Date: Fri, 04 Mar 2005 13:48:49 -0600
From: Jock <troy161@hotmail.com>
Subject: Brocker, Baseball Player

I felt comfortable going on the road with the team.  It was minor league
but I was playing baseball and that was all that was important.  I didn't
have any great hopes of ever making it to the big leagues, but I was proud
to wear the Colts uniform.  All I had to do was keep my little secret and
be on my guard around the other guys.  I'd done okay so far, but now we
were going on the road and I would be sharing a room with another guy in
closer, more intimate quarters than the casualness of the dugout.  I was
greatly relieved when I learned that I was odd man out on the room
assignments.  That meant I was rooming alone.  So I was okay till we got
the news that John Brocker was coming down to the Colts minor league.
	Brocker was a major leaguer who had been in the papers and
all over the news for speaking out so bluntly against gays and coloreds.
They were sending him back to the minors to get his head on straight and
his shit together; a form of sensitivity training, they said.  He was a
true homophobe.  And I wasn't colored.
	We got a lecture before practice about Brocker's arrival.
	"Okay, listen up.  You've all heard the rumor that John
Brocker is joining our team.  The rumor is true.  When he gets here, you
don't give him a hero's welcome or make a big fuss.  That's straight from
the front office.  He is one of you.  Treat him that way.  Brady, he'll be
rooming with you."
	I felt a chill go down my spine and sweat break out on my
forehead.  John Brocker was not only the biggest homophobe on the planet,
he was a stud, and I was going to have in my room!  How the hell was I
going to manage to be around the big muscle-hunk who was so damned good
looking he made girls piss their pants if he even looked at them?  I
couldn't protest or question the decision, though.  It was a simple matter
of me having a room to myself and there was another guy who needed a place
to bunk.  If I'd been black, maybe I could have protested.  But like I
said, I'm not black.  I am gay and I couldn't admit it.
	Brocker arrived in the team van that picked him up at the
bus station.  Yeah, he had to bring the bus to training camp.  He got his
gear out of the back and set it down and looked all around. Godd, he looked
studly standing there in his uniform with those tight pants hugging his
massive thighs and that big bulge of his cupped manhood and his butt
sticking out in back like he had two melons stuffed in his pants..
	"Brocker, join us!" the coach yelled.
	He picked up his stuff and tossed it in the dugout and came
onto the field with the rest of us.  He didn't act snobbish or anything.
Cocky, maybe, but that was his natural demeanor.
	"Guys, you all know John Brocker.  I'm not going to make
introductions; you guys can introduce yourselves.  Now, let's play some
ball.  Brocker, you take left field."
	He didn't say anything.  His expression didn't show that he
was unhappy about not playing center field or second base, the positions he
played in the majors.  He sauntered out on the field with the rest of us.
The coach didn't treat him any differently than he did the rest of us, but
we did.  This was John Brocker, and he was good.  He was better than any of
us, but he didn't act like it. After practice we boarded the bus and hit
the road.  It was sort of sad and lonely; nobody there to say good-bye to
anybody.  They didn't allow that.
	We stopped to eat supper about seven.  The guys, including
me, were afraid to sit with Brocker and he ended up taking a booth by
himself.
	"Fuck, guys, I took a shower this morning," he complained.
	Jason Wright poked me and said, "Let's go sit with him."
	We got up and walked over to Brocker's booth, along with
another guy.  The other two slid in on one side and I ended up sitting next
to John.  He couldn't scoot over; his size required his full half of the
seat and our legs touched when I sat down.  He jerked his knee away.  The
conversation was strained at first, till John eased the tension.
	"Look guys, I fucked up, didn't keep my mouth shut.  I'm
not sorry I said what I did, although I had to make a public apology.  So
now I'm here and I gotta tell you I don't mind it.  I hope you don't mind
my being here."
	"Naw, man, we don't mind," Jason said.
	"We just need a little time to get used to rubbing elbows
with a major leaguer," I said.

"Just make sure that's all you rub," he said. Then he loosened up.  "I put
my jockstrap on the same way you guys do," he added.
	We piled out of the bus at a motel in some little town in Kansas about
nine that night.  I guess Brocker didn't know he was rooming with me.  It
never came up between us. Maybe he thought he would have his own room.  If
he did, he found out different when the team manager gave us our room
assignments. Brocker didn't seem to mind that he was sharing a room.
I slid my key card in the lock and let us in.  He closed the door and turned
the bolt and I felt like I had just been locked up in a cell.
"I'm gonna shower, okay?  Or do you want it first?" he asked as he tossed
his bag on the bed nearest the window.
"No, go ahead, just don't use all the hot water," I said, half-joking.  I
stretched out on the other bed and turned on the TV.  John started taking
off his uniform.  I tried not to watch, but I could see him out of the
corner of my eye and I had to force myself to keep my eyes on the TV when he
bared his upper body.  Dam, he was built!  Muscles layered over muscles, and
he was a lot smoother than I expected him to be.  Well, not smooth, but he
didn't have a lot of hair on his chest.  It looked like he might have shaved
and it was just beginning to grow out.  It looked sexy as hell.  The trial
down the center of his cut abs was a little darker.
He took off his shoes and socks and undid his pants.  I braved a glance at
him as he stood there in his jockstrap.
"Fuckin' cup, I should have taken it out before we got on the bus," he
growled as he unsnapped the pouch and pulled the cup out and tossed it on
the bed.  In that daring glance I saw how the pouch of his jockstrap seemed
to fill out, like his manhood was relaxing from the tight confines of the
hard cup.  Godd, I thought, how big can he be!  It was only a glance, and I
forced my eyes back forward as he peeled his jockstrap down and kicked it
aside.  When he walked by me I nearly lost it.  He was an absolutely
beautiful male; a symphony of muscle in motion, and his manhood was
something to behold.  He hung out in a cocky sort of arch, about six inches,
swinging back forth in front of his balls as he walked.  I let my eyes
follow him as he walked past and he couldn't see me watching.  His butt made
my ache inside.  It was hard as bowling balls, the muscles flexed and sort
of jumped up and down with each step. He went into the bathroom and closed
the door.
I was in a terrible sweat. I can't do this, I thought.  I can't be cooped up
in the same room with this stud night after night for the whole fuckin'
summer.  But there was no place on earth that I'd rather be.  I was where
every gay guy in the country only dreamed of being.  I eyed the cup lying on
the bed.  He would be at least a few minutes. I picked up the cup and but it
over my face and breathed in the dull, musky aroma so fresh from his
manhood.  Then I saw the jockstrap, all rumpled in a heap, still stretched
to the form of his manhood.  I took careful note of how it was laying and
picked it up.  It was still warm.  I put it to my face and breathed in and
out, drinking in the fresh smell of his manly sweat.  I felt dizzy and my
cock began to get hard. I can't let this happen, I told myself.  I put the
cup back in precisely the same spot on his bed and arranged his jockstrap on
the floor, hopefully as I'd found it.  I just hoped he didn't notice it had
been touched.  I was nervous as hell about him coming back out and me having
to strip down in front of him. I'm built, and hung good, but Brocker was
awesome.  I hit on a solution.  I would shower in the morning.  I undressed
and crawled in bed and when Brocker came back out I pretended to be asleep.
He turned the TV down and I heard him getting into bed then the light went
out.  I was safe for the moment.  At least till next morning.  I woke up to
someone shaking my shoulder and opened my eyes to get the jolt of my life.
There was Brocker, standing beside my bed, naked, with his huge cock
practically hanging over my face.
"Better shag ass," he said.  "We've got a game to play."
I stretched and flung the covers off.  I had to shower.  I was practically
shaking as I dug around for clean underwear.   Brocker was still in his
shorts when I came out of the shower.
"I guess there's no rush after all.  I forgot the time change.  We've got an
extra hour," he said.
Okay, I could survive the next hour, but barely.  If Brocker looked awesome
when he was naked, he nearly matched it in those tiny white briefs that were
stretched to the limit trying to contain his manhood.  He caught me looking
at him a couple of times but I tried to pretend I was looking out the window
and I don't think he caught on. It was a delight to watch him suit up.  He
took off his shorts and pulled on his jockstrap like he was demonstrating
how to wear it, then inserted the cup inside.  He hit the cup a couple of
times with his fist then reached for his pants.  I had to consciously keep
from choking on my air as I drank in the view of his high and tight butt
muscles framed in the straps of his jockstrap; and the parting of the twin
mounts as he bent to pull his pants on.  He turned around to put his jersey
on, stood there buttoning it up like he was putting on a demonstration
again.  Somehow during all of this, I managed to get my uniform on, but I
don't remember it.
We won the game and moved on.  No time for celebration or glory; there was
no glory in a minor league road team winning a game with no fans around. We
were pretty much alone among ourselves while the opposing team had their
fans to cheer them on.  That night some of the guys were going out on the
town.  They asked me and Brocker to go along.
"I can't," he said.
"Why?" I asked.
"I'm confined to the room."
"What!  How come?  What'd you do?" I asked.  I couldn't imagine that he'd
gotten in trouble with the coach already.
"It's from the front office. They don't want me seen out in public except on
the field till this shit blows over," he said.
"That's shit," someone said.
"Tell me about it," he said.
We went on without him.  I felt bad.  By the third night it was getting to
him.  Nathan Black was in our room and John was bitching about having to
live like a nun.
"Hell, I think I would just about settle for one of those fags I slammed,"
he said.
