Date: Mon, 30 Oct 2006 16:16:25 -0500 (EST) From: J Subject: In the park that night I keep thinking I should write all this down. But it seems weird, mostly cause I'm sort of ashamed of it, like it's stuff I shouldn't be doing and all. Like when I was just 13, and me and this other dude in my class were fooling around at his house one night when his parents were gone, and it was real hot and all, but he just kept saying, "We shouldn't be doing this, man," and I kept thinking he was right, but it was so hot and we couldn't stop. Now I feel kinda like I've gotten in too deep, like I've messed myself up or something . I mean, I'm only 19, and I just can't quit thinking about guys, and I keep doing stuff, real weird shit sometimes, and the thoughts just get stranger and stranger, real hot, and all, but strange. Like with my bud when I was 13, I fooled around with guys some, but we would just do it a few times, and then it started feeling weird, doing this stuff, and then having to see him the next day in history class or something, so we'd never do too much. But when I was 16, I went to this park here, just to play ball, and then I had to piss, and I went to this restroom. It was in kind of a deserted area, you know what I mean? And I went in, and there was all these guys in there, and at first it felt real strange like, and I pissed, but it wasn't easy, cause there was this big dude at the urinal beside me, and mine kept getting stiff. But I finished and went back out, and finished playing with my friends, but I couldn't quit thinking about those guys in there. That night, I went back. It felt weird, going there during the daytime, but it didn't feel as strange at night. I went in and there's all these guys in there, and it's just weird and all, but very hot, you know what I mean? So there's this guy beside me, and he starts talking, real nice and all, and he's like real slow jerkin his, and I couldn't help looking at it, and I was getting hard and all, and there's all these dudes around, like standing in the back and all, and they are all there, but I'm like not even noticing them. Just him. He's a lot taller than me, heavier and all. And he was hairy. God, I wish I was hairy. I could tell by how hairy his arms were, real dark hair and his skin was kinda dark, like Italian or something. And he real softly says to me, like, You want to go sit in my car?, and I said, Sure, and we did. I had never touched an older dude's cock. He was really older, like 35 or 40, and we sat in the car in the dark there, and I was really scared, but turned on, too. It was just like enough, you could see his cock, and it was beautiful, he took it out and all, and it stood up all big and thick. I just think it's hot touchin it and all, and he told me to do it, and I did. I was leaning over so I could reach it good and it felt so big in my hand. It was so hot. Like I said, he was big and all, and I loved the way he smelled, like a real man. I don't know how to say that. I was just so fuckin turned on by it. And then he tells me I should take mine out, too, so I pulled my shorts down enough that I got it out, and it felt good, but kinda scary, too, but I was completely hard. And he reaches over like, and starts stroking it, and his hand is kinda rough, but it was big, and I couldn't believe how good he did it. And he's talkin about it, and all, sayin how nice it was, and I felt real proud when he said that, like I couldn't believe how a big guy like him would think mine was nice. But he did. He even opened his shirt up, and let me feel his chest, it was real hairy and big. God, I think guys with big chests are hot. I just kept doin what he told me, while he beat mine, real slow and steady like. And he sorta ordered me to beat his, and I just did, and finally his felt like it was getting even thicker, and he squirted out a huge one. And he kept on doing mine, and after about a minute, mine shot, too, all over his hands and all. Some of it even hit my chest. I was so turned on. He had some napkins, like ones from McDonalds, and I cleaned up a little bit, and got out. He told me he hoped he'd see me around. I felt funny, kinda strange, and I went to my car. I was thinking I should stay away, but I already couldn't wait to come back. Comments welcome to: burlguy (at) excite.com