Date: Mon, 22 Feb 2010 22:15:45 +0800
From: Johnny Kape <johnny.kape@gmail.com>
Subject: The Voice That Can't Be Heard, Chapter 5

Before this chapter:

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Every word of this story is fiction.  Just like my other story, "The
Captive Boy", this story is also a work of my early imaginations.  The main
character and the background of this story were formed in my early teens,
maybe 12 or 13 years old.  They had been in my mind for more than 20 years.
Not long ago, I had a dream, which made me start to form the whole story.
Hope you enjoy it.

All my stories committed into Nifty are listed in the prolific author list,
under the name "Pedrick Oman / Johnny Kape".  If you like this story,
please also have a look at them.

Special thanks to my editor, Matthew Templar, who helped me a lot in many
aspects besides my English.  His stories are listed in the prolific author
list, too.  I recommended everyone to read his stories, especially "One
Gift To Give", which I enjoyed very much.

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-- Johnny Kape <johnny.kape@gmail.com>


The Voice That Can't Be Heard -- Chapter 5


Ben seldom cried.  Since he grew up, finished his training and started to
execute all kinds of missions, he almost didn't cry at all.  Even at the
time he was caught and beaten up, he didn't cry either.  However, after
hearing Ray's words and understanding that Bob deceived him all his life,
Ben couldn't control his tears.  He didn't know why.

Ben held his own knees.  His body was shaking.  Ray sat beside Ben and
caressed Ben's back gently.

"Are you okay?" asked Ray softly.

The concern in Ray's voice almost made Ben break down.  His tears kept
running down his face.  He felt that the whole world was crashing down.  In
his life, there were only Bob, Ali, Bob's boss, and all kinds of missions.
At that moment, he knew that Bob, who was the most important person in his
life, deceived and used him all the time.  He couldn't accept that.  He
didn't know how to face that fact.

Ray kept caressing Ben's back.  Feeling Ray's fingers touch his back, Ben
felt a bit better.  He thought of Ray and his daddy.  Though he had never
met Ray and his daddy before, they still did their best to help him and
take care of him.  He raised his head and watched Ray tearfully.

Ray smiled at Ben.  He took the towel to wipe Ben's face.  Then he lifted
Ben's chin with his hand.  All of a sudden, Ray started to kiss Ben's lips.

Ben was startled.  He watched Ray's face without knowing what to do.  He
just let Ray kiss him deeply.  He felt Ray's tongue touch his own.  He felt
that Ray was sucking in his mouth.  After a while, Ray released Ben.

"Do you feel better now?" asked Ray with a smile.

Ben felt that his face was hot.  He couldn't describe how he felt.  But
yes, he seemed to feel better.

"When I was unhappy, uncomfortable, or crying, Daddy would kiss me like
that.  Then I would feel a lot better," said Ray, still with a warm smile.

Ben looked at Ray's smile.  There was a wonderful strength in it.  Ben just
found that his life was a big lie.  However, at that moment, Ray's smile
made Ben feel that it was not a big deal to live in a big lie.  The most
important thing was that, Ben felt that he liked this boy in front of him
so much, much more than Ali and Bob.

Ben wiped his own tears and held Ray's hand again.

'I felt a lot better.  Why do you and your daddy treat me so nice?'

"Why?  No reason."

'Nobody treated me so nice like you.'

"Really?  How about Bob?  Is he your daddy?"

'No.  Bob said that my parents were killed when I was very young.  I was
already living with Bob when I had my youngest memory.'

However, about his parents, did Bob lie to him again?  Ben couldn't tell.
How many things in his life were true and how many were false?

"Oh, just like I live with my daddy?  Didn't Bob treat you nice?"

Ben didn't want to talk about Bob anymore.  He changed the topic.

'Your daddy... is he your real father?'

"No.  My father would beat my mother and me when he was drunk.  My mother
couldn't bear him and left us, then I was beaten up even more.  Finally I
ran away from him too."

'Then?'

"Then I had wandered everywhere for a long time.  One day I went to this
building, just like you.  I fell asleep downstairs, and Daddy saw me.  He
woke me up and brought me here.  Since then we live together."

'Does your daddy treat you nice?'

"Yes, very nice.  We are poor, and we frequently lack enough food.
However, I'm so happy living with Daddy."

Speaking of life, Ben thought about his own life again.  This room was old
and shabby; not as big and luxury as Bob's house.  Even Ben's own small
room was a lot better than here.  However, Ray seemed to be very happy
living here with his daddy.  Ben thought about himself.  He didn't know if
he had ever been happy or not.

'So... your reward... no, you made love not because your daddy wanted to
give you a reward?'

Ray shook his head.  "No.  It is because I like Daddy.  I love Daddy.
Daddy loves me too.  That's why it is called 'make love'."

'I like you so much too.  Does it mean that I can... make love with you?'

Ray laughed.  "Sure, do you want to?"

Ben nodded.

Ray helped Ben lay down and lay beside him.  He hugged Ben and kissed Ben's
mouth again.

