Date: Tue, 20 Apr 2004 02:52:13 -0400 From: Damion Subject: Rodie's Love Chapter 4 (M, b, wet dream, oral) WARNING: This story contains descriptions of sexual acts involving a man and a MINOR boy. I wish to explain that this story is not true! Further, it is not intended to promote illegal acts against minors, but to demonstrate that men and boys can love each other. The sexual acts described in the story are the result of my imagination. I have not performed these acts, and I do not encourage others to perform them with minors. If the subject of man/boy love offends you, if this material is illegal in your place of residence, or if you are under the legal age for such material, do not read further! By downloading this story: "... 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No other implication about the true sexuality, or actions of the people, or places mentioned is intended. All copyrights and trademarks belong to the holders. Author's Note: Hello again, I would like to thank Randu first, because it was His original story "Double Trouble," that gave me my inspiration for Rodie's talents. I would also like the thank Leo, who along with Scott, are proof reading the chapters as I complete them. They check for spelling, grammar, and context errors in the chapters. This makes the story easier to read, as well as improves the "flow" of the story. By doing it by myself, since I am the author, I will not catch many errors. The job they are providing is a crucial part of the editorial process, and I want to acknowledge their time and effort they have committed to help me bring this story to you. In this chapter, I decided to follow the theme of the Nifty Archives. I figured that since this is being written as an erotic story then I will have to abide with the general idea and include some sexual scenes, hopefully I wrote it correctly. I have to say that after I complete this chapter and the next, I will be taking a small break due to renovations in my home. So do not despair because I have not yet finished with the story, and will continue once our renovations are done. Chapter 5 is complete and 6 is in the process of "proofing" and I hope to post it when I return after my 2-week hiatus. Thank you to everyone who has responded to my story with his or her emails. I have tried to answer each of you in turn. Damion Rodie's Love, by Snwdemon with collaborating efforts from Leo and Scott Chapter 4. Jim awoke with his head pounding with a headache along with his usual pain in his back and legs. "Oh God," Jim said aloud as he struggled to sit up. What a hangover, he thought as he rested his face in his hands before finally looking over at Eddie as he slept. Getting up slowly, Jim went into the bathroom and turned on the shower. He then brushed his teeth and shaved before undressing and stepping under the hot spray. He stood there letting the hot water run over his body as he remembered that Eddie drove him home and put him to bed the previous night. "Morning Bro!" Eddie said waking Jim out of his reverie. "Uuhhgg!" Jim exclaimed through the frosted glass to his best friend. "Hey I warned you about drinking so much. I don't want to be the one who says 'I told you so', but I did tell you so." Eddie said in a mocking tone. "You're enjoying this aren't you Eddie?" Jim replied. "Me? Now why would I do that Bro? I just want it clear that 'I told you so' is all, I wouldn't want someone to think that I would let you do this to yourself without warning you." Eddie explained in a nasally tone of voice as he applied toothpaste to his toothbrush. "Do you mind! It seemed like a good idea at the time. So please...I am trying to drown myself at the moment!" Jim said in an exasperated voice. "No, I don't mind a bit Jim" Eddie said with a mouth full of toothpaste before laughing and then continuing to brush his teeth. Jim could not help laughing with Eddie, as he grabbed the shampoo and started washing his hair. Quickly finishing his shower Jim asked his closest friend, "You want me to leave it running?" "Yeah Bro," Eddie answered through a face full of shaving cream. Jim stepped out of the shower, grabbed a towel, and started rubbing himself vigorously as Eddie finished shaving. Eddie rinsed his face then turned and stepped past Jim into the shower where he started to hum loudly and slightly off key. Shaking his head while grinning, Jim pulled on his terry cloth robe and went into the bedroom. He walked over to the dresser, pulled out fresh clothes, and then started dressing. He was almost fully dressed as Eddie came out of the bathroom with just a towel wrapped around his head. "You still got my stuff in the spare room don't you Jim?" Eddie asked as he admired himself in front of the full-length mirror. Looking at his friend, Jim saw that Eddie still had that lean and chiseled look despite being 40 years old, "Yeah I do, it's still your room you know," he replied. "I know, it's just hard to still think of this place as home now that I have my 'Grand Palace'," Eddie answered while flashing a grin at Jim. "I'll go start some coffee while you finish up ok," Jim explained to Eddie who just winked at him before strolling out into the spare bedroom. Jim walked into the kitchen and made coffee, while waiting for it to brew he thought about the previous night. After Cathy carried Rodie home, Jim had called Eddie and told him felt like going out. It was a little surprising to his friend since Jim had not been out for almost a year now. Eddie told him that he would pick him up in an hour and for him to dress visible. That meant to dress sharply and expect to be noticed. So Jim went, and changed into expensive clothes then waited until Eddie arrived. They went out to dinner at a small but excellent Chinese restaurant. Then he and Eddie went to a party at one of Eddies more flamboyant friend's house. The music was loud while the liquor flowed freely. Knowing something was on Jim's mind, and that he did not want to talk about it, Eddie had them mingle with their assorted friends. Seeing Jim drinking much more than he normally did, Eddie nursed his drink until it was time to take Jim home and pour him into bed. Jim looked up as Eddie walked into the kitchen wearing a bright pink floral shirt with white slacks. "Coffee ready yet?" Eddie inquired taking a seat at the table. "Just finished," Jim replied as he poured two cups of coffee and handing one to Eddie before seating himself across from him. Eddie looked over at Jim and asked, after adding cream, sugar, and taking a drink. "Ok, you willing to explain your sudden need to petrify your liver?" Jim took a drink