Date: Tue, 11 Feb 2003 09:48:15 -0600 From: Fredric L. Brothers Subject: SUMMER WITH VAL - Chapter 12 (Part 2) Disclaimer: The following story is a homoerotic work of fiction. It involves sex between adult men and minor boys, and between minor boys. If you find this disturbing, then please leave. Your mission is now completed. I would appreciate any thoughts or comments: FLBROTHERS@hotmail.com ------------------------------ SUMMER WITH VAL ------------------------------ By Fred Brothers Copyright (c) 2003 by Fredric Law Brothers (All Rights Reserved) NOTE CAREFULLY: The following work is intended solely for private, individual use. It may not be reproduced, distributed or posted on additional web sites without the expressed written consent of the author. To do so is in violation of copyright laws. A special, warm and sincere "Thank You" along with deep appreciation goes to PA-S, OC, RFZ, JCB, and especially to my super JK in Holland (my great email buddy and friend) - for your continued encouragement, advice and good-natured harassment. Chapter 12 (Part 2) - Val We're sleepin' together in my bed - me and Big Eddie. The bed's a little small for two and we ain't got much room but we don't mind. We're holdin' each other and that's the best. I have one arm `round Eddie's bod; Eddie's holds my other stump and rubs it lightly on his lips in his sleep. He has this little smile on his face and looks so beautiful and happy. I move a little so now I'm layin' on my back and Eddie's head's restin' on my chest and I'm strokin' his hair wit' the end a my arm. He seems t' be purrin' like a little kitty. The reason I ain't sleepin' is I still don't understand what happens `tween me and Big Eddie tonight. No matter how hard I try, I still can't believe it. We meet up, we kiss, we have sex. It all seems so fast.so unreal.so wonderful. We tell each other some a our deepest secrets - things we never tell nobody else ever. It's almos' like a dream. He tells me things `bout hisself and why he likes me so much. Oh, he splains lotsa things but I'm still all mixed up. I mean, he's so much older `n me - three years older. He's such a mature guy, wit' hair in his pits and some hair on his legs and he even shaves sometimes. He's like real great looking, handsome and all. He's very thin but got taller since I know him. When my auntie first sees him she thinks he's sick or somethin' `cause he's so thin. He got lotsa beautiful red hair and lotsa freckles and wonderful big lips and real big blue eyes wit' big long red lashes and red eyebrows. He got big hands and big feet, a real sweet voice that's so soft and high soundin' and a little potbelly that looks so cute. But auntie says a potbelly like that can mean that Eddie's not getting `nough food and he may be undernourish - like somma the kids we see in pictures on TV. This makes me worry `bout him and I ask auntie t' put extra food in my lunch so I can give it t' Eddie. She rubs my head when I say this. And me? Well, I'm jus' like a little nerdy kid - hairless, without big muscles and not strong and not good lookin' and I'm missin' both my hands. I'm nothin' special...in fact, I'm less `n special...at least, I think so. But tonight I find out that Big Eddie don't think that. Tonight he tells me I'm much more `n special - that I'm the most special guy in the world. He says he loves me - he loves me from the first time we meet three years ago. Tonight me and Eddie have sex...we make love together...and it's great! I love every second and Eddie does too. He does! He tells me so! He says it's the best day in his whole life. That's the way he says it - the best day in his whole life. I kiss him so hard when he says that; I'm `fraid a hurtin' him. He says the day starts like shit but ends up the best! I kiss the top a my sleepin' Eddie's head. It's a little sweaty. I'm all sweaty too and have the blankets pulled up so I don't get a chill. After those first kisses, we jus' fall into each other's arms and hold each other real close. I like the feel a his body pressin' int' me. I like the feeling of everythin' `bout him. And I love his smell! I'm totally crazy `bout his smell! I know it's a bad night for him. I don't wanna upset him no more, so after we finish our kissin' and holdin', I jus' sit nex' t' him and leave him t' do what he wants. "I'm the only kid from our school at Carole's party," he says. "The rest're all rich types and I don't like `em. They say nasty thing `bout our school and `bout me and they say `em loud so I can hear. I know I wanna get outta there; it's a bad mistake t' come. We dance some but mosta the time I'm sittin by myself watchin' `em all dancin' and makin' out and havin' fun. When we're dancin' once, Carole tells me her mom and dad hate me `cause they say I'm `white trash.'" "What's that?" I ask. "It's sorta like a racist name...like if someone calls ya a nigger. It's bad. It means ya low...ya scum. Ya ain't good `nough t' be wit' `decent' folk." As he goes on speakin' I can see him gettin' more and more upset. And now he's cryin' `gain. I move near t' him `til his head's restin' on my shoulder. I can feel his bod heavin'. I put one a my arms over Eddie's hands. He looks up at me and I jus' smile and he lays his head down on my shoulder `gain. I find that holdin' Eddie's gettin' me hard. And I'm gettin' `barrassed...and I'm hopin' he don't notice. When Eddie quiets down some, he sits up and gives me a small smile. "Sorry `gain, Val. I jus' can't keep my feelin' under check no more. I have so much shit dumped on me the last coupla years that...that...that sometimes I don't...I don't think I wanna go on no more...I don't think I can" I look at him real serious. "Don't joke `bout that, Eddie. It ain't fuckin' funny. Ya hear? It ain't funny at all!" He sighs loud. "What with my folks in fuckin' prison and my big brother gettin' shot and now havin' t' live wit' that crazy, freakin' old lady and all..." Then he breathes in deep and shakes his head. "Ya know somethin' Val? Carole's folks is right. I am white trash. I am!" "No ya ain't Eddie! No ya ain't! Ya jus'...jus' goin' through a bad time now. That's all. I mean everybody goes through some bad times!" Eddie laughs. "Bad times huh? Let me tell ya somethin'. We ain't got nothin' but bad times. Me and my granny's jus' a tiny step `bove the homeless ya see on the streets. We ain't got nothin'...nothin' at all." The tears're runnin' down his face `gain. "I live in a shitty rat hole...that's why I never invite ya over. I'm ashame. Sometimes we ain't even got `nough food and...and she don't eat much. My clothes are all hand-me-downs and plenty ragged...and smell. I can't even take a shower when I want to...or need to." He says some other things too but I can't hear him `cause he's cryin' so hard. I jus' hold him and try squeezin' him the best I can. "That feels so good, Val," Eddie says after quietin' down some. "Thanks." He lifts his head and looks at me. His eyes're almos' closed from the cryin' and his face's all streaky. "I keep saying that, I know. But I mean it. I really do." "I know ya do Eddie. I know. And I really like it that ya come over here t' me when ya feelin' rotten." He nods and looks up at me `gain. "I like it too." So we jus' sit quiet for a while...doin' nothin'. Then he gives me a little smile and looks right at me. "Can I ask ya t' please do somethin' for me, Val? I mean since we're good pals and all." I smile tryin' t' make him feel better. "Sure Eddie. Anythin' ya want." He's jus' continues t' look at me. I see his eyes become very wide. "I...I d-d-don't want ya t' take it wrong. Okay? I...I don't wanna hurt ya." "Sure. I understand." "And if ya don't wanna do it...ya know jus' tell me `cause I know ya a nice person and I wanna be ya best friend ever and I want ya t' like me and..." "Eddie, if ya don't stop ya yappin' I'm gonna have t' kiss ya `gain." Now he smiles big. "Okay. Here goes. Could ya...ya know...could ya...when ya hold me...could ya take off...take off ya hands? I mean I'd really like t' see ya all wit'out...ya know, wit'out those plastic hands ya got on." This ain't what I think he'll say, but it sorta makes me happy `cause it's `bout me and what makes me different. "Sure. No problem." I get up t' take `em off and he stands up nex' t' me and he seems very `cited in what I'm gonna do. But then I have a idea. "Eddie? How'd ya like to help me take 'em off?" He takes a big breath. "Really?" I nod. "Yeah. I think ya'll like t' help. Right?" He nods deeply. "Yeah, yeah, I think I'll like that...like it a lot!" "Okay, it's easy. First ya take off my shirt." He moves close t' me and gentle starts t' pull my baggy shirt over my head `til I tell him t' stop and pull it offa my arms first then over my head. He does this and he smiles big when he sees my chest and the toppa my arms since I ain't wearin' no undershirt. He raises one hand towards me and moves it t' my chest. "May I?" he asks in a almos' little voice. I nod. He's very gently and lets his long, thin fingers move real slow over my chest, my nipples and my belly. It feels wonderful and Eddie's so soothin' `bout doin' it. Then he raises his other arm, now usin' both to softly play wit' my body. "Ya got a real beautiful chest, Val. Real beautiful." He leans over and kisses me real light right `bove one a my nipples. I jump a little from the touch a his lips. "Real beautiful," he say `gain. "It's looks like ya gettin' so strong and ripply." Then he moves his hands t' my shoulders and lets `em move slow and gentle down t' the toppa my myoelectric arms. "They look neat. How do ya take `em off?" I gotta little trouble talkin'. "Ya...ya jus'...jus' pull `em off slow," I finally say. And this is what Eddie does; he pulls `em both off real slow and real gentle. When he got both a `em off I tell him t' put `em on the dresser where I have the rechargin' stuff. He takes the batteries out and plugs `em in where I show him. When he's doin' this, I rub my stumps together `cause they're a little sweaty and hurt some. I see him watchin' me. His eyes're wide and his mouth's open. Eddie face breaks out in a great big grin. "Oh, Val! I never seen ya stumps...uh...I mean ya arms...uh...before. They're so pretty...uh...I mean nice...they're real nice...and...and ya..." "Thanks for sayin this Eddie, but ya seen my arms like this before." He shakes his head fast. "No I ain't. Anytime I see ya on the beach or playin' sports ya always wearin' some kinda coverin' or wearin' ya hooks or these new hands like at school...or now." I think `bout this. Eddie's right! I do keep myself covered all the time. I give him a big grin back. "So ya like...like wha' ya seein'?" "I love `em! I love `em...a lot!" He suddenly lowers his head and blushes. "Sorry, Val. I'm so sorry I say that. But...but