Date: Wed, 17 Oct 2001 17:01:22 -0700 From: Robert Just Robert Subject: Skatebaord Boy part-13 Skateboard Boy Part 13 I awoke with a start and found I was alone on the living room floor. My back ached and I had an immediate need to pee. I slowly got up and padded to the closest bathroom. When I finished I went into the kitchen but, found none of my boys there. I checked the bedrooms and found no one there either. I soon satisfied myself that I was alone. Then returning to the kitchen I found a note on the fridge door. I pulled it from beneath the Pizza Hut refrigerator magnet and read it. Dear dad: We went to Jas's house to get his cd's. We didn't want to wake you up. We will be back around 10 and will be hungry...hahaha. Love, your boys I smiled and put the note in a safe place. I know it's silly, but I keep everything that the boys write. Some day when I'm old and they are gone, I will re-read all of them and remember our life together. I took a quick shower and got dressed then began fixing some breakfast for my boys. I was just taking the biscuits out of the oven when the phone rang. It was Mark. "Hey, what's up?" I ask cheerfully. "Not much, I just missed you." Mark said in a sweet voice. "Awww, I missed you too. Why don't you come on over, I almost have breakfast ready." "I wish I could, I have to work. I just wanted to hear your voice. I had a bad day yesterday and I just wanted to talk to you. Would it be too late if I came by after work, say around nine o'clock?" Mark ask softly. "No problem." I replied with excitement. "That would be great. Maybe we could go for a drive or something." "Yeah, that would be cool. I gotta go Robert, uh..I'll see ya later. Uh...I really miss you." Mark said sounding unsure of himself. "I miss you too. I am really looking forward to tonight." "K, later then....uh..and ....ahh, never mind..I'll tell ya tonight." Mark stutterer. "Okay babe, later. Have a good day at work. I'll be thinking of you." I said smiling to myself. "K, gotta go..byeeee." And he hung up. I was humming and smiling widely as the boys came in a few minutes later. I must have been pretty obvious, because Cody looked at me and grinned. "What's up?" Cody asked slyly. "Oh....nothing. I just got off the phone with Mark. He is coming over later, after work." I said smiling from ear to ear. "Cool. What's for breakfast?" Cody ask snatching a piece of bacon." I slapped at him playfully and told him to grab the eggs out of the fridge. I scrambled up a dozen or so and added cheese onions and peppers. I had a hard time keeping my hungry boys at bay while I finished, but soon we were all sitting around the table and feasting. Of all the things I liked about boys this was one of my favorites. Nothing warmed my heart like a hungry boy getting his tummy full. I felt revived and energetic by the time we finished and I let the boys clean up while I went in and watched a little tv and read the paper. The boys wanted to do something, so I looked in the entertainment section to see what was going on this weekend. There was not much going on, so I suggested we go to the park or zoo. The boys chose going to the new skateboard park. The skateboard park was a great place for the locals to hone their skills and stay out of trouble. There was usually a parent or responsible adult around and so far there had been no problems. A lot of ignorant people think skaters are "hoods" or trouble makers. The truth is most skaters are just normal kids. My Cody was an awesome skate boarder and his brothers were learning fast. Jason was not quite as good as Cody but, wasn't afraid to try anything. I grabbed the camcorder and we headed to the park. It was a gorgeous day, about 80 degrees and sunny. The boys grabbed their boards and headed to the fenced in park and I found a place on the bleachers nearby. I turned on the camcorder and started filming. I always loved coming here, there were so many cute boys here of all ages. And the skills they demonstrated never ceased to amaze me. I insisted that the boys wear all the proper safety equipment and they agreed, it was after all the way the pros did it. Tim had really improved his skills as of late and I got some good footage of him as he grinned and showed off for the camera. Cody and Jason were performing some team stunts and Mike was working on some smaller ramps. I couldn't help but notice an older boy, probably 16 or so who was an absolute master at his board. He wore baggy corduroy pants and a loose button up shirt which was open part way down. His hairless chest was well formed and tanned. His long brown hair stuck out wildly beneath his helmet and his dark eyes seemed serious and determined. Then each time he would complete a difficult run he would smile and his eyes would sparkle. He had the most amazing face..so beautiful yet wise. Once our eyes met and I blushed, but he just smiled and continued his stunt. I found myself taping him every chance I got and he was putting on quite a show. I lost track of the teen as I was taping Jason and Cody but suddenly I was aware of someone climbing the bleachers and standing near me. "Hey dude, did you tape that last run I made? I looked up to see the object of my attention standing over me. He was even better looking up close, a perfect example of adolescent male. "Uh, yeh. Is that okay, I mean I guess I should have ask your permission." I said blushing again. "No, dude. It's cool. I just wanted to see it. Can you play it back on there man?" He ask sitting down beside me. "Yeh, hold on a sec." I said re-winding the tape. The boy was so close I could smell his sweat and musk. His smell was intoxicating, and I found my mind wandering, I missed his next few words." "Sorry..what did you