Date: Thu, 10 Feb 2005 09:36:47 -0500 From: edcwriter@yahoo.com Subject: THE PRIEST & THE PAUPER - 4 THE PRIEST & THE PAUPER - 4 Copyright 2005 by Carl Mason and Ed Collins All rights reserved. Other than downloading one copy for strictly personal enjoyment, no part of this story may be reproduced or transmitted in any form or by any means, electronic or mechanical, except for reviews, without the written permission of the authors. However based on real events and places, "The Priest and the Pauper" is strictly fictional. Any resemblance to actual events, locales, or persons, living or dead, is entirely coincidental. As in real life, however, the sexual themes unfold gradually. If you would like to read other Mason-Collins stories, you might turn to "Out of the Rubble" and "Castle Margarethen," both of which are archived in Nifty's "Historical" section. Comments on the story are appreciated and may be addressed to the authors at edcwriter@yahoo.com This story contains descriptions of sexual contact between males, both adults and teenagers. As such, it is homoerotic fiction designed for the personal enjoyment of legal, hopefully mature, adults. If you are not of legal age to read such material, if those in power and/or those whom you trust treat it as illegal, or if it would create unresolvable moral dilemmas in your life, please leave. Finally, remember that maturity generally demands that anything other than safe sex is sheer insanity! CHAPTER 4 (Revisiting Chapter 3) He had to talk with Shane. He HAD to explain. HE HAD TO BEG HIS FORGIVENESS! Oh my God, my God...I am so sorry! Hurrying into the night, the tears running down his face, he ran over to the Youth Center. For a moment, he thought he had succeeded, but the boy in Shane's bed was his Thanksgiving guest. Shane was gone and was nowhere to be found. (Continuing Our Story - The Search) Fr. Tom never quite figured out how he made it through Mass on Friday morning. Thank God it had been arranged that the kids were going somewhere with someone! In truth, the first thing that really registered in the new day was getting on the phone to Father Conor at Ste-Anne's and asking how soon he might drop by on a matter of urgency. Hearing the tone in the young priest's voice, Father Conor quickly said that he would be available in 15 minutes. When Fr. Tom arrived at the rectory, the kindly (and very experienced) old priest took one look at his face, sat him down in the kitchen, and insisted that he have a cup of tea. Only then did they make their way to a Confessional in the nearly deserted church. "In the name of the Father, and of the Son, and of the Holy Ghost. Amen. Bless me Father, for I have sinned." Beginning with those traditional words, Fr. Tom laid the fully story of his feelings for Shane - and the events of the night before - before his Confessor. Father O'Herlihy didn't ask many questions; indeed, he seemed satisfied that the young priest both knew what he had done and was truly sorry. After absolving Fr. Tom of his sins, however, he sighed deeply. "You have taken a heavy burden on your shoulders, Father. Pray to God for the strength to fulfill your penance. First, you will surround this boy with God's love his whole life through. You have special responsibilities for him that God will reveal in His own time and in His own way. He must never feel lost - or rejected at your hands. Secondly, you are a priest of the Church. You must accept the fact that your great love for this lad can never again be consummated physically. In a unique way, known to us both, you belong to Another...to Holy Mother Church herself." Father Conor met him outside the Confessional, embraced him, and said simply, "Go with God. We shall both always be here for you when you need us." Father Tom went into one of the side chapels of the great old French church (a shrine to St. Jean Vianney, the patron saint of parish priests), threw himself face down on the stone floor before the altar, and prayed. Returning to St. Patrick's, Fr. Tom found that the boys had returned from their outing, but that Shane was still missing. Sister Superior met him with Chad at her side. "Father," she said, "I'm concerned. Sister Phillipa who inspected the Youth Center this morning reports that Shane's coat was still hanging on its hook - and it went down into the lower teens last night. Dear Lord, it's frigid now and it's supposed to be colder tonight! Chad tells me that Shane has been acting very strangely ever since our Thanksgiving dinner." "What can you tell me, Chad?" Father Tom inquired. "Well, Father, every now and then, Shane just gets a little WEIRD. Once, for instance, he told me that the fire that killed his family was his fault." "A fire killed his family"" Father Tom gasped...more to himself than to Chad. "Yes, Father. He really liked dinner yesterday, you know - we ALL did - but maybe it got him thinking about his family again." "Go on, Chad," Father said. "Another time he said HE was