I really like the way ya look. I know it's a little stupid a me t' say this, what wit' ya being...ya know being wit'out hands and all...but I like...I'm happy t' see ya this way...and like the way ya look...ya know seein' ya stumps and all." Now I giggle. I'm happy wit' what Big Eddie's sayin'. I put one a my stumpy arms on his cheek and rub it light. Eddie's startled by what I do, and gulps and swallows hard. He finally gives me a big smile. When we get back on the bed, he sits cross-legged near me. He puts his hands on my shoulders real gentle and squeezes `em slow. Then he moves his hands real slow down my arms; he squeezes my biceps and elbows. His eyes're half close. "Oh, yeah. Yeah!" he says soft, like he's really int' it. He's squeezin' a little harder now and I like the feelin'. "Oh, yeah! Ya gettin' such wonderful muscles, Val." He moves his face near my arms and real slow-like he rubs his lips on my biceps. It's awesome! He's barely touchin' the skin but my bod starts movin' `round. Then he sucks on `em real light. It's super! Big Eddie really knows how t' take care a me. He's slowly workin' his way down my arm - towards the stumpy ends. "Ya know somethin' Val? I dream `bout seein' ya this way...and bein' wit' ya this way...since the first day I ever seen ya." I'm still `barrassed by showin' my cut off arms t' anybody - specially wit' strangers, and Eddie's still a stranger. So I start pullin' `em back. "Wassa matter?" he asks. "Nothin'," I say. "If nothin's the matter, why'd ya pull ya arms `way?" I shrug my shoulders. "Dunno." "If ya dunno, why'd ya do it then?" He jus' looks at me. I look back. Maybe he likes `em, I think. He asked me t' take off my hands, don't he? "I'm...I'm a little...ya know...well, shy `bout my...my cut off arms, Eddie...'bout havin' no hands...'bout people seein' me like this." "How long's it been, Val...since ya lose ya hands, I mean?" "Well, almos' five years...since my accident...since they gotta amputate `em." "And ya still shy?" He smiles a nice gentle smile. "No need t' be. I love wha' I see." He blushes and looks so cute. "I think ya real beautiful, Val. Real beautiful! All of ya! Includin' ya stumps...ya cut off hands...uh...arms." I stop pullin' my arms `way. Is it true? Does he really mean what he's sayin'? Or is he shittin' me? Teasin' wit' me? Tryin' t' make me feel good and then lettin' me have it - laughin' and makin' fun a my cripple body? Eddie puts his hands on my elbows and slowly moves `em closer to him. I let him do it. He's squeezin' `em light and it feels good. He move's `em until the stumpy ends`re right in fronta him. Then he lifts `em so he can see `em clear. "There's no reason t' be shy `bout, `em. They're jus' beautiful...like the resta ya." Then he gives me a big smile and leans over t' kiss me `gain. He moves his lips down t' my neck and then ont' my shoulder, kissin' everythin' all along the way. It tickles some but feels wonderful. He goes down my arm `gain, playin' wit' my bicep, then ont' the bottom part `til he comes t' the stumpy end. I watch him close and he looks up and gives me a cute smile. I give him a tiny smile back `cause I like wha' he's doin' but I'm still not sure. "I like ya stumps, Val," he says in a real low, sexy voice. "Ya do?" He nods. "Yeah. I like `em a lot." He brings botha `em t' his lips and rubs `em light and kisses the ends real soft-like. "They're...they're jus' amazin'." "How can ya? I mean they're ugly, ain't they?" He shakes his head and speaks quite. "No, they ain't. T' me they're beautiful! And I...I dream..." "How can ya like `em so much? They're all scarred up bad and I ain't got...I mean there ain't no hands." Again he shrugs. "I jus' do, that's all. It's one a the things I like." He takes a real deep breath and lets it out slow. "Okay...here goes. I really like guys...ya know, guy who have...I know ya gonna think I'm crazy, Val, but...but I like guys wit' missin' arms...or legs...or hands." I stare at him. I jus' can't believe I hear him say this! "Really? Ya do? Guys with missin' arms? Or legs? Or hands?" He lowers his head but still hold my stumps in his warm hands. He blushes. "Yeah. I like `em a lot. I ain't never tell nobody `bout this before, but guys...guys wit' stumps...amp guys...guys wit' amputations... well, they really, really turn me on. I hate t' say this Val, but...but one a the things I love...really love...'bout ya is that ya ain't got... got no hands." I can't believe I'm hearin' Big Eddie say this! It's too weird! "How?" He shrugs `gain. "Dunno. I love t' watch guys wit' one leg on crutches or guys usin' their hooks or stumps and some..." He's lookin' right at my stumps. He's still holdin' `em. "Strange, ain't it?" "Yeah, it's strange...I s'pose." "Ain't ya never met a guy like me before? Guys who like ya stumps a lot...or even girls?" I shake my head. "No. I never do." "Oh." Big Eddie slowly takes his hands `way from my stumps and they drop t' the bed. "Then I'm real sorry. Sorry `bout all a this...that I done this t' ya." I get a strange feelin' when Big Eddie ain't rubbin' my arms no more. Like I'm missin' somethin'. I guess he thinks I think he's a freak `cause he likes my stumps. It's strange - I do find it sorta freaky but also I love the feelin' when he's rubbin' and kissin' `em. I feel so good and tingly and happy when he's doin' it. I mean, besides somebody rubbin' my dink and balls, somebody rubbin' my stumps feels the best. And Eddie seems t' like `em...like `em a lot. So why not let him play wit' `em? Right? So he likes it; so what? It feels great when he does. And I don't wanna let him think he's freaky. I like him too much t' do that t' him. He moves t' get offa the bed. I don't want him t' go. And then I get a picture in mind a the first time I meet Big Eddie. I remember how he puts out his hand and we shake. He shakes my hook. And he ain't `barrassed. He ain't turned off by those ugly metal things stickin' outta my sleeves. And then all the kids take me as a friend. "Eddie, please stay here wit' me. Don't go. Please!" I raise my arms again and stare at him. Eddie's eyes get big and round and he jus' stares at my stumps as I bring `em up. "Really?" he says in a quiet voice. I look right int' those big blue eyes. I nod. "Yeah." Eddie smiles. He slowly reaches for me. I feel a sudden blast a wonderful feelins spreadin' through my whole body as he touches the stumps `gain. My dink gets hard so quick. His hands feel great on me. It makes me feel sexy. Who knows? Who knows my stumps can feel so very sexy? Well, Eddie knows. He looks at `em and brings `em up to his wet lips. He kisses each one and rubs his lips and tongue over the scars. I jus' close my eyes and let my body float. I look at Eddie and his eyes're closed as he rubs my stumps and sucks on `em and makes love t' `em. Slowly, he opens his eyes and looks at me. He drops his head. "Sorry, Val." "What ya sorry `bout?" He shrugs one shoulder. "Dunno. For lovin' ya body...and ya stumps...so much, I s'pose." "No problem," I answer quickly. "None at all. I love the way ya love `em. It's the best feelin' ever!" He's lookin' down at my crotch and I see a smile growin' on his face. I can feel my face burin' so I look down. "Sorry Eddie. Guess I can't control things neither." His smile gets even bigger. "Now it's my turn t' say no problem." He moves a little close t' me and slowly moves his left hand near my crotch. "May I?" he asks very quietly. My breathin's comin' very fast and I close my eyes. "Uh-huh," is all I can say. I feel so terrific when his hand first touches me. I take in a big gulp a air and begin t' breathe heavy. I feel the force of his hand pushin' on my dink and balls as he rubs me through my clothes. I open my eyes a little and see Eddie's watchin' what he's doin' very close. "Put ya legs up." I slowly change how I'm layin' `til I'm all stretch out. He kneels and puts a big warm kiss on my mouth. He pulls back and leans in for `nother. This time it's different. This time he opens his mouth when we kiss. I feel his tongue pressin' against me and forcin' my lips t' open up. We kiss real deep. Both our tongues move `round a lot, goin' from one mouth t' the other. I suck on his tongue and he sucks hard on mine. Big Eddie tastes so great! Then he moves down and he puts his hands on both sides a my shorts and pushes `em under the `lastic. The cool a his hands on my skin tickles a little and's so excitin'. He pulls both my shorts and briefs offa me. I can see my little pecker stickin' up in the air. I look at Eddie and he's smilin' a great big smile. He looks so beautiful - jus' smilin' there, wit' his eyes half closed. "Ya look...ya look so...so totally great, Val!" He leans over and smooches one a my nipples and licks it very gentle. "Ya gotta be the greatest...the greatest guy I ever seen...the most beautiful!" I can feel my face getting' hot. "Thanks, Eddie. Ya real hot yaself." He licks my other nipple and starts on my chest. "Can I help ya get undressed?" I ask him. "Sure! Anythin' ya want. Anythin'!" He's still kneelin' nex' t' me so I roll over on my side and slowly try t' get off his shirt. I got trouble wit' the buttons and he takes over quick. He kisses me and smiles. This makes me more excited `cause it means he likes what I'm tryin' t' do. He takes everythin' off `cept his athletic shirt and boxers; the boxers got a cute pattern of hot chili peppers on `em. I laugh when I see `em. What I see is Eddie's body covered in freckles. I think he got lots on his face, but the resta his bod's got `em too. He looks so awesomely cute I can hardly speak. "Hey Val?" "Yeah Eddie?" "I really do think ya arms look great. I ain't shittin' ya. I love `em the first time I seen ya. I think they're the sexiest things I ever seen...and ya the sexiest guy I ever seen. Ya whole bod...everythin'`bout ya...everythin's so sexy!" He lifts my arms `gain and puts the stump ends t' his mouth. "Specially ya arms...and also ya eyes. Ya got eyes t' die for!" He kisses my stumps and rubs `em hard. He looks so happy. I start moanin' loud and flinch a little. "Sorry, Val. I didn't mean t' hurt ya." "Ya ain't hurtin' me Eddie. I like what ya doin' dude. It feels real, real awesome!" "Ya like it? Ya do? A lot?" I nod and kiss him. I can't stop kissin' him. He's so gorgeous...he looks so great...and I love what he's doin' t' me. "Thanks. I love doin' it. It's the first time I ever touch a arm stump - or any kinda stump - and it feels so great." He rubs it `gain and this time he push his thumb int' the scar. "Do ya like it...do ya like when I do that?" "Yeah. I like it a lot, man. Do it more...t' both a `em." He must like it a lot too. He looks so happy and `cause he got a bulge in his shorts. He's still kissin' one arm when I start playin' wit' his