"Maybe we could find you a woman, bring her back here," Nathan said.
	John's eyes lit up.
	"Well, they didn't say I couldn't have visitors in my
room," he said thoughtfully.
	"It's not being out in the public," Nathan said.
	"Aw, the coach would shit," John said.
	"The coach doesn't have to know," Nathan said.  "Hell, do
you think he cares how many women are sneaked into the rooms?"
	John laughed, shaking his head. "This is so fuckin'
different.  We used to have women waiting outside our room when he we got
to a hotel. One time I had two women waiting inside my room.  They bribed
the bellboy to let them in."
	"This is the minors," Nathan reminded him.
	"Yeah, I remember the minors," John said in a melancholy tone.
"But there are women in every town anxious to get laid by an athlete,"
Nathan said.
	"Okay, see what you can find," John said.  "And hey..."  He dug out his
wallet and handed me some money.  "Pick me up some condoms, will you?  Extra
large."
	I went with Nathan.  "Extra large?  Fuck, he must be hung like a
horse.
How big is extra large, anyway?
"I don't know.  I've never seen them," I said.
"Maybe he's just bragging, trying to impress us and put on a show."
"He's not bragging," I said.
Nathan looked at me funny.
"He's hung like a horse," I said.
We found out how big he might be. We bought a box of a dozen plus a pack of
three.  I tore open one of the packages and unrolled the condom then blew in
it to see its capacity.
"Goddam!  If he can fill that thing up, this broad is not going to be able
to walk for a week," Nathan said.
I was guessing I would have to be with Nathan for most of the night if we
found a woman for John.  We found a sports bar that a lot of the guys had
already discovered.
"Shit, they've got women hanging all over them," I said.
"Well we'll have to pull one of them off and drag her back to the motel for
Brocker," he said.
		"Tell her who's waiting at the motel and you won't have to drag her
off."
	"Hey, where's Brocker?' somebody asked.
	"He's restricted to the room," I said.
	"Why, what'd he do now?"
	"Nothing.  He just can't leave the room at night and be
seen in public."
	"For the entire summer?"
	"That's what he said."
	"Fuck, that's gotta be tough; a guy who's use to beating
the women off with a ball bat."
	One of the women was paying closer attention than we
thought, and she knew baseball.
	"Wait a minute. Are you saying John Brocker is back at your
motel?" she asked in disbelief.
	"He's his room mate," he said, pointing to me.
	"I heard he was going to be sent back to the minors as
punishment but...ohh my Godd, I can't believe it!" she exclaimed.
	"Would you like to meet him?" Nathan asked her quietly.
	"Oh, yess!  He is so hot and sexy.  Do you think he'll see me?"
	"Trust me," Nathan said.
	The three of us left and returned to the room.  John was
lying on the bed in his tiny white briefs and Nathan did a double-take;
Brocker was that kind of man.  He barely looked up when Nathan and I walked
into the room.
	"No luck, huh?" he said, his eyes on the TV.
	"Look again," I said.
	He looked over and his eyes popped when he saw the woman
come into the room.  "Holy Shit!" he gasped as he sat on the edge of the
bed.
	"This is Angela.  She wanted to meet you," Nathan said.
	"Well, I'm very glad to meet you, Angela," he said with
great emphasis.

He came right over to her and took her hand and kissed it.  I watched in
awe.  He didn't give it a second thought that all he had on was his briefs.
Sure she did, though, the way she was looking at him.  I think she
understood that she would get to more than meet John Brocker.
	"Look, Brady and I are going back to the bar," Nathan said.
	"Yeah...see you guys later...thanks."
	When I glanced over my shoulder, Brocker already had his
arms around her and was squirming and writhing his mostly naked body
against her.  Dam, I thought, she was going to get her eyeballs fucked
right out of her head.  Lucky bitch.
	Nathan and I joined the others at the sports bar and I
played their game with the women except that I didn't try to pick one up
and take her back to my room.  Thankfully, I had the perfect excuse.  My
room wasn't available.  Suddenly Nathan rushed up to me.
	"We forgot the condoms!" he gasped.
	"No, we bought...Oh, Shit!"
	"Yeah, we forgot to give them to him," he said.
	"He's going to kill us."
	We rushed back to the motel.  Neither of us moved.
	"Are you going to take them to him?" Nathan asked.
	"I was hoping you would."
	"He's your room mate," he said.
	I grabbed the small brown bag and got out of the car.  My
legs were shaking as I walked up to the door.  My hand shook even more as I
knocked.  The door opened and John peered out around the door with a scowl.
	"We, uh...forgot these," I said, rather meekly. I wanted to
peek around the door and see if he had a hardon, but I didn't dare.  I did
catch a glimpse of Angela lying naked on the bed.
	"Thanks," he said.  "We hadn't got that far yet."
	He shut the door and I went back to the car.
	"What'd he say?" Nathan asked.
	"Thanks."
	"That's it?  He wasn't pissed?"
	"He said he hadn't got that far yet that he needed them."
	We went back to the bar and joined the rest of the guys
with the women.  I was half hoping that there wouldn't be enough women to
go around, at least for me, but there were a couple of women who were only
too eager to do double duty and take care of two of us.  I declined and sat
at the bar watching a ball game on TV.  Someone came up and sat on the
stool next to me.  There were enough empty stools that he didn't have to
sit right next to me.  Within seconds, I felt his knee against my leg.  I
pulled away but checked him out in the mirror.  He was checking me out too
and our eyes met.
	He was older than I liked but he wasn't all that bad looking and he filled
out his shirt nicely. When our eyes met he brushed his knee against my leg
again.  Again, I pulled away.  I couldn't let the other guys see me getting
cruised and picked up.
	"Sorry," I mumbled as I slid off my stool and walked away.
After a couple of hours I decided to go check on the situation back at the
motel, to see if I had a place to sleep yet. Angela was coming out of the
room just as I walked up.  I whistled for my cab to wait. She was disheveled
and she looked a little dazed, almost as if she didn't recognize me at
first.  I walked her to the cab.
	"Everything they say about John Brocker is true," she
said. "My Godd, he's a stud! I just want to thank you for the most
wonderful night of my life."
	"Hey, I didn't do it, he did," I said, jokingly.
	When I went inside, John was lying in bed with the sheet up
to his waist with a satisfied smile on his handsome face. The air was thick
with the smell of raw sex.
	"Thanks, man," he said.
	"Sure, anytime.  Its gotta be hell being confined, with
your reputation."
	"Do I have a reputation?" he asked with a grin.
	"Shit, every guy on the team wishes he was in your shoes."
	"Not right now," he said.
	"Yeah, right now.  This is temporary."
	"I don't know.  I can't see them sending me back up to the
majors.  I think I'm gonna be traded or sold, if anybody will have me," he
said, rather melancholy.  "But fuck it.  I'm playing ball and I'm with a
great bunch of guys.  I can live on the money I've already made."
	"That must be a good feeling," I said.
	We talked well into the night, about everything, and I felt
I was really getting to know him.  And for a brief time I saw John Brocker
as something besides a hot, sexy stud, although I never lost my
appreciation for his bared muscular body.  I felt more at ease with him;
and felt it would be easier now to keep my secret.
	"Hey, thanks again, man," he said as he reached over to
turn out the lamp.
	"No problem," I said.
	"I hope you mean that; I'll probably be calling on you
again," he said.
	"Sorry about the condoms," I mumbled.
	He laughed.  "Yeah, I was beginning to sweat that.  I'm not very good at
pulling out," he said.
Then one fateful night it all came out.  He guessed.  All because some words
came out of my mouth wrong and I wasn't able to cover them. I was laying on
my bed, freshly showered, and John was drying off after his shower, his
muscles rippling, his big cock dancing, and for a fateful moment, I looked
at him.  Really looked.  I guess I must have been gazing at him.
	"What're you looking at?" he asked gruffly.
	I snapped back to reality.  "You're really built.  It's hard not to
notice."
	"You're built damned good yourself," he said.
	"But not like that," I said.
I don't know if there was a fleeting glance at his manhood when I said it or
if read the wrong meaning into it, but I knew instantly from his look that
I'd said the wrong thing, especially to a homophobe.  My gut tightened.
Shit, if he got mad and hit me, with the size of his arms he would knock me
dead.
	"Are you talking about my body or my cock?" he asked.
	"Well, it's pretty hard not to notice that, too," I said, trying to sound
light- hearted.
	"Yeah, well, don't notice too much.  I hate guys staring at my cock.  I
know I'm big."
	"Oh, really.  If you hate it so much, why do you parade around naked?" I
said bravely.
	"I'm not parading," he said with a scowl.  "I'm drying off."
	"You could do that in the bathroom and come out in your shorts.  Although
those briefs you wear don't conceal much."  Dam, where did that come from!
I was burying myself.
	"You're noticing too damned much about me," he said as he rummaged in his
bag for a clean pair of shorts.
	"I was going to ask you where you get your underwear.  I'd like to get
some like it."
	He tossed me a pair of his shorts. "Here, you can have these."
	"Thanks," I said, snatching them out of the air. I was surprised that he
was being so cordial, especially with the tone of voice he was using.
	"Hey, I shouldn't have growled at you.  Fuck, yeah, I like people looking
at me; what the hell good is being built like this if nobody notices.  But
sometimes I can't help wondering what's behind the looks and it gives me the
creeps."