of his coffee, thinking for a moment, then answering his long time friend. He briefly went over the events of the previous day, explaining about Rodie's secret of what his father had done to him. Then Jim explained the events at the beach, telling him how they had met John Winters. In addition, how Rodie reacted when John touched him while he was not expecting it, shortly after arriving home. Jim also explained to Eddie what Cathy told him about Rodie's abilities, although she never told this to Rodie. He finished by telling him about how he insisted that Cathy explain all of what she had learned about his abilities to the one person, who needed that information most, Rodie. Then of his private talk with Rodie, and how he convinced Rodie to tell his mother everything. Finally, of his own conclusions he had reached afterwards as Cathy carried Rodie over to their trailer. "So that's why he just walked out, I knew that we were missing something," Eddie replied. "I mean, Jesus man, how could a father walk out on a son who was like Rodie. He is perfect, intelligent, friendly, unique, and fucking gorgeous. If he were mine I could never leave him." Eddie paused for a few moments then said, "you are sure he is going to tell Cathy everything?" "Yes, I believe so, he promised me he would, and he lays great faith in promises. Do not ever make a promise to him that you can not or do not plan to keep." Jim replied. "In addition to Cathy explaining to him why he feels these things right?" Eddie pursued intently. "Yes, once I explained the reasons to her, I know she will tell him. With him, not knowing about this every time he 'senses' something or makes physical contact it only confuses him more. Moreover, that confusion makes him even more frightened than he already is. I have to end that confusion, so if she doesn't tell him then I will." Jim stated emphatically to Eddie. "You really love him a lot, don't you Jim?" Eddie asked while taking another drink. Jim thought a moment before replying, "yeah Eddie, I really do love him. More than you can know right now." "Well what are you going to do if she decides to return home at the end of summer," Eddie asked. "I haven't really thought about that yet Eddie, but if she did I guess I would move there too just to be with him." Jim answered quietly while staring at his cup. Just then Cathy came up the steps and knocked lightly on the glass door. "Come on in, Cathy. Would you like some coffee?" Jim asked her as he let her in while noticing Rodie was not with her. "Thanks Jim, I would love some," Cathy answered with a smile. "Where's the boy wonder?" Eddie asked her as he stood to hold out her chair for her. "Thank you Eddie. Well, he had a very rough night, so I gave him something to help him go to sleep without dreaming. I got the prescription for him after Paul left because Rodie was having nightmares. At the time I assumed it was because of Paul's leaving that was causing the nightmares, I did not realize what he had done to Rodie though. I should have seen it, but I didn't." Cathy said with a slight quiver in her voice. "Do not punish yourself Cathy, how could you know when Rodie refused to tell you. In his mind he thought he was being punished for being bad, when it was your ex being unable to control his lust for his own son," Jim said in an understanding and comforting tone. "All that matter's now is that we all know now. The question is what do we do now?" Jim stated while Eddie nodded his head in agreement. "I know Jim, and I appreciate what you and Eddie have done for us. We have plenty of time to talk about this; Rodie did not get to sleep until almost 5 AM, so he will be asleep for quite awhile still because the medicine is quite strong. If you want to know, I think I should get him some kind of therapy or something. However, I am afraid of what he might say by accident about you. He would die if he implicated you in something by accident." Cathy explained to them. "I agree with you Cathy, and I know just the person to take him to. Do not worry about if Rodie slips up with him, because he will not say anything," Eddie told her. Cathy gave Eddie a questioning look until he replied. "You are just going to have to trust me now, won't you, dear." Eddie said while patting her hand lightly and smiling at her. For the rest of the morning, they talked about various things until shortly past noon. Rodie, while very groggy and disoriented still, walked in wearing only his white bikini briefs with his small penis tenting them out. His eyes were half closed as he staggered sluggishly into the kitchen past Cathy and went directly to Jim, letting Jim pull him up into his lap. Jim hugged the sleepy boy to his chest before brushing his hair out of his face and kissing him on the nose. Rodie's hair was tangled and messed up looking, and he had dark circles under his eyes, which also had a glassy cast to them. "Good afternoon, sleepy head, I heard you had a rough night. You ok now?" Jim asked as Rodie rubbed his eyes with the back of one small hand before leaning his head against Jim's chest. "I do not feel good Jim...I am dizzy and my head hurts" Rodie mumbled in soft high-pitched pitiful voice as he buried he face into Jim's shoulder. "I know it does surf boy, why don't we go lay back down for a little while," Jim said tenderly as he kissed the top of Rodie's head. Looking over at Cathy and Eddie for a moment, Jim finally stood up when he saw Rodie nod his head in agreement. Rodie wrapped his arms around Jim's neck then wrapped his legs around Jim's waist, and rested his head on Jim's shoulder. While supporting Rodie with one hand under his thinly clad pert bottom, and the other on his bare upper back, Jim hugged Rodie's small body to his own while looking over towards Cathy and Eddie. "I will go lay down with him for awhile, I still do not feel that good myself," Jim told them as he stood there and nestled Rodie to his chest while the long haired boy drowsed in his arms. Eddie and Cathy nodded in agreement while shooing him off towards the back of the house, with that Jim turned and carried the drowsing boy into his room where he laid him on the bed. Quietly closing the door and then undressing to his boxer briefs, he carefully lay down on the bed beside Rodie, quickly pulling the covers over both of them. Of course, Rodie immediately snuggled close to him, draping his arm and leg over Jim, then laying his head upon Jim's chest and shoulder. Whispering into Rodie's ear, Jim said, "Go back to sleep Rodie, I'll be here to watch over you." "Jim..." he heard Rodie mumble from his half-awake, half-asleep state. "I