Date: Wed, 13 Nov 2013 21:57:47 -0600 From: Jace Spades Subject: The Boy at the Park 5 If your underage or its illegal for you to read this kind of material where ever you are then please do yourself a favor and turn this off and either wait till your of age or move somewhere where it is legal, don't get in trouble over a story. Thank you I hope y'all will like this one, Enjoy! The Boy at the Park Chapter 5 The next morning I awoke to an empty bed, my first thought was Zack must have gotten up early, and realizing what he had told me the night before got scared and left. I thought this would happen and kicked myself for not waking up before him. I went for my cell phone intending to send Zack a text when I heard snoring, I shuffled over to the other side of the bed to find a passed out Zack on the floor. I got up off the bed, went over to Zack and picked him up as gently as I could and laid him back in bed, pulling the covers over him. "Ok I have to figure out how this is going to play out" I thought to myself. There were a couple of things that could happen, he could wake up and remember what he said, get scared and leave. Or he could have no memory of what he said, which was a possibility since I think I gave him too much to drink last night and I wouldn't like that since I wanted him to know that I knew. And the last possibility I could think of was that he could remember and would be willing to talk about it. Then I could tell him about my being gay as well. So many different conversations ran through my head, in each one I always feared the worst so none of them ended well in my head, I could only hope that everything would work out. I decided to make a big breakfast to try and get my mind off the situation that was about to arise. In the middle of making breakfast I heard the loud thud of feet coming down the hallway, my heart started to accelerate, I heard the bathroom door open and close. Thoughts of different conversations started once again racing through my mind once again. I have never been so nervous in my life, what if he hated being gay, or what if he was just going thru a phase, and what if I told him I was gay and he thought I was a creep and left. That last thought it what scared me the most, what if he left and never came back, I've dealt with depression before but I think that this would do me in. I went back to making breakfast, trying to save what was starting to burn, trying to calm myself to the best of my ability, but it was hard. I heard the toilet flush and the door open, Zack came staggering in looking like he had been awake for the past 5 days and needed sleep. "My head hurts" Zack announced. Now I was sure I had given him too much to drink. I went to the bathroom, got the aspirin and brought it back for Zack. "Here take this, it will help, not right away but in about 30 minutes you should start to feel better" I said and handed him 3 200mg pills of aspirin, and a glass of milk to down them with. I finished making breakfast, neither of us saying anything the entire time, Zack was still hurting so I figured he didn't want to talk as it might make it worse, so I stayed quiet as well. After eating, Zack started to feel a little better but still pretty bad so I gave him an icepack to put on his head and sent him back to bed. I went to the living room, put the volume extremely low, to where even I could barely hear it, and turned on my Xbox. I was playing one of my games I had recently gotten, a Naruto fighting game which was pretty fun, I watched the show for a while but hadn't seen it in a long time but that didn't stop me from playing the game. After about 2 hours of playing I heard the bedroom door open and saw Zack come walking out, he came over and sat down on the couch next to me and just watched me play for a few minutes till I finally spoke up. "How ya feeling bud". "A lot better thank you, so was that a hangover" Zack asked. "Ya it was man, how does it feel" I asked. "It sucks" Zack replied smiling slightly. "Defiantly does, I have to ask though, do you remember what happened last night". Zack looked down and I could tell that he did remember, he seemed to not want to say anything so I said "well Zack, if you ever want to talk about it I'm right here, I don't think any different of you, and one last thing, I am as well" I said while keeping my eyes on the fight I was engaged in, hoping that if I didn't look I wouldn't see the look of disgust on his face. Zack wasn't saying anything which was kind of freaking me out so I looked at him, he was just sitting there staring at me with his mouth half open, once again my heart was racing, what was he going to do, what was he going to say, these few seconds seemed more like a few years. "Y...y...you are?" Zack asked seemingly holding his breath. "Ya, I am, I hope you don't think I'm some kind of creep now" I said trying to still my voice from the nervous shaking I was feeling. "What?! No I don't, I still love you Ben." Zack replied quickly. Zack then looked down at the floor and said "I was so scared when I woke up this morning, I knew I had told you last night but I don't know why I did. When you saw me come in when you were making breakfast I thought you were going to yell at me and call me a freak and tell me to leave and never come back. But then we ate breakfast and you sent me back to bed and I knew you still liked me at least. I actually woke up an hour ago and was going to come out then, but I still thought you might throw me out, so I waited" "so why did you finally come out" I asked, "I knew I couldn't stay in their forever" Zack said still looking at the floor looking upset, unsure of what was going to happen next. "Zack, I still love you, I always will", Zack dove in for a hug, I could feel my shirt getting wet from his tears and I couldn't help but shed a few myself. After about a minute Zack looked up at me, I put hand on his cheek and wiped away the tear that was falling off with my thumb, he smiled slightly and closed his eyes and feel