going to die there!" The young priest and Sister Superior looked at each other, horror stricken. "Do you have any idea of where Shane came from?" Father Tom continued. "No, I don't think so... Wait, Father, I think I remember Brandon saying something." Chad found Brandon and brought him over. "I'm not positive, Father, but I'm pretty sure he said he came from Quinassett. That's a real little place up in the northeast corner of the State," Brandon added. "Brandon and Chad, go with Sister Superior and get some blankets, a big thermos of hot tea, and some flashlights. Put them in the station wagon. Oh, yeah, bring Mel with you. We may need some muscle." After about fifteen minutes, Sister Superior, Brandon, Chad, and Mel (followed closely by Keanu) appeared. "Mind if Keanu comes along, Father?" Mel asked. "He's got muscle - and Shane's been real nice to him since he met him at the funeral. He wants to come!" "Into the wagon with you!" Father Tom barked. Sister Superior stood at the open window. "Drive safely, Father - and FIND OUR BOY! Don't worry about the others. Mrs. Murphy and I have everything under control." It is entirely possible that neither Sister Superior nor the Connecticut State Police would have exactly approved of Father's driving, but they made the trip in record time without incident. It was already growing dark by the time they found a priest in the largest town of a fairly isolated area. Yes, there were a lot of McGuires in the area, but they weren't exactly the Mass-going type. Fires that took lives from a year and a half to two years ago? A phone call to the local Chief of Police brought instant cooperation. "Come on down to the station, Father, and I'll help in any way I can.." At the station, the Chief allowed that the McGuire clan was a "bunch of real rednecks." "I can't go with you tonight 'cause I'm the only one on duty. My one deputy is all the way over in Windsor Locks with his in-laws for Thanksgiving," he added apologetically. Anyway, here's a good map of the township with five possible sites marked on it. Get back to me if you strike out." Not one of the sites yielded a clue - and it had been pitch black when they checked the last two! As they careened down a country road on the way back to the station, however, Keanu put his hand on Father's shoulder. Slow down, Father. I think I see something up ahead...on the right." He was correct. The ruins of another burned out shack came into view, perhaps ten yards off the road. "I've got a feeling, Father. Can we check it out?" Keanu asked. "Ok, boys," Father Tom exclaimed, "but be careful." They found Shane lying unconscious in the midst of the timbers of the burned out hovel. His clothes were nowhere to be found. In the light of the flashlights, his skin appeared bluish; a nasty-looking gash in his leg was oozing blood; he breathing was shallow and labored. Back at the station wagon, Brandon allowed that he had a little first aid training in the Scouts before he left home. Stripping off his clothes in the frigid air, he held Shane tightly against his body and ordered the blankets be wrapped around them. After lifting the pair onto the floor of the station wagon, the crew took off for the regional hospital that Father had spotted near the church on their way into the area. The little band spent an anxious hour or so, praying the Rosary together for the intention of Shane's recovery, before the physician came out to speak with Fr. Tom. "We're treating him for exposure, Father - and I'm afraid we had to start a tetanus series for the wound. It was close...very close...but I think he's going to make it. By the way, whoever began warming the boy's body on his way here probably saved his life." Everyone looked directly at Brandon who blushed crimson as he stared down at his big feet. Speaking to Fr. Tom privately, he asked if there was any reason to believe that a suicide attempt was involved. All things considered, the young priest thought it best to suggest that Holiday despondency over losing his family coupled with the sudden onslaught of frigid weather was probably a major factor. (In itself, that wasn't a lie.) That was also the tack he took in speaking with the Chief of Police and the boys - and it appeared to be accepted without question. Other questions, e.g., what had in fact happened to his family, a probable suicide attempt, why he was found nude, and the effect of his sexual interaction with the priest would have to be faced, but they were best faced under less traumatic circumstances. Shane's recovery was "miraculous." The doctor twice lowered his estimates of how long the youth had been exposed to the worst of the weather, suggested that Shane's clothing may have given him far more protection than he had thought at first (never having being told that the boy had been found naked), and even made some comments about superior genes. By mid- morning, his flood of emotion spent, Shane was sitting up and asking for food. Laying