	"You seem to enjoy it when the cameras are in the locker room and you're
strutting around with no shirt, or with a towel on.  Why would it give you
the creeps if some babe was ogling you and thinking she would like to get in
bed with you, which is what they're all thinking.  They're all hoping that
towel falls off."
	"I was talking about fags."
"Why should that bother you, you're not going to bed with them," I said.
"Hell, you can't be the thought police."
"I just don't like it," he said.
	"Yeah, the whole world knows that," I said.
	He ended the conversation with his silence when he got in bed but I knew
deep down that there had been a seed of doubt about me planted in his
handsome head.  Part of me hoped the seed sprouted and bore fruit.  Part of
me was scared it would. I couldn't help thinking how great it would be if
John knew I was gay and he was okay with it and we were rooming together. I
half hoped he did guess, if he didn't go on a rampage and kill me. I
certainly wasn't going to come out to him.  I wasn't ready to commit
suicide.  Besides, nobody on the team knew.
	I woke up later in the night, unable to sleep.  John was stretched out
across his bed on his stomach, his arms overhead, one leg straight out, the
other one cocked out to the side and his cock and balls were laying back
between his legs. My eyes fell to his gorgeous butt and wouldn't move.  I
just sat there and gazed at him, my mouth watering for his butt.  Dam, how I
wanted to bury my face in those tight, round buns.  I knew he would like it
if he could just get past the gay thing.  I gazed at his thick cock with his
big, heavy balls draped on either side.  I got a hardon.  He was so damned
gorgeous he gave me a hardon just looking at him!  I stood up and stepped
closer to his bed.  I knelt down for a precious moment, close enough that I
could feel his body heat.  I was sorely tempted but scared as hell and I
stood back up.  If he happened to wake up and catch me knelt down beside his
bed, hell would open up and swallow me.
	My cock ached it was so hard.  It'd been too long and chances of running
into a guy on the road to have sex with were pretty slim.  I went to the
bathroom to jack but John's naked body drew me like a magnet.  I stepped out
of the bathroom and stood there in the soft darkness and jacked off while I
looked at his body.  I pretended my cock was his cock, and that my chest was
his.  I choked on my moans as I shot off in my hand.  I caught pretty much
all of it but it was overflowing my hand and running down my fingers. I went
in the bathroom to rinse my hand off then got some toilette paper and
cleaned up the spots off the floor.  I slept good for the rest of the night
but I knew the horse was out of the barn. I was sure John knew about me, and
I was afraid he would be biding his time to trip me up. I thought I might
ask for a room transfer, but I would have to give a valid reason.  And
besides, I couldn't deny myself the sight of the big stud every morning and
night.  That was worth any risk.
	For some reason, the next morning John sat with me on the bus.  Not that
he avoided me before but I had the feeling that he sought me out. I was
especially surprised after the exchange we'd had the night before.  His
sitting in the seat beside me made part of me hope that maybe we were
becoming more than just room mates.  Maybe we were becoming friends, of
sorts.  He dozed off and his leg leaned heavily against mine.  I wiled the
miles away; I sat and looked at his massive thighs and the mighty bulge
between them. When he woke up he stretched his legs, pressing his right leg
against my left before he casually moved it away.
	That night's game, somewhere in Missouri, tied and went into extra innings
and it was late when we got to the motel.  John was irritable.  I tried to
overlook it; we were all tired, and more and more, playing ball, win or
loose, was beginning to be a thankless job, what with nobody there to cheer
us on. That was the night he hit me with a bombshell.  He had come out of
the bathroom after his shower wearing a white T-shirt and those tiny white
briefs with the awful bulge in front and the twin bulges in back. I guess as
a result of our conversation the night before, he decided he wouldn't run
around naked.  He looked hot; about as sexy in his clothes as he did naked.
	"You're a fag, aren't you?"
	I was visibly taken aback and unable to speak for a moment till I'd
swallowed the lump in my throat.  "I never put that label on myself," I
managed.
	"But you are.  I'm reading all the signs," he said.
	"What signs?"
	He laughed.  "Hey, you don't get built like I am without getting used to
the looks," he said.
	"So you're used to it, why should it bother you?" I asked cockily.
	"Hey, do you want a piece of me," he barked in a belligerent tone.
	"Not the way you mean it," I snapped back.
	"Okay...do you want a piece of me," he asked again, this time grabbing the
front of his shorts.
	I was about ready to melt and run down in a heap at the way the
conversation was going; or head for the door.  I admit, I was scared of the
guy.  The size of his arms bulging out of his shirt sleeves was pretty
intimidating.
"The way you feel about fags, do you think I'm crazy enough to fall for
that?  I want to live to play another game," I said.
	He backed down a little.  "Hey, I hate fags, I don't hate you," he said.
	"Where and how do you draw the distinction?" I asked.
	"You're my room-mate, my team-mate."
	"From what I've read, that never mattered before."
	"I thought we were starting to get along," he said.
	"Are we?  I never know what the hell you're thinking," I said.  "I don't
know whether you're going to be cordial one minute, or break my neck the
next."
	He sighed.  "Yeah, I'm supposed to be working on that," he said.
	"If they ask me, I'd have to say it's not working so far."
	"Hey, I wasn't setting you up," he said.  "I was only asking."
	"You hate fags but you don't hate me because I'm your team mate and your
room mate.  Is that because I'm handy and you're confined to the room?  You
wanta use me, is that it" Shit, I didn't care if he used me...I would be his
fuckin' slave...but I wanted to clear the air between us.  Mostly, I guess I
wanted to be sure it was safe.
	"I didn't intend it to be that way," he said.  "I just...well, I wouldn't
object to a mutually agreed arrangement."
	"And that means? You're wouldn't break me in two if I made a pass at you?"
	"I don't understand.  I thought this was what gay guys went for," he said,
motioning to his body.
	"Oh, you're a fuckin' dream," I told him.  "I just don't know whether to
trust you.  Even if you're not setting me up, I don't know what your mood
would be afterwards, whether you're going to announce to the entire team
that you had sex with me, or beat the shit out of me."
	"I know I can be an asshole, but I wouldn't do that.  Neither," he said.
	"You outed one of your team mates; dam near ruined his career," I reminded
him.
	"No, the front office knew he was queer.  Everybody on the team knew it."
	"But you were the one who made an issue of it," I accused.
	"He made an issue of it when he made a pass at me in the showers," he
said.
	"I rest my case," I said.
	"Hey, if you don't want it, okay; we both loose," he said with a shrug.
	"I do," I blurted in a way that turned his head.  The moment was at hand.
I would find out if he was setting me up or really wanted to get something
going between us.
	He nodded.  "You do?  Really?"
"Fuck, it's like living a dream and a nightmare at the same time, rooming
with you," I said. "Shit, man, I jacked off the other night just watching
you sleep.  But you're damned intimidating.  You don't know how scared I was
when I found out we were rooming together.  The biggest homophobe in the
nation, and I get him for a room mate."
	"I'm supposed to be working on that, too," he said.
	"So what's your plan, to go back and tell the front office that you roomed
with a fag, you even had sex with him, so you're cured of your homophobia?"
	 	"You know something?  I'm not going back to the majors.  They know it
and I know it.  We all know I'm just biding my time till my contract runs
out.  Maybe I'll get lucky and get traded but I doubt it.  I'm damaged
goods.  Maybe I'll play in the Canadian leagues or go to Japan."
	"I feel bad about that," I told him.
	He gave me a knowing smile.  "You really jacked off watching me sleep?"
	"Yeah."
	"You don't have to do that anymore.  If you're interested...I'm willing,"
he said.  He hooked his thumbs in the waistband of his briefs.  "But if
you're not, tell me so I don't waste my time taking these off."
	"You won't be wasting your time," I assured him.
	He pulled the shorts off his hips and stopped.  "Do you want to take them
off?" he asked.
	"Yeah," I said, my eyes glued to his briefs.  The bulge of his manhood
bounced as he walked over and stood in front of me, his feet planted wide
and his hands on his hips; a typical studly stance for John.
	I hooked my fingers in the waist band and pulled his shorts the rest of
the way down.  Down, down, down, practically to his knees before the end of
his cock was freed.  It swung up and hit me in the chin.
	"Hello, there," John said.
	I pushed his shorts down and he stepped out of them and there I was face
to face with possibly the biggest cock in captivity.  It hung out about nine
inches now, still rubbery, not hard, but thick as hell, and pulsating bigger
with each heartbeat.
	"Geezuss, how big is it gonna get?"
"Maybe it's better if you don't know," he said.  "Twelve inches, a little
over."
	"Dam!"  I swore.
	"Yeah, it can get pretty uncomfortable, stuffing everything inside that
damned cup," he said.
	His cock got bigger.  And bigger.  I thought it had reached the
twelve-inch mark but it kept growing, straighter and longer and thicker and
my eyes were popping.  What the fuck was I going to do with it!  I watched
it throb to its full size and hardness till it stuck out and up in a little
curve, quivering when it throbbed, bowing its head slightly, then thrusting
up again.  He was oozing cock-honey out the slit.
	"My Godd!" I gasped as his cock expanded one more time.  "My Godddd!
Goddam, I never seen a cock this big," I said.
	He chuckled softly and twisted his hips, making his cock sway back and
forth in my face.
I knew I had to get to it, and I wanted to, but I was so afraid I wouldn't
be able to do him justice and satisfy him.  This cock needed an expert.  I
was good in that I loved cock, but I hadn't been at it long enough to
consider myself an expert.  I leaned in with my hands on my knees and lapped
the ball juice as it boiled out of the wide slit.