love you...forever" Rodie mumbled softly as he slipped off to sleep again. "I love you to Rodie, and I am very, very proud of you," Jim answered as he watched Rodie's face relax. Then despite the coffee he drank, Jim drifted off to sleep as he held Rodie's small body close to him, dreaming warm dreams of his beautiful surf boy. Jim woke as he felt Rodie's little hardness pushing against his thigh. Glancing at the alarm clock, he saw that it was 3:30 PM. Rodie let out a soft moan as Jim felt the young boy slowly thrust his small hips forward rubbing his hard cocklet against Jim's thigh. As Rodie dreamed, Jim felt Rodie's breathing quicken as his thrusts becoming more frequent, and his soft moaning becoming more urgent. As Rodie's passion slowly built, Jim saw the young boy start to rise slowly out of the depths of his sleeping state. After a few minutes of watching him, Jim saw that Rodie's face was flushed, his breathing had become more ragged, moaning softly, as Rodie struggled towards his peak. Rodie's eyes suddenly opened, instantly aware of what was happening, and he took a deep, ragged deep breath, holding it in as he lifted his head from Jim's chest, then he winced gritting his teeth while his small body stiffened. Jim felt him thrust hard one final time. Then Rodie released his breath as a quivering moan as his body shook while he climaxed. "Uuhhhnnn ... oh no ... uuhhhnnn ... Jim ... oh ... uuhhhnnn ... no!" Rodie cried out with a look of horror mixed with unbearable pleasure came onto his face. Jim felt the warm wetness spreading onto his thigh, as Rodie's three-inch hard penis swelled again, and again as it flexed repeatedly. Understanding instantly what was happening, Jim was a bit surprised considering Rodie's young age. Tears started to well up into Rodie's eyes as his ongoing orgasm slowly began to fade. With all of his muscles through out his small body taunt, they slowly began to relax as each spasm came. Jim felt Rodie's hard cocklet flex less and less, and the hardness ebbed away, as each spasm passed. Now spent from his overwhelming orgasm, Rodie started to inhale and exhale roughly as he slowly collapsed back down onto Jim's bare chest while his sobs of shame started to escape his small mouth. Jim held Rodie gently while the last tremors of the orgasm left his slim body while he fought bravely to hold in his increasing shame. Slowly looking at Jim's face, while the hot tears started to rolled down his small face, "I'm s ... s ... sorry ... Jim ... I ... I ... cou ... couldn't he ... help it." Rodie sobbed slowly as he started to lose his struggle to control his increasing shame. "It is ok surf boy, don't worry about it," Jim soothed. Now with tears of shame streaming down his face, Rodie looked at Jim and sobbed quietly. "I ... I ... th ... think ... I ... p ... peed ... the ... bed ... Jim." Rodie quietly admitted as he lost what little pride he had left in his voice. Then breaking down and sobbing uncontrollably as his shame finally won the struggle as he kept repeating in between sobs "I peed the bed Jim...I peed the bed". Jim held his weeping boy gently for almost 30 minutes before looking at him and saying. "No Rodie, shush now, my love. No you did not, ssshhhh, you did not pee the bed, honey. Its ok my love, you just had an orgasm is all, sometimes stress triggers them, so ssshhhh my love. All boys have them, we all have wet dreams Rodie, including me, my love." Jim answered softly, caressing Rodie's back slowly with one hand, while he brushed the tears softly away from Rodie's small face once his shame had run its course. "Come on, stand up and I will show you ok," Jim told him with understanding. Jim purposely avoided using the term "baby" knowing that it would only hurt Rodie's already wounded self-esteem causing it more damage. Jim slipped out of the bed and waited until Rodie, who was blushing, a deep red in embarrassment as he saw the wet circle on Jim's boxer briefs, got out of the bed also wanting to believe Jim's comforting words. As Rodie stood up Jim could see the complete outline of his small limp penis as Rodie's wet bikini briefs molded themselves to his tiny member. Jim sat on the edge of the bed then sat Rodie in his lap between his legs. Jim gently pointed out the large wet spot covering the front of Rodie's white bikini underwear. Jim then pulled the waistband out and down a little, revealing the thin, white, sticky fluid coating Rodie's now limp little penis and acorn sized balls as well as his underwear. Sniffing loudly, Rodie asked, "So I didn't pee in the bed?" "No you didn't honey. I thought you might be able to ejaculate a little, considering how much larger your testicles are compared to other boys your age, but I was not sure until just now. It happens to all boys as they start to enter puberty surf boy; all it means is that you are growing up is all. So there is nothing to cry about ok." "Testicles?" Rodie asked with a confused look on his face as he wiped his nose with the back of his hand. "It is a big word Rodie, it means your balls ok," Jim said with a smile as he gently squeezed Rodie's damp nuts which caused Rodie to start giggling loudly. Once he had settled down, Rodie looked at Jim, "I still made a mess...Yuck!" He exclaimed while still holding his waistband out away from his body before sliding them down, off his slim legs, and then holding them up pinched between two fingers while he made a gross-out face. Jim smiled at him, "come on surf boy, lets go get cleaned up," Jim told him as he headed for the shower. They showered quickly and dressed in clean underwear, then Rodie helped Jim change the linen on the bed from where his cum had leaked onto it. As he followed Jim downstairs to the laundry room with his messy underwear and some of the linen, he asked Jim to explain to him about what happened exactly. Jim started giving Rodie the "Birds and the bees" talk as he loaded the soiled linen and clothes, plus detergent into the washer. After they had returned upstairs and sat down in the dining room did Rodie ask, "so this sperm stuff is what I peed out Jim?" "Yes that is right, only it is more commonly called cum though," Jim answered. "And I can make a baby now?" Rodie asked with a slightly disgusted look on his face. Jim smiled before he replied; "I don't think so, not quite yet. You see you just started to make sperm so I believe that it is still immature, which is why it felt so watery and thin. Although in a few years you will be able to." "Why do you think that?" Rodie asked innocently. Looking at Rodie warmly, Jim replied, "Well it is because you are not yet