his head on Father Tom's chest, he mumbled, "I'm so sorry, Father, for all this mess. You saved my life again. I promise to tell you more later. Please just know that I love you and take me home." Although he wondered why Shane had said he had saved him "again," Father Tom simply held him lovingly and deferred other questions until later. Given the priest's promise to have Shane checked out by a physician at home, the physician released the boy from the hospital late on Saturday. Needless to say, their welcome on returning to Sherburne was jubilant. Having learned the basic details of what had happened by phone, the entire group (especially Brandon and Keanu) was greeted as heroes, and the boys rejoiced in the return of their natural leader, Shane. (The "cover story" that had evolved in Quinassett was accepted by everyone other than the young priest. No one - not even Fr. Tom at the time - knew how close to the truth it was.) One problem did present itself. Given the emotion that had surrounded Timmy's burial, the Thanksgiving celebration, and Shane's disappearance, NO ONE was willing for the "guests" (including, by unanimous demand, Keanu) to return to the streets. The "Gang of Six" had to be expanded! At first, additional beds were moved into a now crowded dorm. Later, the wall at the end of the Youth Center hall would be broken through and a large storage room on the other side transformed into a second dormitory. Yes, there were a few more "soup dinners," but they managed. Over time, Shane and Fr. Tom talked at great length. Shane had witnessed the fire that had taken his parents' and his sister's lives. He had tried to save them, but he was young and the intense fire had driven him back. The boy did have deep feelings of guilt with regard to being alive while his immediate family was dead. Nevertheless, he had no further part in their demise. Some time after the incident, Father asked the boy rather pointedly if he had tried to commit suicide. Shane was dumbfounded. "No, Father, no!" he had replied. It seems that Chad had essentially been correct. The Thanksgiving celebration - as well as his short, intimate contacts with Sister Superior and Fr. Tom - had rekindled an irresistible longing for the love and protection of family. (Besides, he feared that Fr. Tom had to "hate him" after their sexual encounter.) When he had hiked and hitched rides into Quinassett, he had gone to the home of cousins only to be thrust back into the maelstrom of pain and sickness from which he had fled. Specifically, he had been repeatedly raped by several men at his cousins' shack who, he assumed later, dumped and left him to die in the burned-out ruins of his old home. He had no idea of how long he had been there. Fortunately, he had been discovered before the results were fatal. The discussions about Shane's sexuality were more far-reaching and will be introduced as the story progresses. (Besides, for the time being, Shane was far too busy learning how to serve at the altar with his beloved hero!) (A Time of Growth and Happiness) Life moves on - and even the most powerful emotions fade. "The Gang" (the new term for the old "Gang of Six") soon found itself the special project of the good sisters, especially of Sister Superior. Experienced teachers all, they took on the task of thoroughly evaluating the academic and religious condition of the youths who, only shortly before, had been homeless or living at home under the most difficult of conditions. As Sister Superior said tersely to one of her colleagues, "Give them the tools to become all that God intended them to be!" Where there was a linguistic weakness, it was charted and remediation undertaken; where there were gaps in their knowledge of the history, science, and mathematics appropriate to their age levels, they were charted and remediation undertaken. And where a First Communion had been missed (in a few instances) or where the boy had not been Confirmed (more frequently), instruction was begun. Although a handful of parents was involved, this was not a parish where a full high school education, let alone higher education, was the rule. Hence, the burden fell most heavily on the Sisters who, as we know, were each responsible for a parochial school class that might number up to 45 children. Knowing teenagers, especially teenaged males, one might think that some of the crew would have rather quickly found their way back to the relative "freedom" of the streets, but this simply didn't happen. In truth, the boys blossomed and generally responded to the Sisters' efforts with gratitude and extraordinary effort. In a relatively short time, a wondrous relationship developed - a relationship of mutual trust, effort, and appreciation. Sister Superior remembered one day when Tim - one of the new boys in the Gang - came to her office and quietly suggested that the classes be moved on a rotating basis to the school's one extra classroom. That, he explained, would allow the