Date: Mon, 13 Jan 2003 17:30:42 +0000 (GMT) From: Veneration Subject: Stormchild part 2 Disclaimer: This is a gay story and there are rude bits. If it's illegal for you to read this, don't. If it offends you to read this, don't. Comments are welcome to veneration2003@yahoo.co.uk. Stormchild - Part 2 by Veneration Chapter 4 Down the creek without a paddle Sunday dawned, warm and sunny. I woke early, as usual, so by the time I was ready to go on the walk, it was still much too early to pick up the boys. I imagined going to the house and talking to Iris. 'The boys are still in bed? Well, I'm up, so why don't I go to the their bedrooms and get them up and get up them?' Yeah, right. After waiting until a more reasonable hour, I drove to Woodton. There was a great bustle of preparation and loading the car. Eric settled into the front seat in a way that made it clear that this was his rightful place and that no-one else was going to sit there. We set off, with Grant and Harry chattering in the back, while Eric stared silently ahead. "Alright, then?" I asked him. Eric shrugged, then glanced at me and quirked his mouth. "Yes," he replied softly. We were at peace again. I had decided to take the boys on the Mandel Creek Walk. It was in the hills, about 30 minutes drive away, and the walk was not too hard or too long. At least, that is what I thought. The start of the walk led uphill, through farmland. The path was steep in places and Grant and Harry were soon complaining about how hard it was and asking when we were going to get to the end. I started to wonder why I had invited the two younger brothers and how I would survive the day. When we came to the top of the ridge, we stopped for a rest and a drink of water. That led to Grant and Harry to start squabbling over their drink bottle, with each trying to wrest it from the control of the other. Then Eric joined in by yelling at them to shut up and hitting them when they ignored him. I found this very upsetting, but what could I do? Then were not my children and I had no idea how to control unruly boys. All I could do was to sit silently, frowning and looking disapproving. The boys knew they were being naughty and after a while they started glancing at me, to see my reaction and waiting for me to stop them. But I did nothing and they began to hesitate and slow down as the fight lost its focus. Finally, they were silent and staring at me as I scowled severely at them. "What?" asked Eric. "I'm keeping fit," I responded. "Huh, what do you mean?" Harry looked puzzled at my nonsense. "Well, they say that frowning uses more muscles than smiling, so you should smile and save energy. I say you should frown and keep fit." Grant laughed. "What!" he exclaimed. "Frowning doesn't make you fit." "Hey," shouted Harry, "I'm going to get some exercise." And he leapt to his feet, put on the most ferocious scowl, and stalked around the field making growling noises. Harry was an amazing sight in his bright yellow shorts and bright red T-shirt with racing car decals, as he pranced against the rural scene of green grassy fields, dark green tree-covered hills in the background, and blue sky above. Then Grant also leapt to his feet and stalked after Harry, scowling and frowning and growling. I couldn't work out why they were growling, but it seemed to be an integral part of the performance. They ended up face to face, growled fiercely at each other, burst into giggles, and collapsed on the grass in a heap. "You guys are so weird," Eric laughed. He looked over at me and grinned. He continued to gaze at me with a look that became speculative and perhaps something else, but I wasn't sure what. "What?" I asked. "Nothing." And with a small smile Eric looked away. We continued on our walk and the boys were very cheerful as they bounced down the hill towards the stream. After we arrived at the banks of the creek I stepped to a low bush to have a piss. In an instant the three brothers were ranged on either side of me, in a semi-circle around the bush. We got our cocks out of our pants and as we let go, four golden streams of piss arched towards the bush. The boys laughed as they aimed their little weapons to make their streams meet and cross. I looked down at those cute little weapons; how could I not? I could see their pricks peeking out from between their fingers. Harry's piss streamed from the end of a tight little foreskin, while I could see the blunt knobs of Eric's and Grant's dicks. I did not know if they were circumcised, or had pulled their foreskins back, but I hoped to find out some time. I noticed the boys look over to check out my equipment. They each seemed to be very interested in what they could see, so I made sure that my hands did not hide their view of my man cock. When I finished, I milked out the last of the piss and shook off the last few drops. But then as my cock started stiffen under the attention of the three boys, I thought it was time to put it away. Three little boy pricks disappeared and, as the boys switched their attention to the creek and the walk, the moment was forgotten, though not by me. Mandel Creek meandered from side to side of a small valley between steep hills. We had to cross the creek frequently as we followed it downstream. At