Date: Sat, 10 May 2003 18:42:52 -0700
From: Ross Baker <wonderboy85@msn.com>
Subject: triple l (long lost love) part 2

The next morning when we awoke it was like 20 mins. Before Stevie had to go
to school.  So I told him that we had to take a shower together so we both
headed for the shower and we both got in.  We didn't have much time for
anything but I got down on to my knees and blew him caress his balls after
about five minutes he blew his load and I swallowed all of it.  We got out
of the shower he had about five mins to get to school so I drive him down
there and I tell him bye and he gave me a kiss and got out I drive back to
my house still thinking of him.

I go inside my apt. And lay on my bed wondering if I should tell him my
most deepest things the ones I didn't tell him the previous day.  But I
didn't know if it was going to be good or bad cause he could be happy or he
could be sad and I didn't want that.  So I recollected the shit that
happened to me within that first year after I loss him.  And I think about
4 different people my fiance, mybest friend her little brother, my other
best friend, and a bf that I had.

First I wondered if I should tell him that my fiance cheated on me twice
once before i did which i dont think it was cheating cause it was the same
sex.  The once after breaking it off for a bloody freaking retard physco.
Then my best friend her little brother and how he hates me now.  But then
again I guess he had some reasons to one night he stood up when he was
sleeping and he laid down on my hand then I woke up and I just played with
it.  Which I know was wrong and I total regret it but he forgave me.  Then
a second night.

I kissed him, played with him, and sucked him but he only knew I did the
first two.  Then he was infuriated with me but I guess anyone would. Then
he said he would never hate me but he did about two months afterwards and
noone knows if it is that or not.  Then my other best friend I went with
him to Mexico and a jacked him off and he did me and I sucked him.

Then my bf, I kissed him behind a church and asked him out.  I played with
him for the longest time when we were just chillin with homies and I
finally got to blow him.  He was laying oh his friends bed pants and boxers
down his preteen kid boner and I blow him for ten minutes ad he moans and
grabs the blankets.  Then we heard sounds so we stopped.  Then a day later
he broke up with me cause he didn't want to be gay anymore, which is a
total lie, but oh well.

As I lay back and wonder about all these things and I think about
everything me and Stevie did when he was 9 y.o.'s.  I remember 5 days that
I was thinking about at the time.  The first one is the first day I met saw
him we made a deal is I jacked off while walking down the street he would
have to show me his package.  So I did and when he was up to it but he
pulled his underwear down and up so fast you couldn't see anything.  So I
sit on him and pulled his underwear up from the bottom and look at it and
say see that wasn't so bad.

Then that night he asked if I wanted to play with him while he slept so I
said yes and he laid down and was "asleep" in like 5 sec.  But I had fun.
Then the first day he blew me we where underneath a house where a bum lived
you could see the blankets and I was sucking him to do me for a little
while not wanting to swallow my cum but he learned shortly after I like it.

Then the day we had the craziest sex ever.  We started out wrestling naked
and he was on top of me rubbing his dick on my dick and stroking my so hard
and so fast and when I blew him he mouth fucked me like crazy.  And the
kisses were wild and there was licking all over and alot of bouncing that's
the night he fucked me with his little, which was about 4 inches.  I
fingered him and he moaned like crazy.

While I sucked him and licked his little package all over and he rubbed my
hair and his stomach and chest and my back.  Then the fourth day we were on
his mom's bed and I was chasing him naked around the house for a while.
Then I was blowing him and he was running his hands threw my hair and I
shot my load right when I felt it I jumped up and got only on my shirt and
not their bed.  But his bro had one of my shirts so I put that one on and
skated to my house to drop off the one with the cum on it.

I came back and Stevie told me to get his shorts outa the dryer so while I
was he pissed on my back and I ran into his room sat on him and jacked off
til I cummed and cummed all over his cock and balls then he wiped some off
and put it in my mouth then I did the same to him.  The worst day ever
worse then with my best friend and this was before that and I totally
totally regret and I know it was wrong and I hope you don't see me in a
different way.

We were laying naked in my spare room and I was rubbing him rubbing my dick
in between his asscrack and I wanted to suck him but he was playing a game.
But...... I turned him over anyways and sucked him and held his arms down
since he was trying to get me off and he started crying so I stopped
realizing what I did and I walked away and back and back and forth for a
while then he said "you said I was in control".

And I said you are I'm so so so so so so sorry and he forgave me.  After
all that we started dating dec. 28, 2001 and we started all that sometime
in June before we started dating.  Then Jan 7th I lost him cause of his
stupid grandmother saying I was to old to hang out with him.  I didn't know
how long I was laying there but the phone rang and Stevie says to come to
his house cause he is out of school.  So I said "ok" I'll be right over.

I hang up and get in my car and think about what his parents are going to
say if they are around.  I remember everything they said to me the first
day I met then when his mother said "school" I said "west high" she said
"smoke" I said "never cigarettes but I did after I lost him and once I
smoke weed as a freshman and I told her I didn't like the way I had no
control".  I was a sophomore then.  The she said "girls" I said "I'm not
seeing one but yes I like them".

She said "why my boys" and I told her "that they r cool, same kinda music
likes, and skateboarding".  And his dad asked if is stole and I said "no"
yeah but that's a lie.  That was to day me and Stevie laid on the couch
together him in my arms while we both laid on our sides and my hand was in
his pants.  I pull up next to the curb in front of Stevie's new house and
light a cigarette roll down my window and smoke still thinking of what I'm
gonna say.

If they are going to let me hang out with Stevie or will I lose him again.
If they will still like me.  So many thoughts running threw my head hoping
for the best probably gonna get the worst.

End of part 2