Date: Sat, 19 Oct 2002 20:29:54 -0700 (PDT) From: m o Subject: Opening the Door 5 Hello All, First of all I'd like to say thank you to all that are reading this, second I want to say that I'm sorry that this chapter took longer to get out than normal, I've just been real busy. As usual all disclaimers apply, if it is illegal for you to read this, or if you are offended by gay minors having relations, then please stop reading. Please email any comments to me at daytool86@yahoo.com, I appreciate any feedback, hope you enjoy this chapter... When I woke up the next morning crying, at first I was confused as to why, but then last nights events replayed in my head, and I cried even harder. I didn't know what to do, I like John so much, and he's so helpless, I don't know what I can do. I finally calm down enough to call John's house, his sister answers, she says both her parents are at the hospital, and John woke up late last night. The doctor's should be releasing him later this morning, they kept him over night just to make sure there was no internal damage. I was so relieved, as soon as I hung up with John's sister, I called Sean, he was still in bed when I called, so I was the first to give him the news. He too was relived, he said he was coming over. Like 10 minutes later or so, my doorbell rang, and Sean was there. We were both so happy that John was going to be ok, that as soon as I answered the door, we just began hugging eachother. Tears were coming down both our faces. I could see he had been as concerned as I had. During our embrace, Sean leaned into my face, and we kissed. It was shocking, I never expected it between us, and I have to say I liked it. Apparently Sean did as well because we kept kissing for a good 5 minutes. It was electric, the feelings running through me were amazing, first of all John was ok, and I was also kissing a guy. The second guy I've kissed in the past 3 days, its so weird seeing as how before then I'd never done anything with a guy. When we finally broke the kiss, we both just took a step back and stared at eachother, both in complete shock, not knowing what to do or what to think. We decided to, at this point, pretend it never happened. We decided just chill in the back and smoke for a while, until John got home. Around 12 we decided to call John's house again, see if he was home and if we could visit him. He was at home but he was asleep, his parents said we should come over at 2. In order to kill time, Sean and I decided to go out and get some lunch. We went to a pizza place that was a few blocks away. As we were eating two really cute guys came in, and the best part was that they were gay. They were obviously a couple, they were all over eachother, not like kissing or anything, just a lot of flirting, and not your typical lets be stupid teenagers and pretend to be flirting, it was real, you could tell by their tone. So after we finished eating, Sean and I decided to go over to talk to them. We introduced ourselves and explained that we couldn't help but notice their sexuality, and that we had recently come out to eachother, and we wanted to try to get to know some other gay teens. Their names were Noah and Andy, and they were very nice, both very cool. They were 17 years old, and they say they have been together for 6 months. They told us about this gay coffee house not to far away from where we lived, where they met eachother. We had said we should all go there together sometime, but seeing as how it was almost 1:30, Sean and I decided we had to get going, we gave Noah and Andy our numbers and screen names, and got theirs as well. After we left we stopped back at my house for a little bit, then we headed over to John's. When we got to John's, his parents let us in and said that he was down in his room, and he seemed excited when they told him we were coming over. Sean and I went down to his room, and I wanted to cry when I saw him, he was all bandaged, and he just looked so helpless. John was really glad that we had come over to see him, we all talked for a while, but he was real groggy and out of it, from all the pain killers he was on, but he was still his normal cute self. Sean and I told him about Noah and Andy, he said he definitely wanted to check the coffee house out, and we wouldn't mind meeting Noah and Andy. After a while John was getting real tired, but he just wanted us to sit with him until he fell asleep. When he said that, my heart melted, it was so adorable. It was only a few minutes before he fell asleep, when he did I just watched him sleep for a few minutes, it was so cute, but sad to seem him in that state. When we left Sean and I each kissed his head, and then left. We were silent on the walk home, but as soon as we got inside my house, Sean started crying. I wanted to cry to. I said to Sean "Oh my god, he looked so cute and helpless, I feel so bad, I really wish I had done something." "Yeah me too, it makes me feel so bad to see him like that, he's just so adorable, how could somebody hurt him." "I don't know, I'll just never be able to understand how fucked up with world is, it just doesn't make sense how people can be so cruel." "I know exactly what you mean." We talked about Sean for awhile, when the phone rang. It was Andy, he wanted to know if Sean and I would be interested in going to the coffee house that night, I wasn't sure what to say, so I asked him if I could call him back in a few minutes, he said sure no problem. When I hung up I told Sean who it was and what he wanted, we weren't sure what to do, seeing as how we hadn't told them about John, and we felt bad leaving him all alone. We decided to call John and see what he thought. He said we should go, and we kept asking him if he was sure, because we felt so bad, but he kept insisting. He was like "Go, please, don't feel bad about me, that way, when I get better, since you two will have already checked it out, we will all be able to go together." So after we hung up with John, Sean and I decided to go. I called Andy back and told him we would be going. We decided to meet at that pizza place at 7, so we could all go in together. After that, Sean decided he would head home to get ready for tonight. I did the same. I was so confused about my feelings though, because I felt so bad about John, but I was also really excited about tonight, I was really hoping I might be able to meet someone, because although I like John a lot, im not sure it would work out, because then we leave Sean out, and John also likes Sean. Oh boy, I was confused on what to do, I guess I'll just have to wait and see what happens tonight. Well thats it for chapter 5, I hope you enjoyed it, and I hope to have 6 up soon. Please email any comments to me at daytool86@yahoo.com. Thank you.