fully mature yet either. I am only 5' 5" tall and you are over a foot smaller than I am. You don't have any pubic hair down there, and you have to admit that your pecker isn't all that big yet." "It's bigger than Eric's is!" Rodie said defensively. "Well that is true, and it is definitely a good sized one for someone your age and size, but as you continue to grow, so will it." Jim answered making Rodie smile with pride. "So how did it feel? Pretty good huh?" Jim asked Rodie watching him blush prettily. "Truthfully?" Rodie asked shyly. "Yeah surf boy, truthfully," Jim said while looking Rodie in the eyes. "Before or after I thought I was peeing on you?" Rodie asked in a shy voice. Smiling Jim replied, "before." Blushing an even deeper shade of red Rodie said, "I thought it felt wonderful!" "Why?" Jim pressed. "Well I was sort of...umm...sort of was thinking about you when it happened. That's why I was so embarrassed cause I thought I had peed on you!" Rodie replied honestly which made Jim chuckle. Rodie blushed as he glared at Jim, "What's so funny!" Rodie demanded looking injured. "I'm not laughing at you surf boy, I'm laughing at myself. I was just imagining what YOU were thinking about ME while you were dreaming." Jim answered still chuckling with mirth, as Rodie blushed red again although he did have a big smile on his cute little face. "And after?" Jim asked still looking at him. "Well at first I couldn't believe that I was wetting the bed cause I haven't done that since I was a baby. Then I realized that I was laying on top of you while I was peeing... and..." Rodie's voice trailed off quietly as he looked away. Moving over to where he was sitting, Jim reached out and gently turned his small face back towards him. "And?" Jim asked. Swallowing hard just as a tear started to make its way down his face Rodie said softly, "and I thought you would hate me now like my daddy does." With a look of understanding and compassion in his face Jim knelt beside Rodie, and softly wiped away the tears from his eyes. "I could never hate you Rodie, no matter what you do to me, my beautiful surf boy, because I love you." Jim admitted to the young boy finally. Rodie looked into Jim's brown eyes for a moment sensing the truth of the words he just heard. "You really love me?" Rodie asked needing Jim's verbal verification to believe him. "Yes, Rodie," Jim answered, "I really do love you. I have loved you since I first saw you surf boy." Not responding in words, Rodie leaned forward and kissed Jim's lips before wrapping his arms around his neck. Just then, the telephone rang, and Rodie followed Jim as he stood up and went to answer it. "Hello? Oh hi Eddie. Oh you are...I was wondering where you two went. Oh yes, I thoroughly enjoyed my rest. Uh huh, well yes I would love that. You will? I owe you one then. Therefore, Cathy will be back late then. No it is not a problem. Oh and thank you Eddie. Talk to you later!" Jim said goodbye and hung up the telephone. Rodie was looking at Jim intently, but Jim shoo'd him away breaking his concentration. "What you do that for?" Rodie asked with a surprised look on his face. "Ah Ha! So your radar can be jammed on occasion!" Jim exclaimed as he walked past Rodie and went into the kitchen. Rodie followed Jim into the kitchen with a slightly amazed look on his face. Then Jim told him, "well my beautiful surf boy, it looks like we have the whole night to ourselves," Jim said with a serious face while Rodie stared at him. No longer trying to hide his thoughts and feelings from him, Rodie quickly understood. He reached out and took Jim's hand while staring intently at him, then his eyes opened wide in disbelief, "you mean that Jim, I have you all to myself tonight?" He asked in a small voice, and watched Jim slowly nod his head before opening his arms wide. Rodie rushed into his embrace kissing him passionately on the lips as Jim lifted him into his arms. "You sure you want to be alone all night with me surf boy?" Jim asked solemnly. Lifting his head until he could look Jim in the face Rodie answered softly, "more than anything else Jim." "Ok surf boy, you got all night." Jim said while Rodie nodded his small head. "Let's get some dinner first ok, how about Italian surf boy?" Jim asked then watching Rodie vigorously nod his head while grinning at him. "I know a good place that delivers, so what would you like?" Jim questioned. "Ravioli in a white cheese sauce with garlic bread!" Rodie replied quickly. Jim ordered Lasagna, and Rodie's Ravioli, plus an order of garlic bread sticks to be delivered and paid with his credit card. They went and dressed into something other than their underwear, then Rodie helped Jim make a Caesar salad. They had just finished setting the table when the doorbell rang and Jim walked down to get their dinner. Once it was brought up and served on plates Jim had Rodie say a quick prayer before both began eating while laughing at each other's jokes. Once they finished with dinner Jim sat on the couch with Rodie snuggled close while resting his head on Jim's shoulder as they watched "The Sixth Sense" together. As the movie ended Rodie asked, "Jim can we try out the Jacuzzi?" "Sure beautiful, I'm yours for the night remember. Anything you want to do ok," Jim answered him with a smile. "Anything?" Rodie peeped. "Anything!" Jim repeated. Rodie thought for a moment then lifted his head and whispered into Jim's ear. "Can we go naked Jim?" Looking at Rodie's face, "you sure...ok, if that is what you want, surf boy," Jim said while Rodie nodded his head slightly. Turning off the TV Jim picked up the small boy and carried him downstairs into the room where the Jacuzzi was. Lowering Rodie until he was standing, Jim reached over, turned on the jets, and adjusted the heat level. Turning back to Rodie Jim pulled him closer and started lifting his tee shirt up and over his head. He then untied the knot in Rodie's board shorts and slid them down his slim legs until he could step out of them. Jim then removed his own shirt and shorts while Rodie stood watching him in his cotton boxers with an obvious tent in them. Jim stood up and slipped his thumbs into the waistband of his boxer briefs and slowly slid them down and stepped out of them. He then did the same to Rodie's boxers before picking the small boy up and stepping into the warm water. He settled himself in the circulating water with Rodie facing him as he sat on his lap. Once they had adjusted to the water temperature, Rodie leaned forward with his head tilted slightly, and placed his small lips on Jim's mouth. As Jim met Rodie's small tongue with his own, he