boys to paint the classrooms, one after another, after which time they would tackle the chapel, the halls, and supporting rooms. However crumbling its structure, the "new" parochial school soon looked better than it had in years! Sister Phillipa who had labored for years to provide a few hours of physical education per week provided another case in point. She soon found that a small band of the more athletic teens under the direction of Mel (whom they referred to as "Coach") rapidly allowed her to expand her efforts. Needless to say, the school children reveled in their new activities - as did the teens. It was Shane, however, who initiated an activity that was to have some startling results. (As did all the staff at St. Patrick's, every effort was made not to show favoritism, as difficult as that proved at times. In all honesty, no one had to try harder than Sister Superior, for had she had a son, she would have wanted him to be exactly like the handsome young redhead who had so entwined himself in all their hearts.) On Monday, the first day of December, Shane came to Sister Superior at lunchtime and very shyly asked if she had a moment. "Of course, Shane," she replied, having to exert her full powers to keep from smiling warmly. "Sister Superior, when I was a little kid - in first grade, I think - we had a really 'fun' Christmas event at our parish. I think it was called 'Lessons and Carols'. Each grade sang a Christmas carol, and older kids read parts of the Christmas story from the Bible. There was even a little play. Everybody loved it - the parents and the kids. I remember how happy I was when my father and mother told me how great I was..." Shane paused, a cloud passing across his face. Sister Superior, throwing her reputation to the winds, smiled softly and said, "Yes, Shane, I'm sure they were so very proud of you - just as we are here at St. Patrick's." At that, the redhead relaxed, grinned, and continued. "Sister Superior, is there any chance we could do something like that this year? I understand from Keanu that each class is already learning a new carol. I'd be willing to help organize things...you know, get some readers from the Gang - and even help Sister Theresa with the first graders...if she'd let me. I've even written a simple little play." "Thank you, Shane, that's a wonderful idea, though it's rather late to begin planning. Let me speak to the Sisters this afternoon. Why don't you come over to the Convent after supper? One of the Sisters will greet you at the door and bring you to my office. Is that agreeable?" "Oh, yeah...I mean yes, Sister Superior! Thank you! See you after supper." Promptly after supper - well, as soon as he had finished a second helping of ice cream - Shane appeared at the convent where he was greeted at the door by a smiling Sister Theresa. "Good evening, Shane." she said. "I understand you've been talking with Sister Superior about something very exciting," "Um..." Shane fumbled, "Thank you Sister." "Come right this way, Shane. Sister Superior is waiting for us." "Good evening, Shane," Sister Superior greeted him kindly. "Would you mind if Sister Theresa joined our conversation? She is very interested in your proposal." "No...no. That's great!" Shane exclaimed, smiling at both nuns. "Let me tell you what the Sisters - and Father Burke - had to say this afternoon, and then some decisions will have to be made. All of us think it is a splendid idea. (Shane grinned widely.) Unfortunately, all of us are absolutely stretched to the limit, especially with Christmas approaching. (Shane's smile faded.) We do see one possibility for making it happen this year.. If you are willing to serve as 'Coordinator of the First St. Patrick's Lessons and Carols Program,' working with Sister Theresa as your Advisor, we are willing to move ahead." Shane jumped to his feet with a shout of "Yeah! Great!" before lapsing into a guilty grin, slumping back into his chair, and mumbling, "Sorry, Sisters." "'Yeah, Great' will do in this situation," Sister Superior said calmly. "However, you must be clear about what is involved. Working closely with Sister Theresa, you must arrange for readers - and make sure they know what they're doing. At least four of the ten readers must come from the seventh and eighth grades. You must prepare a program that can be duplicated for parents and others who may attend the performance - a performance, by the way, which MUST take place on the afternoon of Sunday, December fourteenth. That's only two weeks away, Shane! You must also work with Sister Theresa and Father Burke on publicity. Finally, Sister Theresa tells me that she would be delighted if you would join her in working with her first graders. Now, young man, be honest with me. That's a terrible workload, and there's so little time to do it well. Are you absolutely sure you want to accept this responsibility?" Needless to say, the boy was so beside himself that he almost had to be carried from the