"Shit, you like that stuff?" he asked.
I answered by lapping up more of his precome. I relished the taste of him.
I pulled on his cock and cupped and squeezed his balls with my other hand.
"These feel like two softballs," I said.
"Yeah, they're nice and full for you, too," John said.
I wrapped my hand around his cock as far as my fingers would reach.  I put
my other hand around it and there was still more cock sticking out my fists
than I could get in my mouth.  I opened my mouth and stretched my jaws, not
at all sure if the huge cock would fit in my mouth.  I wet my lips and took
a deep breath then put my mouth around the head of his cock.
"Awww, Sweet Geezussss!" he gasped, tossing his head back as he thrust his
hips forward.
	Maybe I would be able to satisfy him after all, if he was acting like that
before I even did anything.  I would soon discover that John was easy to
satisfy, partly because he'd never had anybody really suck his cock but
mostly because he was so highly-sexed and insatiable-horny.
"Shit, I can't do this justice," I said.
"It ain't looking for justice," he said, thrusting his cock at my face.
I opened my mouth and he shoved his cock in.  I had to really force it to
get down on the shaft far enough to touch my lips to my hands.   He fucked
my hands and my mouth and I wondered how he ever found a woman who could
handle him.  He must, though, for he always had women all over him.  Most of
what I did to make him feel good was with my tongue.  I lashed it around the
head and swirled it back and forth along the tender spot on the underside of
the head.  It made his cock twitch and him groan. The bluish veins bulged
with his life's blood. I could feel the thick seminal vein sliding across my
tongue, about an inch wide.  It must deliver one hell of a load, I thought.
I was in a state of absolute ecstasy with my mouth and both hands filled
with his incredible cock.  I had to tell myself, `I'm sucking John Brocker's
cock!...the John Brocker who hates gays!"  The way he was built I wouldn't
have cared who he was but being John Brocker only added to the excitement.
He pulled his cock free and smacked it against my face like a club.  I shut
my eyes with my mouth slack and happily took the beating.  He shoved it back
in my mouth, lodging it hard against the back of my throat.  I held my
ground at first but I was afraid he might force it into my throat and I
pulled back.
"I can't take it all the way," I told him.
"I know.  You don't have to."
"I told you, I can't do it justice."
"Oh, you're doing it justice, buddy.  Goddam, you've got a wicked tongue."
"Just so the question doesn't come up at the crucial moment, you can shoot
in my mouth if you want to," I told him.
"That'd be great.  But it's not going to be any time soon.  I want this to
last all night.  I gotta warn you, though, when it does happen...well,
there's an awful lot of it," he said.
"The more the better," I said.
"Okay, but you don't know what you're asking for," he said with a soft
chuckle.
I began to think he really was going to last all night.  I sucked him till
my jaws were getting sore and I was afraid of lock-jaw.  He pulled his cock
out again and held it up against his belly.
"How about giving your jaws a rest and suck my balls.  I want to see what
that feels like."
	I tilted my head and took his left one in my mouth and washed it with my
tongue.
	"Awwwhhhhhhhh, fuck, that feels great!" he gasped, his voice trembling.
	It tasted good, too, and felt great in my mouth.  I went to the other one.
	They were too big to get them both in my mouth at the same time as I liked
to do.   I was heady from the manly smell of him.  I lapped my tongue way
back under his balls where his cock came out of his body.  I hoped to plant
the seed but I would wait to see if the seed took on life.  I wasn't sure he
was ready or could handle me tonguing his ass.  I was afraid he might freak
out over that.  Despite what we were doing, I couldn't get it out of my mind
that he was still a  homophobe and I didn't know if that leopard could
change its spots.
	As much as I loved sucking his magnificent cock I was anxious for him to
finish.  I was getting tired, believe it or not, and my throat was pretty
sore from the incessant pounding.  And on top of that, I wanted to
experience his climax; to taste his come, and see how much `an awful lot of
it' would be.  I knew instinctively that I was in for a treat.  A stud like
him could do nothing less than deliver a stupendous load.  It took both
hands and my mouth to accommodate his mammoth size but I formed a pussy for
him with a lashing tongue at the end.  It finally brought him around.
	"Oh, Fuck,...you're getting me close," he gasped, putting his hand on top
of my head.
	I didn't let up.  I sucked him till his legs were shaking and his hips
were lurching out of control.  I braced myself for the unknown.
	"Ohhh...Ohhh, fuck...here it comes!"
He barely got the words out of his mouth when he let loose with a gusher.  I
could actually hear the stuff gushing up through his cock, swelling the big
seminal vein along the bottom of the shaft.  The stuff surged over my lower
lip and blasted against the back of my throat like hot honey.  I was
startled by the power of it.  It felt like he jolted my head back.  He shot
out another thick rope of come and a third and my mouth was full.  There
wasn't much room for much more than his cock anyway.  I swallowed but my
mouth was filled again almost immediately.  My Godd, he was going to drown
me with semen!  I was surprised at the power and amount of come he was
shooting, but I was amazed that he didn't stop.  I wondered how much more he
could have left, and all the while he kept spurting hot come in my mouth.
Finally, the power subsided and the stuff boiled out of his cock over my
tongue.  I swallowed still another mouthful and his cock began to calm down.
	It didn't go soft but it lost some of its quivering steel-hardness.
His legs were still shaking so bad he had to get his weight off of them.  He
pulled his cock out of my mouth and stumbled backwards to sit on the edge of
his bed.
"Dam, when you say there's a lot of it...," I gasped.
"Holy Shit!  I never shot off like that before!" he gasped.  "It felt like
you were gonna suck my nuts right up through my cock."
"I thought you were going to drown me," I said.
He laughed and plopped back across the bed, his chest still heaving.  Come
was still boiling out of his cock but I didn't make any move to get it.  I
wasn't that sure of him yet.  I didn't know what his attitude would be now
that he was satisfied.
"Was that really your first blow job?" I asked.
"Yeah, you're the lucky first," he said.  "Oh, there have been plenty of
women go down on me, but they can't handle it for shit.  This was better
than anything I ever had.  Better than I ever imagined."
"You've imagined what it would be like, having a guy go down on you?" I
asked.
"Hell, yes.  Everybody's curious about shit," he said.
"Next time, I'm going to take it all the way down my throat," I said as a
way of testing him to see if he might let it happen again.
He just smiled.  I wished he would say something, but he closed his eyes
with a dreamy look on his face, and within minutes he was asleep.  I took
the cover off of my bed and covered him up. I wanted to crawl in beside him
but I didn't.  I was awake for most of the rest of the night, reliving what
had happened, letting it soak in.
Morning brought another set of concerns.  How would he act, now, after he'd
had time to sleep on it?  I stayed hunkered down in my bed long after I was
awake, almost afraid to face him.  I glanced at my watch, thankful that it
was so late.  When he got up to shower, I scrambled into my clothes.  I
wasn't forgetting that John Brocker was a homophobe, and if he was going to
come out of the bathroom like a mad bull I wanted to be ready to run.
"Aren't you going to shower?" he asked me when he came out.
"Not enough time," I said.
"There's plenty of time," he said.
"We had another time change," I reminded him.
"Oh shit!"  he swore and scrambled for his clothes.
I wondered what he was saying there was plenty of time for.  He wasn't
acting  any different.   When we boarded the bus to go get something to eat,
John sat by me again.  His leg fell loosely against mine when he sat down
and he didn't jerk it away this time.  He took his seat beside me again when
we got on the road after breakfast and I thought he purposely let his leg
touch mine. He went to sleep and his leg jostled against mine the whole way.
If anyone had walked by they might have thought we were playing kneesies.
I had great hopes for that night.
We landed in Podunk, Someplace and played a decent game against I couldn't
remember who, but lost.  We got an ass-chewing from the coach; he told us we
all played like a bunch of teen-age pony-leaguers and said he wouldn't
tolerate that kind of performance again.  He was right, we did play like
shit.  Maybe it was the weather; it was hot and muggy.  All except Brocker,
I should say.  Coach clapped his hand on Brocker's shoulder and told him
good game.  I didn't think Brocker could help but play a good game.  He
didn't have it in him to slack off.
We put a couple hundred miles on the bus before we stopped at a restaurant
for supper.  The driver let us out and drove the bus across the street and
parked in a motel parking lot.
"That's home for the night," Coach told us, pointing to the motel.
Jason Wright and Kevin Larson sat in a booth with John and me.  John sat
across from me and his knee touched mine when the other two sat down but he
quickly drew it back.  We ate and talked and had a good time even though
we'd lost an easy game.  I thought, We're acting like a bunch of fuck-ups
who don't care.
"You ready to head over?" John asked me after awhile.
I was startled that he asked; like we were `together' or something. I would
realize later that it was his way of establishing that we were buddies.
Kevin and Jason had to get out of the booth to let us out and I thought I
saw a funny look on Kevin's face.  John and I walked across the street to
the motel, leaving everyone else back at the restaurant.  I wondered if
anyone might be suspicious, but no...couldn't be...nobody knew I was gay and
nobody would believe John Brocker was messing around with another guy.
He was quiet as he took off his uniform.
"You want the shower first?" he asked me.
"Naw, go ahead."
"How come you always let me have the shower first?"
I shrugged.  "I don't know...polite thing to do, I guess."
"You don't have to be afraid of me," he said, leveling his gaze at me after
he'd  took off his jersey.