asleep again. I had been watching TV for only about 40 minutes When Zack woke up again, I had laid him down on the couch and put his head on my lap with a throw pillow in between. "Hi Ben", "Hey Zack, how ya feeling", "a lot better" Zack replied as he sat up and looked at me. "Hey Ben, are you really gay, or were you just trying to make me feel better" Zack asked suddenly. "Yes Zack, I am gay" I said, shocked that I was able to say it so openly now. "Have you ever had a boyfriend Ben?" I hadn't been prepared for that, I started wondering what else he was going to ask... "Um, yes I have, but only one, back in High school, my friend had come out to me and in turn I came out to him as well, we only dated for about a month though, we only went out with each other because we were the only people who knew about each other. We weren't really attracted to each other, it just seemed like the right thing to do at the time" "oh, can I ask you a personal question, you don't have to answer it if you don't want." Zack said. "Ugh sure I guess", I was hoping it wasn't the question I thought it was. "So, ugh... have you ever...you know...did it...with another guy". There it was the question I had hoped to avoid. "Yes, I have" I replied with embarrassment. "Have you" I asked. "Have I what" Zack asked back. "The same two questions you just asked me" I said, not want to say the words. Zack looked away. "No" Zack said sadly. "I'm sorry man, I didn't mean to..." "It's ok, hopefully someday I will, but probably not for a long time since the only person who knows is you and I probably won't tell anyone else till I'm way older" Zack said. "I know how ya feel, I've been in the closet since I was about your age. My mom found out and now all we do is fight, I'm pretty sure she hates me, and I'm sorry this probably isn't helping at all, I'll just shut up now" I said, regretting everything I just said. I pretty much just told Zack that if he comes out people won't accept him, I'm a horrible friend. "No I understand, I know what will happen if I do tell my family, my dad's extremely homophobic and my older brother is as well, I'm just really happy that you know and don't hate me, I can't tell you how much better I feel. I really do love you Ben" Zack said looking straight into my eyes as he said the last part. "I really do love you as well Zack". We sat there for a while after that alternating from look into each other eyes to looking away, occasionally I would stroke his hair and he would let me. it felt like something was trying to happen, I knew what It was but reminded myself that even though he is gay, he is still way underage , and no matter how much I love him and want to, I know I can't since it might not only ruin our relationship but I also might go to jail, but the one I was most concerned about is that I might hurt him somehow. I finally broke the intense silence, "I'm sorry to have to ask this, but how sure are you of being gay and how long have you known" instantly regretting asking such a dumb question. "It's ok, I've known for a while now and ya I'm sure I'm gay, I watch a lot of gay porn on the internet, and the girls gross me out." Zack said matter of fact. Wow, not only did he know for a while but apparently he has been watching porn which meant he was slapping he monkey around to, and then the image of Zack pounding away at the computer to gay porn popped into my head. I was glad the pillow was still on my lap as it was hiding my erection. I couldn't let know Zack that he just turned me on, who knows how he would react, so I quickly changed the subject. "Hey so how bout we go rent some movies and we can stay inside, wrap up in a nice big blanket and just watch movies all day" I said figuring that would be a good idea since the forecast for today called for thunderstorms all day, which was weird since a thunderstorm here usually only lasts all of 5 minutes. "Ok, can we get some junk food as well" Zack asked. "of course we can, wouldn't be a movie date...I mean day without the junk food" I had accidently called it a date, Zack just looked at me a giggled, got up and went to get dressed. While we were in the grocery store it had started to down pour, and was letting up for a second. We ran to the car and loaded the groceries in as fast as we could but by the time we got in the car seats we were soaked. We drove off to the movie store and rented a few movies, People Like Us, The Conjuring, Grown Ups 2, and after constant begging from Zack we got the movie, Movie 43 along with Jackass 2.5. As we checked out the movies the cashier looked at me when she rung up the 2 movies Jackass and movie 43, "just so you know these movies might not be appropriate for your little brother" the lady said. "Oh don't worry, he's very grown up, he can handle them just fine" I said smugly at the lady who just sighed and rang up our rentals. We left and Zack was smiling from ear to ear, "you called me a grown up", "I said you were grown up, and it's true, you're very mature for your age" I said, Zack just continued to smile. We got back to my place and in the process of making two trips for groceries we were soaking wet from head to toe. "Well, crap. I guess we need a dry pair of clothes now, and I don't suppose you brought a whole other with you did you" I asked, Zack just looked at me and shook his head nope. "ok well I guess you can wear some of my clothes, I hope they fit" I said and went back to my room to find new clothes as I stripped mine, I found 2 clean shirts a clean pair of shorts and underwear and that's it, everything else was dirty or in the washer, crap. "Ok, well good news and bad news, good news is we can get your clothes dry after I put them in the dryer, bad news is, I only have a shirt for you, and nothing else". "That's fine" Zack said and proceeded to head to the bathroom to change. Two minutes later Zack walked out in nothing but my t-shirt that was oversized on him, I once again was starting to get turned on by Zack, he just looked so cute