slowly ran his hands down Rodie's back until he cupped Rodie's small ass cheeks in his hands. Breaking the long kiss finally Rodie said in a heavy breath, "I love you Jim." "I love you too, surf boy," just as Rodie kissed him again. Jim ran his fingers lightly along Rodie's crack until he found the little pink anus. Jim could feel it tighten reflexively as he traced around it's edge while Rodie's body started to tremble against him. Jim pushed the tip of his finger inside, Rodie cried out breaking their kiss and Jim quickly stopped but left his finger inside of Rodie's ass buried almost to the first knuckle. Jim felt Rodie's sphincter relax slowly, but also felt Rodie's body shaking even more. While Rodie's sphincter spasms finally ceased, Rodie looked into Jim's face. A look of utter anguish was covering his small face like a mask while tears welled up in his eyes. Jim watched him as he thought for a moment, then Rodie's expression changed to that of a person who dreaded what was going to happen next, but had no control to prevent it, only to accept it. However, Jim could see the sexual desire in Rodie's frightened face also. Seeing all of that, Jim quickly removed his finger thinking he had gone to far, and to fast for the young boy. As Rodie felt Jim withdraw his finger, Rodie showed his desire as well as his willingness to accept the fate that he feared. He cried out quickly, "No! Please don't." With his body beginning to tremble more as that fear grew. Rodie continued to speak in a voice tinged with that fear now. "You do not have to stop Jim. If this is what you want...it is ok with me...ju...just don't hurt me...please." Trying to be brave and not cry but not succeeding, as the fear and memories rushed through his mind. "N...not like daddy did ... please Jim," Rodie begged. He was unable to stop the tears now as they slipped down his small face as his resolve started to crumble while his desire faded. Jim saw Rodie's bottom lip beginning to quiver, as the tears came faster now. "Please Jim...I'm just real...really scared...is all. All I know...is that it hur...hurt really b...bad when daddy...al...always did it. I...I thought he...he loved me J...Jim...he said he h...had to hur...hurt me...ca...cause...he...l...loved me." He was stuttering now as he hiccuped with his growing fear. Rodie tried to look Jim in the eyes, but was unable to see anything beyond his tears. His voice was small and high pitched, sounding much like the 10-year old boy he really was as he started to hyperventilate. "B...but you promised me...y...you promised not to hurt me...I...am ju...just...s...so ...sca...scared...right...now...but y...you p...pro...promised. Y...you said you lo...love me...ss...so don't...hurt...mm...me...p...p...plea...please Jim...please." Rodie wailed as he embraced Jim tight and lay his head on Jim's shoulder. Jim could feel Rodie's small chest heaving in spasms while he hyperventilated and hiccupped in his fear. Finally submitting to the hysteria of his fear, Rodie continued to plead with his heart, while his small naked body shuddered violently against Jim. "I...d...do...not...w...want it...to hu...hurt as bad...li...like...when d...d...daddy hurt me...p... ple ... please Jim...d...don...don't hurt me...p...pl...please...you pr...promised...me...J...Jim...please!" Rodie spluttered, in a near panic now, due to his fear as he pleaded and begged, all while trying to be brave as his tears gushed down his face. Jim held his small shaking body with great concern, then looked into Rodie's tearful eyes where he saw the uncontrollable fear. Jim saw the need in them also; he knew that he had to change how Rodie equated pain and sex with love. Therefore, he decided that from now on Rodie would see that it was wonderful, and gentle while filled with compassion and caring. Rodie would know that love and sex was not brutal while filled with pain, as he believed now. Jim was no expert on children, and he had no training or experience working with them. However, he knew how desperately Rodie needed the memory that he had of love and sex to change now, if he was to continue living. He had to first calm Rodie down though. Who was crying now from the fear of his memory of the pain and trauma his father had inflicted on him so many times in the past. All while claiming that he was loving Rodie instead. So Jim pulled Rodie closer to his chest and started whispering in his ear. Rodie struggled at first but then less and less as the time passed. Rodie's fear slowly slipped away as he heard Jim repeat the words softly in his ear, as he let his body slowly melt into Jim's caressing embrace. "I promised you Rodie. I will never break this promise to you because I love you. Now calm down my love, I will not hurt you, not now or ever. You are my beautiful surf boy, and I would die first before I ever hurt you or cause you harm. I love you Rodie, and you remember this promise always." Jim slowly repeated over, and over for twenty minutes until Rodie calmed down and finally relaxed against Jim's chest. After another 20 minutes passed as Jim slowly scooped the warm water on Rodie while he lightly kissed his face and head. Lifting his head finally, Rodie just looked into Jim's eyes as if he was searching for something important. Jim could see the desire and need rising once again in his dark brown eyes. Finally Rodie just leaned forward and kissed Jim on the lips lightly before sitting up straight again in Jim's lap. Jim had been scooping handfuls of warm water onto Rodie while he calmed him down. Taking a handful of water, he tilted Rodie's head back and let it dribble onto his tear stained face. He repeated this three to four times before pulling him closer and wiping his wet face gently with a washcloth. "I told you that I didn't think you were ready for this yet, surf boy," Jim said gently to Rodie. Placing his hands on Jim's shoulders while looking down at Jim's hairless chest, Rodie quietly answered, "I know, but I couldn't help it. Everything I feel inside me was saying 'yes, yes, yes,' but as soon as you touched me there my mind was screaming 'NO daddy NO'. Then all I could think about was how much it hurt when he did it. Of how he refused to stop no matter how much I screamed, then him telling me that that if it didn't hurt then it meant he didn't love me. So I felt how much you love me, but I couldn't stop being afraid of how much it is going to hurt me. I'm sorry Jim." Looking at Rodie as the small boy stared at Jim's bare chest, Jim replied, "No Rodie, you do not have to apologize to me. I know you are frightened and confused my love. What you