bod. I move the arm he ain't kissin' t' his shoulder and a little int' his pits. He moans loud. "Ya like what I'm doin' Eddie?" I ask, teasin' him a little. He catches his breath and then he whispers, "Christ, Val! It's so seriously...great! I love...I love what ya doin'!" So, I jus' do it and I know he's gettin' hotter and hotter `cause then he sits back and takes off his athletic shirt. Eddie's got a nice chest wit'out any hair on it. And the skin's so white - almos' like a ghost white. It looks like I can almos' see through his skin. I can see the blue a his veins under the skin. It's amazin'...and a bit strange t' me! He got real small muscles; it's sorta like a young boy's chest, sorta like Gabe's. I rub it and love the feel a his very smooth skin. His tits seem strange lookin'. I hate t' say it, but they look like little girl's tits. They're shaped like, ya know, little volcanoes, comin' up t' a high point in the center. I mean they're strange and different lookin' and not what I'd expect t' see in a man...or a boy. I mean, it looks like he got real tits. He also got real big nipples and they're a darkish pinkish-brownish. I look up at him and give him a real big smile. "I love ya chest Eddie," I say. And I wanna kiss him everywhere. "Really?" He rubs his hands over those pointy tits wit' the big, dark nipples. "Even these?" I nod. "Yeah! I think they're super and...and I wanna get my tongue on `em real fast...and suck on `em and bite `em...and then...then when they're all wet I wanna...wanna rub my stumps all over `em." Eddie starts breathing hard `gain and I see the bulge in his shorts getting' bigger. He's still sweatin' a lot. He flexes his arms, forcing his biceps t' bulge out a little. "Ya like my muscles?" I smile and nod strongly. "Yeah, I like `em a lot." Eddie blushes. He laughs. "Not too big huh? Real smallish." "I think they're perfect. Jus' perfect." I move a stump t' one a his biceps and rub it and he groans a little. "Jus' perfect for you. Ya my stud, Eddie." I continue t' rub his arms and chest and he bends over and begins t' lick my nipples - first one then the other. I put my head back and start moanin' and Eddie jus' keeps doin' it harder and harder and he actually bites `em light. Then I feel Eddie begin t' move one a his arms down my body. He touches my belly and my belly button and then he touches my dink. I know I can't stop my bod from movin' all over and I get this real strange and new feelin' spreadin' all through me. He starts pinchin' my titties harder wit' his long fingers. Suddenly I feel somethin' burnin' and wet on my dink - and I know Eddie's got his mouth on me. I try hard t' open my eyes and can jus' `bout see his head down there. I feel him lickin' gentle `round and `round the head a my hard dink and it feels so.so fantastic. He swirls his tongue `round the whole thin' and is suckin' real, real soft. Then he picks up his head offa my dink and I'm disappointed. "Ya know, ya got some real great stuff here, Val," he says. He gives me a great big smile. "Real nice and `citin'." "Me? I got nice stuff? Me?" He giggles his little boy type giggle. "Course you! Who else? Ya got beautiful stuff and when ya get a little older they're gonna be real big and real pretty and everyone's gonna wanna get their hands on `em." Now I laugh. "I don't think so!" "I do! I really do!" He moves up and kisses me `gain, and I jus' love how he treats me and what he's doin'. And when he kisses and licks all the way down my arms and licks and sucks on the stumpy ends, I'm feelin' like I never do before. Big Eddie moves from one arm t' the other, from one stumpy end t' the other, from one armpit t' the other. He's doin' such a great job on me! And then, in one big whoosh he takes my dink and balls int' his mouth and starts suckin on `em and movin' `em all `round and then pullin' on `em, draggin' `em away from my body. I feel like I'm gonna die.the feelin's so strong in my body. Suddenly my whole body's startin' t' get like it ain't got no feelin' at all. I can hardly hear the sounds Big Eddie's makin'. My head's movin' from side t' side and my arm stumps are wavin' in the air. Big Eddie's still pullin' hard on me and suckin' me very hard and my dink don't feel so small no more. It feels like it grows `cause I think I feel the back a his mouth. He's tuggin' and suckin' hard. I'm moanin' and screamin'. And for the first time anyone's ever blowin' me, I'm feel like I'm gettin' pain. It seems t' be comin' from in back a my ball bag. I try not t' think `bout it. My bod's movin' faster and faster as Big Eddie sucks harder and harder. Then all of a sudden I scream. I scream at the toppa my lungs. And I start poundin' my feet on the bed and my arms on Eddie's shoulders. The pain in my balls and dink's terrible and I get very `fraid. Big Eddie grabs at my stumpy arms. He holds the ends and his fingers work over the skin as I continue t' thrash `bout more and more. I feel a strange, sizzlin' feelin' floodin' every inch and every corner a me. I can think of nothin' `cept what's racin' through my body. The feeling comin' from my dink's so strong that I...that I can hardly... hardly think of what's...what's... "STOP!" I scream at Big Eddie. My whole body's twitchin' and I'm shakin' all over. Big Eddie starts easin' up his suckin' but he keeps his mouth over my stuff. The pain starts t' go `way. I feel his tongue `round my balls and now he's lickin' `em like candy. And then I feel like I'm sinkin' int' the bed. I feel so freakin' weak like I got no strength at all. Big Eddie moves up and holds me tight in his arms and kisses all over my face and neck. I'm still feelin' a little dizzy but I kiss him back. Then he smiles at me and licks his lips. "Ya did it Val! Ya really did it!" "Wha? Wha? Wha' I do?" "Ya cummed, big boy. Ya shot a load, man." I can't believe what Big Eddie says. I jus' stare at him. "Really? Really?" "Really and truly, man! And it tasted wonderful!" He licks his lips `gain and smiles a great big wide smile. "I know I'm gonna want more soon. How'd it feel?" "It...it...it feels okay." "Jus' okay?" "Well, I get some pain...and I don't know...I really don't know what's goin' on!" "I know! Ya cummed. Ya a man my friend!" "I never have that kinda feelin' and pain before. But when it's over I know somethin' great happens and my whole body feels incredible...like I'm floatin' way up high and everythins so...so...I don't know. I can't say it in words. It's jus' so awesome!" Big Eddie hugs me tight. I hug him back. I look down at my pecker and see it still hard. Then I close my eyes and think I sleep a little. When I open `em `gain, my head's on Eddie's lap and he's strokin' my face with his finger tips. He's smilin' and I smile back. "That was incredible man." I jus' look at him not sayin' nothin'. "What?" I finally say. "The way ya cummed! It was jus' so...so staggerin'! I never seen no one come that way before...so hard...and wit' so much action...and noise." "Sorry." "And afterwards? The twitchin' ya do? Ya body does? It's totally mindblowin'!" "Sorry `gain." He laughs. "Hey man, ain't nothin' t' be sorry `bout. It was great! Great watchin' ya...and...and great blowin' ya!" He kisses me. "Was it good for ya? Did ya feel good?" I nod my head a little. "Yeah, I s'pose." I give him a great big smile. "I'm jus' teasin' Eddie. It was...it was fantastic!" I forget `bout the pain part quick, thinkin' only `bout comin' for the first time...and shootin' a load in Eddie's mouth. I pick my head up and give him a hard kiss on his lips. We tongue kiss and it's so great. I raise my handless arms and stroke his beautiful face, then run `em down his neck t' his chest. I'm still feelin' a bit weak but know I wanna play wit' his body and make him feel as good as he makes me feel. I slowly start playin' with his big nipples, rubbin' the ends a my stumps over `em and pinchin' `em light usin' both stumps on each. I move my mouth t' them and attack `em with my tongue and teeth. I flick `em wit' my tongue - I jus' love the feelin' they give me. By now, Eddie's puffin' real hard. He has trouble talkin'. "Val...Val...could ya... could ya please...please...?" He don't finish what he starts t' say. "Wassa matter Eddie?" I ask in a low voice. He shakes his head. I'm worried `bout him. I'm worried that he don't want me t' take care a him and make love t' him. "C'mon! You can ask me anythin' ya want. Really! Don't ya know that yet?" "Yeah. I know, but...but..." "But nothin'! Ya ask me t' take off my arms before, right?" He nods. "And I do. Right?" He nods `gain. "That's `cause we're here t' make each other happy. Right?" He gives me a big smile. "Okay then. Ask what ya want. Ya make me very happy and now I wanna do the same thin' for ya." "Yeah. Okay. Could ya please...well...could ya please lick under my...ya know, under my arms...and play wit' my chest...and wit' my titties?" He looks at me with really sad, puppy dog eyes. "Could ya? Pleeeeeease? I think I'll like that...like it a lot. Would ya?" "Sure, Eddie," I say. "I'm here t' do anythin' ya want me t' do...jus' like ya can do anythin' ya want wit' me. And I think it'll be great t' lick your chest...and pits." I wrap my arms `round him `gain and pull him close. "I'm here for ya Eddie, jus' like I know that ya here for me. Right?" I feel him nod his head. "Right...right." He takes a few deep breaths before he speaks again. "Thanks...thanks a lot. I need t' hear ya say that Val. I need t' hear that a lot. After tonight...ya know, with Carole and all...well, ya know how it is...sometimes a guy jus' needs t' be told...told that he's okay...and that he can be loved and everythin' ...even though...ya know, even with everythin'..." "Shhh, my beautiful Eddie. Shhh. No more babblin'. Okay?" And I start t' rub my lips up his arms, start suckin' on his fingers and goin' slowly up t' his shoulder. I love the smooth feelin' a his skin on my lips, mouth and tongue. I feel the little hair he got. He's shakin' a little. I rub the back a his neck wit' one a my stumps and he give a shudder. "I jus' love the hairs here on the back a ya neck, Eddie. They're so sexy, so soft and so beautiful." I rub his back wit' a stump and Eddie looks like he ain't in this here world now. He opens his arms out as my lips get near his pits. I get a big thrill from seeing his bod like this. The small patches of hair in his pits are the same color as the hair on his head; it's so incredibly gorgeous...and sexy. As I move my face up t' Eddie's right armpit, I look at him. His head's back, his eyes closed, he's breathin' real hard. He's so beautiful - that beautiful smooth body, the freckles, his wonderful sweet face, the bulge in his boxers I wanna touch so bad. I dive right int' one a Eddie's pits. I can't believe how much