I didn't know I'd acted afraid but I didn't care that he thought I was.
"Look over there," I said, pointing to the big mirror over the dresser.
He looked at his reflection in the mirror, a confused scowl on his face.
"Wouldn't you be intimidated by that?" I said.  "Especially when it's got
John Brocker's name on it?"
He laughed and his stomach muscles danced and rippled.
"Let's forget my name's John Brocker," he said.
"Can't," I said.
"Okay, let's..."  He tossed his jersey aside and flopped back on the bed and
reached for other remote.  "You take the shower first," he said.  "And
that's the way it'll be...you take it first one time, then I take it first
next time."
I finished stripping off my uniform, down to my shorts, and headed for the
shower.
"I don't want you to be intimidated by me," John said as I was at the
bathroom door.
"Easy for you to say," I said with a soft chuckle.
When I came back out of the bathroom, John was stretched out, naked now,
stroking his huge cock, watching an X-rated video.
"They've got porn here," he said.
I gaped at him; his huge cock almost bursting out of his fist, the veins
surging with blood, the pool of ball-juice in the wide piss-slit glistening
in the soft light.  I swallowed hard, loud enough for him to glance at me.
"Shower's all yours," I said.
"Are you going out with the guy?" he asked.
"No.  I didn't see much of anyplace to go when we were driving into town," I
said.  "Why, do you want me to see if I can find you a woman?"
"Do I need a woman?" he asked with a sly grin.
My stomach did some flip-flops and my heart fluttered.
"You tell me," I said.  Then I added quickly, "Are you telling me you
don't?"
He let go of his cock.  "I'll grab a quick shower," he said as raised up.
"You don't...have to...,if you're not going out," I stammered.
He paused, half sitting up, and looked around at me.  We understood each
other.
"Man, I'm all sweaty.  I smell like a horse," he said.
"Well...you're hung like one," I said.  "I don't mind your being sweaty."
"Hey...okay...if you don't mind," he said and laid back down and spread his
legs out.  He took hold of his cock again and jacked it a couple of times
then held it straight up.
It was an invitation.  My invitation. I tossed the towel aside and crawled
on the bed between his legs.

I was as much at ease with John after that second time as with any room mate
I'd ever had, gay or straight. He was like a different man, even with the
other guys.  It was as if I'd softened him around the edges. Being alone
with him in our room was the most special time of any day.  I never lingered
over supper and I didn't go out to the bars or nightclubs unless John
indicated that he wanted me to find him a woman.  If he did, I would go find
him one and bring her back to the room and join the others at the bar for
the length of time he said he needed alone with her.  He didn't always ask
for a woman, though, and those nights we both stayed in and I knew he wanted
me to suck his cock.  He had to have sex every day, and he had to have it
for a long time.  So I was his outlet when he didn't want a woman.  I was
especially happy for those many times that he actually chose me over a
woman.  I was in my own little heaven when I was stretched out between
John's muscular thighs, lapping on his balls and sucking his incredible
cock.  I languished in the aftermath of his climax when he would explode a
huge load of hot come in my mouth and watch with glee as I gulped it down.
He loved to see me swallow his load.  He liked to shoot on my face, too,
then scoop it up with his fingers and feed it to me.  It excited him that I
liked his come.  It excited me that he was becoming so at-ease with our
new-found relationship.
Every time I sucked his cock I naturally worked down to his balls, which he
loved, and down there I was only inches from the forbidden portal of his
very being.  I wanted so bad to show him how wonderful I could make him feel
with my tongue but I couldn't work up the nerve. I was afraid he would think
it was perverted and recoil away from me. I didn't want to spoil what I had.
	Till one night when he was stretched out on his stomach, waiting, I was
compelled to make my pitch.  His gorgeous butt sticking up so nice and round
and hard made my mouth water.  I had to have him.
"Want me to start from the back tonight?" I asked smartly.
He looked over his shoulder at me. "Forget it.  If there's an ass in this
entire world that ain't ever gonna get fucked, you're looking at it."
"You think I'm that stupid?  I wasn't talking about fucking it.  I was
talking about eating it."
He looked at me, stupefied.  "Eating?...my ass?...fuck, are you serious?"
"Yeah.  Just let me show how good it can feel," I said.
"Fuck yeah.  Go ahead, chow down," he said, spreading his legs out wide.  He
jutted his butt up, clenching the taut muscles.
I was breathless as I lay between his legs and began kissing his butt.  He
sort of trembled.
"I've told a lot of people to kiss my ass, but this is the first time
anybody ever did it," he said.
I dragged my tongue along the crevice and he relaxed the muscles.  I pulled
them apart and buried my face between them.
"Awwwhhhhhhh," he moaned softly as I lashed at his asshole with my tongue.
"Ohh, fuck, that feels good!"
I pulled his butt wider apart, digging my fingers between his buns to
stretch his hole open.  I could see the velvety-soft inner lining
palpitating anxiously.  I flicked the hole and he reared up sort of on his
knees and I drove my tongue inside him.
"AAAAaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!   Ohhh...OHh, Goddd...holy shit, man, what're you
fuckin' doing!  Ohh, Geezusss..."
I gave him a run for his money, non-stop, till he was a blithering idiot
then I stopped abruptly.
"Turn over on your back and pull your legs up against your chest," I told
him.
He quickly obliged.  I lay gazing at his clenching hole, wet with my spit.
I flicked at it and he trembled.  I licked it and he groaned.  I tongued him
and he nearly screamed.  I wanted to use my fingers and get in contact with
his prostate but I thought it too risky.  To John Brocker, a finger up his
ass would be too much like getting fucked.  I had it in my mind to make him
come with my tongue and I wanted to make him shoot all over himself; that
would give him an idea just how good it could be.
He was thrashing his butt around, moaning and choking and squealing with
pleasure and I was delighting in watching his muscles bulge and ripple.  He
begged me to get my tongue in deeper, and maybe I could've used a finger or
two but I didn't take the chance.  I was driving him crazy with just my
tongue, making it so good that maybe he would welcome my finger next time.
All I had to do was get my finger on his prostate and I would have him.  But
for now...
"Awwhhh, you gotta stop!" he gasped.  "Ohh, fuck, you gotta stop before I
come.  Mannn...ohhhh, shit...ohhhhh, stop...stop...it's too good...!"
"No," I said.  "I want to drive you over the top."
Surprisingly, he didn't stop me so I fluttered my tongue around inside his
soft ass to bring him over the top. He was close; it wouldn't take much.
Suddenly, his asshole spasmed around my tongue and I knew he was coming.  He
choked on his cries, unable to beg me to stop.  I tilted his hips higher,
bending him in half.  He was in a frenzy.  He was incoherent.  He was
coming!  The set of muscles that propelled his load out of his body were
powerful, like the rest of him.
"Awwwhhhhh," he moaned.  "Awww, fuck, man...coming all over myself," he
whined.
I tilted him higher and his cries were suddenly muffled and I knew he was
shooting all over his face, and he probably got some in his mouth.  I hoped
so.  I held him bent in half till he was finished and he tightened his abs
to propel himself up straight.  He instinctively sucked in air and suddenly
jumped up and rushed to the bathroom.  I saw his come streaming down his
face and neck and his chest.  It was a beautiful sight.
The water turned on and I heard him gagging and spitting.  Yeah, he'd gotten
come in his mouth.  I sat on my own bed with my back against the headboard.
I didn't know what the next few minutes would bring.  Possibly his wrath for
what I had done to him, but I wasn't all that scared this time.
Much to my surprise he came out of the bathroom laughing.  "Fuckin' shot in
my mouth," he said.  "Geezuss, that stuff tastes like shit.  How do you take
it?"
"It's a matter of taste," I said.
"You can have it," he said.  "Shit, I can't believe you made me come without
even touching my cock."
"That usually gets them every time," I said.
"I didn't even know guys had feelings in their ass."
"More than you know," I said.  I only hoped I would have the chance to show
him.

One night after a game we had eaten supper in a small cafe, straight off the
field, then went back to our rooms to shower.  He was lying on his bed,
naked, when I came out of the shower, drying off.  I walked over to the
window to look out, with my back to him.
"Whew!" he whistled softly.
I glanced over my shoulder.
"I've noticed guys' butts before...you know...bodybuilder butts...but never
like I'm noticing yours right now," he said, boldly looking at my naked
body.  He'd never looked at me like that before, so bold.
"Giving you any ideas?" I asked cockily.
"Should it?" he asked.
"I don't know, John, could your ego handle fucking a fag?" I said jokingly.
"Okay, I deserved that," he said.  "Seriously, do you fuck?"
"Yes."
"Can you take this?" he said, fisting his cock.
"I'll sure as hell try," I said.
"Fuck, man, let's do it," he said excitedly.
	I went into the bathroom and got myself ready, including plenty of Anal
Ease and lube, and added the final touch by spraying some good-smelling body
splash all over my body.
	"Fuck, you smell good," he said when I came out of the bathroom
	I handed him the lube and he stood off the bed and squeezed some on his
cock.  I took his place on the bed on my back, my legs spread in welcome.  I
figured John would want me on my back, like he would fuck a woman.  He
reached down and crooked his arms under my knees and pulled me to the edge
of the bed and laid my legs on his shoulders.  He set his knees in the
mattress and aimed his cock at my ass.  I felt it spread my butt apart,
burrowing between my buns till it was pressing against my hole.
	"Take it easy till I get used to it," I told him.