have is called PTS syndrome, and I know you have it because of the panic attacks you are having...first with John, then with me just now." "P.T.S.? What's that?" Rodie asked looking back up at Jim's face. "It stands for Post Traumatic Stress Syndrome. You get it when something very bad happens to you, like a car accident or something like what your father did to you. Your mind is unable to deal with what has happened, my love, so it sort of blacks it out so you do not think about it. The only problem is that when certain events are all combined in a way that is similar to what happened to you, your mind suddenly releases all of those memories and emotions right then. Then the survival instinct of your brain takes over to try to protect you, that is why you do things that you cannot control. It overwhelms you because you are not prepared to handle it mentally or emotionally. So you end up having a panic attack, it is as if you have a mini breakdown. It will continue to happen more, and more often, while it gets worse, and worse each time until you do something to escape from it all like Byron did. Byron had it, but I was not allowed to see him so I could not help him and it got so bad that he ended up killing himself to make it stop. I will not let that happen to you Rodie, I promise you with all my heart. I will help you through this, and I will not let you do something to hurt yourself. What your father did was to rape you. Rape is not about love, it is about control and power, and it usually hurts the victim so bad that all they remember is the pain. Your dad did it because he liked that, he liked you begging him not to, he liked how you struggled against it, but most of all he liked how you screamed in pain while he did it. He then said things to control you, like he did it because he loved you, or that this was how boys had sex, and how the pain must be endured if you love that person. I also know that he told you that if you told your mother that she would hate you and tell you how it was all your fault. He told you this knowing you would believe him because you did love your father. I know now how you felt his desire for you, but that was only his lust Rodie, it was not love." "Can you feel if I desire to have sex with you right now Rodie?" Jim answered. Rodie stared at Jim intently for a few moments sensing how Jim wanted to feel his naked body, and an image came to Rodie of Jim kissing his hard pee-pee. He giggled at the naughtiness he felt of the idea. He then smiled because his interest was now peaked about it, he said, "yeah Jim, you do, I can feel it." Then looking down quickly then back at Jim, "see you are making my pee-pee big again," Rodie said as he pointed to his growing penis while he giggled. Now blushing a little he looked at Jim with questioning eyes he asked, "you think kissing my pee-pee is sex Jim?" Looking back into Rodie's face Jim answered him; "yes I do desire you. Because I think you are beautiful, and you are perfect in every way in my eyes." Jim stated truthfully making Rodie blush prettily while he sensed how Jim believed what he had just said. "Also to answer your question, yes kissing and sucking your pee-pee is a form of sex, it is called oral sex. Just like kissing each other and rubbing our bodies together is different form of sex, and even by yourself when you tickle or play with your pee-pee is still another different form of sex, you understand?" Jim explained and waited until Rodie nodded his head slowly before continuing. "Now I am thinking about things a little differently...can you feel if I still desire to have sex with you now? First, I want you to put your hands on me ok." Jim said knowing that Rodie would experience everything instead of just sensing some of it if what Rodie and Cathy said was true. Nodding his head silently, Rodie placed his small hand palm down on Jim's chest just above his heart. Rodie flinched slightly as images flashed into his mind as well as the emotions and thoughts he sensed. He could feel the pain and saw the images of what Byron's father had made them do to him, that Jim had. Mostly he could feel Jim's growing revulsion and sickness as he concentrated on those images. Rodie quickly pulled his hand away as the bile rose into his mouth while his head was dizzy. Looking away quickly, Rodie started coughing and gagging as he leaned over the side of the Jacuzzi retching but was able to prevent himself from throwing up. He dimly realized that Jim was patting and rubbing his back during that time. It took Rodie a few minutes before he was able to look back at Jim. "Now do you understand surf boy?" Jim asked kindly. "Yeah, I think so Jim," Rodie replied while nodding his head slightly as Jim handed a bottle of water to him so he could rinse out his mouth. "I know your afraid Rodie, but you have to trust me now on this. I can see now that what he did is slowly tearing you apart inside. However, I want to help you fix it so that you can forget about what your father did to you. You are going to have to trust that I will not break my promise to you, that I will not hurt you." Jim explained carefully. So with all of his compassion and kindness in his face, as tears of understanding and love coursed down his cheeks. Jim said, "ok Rodie, I will never hurt you, but I need to do this to make everything easier for you. I will take you through this very slowly. Therefore, you can understand that there is a difference between sex with love, and rape with cruelty and pain. Sex is not supposed to be full of pain, but full of joy and happiness. Now if you are confused about anything, or you are scared, and do not want to do this, you just tell me at any time ok. I do not want you to wait to ask or tell me because I will stop immediately and explain as best as I know how. I promise this will not hurt at all, my beautiful boy, so do not worry my love. I want you to put your hands on me and do not let go ok." Jim explained slowly while projecting as much love, compassion, desire, and caring that he had for the young boy in his lap. "You are not my first boy I have loved, but I am your first man that you love. We will learn to love each other together ok. Trust me, my beautiful surf boy, I will not hurt you ever." Jim explained as he slowly slid his hands down until they were around Rodie's slim waist. "Mom told me about Byron...of how much you loved him, but you don't have to stop loving him just to love me Jim. You do not have to love me `cause you already love Byron. It's ok with me that you love him, I understand Jim. So please do not stop loving him just for me," Rodie said