Again, Ben felt Ray's tongue moving in his mouth.  He felt Ray sucking too.
Ben watched Ray.  Ray's eyes were closed.  Ray's body touched Ben's.  His
hands caressed Ben's back softly.  Ray's body gave Ben a very different
feeling; very different from Bob's hairy body.

Ben closed his eyes and hugged Ray too.  He enjoyed Ray's caresses.  He
enjoyed Ray's warm tongue.  At that moment, he even enjoyed the pain when
Ray touched his wounds.  He caressed Ray's back too.  Ray was so thin; he
almost just wore his skin on his bones.  However, his skin was still very
smooth.

Ray released Ben's mouth.  Ben opened his eyes and saw that Ray was smiling
at him.  Ray kissed Ben's cheek, his ears and his neck.  Soon, Ray started
to kiss Ben's nipple.  Ben felt a bit itchy.  Ben was quite familiar with
this feeling, because Bob also liked to kiss Ben's nipples and play with
them with his hands.  However, Ben also felt that he had never had such a
wonderful feeling.

"You are really so strong; as strong as Daddy," said Ray in envy.

Ben watched Ray's action.  Ray kept kissing Ben's strong chest.  Ray's
hands moved to Ben's ass.  He massaged Ben's mounds with his hands
slightly, and moved his head to Ben's bellybutton and groin.

Ray made Ben's thighs open and knelt between them.  He started to kiss and
lick Ben's sac.  Ben closed his eyes again to concentrate on the wonderful
feeling Ray's tongue brought to him.  Then Ray gently pushed Ben's foreskin
with his fingers, until Ben's little head revealed totally.

The feeling of a sting made Ben frown.  Ray grinned at him and started to
lick Ben's little penis head.

Almost immediately, a strong exciting feeling hit Ben.  Ben's body became
tense and it made Ben's wounds hurt him violently.  Ray kept on licking,
kissing, and sucking Ben's penis head.  He also rubbed Ben's small, hard
pillar.  Ben's body trembled violently.  He couldn't moan or shout, but the
exciting feeling overwhelmed his whole body; almost until he was out of
breath.

Finally, Ben sighed deeply and his body relaxed.  Ray released Ben's penis.
However, once Ben relaxed, the pain from his wounds replaced the exciting
feeling immediately.  Ben gasped and bit his own lips to endure the pain.

Ray smiled at Ben.  "Did you feel good?"

Though the painful feeling replaced the excitement, Ben still felt
fulfilled.  Bob used to give him similar feelings, but not as strong as
this time; so strong that it almost made Ben out of breath.  He gasped for
a while and then held Ray's hands.

'Yeah, it's so wonderful.  But now I feel all my wounds hurt.  And I'm so
hungry.'

"Me too.  Daddy left some pieces of bread for us.  I'll go get them."

Ray was going to jump off the bed, but Ben pulled Ray's hand.  Ray watched
Ben in question.

Ben pulled Ray to lie beside him.  He hugged Ray and started to kiss Ray's
mouth.

It was the first time Ben kissed somebody actively.  Before that, Ali
sometimes would kiss Ben's cheeks.  When Ben... hmm... got his reward from
Bob, Bob had never had such intimate actions with Ben.  Though Ben would
ask Bob for his reward actively, he always passively let Bob do everything
to him.  Making love with Ray gave Ben a really intimate feeling.  Ray and
his daddy made Ben feel that they were really concerned about him; more
concerned than Bob.  Ben felt that Ray was so... attractive to him; so
attractive that he wanted to do something to Ray actively.

It was a deep kiss.  Ray enjoyed Ben's kiss very much.  He embraced Ben and
licked Ben's warm mouth.  After a long time, Ben released Ray and held his
hand again.

'I like you so much.'

"Me too," said Ray with smile.

Watching Ray's smile, Ben smiled too.

'I don't remember when the last time was that I smiled or laughed.  Is it
happiness?  I seem to have never been happy before.  When I was with Ali
and Bob, I didn't have the same feelings as I do being with you; a feeling
of happy and relax.'

"Really?  Who is Ali?"

'Ali is Bob's servant.  Actually, he treated me nice, but not as nice as
you and your daddy.'

"Let's eat our bread and drink some water first.  Daddy said that you need
to drink more water.  Then tell me more of your story, okay?"

* * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * *

Ben had never talked to anybody.  Of course it was because he lost his
voice.  However, Ray could hear his voice that others couldn't hear.  It
was not only an all new experience, but also a liberation for Ben.  He
could "talk" with Ray without needing to use his body language.

Ben spent almost the whole day telling Ray his own story.  He told Ray
about his youngest memory, about Bob and Ali.  He told Ray about how he got
all kinds of training.  He talked about his missions; from stealing all
kinds of things to killing somebody.  He described how Bob gave him
rewards.  He told Ray the story Bob told him, about how his parents were
killed and how he lost his voice.  He told Ray about the time he got caught
and beaten up and how he escaped the room which imprisoned him.  Finally,
he told Ray about his last mission in the Embassy of Feroga; how he was
attracted to the small baby; how this small baby destroyed his mission; and
how he escaped from the Embassy and ran here.