I love it. I love the smell and the feel and the wetness...and mosta all, the taste...Eddie's fantastic flavor. I suck and lick and breathe deep. I move t' the other side and do the same thing. Only here, after I finish slobberin' all over and tastin' every little bit a him, I move my lips down ont' his chest and lick all `round. Then I suck and bite on his small biceps. I see the nice bulge in his crotch. It `cites me a lot. I don't even ask if I can touch it - I just move a stump ont' his bulge and start rubbin'. My other stump's rubbin' one a his titties. Eddie's moaning and starts liftin' his butt offa the bed. As I continue t' rub his bulge a little harder and faster, Eddie's body starts really bouncin' up and down and he's almos' screamin'! I can feel his dick and it's so, so hot and stiff. I rub it real hard and fast and he's movin' so much I can't barely keep my stump there or onhis chest. I move t' kiss him. He wraps his arms `round me and squeezes. I'm still rubbin his crotch but now wit' both my stumps clampin' `round his dink and he's getting' more and more `cited. I start rubbin' him fast. His shorts are dampand I love the feelin' on both my arms. We break the kiss and Eddie lets out a big sigh and a loud "Ahhhhhhh!" followed by a huge moan. His body shakes and his head's floppin' from side to side. He sinks down int' the pillows. I'm `fraid that he don't like what I did. His eyes open slow and he looks at me...and smiles. He kisses me softly while rubbin' his right hand on my thigh and over my dink. "That...that was great Val," he pants out. "I love wha...what ya done...t' me...specially what ya done...when ya use ya stumps...uh...arms...on my dick." I just smile. "I'm glad ya love it. It makes me very happy too." Eddie pulls back some and I can see a stain spreadin' in his shorts. But now he starts rubbin' both hands on my titties and the feelin's so amazin' I think I'm gonna faint. I'm havin' trouble breathin' and I can feel my heart beatin' away somethin' fierce! "Oh, God, Eddie!" I blurt out. "What ya doin' t' me now?" He smiles again. "Ya wanna stop?" "No! No way!" I hear myself say. "Good! I can see how `cited ya are. Lay down and stretch out. Okay?" I do as he ask. I lay down `gain on the bed with one leg out in front of me and the other raised up and restin' on Eddie shoulder. He's kneelin' `tween my legs. I see my dink standin' right up and it looks bigger `n before. He looks at it and smiles. "Ya got a real wonderful cock Val, and it's getting' bigger and more beautiful by the minute." I see the wet stain at his crotch getting' bigger. "Eddie, ya must be uncomfable wearin' those shorts. Why don't ya take `em off?" "Yeah, they're sticky a bit." Then I notice that his face gets sorta scared look. "But, th-th-thanks, I'll jus' leh-leh-leave `em on." "C'mon. Take `em off. I'll get a washcloth and clean ya up." I'm all hard but I hop off the bed anyways and go int' the bathroom, get a cloth and wet it. When I come back, Eddie's sittin' on the edge of the bed, his head's down and his whole body's slumpin'. "Wassa matter?" I ask. "Ya okay?" He stares up at me and I see his face looks like he's almos' cryin'. "I don't wuh-wanna take off my shuh-shorts, Val." I laugh. "I don't understand why, Eddie. Why?" He gets this real serious look. I don't laugh no more. "Could ya please tell my why, Eddie?" "I never say this t' no one, Val. Yeah, I'll teh-tell ya...since we do sex together. If ya wanna hear. Ya the fuh-fuh-first. Okay?" "Yeah." I see the tears in his eyes `gain. But he don't speak. "So?" He got real trouble speakin'. He breathes deep and swallows a few times. He slams his fists on the bed and I jump! "Okay," he says at last. "Here goes. Well, ya can see now...see very clear...what a ugly bod I got. Can't ya?" I don't say nothin' `cause I see he's scared and I'm `fraid he'll jus' get angry at me if I say he's beautiful. "I ain't strong...or well built...or even good lookin'. I'm so fuckin' thin I could get blowed `way by a wind. Look! Look how my hips bones stick out. See how ugly they are...how ugly I am." He breathes deep `gain. "I don't got much hair neither - fuck, I'm sixteen and I don't even shave yet." He stares at me and like his eyes're burnin' into' me. "Ya seen all that, right?" I still don't say nothin', jus' continue starin' at him. "Well I also got...got a real...a real smuh-small...and ugly dih-dih- dicky...and...and my balls're also teh-teh-teeny and uh-uh-ugly too and..." Now he starts cryin' hard. "My man stuff is...it's terrible...terrible and..." Then he jus' lowers his head `til his chin touches his chest and he bawls. I try t' touch him but he pulls far `way. So I do nothin', jus' let Eddie cry. I figure t' give him his space. He must need t' get it all out. Now I'm thinkin'...and I don't like what I'm thinkin'. I mean, if Eddie thinks he got such a ugly bod, is that the reason he likes me - `cause I got a even uglier body? I mean t' me I got all a Eddie's problems - well, maybe not all. But I got plenty and also I got no hands and I'm part black and part white. I got more problems `n he's got - way more! Don't I? So, I'm sittin' there, thinkin' all this stuff, starin' int' space, and I see, outta the corner of my eye, Eddie lookin' at me. I look back at him and then he leans sideways and lays his head on my lap. My dick's gone soft but as soon as Eddie's head touches my thighs, I start gettin' a boner all over again. I slowly start rubbin' his forehead, face and neck. I hear him make some noises but it seems like he stops cryin'. He turns his face and looks at me. "Sorry, Val. I'm so, so sorry. But...but...I'm so ashamed...and I hate...really hate...hate t' get naked in front a other people and..." "Let me talk now, okay?" I say loud. "I think ya done `nough." He nods but he ain't lookin' happy neither. I continue t' rub him gentle. "Good." I take a deep breath. "I know what ya sayin' but I remember once when we're playin' how ya say ya hate bein' touched by no one. Right?" He nods his head and opens his mouth t' speak. "No! It's still my turn!" I take `nother deep breath. "But now I'm touchin' ya and ya seem t' be lovin' it. Right?" He jus' stares. "Right! Now, all of a sudden, ya say ya got ugly man stuff and ya can't get naked in front a me. I mean, how do ya know? Who says ya ugly?" I'm startin' t' get annoyed wit' Eddie's shitty attitude. I think he's a little shook-up. I guess he's never has a thirteen- year-old kid sayin' these things t' him before. He speaks slow and quiet. "I see myself, Val...in the mirror - every day...since I'm a little kid. I look at myself every single day...and every day I jus' hate...hate what I see. I hate everythin'! Everythin' `bout me's ugly...there's nothing t' like...'bout this...this..." "That's `nough!" I say loud. Eddie stops talkin' at once. I place my right stump in the center a his chest and rub it light and slow. I move my face near his and as he turns, I kiss him softly. I love Eddie's lips; we fit together so perfect. I try t' speak soft and gentle-like. "Eddie, please listen t' me careful and understand everythin' I'm sayin' now `cause I ain't gonna repeat it." He stares at me like a little kid, like I'm the one who's older and he's young. "Okay?" He nods. "Good! Here goes. Being with ya tonight is fantastic. No kidding - honest truth! Now we know each other for three years...and I know I like ya...like ya a lot. I don't know a lot `bout such things but...but I'm thinkin' I'm...I'm really thinkin' I'm in love with ya Eddie. I love everythin' `bout ya. I think ya handsome and nice and caring and that...that I think ya like me too." He nods. "I love ya Val...I love ya from the very first time I ever seen ya." "Thanks. Okay then. I think ya got a great bod.I really do. I mean, what I seen a it. There's nothin' `bout ya I don't love...except how ya keep puttin' yaself down all the time and sayin' awful things `bout yaself." "But it's true! They're right!" "Who's right? Who?" He don't say nothin'. "Okay. Has anyone ever tol' ya that ya got a ugly dink?" He nods his head slow. "Who?" I shout. He don't look at me. He looks at the floor. "All those guys in gym class...in my gym classes...well, mosta `em anyways. They're always waiting for me t' shower so they can look at my little boy stuff...and my girlie titties...and laugh at me." "Listen Eddie, ya ain't got little boy stuff." He still ain't lookin' at me. "Please! Listen to me! Ya ain't got little girlie titties neither. Ya got real man stuff. I know! I feel it. Ya got a real man's bod. And I love it...a lot." He starts tearin' up `gain. "Christ, Eddie! Ya gotta get hold a yaself!" "This ain't easy for me, Val. I ain't never speak t' no one before `bout how I really feel...and `bout my problems...and what I worry `bout...worry all the time." He turns t' me. He looks so sad, but so beautiful. "Could ya hold me `gain, Val?" he asks. "Please?" "Sure Eddie. I'd like t' do that." I put my arms `round him and he puts his arms `round me. He squeezes me real hard and I squeeze him back. He moves his mouth near my ear and licks it real gentle-like. "Thanks Val," he says after a few minutes a holdin'. "Thanks so much. Ya a great friend...the greatest friend a guy can have...in the whole wide world." I pick up the washrag and get it wet 'gain wit' hot water. When I come back t' the room, Eddie's sittin' on the bed waitin' for me. I stand in front a him. He looks up at me and gives me a sad stare. Then he leans forward and puts his head on my chest. I love the feel a him `gainst me. His hair's rubbin' on me and it tickles. I put the washrag down and rub my arm stumps through his hair and down his neck, and down his back and sides `til I come t' the toppa his shorts. I suddenly move back. "Get up Eddie!" I order. It's almos' like magic `cause he quick does what I say. I kneel down in front a him. I slip my stumps int' the elastic and lower his boxers. Eddie kicks `em away. I pick up the wet washcloth. For the first time I see him naked. ----------------------------------- There's a light tapping on the door. It's mornin' and I don't sleep much. I get outta bed careful so I don't wake Eddie. He's sleepin' peaceful. I slip on a pair a shorts and peep out. It's Auntie. She smiles. "Everything okay?" she asks. "Yeah, great. Big Eddie's here. He sleeps here last night. He's has a rough time on his date." "I thought he may. Is he comin' t' church wit' us?" I look at her. "Yeah, I think so. But he ain't got no church-goin' clothes wit' him." "I think we can find something for him." "Okay." "You guys shower then come in for breakfast." I nod. "In about a hour?" I close the door, take off my shorts and get back int' bed. I make myself comfable. He rolls up `gainst me and I put a arm `round him. I kiss him