quietly as he looked into Jim's face while placing both his hands on Jim's shoulders. Jim cried as he realized that Rodie loved him so much that he did not want him to forget his love for Byron and love him instead. "I loved Byron Rodie, and I love him still. However, he is gone up to heaven while you are here with me. I can love you and do love you Rodie, and love him too. You know what I think? I think Byron would approve of our love. I know that because I loved him when he was here although we never made love. I never had sex with him because his father took him away from me before it could get that far," Jim explained as he held Rodie close to him. Jim loved Rodie more now because of his compassion for a boy who he had never known. As Rodie wiped Jim's tears away, he trembled as he asked Jim, "you promised this won't hurt me?" "I promise my love, this will not hurt at all, as a matter of fact, it will be the most wonderful feeling you have ever felt." Jim said to him as Rodie sensed the truth of it all coming from Jim. "Ok Jim...I trust you," Rodie said to him with his voice barely higher than a whisper. Then giving himself over completely to Jim's trust, Rodie surrendered his body and mind to him, letting down all of his defenses. It surprised Jim as he realized that he could now feel what Rodie was feeling at that very moment. He had not imagined that Rodie's desire could be that intense, and his attraction towards Jim that strong. However, he also felt the overwhelming fear that was tainting all of the small boy's emotions, including his love for his mother, that he would drive them away if they knew that nothing was hidden from him. He could also hear Rodie's thoughts as well. "You are the only one who does not hate me because of what I am Jim. So please remember your promise to me." Rodie thought to him as Jim stared at his unmoving face. Realizing that Rodie had a much stronger talent that anyone could ever realize, Jim realized how something like that would frighten people, but oddly knowing this only made him love Rodie more. Rodie sensed this and responded by projecting a sense of gratitude to him. "Does your mom know that you can do all of this Rodie?" Jim questioned silently. "No. You are the only one who knows everything Jim. I can only do it if I really try hard with someone I know, then only if they know what I am doing. If they do know then they have to let me in or I cannot do it. All you have to do is think of something like a wall or barrier and I cannot get in. It really helps if I am touching them at the time too, but not necessary. As to sensing what someone is feeling, I cannot help that, it just happens when I am around them but I can sorta block it out and ignore it. I do not try and read mom though cause I do not think it would be right, and if I did, she might get mad and ground me for like forever. I promise not to read your thoughts either unless you want me to ok Jim." Rodie quietly explained within Jim's mind at he stared at Jim. Suddenly Rodie was gone from Jim's mind as if someone had broken the link, as Jim thought about a brick wall blocking Rodie's access. Then Rodie was back in once Jim restored the way in so nothing was blocking him. Jim then touched upon a memory that revealed to him the reason of Rodie's thoughts towards his father. Of how a very talented and very young boy had tried to connect mentally with his father and succeeded once without his father realizing it. First learning the secret desire and lust, his father had for him, and seeing the images of himself being dressed up in girl's clothes with long hair. Then of the revulsion and hatred over the years as his father realized that Rodie somehow knew his darkest secret while seeing his son trying to fulfill his father's desire. Thinking everything through carefully, Jim pondered for a while before deciding to wait until another time to pursue this further, Jim told Rodie to listen to his voice as well as his thoughts. "Ok my love, I'm going to need a little help with this. So, do as I say ok. First, just relax and lean against me, let all of the tension and fear go away. Remember not to let go with your hands also." Jim said softly into Rodie's ear as he caressed the still trembling boy's back and sides. Rodie listened to Jim's comforting voice, he felt the fear easing away as his body relaxed more and more against Jim. "Now open your mind completely Rodie, let it feel what I am feeling," Jim whispered in his ear while he continued to lightly caress Rodie's body while feeling the connection of their minds. After a long while when Jim felt and sensed that Rodie was completely relaxed, he tilted his small head up with his hands before kissing him very gently on his small parted lips again. Rodie started slow, but as he sank deeper into the passion he sensed from Jim, and his own desire rose, his kissing became more wanton. Breathing heavily after Jim broke the kiss, then as Jim slowly moved down kissing his neck all the way to his chest. Rodie was absorbed deeper into the passion of the moment as he closed his eyes and sat up straight in Jim's lap. He had his small hands on Jim's shoulders while feeling the heat from Jim's engorged member as it was nestled in between Rodie's spread ass cheeks. Catching his breath and holding it, Rodie let out a low moan as Jim softly sucked on one of his tiny nipples then the other while sensing the thought Jim kept repeating silently to him. "I remember my promise, my love ... I will never hurt you." With these new sensations beginning to overwhelm him, Rodie continued to sink deeper into the passion he felt with Jim. Rodie started mewing like a newborn kitten as Jim ran his tongue lightly over the area where his ribs met his little flat belly. Opening his eyes as his breathing became heavier, and faster, Rodie moaned softly as Jim traced the edges of his tiny belly button before sucking lightly on it. "Oh Jim...oh...uuhhhnnn", Rodie said as his body started to quiver with growing excitement as he tilted his head back until his face was turned upward towards the ceiling. Lifting Rodie's small body higher until Rodie was almost kneeling as he straddled Jim's lap, Jim gently sucked on one small testicle then the other, swirling his tongue around in circles on the soft silky skin. Moving slowly to the hairless area above Rodie's quivering cocklet, Jim continued to run his tongue in small circles over Rodie's small pubis and the base of the boy's very hard cocklet. Jim could hear Rodie breathing with sharp ragged intakes of breath. Seeing Rodie's acorn-sized balls beginning to draw up close to his