Date: Fri, 13 May 2011 10:15:42 -0400 (EDT)
From: suck4straight@aol.com
Subject: How you are Superior

You are superior to me in so many ways, I almost don't know where to
begin. First of all, you're straight and I'm a faggot. Gay guys pretend to
be just as good as straights, but we secretly know that deep down we're
inferior when compared to a Real Man like you--that's why we're
homos. Besides, you'd probably rather fuck a chick any day than just use a
queer's mouth as a pussy or his face as a sperm target, so I realize right
from the start that I'm at best a second-rate choice for dumping your load
and so I know that I will have to work especially hard to get you to make
it worth your while to come back again.

Guys like me feel lucky if you treat us mean, if you call us names, if you
show no respect for us. In fact, I feel lucky that you even responded to
someone as submissive and masochistic as me. The main thing for you is
showing and feeling your doiminance and power, while at thje same time it
is both laughable and disgusting to think of a guy with as little apparent
self-respect as me down there slobbering all over your dick, sniffing out
your sweaty nuts, groveling at your feet, working so hard for your pleasure
and getting nothing back except insults and orders; and even though I'm
making you feel real, real good with my mouth and tongue, you never let me
forget for a minute that I'm less of a man than you.

For the dominant partner this power play is very straightforward and easy
to understand: dominating a masochistic cocksucker gives vent to his
frustrations and feeds his innate need to assert power and control and
mastery over his surroundings. It is a very primitive means of relief, but
it makes perfect sense. When encountering a masochistic submissive, these
tops often take advantage of the fact and use this kind of submissive gay
guy shamelessly for their own amusement and kicks, getting them to do all
sorts of humiliating shit for them. It is much more common than most people
think. And I'm not talking about anything non-consensual. With primarily
heterosexual men, it is, in fact, perhaps only with submissive gays they
meet in anonymous settings that they allow themselves to express these
domineering, sadistically-tinged desires, even though they would probably
prefer to enact these kinds of scenes with women (but just try to call a
woman a cocksucker while she's blowing you!). For the masochist the reasons
for the sexual excitement in being humiliated are not nearly as apparent.

The truth is, cocksuckers like me realized from childhood that we would
never be like the other boys--not real boys, not into sports, not accepted
as one of the guys, but instead were picked on and humiliated by bullies,
and were too scared to fight back. By seeking out humiliation as adult
masochistic queers, -- essentially the victims seeking out the bullies --
we are just reenacting the patterns we established back then, to submit to
the desires of another, more aggressive guy's sadistic whims in order to
somehow merge with him in the blow job, thereby "importing" a degree of
virility from a Real Man -- a Man like you, whose masculinity is not
diminished but rather enhanced by letting a sick motherfuck like me suck
your dick and obediently follow your perverse and degrading orders --
things you would never do for any man. I need to capture, steal or "pirate"
another guy's manhood in order to make up for my own masculine
shortcomings.