first we could jump from bank to bank, then had to find stepping stones to get across. Finally, inevitably, each of us ended up in the stream when we missed one of the crossings. Fortunately, the water was only ankle deep. After that, we splashed or jumped or hopped from stone to stone as our inclinations took us. Once we got to the road, it was time for lunch. Afterwards, I rested on the stream bank and watched the boys play in and around the creek, laughing and chattering, throwing stones in the water, and splashing each other. After a rocky start, the walk had turned into a success as the boys were clearly enjoying themselves. When the boys had had enough and joined me, we walked the short distance up the road to where the car was parked. Grant strode ahead, but Harry walked beside me and held onto my hand. Eric moved to my other side. He bumped against me, arm to arm, then briefly brushed the back of his hand against mine as we walked. We returned to Woodton, where I delivered three tired, but happy, boys to their mother. "Thank you for taking the boys," she said. "It was certainly made the day much easier for me and it was good to have a break away from them." However, while the words were thankful enough, the tone was formal and reserved. Iris continued, "I really don't know why you would want to bother with three young boys who are a real handful and who you don't even know." Aha! Iris was suspicious of my motives. And yet, while she was correct about my interest, I didn't take the boys on the trip to have my wicked way with them. I could see that their home lives were difficult and suspected that they didn't have much going for them, so I wanted to do something for the brothers. While they could be horrible little imps when they were bad, I was beginning to find that they could also be nice kids when they were good. "They were no trouble," I reassured Iris. "It was a pleasure taking them on the walk." "Yeah, it was fun. Can we do it again?" asked Harry. Instantly, Eric stormed at him. "No you can't. You've come with us once and you don't have to do it again." He wanted to keep me to himself. "Why not?" Grant argued. "We can if we want." "Boys," I interrupted before the argument could deteriorate further into a fight. They looked at me and let their argument subside into silence. Iris observed this, with her mouth slightly open in surprise at the sight of her sons being under control. I thought this was a good time to leave and made my farewells. There was a cheery "Bye" and "See ya" from Grant and Harry, but nothing from Eric. My stormy boy was mad at me again. Chapter 5 Couch potatoes It was Friday evening and I had just started cooking dinner when I heard a knock at the door. When I answered it, there was Eric, with a shy smile and looking a little uncertain at my welcome. "Hi, what a surprise. Come on in." He followed me into the house. "What are you doing?" "I am just about to start dinner." "Oh." Eric paused, then "I haven't eaten yet." "Well, would you like to stay and have dinner with me?" "Yeah, cool." "I'm having pasta," I warned him. "That's OK." I chopped up some more vegetables, and got out some more dried pasta and store-bought pasta sauce. You don't think I used fresh pasta and made my own pasta sauce, do you? "How's school?" I asked during the meal. Lame, I know, but I have never known what to say to boys. "OK." "And how's homework, now that you are at high school?" "It's boring." "Doing your homework is very important, you know, so that you can do well at school." "Oh, man," Eric complained, "I don't need to hear that crap again." "Well, if you are going to eat my food, you are going to have to listen to me nag." Eric grinned at me and returned his attention to his food. I feasted my eyes on his sweet face, serious with concentration as he ate, luscious lips and glimpse of teeth when he shoveled food in his mouth. Eric may have the face of an angel, but his table manners were far from dainty. After we had finished eating, Eric said "Thanks for tea, it was nice." "Nice? Really?" "Well, not very." "Hah! I never said that I could cook." "That's for sure." "Cheeky devil. Don't you know that it's polite to lie and say how good the food was, when you are a guest for a meal." "It was fantastic, marvelous, wonderful. It was the best meal I have ever had in my whole life and I will never forget it," Eric enthused in the most unconvincing voice imaginable. He roared with laughter at the joke and I sat back and smiled to see him so happy. Eric helped me wash the dishes, then followed me into the living room. I sat on the sofa and he plopped down beside me. "Are we watching TV?" he asked. "Yes, sure." I reached for the remote and when Eric scooted along the sofa towards me, I wrapped my arm around his shoulder. He leant against me and rested his head against my chest. And that is how we spent the evening, cuddled together on the sofa. When I got up to go to the toilet, Eric would wait to pull me back down on the sofa and wrap my arms around him again. What were the TV programs like? Almost certainly rubbish, but I was hardly aware of them as all I could think of was the boy in my arms. Eventually, in spite of toilet breaks and getting supper, I had to make a move as