say?" I stuttered. "I said is that your son over there?" The teen said pointing at Jason and Cody. "The dark haired one is..that's Cody and that's his friend Jason with him. Those two over there are mine too." I said pointing out Mike and Tim. "Wow, you don't look old enough to have that many kids." And then he laughed...his voice was almost feminine. I studied his face to see if he was kidding. He looked serious. "Thanks, actually they are adopted." I said smiling and still blushing. This kid was having a very strange effect on me. "Okay, here is the part where I started taping you." He leaned in close and I could feel the heat from his body and his breath on my neck. I flushed and I felt my skin tingle. He reached up and touched my hand to tilt the camera a bit his way and I felt sparks jumping between us. I was sweating and I felt my hard on pushing at my fly. I glanced down and looked at his lap, but I couldn't really see anything in the loose material of his corduroys. "I'm being silly." I said to myself. "He is just interested in the video, that's all." But, if he got any closer I was going to cum without touching myself. I felt like some love starved teenager, and heaven knows that wasn't anywhere near what I was. I was just a horny old man, who read things into innocent deeds because I really, really like young studs like this one. The vid ended and he ask to watch it again. I re- wound the tape and as we waited we chatted. "I'm Josh." He said smiling and offered his hand in a that side-ways brother kind-of shake. He was surprised that I returned the shake that way, I could see it on his face. "I'm Robert. It's cool to meet ya." I said somewhat composing myself. "Uh..I don't suppose I could get a copy of that tape?" He asked almost shyly. "No problem. I'll give you my phone number and you can call me in a couple of days. I can dub one with my vcr at home. Then we can work out a way to get it to you. Maybe I could bring it here." I scribbled my phone number down on a card and he pocketed it as I started the vid again. "Cool, or I could come over. I got my own car." He said moving in once again. He watched the vid once more and then reluctantly he said he had to get back home. He thanked me for the vid and said he would pay me for it, but I said it was no big deal. "That's my Honda over there." He said pointing proudly at a brilliant blue Civic. It had a body kit and rims and wide low profile tires. It looked expensive, and I wondered if Josh was from a wealthy family. A lot of skaters were but, Josh at least didn't act stuck up like a lot of them did. I checked on the boys and they were busy with their boards so I walked Josh to his car and looked it over. It was very nice and he had a nice sound system inside, with a box and 2- 10" subs in the back. He got in and turned it on and began pumping out some awesome bass. I complimented him on his car and he beamed like a little boy. He told me all the stuff he had done and told me proudly that he had paid for it all with his part-time job. Here was a good kid, who was proud that he made his own way. I recognized his type, and I would bet that he didn't have much of a relationship with his dad. I decided to feel him out a bit, just out of curiosity. "Did your dad help you with your car. I plan on helping Cody get his fixed up when the time comes." "Nah, my dad says I'm crazy. He says I don't need all that loud stuff and all that fancy stuff. He says I should have bought an American car." He looked a little sad as he spoke , then his eyes brightened and he looked at me and smiled. "Your son is lucky." "Thanks." I said humbly. "Well, I better let you go Josh. Be sure to call me in a few days. It was really nice meeting you." I added unconsciously reaching out to shake once more. I think I just wanted to feel his warm strong hand again. We waved good bye and he drove off slowly. I turned on the cam corder and taped his departure until he disappeared from sight. I walked back over to the bleachers and sat back down. The boys stayed a bit longer then talked me into taking them for ice cream. We dropped Jason off at his house around six and headed home. We had soup and sandwiches for supper and the boys went off to do homework while I chilled in front of the boob tube. I couldn't help thinking of Josh, but before long I was looking forward to Mark's visit. I really hoped my relationship with Mark would go somewhere, I really needed someone stable in my life right now, I mean besides my boys. I found myself dozing off and when I awoke it was almost nine. The boys had bathed and gotten ready for bed without being told and I went in to check on them. Tim and Mike were playing Nintendo 64 and barely looked up as I kissed them goodnight. I told them to be in bed by ten and no funny business, Cody was in charge till I got back. They grunted affirmation and continued with their game. I found Cody stretched out on his bed looking cute and thoughtful. He was wearing boxers and no shirt and I sat down beside him and rubbed his back. "What you thinking about?" I ask. "Oh, nothing special. A lot of stuff really. I just feel...really confused sometimes. I love you and Jason, but I don't know if I really know what it all means." He said thoughtfully. "Well, buddy. Don't try to analyze it too much. Just enjoy it while you can. When you get older love isn't as easy to come by and it doesn't seem nearly as good. Your first love is probably the most special of all. I remember mine, it was so great." I said thinking back to my younger days. "Who was it ?" He ask curiously. I found myself telling him about Jimmy, my first love. I was 19 and he was 12 when we met and I fell head over heels in love with him. The fact