Date: Fri, 11 Mar 2005 15:39:11 -0800 (PST) From: T Chase McPhee Subject: Nature Walk 03 The following story is a work of fiction set in the format of reality. Any resemblance to real people is entirely coincidental in nature, and is not meant to accurately reflect persons in towns, cities, or governmental areas, in which the story is staged. If sexual scenes involving male to male relationships offends you, then you should not read this story. Additionally, if you are under 18 years of age, in most states and countries, you are not allowed to read this by law. "Nature Walk" 03 (M/t) wriTten by T. Chase McPhee Steve, the back lot neighbor, hung around, as Bernice talked up the Chatsworth place, hoping Barry would consider the purchase. "It's more like an estate! The three bungalows, plus whatever you've stated is hiding behind this humongous home. It's all so very attractive, Bernice, but it's got to have a huge price tag to match!" "Tell you what I'm going to do then, Barry." Steve points out, "Get ready for a Bernice 'random act of kindness'." "Steve, shut up or take a hike!" "Yes, Ma'am," he said, grinning. Steve knew from being around, that Bernice could be a tough buzzard, but also gentle as a lamb, with a heart as soft as a fluffly, furred animal. "I'm going to forgo my comission and finders fee and..." "Oh, that's out of the question, Bernice." "Barry, now you're insulting me,." the tough buzzard barked. "Give in, Barry," Steve warned, "she'll get you sooner or later." "'Bout time you said something worthwhile, Steve. You better listen to him, Barry." "She pulled the same thing on me and my partner when we moved here." "I don't know, Bernice," Barry still stood on his ground, not being swayed by the two. "Oh no! I think I've made a terrible mistake! Lord forgive me!" Steve and Barry thought Bernice would drop to her knees and start babbling out a confession. Instead, Steve decided to prod. "You? Make a mistake, Bernice?" "Fiddlesticks! I do have a right to be wrong if I want to, Steve." Steve reminded him, "Told you Barry. She's weaving her evil spell over you." "Steve, you stink! Go home and shower." Barry couldn't keep a straight face, with Bernice's blunt remarks, directed at Steve. Then his mind zipped back to reality. Steve decided to leave while still on good terms. "Bye Barry." "See you in school on Monday, Steve." "Oh, you'll see me before then." "Um, Bernice?" "Yes?" "Could I trouble you to share the undesirable news?" "What news?" "The mistake?" "Oh yes. Now I know you'll most likely be heapin' mad at me Barry, but I just remembered that I had sold the place up the hill and thought of calling you yesterday, but figured you already had left, going to the airport that is and boarded you plane and..." Barry listened knowing Bernice had cooked up some cock and bull story, as her lips rattled on, pouring out reasoning that didn't seem to rhyme. "So, Bernice. You mean to tell me that for weeks you have gone to the trouble to send me dozens of digital photos, even sent me paperword to sign, deeding me the home and on top of that, alerting me to the fact that it's time to catch a flight, drag my boys and I all the way out here from the east, to pull the house out from under us?" "Guess I expected too much. Okay Barry, you win. Let's get your boys rounded up and take you all back to the airport." Bernice starts strutting back up the graveled road. "Hold it, hold it, Bernice." "Yes?" As the seconds ticked away, so did Barry's thoughts. "Can I ask a question?" "Shoot," she yelled back down the road, the several feet traversed. "How much is this going to set you back?" "Set me back?" "Alright, Bernice, just give me the bottom line." "Same price as the other place, plus $50 a month until I think you've paid enough." "What? That's insane, Bernice. This place has to be at least three times worth the other house is!" "You calling me a crazy woman, Barry?" "Damn right I am, Bernice!" "Well, that's calling the kettle black." "Huh?" "You busted your own son for cursing in front of a lady and now here you are doing it yourself." By this time Barry didn't know what to think. What had happened over the past couple of months had drained him of much of his mental and physical energies. A half hour ago he had been upbeat. Now he didn't know what decision he should make. Walking across the graveled street, he sat on a boulder, looking down at the coarse pebbles. Bernice, seeing that her blunt remarks might have dulled the the sensitivity, followed. Toning down her voice, she spoke, "Look, Barry. Let me tell you something about the Chatsworth place. It's been up for sale for five years now with no takers. Sure, I had hopes of some millionaire walking up to me and offering me a bundle and a half for the place, but I guess if I don't sell soon, that dream is going to turn into a nightmare. The place needs some TLC. To be lived in." "Some of it looks a little rundown." "You're right. I wouldn't let you even consider this without telling you the downsides. There's a stable out back that needs lots of work. Heck, Matty and I can be real handy with a bucket of nails and a hammer. But that's besides the point. Also place is overgrown and needs a haircut. In response, I'll absorb all the legal fees and forgo the commission." "I don't know Bernice." "I know you just blew into town today. What I'm going to do is tell you to move in and live in the place. If by the end of the school year you have any doubts about living there, then shoot, I'll find something else to your liking." "What about taxes?" "Taxes are next to nothing around here. The biggest is the school tax and I for one would double that, considering the top notch education our kids get. Well, Matty benefitted and I'm sure your children, will receive a well rounded education. Don't you go and worry yourself about that, Barry. The first year's taxes are included in the sale, as my responsibility." Barry, getting too wise, asks, "And I suppose the first month's groceries." "Now you've gone and ruined my surprise, Barry!" Barry grinned, chuckling to himself. If he wanted the Eiffel Tower included, he wondered if Bernice would have it erected in the back yard, saying it had been included in the deal. "Another question." "Shoot." "Why are you doing all this for me and my boys?" Bernice puts her foot up against the boulder. Looking out over the countryside, she begins summing up the future, "In another few years I intend on making Matty a full partner and then eventually he'll take on the whole business. I don't want to leave him with any liabilities." "Following in the old lady's footsteps, eh?" "I'm going to ignore that remark on account of I don't have a swish handy!" Barry started out the round of giggling, followed by Bernice. "You're being overly generous, Bernice.? Why" "Sure as hell is right is in front of your own face. I'm surprised you haven't picked up on it, Barry." "Picked up on what?" "Chad. He's madly in love with my Matty." Now that's something Barry would never had picked out of the blue, in a million years. Sure, he had an inkling of Chad's sexual preferences, but coupled, nada. "How do you know for a fact, Bernice?" "Matty came out to me a long time ago. I must admit I sensed hurt and scorned him. I had hopes of Matty meeting the girl of his dreams, married and a house full of grandchildren. Not long after I found out, Steve and his partner, Seb moved in. I kicked myself for a week or so, realizing that his wife were a 'he'!" Barry chuckled, saying, "I hope you didn't get too bruised up, Bernice." "You and Steve. I don't know if I can take two jokers in the neighborhood!" "So, tell me about it, Bernice." Bernice began the short version of how she came to know Steve and his family of boys. "When they moved in they had this cute little boy, around Philip's age. He used to venture through the gate at the back of the Chatsworth place and weaseled his way through the wrought iron fencing. I'd find him at my back door. I began with giving him a cookie or two. This went on for a month, until one day Matty invited him in for cookies and milk. Before long, Sean became a permanent fixture and Matty's