	"Sure.  Is this the biggest cock you ever had?"
	"Yes."
	"Are you sure you can take it?"
	"Yes, if it kills me," I said.
	He was good about working me up to it.  He worked his cock back and forth
against my asshole, stretching the network of muscles around it, pushing my
asshole inward without bursting through it.  He had me feeling good but I
wished he would use his fingers first to get me warmed up and stretched.  He
had huge fingers, like small cock; that in itself would be like getting
fucked.  It hit me hard when the head of his cock popped through my hole.
The head of his cock was the size of a baseball.
	"UUuuunnhhhhnnnnnnnn!" I groaned.
	"That's gotta be hell, but you wanted it," he said and he didn't stop.  He
buried about half of his cock in my guts before he began encountering
obstacles. He probed and poked and I winced with even more pain.
	"I guess that's as far as we go," he said.
	"No," I gasped.  "G-give me a minute then you can go all the way," I said.
	"It ain't gonna go all the way.  I hit something."
	"Work around it," I said, twisting my butt around to assist him.
	I don't think he even heard "give me a minute."  He probed at different
angles and a smile came across his face as his cock moved past the obstacles
and went deeper. The girth of his cock was the hardest to take.  He
stretched me so that I had to hope my asshole would close back up.  By the
time he got done, it would be loose and stretched enough to drive a Mack
truck up inside me.  Half way in he started fucking me.  He was afraid to
give me all twelve inches.  It felt good and I appreciated his concern, but
I wanted it all.  Even I didn't know how I was going to handle it, where it
was all going to fit, but I was determined to have his balls smacking
against my butt when he fucked me.
"You've got a tight ass," he said.  "And hot."
	"It gets hotter the deeper you go," I said.
	"You really want all twelve inches?" he asked.
	"Yes."
	He began fucking me deeper till he hit a barrier deep inside me.  It felt
strangely good, even through the pain and I could tell it wasn't some
obstacle he could work around.  It was a place nobody had ever touched
before.  Maybe it was the bottom of my ass, I didn't know, but I wanted to
find out.  He slid his cock back out of me then back in till he hit the
barrier again.
	"I think we've hit bottom," he said, and finding his depth, he started a
rhythm. There was no particular technique or finesse with John.  For him it
was a matter of pumping his massive cock in and out of my stretched hole,
more for his own pleasure then mine.  Pretty soon he was picking up the
pace.
"Slow down," I said.  "You gotta take it easy."
"Sorry, I only know one way to fuck; hard and fast.  You said you wanted all
of it."
As much as I wanted this, I was still a little worried about him tearing my
ass apart; worried about him busting through something so deep inside me.
"Just let me get a little more used to it," I said.
He was banging the head of his cock against the drum head till it was
feeling less and less uncomfortable, on the way to feeling good.  I just
knew there was something on the other side of that barrier that would feel
damned good and I wanted to know what was back there.  I held him tight to
my body and when he probed deep and ground the barrier against the head of
his cock.
	"I'm hitting something in there.  Is that what's hurting?"
"It's a strange sort of hurt," I said.
"I've got something that'll help."  He reached over and got a bottle of
poppers that I didn't know was there.  "You ever tried this?" he said,
uncapping the bottle.
"Yeah, but it makes me loose my hardon," I said.
	"We're not worrying about your hardon," he said, holding the bottle to my
nose.
	I didn't argue with him.  John Brocker wasn't a man you argued with when
he was looming over you with all those muscles bearing down on you and his
massive cock buried in your ass.  You succumbed and pretty much did what he
said.  I wasn't a big fan of the stuff but I sucked in the poppers till my
head started to spin.
	"Okay, give me some more," I said, as the stuff began to take over my
body.
	John held the bottle out to me again.
	"No, more of your cock," I said.
He complied happily, pushing another inch or so in me, stretching the
drum-head barrier.  I ground my butt down on it and all of a sudden his cock
broke through.  Suddenly I was seeing stars and my toes curled.  The
sensation was incredible. I'd never felt so damned wonderfully full in my
life. It was almost overwhelming.  I wanted all of him now.  I wanted him to
fill me with his huge cock till I felt it in my throat.  He picked up on it
and slid the rest of his meat deep inside me. When I felt his balls against
my ass I shuddered and whimpered, knowing I had all twelve inches inside me.
	Not that there was any doubt.  His cock slid back and forth through the
second sphincter a couple of times and it was almost more than I could take.
	He sensed that, too, and started to pull back.
"Leave it in," I begged.
"No problem," he said, pounding his cock deeper.  I held him tight while he
wrenched his cock around in my butt, stretching the new sphincter-barrier
that he'd opened up.  The fullness of his cock made me really want to get
fucked.
"Fuck me," I told him.
"Gladly." He complied again. Taking longer and longer strokes, he dragged my
guts out with his up stroke and rearranged them again with his down stroke.
He opened the second sphincter wide, exposing a pleasure I'd never known
before. The sensation of him tearing through me was like an itch that was
scratched every time the bulbous head tore back and forth through the
innermost deepest hole.  Within a few minutes, I was his, totally and
completely.  He was plunging the entire twelve-inch length of his cock in
and out of my ass and I was his moaning, whimpering whore. Added to that, my
prostate was being worked over with each thrust, forcing cock honey out of
my cock in a steady boiling stream. I knew I wasn't going to be able to
out-last him.  He was just too fuckin' good.  I let nature take its course.
I surrendered completely to the big stud who had taken control of me, my
body and my very being.  When he picked up the pace to a balls-to-the-wall
fuck I hoped he might be working it up and I knew I was going to spew.  A
couple minutes later my body shuddered with the onset of a massive orgasm.
"Getting close?" he asked.
"I can't stop it." I moaned.  "Godd, it's just too fuckin good!  I'm gonna
come!!"
"Goddam, you are so tight and hot.  I'm gonna loose it too," he gasped.
"Fuck me, awwww, fuck me, you big, magnificent stud!" I screamed as my
orgasm hit and I snapped.  Volley after volley of hot come shot out of my
quivering cock.  It was so hot it almost burned, and so thick it felt like
it was having trouble being ejected from my painfully stiff cock. My entire
asshole undulated around the rutting rod that filled me so completely.
"Oh godd, I'm fuckin' coming in your ass!"
"Give it to me Brocker!" I yelled.
I felt six or eight strong spurts of come flood my entrails before he
stopped coming. When it was over he seemed in a trance.  Every few seconds,
his hips would jam his cock as deep as it could go, like spasms.  Finally
when he was cooled off enough to regain his senses he slowly pulled his
mammoth meat out of me.
"Slow," I whimpered.
"Yeah."
It was a long withdrawal and I hated the emptiness in the wake of it.
Are you okay?" he asked as his cock popped free.
"Are you?" I asked.
"Yeah, I think so.  Tell you in a minute."
"I don't know what the fuck happened to me," I said.
"You mean way up inside of you?"
"Yeah."
"I felt it too.  It was like I was fucking two assholes," he said.
"I didn't even know I had a second one, but then nobody's ever gone that
deep before to discover my second asshole," I said.
"Glad I could oblige," he said.  "I liked that dick dance you did for me."
"Dick dance?"
"Yeah, when I was popping in and out of that second hole you turned into a
little nymphomaniac, groaning and grunting and dancing around on my cock.
It was like fucking a ring of fire."
	"It was like getting fucked by a Clydesdale stallion," I said.
	"I don't believe I'm saying this...me, John Brocker...but that was the
best fuck I've ever hard, bar none.  And all the rest were women."
	"See what you missed out on by hating fags?" I chided him.
	"Hey, I haven't changed my position about fags, just about you," he said.
	"Well, that's a start," I said.  He was still on his hands and knees,
hovered over me and the way he was looking at me, I had the wildest
sensation that he might lean down and kiss me.  But of course, that was an
impossible dream.

To say I was in love with John Brocker would have been a misstatement, if
not a grave mistake.  I was growing awfully fond of him, but he was so
macho-straight, I wouldn't permit myself to even think about any stronger
emotions.  Suffice to say, I was the happiest, most contented and satisfied
man on the planet.  Him and I became more than team mates.  We became closer
than friends.  After awhile the other guys noticed it, too, how we always
sat together, and always headed to our room together, usually before anyone
else. It was like we had known each other all our lives.  Certainly, he felt
safe and comfortable being himself around me.  More than once, we fell
asleep in the same bed and he didn't get all freaked out if he woke up and
found me with my leg or arm thrown across him.  It was hard to imagine; only
weeks earlier, he would have killed me if I even looked at him cross-eyed,
let alone touched him.
	We woke up one morning in some motel...I didn't even remember the name of
the town...and I was snuggled against him and he had his arm under my head
for a pillow. My face was practically in his armpit. His chest was still
encrusted with dried come.  I slipped out of bed to go take a piss.  We
needed ice, too, so I slipped on my jeans and got the ice bucket.  I was
down at the ice machine at the end of the hall, when Kevin Larson came out
of his room from way down at the other end of the hall.  He was dressed in
cut-offs and a T-shirt and sneakers.  He had a sly, almost mischievous grin
on his face
	"What're you doing up and dressed so early," I asked.  That little smile
remained on his face.  "What the hell are you smiling about so fuckin'
early?"  I growled.
	He shrugged.  We exchanged small talk.
	"Hey, you seem to be getting along real well with Brocker," he remarked.
	"He's not such a bad guy when you get to know him," I said.
	"I guess you know him pretty well, huh?"