room. "Oh, yes, Sisters. I ACCEPT - and there's NO WAY that I will let you down!" "We believe that, Shane. Very well, let's do it!" Sister Superior exclaimed. As Sister Theresa showed the still trembling boy to the door, he asked her, "Sister, which carol is the first grade learning?" "Oh," she answered, 'Little Gray Donkey'...you know, the carol about the donkey that Mary rode to the manger." "Sister Theresa," Shane exclaimed in high excitement, "you don't know how GREAT that is! I'll have something exciting to show you tomorrow." "Wonderful, Shane," Sister responded. "See you then!" As the two nuns passed in the hall as they returned to their evening duties, they smiled fondly. No, he wouldn't let them down - nor would they, him. The next two weeks were one big blur - as well as the most rewarding experience thus far in Shane McGuire's young life. The part-time secretary in the Church office sent pro forma invitations to the usual dignitaries who were always invited to major events at St. Patrick's - the Bishop, the Mayor of Sherburne, the various County commissioners, the Director of the one big mill that was still operating, the Editor of the Eastern Connecticut Times...people like that. (No one particularly expected them to accept, but they had to be asked.) The "Lessons and Carols" program was announced in Church at Sunday Mass on the seventh; Sister Superior announced it to the children and had them take invitations home to their parents. Mr. Rafferty made sure that the Hall lights were in good operating order and arranged for the "good piano" to be moved onto the stage for practices. After the readers - and Bible readings from the Nativity story - were identified, Shane worked with them almost daily - and the first graders saw him so often that they almost accepted him as an extra member of their class! During this entire period, Shane continued receiving instruction from Fr. Tom on serving at the Mass, as well as keeping up with his remedial work in subjects where his life on the streets had caused him to fall behind. Only two "surprises" threw him a bit off stride. Mrs. Murphy reminded him that light refreshments were usually served after such events. When (in some confusion) he confessed that he hadn't thought of that, she told him smilingly to leave that problem in her hands. Secondly, Fr. Tom told him that the Bishop had not only ACCEPTED their invitation, but had indicated that he wanted to see the Youth Center! When Father saw the tears that crept into the young man's tired eyes, he sat down and talked with him for a few minutes about the need for an administrator to delegate responsibility. "How about checking with Mel?" he suggested. "See if he can work up a little demonstration in the exercise room. You might also see Brandon and ask him if he will oversee getting the dormitory into good order and be ready to tell the Bishop about what we're doing. If they need help, tell them to see me." Shane managed a weak grin and a weary, "Thank you, Father." On Tuesday of the second week, Fr. Tom found him sound asleep in one of the chairs in the sitting room of the rectory as he waited to see him. Waking the boy, Fr. Tom said, "Ok, Big Guy, we've got to go downtown. Come along!" Soon the redhead found himself standing inside the last clothing store left open in town. "We can't have our Coordinator wearing hand-me-downs. Besides, you're growing like a weed!" Shane couldn't quite believe the way he looked as he stood in front of the full-length mirror in a sports coat, slacks, a white shirt (with a tie!), and shiny shoes - the first NEW clothes he ever remembered wearing! Despite his age and the presence of others in the store, the handsome youth couldn't help burying his head in Father's chest. "Careful, boyo," his hero growled as he held him close. "Can't get those new clothes all wet!" Shane only looked up at him through his tears and grinned. Milkshakes at the soda fountain in the drug store next door sent them both back to St. Patrick's wreathed in smiles. As every reader will guess, the inaugural "St. Patrick's Lessons and Carols Program" was a resounding success. The Bishop came early to inspect the Youth Center about which he had heard so much. In the spotless exercise room, he was greeted by Mel, Keanu, and four of their best athletes, all clad in brand new white gym shorts, T-shirts, and socks. (That's not quite correct: Keanu had "ST. PATRICK'S CHURCH - Sherburne, Conn." printed in Kelly green on his shirt, and Mel's shirt was Kelly green with the same lettering in white.) The six young lads put on a sterling, five-minute gymnastic exhibition for the Bishop that brought applause from all the spectators. Brandon welcomed the Bishop to the dormitory on behalf of the boys and told him a bit about their life at St. Patrick's, including their remedial classes and their efforts to support the parish. "Rather crowded for twelve of you, isn't it?" Bishop Kelly asked, looking around. "Yeah, Bishop," Brandon