body, Jim realized that Rodie was getting close to his peak. Jim lifted his head then slowly licked along the length of the boy's pulsating dick as it twitched and quivered, all the way up to the small blue knob of his cocklet. Hearing his boy cry out briefly as Jim sucked in Rodie's full 3-inch length, he paused momentarily until he felt Rodie's body tremble before hearing him drawing in another ragged breath. Curling his tongue around the bottom side of the thin penis Jim started moving his tongue back and forth, as he sucked gently while moving his head back and forth also. As Jim sped up his tongue and head action, he slowly increased his suction until he heard Rodie cry out loudly. As the first powerful orgasm wracked Rodie's body, Jim grasped his firm buttocks as he felt Rodie's small penis jump once, then again, and again. At the same moment, Rodie cried out as he arched backwards pushing his throbbing cocklet as far as he could into Jim's mouth as his body shuddered with pleasure repeatedly. Jim felt the thin watery stream spurt into his throat three times before pausing momentarily, then three more powerful spurts as another orgasm shook Rodie's body before slowing to a thin trickle while Jim continued to suck gently while at the same time releasing his own seed into the water. Rodie's small body convulsed as the powerful multiple orgasms washed over him. Crying out in ecstasy, Rodie jerked as wave after wave of the orgasms overwhelmed him before falling into Jim's gentle embrace as the world around him went dark. When he awoke sometime later, he was laying in Jim's bed while Jim cradled him in his arms while talking softly to him. Jim caught Rodie as he went limp finally as the unending orgasms wracked his small body. Gently holding his slim body to him, Jim could still feel the tremors coursing through Rodie's body as his small head lolled against Jim's chest. Scooping him into his arms, Jim watched as Rodie's still hard cocklet jumped and quivered while it still leaked tiny droplets of his immature boy seed down the side of it. Jim slowly climbed out of the Jacuzzi and carefully wrapped Rodie in a large towel and putting on his robe before carrying him up to his bed. Lying next to Rodie, and cuddling him softly while whispering in his ear how much he loved him. Jim held his lovely boy for over an hour, gently stroking his hair and back, while rocking him gently before Rodie stirred. "What happened to me Jim?" Rodie asked in a weak voice as he opened his eyes and looked at Jim. "You had a couple of very powerful orgasms my love, you had me worried there for a little while surf boy," Jim answered while brushing the hair our of Rodie's face. Regaining his senses a little now Rodie tried to sit up only to discover how weak he felt. Remembering the raw power of the sensations he felt through out his body, Rodie smiled weakly at Jim. "Are you ok now Rodie," Jim asked in a concerned voice. Nodding weakly Rodie said, "yeah...that was the most awesome feeling I have ever had Jim." Jim smiled at him, "I'm glad you liked it, but next time try and warn me before you zonk out like that. I almost had a coronary when you fell over like that. I'm not that young anymore you know." A weak laugh escaped Rodie's lips as he rested contently in Jim's arms. "Is this what real love is like Jim?" He asked silently to Jim. "Yes Rodie, this is what real love is like, there is no pain in it, unless you lose it, then the pain has no end until you find love again," Jim replied in his thoughts only. "Why do I feel so weak Jim?" Rodie asked in barely a whisper with half closed eyes as he tried to raise his arm. "I think because you set the record on the biggest orgasm anyone has ever had. It just drained all of your energy is all, surf boy. You even drained me my love. Try and rest and you will feel better in the morning." Jim explained to the spent boy he cradled in his arms. "I have to pee though Jim," Rodie said to him quietly. Reaching under the night table beside him, Jim retrieved the plastic urinal jug he had kept from the hospital. Gently holding Rodie's soft 2-inch penis into the opening of the urinal as Rodie watched him with half open eyes. Jim said, "ok Rodie go ahead and pee now." He carefully held the small red penis as Rodie emptied his full bladder into the plastic urinal. Jim knew it was still extremely sensitive because of the way Rodie breathed in quickly as his finger brushed against the reddish blue head of the small cocklet. "Thanks Jim," Rodie said as the last few drops of piss were expelled from his penis. "Is it supposed to hurt like this Jim?" Rodie asked sleepily. "What hurts my love?" Jim asked in a concerned voice as he snapped the lid onto the now half full urinal and set it on the floor. With a giggle Rodie replied, "my balls Jim, hahaha! They ache." "Oh well they will for a little while, but don't worry that is normal. That happens sometimes and you did drain them pretty thoroughly tonight, you know." Jim answered with a knowing smile before laughing as he gently fondled the little balls. "It's not funny Jim! And do not touch it cause it only makes it worse," Rodie exclaimed as Jim felt his little limp dick and now flaccid nut sack. "Alright surf boy, I was just checking to make sure you didn't shoot them out also during your massive orgasm." Jim said with a smirk on his face as he carefully kneaded Rodie's small balls. He removed his hand as he watched Rodie begin to doze off with a smile on his face. "Thank you for keeping your promise to me Jim," Rodie thought to him as he drifted off to sleep. "Your welcome my love," Jim answered before gently easing Rodie's head down onto the pillow and standing up. After emptying then rinsing out the urinal in the bathroom, Jim placed it back under the night table. Jim then walked out of the bedroom naked and went downstairs, shut off the Jacuzzi and opened the valve so it could drain. He then collected their clothes, and turning out the light before going upstairs. Jim went around the house securing the doors and turning off lights before re-entering the bedroom. Slipping quietly back into bed and pulling the covers over Rodie and himself, Jim then eased his arm under Rodie's pillow again. As usual, Rodie scooted closer and draped his arm and leg over Jim's body while laying his head on Jim's chest before sinking deeper into sleep. Jim turned out the light before kissing Rodie lightly on his forehead and falling asleep almost instantly while he held him. End Chapter 4. Email comments to snwdemon@worldcom.att.net. Suggestions and corrections welcomed, while flames will be ignored.