and cuddle `gainst him. As I'm holdin' Eddie's warm bod, I think `gain `bout last night - or was it early this mornin'? It was so totally awesome - how we make love and tell each other our feelin's. Eddie tells me he loves me and that I'm the bes' thin' that ever happens t' him. I tell Eddie I love him too and want t' be with him always. When I clean off Eddie's messy crotch I know he's very `barrassed. But I'm naked since we start. So now he's naked too and standin' in front a me. I glance down quick at his package but mostly I keep my eyes on his face. I smile and he gives me a weak smile back. I kneel down and my face comes almos' even wit' his crotch. He's real messy with cum mattin' down the hair he got. It's also on his cock and balls. I look at his `quipment and I think it's nice. But I also know why he don't want me t' see `em. His dink and nuts and bag do look strange...and different. But I'm thinkin' that I love strange. And I'm more `n a bit different myself. Right? The first thin' I see is he ain't got much hair down there - jus' a real little patch a red hair right over his cock. The rest ain't got no hair at all. Okay, and his cock is small, like he says. Since Eddie's ain't hard, his cock's all shrivel up and only a inch...or maybe even less. His foreskin covers mosta the head and it ends in a real cute little ruffle `round the slit. And even with his cock all shrunk up I see it points to the left.It's thick `round and I can see the bottom `cause there ain't no hair. Now, what t' say `bout his balls and sack? Okay. His sack's large and hangs down `bout two or maybe three inches. It's very wrinkled. It's a pinkish-brown, darker `n his skin. And there's a lotta bag there. It looks so loose and big `cause there ain't much in it. Restin' on the bottom are Eddie's two nuts. And they're tiny. I mean real, real tiny; they're even smaller `n mine. They're `bout the size a two lima beans I s'pose and jus' as flat and the same shape. And they lay sideways at the bottom a this real danglin' bag. So it's all a little strange lookin' - a little dink and tiny balls in a big bag and almos' no hair. But somehow I also think it's so very sexy! Eddie starts movin'; he's gettin' antsy. Maybe he worries I hate his package. But I don't. I like it. I like everything `bout his cock and balls. I look up at him and give him a big smile, tellin' him wit'out words that I like what I'm seein'. I pucker my lips like givin' him a kiss. I pick up the washcloth usin' both my stumps. I begin t' gently wipe the whole area. I wash down the hairs then wash his cock. It stays soft. I turn the cloth. He spreads his legs wide. I wipe over his big hangin' bag and balls and also go behind his sack a little, almos' t' his asshole. When I wipe there he starts movin' `round a lot. He must like it; I gotta remember. Eddie lets out a loud sound. When I look up at him, he has his head back and his eyes closed and his mouth open. I stop wipin' him and make him sit down on the bed `gain. I move him `til he's layin' down on his back wit' both legs up on the bed. He looks so delicious. "So, what ya think a my teeny stuff, Val?" "I think they're beautiful. I love the little ruffled collar ya got `round ya dink and ya low hangin' nuts. And they AIN'T teeny!" Eddie speaks in a very low voice. "When it's...it's soft and all...like now...when I ain't gotta hard on...ya can't see nothin' more `n a dick head. Jus' a dick head pokin' outta the little bit a hair I got down there." And he's right. There ain't nothin' ya can see a his shaft...nothin' at all. It's jus' the head and the foreskin coverin' it. "Well, I'm gonna make it all big and even more beautiful," I say. He smiles. "I love you Eddie." I see tears in his eyes. "I love you so much Val...ya so good t' me." He throws his arms `round me and pulls me down for a big, deep, tongue pokin' kiss. When he holds me and we're kissin', I move my arms down and let my stumps play with his body - his pits, his nipples, his smooth chest, his belly button, and comin' t' rest on his dick at last. I rub his dick real gentle. Eddie breaks the kiss and gulps. He moves his head `way. "Don't do that Eddie. Please don't. Let me show ya how much I love ya. I say it before and now I wanna show ya. Okay?" He nods. Then he starts cryin' `gain. I mean great big sobs. His whole bod's shakin'. "Oh Val. I love ya for so long. I want ya and need ya more `n anythin' in the whole world. I..." He let's out a big chokin' sound and I can't understand nothin' else. --------------------------------------- Okay, so Eddie's got lotsa problems. I always think I got lotsa problems but Eddie's got so many it's incredible! He lives wit' his grandma and she's totally crazy. His folks're in jail; he says it's `cause a drugs. His brother's shot dead durin' a robbery and his sister runs `way and they don't know where she is. So I'm thinkin' I'm lucky compare t' Big Eddie, `cause I got auntie and uncle and all my cousins and the resta the family in LA. And then there's Elise, of course. That first night we're together we get t' play wit' each other `gain. I'm crazed `bout what he does t' me and he says he loves what I do t' him. I like playin' wit' his package so much and I tell him. "Wha' ya mean?" He laughs. "They're the ugliest and teeniest things I ever seen.and ya ever seen!" "NO!" I shout. "They're ain't ugly! They're beautiful...and I love `em." I look at him real serious. "Just as I love you!" Eddie gazes at me. "Don't ya believe me?" He don't say nothin'. "Well, do ya believe me or don't ya?" I almos' shout. He nods. "Yeah! I believe ya. I do! I know ya never lie, Val. Ya never lie t' me...and not t' no one." So, I begin by kissin' and suckin' and lickin' and bitin' on his collar bones, then down his whole chest and lick and suck on his tits and then his belly button. He giggles a little. I'm glad he ain't cryin' no more. He's smilin' and looks so handsome. I give him one more kiss then go t' kneel `tween his legs. Eddie spreads `em wide and bends `em at the knees. I'm lookin' at his package. His dink's twitchin' away; it gets big very quick when I start kissin' his bod. It's so great t' look at it, jus' bobbin' up and down all on it's own - his thick, curvy stalk, and this tiny pink head's peekin' outta the foreskin. When I look up at his face, I see his chest too. His chest's very, very thin and I can see all his ribs pokin' through his skin. And I see his hipbones poppin' out. They're big and bulky and look funny. I feel sorry for Eddie. He really looks scrawny. Then his thighs catch my eye. They're so creamy white. They ain't tan like the resta his legs below the knees. And they're so sparkly. The little hairs on `em seem t' sparkle and shine. I put my face down t' his thighs and kiss each a `em. Eddie gulps in a lotta air when I do this. I smile when I hear him but don't look at him; I continue t' kiss up those thighs and rub my lips over `em light. The skin's so soft and smooth and the little hairs tickle me. His hard dick looks smooth and nice and fat. It's like small - maybe just three inches...maybe less. So, it ain't big...and it got this wicked bend t' the left...and a tiny pink head poppin' outta the foreskin at the tip. I can see his little piss slit openin' and closin' as he gets `cited. I move my face t' his package. I take in a deep breath. I love the smell comin' from him. I lick his thigh right on the side a his dink and balls and he's moanin' somethin' fierce and moves his hips back and forth. I think he's tryin' t' push his dick int' me...ya know, int' my mouth. I move my face closer and soon it's nuzzlin' his hard dink. "Thanks Val" "Why ya thankin' me?" "For what ya doin'." "What am I doin'?" "Ya makin' me feel great...jus' great!" I put my arms up t' his chest and slowly move `em up t' his tits and rub `em light. I put my face back int' his wonderful crotch. I keep my face near his package and move my stumps down his bod `til I'm rubbin' his thighs. Then I move `em up and I start playin' wit' his dink and balls wit' my stumps. I know Eddie's gonna like this a lot. I put one a my arms under his ball sack and lift it up. Then I put the other on the skin behind the sack and rub slow. Eddie is crazed! He start movin' `round a lot but I just do what I was doin'. I move my arms slow and soon I'm rubbin' his bag and balls wit' both my stumps. Eddie is almos' screamin' but I don't know what he's sayin.' I just' love the feel of his soft bag on the ends a my arms - it's so smooth and feels like I'm rubbin' the softest thing in the world. "Jesus, Mary and Joseph!" he yells. "This is...this is jus' fantastic Val. Jus'...jus'...the best...the...the..." I keep my stump under his bag but move the other one up the shaft a his dink. Again, his skin is so, so soft and smooth. I rub it slow up and down the curvy shaft and rub it light over the head a his dink that's now poppin' outta the foreskin. I know I wanna suck his hangin' balls right now. I move t' `em and lift `em and Eddie starts pushin' hisself up t' me. I open my mouth and push out my tongue and lick at his bag and balls. He ain't got no hair there and I feel the wrinkly skin. But it also feels smooth and silky t' my tongue. He's makin' more noises. Since he seems t' like what I'm doin' I choose t' do more. I put my lips on his sack and soon open my mouth and pull his balls gently in. They feel great. I got `em both. At first I jus' let `em rest on my tongue. I can feel that Eddie's gettin' more `cited `cause he's squeezin' my arms ends and bringin' `em t' his mouth. I'm plenty `cited too and my dink's stickin' straight out and even hurts a little. Now I close my mouth `round his nuts and suck on `em and roll `em `round. They feel fantastic - so smooth, so comfy, so tasty, so awesome. They're a little salty. Ole Eddie's nuts may be small but they're real tasty treats! I'm breathin' deep through my nose and I'm gettin' everythin' so strong. I pull on `em. I close my lips and pull my head away real gentle-like. Eddie's goin' crazy. I move one arm back up t' his chest and start rubbin' his tits `gain. He grabs my stump and I can feel him suckin' hard on it and feel a little a his teeth too. So here I am, rubbin' Eddie's nipples wit' one arm, playin' on his dink wit' the other and havin' his balls and sack in my mouth. The feelin' is jus' totally incredible! I push my nose int' his stiff dink. I hear him gasp. I try t' kiss the head but his nuts slip out and he makes a sound like he's upset. But I start kissin' the head and lickin' it and I know he's lovin' what I'm doin'. Eddie's foreskin's all pull back and I see the whole head, and it's pretty. It's small and not as wide as his thick shaft. It's red and looks a little swole up. I move my tongue over the head real slow and like