I was starting to get very stiff. No, it was not what you think. Holding someone starts to get uncomfortable after a while, even someone as cute and cuddly as Eric. And even though I loved looking down at this head resting against my chest, it was getting very bony and heavy. And, to be honest, his hair needed a good wash. "It's getting late. I think it's time I take you home." Eric looked up at me with wrinkled brow. "But I don't want to go. Can I stay the night?" Stay the night? Now there was a thought to make my heart beat faster. "Well, yes, you can, if your mother says it's alright." "That's OK, we don't have to ask her. She thinks I'm staying with Dad tonight." "I'm afraid that doesn't make it OK. We have to phone and let her know where you are and get her permission for you to stay." "Please don't phone," Eric begged as he looked at me with his bright blue eyes. "She will just get mad and make me go home." How could I refuse such a request, and from such a sad looking boy? So, after some more pleading, I gave way, even though I knew Iris would not approve. 'Aha,' you think. 'This is where I say that I only have the one bed and that Eric can either share it with me, or sleep on the floor. Which will then lead to a night of torrid sex.' The thought did cross my mind, but in fact I had three spare beds and Eric had to have seen them in the time he had spent in the house. So I put fresh sheets on one of those beds and we retired for the night, separately. The thought of Eric in bed, in the next room, gave me a hard-on. I grabbed my hard cock, but the thought of having a wank seemed such a sterile pleasure at that time with a sexy boy so close, so I turned over and went to sleep. Something woke me during the night and when I opened my eyes, there was Eric, standing by my bed. "Can I sleep with you?" he whispered. "Of course." I lifted the duvet and he scrambled into bed and snuggled up against me. As I wrapped my arms around him, Eric gave a big sigh and fell asleep. And what did I do? Nothing. What Eric wanted was comfort, not sex, and I couldn't betray his trust. I lay awake for ages, with racing pulse and rigid, straining, cock, before finally falling asleep. When I woke in the morning, Eric was still in my arms, but turned so that he was facing away from me. My hard-on was pressed against his bum. I gave two quick thrusts against it with my cock, before I could make myself stop. Any more and Eric would be waking with a wet patch on his butt where I had come against him, and I couldn't do that to the boy. Besides, I badly needed a piss, so I disentangled myself from Eric and got out of bed. I looked down at his angelic, sleeping face on the pillow. It was too bad I was starting to care for Eric so deeply, or I might have found the temptation to ravish him irresistible. And I rather suspected that he would have let me. Instead, I just sighed and left the room. I was having breakfast when Eric came into the kitchen in his T-shirt and baggy boxers. His hair was badly tousled, he looked three quarters asleep, and his boxers were tented out. Judging by the profile, I could tell there was a boy cock at half mast behind the thin cloth. So close and yet so inaccessible. It was too bad. "Good morning, " I greeted him. "Hmmph." "Do you want breakfast?" The only reply was a sort of mumble. This was not a morning boy and, taking the mumble as a yes, I got Eric some breakfast. "Martin?" "Yes?" "Can we do something tomorrow?" "Yes, certainly. What would you like to do?" "Can we go for a swim?" "Of course." "You aren't going to ask Grant and Harry to go too, are you?" "Well, I think I might, yes." "But I don't want you to. Why can't just the two of us go?" "That would be very nice, but it is not very fair on your brothers. We are already doing things together, whereas Grant and Harry probably don't get taken anywhere very often." "But they are little shits and they always spoil everything," Eric whined. I tried to explain. "Grant and Harry are the only two brothers you are likely to have. I know that they can be annoying, but if you can be a bit tolerant and make allies of them, then you will always have their support in the future when you may really need it. If you lose their loyalty when they are young, you will never regain it, or their support, in later years. Family can be so much stronger than friends, who come and go and can't always be relied on. I think you should make an effort, Eric. After all, I'm sure you annoy your brothers too, sometimes." Eric was silent after that little speech and was quiet in the car as we returned to Woodton. Perhaps he was thinking about what I said, or more likely he had rejected my attempt at preaching. Then it was time to face the mother. Iris was in the kitchen, where the two younger brothers were having their breakfast. Iris was surprised and rather suspicious at seeing me. "I thought you were staying with your father," she said to Eric. "He joined me for breakfast," I hurried to explain before Eric could make things worse, "so I decided to bring him home." While what I said was not false, it was definitely misleading. Truth can be a very flexible thing, when used to deceive. Besides, I didn't fancy the idea of explaining that Eric had spent the