that I never confessed this love still haunts me and by the time I finished my story I found I was near tears. Cody sat up and hugged me close and kissed me sweetly. "How come you never told him?" Cody ask softly. "I was afraid. Afraid I would loose his friendship and to me that was a risk I couldn't take. I was very fragile then, in fact I came close to suicide." I said staring into my lap. "I'm sorry." Cody said hugging me tightly. "Where is he now?" "I..I'm not sure. I think in Alaska. I lost contact with him after he moved away. I have always wanted to contact him and tell him the truth. It doesn't seem to matter much though. I guess it would just be silly." "I think you should." Cody said thoughtfully. "I would." "Yeh, maybe I will. Now, I gotta go meet Mark and you need to get to bed. I told Tim and Mike that you were in charge while I was gone." "Okay, they won't be any problem. Say hi to Mark for me, okay. And give him one of these." Cody said leaning in and kissing me on the lips. I felt much better as I walked out of Cody's room and back into the living room. I head a soft knock at he door and opened it...it was Mark. He came in quickly and fell into my arms. He had been crying. I held him for a minute waiting for him to compose himself. "What is it babe?" I ask softly. "I can't tell you. You will hate me. I...." and he broke down and started sobbing loudly. I held him tightly rocking him like a baby as the sobs racked his slight form. I felt like crying myself, but wanted to be strong for him, to help him with whatever the problem was. "Shhh...it's okay. I could never hate you. I...love you." I confessed. He looked up at me with tears running down his face. He looked surprised then began to wail even louder. "I'm so sorry Robert. I should never have come here. I...." But his words were lost in his sobs. "Shhh..." I said holding him close and stroking his hair. "Nothing can ever change how I feel about you. What is it, what's wrong?" "I...was with someone else last night. I feel so terrible, I.....don't love him...I don't know why I do these things." He said pulling away and looking up cautiously at me. He looked as if he expected me to hit him. I stepped back and smiled. "Is that all?" I said in as normal a voice as was possible under the circumstances. "You don't have to tell me about your private life...I don't own you. I mean we only just met, and neither of us have made any commitments." "But...you said you loved me. Did you mean that?" He was looking expectantly at me and I felt if I said the wrong thing now, I could jeopardize our relationship. I wondered if I should be totally honest or tell him what he wanted to hear. Only problem was, I didn't know what he wanted to hear. I had no clue. "Yes, but I can't expect you to necessarily feel the same, at least not so soon. If you need to see other people, I understand. I don't want you to feel pressured in any way." I said trying to convince myself that it didn't matter if Mark loved me or wanted to be only with me. I searched his eyes for a clue as to how he felt trying to guess what he would say. He stepped a little further back and looked at me soulfully. "I...don't know how I feel yet. I want to be honest, that's all. I don't want to hurt you. I like you a lot, I just don't know....." He said sadly. "If you love me?" I finished for him. "It's totally cool, how about this? We just see each other, but we don't make any promises. How does that sound?" I added, my heart suddenly heavy. He nodded but looked suddenly confused. "So...you don't love me?" He asked in a hurt voice. "I didn't say that." I said trying to keep my voice from cracking. "I just don't want you to feel any pressure." "Why don't you just tell me the truth. Do you love me or not?" He said pouting. I took a deep breath. What did he want from me. My heart was breaking and I was trying to make it easy for him. I wanted to crawl away and hide. But he stood before me demanding an answer. I lowered my head and stared at the floor. "I love you more than I have loved anyone except my boys. There are you happy?" I said tearfully. He reached out and took my face in his soft hands and raised it as he stepped closer. His beautiful face was beaming. He wiped a tear from my eye and kissed me on the lips. "I love you too. I just had to be sure. I really wasn't with anyone last night. I made it all up just to see how you would react." "I....don't know what to say." I answered not really knowing whether to laugh or be angry. I had had enough of sadness and anger in my life. I had an oppurtunity to have some happiness now, and I took it. "You little stink...you almost had me thinking it was over before it started. I would paddle your cute behind if I wasn't so happy right now." I picked him up and hugged him close kissing him passionately. He melted into my arms and we must have stood there for fifteen minutes or so exploring each other's body. "Let's go for a drive and cool off." I suggested. "Okay, if you want. But, what I would really like to do is spend the night in your arms." Mark said almost shyly. I took his hand and led him to my bedroom. As I closed the door I heard three small voices, giggling and one crying out lowly..."Alright dad!" I smiled to myself and turned to face Mark who had already begun to undress. I looked at his hairless chest and he smiled opening his arms. I ran to him and we embraced. We wasted no time undressing each other and fell into the bed our bodies entwined. Our heards beat together as we wrestled in love's grasp. My heart was his and I hoped I could win his before the night was over. We had a long time to figure things out..right now..our love was all that mattered. End of part13...more to come.