way out , how was I meant to answer,
I didnt want to answer, I didnt answer and i didnt have to.

" you want me to dont you baby" Jack answered popping the top button on my
shorts then unzipping them as he slowly began to pull them down.

" yeah" I answered and my voice was kinda weird and shakey

yeah? YEAH! what am I saying, yeah I want a man pulling my shorts down?  I
got to be going totally nutso or something the dude is undressing me and i
say yeah and I know my face was feeling hot so it must have been red and
what do I do as Jack pulls the shorts down to my ankles I step out of them!
just like a good little boy right in front of him I step out of my stupid
shorts not scared by Jack but so totally confused by my self, I just didn't
understand how I had got down to standing in front of him in my undies, he
never threated me or made me I could have said no but I didn't.

" Thats my little boy, thats much better you're a real little cutey arn't
you" Jack spoke softly as he ran his arms up and down my chest, then his
finger across the top of the elastic on my undies so lightly it made them
goosey bumps come up on my arms, then he put his hands each side of the
inside of my legs pushing slightly not hard or anything but enough that I
moved my legs apart only because I guessed thats what he meant but just
like before I didnt have to I could have just stood the same way.

" Your such a good boy Natty" Jack said softly as I watched him looking at
me and running his finger up and down just as lightly on the leg elastic
his finger just missing my nuts each time, I was still covered by undies
but it was right them I suddenly thought he can see where my willy is even
my nuts undies only cover they dont hide outlines and I knew thats what he
was looking at

" Turn around for me Natty"

and you got it, I turned around feeling Jacks hand rubbing my bottom and I
knew without seeing thats what he was looking at, facing away from him I
could think and that was the scarey part as i felt his big hands rubbing my
bottom and knew where he was looking while inside me Im asking myself what
am I doing here suddenly my own voice in my head answers me *you like what
hes doing* and it was the start of understanding me.

( hope you like my first part I working on part two right now, if you got
some advice on how to write better that would be cool, if you got something
rude or not nice to say get over over yourself it will just go right into
the email trash bin and if you read down to here thankyou way much)