the taste. There's some stuff comin' out. It ain't got no color and tastes a little salty. But I like it and like what I'm doin'. I push my nose int' the hair he got there. I take a deep breath and smell Eddie's cum still clingin' t' the hair and skin. I let my tongue and lips rub `gainst his real thick shaft. The taste is so awesome. I mean really awesome! It's a little funky but it's so smooth and wonderful and I love rubbin' up and down his crooked shaft. "Oh God, oh God, oh God!" Eddie's moanin'. "Val, it's incredible. Fuckin' incredible! It's the best thing anyone's ever done for me. Thank you...thank you...oh, thank you!" I don't say nothin' but move my stumps and start rubbin' his belly softly. I move `em `round his belly button then up t' his ribs. I continue lickin' his dick head and all the stuff comin' outta it. I see he starts movin' his hips back and forth. "Christ! Val! Whacha doin' t' me? AH! So incredible! Ah...ah...aaaahh! It's so fuckin' great! So GREAT!" I move my stumps over his tits `gain real hard and he starts goin' almos' ballistic on me. Eddie wraps his thin legs `round my waist and squeezes. I lick the insides a his thighs - from his knees t' his dink. I love the feel of the hairs he got here! I look at his dink `gain and it seems t' be movin' and throbbin' every time his heart beats. The head's so pretty. I know I shouldn't say that a guy's dink or any part a his `quipment's cute or pretty but Eddie's really is! I put my tongue t' work `gain. He's still leakin' that stuff outta the slit like I seen wit' Colin. `Gain I lick it and love the creamy feel on my tongue and the taste. It taste like Eddie...like his wonderful smell...all warm and sexy and sweet. The head's now very red and so's the shaft jus' behind the head. I put my tongue t' work on his dink head, movin' it slow `round the ridge. It's so hot, hot, hot! God! It's totally awesome. Like my tongue's gonna catch fire from his dink! Eddie's movin' his bod even more. As I run my tongue `round and `round him, I slip my lips over the whole head. I don't move my tongue no more but let the whole dink head rest on my tongue and the feelin's jus' totally amazin'. I let it stay this way for a while as Eddie moves and makes lots more noise. I'm sure glad there ain't no one home! I take a little more int' my mouth, `bout a inch a the shaft. I feel the head pulsin' and twitchin' on my tongue as I start t' rub my tongue on the underside of the head and shaft. I can feel the curve a his dink `cause the head's not sittin' right on my tongue but's starting t' push `gainst the side. "Oh Val!" Eddie moans. He's breathin' very hard and has real trouble talking. "Yeah, yeah, yeah! This is super...jus' fantastic! Keep doin' what ya doin'!" So I keep sucking and rubbin' my tongue every place I can reach. Soon I'm takin' more in my mouth and I gotta problem. Eddie's dink's so thick that I can't open my mouth `nough to get it all in. His dink gets thicker as I get near the bottom. Once or twice I let it slip out `cause I'm gettin' some pain in my jaw. When this happens I go back t' lickin' and suckin' on his ball bag and let my arms pet his thighs and other parts a his legs. He likes this a lot too and moans and wiggles as I do it. "Ahhhhhh! Val? Val? This is the best thing t' ever happen t' me. Val? This is totally and unbelievably awesome! Unreal! Oh! Oh! Christ, Val! You're the greatest...the greatest friend a guy can have...and love!" I'm thrilled Big Eddie likes what I'm doin' `cause I never done this much t' anyone ever. The feelin's wonderful t' me too. My own dink's all hard and I'm feelin' wonderful things comin' from down there. Now I go back t' work on Eddie's dink some more. But first I move my arms to his thighs `gain and then slowly up his bod, strokin' his sides and his belly and a little on his butt cheeks `til I'm `gain rubbing his chest and stiff tits. I can't believe how wonderful it is to rub my stumps over Eddie's smooth, soft wonderful, warm body. Did I say warm? I mean hot! He's really hot, hot, hot! Eddie grabbin' ont' my shoulders now and even before I put my mouth back on his dink he's pushin' his hips up and down. I move quick t' get his sweet dink back in my mouth. I open wide and take as much as I can in one gulp. And I get most a it. I start suckin' real hard and movin' my tongue `round a lot and Eddie's callin' out my name. His arms start flappin' in the air, his head's throwed back wit' his mouth open, his hips gyratin' something fierce - his whole bod's movin'. Then I bite down, only very light, on the shaft a his dink and I hear a loud "Aaaaaaah" comin' from him - it sounds like air leakin' out - and quick I taste his first squirt int' my mouth. It's hot and not too strong but it's followed by `nother. I keep up my hard suckin' trying t' get every last drop of Eddie's wonderful cum. I'm feelin' so wonderful...and so grateful...and so happy...and so thankful...that he's wit' me. And that he chooses me...and that he loves me. I feel better `n I ever do before. My Big Eddie likes what I do for him...and I love doin' it. --------------------------------------- We're back in my room, layin' in bed `gain, holdin' and cuddlin' and talkin' together. All that wonderful sex makes us hungry so we go int' the kitchen, grab some leftover chicken and potato salad and slaw and bring it back. Eddie eats a lot and I'm thinkin' that he don't have any dinner and also he loves auntie's food. It's a great night so far and Eddie says he's gonna stay and sleep here wit' me. I'm restin' my head on his chest, with one a my stumps on a tit. "I got real ug...uh...I mean my tits and nipples ain't too pretty, huh?" "Why'd ya say that?" "Ya know,`cause my bod's soft and all...almos' like a...uh...a little girls." "No it ain't, Eddie. It's a great bod...and I love everythin' `bout it. It's my favorite one I ever seen." He kisses me more and we hold each other tight. It's so comfy being wit' my Big Eddie this way. "Eddie?" "Yeah, Val." "Before ya say that ya in love wit' me since that first time ya seen me." "Yeah, it's true." "How?" "How? Ya wanna know how?" "Yeah. How'd ya know so quick?" He shrugs and I think he don't wanna say. "Please don't get upset...ya know, don't get pissed at what I'm gonna say. Okay?" "Okay, but how can I say that if I don't know what ya gonna say?" He laughs. "Yeah, I see what ya mean. But here goes." He gets serious and looks at me wit'out blinkin'. "When I first seen ya standin' in fronta this here house I couldn't believe how beautiful ya are. Ya look so great, what wit' ya great bod and beautiful legs and big eyes and gorgeous face. Ya know, everythin'. Then, when I get closer and ya move ya arms...and I see ya hooks...well, I know." "Ya know what?" "I jus' know! Know that I...uh...that I'm in love." "Ya...ya were in love wit' my hooks?" Eddie shakes his head. "Nah! Ya ain't listenin'. NO! I ain't in love wit' ya hooks...I'm in love wit' you! Ya hooks only make ya more beautiful...much more beautiful t' me." "My hooks make me more beautiful," I repeat t' myself and shake my head. "Why?" "Okay. Like I tol' ya before I like amp guys. Right?" I nod. "For some reason I'm drawn t' `em...I get turned on somethin' fierce by `em." "Amp guys. Yeah, ya say that too." It seems so weird t' me that a guy can like it when `nother guy's missin' a leg or a arm. "How? I ask him. I mean how'd ya get this way?" "Don't know. Jus' happens, I guess." "Jus' happens. So ya like guys wit' amputations and ya don't know why." "Yeah, that's about it. I love lookin' at amp guys and I love it for as long as I can remember. I know when I`m a little kid there's a neighbor baby and he's born wit'out a right arm. I love watchin' him play and do things wit' his little stubby arm; he's so cute. I watch kids and people at the beach or wherever if they're amps...and they're young. Sometimes I'll watch a girl but mostly its guys. I look for `em. I even follow `em t' see where they live and what they do and how they act and if they got families." He laughs now. "I'm lucky none a `em call the cops on me. "Then when my dad goes t' prison down in Lompoc and I visit him, I see lotsa amp guys there. The place is loaded wit' `em. I mean they're all scumbags but still I love lookin' at `em and they love showin' off their stumps to everyone. Lotsa `em have special tattoos on their stumps." He jus' shakes his head and let's out a big breath of air. "I really don't know why I'm this way, Val. I don't know. I guess I'm jus' a big fuckin' sicko. So when I see ya for the first time and find out ya gonna live `round here then..." I think `bout what Eddie's sayin'. And now sudden-like I think `bout Zack...and `bout Colin...and `bout how they like my stumps so much and how they like playin' wit' `em and love `em and kiss `em and lick `em and squeeze `em. I remember how they can't keep their hands offa my stumps. Then there's Gabe. Gabe too. Are they all like Eddie? Now I'm wonderin'. Do they all like me special `cause I got no hands? "...and I hate myself `cause...'cause...I know it's sick and `cause...and I'm `fraid...and I don't wanna be like this. But...but with ya, I see how beautiful ya are and then I see ya hooks...and I jus' sorta fall in love...well not sorta...I do fall for ya...fall in love wit' ya for real." "Thanks, Eddie. "I mean it's not jus' ya hooks. No. Or ya beautiful face or great bod. It's not one thing...it's a whole buncha things. It's also how wonderful ya are, how funny and friendly, how nice ya are t' everyone...specially t' me...ya know, everythin' `bout ya is so great." "But why'd it take ya so long...so long t' say anythin'...t' do anythin'...t' be with me...for us t' be together. Why?" He shrugs and don't say nothin'. I mean ya been comin' over here for so long...t' eat and t' watch TV...and t' use my computer...but ya never show...show no love...for me." I begin t' cry a little. "I mean we don't kiss...or hold...or nothin'. Now he jus' looks at me and don't say nothin' for a few seconds. He starts cryin' a little too. "I try t' tell ya how I feel lotsa times...but I always stop." I nod. "I guess I don't say nothin' `cause...'cause...I'm `fraid." "What ya `fraid of?" His eyes get very wide and his mouth opens but he don't say a word. "Well! What is it? What ya `fraid of?" He takes a deep breath. "I'm `fraid a bein' a homo. I'm `fraid I'm a faggot...a pansy...a queer...that I'm gay. And...and...and I don't...I don't wanna be...I can't be! I don't wanna be called a fruit and have fuckin' little kids throwin' things at me and my family hatin' me and gay bashers tryin t' kill me! I don't!" So that's it! Big Eddie's `fraid a bein' gay. It seems t' splain lotsa things. "I know it for a long time, Val. I know it! I know it deep down inside a me. I know I'm