playmate." "Was he, um..." "Gay?" Bernice questioned for Barry. "Um, yeah. Not that it matters though, Bernice." "All of the Clark boys are. Steve and Seb did that type of thing. Adopted young boys whose parents didn't want them simply because they were gay." "Oh man. That would break my heart." "It made me make up my mind on accepting things. When Sean took Matty and I home one day, that's just what it did. I realized that Steve and Seb were having a dickens of a time making ends meet. They had just the two boys then, Sean is now nineteen and Denis, sixteen, but since then they've adopted Eric and Aidan, fourteen and eleven." "Don't tell me you turned into 'Crazy Bernice'?" Bernice smiled. "Yeah, what the hell, I've got myself a really good boy, enough money in the bank and a nice place for us to lay our head at night. The Lord's been mighty good to Matty and me." "And?" "Steve said I did a dumb thing, I couldn't stand to see the house starting to fall into a decrepit condition. When they moved in, something dropped on the front steps cracked the cement, a window was broken. Not that they seemed to be unkept, but I found out that they couldn't even afford soap to wash their clothes. What do you think of that?" "Sounds like they needed so help and fast. So, what did you think up?" "I marched down to the bank, wrote out a check for the balance on their mortgage and Cyrus marked them paid in full. Then I delivered the deed myself, back to them." At that point, Barry began to fill up with tears. "Now what did I go and do?" "It's not you, Bernice." What was Bernice to do? Sit there like a bump on a log? "Oh come on now, Barry. You're going to have me wailing like a waterfall." She put her hand on his back, rubbing it up and down, trying to calm the sad being inside Barry. "I'm sorry, Bernice." "Why? You lost the love of a lifetime, not that you might find another." "It's not really that. The boys never knew this. There's more." "Ooooh, I can see this is going to take more time then sitting five minutes on this boulder. C'mon. Let's go back to my place and we'll talk later on this." "But..." "No buts, Barry. And another thing, you and your boys are going to be my guests tonight and if you start giving me any crap, I'm gonna take you out back and give you a swishin'!" % "I'm all done ripping the lettuce apart, Alberto." "Hmm, mighty professional job, I must say. Are you sure you haven't made a salad before this, Philip?" "Nope. My first time. What else you need help with Alberto?" Tom and Mark arrived. "So, how's little Miss Muffin doing?" Tom, the smart alec asks. "Alberto?" "Yes, Philip?" "May I throw this tomato at my brother?" "Why certainly. He deserves it!" "Nooooo, you crazy, Squirt?" Tom protested, crouching down below the counter. Mark just cackled. "Hey, what's happening here?" Barry shouts, as he and Bernice enter the kitchen "Hi dad!" Philip returned. Tom tattled, "Squirt here asked Alberto if he could throw the tomato at me and Alberto said yes." "Do you deserve it, Tom?" Barry interrogated the guilty party. The look on Tom's face, showed Barry the truth. "Cased dismissed." "Barry, this is Alberto, our cook," Bernice addresses the mostly French man. "Let me take your coat." Philip says, excitedly, "Look, dad! Alberto taught me how to make this salad!" "Alberto, I hope you made sure his mitts were washed?" "Oops!" Alberto sighed, covering his mouth. Bernice wises Barry up, "Don't you believe that Alberto for a moment, Barry. He's worse than you and Steve put together!" "Anybody home?" A voice projects from the backdoor screen came. "Oh Lordy," Bernice sighed, "throw another ten steaks on the grill, Alberto. C'mon in Steve!" Not only did the twenty-eight year old appear, but three urchins. "Hi Aunt Bernice!" got recycled three times over, complete with a hug and a kiss. The hogcall went out, "Matteeeeeeeee!" In ten seconds flat, Matty replies, "Yeah mom?" leading Chad into the kitchen. "You and Chad have some entertaining to do. Show all of these hedgehogs your video collection." "Yes, ma'am!" Matt said, saluting the captain. Philip asks, "Can I call you Aunt Bernice, too?" "Well sure, if your dad says it's okay." "She's wearing you down, Barry!" Steve commented, grinning. "Hmm... for now, Philip." "Can I hug you too, Aunt Bernice?" After Philip left the kitchen, Bernice comments, "He's gonna be a real heartbreaker, that Philip." "He already is," Barry says, referring to the hug and peck on the cheek administered to Bernice's cheek. Bernice switches her attention to her neighbor, "What'd you smell the steaks cooking, Steve?" "Now you know Aidan has a sensitive nose, Bernice." "Yeah, right, Steve. Why don't you go play bartender with Barry while I go take a leak?" Barry broke out in uncontrollable laughter, with Steve and Alberto trailing. "Something from the bar, Alberto?" "Sure, I'll have the usual, please." Hanging over the railing, on her way upstairs, Bernice shouts, "Just bring him the bottle. With this bunch of urchins, Alberto is going to be under a lot of stress. I hope you have enough Zebra ice cream to go around." % "I wanna watch Rocky III... no, we're watching 'Indiana Jones'... I wanna watch the Matrix...Hey, what's this, Matty?" The war erupts. One of Steve's kids, fourteen year old Eric, comes out of the video cabinet with a three video, deluxe edition. "You can just put that right back where you found it Eric!" Matty instructs without deliberation. "Come on, Matty!" Eric pesters, holding the trio of 'Queer As Folk' video's. "No, Eric, we're not all gay here." "You're gay, Eric?" Tom asks, with no finesse. "Sure. All my brothers and I are. Why, Tom?" "No reason." "Are you gay?" Eric retorts. "Nope, but I think somebody in our family is!" Looking directly on target, Tom stares at Chad. "Okay, so what do I care now? I'm gay, so, Tom? So is Matty. I hope you don't mind them knowing that?" Chad asks a little too late. "No, Chad. No problem for me," Matty infers. "In fact I'm one of those gay pride guys. I never was sorry for what I am and never will be." "I didn't say I had a problem with a guy being gay," Tom explained, "I wasn't sure that Chad was." Mark spills the beans, "Tom and I thought you were, Chad, but we were just scared to ask you." "Well, from now on, I want you to ask me anything you want and not feel bad about it. That goes for you too, Squirt." Out of the blue, Philip states, "I'm gay." "How do you know your gay?" Chad himself didn't let it register. "Because I act just like you do, Chad. I don't like looking at girls and like it when I see a guy without a shirt." "Well, I'll be," Chad stands there, a bit in awe. Tom says right away, "I'm telling dad right now!" "Tom?" "Yeah, Chad?" "Ever hear of a straight guy bashing a gay guy?" "Yeah." "Ever hear of a gay guy bashing a straight guy?" "Nope." "You tell dad and you'll witness it." Laughter filled the room, as Tom turned reddish, a sight that rarely befell the fourteen year old. "I'm almost your age, Philip and I'm gay," Aidan says outright. "Cool!" Philip says excitedly. "Maybe Chad and Matty can show us what to do and we can do it!" "That's not the way it works, Squirt. You just don't go around making love to guys because they're gay." "Do you and Matty make love?" Aidan asks. Philip, reinforces, "Yeah, do you?" Scratching his head Chad states, "You know Matty, might not be such a bad idea to watch 'QAF'." "You're joking of course, Chad?" He replies. "No, I'm serious. I mean you and I will be here to fill in the blanks, in case the peewees have a question," Chad rationalizes. "How about a little of it," Matty compromised, "and I'll keep the remote in my hand for 'fast forwards'." "I don't want to sit here and watch a bunch of queers make out," Tom protested. Mark went along with whatever Tom did. "You're going to sit right there, Tom and get an education, along with the rest of the boys," Chad spelled out to the two straight teens. As QAF played on, the guys began to make fun of Tom, as he tented his jeans. Matty hit the fast forwards on many a scene, breaking up a lot of the nude action. "I'm not a queer!" From all those years of teasing, Tom went through hell and