in just my shirt, and knowing there was nothing underneath that shirt, nothing at all except for him, it was almost too much for me to handle. "Ok well let me get your wet clothes and I will throw them in the dryer" I said, "no rush, I like being in just your shirt, it's really comfortable" Zack said. I still had to dry his clothes even though now I didn't want to, so I threw them in the dryer and turned it on low heat so as not to ruin his clothes. I got back to the living room and couldn't find Zack, "where ya at Zack" I asked. "In here" Zack replied from my room. I went into my room and found Zack lying on his stomach on my bed, the shirt riding pretty high, I was able to see a lot of his thighs but nothing else, with the movie Grown Ups 2 displayed on the Wall mounted TV. "Looks like you've made yourself right at home mind if I join ya" I asked. "Of course Zack said excitedly and patted the spot next to him. Zack hit play and the movie began. After about 10 minutes of lying down on my stomach I couldn't take it any longer and had to sit up, my chest was starting to hurt. Zack saw me sit up and joined me, I propped myself up on a mountain of pillows with Zack right next to me and my arm draped over him. My hand landed on his stomach and I started rubbing it. After a minute I stopped rubbing his stomach "hey, don't stop I liked that" Zack said. Not thinking a whole lot of it I started up again, every now and then I would circle his belly with just my fingertips touching lightly against him. A couple minutes I started to hear Zack's breathing getting louder, I turned and saw Zack had his eyes clothes with his mouth slightly open. I kept at it but stayed where I was on his belly, and even though there was a blanket bunched up on both our laps I was pretty sure he had stiffy, and after seeing this, I know I had one as well. I decided to stop before this got out of hand, and put my hand on his head and started petting his hair and running my fingers through the softness of it all. I could tell he was a little sad I stopped rubbing his belly, but he was fine with me petting his head. I had to control myself better, each time something starts to happen I get closer and closer to doing something, why wasn't Zack stopping me? Did he want me to? It sure seemed that way, but I couldn't, I couldn't jeopardize our friendship. But if he wanted to then wouldn't that better our friendship, possibly become something more? I wasn't thinking clearly, my other head was starting to throw thoughts at me, so I focused on the movie. We got thru the movie Grown Ups 2 and put the movie People Like Us in. " now a little warning about this movie, it's a drama, and it's made me cry before" I said. "You've seen it already?" Zack asked "ya, but it's one of my favorites, so just be prepared ha-ha" "ok, hey can I sit on your lap" Zack asked "umm I dunno" I said, "Pleeeeeeease" Zack said again, doing his puppy eyes on me once again, knowing I can't resist it. "Ugh ya, fine hop on" I said "yay" Zack said as he maneuvered his way onto my lap. I knew I would regret it when I said ya, and sure enough I felt the familiar feeling. Crap, I thought to myself, I need to try and get it to go down. But it wasn't helping that Zack was still trying to get comfortable and wiggling around on top of me, so I wrapped my arms around him and help him still. Zack put his hands on top of mine and leaned back, he moved his head a little to the right since he was tall enough to block my vision somewhat, and I put my head on his on the left side of his shoulder and we pressed our cheeks together. From here I could smell him, and his scent got to me. I had never smelled anything like this before, it was intoxicating, I felt myself losing control again. Zack kept rubbing my fingers with his fingertips like I had done with his belly earlier, except he was going side to side instead of in circles. This went on for about 20-30 minutes, then the scene where the main character talks to his nephew in the music store came up and that's when I remembered a certain line at this part in the movie. We watch the scene unfold and then the boy says to the man who's his uncle but doesn't know it yet "don't even think about touching my balls". Zack burst out laughing, and after he stopped laughing he whispered "you can touch mine if you want Ben", I'm not sure if he had intended to me to hear that or not so I said "what" like I hadn't heard what he said. "Nothing" Zack said quickly. I could feel his heart beat increase after having said that and knew he was either embarrassed or afraid or both or something else for that matter for having said that. Zack continued to rub my fingers with his as we sat there, him on my lap, and me trying my hardest not for him to feel my erection I had going, which was becoming painful. The movie ended and Zack jumped off my lap, which hurt a lot, and went to go change the movie. "Hold on Zack, before you put on another movie can I talk to you" I said. "Ya sure, what's up". "I know what you said earlier, and I just want to let you know something, I love you very much and I don't want to ruin what we have right now, that's why I need to know. Are you wanting to be more than just my friend" I asked. I could tell Zack was deep in thought looking for the right words. "I love you Ben, and yes I guess I do want to be more than friends, I'm sorry, I can't control myself, and I just really like you. A lot" Zack replied, "I really do like you to Zack, and I'm having trouble controlling these urges as well. This is why I'm going to propose this, if you wanted, and it would have to be your choice not mine, but if you wanted, we could be more than friends" I said "do you want to be" Zack asked. "Even though I have been trying to convince myself that I shouldn't and that I can't, yes Zack I, really do." I said. And with that Zack crawled across the bed, sat down on his knees right next to me as close as he could, leaned in, and gave me a soft kiss on the lips. End of Chapter 5.