queer. I know I never get a major hard on when I'm wit' a girl. I know I'm not too crazy `bout it when they even touch me. And I jus' plain hate it when I gotta kiss `em. It makes me sick!" He takes a few tissues from a box nearby and blows his nose and wipes his face. "And I know I like guys. I love lookin' at `em and being `round `em and havin' `em touch me and all. I like that a lot." "And I know I wanna have lotsa sex...but only wit' ya Val...like we done tonight. When I'm here wit' ya and we're doin' stuff on the computer or sittin' and watchin' TV I get stiffies that I gotta hide so ya don't see `em. And this happens every time I'm wit' ya. And if we touch...shit! I feel like I'm gonna `splode!" I lean over and kiss him. "So why'd ya go out wit' Carole and the others?" He shrugs. "Dunno. Maybe a habit." "Habit? Habit? If ya hate it like ya say ya do, then I can't understand why do ya continue t' do it. Do ya?" He nods his head. "Yeah, I do." Then he's quiet. "So? I'm waitin'." He takes a deep breath and looks right at me. "My family." "Ya family? What's ya family got t' do wit' it?" "Well, my pop and brother always...they always say shitty things `bout gays. They call `em fags and homos. And sometimes I useta go `long wit' `em and make remarks myself and my pop would say that if I ever become a fag he'll kill me. He'll kill me right on the fuckin' spot. So I make fun a gay guys...and also cripple guys...and sometimes black guys...but I don't really mean it. I'm scared a `em and what they'll do t' me." "But ya pop's in jail and ya brother's dead so what ya gotta be `fraid a now?" His face goes blank. Then he smiles. "Nothin', I guess." --------------------------------------- Me and Eddie talk a lot this great first night. We also cuddle a lot and it's so awesome - warm and cozy and gentle and loving. Eddie's holds my arms and he's so great. Every few minutes he kisses the stumpy ends and rubs me wit' his lips and I get this tremendous feelin' rushin' through my bod. The more I talk t' Big Eddie the more I learn tha' the thing worryin' him most (after his man `quipment) is tha' he's gay. T' his way a thinkin' bein' gay is the worst fuckin' thin' tha' can happen t' any guy. I think that's why he takes up wit` that fuckin' chick Carole. I mean she seems t' go for him and she's a girl and he's a guy and so he thinks it jus' goes together and's for the best. Don't it? I'm sure that's wha' he thinks. So they go together and she's a big phony, she dumps him, she hurts him and he comes runnin' t' me and we make love and now Big Eddie knows he's gay and loves a real amp guy and he don't care no more. We hear auntie and uncle come home and we're quiet for a while, jus' holdin' each other and lookin' int' the other's eyes. "Eddie?" "Yeah Val?" "Eddie, since we do sex...ya know, since we have sex wit'...uh ...sex together tonight, I'd really like t' know more `bout ya. I mean we know each other for three years but I know very little `bout ya. So would ya...I mean, can ya tell me somethin' `bout ya life...ya know, `bout when ya was young and not so young and..." "I know what ya mean, Val. Yeah. No problem. Sure. But I can't tell ya everythin' tonight." He laughs. "There's jus' too much and it's too late." But he does tell me things `bout his life...his really horrible life and how his mom and pop and brother beat him and starve him and do all kindsa terrible things t' him like lockin' him up and all and how his sister and granny try t' protect him. He tells me `bout the awful drugs and booze in his house and how he's so `fraid a windin' up a addict hisself. He cries a lot when he's tellin' me all this. I hold him close. I tell him nothin' like that's ever goin' t' happen t' him `gain `cause I'm here now and will be wit' him forever. Then Eddie asks `bout my accident and how I lose my hands. He's very interested. So I tell him `bout bein' in the factory and the splosion and all and he's listenin' very close and asks a lotta questions. "What happens when ya wake up?" I shake my head. "It's like a dream. It don't seem real. Everythin's so fuzzy and unreal. Elise - I mean mom - sits near the door and she stands up and comes over t' give me a kiss. I tell her I gotta lotta pain in my hands and she starts cryin'. I look at my hands. They's all wrapped up in bandages and I lift `em. They don't seem t' be a part a me. I don't understand what happens. Like everythin' goin' on's not real. A nurse comes over and gives me a `jection a some kind and I think I fall asleep. "When I wake up `gain, mom's gone but the bandages are still on my arms. It's not a dream. They feel so heavy I can hardly lift `em. I know that everythin's real. I look `round and see bags hangin' by the bed and plastic lines goin' from the bags int' me. It ain't `til the nex' day that mom and the docs tell me `bout the accident...and how my hands are burned so bad they gotta amputate both a `em - cut `em right off." I start t' blubber and Eddie holds me close and rubs my head. I feel his hard dink pressin' `gainst me. "It's real bad, Eddie. Real hard...everythin's in the fuckin' crapper. I mean how do I live wit'out hands? How'm I gonna do anythin'? And...and...the first time I get t' see `em...the first time the docs take off the bandages...I see the scars and my no hands...jus' these stuh-stumpy end...and they're so puffy and sore ...I jus' close my eyes tight and pray t' Jesus that it ain't real and start t' scream and make all kindsa terrible sounds. "I get t' go home after `bout two weeks in the hospital...and things get worse. I can't go t' the bathroom, eat, turn on the TV...and mom keeps me in the `partment all the time. Then after I heal all up I go t' rehab and get my hooks and that's hard and gets me so tired. And I get t' go back t' school. Mosta the kids're okay and the teachers're great. But the worse...the very worse...is that Elise has real trouble lookin' at me and...and...touchin' me. She won't even hold me...or nothin'. She jus' takes care a me and what I need. And I ain't gotta dad no more...and... things don't get no better `til Zack comes along...'gain." Eddie holds me close and rubs my back and the toppa my arms. It feels so good and soothin' and it's so great havin' him wit' me...and holdin' me...here...now... I move one a my stumps to his hard dick. "A little `cited by my story, ain't ya?" I say, still cryin' a little but also smilin'. He blushes and nods his heard. "Yeah. Sorry, Val. But I told ya I like amp guys a lot and they turn me on somethin' crazy and ya story got me all worked up `gain `cause ya here wit' me in bed and we's together...and...I'm touchin' ya beautiful body...and ya arms...and I love ya...and..." "I love ya too, Eddie...a lot. But it's no problem; it's okay. It's wonderful t' know I can turn ya on so much." He gives me a little peck on my lips and I'm actin' all kinda shy. "Ya wanna do somethin'?" I ask. "Well, lets see. Ya cummed only once tonight. Right? So how's `bout me workin' on ya `gain?" "Yeah," I say, givin' him a big smile and kissin him. "I'd love that!" "Okay. Great! But first I gotta pee. `Kay?" We go int' the bathroom t' pee. When we get there Eddie asks if he can hold my dink while I piss and I answer wit' a big smile. So he holds my dink as I pee and he also holds his own. I put one arm on his shoulder and rub it light. We look at each other and giggle. "I can pee wit' both hands," he says and we both crack up. When we get back t' bed, Eddie tells me t' stretch out. "Okay, now spread ya legs `part and pick up ya knees." "Why?" I ask. "'Cause I wanna get `tween `em." So I do this - what Big Eddie asks - but keep my head up on the pillows so I can see and soon he's playin' wit' almos' every parta a me. He starts by kissin' by face and lips and eyes and ears and tellin' me how beautiful I am. He's workin' his way down my neck and collar bone t' my chest. There he plays so wonderful with my titties and chest muscles, usin' his hands t' rub me hard and his lips t' kiss me and lick me and suck me soft. When he gets down t' playin' wit' my belly button wit' his mouth, he moves his hands over t' my arms and starts squeezin' `em and working his way down t' the stumpy ends. Eddie's moanin' loud and I'm glad he likes what he's doing `cause I love what he's doin'. My dink's as big as I ever seen it and it flops over a little ont' my belly. It's lookin' a little funny but maybe that's `cause it's bigger. Eddie kisses the tip very light; the head's outta the foreskin; he runs his lips down the whole of it `til he comes t' the bottom and then starts on my nuts and nut bag. Here he licks and sucks on my bag, takin' my nuts int' his mouth and playin' `round wit' `em. I got my eyes closed and I'm moanin' a lot. I can feel the vibratins from his mouth on my bag an runnin' through my whole bod. Big Eddie lets my nuts out and I open my eyes t' look at him. He looks back at me and gives me a little smile. Then he lowers his head `gain. Now I feel him takin' my nuts and bag int' his hand and he's pullin' on `em gentle. I spread my legs more so Eddie has more room t' work. Soon I get a feelin' like I never know before. I feel Eddie's tongue lickin' behind my nut sack! I mean he's lickin and then suckin' the skin I got behind my `quipment. I'm havin' trouble thinkin' what he's really doin'...but the feelin's so great...so very, very great...that all's I can think `bout is how I'm not on my bed...in my room...in Santa Barbara, California...but...but on some far, far `way moon...out in space...circlin'... circlin' this big giant red planet...and I seem t' be...be absolutely floatin'...I'm floatin' far, far above everythin'.. "Val," he whisper, "pick ya legs up and brin' `em t' ya chest. And see if ya can hold `em there. Okay?" "Yeah, Eddie," I pant. "I'll try." So I do what Eddie wants and I find I can hold my thighs back wit' my arms bent `round `em. When I bend my legs back, my dink's goes flat on my belly, my nuts're floppin' and my ass's in the air. "Great! This is great!" Eddie whispers. Then he leans forward a little and rubs his lips on my upturned thigh. That incredible feelin' starts returnin' all through my body. He starts lickin' now the places he jus' rubs and sucks on my stumpy arm ends which're near `cause I'm holdin' my legs. This is even better `n the first time tonight wit' Big Eddie. And before I know what's happenin' he starts lickin' down my crack. I mean he's atchally lickin' me wit' his tongue int' my butt crack! His tongue's so slobbery and feels so great. This is so completely awesome I totally don't know what's happenin' t' me. I start shakin' my head and tryin' t' remember t' hold ont' my legs. When Big Eddie's tongue passes over my butt hole I let out a shriek. "God! Ya smell so great, Val! So very, very great! It's