back, getting the tease-a-thon of his life! In an hour's time the hogcaller summoned the gang for dinner. "Coming, mother," seven voices rang out. Tom didn't go along with the 'queers', even though Mark did. If Chad and Matty wished to keep the viewing of 'QAF' secretative, they should have primed their audience. "So, what were you guys watching?" Barry asks. Philip comes right out with, "Us guys watched 'The Queer Ones'." "Chad? You want to explain?" "Um, dad, it's not like it seems, okay?" Bernice and Steve, plus all the sons, stood there as the two and half person conversation moved along. From the mouths of babes, came, "Oh c'mon Chad. Do you think dad is going to love us any less because we're queers?" "Told you Philip was going to be a heartbreaker, Barry." Bernice pats him on the shoulder. "You knew I was queer, Aunt Bernice?" Philip asks. "No, but I know you're a real cutey!" She reinforces her assumption with a pinch on the cheek. "Um, I think we better save this for an after dinner discussion," Barry suggests. Alberto appears. "Who is ready for a nice crisp, black steak?" Bernice asks, "And who is ready for five dollars deducted from their pay check for each burned steak?" Everybody saw the whites of Alberto's eyes, reflecting like saucers, then do a quick about face, hustling back to the kitchen. They all cracked up in laughter. Dinner proceeded buffet style, with the steaks, baked potatoes, complete with sour cream topping, corn on the cob and the all too familiar bottle of Heinz, all set up on the butcher block table in the kitchen. Alberto had handwritten a sign, placing it in front of the salad bowl, spelling out, 'handmade by Philip's clean hands!' "Now, before you all head off to the back porch or main room, let us bow our heads for a quickie," Bernice smiles, folding her hands. Philip blurts out, "Mom used to have us say grace all the time. How come you don't say it anymore, dad?" "Um, I... I don't know," He replied, solemnly, blushing, as if committing a terrible crime. Bernice kidded, "Well, Barry you better get down on your knees tonight and pray for forgiveness!" Then she went right into the prayer, "Everybody form a circle and hold hands." She patiently waited, smiling at Philip, grabbing Aidan's so willingly. "Gracious Lord, we thank you for the bountiful gifts that you have provided for us and all these handsome men surrounding me, ay-men!" "Just the way I like it," Denis admitted, "Short and sweet!" Everyone joined in a merry round of laughter at Denis' comment, also agreeing to the fact of the matter. Tom and Mark Barr sat in the big hall, where the balconies cascaded from above. They were alienated until Eric and Denis Clark brought their plates of food in. "Alright if we sit here?" Denis asks. Tom says, "Free country," a bit of sarcasm entwined. "How old are you, Tom?" Denis asked. "Why?" "You're about my height, so I wondered if you were around my age." "How old are you, Denis?" Mark asked. "Sixteen." "Yeah, I'm around that," Tom answered for himself, then went back to stuffing his face. Eric repeated the same grilling with Mark. "I'm fourteen and you, Eric?" "Same." Tom might have been closed mouthed, but Mark wasn't like his brother. On the contrary, most times he impersonated a social butterfly. "Where exactly do you guys live?" Using his fork as a hand of a compass, Eric pointed towards the bar. "We live that way, in between the iron fence and then straight back past the Chatsworth stable and through the gate." "Sounds far," the butterfly continued to converse. Denis answered, "No, not far at all. Want us to show you later?" "Might be too late," Mark replied. "Then maybe tomorrow," Eric extended the invite. "That would be cool." "I'm not sure about that, Mark." "About what, Eric?" "The weather. I think it's supposed to be kind of mild. Did you hear anything about tomorrow, Denis?" "I think Mark is right. It's supposed to be cool." After Mark chuckled, he explained the term to the two boys. The whole time, Tom remained silent, except for the chomping and gulping. "How are you doing boys?" The cheerful voice interrupts. "Fine Aunt Bernice," Eric says. Denis compliments, "Everything's great as usual." "Well, I expect to have 'no' leftovers!" Bending over Tom's shoulders, Bernice asks, "are you getting enough to eat, Tom?" "Yeah, I'm fine Mrs. Bridges." Mark didn't care for Tom's cold manner, so tried to warm up the room. "Do you eat this good all the time, Aunt Bernice?" Now that rocked Tom the wrong way for sure. He threw his plate down on the coffee table, got up and walked out the front door. In Tom's thinking he assumed a miserable attitude and counted on Mark following through on the protest. Next thing the boys knew, Aunt Bernice had disappeared and their father headed for the front door. "Do you think your brother is in trouble, Mark?" "No, I think he's just.... having...." Tears began to well up in the sixteen year old's eyes. "You okay, Mark?" Denis asked, as Eric went to inform Aunt Bernice. Shereported directly, Denis looked up. She came and sat down next to Mark. "What's the matter, Mark honey?" "I miss my mom." "Of course you do and I want you to do something, Mark." "Huh?" "Tell me what your mama looked like." Bernice produced a tissue box, seemingly out of thin air. "Help yourself, Mark honey. Eric, why don't you get Mark a fresh Gatorade?" "Same flavor, Mark?" "Yeah, thanks." The slow reply came. "Feel a little better, Mark?" Denis inquired, putting his hand on the weeping boy's shoulder, which Mark let remain. "A little. My mom had dark hair and kind of long for awhile. At the beginning of the summer she had it cut shorter." Bernice tried helping the story along, "She was a lawyer or something like that, right?" "At first, yes, but then she got this big promotion. We all were so proud of her and then... somebody had to go and kill her!" "I... I'm real sorry, Mark," Denis sincerely remarked, after recovering from the brief shocker. Bernice motioned for Eric to offer Mark the lime colored bottle. "Here's your Gatorade, Mark." Erik felt maybe his hand ready to fall off, by the time Mark broke free from the tear spell on Aunt Bernice's shoulder. Normally Aunt Bernice would complain if anybody sat on the table, meant for just magazines and other lightweight stuff, but didn't remark when scrawny Erik plopped down on it, so that he could be nearer Mark. Some rules could be overridden at special times. % "Do you understand some, Tom?" Barry had just delivered a father to son talk that he had rehearsed over many a time, in chatting with the other three boys. Each time the words of remorse and explanations of why things happen takes a different twist of words, but the message is primarily the same. Barry hoped his thoughts would console Tom. "It's just tough to think why anyone would want to kill mom, dad." "I know son. Each of us had our own special way of loving your mother and each special memories. It's those memories that will keep her in our hearts forever." "It was so tough leaving the house that we all lived in." "Yes, that's true. The six of us built up some strong memories, didn't we? Tom, there's something I want you to always remember about everyone in our family." "Yeah, dad?" "We're a close family aren't we?" "I think." "What I want you to think about is our family being like a tree. Can you picture that in your mind?" "You mean, with the trunk, limbs and leaves?" "Yes and the roots. Each one of us is one of those roots. Even though, like the roots of the tree, our lives will grow in different directions. Each of us will always be a part of the other." Barry let his case rest for a minute or so. "Well? What do you think, Tom?" "I think I understand. Dad?" "Yes, son?" "Did mom's root grow down into the ground. You know what I mean?" "Like down into that hot place?" "Yeah." "Nope," Barry went through the 'think-fast' mode and continued, "she grew up through the limbs, towards heaven." "Whew! I'm glad you explained that, dad. You got me worried." Barry smiled, holding Tom close to this heart. "Feel a bit better, Tom?" "Yup." "As far as the house is concerned, as you know we couldn't live on my