night in my bed, when I hadn't even had the pleasure of molesting him. Iris frowned, but before she could say anything more, Harry joined in the conversation. "Last week's walk was so much fun. Can we do it again?" "We are going swimming tomorrow," Eric explained. "Why don't you guys come with us?" "Hey, cool," exclaimed Harry. "You are inviting us to go out with you and Martin?" asked Grant. "Yeah, I guess." "That's not what you said the other day about Harry and me keeping out of it, or else." "It doesn't matter what I said. I can change my mind, can't I?" Eric yelled and he stormed out of the room. All that was left to do was to make the arrangements. I could see Iris' suspicions about why I was spending so much time with her precious babies, warring with the desire to get rid of the brats for a while. The wish for peace won. I drove home, thinking about my fiery boy and his brothers. Perhaps it was too soon to wish for the storms between them to change for the better. Chapter 6 Water babies Sunday, swim day. Public swimming pools are marvelous and intensely frustrating places. There are acres of semi-naked boy flesh to feast your eyes on. And then there is the gut-tightening anticipation of the changing room, with the prospect of seeing naked boys. This is frustrating and usually disappointing. Pre-pubescent boys are unselfconscious creatures who are usually happy to strip naked when changing. I always enjoyed seeing their cute little naked bodies and their cute little dicks, but they were too young to be of sexual interest. Young men in their early 20s or even late teens are sometimes ready to get naked and display their solid swinging cocks and dangling balls. But while I liked to check out their equipment, and it's only polite to do so if they are going to make the effort to exhibit themselves, they were of limited interest to me. It was those sexy boys in their early to mid teens, who were in their early flush of puberty, I craved to see. But unfortunately, these are the boys who are the most awkward and self-conscious about their changing bodies, so are most likely to keep them hidden from view. Usually the most that could be hoped for under their long, loose shirts, were glimpses of arse or ends of dicks. But that morning, I could only wait and see what would happen with the three Jansen boys. It was the usual business of collecting three excited boys from their home. Eric opened the door for me with a big smile. I thought he looked particularly sexy in his sky blue shorts and gray sleeveless T, though I wished he would lose his white cap as it obscured his sweet face. Grant was almost as tall as his brother. He was also good looking, but had stronger features than baby-faced Eric, with high, prominent cheekbones. Grant was wearing a red T-shirt and tan cargo trousers, which was a pity as boys' legs should never be hidden. And then there was Harry, with his cute little elfin face and cheeky grin, in his blue floral patterned shorts and lime green T-shirt. We arrived at the swimming pool, where I paid and led the boys into the changing room. They stood alongside me at the bench and I kept an eye on them, while trying not to be seen looking, while they undressed. The boys kept their tops on as they removed their pants. Oh well, it was only to be expected, I supposed. Under their pants, each boy was wearing brightly patterned satin boxers, which appeared to have become the standard uniform for boys. The boys slipped off their boxers, but as they were modestly turned away from me, all I could see were glimpses of rounded white bums. Harry glanced in my direction and saw that I was naked, as it was my habit to strip completely before putting on my togs. His eyes instantly focused on my hairy groin, then he looked up at my face, hesitated, and removed his T-shirt. Harry faced me, so that I got a good view of his naked body. His prick was a small spike, with the end of his foreskin tapering to a point, and his balls were an undeveloped mound underneath. And his reason for showing me his naked body? Perhaps he was using my example as a role model; or perhaps it was a sign of friendship and trust; or perhaps he thought naked bodies were vaguely naughty and he wanted to join in on the naughtiness. The other boys continued to be modest as they quickly changed. When Eric was finished he looked over at me and at my cock, just as I was covering it with my togs. He licked his lips and looked away again as he put his clothes in a plastic bag. Pools are wonderful places for getting physical with boys. It is an acceptable and apparently innocent way of having lots of bodily contact, grasping and caressing naked flesh, and so on. And what about the boys, what do they think of all this? They are young animals, where it is natural, and even desirable, for them to play together with lots of physical contact. But the way modern western society has developed, it becomes increasingly difficult for boys over about 11-12 years to find acceptable ways to do this. When they do get the chance, they revel in it. Such physical contact during their play is innocent, of course, and yet also sensual. Even young boys are sexual creatures, though not in the way that adults think of it. So, when we played