the best thin' ever! The best thin' I ever know! Ever!" All's I can do is moan. My brain ain't workin' right. "Ya like this, huh Val?" he asks in a very sexy voice. "Gain, all I do is grunt and moan. I hope he understands that I mean "YES! I love it. I love it a lot. It's incredible!" He does it a few more time - runnin' his tongue all down my crack and every time he goes over my little hole I squeal and shriek. Now Big Eddie starts doin' it faster and faster and I'm getting' so hot and so `cited I can hardly stand it. Suddenly he got my dink in his mouth and's suckin' it real, real hard. I let go a my legs and they flop ont' Big Eddie's shoulders and back. He takes my nuts int' his hand and wit' his mouth suckin' hard and his hand squeezin' light I feel that pain `gain. It's in my dink...and in my nuts...and behind `em...in my body. It grows and grows. I wanna see what he's doin' t' me but I can't open my eyes. It's like they're glued shut tight. But the feelin's growin'...and growin'...and my body's doin' funny things. Big Eddie keeps up what he's doin'. I feel my dink hittin' the back of Big Eddie's mouth and tryin' t' push int' his throat. Then BAM! I feel it! I atchally feel it! BAM! My dink's shootin'...and I can feel it! I can feel the cum rushin' up. BAM! I'm shootin'! I push my crotch up int' Big Eddie's face. I want t' shoot everythin' out! BAM! Big Eddie pushes his face deep int' me and still sucks even harder and I want...I want him t' get...t' get everythin'...everythin'...BAM! I feel myself fallin' int' the mattress `gain. I'm weak...feelin' everythin's been squeezed outta me. Big Eddie got it all...he got it all...he got everythin'...everythin'! He got everythin' I got t' give him. --------------------------------------- I kiss him and move my lips down t' his tits. I suck on `em and nip them real light. "Ya real great t' me, Eddie." He blushes in that cute way a his. His whole bod seems t' blush at the same time. "I love everythin' I do wit' ya, Val. Everythin'!" He kisses the toppa my head. "Ya the best...the very, very best...the best thing t' ever happen t' me. "Would ya like me t' take care a ya `gain?" I ask hopin' that he'll say "Yes" so's we can begin `gain. "Nah. Too late. I'm tired. It's been a awesome night Val - so awesome! It's also been a long one. And so much happens. Besides, my dicky and nuts seen a lotta action tonight - more `n they ever seen before. So let's give `em a rest now...'til tomorrow. Okay?" "Yeah," I say. "Okay. If ya say so Eddie." I'm a little disappointed wit' what he says but...but I can understand. "We'll be sleepin' together and...and...well, who knows what'll happen? Okay? "Yeah," I say. "Who knows." We hold each other gently and the feelins I'm getting' by havin' him right nex' t' me're so strong. "Ya wanna know somethin' Val?" "Yeah. What?" "Tonight...well tonight's the first time...for me...the very first time...I'm ever wit' `nother guy...wit' `nother man...or anybody." "Really? The very first?" "Uh-huh! The first. Ya my first Val. And ya give me ya first cum. It's so friggin' awesome!" "But I ain't a man Eddie. I'm jus' a boy." "Nah! Not true. Ya a real man Val...in my book ya a real man." "Did ya like what we did?" "Like it? Like it? It was the best thin' t' happen t' me in my whole life! In my whole goddamned, fuckin' life!" He rubs one a his hands on my face. "I know...I know for sure...tha' my life'll never be the same `gain...after tonight." I open my arm and Big Eddie slides right int' `em. I wrap `em `round his warm smooth body and hold him tight. He puts his head on my chest and I'm feelin' better `n I ever have before. "Eddie?" "Yeah, Val?" "I gotta question." "Shoot!" We both giggle. "I already done that!" I say and we both break up. "Okay. But if it's ya first time...ya know wit' someone doin' sex stuff...and ya first time wit' a man...or a boy...then how'd ya know how t' do everythin' so...so great?" Eddie laughs loud. "Thanks for sayin' that stuff, Val. Well, let's see. I seen pictures...and read some books...ya know. My brother got a lot. I s'ppose that's how." "Really? But ya say ya brother ain't gay, right?" "Right. All `em books and pictures is `bout men and women together. But...ya know, I figure it can't that much different wit' a man and `nother man. I mean it's gotta be kinda the same. Play wit' the titties....play wit' the bod...kiss...play wit' what's in the crotch...the same. So I do what feels good t' me...and t' ya...my big love." He gives me 'nother kiss. "That's all." "Well, ya do a fantastic job my great Big Eddie. Real great!" We're quiet and jus' holdin' each other and rubbin' a little very light. I love rubbin' him wit' my stumps and Eddie seems t' jus' go crazy when I do. "Eddie?" "Yeah Val?" "Uh...how come ya never wit' nobody ever before?" He shugs. "Dunno." He's quiet and starts strokin' my chest and titties very soft. "I know for a long, long time that I wanna be wit' ya, Val. I know this. I wanna be wit' ya the most. Ya the only one I really wanna make it wit'. Maybe tonight I think it's time...time for us t' be together...for me t' be wit' ya and show ya how I really feel `bout ya." He looks up at me and we kiss real hard. "Maybe it's `cause I was savin' myself for ya. I want t' be wit' ya so bad for so long...three years long. And tonight, when we're together...and alone...and I know it's the right time." "Yeah," I say. "The right time." `Gain we're quiet. "Val?" "Yeah, Eddie." "Uh...ya been...I mean ya been wit' other guys...before. Right?" "Yeah." "Uh...young guys?" "Yeah." "Have ya...like have ya been wit' men too?" "Yeah." "Hey...yeah...that's great." "I know. It was great. But...but the truth is that...that ya the best I'm ever wit', Eddie. Honest!" He scrunches real close and I squeeze him hard. It sounds like he's purrin' `gain. "Mmmmmm," Big Eddie says. "I never think I'm good `nough in my life for this." "What?" "Bein' here wit' ya Val...and also...also bein'...on this...this road t' heaven." --------------------------------------- When I call Gabe I tell him `bout me and Eddie doin' it he's happy for us. Then he tells me that he and Sammy also do it and it's great. He tells me things and I tell him things. We giggle a lot. When I tell him I cummed for the first time he's happy and says he's expectin' it t' happen t' him very soon too. We continue to giggle little two small kids. "Hey did I tell ya that I think Zack has someone too?" "No! Who? Do you know?" "Yeah! I think Zack's havin' sex with Ralph." "Ralph? The cook? Sammy's father? Holy shit!" "Yup! I think the two of `em're carryin' on. I'm sure they're sleepin' together." "Wow! Ralph! Oh, wow! He's handsome." "Yeah, sorta. He's hairy - much too hairy for me - I don't like that kinda man." "Me neither." We giggle some more. "But he cooks special for Zack and they go shoppin' together and do lotsa things like go off on vacations. I think Kitty's very pissed off. Oh! And he ain't Sammy's father." "No?" "No. His father's someone else. Kitty's been married a few times.I think. And from what Sammy says, she sleeps `round a lot - she kinda a slut." "Jesus!" I say with a laugh. "What a crazy house ya got there, Gabe." We both laugh hysterical. ----------------------------------- Jan and Colin're plannin' t' get married and go off t' college in Massachusetts - they call it grad school, I think. They're livin' together in a apartment near the campus. Colin and me don't do much together once Big Eddie comes int' my life. He takes me surfin' sometimes before they go east. Soon we get our own surfboard. Big Eddie certainly finds out he's gay and he understands it and even accepts it and likes it. But the one thing he finds out `bout himself that he don't know before is that he's very smart. I love him even more for this. He does great in school after auntie gets on his case and makes him study hard and she also goes t' the school and fights wit' `em `bout gettin' him in better classes. He does so well. Even though he's three older `n me he's only two grades ahead. That's `cause he screws `round so much when he's not wit' us that he has t' repeat a grade. One day they come and finally hustle Big Eddie's grandma off to the loony bin...sorry, a mental hospital. It happens after there's a fire in their place. They say she's a danger t' herself and Eddie. And the people come and take him `way. They take him t' a shelter. In school the nex' day he's a mess. He cries, don't go t' classes and is so worried he gets sick. I call auntie durin' the day and tell her what happens and she gets permission t' have Eddie stay wit' us `til things get straight. But he's still in real bad shape. He cries a lot `bout bein' put in a foster home `cause he hears terrible things `bout `em. He don't eat - not even auntie's great food. He don't sleep - even wit' us sleepin' in the same bed. And we don't do any sex together. He says he's gonna run `way `cause he's sixteen and he don't need t' be wit' anyone no how. He says he's a "free agent." Everyone here likes Big Eddie and Auntie seems t' know how we feel `bout each other. She goes t' gets my Uncle Harry, who's a lawyer, and they go t' the court and asks `em for him - she want t' be his guardian. Since she's a social worker and knows all `bout this stuff, the judge agrees and allows Big Eddie t' come live wit' us. Everyone's very happy - specially Eddie. There's plenty of space now, what wit' me and Eddie's in Jan's old room and we share everythin'. --------------------------------------- So Eddie and I finally find each other - after three years, we truly find each other. Sometimes, though, I do think back to the time I'm with Zack...or Colin...or Gabe...or even wit' Sammy. I think of Colin's great, muscular bod and huge cock and him cummin' all over me...and everythin' that Zack and I do together and how much he helps bring me out of my shell and how he teaches me about love and caring for others...and our wonderful trip to Seattle. I always think about Zack with great fondness...and love...and sadness. But these are just passing thoughts because I'm with Big Eddie now and I love everything about him. We're just 'bout perfect together. There're two beds in our room but we always sleep in only one. We like it better that way. That's the great thing about being in love - it can be a little crowded or uncomfortable or inconvenient at times, but you wouldn't have it any other way. Right? RIGHT! THE END ======================================== My appreciation to all who took the time to read this story. And my heartfelt thanks to those who have also written in response. I am very grateful for having such dedicated readers. Emails are the only way I can judge the success or failure of a story and what you like and want. Again, my warmest Thanks.