substitute teaching, could we?" "No." "There were no teaching jobs around our area. It's inevitable that we would have had to move, so I figured a new area, with a new climate would be healthy for all of us. What do you think, Tom?" "I don't know yet." "That's a fair enough answer. What I am going to ask you to do is give people and things a fair chance." "Dad, most of the boys in there are gay." "Yes and?" "Mark and I are the only ones that aren't." "Don't you think that gay's and lesbians have straight friends?" "I guess." "Do you love your brother Chad any less now that you know for sure that he is gay?" "I love Chad lots, dad." "Then I think you ought to be a big man about it and show him. You know that gay pride is not just for gays." "Huh?" "Sure. During the civil rights movement here in the United States, it wasn't just the blacks that helped move it along. Plenty of whites and other races helped the integration of schools and put laws into effect. Didn't you learn that in school?" "I think. I know they stress it around the time Martin Luther King's birthday comes along." "Now I know that a sexual preference can be a little different, but the people are the same. White, black, hispanic, asian, straight, bisexual, gay, lesbian, handicapped, no matter how you put it, we're all the same. Chad didn't change appearance the instant you found out he was gay, did he?" "No." "Then think of those other boys in there. They're the same before and after you found out they were gay." "Do I have to call her Aunt Bernice?" "Nope. Call her plain ole Bernice if you want to." "She's not related to us. I feel strange." "Like I said, Tom. Give things a chance. And about Bernice, we met her just today and to most of us, she seems like a long lost aunt. She's been nothing but kind to us, hasn't she Tom?" "Yeah." "She's going to be putting us up for the night and I think she would appreciate hearing a 'thank you' or two. How about it?" "Okay." "The food is real good, don't you think, Tom? I didn't hear you complaining in between woofing it down." "It's good." "Then why don't you go in there, fill your plate again and pigout?" "I didn't want to look like a hog, dad." "Didn't you hear Bernice say that she didn't want to see a crumb of food left on the kitchen counter?" "Yeah." "Then by God, you better get in there and help it get cleaned off!" The fourteen year old smiled at his dad, the way he put everything. "Dad, I love you." "I love you too, son." "I'll try to get along better." "That's my boy." "Dad?" "Yes, Tom?" "I guess I'll call her Aunt Bernice. She is nice, sorta like Aunt Diane." % "How come they call you Squirt?" Aidan asked Philip. "Because when I was smaller I always used to miss the toilet bowl and my mom asked whoever saw pee on the floor to clean it up, so it wouldn't stink up the jon." Aidan and Philip sat in a little alcove on the glass enclosed porch at the rear of the house. Opposite them, sat Chad and Matty. "Did you finally get the hang of it?" "Oh yeah. One time though I accidentally peed on Chad's legs." "What? How did that happen?" "I came in the jon while Chad was shaving. He uses the real thing, one of those real razor blades. He had his face soaped up, looking like Santa Claus. I had to pee bad, so started, but then lost my attention over the toilet bowl, looking up at Chad. Finally I turned completely around to look at Chad and my pee-pee-er turned with me and spitted on his leg." "Did he scream like our dads would?" "Nope, but said ouch and made a curse when he cut himself." "Chad get mad at you?" "Not really. He goofed on me." "Goofed on you?" "Yeah, told me to get down and lick it off his foot." "And?" "Do you think I'm crazy, Aidan?" "Whew!" "I got my foot wet, when I stomped on his toe for saying that to me! Then I took off and ran out. Mom got mad at both of us for tracking pee-pee all over the place." "Did Chad have to clean it up?" "Mom made us both. She made Chad and me scrub every inch of the bathroom. But we had fun doing it. Chad can never stay mad at me." "I think you and him had it special, Philip." "He does pay a lot of attention to me. Y'know we shared a room?" "No, that must've been fun." "Yeah, lots of times I saw his body." "Does he have a big cock?" "Big what?" "Cock. You know, your pee-pee-er." "They call that a crock?" "Cock." "Why do they call it that?" "I don't know. I don't know everything about being gay yet." "Have you ever kissed a guy?" "I've kissed my dad. Us boys tried it once, just for fun." "You've kissed Eric and Denis?" "Yup and my other brother Sean." "Why isn't he here?" "Sean's in college and he had a class or he would have been here." "Does Sean have a boyfriend, like Chad and Matty?" "I'm not sure. Matty and Sean grew up together, but I don't think they did anything together." "Did you ever ask Sean?" "Nope." "How about Matty?" "Nope." "I think I'll go ask him." Aidan wasn't sure if that was the right thing to do, but didn't know if it would be wrong, so followed Philip over to the two older teens. "Heeey, what's up Squirt? Getting enough food?" "Oh sure. I'm saving room for the Zebra ice cream." "I'm kind of curious myself about what Zebra ice cream looks like," Chad added to Matty's conversation. "Probably a Zebra, dah!" Philip replied. "You little wisecracker!" Chad kids Philip, teasing the sides of his torso with his fingers. Aidan prods, "Ask him, Philip." "I'm getting to it." "Ask what?" Chad and Matty answered in unison. "I wanted to ask Matty something." "Fire away, squirt," Matty said, with no fear. "Did you and Sean ever do anything together?" "Sure. Lots of stuff." Matty gave Chad 'the look', knowing what info Philip and Aidan were seeking. "Why don't you two have a seat. This might take quite a long time." The ten and eleven year olds plopped themselves down on the bench, either side of Chad, which put them across the table from Matty. "Well, let's see now, let me think back to the first thing that Sean and I did together. Oh yeah, now I remember." Aidan and Philip sat there, in attuned anticipation, waiting for all that sex stuff, like they just viewed in QAF, to spill from Matty's lips. Their eyebrows were propped way up, in anticipation, almost as if waiting for someone to open a gift. "We both went down by the creek. You know the one Aidan." He responded, "Miller's creek?" "That's the one. So, we both got there and peeled our shirts off over our heads. We stood there, gazing at each of our smooth bodies, reflecting in the sunlight..." Matty's desription could play out any erotic website's sex scene story, only he chose his words more carefully, due to the age factor. "So, then we kicked our sneakers off, peeled our socks and then began unbuckling our belts. We were down to our briefs." Why should two youngsters, ten and eleven, be any different from older teens. When they sensed their organs between their legs twitch, their hands went to investigate. "So we stare at each other for the longest time. Then our sweating bodies moved closer and closer to each other. I could just about feel Sean's breath exhaling on my chest. Our lips were within touching.. then.... then...." "Fuckin' get to it, Matty!" "Philip Barr!" "Oh, hi dad," Philip greeted in his angelic voice. "I hope I didn't hear what I thought I heard?" Chad tried a coverup. "I think you need to have your ears cleaned out, dad. Maybe Aunt Bernice can get the vacuum out later." "Hmm... I don't know what it is, but Chad's always standing up for you, Philip and you for Chad, Philip." "Maybe it's because we're queer brothers and we love each other?" Matty and Chad grinned at Philip's correlation of factual information. Chad's dad did the likewise. "Well, other than that, if anybody would like to have some Zebra ice cream, it's being served." Next thing Barry knew is that he stood there, a loner in the room, for a short time. "Care for another drink, Barry?" "You've got to be fooling with me there Steve. I want some Zebra ice cream!" The two walked towards the kitchen, laughing it off. continued.... ©2005 T. Chase McPhee All Rights Reserved. Assgm.net/yahoogroups.com Gay Dreamers Loft/yahoogroups.com Permission is NOT granted to publish