	"Well, you can't room with a guy and not get to know him."
	"Does he still hate fags?" Kevin asked.
	"We don't discuss politics," I replied smartly.
	"Well, listen...when he goes back to the majors, I would like to room with
you," he said.
	I was a bit taken aback but I nodded and said,  "He doesn't think he's
going back, but if he does, I got no problem with us rooming together."
	"I'll bet you don't."  His smile broadened and the corner of his lip sort
of curled up.
	"What're you getting at?" I asked with a scowl.
	"Oh, nothing. I went out to the van to get something and passed by your
window.  Your curtains are cracked.  I saw you all snuggled up with the big
stud fag-hater."
	I felt my face blanch as the blood drained from my head, making me light
headed.  I couldn't think.  Not a dam thing came to mind to say.  Suddenly I
turned and rushed back to my room.  John was awake.  I was so shaken that
the ice bucket rattled when I set it down.  I was having to suck my breath
in.
	"What's the hell's wrong?" John asked.
	I was barely able to get my words out.  "Larson saw us in bed together," I
said as I rushed over and closed the small crack in the blinds.
	"Where is he?" John asked as he jumped out of bed and grabbed his jeans.
	"Down at the ice machine."
	John rushed out the door, bare-chested and barefoot.  I stood there in
stunned silence as the door swung part way closed.  I went to the door to
listen.  I didn't show myself.
	"Hey, Brocker," Kevin greeted him.  He was apparently on his way back, for
they were close to the door.
	"Listen, limp-dick, if you breathe so much as a hint about what you think
you saw...not now, not ever...I'll break you into little pieces and throw you
under the bus.  Got it?"
	"Yeah...yeah, I got it," Kevin said in a wear, wavering voice.  "Hey, it's
none of my fuckin' business."
	"That's right.  It's none of your fuckin' business and it's gonna stay
none of your fuckin' business.  Goddam, Larson, I hope you understand what
I'm saying, because you do not want to see me get violent.  It's not a
pretty sight.  And no matter what, I will find you."
	"I got it, John," he assured him.
	I stepped away from the door seconds before John came back in.
	"That's taken care of," he said.
	"Yeah, I heard," I said.  I was still shaking.
	John came over and wrapped his powerful arms around me and hugged me
tightly to his massive chest.  Godd, he felt good, our bare muscles writhing
together.
	"Calm down, don't worry about it.  He's not going to say anything.  We
just have to be more careful."
	I felt myself relaxing in his embrace.  Suddenly he ground his crotch
against mine and chuckled softly.  "Now, don't I get a reward for coming to
your rescue?" he said with a twinkle in his eyes.
	"Anything you want," I said.  His face was so close, tilted down at just
the right angle and I thought for a moment that he might kiss me.  I almost
kissed him.  I was glad I didn't.  He stepped back and unbuttoned his jeans,
glancing at his watch.
	"How about we skip breakfast?" he said.
	"I've got all I can eat right here," I said, groping his heavy manhood.
	He sat on the bed to pull off his jeans then laid back, his legs spread
wide.
"Come and chow down," he said.
	I dropped to my knees beside the bed and lay between his legs.
	"Back the first time you did this, you said next time you were going to
take me all the way," he reminded me.
	"Just don't get hard too quick," I said.  I lifted his rubbery cock off
his balls and sucked it into my mouth.  I would have to work fast, because
he was going to get hard fast.  I opened my throat as relaxed as I could and
forced the head of his cock through the opening.
	"Ohhhh," he gasped with surprise.  "You're gonna do it!"
	Along with the pressure, I swallowed, my throat muscles pulling his cock
deeper and deeper in my throat.  I was making good progress but his cock was
getting bigger and harder by the second and I had about five inches to go.
I didn't know where the hell it was all going but I didn't care if it ended
up in my lungs.  Desperately, I forced my mouth down the shaft as my lips
became more and more distended around the wide girth.  With a good two
inches remaining, I was near panic with the prospect of defeat.
	"Fuck, man, don't stop...you're gonna do it," John said hoarsely, and he
put his hands around my head and forced me to success.  His cock bored up
into my throat the final two inches and my face was smashed against his
pubes, my chin against his balls and I was literally impaled on the biggest
cock I'd ever seen.
	"Fuckin' AAAAA.  Awwwhhhh, this is a record!  This is phenomenal!"  he
cried softly as he ground his butt muscles in the mattress to move his cock
within my throat.
	I held him as long as I could but the size of his cock squeezed off all
air passages and I had to breathe.  I raised up off of his cock, slowly,
carefully.  It was such a tight fit I was afraid he would turn my throat
inside out.  The head finally popped back through my throat opening, into my
mouth.  I raised up, wiping my eyes, swallowing to make sure my throat still
worked.
	"Goddam!" I swore.
	"Shit, nobody's ever done that," he said.
	"I'm the first one to try," I said.
	"Oh, fuck!  Thanks!"
	"Don't thank me.  And just remember, I can't take it when you're hard.  I
can't suck it all the way in my throat."
	"I just want to remember that couple of minutes when you did," he said.
"Godd, I almost freaked out when I looked down and my cock was gone!  Hey, I
didn't hurt you throat, did I?"
	"It might be sore for awhile," I said.

There wasn't a hint of evidence that Larson said anything to any of the rest
of the players.  He was a little skittish around Brocker, though, although
he tried not to show it.  The season ended and we were due to head back
home.  We celebrated the last night in a little town back in Missouri.
Coach broke the rules and told John he could come along with the rest of the
team.  The happening place was a small pub called Jimmy's Place.  The
patrons welcomed us like heroes even though we had beaten their team. There
weren't enough women to go around and most of those were practically
climbing all over Brocker.  He was once again in his element.  I was feeling
down because I figured I would be spending our last night on somebody's
floor.  If John took those women back to our room, he was going to be busy
all night.  There were a couple of women who made it known that they were
interested in me.  John saw it and he came down the bar and smacked my butt
and leaned over to whisper in my ear.
	"You wanta take two or three of these chicks back to our room and trade
back and forth?"
	I was jolted with excitement from the suggestion but I quickly declined.
I wasn't sure I could even perform with a woman in John's presence. He was
so damned intimidating and I was afraid I couldn't stand up next to him.  I
didn't want the humiliation.
	"Naw, you can have the room, though," I said, saddened that I had just
threw the night away.
I was shocked when John came over to me again and told me he was going back
to the room.  "How many women are you taking with you?" I asked.
	"None.  I'm just going back," he said.
	I was suddenly uplifted again.  Was he going back empty-handed so we could
spend the last night together?
	"I'll go with you," I said, quickly downing my beer.
	We took a cab out to the motel.  Inside our room, John went over and made
sure the curtains were completely closed.  I was encouraged.  He rummaged
around in his bag and brought out a small box.
	"Here, I got you something," he said.
	I scowled with surprise.  It was an underwear box; one with a very
muscular model wearing a jockstrap.  I opened the box and took out the jock.
	I was so touched I started to well up.  Then I shook it out and there was
his autograph sewn into the pouch.
	"A John Brocker original," he said.
	"Thanks," I said.  "You don't know what this means to me."
	"Well, it's something to remember me by," he said.  "You've got my name
right there around your cock."
	"As if I could ever forget you," I said.
	"Put it on," he said as he started taking off his clothes.
	"Why didn't you take advantage of the opportunity to have an orgy with
those women?" I asked as I started stripping.
	"I wanted to spend the last night with you," he said.  "All those women
put together couldn't do for me what you do."
	"Careful, you're going to be laying off of women for good," I joked.  I
pulled the jock on and arranged my manhood inside.  His signature spread
diagonally across the pouch.
	"Looks good," he said as he casually slipped his fingers inside the
waistband and gave it a heft upward.
	I was stunned that he touched me like that.
"Hey, maybe I could market those," he said.  "Do you think there are guys
out there who pay, say twenty bucks, to stuff their cocks into a John
Brocker jockstrap."
	"More than you know," I said.
	"Maybe I'll do it.  Set up a web-site."  He eyed me.  "Fuck, you look good
in that," he said. "I want to fuck you.  I won't be so rough, `cause I wanta
fuck you all night long.  I want to pop that drum head wide open."
	I was ready.  I started to take the jockstrap off.
	"Leave it on," he said.  "It won't be in the way.  I wanta fuck a jock."
	"You have to save one load for me," I said.
	"Save it for what?"
	"To take with me," I said.  "I wanta suck your cock and when you get
close, I want to slip a condom on and let you come in it.  I can take a load
home with me."
	"What the hell are you going to do with a condom full of my come?  It's
gonna get pretty rank pretty quick."
	"I don't know...I just want it.  And I can keep the condom."
	"Hey, you can have all the condoms you want.  I'll use `em on you if you
want me to, then you can have `em.  Hell, we might fill one completely
before the night's over."
	"One?  We'll need a quart jar if I'm going to save all of it," I said.
	There were no pretenses, now, no inhibitions.  He said he wanted to fuck
me and that's all it was.  The only emotions would be what we made each
other feel in the process.  I knew it wasn't love, it was sex.  I lubed up
my ass and squeezed some lube on his fingers.
	"Front or back?" I asked.
	"Any way you want it," he said.  "I intended to have you in every position
known to man, anyway, then make up some of my own."
	"Godd, they're going to have to carry me out of here on a stretcher
tomorrow morning," I said.