in the pool, all four of us sought as much physical contact as possible. I tossed them in the air, so that they fell in the water with an enormous splash. That was very popular, but very tiring. We swam towards each other underwater. When I swam underneath a boy, he would sit on my back, so that when I rose for air, he would be clinging to my shoulders. I would attempt to dislodge him, although not very hard, and he would cling tight until he was ready for a different game and let go. We wrestled furiously, which was a great chance for my hands to rove over the boys' bodies. The only thing was, I often didn't know what part of the body I was touching, and sometimes even which boy it was. Did I ever grab any rude bits? I could only hope. Did they ever grab my rude bits? Well, yes, one time a boy's hand burrowed into my groin and firmly grasped my package for a moment, before letting go. I was surprised, but wasn't about to object. I looked at the boys to identify the culprit, but could not as all I could see were three bright-eyed happy brothers. Eventually, it was time to get out of the pool and dress. That is, I was exhausted and needed the rest. "OK boys, it is time to finish our swim now," I told them. They immediately protested. "Not yet," and "Can we stay a bit longer," and "But we are having fun." "No, I have to get out as I'm exhausted. Any more and I will collapse. And as we are in the water, that means I would probably drown." "We'll have to give you mouth-to-mouth resuscitation, then." Harry giggled at the thought. Now there was a thought, indeed. "Yes, you would. And who's going to volunteer to give me mouth-to-mouth?" "Yeech," laughed Harry. "Gross, no way," protested Grant. Eric didn't say anything, but gave a thoughtful smile. I wondered what it was that he was thinking. That giving me the kiss of life might not be completely revolting, perhaps? Even his brothers didn't really look very disgusted, in spite of their words. I could see that we weren't going to make progress, so I gathered the boys into my arms in one enormous bundle, and started wading towards the end of the pool. As I walked, one of the brothers grabbed my cock. He squeezed it and felt the outline of my cock and balls. I immediately went hard, of course, and that exploring hand caressed the outline of my erection, from the base to tip. This was not a quick grope, as happened earlier, but a full exploration of my hard-on. You would think I would know which boy was playing with my cock, but all I could see were three laughing, squirming boys. I was peculiarly vulnerable because, as my hands were full, I could not grasp that hand, to stop it's exploration or at least discover who it belonged to. And as for the alternative of asking loudly for all around us to hear, 'who is playing with my cock?', somehow I didn't think so. My only real objection was that it could become very embarrassing. I was getting close to coming in my togs, and if I survived that hazard I would have to worry about everyone seeing that I had a hard-on when I got out of the pool. I made it to the changing room, without coming in my pants, or anyone obviously noticing my erection, though it did shrivel fast enough after I got out of the water. The boys followed me into the changing room and stood, facing me, on the other side of the bench. I removed my togs, so that I was naked before I started drying myself. I was well aware that I was exposing myself to the brothers' gaze. It was an invitation to inspect my man cock and, who knows, it might provide an example for them to copy. Harry immediately followed suit and stripped naked, happy to do what I did. He was innocent of the sexual undertones of our nudity, although he was very interested in inspecting my equipment. For my part, I was always happy to have another look at his cute little boy prick. As soon as I had undressed, Eric had stared intently at my groin. He looked across at Harry and saw that he was also naked, looked back at me, then after a pause started to untie the drawstring of his costume. 'That's my boy,' I thought, 'show me what you've got.' And he did, standing openly for me to inspect him. Eric had a long, slender, tubular cock that was circumcised. His balls were developed and dangling. He had a small patch of blond pubic hair in each corner of his groin, joined by a narrow strip of hair across the base of his cock. It was such a sweet thing, that I could have feasted my eyes on it all day. I tried not to stare too intently or obviously, or drool too much, but if Eric didn't notice it was only because he was busy looking at my larger and hairier package. Eric was old enough to be sexually aware, probably sexually obsessed like all teenage boys, and his joining me in my nudity was a gift of trust. And what of Grant? He also had a good look at what I had to offer, but then all little boys like looking at men's cocks to get an idea of what was going to happen to them one day. Grant also saw that his brothers were naked, but after drying his torso he put on his T-shirt. This boy was too modest to display himself. His T-shirt was too long to show anything as he removed his togs and dried himself and I thought it would be rather too obvious to crouch down to look under