this story to any PAY site, nor any site that is not listed above, without the author's prior consent. The following story is a work of fiction set in the format of reality. Any resemblance to real people is entirely coincidental in nature, and is not meant to accurately reflect persons in towns, cities, or governmental areas, in which the story is staged. If sexual scenes involving male to male relationships offends you, then you should not read this story. Additionally, if you are under 18 years of age, in most states and countries, you are not allowed to read this by law. "Nature Walk" 03 (M/t) wriTten by T. Chase McPhee Steve, the back lot neighbor, hung around, as Bernice talked up the Chatsworth place, hoping Barry would consider the purchase. "It's more like an estate! The three bungalows, plus whatever you've stated is hiding behind this humongous home. It's all so very attractive, Bernice, but it's got to have a huge price tag to match!" "Tell you what I'm going to do then, Barry." Steve points out, "Get ready for a Bernice 'random act of kindness'." "Steve, shut up or take a hike!" "Yes, Ma'am," he said, grinning. Steve knew from being around, that Bernice could be a tough buzzard, but also gentle as a lamb, with a heart as soft as a fluffly, furred animal. "I'm going to forgo my comission and finders fee and..." "Oh, that's out of the question, Bernice." "Barry, now you're insulting me,." the tough buzzard barked. "Give in, Barry," Steve warned, "she'll get you sooner or later." "'Bout time you said something worthwhile, Steve. You better listen to him, Barry." "She pulled the same thing on me and my partner when we moved here." "I don't know, Bernice," Barry still stood on his ground, not being swayed by the two. "Oh no! I think I've made a terrible mistake! Lord forgive me!" Steve and Barry thought Bernice would drop to her knees and start babbling out a confession. Instead, Steve decided to prod. "You? Make a mistake, Bernice?" "Fiddlesticks! I do have a right to be wrong if I want to, Steve." Steve reminded him, "Told you Barry. She's weaving her evil spell over you." "Steve, you stink! Go home and shower." Barry couldn't keep a straight face, with Bernice's blunt remarks, directed at Steve. Then his mind zipped back to reality. Steve decided to leave while still on good terms. "Bye Barry." "See you in school on Monday, Steve." "Oh, you'll see me before then." "Um, Bernice?" "Yes?" "Could I trouble you to share the undesirable news?" "What news?" "The mistake?" "Oh yes. Now I know you'll most likely be heapin' mad at me Barry, but I just remembered that I had sold the place up the hill and thought of calling you yesterday, but figured you already had left, going to the airport that is and boarded you plane and..." Barry listened knowing Bernice had cooked up some cock and bull story, as her lips rattled on, pouring out reasoning that didn't seem to rhyme. "So, Bernice. You mean to tell me that for weeks you have gone to the trouble to send me dozens of digital photos, even sent me paperword to sign, deeding me the home and on top of that, alerting me to the fact that it's time to catch a flight, drag my boys and I all the way out here from the east, to pull the house out from under us?" "Guess I expected too much. Okay Barry, you win. Let's get your boys rounded up and take you all back to the airport." Bernice starts strutting back up the graveled road. "Hold it, hold it, Bernice." "Yes?" As the seconds ticked away, so did Barry's thoughts. "Can I ask a question?" "Shoot," she yelled back down the road, the several feet traversed. "How much is this going to set you back?" "Set me back?" "Alright, Bernice, just give me the bottom line." "Same price as the other place, plus $50 a month until I think you've paid enough." "What? That's insane, Bernice. This place has to be at least three times worth the other house is!" "You calling me a crazy woman, Barry?" "Damn right I am, Bernice!" "Well, that's calling the kettle black." "Huh?" "You busted your own son for cursing in front of a lady and now here you are doing it yourself." By this time Barry didn't know what to think. What had happened over the past couple of months had drained him of much of his mental and physical energies. A half hour ago he had been upbeat. Now he didn't know what decision he should make. Walking across the graveled street, he sat on a boulder, looking down at the coarse pebbles. Bernice, seeing that her blunt remarks might have dulled the the sensitivity, followed. Toning down her voice, she spoke, "Look, Barry. Let me tell you something about the Chatsworth place. It's been up for sale for five years now with no takers. Sure, I had hopes of some millionaire walking up to me and offering me a bundle and a half for the place, but I guess if I don't sell soon, that dream is going to turn into a nightmare. The place needs some TLC. To be lived in." "Some of it looks a little rundown." "You're right. I wouldn't let you even consider this without telling you the downsides. There's a stable out back that needs lots of work. Heck, Matty and I can be real handy with a bucket of nails and a hammer. But that's besides the point. Also place is overgrown and needs a haircut. In response, I'll absorb all the legal fees and forgo the commission." "I don't know Bernice." "I know you just blew into town today. What I'm going to do is tell you to move in and live in the place. If by the end of the school year you have any doubts about living there, then shoot, I'll find something else to your liking." "What about taxes?" "Taxes are next to nothing around here. The biggest is the school tax and I for one would double that, considering the top notch education our kids get. Well, Matty benefitted and I'm sure your children, will receive a well rounded education. Don't you go and worry yourself about that, Barry. The first year's taxes are included in the sale, as my responsibility." Barry, getting too wise, asks, "And I suppose the first month's groceries." "Now you've gone and ruined my surprise, Barry!" Barry grinned, chuckling to himself. If he wanted the Eiffel Tower included, he wondered if Bernice would have it erected in the back yard, saying it had been included in the deal. "Another question." "Shoot." "Why are you doing all this for me and my boys?" Bernice puts her foot up against the boulder. Looking out over the countryside, she begins summing up the future, "In another few years I intend on making Matty a full partner and then eventually he'll take on the whole business. I don't want to leave him with any liabilities." "Following in the old lady's footsteps, eh?" "I'm going to ignore that remark on account of I don't have a swish handy!" Barry started out the round of giggling, followed by Bernice. "You're being overly generous, Bernice.? Why" "Sure as hell is right is in front of your own face. I'm surprised you haven't picked up on it, Barry." "Picked up on what?" "Chad. He's madly in love with my Matty." Now that's something Barry would never had picked out of the blue, in a million years. Sure, he had an inkling of Chad's sexual preferences, but coupled, nada. "How do you know for a fact, Bernice?" "Matty came out to me a long time ago. I must admit I sensed hurt and scorned him. I had hopes of Matty meeting the girl of his dreams, married and a house full of grandchildren. Not long after I found out, Steve and his partner, Seb moved in. I kicked myself for a week or so, realizing that his wife were a 'he'!" Barry chuckled, saying, "I hope you didn't get too bruised up, Bernice." "You and Steve. I don't know if I can take two jokers in the neighborhood!" "So, tell me about it, Bernice." Bernice began the short version of how she came to know Steve and his family of boys. "When they moved in they had this cute little boy, around Philip's age. He used to venture through the gate at the back of the Chatsworth place and weaseled his way through the wrought iron fencing. I'd find him at my back door. I began with giving him a cookie or two. This went on for a month, until one day Matty invited him in for cookies and milk. Before long, Sean became a permanent fixture