Ray was very interested in Ben's story.  He also asked some questions.
When Ben finished his story, he felt that he didn't care about Bob
deceiving him all the time anymore; only that, he didn't want to go back to
Bob anymore.

"So, you don't wanna go back anymore?"

Ben shook his head.

'Will your daddy agree to let me stay here with you?'

"Sure," Ray replied almost immediately.  "Daddy is the best person in the
world."

However, speaking of Ray's daddy, the sky was getting dark but Ray's daddy
hadn't come home yet.  They started to worry about him.  Ray lit a candle.

'Does your daddy always come home so late?'

Ray shook his head.  "If he needed to come home so late, he would bring me
with him.  We have no electricity here and we can't see anything at night.
Daddy doesn't want to leave me here alone in the dark."

Ray and Ben watched the fire dancing on the candle.  Their worries
increased.  After a long time, Ben heard something like footsteps.  He
pushed Ray.

Ray nodded.  He heard it too.  It must be Daddy.

"Daddy, is that you?" Ray shouted.

"Yeah, I'm home," said Ray's daddy from downstairs.

The two boys sighed with relief.  Ray jumped off the bed and ran to the
door.  When Ray's daddy appeared from the stairs, Ray embraced his daddy
tightly.

"Why so late?  I'm worried about you so much."

"I'm sorry.  I had two more jobs today."  Ray's daddy hugged Ray and kissed
him.  "See what I brought back for you."

There was a bag in the hand of Ray's daddy.  Ray walked into the room with
his daddy.  His daddy took a ham out.

"Wow, a ham!  It's been a long time since I've eaten ham!" exclaimed Ray.
"Did you work so late to earn more money to buy this food?"

"Yeah, I bought more food for you."

Ray's daddy took a knife out from the drawer of the desk.  He started to
cut the ham into pieces.  Then he took some pieces of bread out.

"You must be hungry.  Come and eat it.  Do you still have a fever, Ben?"

Ben shook his head.  Ray's daddy gave Ben a piece of ham and bread, then he
sat beside Ben.  He touched Ben's forehead and saw his wounds.

"Good, no more fever.  However your wounds bled again.  How did you break
your scars?"

Ben thought that it must be because he made love with Ray that day.  He
blushed.  Fortunately Ray's daddy didn't see it under the faint light of
the candle.

"Ben told me a lot of stories today," said Ray while he wolfed down the
bread and ham.

"Oh, really?" asked Ray's daddy.  He took a piece of bread and ham too.

Ray started to tell his daddy about Ben's story excitedly.  To Ray's
surprise, his daddy wasn't as excited as he was.  He just listened to Ray
silently and looked at Ben.  When Ray finished the story of Ben's last
mission, he saw that his daddy looked at Ben with a serious face.  Ray's
daddy caressed Ben's hair and face.

"I know that.  There is a big disturbance outside.  The wiretaps you
installed were found, but nobody knew who intruded into the Embassy.  They
only knew that it was a small boy.  Nobody admitted to instigating it.  The
government was under a great deal of pressure and the police searched for
any clues.  In fact, when I heard the news, I wondered if the intruder was
you or not."

Ben looked at Ray's daddy.  The mission failed through and through, Ben
thought.

"Fortunately you weren't injured badly enough to need a hospital.  You may
need to hide here to stay away from the trouble outside.  What do you
think?" asked Ray's daddy.

"Ben said that he wants to live with us," said Ray.

"Sure, no problem.  However, what worries me is not the police, but your
holder, Bob, right?  I'm afraid that he may want to shut you up."

"Shut Ben up?  What do you mean?" asked Ray.

Ben didn't understand either.  He couldn't speak anyway, could he?  Why
would Bob still need to "shut him up"?  He watched Ray's daddy in question.

Ray's daddy sighed, and finally said after a while, "It means Bob may want
to kill Ben."

Both boys were startled by this answer.  The atmosphere seemed to be
frigid.

"It can't be," said Ray after a long silence.

"It can," said Ray's daddy firmly.  "The stories Ben told you proved my
guess.  He is really a secret agent trained by our government.  Nobody
would expect that the government would train such a small boy to be a
secret agent and execute so many secret missions including killing people;
let alone now it becomes an international problem.  Shutting Ben up is the
simplest way to cover all these things up."

Ben lowered his head.  He had never thought about that.  He knew that he
would definitely fall into hell if he was caught; Bob and his boss would
never come to rescue him.  However, he had never thought that, if he failed
but wasn't caught, it might be even more tough for Bob.

Ray's daddy patted Ben's shoulder.

"Don't think about that now.  Finish your bread and ham, and I'll have to
change your bandages later.  Just stay here to recuperate.  I'll try my
best to protect you and find more food for you.  However, you can't go out.
It isn't a good thing for you to reveal yourself outside now.  Okay?"

Ray's daddy hugged Ben and kissed his cheek.

Ben bit into the bread and ham.  He got a very complicated feeling.  He
felt grateful to Ray and his daddy.  However, he also felt uneasy that he
might be "shut up".  He didn't fear Bob.  However, if Bob really wanted to
kill him...


-- To be continued.