it. But I'm sure Grant didn't realize when he slipped on his boxer shorts, how revealing that could be. As he lifted his leg to step into them, the bottom of his T flipped up to give me a quick glimpse of his balls and the end of what appeared to be a circumcised prick. I wondered at one or both of the older brothers being circumcised, while Harry was not. It had become unusual for boys of their generation to be cut, unlike previous decades, such as in my generation, when circumcision had been a lot more common. Perhaps their parents had finally thought better of the procedure after the two oldest boys had been born. I also wondered which boy or boys had been sufficiently interested to grope me in the pool. But with these thoughts, my cock started to stir, so I thought I had better dress and return the brothers home. Iris was waiting for us in the house when I delivered her sons. "Did you thank Mr Lynn for taking you swimming?" "Yeah, thanks Martin, it was loads of fun." "We had a wicked time. Can we do it again some time?" Eric frowned momentarily at that, before smiling at me and saying how much he enjoyed himself. "That's alright, boys. I really enjoyed myself too." Oops! Perhaps that wasn't the wisest thing to say as Iris frowned at my words. "It's very kind of you to spend all this time and effort with the boys, but, really, its too much, and I don't know why you bother. They can be very difficult and you are taking too much trouble ..." I tried to reassure Iris that it was no bother at all, but she had not finished with what she had already decided to say. "For a stranger to do all this, well, we don't need charity as I can look after the boys perfectly well myself. And what you doing with the boys is not ..., well, it's just not proper. So I want to thank you for all you have done, but you have done quite enough. In fact, I insist that this must stop now and that you must not have anything more to do with the boys in any way." After hearing that bombshell, Grant and Harry started to protest, but Eric exploded in rage. "It's not fair," he yelled. "You always spoil everything. We finally find someone who likes us and wants to spend time with us and do things with us. And now that things are going right for once, you are going to stop us seeing Martin and ruin it all. You are ..., I ..." "Eric," I interrupted before the argument could get any further out of hand. He stopped abruptly in mid-yell, mouth still open, and looked at me. How could Eric even have heard me, let alone respond, as I had spoken firmly but not loudly? Perhaps, in some way, we were becoming closely attuned. "Why don't you and your brothers leave the room and give your mother and me a chance to talk." Eric looked appraisingly at me for a moment, then with a jerk of the head for his brothers to follow, he walked out. It was then time to deal with their mother. "Iris, I appreciate your concerns, but I assure you that you have nothing to worry about. As I have come to know the boys I can see that they are basically good kids. I know that they can be a bit wild at times, but I have begun to care for them and all I want to do is help. I know that life is difficult for you and the boys, and that your ex-husband is no help at all." Iris looked unconvinced. "That's all very well, but ..." "I know that you are a good mother," I interrupted, "And that you do a fantastic job." Liar, liar, pants on fire; I didn't think any such thing. "But the boys do need a male role model and I would feel privileged if I could help with this. I do care for your sons and I promise that I would never do anything to harm them." "I don't know," Iris replied, as she started to look increasingly uncertain. "Life gets so hard at times." "Yes, of course, and if I can take the boys out sometimes, that will make life a little bit easier for you. I think you will find that the boys will be happier and better behaved around the house." Iris sighed, no doubt tempted at the thought of getting some peace and quiet every once in a while. "I will have to think about it." That was all I was likely to achieve, and it was time to let Iris think about where her self-interest lay. I suspected that Iris' concerns for her sons were mostly because she felt that society expected her to worry about them. So I said goodbye and left. Eric followed me out to the car. "Is it going to be alright, then?" "Yes, I think so." "So, I can see you again?" "Yes, if you want." "Cool." Eric briefly laid his hand on my arm through the open window of the car and stepped back to let me leave. "See ya, lad," I said as I drove off. "See ya, Dad," he replied with a cheeky grin. Dad? I liked the sound of that, but found the implication that it made my desires incestuous rather disturbing. And my promise to Iris that I would never harm her sons? By her definition, I would likely break that promise if I had the opportunity. But I did care for them and they would never be physically or mentally worse off for knowing me. If we happened to have a bit of mutual pleasure in the meanwhile, I didn't define that as harm. As I drove home I thought that, being someone who likes to keep a very calm and controlled life, it was disconcerting to become involved with such a stormy, emotional boy.