and Matty's playmate." "Was he, um..." "Gay?" Bernice questioned for Barry. "Um, yeah. Not that it matters though, Bernice." "All of the Clark boys are. Steve and Seb did that type of thing. Adopted young boys whose parents didn't want them simply because they were gay." "Oh man. That would break my heart." "It made me make up my mind on accepting things. When Sean took Matty and I home one day, that's just what it did. I realized that Steve and Seb were having a dickens of a time making ends meet. They had just the two boys then, Sean is now nineteen and Denis, sixteen, but since then they've adopted Eric and Aidan, fourteen and eleven." "Don't tell me you turned into 'Crazy Bernice'?" Bernice smiled. "Yeah, what the hell, I've got myself a really good boy, enough money in the bank and a nice place for us to lay our head at night. The Lord's been mighty good to Matty and me." "And?" "Steve said I did a dumb thing, I couldn't stand to see the house starting to fall into a decrepit condition. When they moved in, something dropped on the front steps cracked the cement, a window was broken. Not that they seemed to be unkept, but I found out that they couldn't even afford soap to wash their clothes. What do you think of that?" "Sounds like they needed so help and fast. So, what did you think up?" "I marched down to the bank, wrote out a check for the balance on their mortgage and Cyrus marked them paid in full. Then I delivered the deed myself, back to them." At that point, Barry began to fill up with tears. "Now what did I go and do?" "It's not you, Bernice." What was Bernice to do? Sit there like a bump on a log? "Oh come on now, Barry. You're going to have me wailing like a waterfall." She put her hand on his back, rubbing it up and down, trying to calm the sad being inside Barry. "I'm sorry, Bernice." "Why? You lost the love of a lifetime, not that you might find another." "It's not really that. The boys never knew this. There's more." "Ooooh, I can see this is going to take more time then sitting five minutes on this boulder. C'mon. Let's go back to my place and we'll talk later on this." "But..." "No buts, Barry. And another thing, you and your boys are going to be my guests tonight and if you start giving me any crap, I'm gonna take you out back and give you a swishin'!" % "I'm all done ripping the lettuce apart, Alberto." "Hmm, mighty professional job, I must say. Are you sure you haven't made a salad before this, Philip?" "Nope. My first time. What else you need help with Alberto?" Tom and Mark arrived. "So, how's little Miss Muffin doing?" Tom, the smart alec asks. "Alberto?" "Yes, Philip?" "May I throw this tomato at my brother?" "Why certainly. He deserves it!" "Nooooo, you crazy, Squirt?" Tom protested, crouching down below the counter. Mark just cackled. "Hey, what's happening here?" Barry shouts, as he and Bernice enter the kitchen "Hi dad!" Philip returned. Tom tattled, "Squirt here asked Alberto if he could throw the tomato at me and Alberto said yes." "Do you deserve it, Tom?" Barry interrogated the guilty party. The look on Tom's face, showed Barry the truth. "Cased dismissed." "Barry, this is Alberto, our cook," Bernice addresses the mostly French man. "Let me take your coat." Philip says, excitedly, "Look, dad! Alberto taught me how to make this salad!" "Alberto, I hope you made sure his mitts were washed?" "Oops!" Alberto sighed, covering his mouth. Bernice wises Barry up, "Don't you believe that Alberto for a moment, Barry. He's worse than you and Steve put together!" "Anybody home?" A voice projects from the backdoor screen came. "Oh Lordy," Bernice sighed, "throw another ten steaks on the grill, Alberto. C'mon in Steve!" Not only did the twenty-eight year old appear, but three urchins. "Hi Aunt Bernice!" got recycled three times over, complete with a hug and a kiss. The hogcall went out, "Matteeeeeeeee!" In ten seconds flat, Matty replies, "Yeah mom?" leading Chad into the kitchen. "You and Chad have some entertaining to do. Show all of these hedgehogs your video collection." "Yes, ma'am!" Matt said, saluting the captain. Philip asks, "Can I call you Aunt Bernice, too?" "Well sure, if your dad says it's okay." "She's wearing you down, Barry!" Steve commented, grinning. "Hmm... for now, Philip." "Can I hug you too, Aunt Bernice?" After Philip left the kitchen, Bernice comments, "He's gonna be a real heartbreaker, that Philip." "He already is," Barry says, referring to the hug and peck on the cheek administered to Bernice's cheek. Bernice switches her attention to her neighbor, "What'd you smell the steaks cooking, Steve?" "Now you know Aidan has a sensitive nose, Bernice." "Yeah, right, Steve. Why don't you go play bartender with Barry while I go take a leak?" Barry broke out in uncontrollable laughter, with Steve and Alberto trailing. "Something from the bar, Alberto?" "Sure, I'll have the usual, please." Hanging over the railing, on her way upstairs, Bernice shouts, "Just bring him the bottle. With this bunch of urchins, Alberto is going to be under a lot of stress. I hope you have enough Zebra ice cream to go around." % "I wanna watch Rocky III... no, we're watching 'Indiana Jones'... I wanna watch the Matrix...Hey, what's this, Matty?" The war erupts. One of Steve's kids, fourteen year old Eric, comes out of the video cabinet with a three video, deluxe edition. "You can just put that right back where you found it Eric!" Matty instructs without deliberation. "Come on, Matty!" Eric pesters, holding the trio of 'Queer As Folk' video's. "No, Eric, we're not all gay here." "You're gay, Eric?" Tom asks, with no finesse. "Sure. All my brothers and I are. Why, Tom?" "No reason." "Are you gay?" Eric retorts. "Nope, but I think somebody in our family is!" Looking directly on target, Tom stares at Chad. "Okay, so what do I care now? I'm gay, so, Tom? So is Matty. I hope you don't mind them knowing that?" Chad asks a little too late. "No, Chad. No problem for me," Matty infers. "In fact I'm one of those gay pride guys. I never was sorry for what I am and never will be." "I didn't say I had a problem with a guy being gay," Tom explained, "I wasn't sure that Chad was." Mark spills the beans, "Tom and I thought you were, Chad, but we were just scared to ask you." "Well, from now on, I want you to ask me anything you want and not feel bad about it. That goes for you too, Squirt." Out of the blue, Philip states, "I'm gay." "How do you know your gay?" Chad himself didn't let it register. "Because I act just like you do, Chad. I don't like looking at girls and like it when I see a guy without a shirt." "Well, I'll be," Chad stands there, a bit in awe. Tom says right away, "I'm telling dad right now!" "Tom?" "Yeah, Chad?" "Ever hear of a straight guy bashing a gay guy?" "Yeah." "Ever hear of a gay guy bashing a straight guy?" "Nope." "You tell dad and you'll witness it." Laughter filled the room, as Tom turned reddish, a sight that rarely befell the fourteen year old. "I'm almost your age, Philip and I'm gay," Aidan says outright. "Cool!" Philip says excitedly. "Maybe Chad and Matty can show us what to do and we can do it!" "That's not the way it works, Squirt. You just don't go around making love to guys because they're gay." "Do you and Matty make love?" Aidan asks. Philip, reinforces, "Yeah, do you?" Scratching his head Chad states, "You know Matty, might not be such a bad idea to watch 'QAF'." "You're joking of course, Chad?" He replies. "No, I'm serious. I mean you and I will be here to fill in the blanks, in case the peewees have a question," Chad rationalizes. "How about a little of it," Matty compromised, "and I'll keep the remote in my hand for 'fast forwards'." "I don't want to sit here and watch a bunch of queers make out," Tom protested. Mark went along with whatever Tom did. "You're going to sit right there, Tom and get an education, along with the rest of the boys," Chad spelled out to the two straight teens. As QAF played on, the guys began to make fun of Tom, as he tented his jeans. Matty hit the fast forwards on many a scene, breaking up a lot of the nude action. "I'm not a queer!" From all those years of teasing, Tom went