John fucked my eyeballs out.  I forgot how many times.  We didn't bother
counting except that I made sure he wore a condom two of the times.  I took
the second one and carefully dumped the come into the first one and tied it
off.  I washed the empty one out and dried it off.
After breakfast the next morning I walked to the bus under my own power but
there was a terrible emptiness in inside me; an emptiness that extended
beyond my ass. He had filled me with something more than his cock and I was
going to miss it terribly.  We tossed our bags in the luggage compartment
and found our seats.  John led the way clear to the back of the bus and took
the seat by the window.  He patted the seat next to him for me to sit down.
It was going to be a long drive.  All day and well into the night.  We
settled in for the trip.
	The noise calmed to quiet conversation after about the first twenty miles.
	Then guys just sat and looked out the window, or dozed off to sleep.  John
and I talked between ourselves, about his career, how he got there, about
his high school career and his many failed love affairs.
	"I can't seem to keep a good woman," he said.
	"What the hell do you need a woman for when you've got your pick of
hundreds?" I asked.  "Figure it out, John, no woman is going to want to
settle down with you as long as you're playing baseball.  Shit, with your
reputation, any woman knows she can't compete, and she sure as hell can't
trust you."
	"Yeah, baseball marriages don't seem to last long," he admitted.
We stopped for lunch, stretched our legs and resumed the journey.  We
started the last leg of the journey after supper, about 8:00, when the sun
was going down.  John lay back in the seat with his knees against the back
of the seat in front of him.  He was crowded.  I pushed my seat back and
closed my eyes.  It was enough, because it had to be, to be sitting beside
the big stud.  After awhile he dropped his left leg and his knee fell
against mine.  I didn't move away and neither did he. A stark difference
from when the season began when we sat down in a booth in that restaurant
and he jerked his knee away.
I was startled to feel a slight pressure against my knee.  I gave some
pressure back and John cocked his head around and grinned at me.  The
pressure kept up and he began raising and lowering his foot, rubbing his
knee against mine.  I boldly put my hand on his thigh.  He didn't move or
even flinch.  He flexed his thigh muscle.  I squeezed the muscle and he
flexed it again.  I drew my hand up his thigh to his crotch.  It was full
and rubbery hard.  Things advanced rather quickly and the next thing I knew,
John was undoing his jeans and pulling his fly open.  I shoved my hand down
inside his shorts and got a handful of man meat.  His cock pulsated in my
hand.  He was getting a hardon and it wasn't going to be contained in those
shorts.  My mind raced with some way to go down on him.  I could jack him
off, but he would spray the fuckin' bus when he shot off.  Suddenly, he
brought his other leg down and leaned up over the back of the seat.
"Hey, numb-nuts, how about you move up front so I can lay my legs over the
back of the seat," he told the guy in front of him.
Without a word, Tony Bright got up and moved several seats forward.  There
were four empty seats in front of us, and nobody was sitting to the side.
We were essentially alone in the back of the bus.  John lay his seat back
and cocked his legs up over the back of the seat.  He reached over and got
my hand and placed it on his cock.  I felt around to find that he had shoved
his shorts and jeans down to his knees!  Everything was hanging bare.  I
wrapped my hand around his cock.  He put his hand over mine and moved it up
my arm and shoulder, urging me to move out of my seat.  The only place I
could go was on my knees on the floor of the bus between John's thighs.
There's wasn't much room between the seats and my head was back against his
jeans that were around his knees.  He reached up and shoved them down a
little more.  I wondered what the hell we would do if anybody came back
there.  As I squeezed into the small space on my knees, I didn't care.  I
drank in the aroma of his maleness, mixed with the good-smelling body
splash.  His cock loomed up over my face.  I sucked on his balls.  He looked
out the window and put his hand over his mouth to quiet his groans.
John shoved his cock toward me and I took it in my mouth as far as I could.
It throbbed in appreciation and he settled his butt in the seat for the
ride.  I sucked him, I figured, for fifty or sixty miles; easily more than
an hour.  Neither of us was in any rush for him to finish.  I relished every
stroke, every throb of his huge cock.  I ran my hands up under his shirt and
squeezed his pecs and flicked his nipples.  He let out a little gasp. I
wished I had shown him how sensitive his nipples were, but for some reason,
I never got around to sucking his tits.
Suddenly he started squirming his butt around in the seat, then he was
thrashing it, and he put his hand on my head to let me know he was coming.
I braced myself.  I couldn't choke or gag.  I had to quietly take his load
and swallow every mouthful.  If I didn't there would be a mess that we would
have to explain.  I was up to the challenge.  Not that I had any choice.  He
was humping his butt up out of the seat, fucking my mouth.  Suddenly his
cock exploded.  Literally exploded in my mouth.  Three spurts filled my
mouth and I gulped it down.  He gave me three more.  I swirled it around his
cock before I swallowed it.  I held the last two in my mouth and sucked up
the come that was still boiling out of his cock. I savored the last of his
load, swirling it around his cock.  He let me do that for several miles
before his cock finally began to go down.  As it lost its hardness, I forced
my mouth down the shaft and swallowed his cock all the way to his balls,
still holding his come in my mouth.  I held him deep in my throat for a mile
or two then slowly pulled off of it.  It fell heavily over his balls and
John let out a soft sigh.  I wriggled out of the tight spot and got back in
my seat.  John pulled his legs off the back of his seat and raised up to
pull his jeans and shorts back up.
"Thanks, man," he whispered as he settled back in his seat.
I nodded.  I couldn't speak; I still had a mouthful of his come.
"You still holding it?" he whispered.
I nodded again.
I let the warm, thick come trickle down my throat, making it last for a good
many miles.  I let out a little sigh of satisfaction when it was all gone.
"Fuck, are you just now getting rid of it?" he whispered.
"Yeah."
"Hell, you've got a condom full of the stuff," he said.
"That's for later," I said.
"You're fuckin' crazy," he said, laughing.
"But you like it."
"Yeah...yeah, I like it," he said, reaching over to squeeze my leg.
We pulled into town at some terrible hour of the morning.  Guys stumbled off
the bus, half asleep and stiff from the ride.  There was an awkward moment
of silence and milling around.  The season was over and we would be going
our separate ways.  There was nobody there to welcome us home; no cheering
fans to celebrate our victories.  It was okay.  I had my own victory.
When it was time to part, John went around shaking everybody's hand and
everybody hugged goodbye.  He came over to me last and just stood there and
looked at me with that little lop-sided grin.
"Fucker...it's been fun," he said.
"It's been more than that," I said.
"Yeah, but not so we can talk about it here," he said quietly.  "You've got
my address and phone number."
"Yeah.  You don't want mine?"
"No.  You gotta contact me," he said.
"As if I won't."
"I don't know if you will or not," he said.  "I haven't changed my mind
about things."
"Yes, you have," I said.
"Okay, maybe, a little."
"A lot," I said.  "You don't hate us as much as you did before."
He didn't shake my hand.  He pulled me against him in a tight hug, his
powerful arms wrapped around my shoulders.  He made it a full-body hug,
pressing his entire body hard against mine, even pressing his manhood
against mine and doing a little twist with his hips.  I was shocked.
"Hope this doesn't embarrass you," he whispered.
"Let's go Brocker if you want to catch the van to the bus station," the
coach said.
"Hey, where're you going, anyway?" I asked.
"Shit, I don't know.  Back to the ball club and see what they wanta do with
me.  I expect there's going to be a big hassle over my contract."
"Hey, you've always got autographed jockstraps," I said, laughing.
He punched me playfully in the stomach then gave me a little wave and walked
toward the van.  I stood and watched his tight, round butt churning his
jeans, and those long, powerfully muscles thighs flexing inside the snug
denim.   I watched till the van pulled away and it was then that I realized
my eyes were misting up.
"Okay, he's gone."
I jerked around to find Kevin Larson standing there.  He smiled.  "Hey, are
we still on as room mates?" he asked.
"Yeah."
"Good.  There's stuff I wanta ask you...and tell you..."  His voice soft of
lingered and faded off.
I didn't ask him what.  I was pretty sure what he wanted to ask me and tell
me.  I was pretty sure that our rooming together wasn't going to be a
one-sided thing.

				  The End

Epilogue:  I wrote to John about a week after I got home. It was sort of a
nice, general letter, asking about what was happening in his life. I knew a
lot of what was going on from reading the sports page but I knew there was
always a lot more than they told the press.  It was nearly a month before he
wrote back.  It was more a note than a letter but I was thankful to get it.

Hey Stud:
	Got your letter.  It was good to hear from you.  You were right,
there's a lot more than what's getting in the papers.  I'm in the middle
of negotiating out of my contract, which shouldn't surprise you.  My
agent says I'll get enough to retire nicely.  Retirement wasn't really
what it was all about, though.  I liked playing baseball.   I don't know
if I'll go to another team or not.  I've still got autographed jockstraps!
I'm dating a girl who doesn't give a shit that I'm John Brocker, the
baseball player.  She doesn't even like baseball!  I'll let you know if
it gets serious.  If it gets that serious, I want you at my wedding.
I don't know if this is right to say, but even if I get married...well,
you know no woman can do what you did for me, so I want to keep
in touch, if you do.  Have a great life, just don't write me out of it.

	Your team mate,
	John

Yeah, I went to his wedding.  I was a groomsman, in fact.  He put me up in a
hotel and I can tell you I didn't spend the night alone.  We had his
bachelor party and when he took me back to the hotel, he came right on in.
I gave him a good send-off to being a married man.

			      Really The End