Date: Sun, 26 Nov 2006 21:48:39 -0800 (PST)
From: Chris
Subject: I Was Twelve, He Was Nineteen, pt 3

All the previous disclaimers apply. I assume if u have read this far and
are on my third installment that you trully wanted to be here. So no
bitching about your corrupted morals, ok. You're getting off on this and
why don't you just be honest about it like the rest of us!  Enjoy!


This dedicated to all those boys out there who feel all alone. I have a
heart for you. (Many of us know how you feel) My prayer is you will not
give up! And also that the one you find will love you!


		    I Was Twelve, He Was Nineteen, pt 3
                                       
				   Chris


Before I continue with the skinny dipping and the rest that happened to me
in 1968 at the age of twelve, I think it might be helpful to tell you a
little bit about my best friend Nathan and his brother Mark.

Later this same year, after i got to know Nathan a little better, he
confided in me that he had been sexually active with his brother since he
was about eight. He actually said, 'We been fuckin around since I was
eight'. His older brother was about twelve then. At first, he said they
just played around and felt each other up, but that soon went to
jerking. They often would sleep in the same bed and first one would do the
other and then visa versa.  One night, while Nathan was jerking off his
older brother, Nathan's face was really close to Mark's cock and Mark asked
him if he wanted to suck it. He said, 'it looks like you want too!' and
laughed.  Without saying anything more Mark laid his head back down and
waited for Nathan to continue. Then he felt a warm sensation on his cock,
like he never had had before.He looked up and Nathan had put his brother's
cock in his mouth.

Nathan told me that he had thought about it, but hadn't done anything. But
when he did, he absolutely loved it and from then he had sucked his brother
many nights. His brother, in turn was very loving and warm and would jerk
Nathan. But he never would suck him. Since they were the only two children,
they became very close through the years, but this only deepened their
bond.

Then when he was about twelve, and Mark was sixteen, his brother came home
from a game one night and was crying. He was visibly shaken. Nathan asked
him what was wrong, and he told him that his best friend had just died in
an auto accident. Nathan told me Mark layed down on his bed and pulled the
blankets over his head and cried until he fell asleep, never even removing
his clothes.

 Nathan also knew his brother's friend well, and he was speechless, and
just didn't know what to do.  After he stripped to his underwear which he
usually slept in, he went to Mark's bed layed down beside his brother, who
was still in his clothes and wrapped his arms around his brother, cuddling
him until he too, fell asleep.

In the night, he awoke to a very strange feeling.  He all of a sudden
realized that his brother was sucking on his cock!  For the first time!  He
couldn't believe the feeling and what was happening. Soon he cum and his
brother watched as he shot his cum all over the both of them, 'because', he
said 'mark would never swallow'. Then Mark asked him a question.

'I've been wanting to make love to u.....i mean i want to fuck you..will u
let me?'  Nathan said to me that he had never really thought about that
actually. They had joked, but nothing serious. He looked at his brother and
said, 'I guess, but will it hurt?'  And Mark said, (and i'm not
exagerating, this is what Nathan told me)....'.Well, i don't know, i am
pretty big, but i've never done this before. So you'll have to find out!'
To this day, every time I think of that, I laugh.  I think that is a
classic!

Mark got out of the bed and rummaged around in his p.e. satchel and pulled
out a tube. It was Brylcream, a hair oil that some guys still used on their
hair then. He took off all his clothes, got back into bed and told Nathan
to lay on his stomach.  As he lay there he had Nathan spread his legs out,
Mark got up between them and Mark leaned down and began to put the oil up
into his brothers butt moving his finger in and out of his hole.  At
sixteen, even though i didn't know them then, i'm sure Mark's cock was
about like Nathans at fifteen, and very thick and about six to seven
inches. (They were both huge to me..ouch)

He then he greased up his cock and layed down between his brothers legs,
laying on Nathan's back.  Nathan said he felt Mark's cock in his crack and
it felt so warm and wonderful. he had never felt that before. Then
pressure, and after a couple of tough attempts, he felt a sharp pain and he
yelped.  His brother told him 'Shhh, someone might hear!" He kissed him and
was breathing on the back of his neck (which he said felt so good) and he
waited a few moments, then pushed some more.
 
Nathan put his face to the wall and just gritted his teeth as his brother
slowly worked his way into him. Finally after a few minutes, Mark was in.
Nathan said 'It felt like a football up my ass!'  At first, 'It was very
uncomfortable!'  But then it began to feel different, and he thought, even
though it was still uncomfortable, he would like it. Soon his brother began
to pump his cock in and out of him, and all to quickly cum in him with a
long moan to 'Oh god, ur so hot in there!'  Nathan said, once he got in, he
probably only fucked him for about five minutes, but he said, 'I'll
remember it forever.'

The night he told me this, it was several months after we had first met at
Scouts. We were setting on his bed and he was setting beside me. We were
the only ones there. We had not been able to tell anyone about our times
together, it had to be secret. Even our parents couldn't know. I'm sure in
some ways it's still the same, but not like it was then.  We were scared
shitless that someone would find out we were homo's. (The word 'gay' wasn't
used then). Back then, people were beaten for that, hated with a passion,
sometimes died. I know it happens today (remember Matthew Shepherd, bless
his memory).  But it was not legal then, or acceptable in any way. There
were no magazines for gay youth, no support groups. often there were many
horror storys' of kid's being 'reprogrammed' at mental health
clinics....Oh, i don't even want to think about it! No progress had been
made for us at the time. I hope the boys now will think a little more of
us, because of what we went through.

Anyway, it was that night that Nathan told me about his first time with his
brother. And after telling me this detailed story of how he lost his
virginity, he leaned onto my chest and and layed his head down on it, his
long blond hair falling onto my stomach, pulled me too him, and said in a
whisper, 'I love you Chris.'

 I'll remember that forever.



Well, i know this wasn't specifically about me, but I thought it was
important to tell you why the boys had such an interest in me and how they
together had plans for me. Not in a devious way, at all, but they already
knew i wanted to learn everything and things just clicked between us (and
I'm sure glad they did). Nathan obviously became more than a friend. Why do
things work out sometimes, and others not? I don't know. I'm just glad it
did.

 I'll send another installment about the night we skinny-dipped, and what
happened after that.