through hell and back, getting the tease-a-thon of his life! In an hour's time the hogcaller summoned the gang for dinner. "Coming, mother," seven voices rang out. Tom didn't go along with the 'queers', even though Mark did. If Chad and Matty wished to keep the viewing of 'QAF' secretative, they should have primed their audience. "So, what were you guys watching?" Barry asks. Philip comes right out with, "Us guys watched 'The Queer Ones'." "Chad? You want to explain?" "Um, dad, it's not like it seems, okay?" Bernice and Steve, plus all the sons, stood there as the two and half person conversation moved along. From the mouths of babes, came, "Oh c'mon Chad. Do you think dad is going to love us any less because we're queers?" "Told you Philip was going to be a heartbreaker, Barry." Bernice pats him on the shoulder. "You knew I was queer, Aunt Bernice?" Philip asks. "No, but I know you're a real cutey!" She reinforces her assumption with a pinch on the cheek. "Um, I think we better save this for an after dinner discussion," Barry suggests. Alberto appears. "Who is ready for a nice crisp, black steak?" Bernice asks, "And who is ready for five dollars deducted from their pay check for each burned steak?" Everybody saw the whites of Alberto's eyes, reflecting like saucers, then do a quick about face, hustling back to the kitchen. They all cracked up in laughter. Dinner proceeded buffet style, with the steaks, baked potatoes, complete with sour cream topping, corn on the cob and the all too familiar bottle of Heinz, all set up on the butcher block table in the kitchen. Alberto had handwritten a sign, placing it in front of the salad bowl, spelling out, 'handmade by Philip's clean hands!' "Now, before you all head off to the back porch or main room, let us bow our heads for a quickie," Bernice smiles, folding her hands. Philip blurts out, "Mom used to have us say grace all the time. How come you don't say it anymore, dad?" "Um, I... I don't know," He replied, solemnly, blushing, as if committing a terrible crime. Bernice kidded, "Well, Barry you better get down on your knees tonight and pray for forgiveness!" Then she went right into the prayer, "Everybody form a circle and hold hands." She patiently waited, smiling at Philip, grabbing Aidan's so willingly. "Gracious Lord, we thank you for the bountiful gifts that you have provided for us and all these handsome men surrounding me, ay-men!" "Just the way I like it," Denis admitted, "Short and sweet!" Everyone joined in a merry round of laughter at Denis' comment, also agreeing to the fact of the matter. Tom and Mark Barr sat in the big hall, where the balconies cascaded from above. They were alienated until Eric and Denis Clark brought their plates of food in. "Alright if we sit here?" Denis asks. Tom says, "Free country," a bit of sarcasm entwined. "How old are you, Tom?" Denis asked. "Why?" "You're about my height, so I wondered if you were around my age." "How old are you, Denis?" Mark asked. "Sixteen." "Yeah, I'm around that," Tom answered for himself, then went back to stuffing his face. Eric repeated the same grilling with Mark. "I'm fourteen and you, Eric?" "Same." Tom might have been closed mouthed, but Mark wasn't like his brother. On the contrary, most times he impersonated a social butterfly. "Where exactly do you guys live?" Using his fork as a hand of a compass, Eric pointed towards the bar. "We live that way, in between the iron fence and then straight back past the Chatsworth stable and through the gate." "Sounds far," the butterfly continued to converse. Denis answered, "No, not far at all. Want us to show you later?" "Might be too late," Mark replied. "Then maybe tomorrow," Eric extended the invite. "That would be cool." "I'm not sure about that, Mark." "About what, Eric?" "The weather. I think it's supposed to be kind of mild. Did you hear anything about tomorrow, Denis?" "I think Mark is right. It's supposed to be cool." After Mark chuckled, he explained the term to the two boys. The whole time, Tom remained silent, except for the chomping and gulping. "How are you doing boys?" The cheerful voice interrupts. "Fine Aunt Bernice," Eric says. Denis compliments, "Everything's great as usual." "Well, I expect to have 'no' leftovers!" Bending over Tom's shoulders, Bernice asks, "are you getting enough to eat, Tom?" "Yeah, I'm fine Mrs. Bridges." Mark didn't care for Tom's cold manner, so tried to warm up the room. "Do you eat this good all the time, Aunt Bernice?" Now that rocked Tom the wrong way for sure. He threw his plate down on the coffee table, got up and walked out the front door. In Tom's thinking he assumed a miserable attitude and counted on Mark following through on the protest. Next thing the boys knew, Aunt Bernice had disappeared and their father headed for the front door. "Do you think your brother is in trouble, Mark?" "No, I think he's just.... having...." Tears began to well up in the sixteen year old's eyes. "You okay, Mark?" Denis asked, as Eric went to inform Aunt Bernice. Shereported directly, Denis looked up. She came and sat down next to Mark. "What's the matter, Mark honey?" "I miss my mom." "Of course you do and I want you to do something, Mark." "Huh?" "Tell me what your mama looked like." Bernice produced a tissue box, seemingly out of thin air. "Help yourself, Mark honey. Eric, why don't you get Mark a fresh Gatorade?" "Same flavor, Mark?" "Yeah, thanks." The slow reply came. "Feel a little better, Mark?" Denis inquired, putting his hand on the weeping boy's shoulder, which Mark let remain. "A little. My mom had dark hair and kind of long for awhile. At the beginning of the summer she had it cut shorter." Bernice tried helping the story along, "She was a lawyer or something like that, right?" "At first, yes, but then she got this big promotion. We all were so proud of her and then... somebody had to go and kill her!" "I... I'm real sorry, Mark," Denis sincerely remarked, after recovering from the brief shocker. Bernice motioned for Eric to offer Mark the lime colored bottle. "Here's your Gatorade, Mark." Erik felt maybe his hand ready to fall off, by the time Mark broke free from the tear spell on Aunt Bernice's shoulder. Normally Aunt Bernice would complain if anybody sat on the table, meant for just magazines and other lightweight stuff, but didn't remark when scrawny Erik plopped down on it, so that he could be nearer Mark. Some rules could be overridden at special times. % "Do you understand some, Tom?" Barry had just delivered a father to son talk that he had rehearsed over many a time, in chatting with the other three boys. Each time the words of remorse and explanations of why things happen takes a different twist of words, but the message is primarily the same. Barry hoped his thoughts would console Tom. "It's just tough to think why anyone would want to kill mom, dad." "I know son. Each of us had our own special way of loving your mother and each special memories. It's those memories that will keep her in our hearts forever." "It was so tough leaving the house that we all lived in." "Yes, that's true. The six of us built up some strong memories, didn't we? Tom, there's something I want you to always remember about everyone in our family." "Yeah, dad?" "We're a close family aren't we?" "I think." "What I want you to think about is our family being like a tree. Can you picture that in your mind?" "You mean, with the trunk, limbs and leaves?" "Yes and the roots. Each one of us is one of those roots. Even though, like the roots of the tree, our lives will grow in different directions. Each of us will always be a part of the other." Barry let his case rest for a minute or so. "Well? What do you think, Tom?" "I think I understand. Dad?" "Yes, son?" "Did mom's root grow down into the ground. You know what I mean?" "Like down into that hot place?" "Yeah." "Nope," Barry went through the 'think-fast' mode and continued, "she grew up through the limbs, towards heaven." "Whew! I'm glad you explained that, dad. You got me worried." Barry smiled, holding Tom close to this heart. "Feel a bit better, Tom?" "Yup." "As far as the house is concerned, as you know we couldn't