answered, "but we manage. It's home. Besides, when we have the money, we're going to push though the wall at the end of the hall. There's a really big storeroom on the other side that we'll turn into a second dorm." Bishop Kelly nodded appreciatively, shook hands with Brandon and Mel, and blessed each of the young men before departing. Grinning widely, Fr. Tom winked at his boys as he hurried out. The enormous old church was at least half full of buzzing parents, siblings, relatives, school children and their teachers, and staff - not to ignore other guests and "The Gang" - as the Bishop and his small entourage entered and were guided to their seats by Fr. Tom. The audience rose respectfully and stood until the Bishop was seated. Sister Superior, as the Principal of St. Patrick's School, warmly welcomed the large crowd. Almost immediately, she introduced the young man who had suggested the new program and, she asserted proudly, had spent countless hours working to bring it about. To the audience's applause - especially enthusiastic from the forty or so first graders - Shane strode to the front of the sanctuary. More confidently than he felt, the redhead thanked Sister Superior, again welcomed everyone to the School's Christmas Program, and briefly described its simple format. A lovely young girl from the eighth grade in a simple black robe then rose from the choir stalls, walked to the lectern, and read the first Nativity selection from Scripture. The kindergarten came forward with their teacher and with piano accompaniment sang a charming little carol. Teacher, reader, and children stood together at its close, reveling in the enthusiastic applause from the audience. It was time for the first grade's presentation. Shane noticed a slight panic back in the choir stalls. (He later discovered that the stage manager could not find the adult choir robe that they had brought for Mel.) Undaunted, the hunky blond strode forward to the lectern in his gym attire and read his short lesson...flawlessly. (Shane exhaled with relief. He couldn't remember how many times he had worked through the selection with Mel!) Sister Theresa and the first graders then took center stage - with one slight change. In front of the large class, a handful of simply costumed children created a small manager scene. As the class sang the "Little Gray Donkey" (about the donkey on which Mary rode to the manger), the group in front pantomimed the action. All went well, until the two parts of the little donkey began moving in slightly different directions and collapsed dramatically on the stage. Though it was suppressed admirably, a wave of laughter rippled through the church. At the close of their memorable performance, Sister Theresa, Mel and, above all, the children insisted that Shane join them. Together they stood grinning as they enjoyed the standing ovation from the audience. And so it went - a truly delightful evening. In the Church Hall at the close of the Program, the two parts of the little donkey seemed determined not to let Shane and Mel (who had found a pair of long pants back in the dorm!) out of their sight. Shane was fully convinced that every parent in the parish had tried to shake his hand off and yearned (kind of) to retreat into the Youth Center. Most excited of all, of course, were the children. On every side he could hear them asking their parents if they had heard them sing - or if they had REALLY done that well. Suddenly, he knew that all the work had been worth it. At long last, Fr. Tom escorted the Bishop out to his limousine parked at the side of the rectory. Following some minutes of conversation, the cleric had asked if he might speak with Shane privately for a moment. As the boy approached, Father stepped back onto the dark porch. When the Bishop stretched out of his hand, the boy genuflected and kissed his ring. When he rose, the Bishop put his hands on the boy's shoulders and spoke with him seriously for some time. After blessing him, he stepped into the limousine and departed to the redhead's waves. As the jubilant youngster almost skipped back towards the Youth Center, Fr. Tom reentered the rectory, his feelings those of sadness and pride commingled. Holding a drop of whiskey up against the light, he grinned. Before he had departed, the Bishop had told him to have the new dormitory room constructed and to send the bill to the Bursar at the Diocese. He also suggested the food bill for his "teen beasts" must be unbalancing the parish's budget. The monthly tabs could also be sent to the Bursar for the next year. Finally, he gave permission to the parish to hire one new teacher. As long as he or she was skilled in remedial work and could work well with homeless youth, Sister Superior might do the hiring. "AH, that's good!" he grunted as he sipped the whiskey. "Not as good as having Shane in my arms, but it's good." With that bittersweet thought, Father Tom took himself upstairs to bed. (To Be Continued)