live on my substitute teaching, could we?" "No." "There were no teaching jobs around our area. It's inevitable that we would have had to move, so I figured a new area, with a new climate would be healthy for all of us. What do you think, Tom?" "I don't know yet." "That's a fair enough answer. What I am going to ask you to do is give people and things a fair chance." "Dad, most of the boys in there are gay." "Yes and?" "Mark and I are the only ones that aren't." "Don't you think that gay's and lesbians have straight friends?" "I guess." "Do you love your brother Chad any less now that you know for sure that he is gay?" "I love Chad lots, dad." "Then I think you ought to be a big man about it and show him. You know that gay pride is not just for gays." "Huh?" "Sure. During the civil rights movement here in the United States, it wasn't just the blacks that helped move it along. Plenty of whites and other races helped the integration of schools and put laws into effect. Didn't you learn that in school?" "I think. I know they stress it around the time Martin Luther King's birthday comes along." "Now I know that a sexual preference can be a little different, but the people are the same. White, black, hispanic, asian, straight, bisexual, gay, lesbian, handicapped, no matter how you put it, we're all the same. Chad didn't change appearance the instant you found out he was gay, did he?" "No." "Then think of those other boys in there. They're the same before and after you found out they were gay." "Do I have to call her Aunt Bernice?" "Nope. Call her plain ole Bernice if you want to." "She's not related to us. I feel strange." "Like I said, Tom. Give things a chance. And about Bernice, we met her just today and to most of us, she seems like a long lost aunt. She's been nothing but kind to us, hasn't she Tom?" "Yeah." "She's going to be putting us up for the night and I think she would appreciate hearing a 'thank you' or two. How about it?" "Okay." "The food is real good, don't you think, Tom? I didn't hear you complaining in between woofing it down." "It's good." "Then why don't you go in there, fill your plate again and pigout?" "I didn't want to look like a hog, dad." "Didn't you hear Bernice say that she didn't want to see a crumb of food left on the kitchen counter?" "Yeah." "Then by God, you better get in there and help it get cleaned off!" The fourteen year old smiled at his dad, the way he put everything. "Dad, I love you." "I love you too, son." "I'll try to get along better." "That's my boy." "Dad?" "Yes, Tom?" "I guess I'll call her Aunt Bernice. She is nice, sorta like Aunt Diane." % "How come they call you Squirt?" Aidan asked Philip. "Because when I was smaller I always used to miss the toilet bowl and my mom asked whoever saw pee on the floor to clean it up, so it wouldn't stink up the jon." Aidan and Philip sat in a little alcove on the glass enclosed porch at the rear of the house. Opposite them, sat Chad and Matty. "Did you finally get the hang of it?" "Oh yeah. One time though I accidentally peed on Chad's legs." "What? How did that happen?" "I came in the jon while Chad was shaving. He uses the real thing, one of those real razor blades. He had his face soaped up, looking like Santa Claus. I had to pee bad, so started, but then lost my attention over the toilet bowl, looking up at Chad. Finally I turned completely around to look at Chad and my pee-pee-er turned with me and spitted on his leg." "Did he scream like our dads would?" "Nope, but said ouch and made a curse when he cut himself." "Chad get mad at you?" "Not really. He goofed on me." "Goofed on you?" "Yeah, told me to get down and lick it off his foot." "And?" "Do you think I'm crazy, Aidan?" "Whew!" "I got my foot wet, when I stomped on his toe for saying that to me! Then I took off and ran out. Mom got mad at both of us for tracking pee-pee all over the place." "Did Chad have to clean it up?" "Mom made us both. She made Chad and me scrub every inch of the bathroom. But we had fun doing it. Chad can never stay mad at me." "I think you and him had it special, Philip." "He does pay a lot of attention to me. Y'know we shared a room?" "No, that must've been fun." "Yeah, lots of times I saw his body." "Does he have a big cock?" "Big what?" "Cock. You know, your pee-pee-er." "They call that a crock?" "Cock." "Why do they call it that?" "I don't know. I don't know everything about being gay yet." "Have you ever kissed a guy?" "I've kissed my dad. Us boys tried it once, just for fun." "You've kissed Eric and Denis?" "Yup and my other brother Sean." "Why isn't he here?" "Sean's in college and he had a class or he would have been here." "Does Sean have a boyfriend, like Chad and Matty?" "I'm not sure. Matty and Sean grew up together, but I don't think they did anything together." "Did you ever ask Sean?" "Nope." "How about Matty?" "Nope." "I think I'll go ask him." Aidan wasn't sure if that was the right thing to do, but didn't know if it would be wrong, so followed Philip over to the two older teens. "Heeey, what's up Squirt? Getting enough food?" "Oh sure. I'm saving room for the Zebra ice cream." "I'm kind of curious myself about what Zebra ice cream looks like," Chad added to Matty's conversation. "Probably a Zebra, dah!" Philip replied. "You little wisecracker!" Chad kids Philip, teasing the sides of his torso with his fingers. Aidan prods, "Ask him, Philip." "I'm getting to it." "Ask what?" Chad and Matty answered in unison. "I wanted to ask Matty something." "Fire away, squirt," Matty said, with no fear. "Did you and Sean ever do anything together?" "Sure. Lots of stuff." Matty gave Chad 'the look', knowing what info Philip and Aidan were seeking. "Why don't you two have a seat. This might take quite a long time." The ten and eleven year olds plopped themselves down on the bench, either side of Chad, which put them across the table from Matty. "Well, let's see now, let me think back to the first thing that Sean and I did together. Oh yeah, now I remember." Aidan and Philip sat there, in attuned anticipation, waiting for all that sex stuff, like they just viewed in QAF, to spill from Matty's lips. Their eyebrows were propped way up, in anticipation, almost as if waiting for someone to open a gift. "We both went down by the creek. You know the one Aidan." He responded, "Miller's creek?" "That's the one. So, we both got there and peeled our shirts off over our heads. We stood there, gazing at each of our smooth bodies, reflecting in the sunlight..." Matty's desription could play out any erotic website's sex scene story, only he chose his words more carefully, due to the age factor. "So, then we kicked our sneakers off, peeled our socks and then began unbuckling our belts. We were down to our briefs." Why should two youngsters, ten and eleven, be any different from older teens. When they sensed their organs between their legs twitch, their hands went to investigate. "So we stare at each other for the longest time. Then our sweating bodies moved closer and closer to each other. I could just about feel Sean's breath exhaling on my chest. Our lips were within touching.. then.... then...." "Fuckin' get to it, Matty!" "Philip Barr!" "Oh, hi dad," Philip greeted in his angelic voice. "I hope I didn't hear what I thought I heard?" Chad tried a coverup. "I think you need to have your ears cleaned out, dad. Maybe Aunt Bernice can get the vacuum out later." "Hmm... I don't know what it is, but Chad's always standing up for you, Philip and you for Chad, Philip." "Maybe it's because we're queer brothers and we love each other?" Matty and Chad grinned at Philip's correlation of factual information. Chad's dad did the likewise. "Well, other than that, if anybody would like to have some Zebra ice cream, it's being served." Next thing Barry knew is that he stood there, a loner in the room, for a short time. "Care for another drink, Barry?" "You've got to be fooling with me there Steve. I want some Zebra ice cream!" The two walked towards the kitchen, laughing it off. continued.... Copyright 2005 T. Chase McPhee All Rights Reserved. dont strike a fault, unless you can admit you've slipped..T Chase McPhee