Date: Mon, 29 Aug 2005 09:13:13 -0700 From: Wade Wright Subject: "I Want It Again" Gay/Male Authoritarian I Want It Again! By: Wade Wright "No, I got fucking gang raped! Well, that's what I called it at the time!" "What, --what happened?" Keith asked as he looked at Roy with some definite concern. "What happened?" Keith and Roy, now both professional men, Keith aged 30, and Roy, one year older, were sharing some Saturday afternoon beers at their favorite gay hangout, the Spicket, when their conversation got along the lines of sharing with each other what their first gay experiences had been. Keith had told Roy how his first gay sex, the more than just "looking at some classmate's dick in the shower", involved, of course himself, at age 14, and an "older" man, that he guessed was probably about age 25. He told Roy how comforting and concerned the "older" man was, knowing that this was Keith's first time doing anything with a man, and how he wanted to help him learn what to do, and how to do it, and to really enjoy what he was doing. It was after that description of caring and sharing that Roy told Keith, "It sure as hell wasn't that way for me! No, I got fucking gang raped!" "Roy, what do you mean you got gang raped? What happened!?" "It was my freshman year of college, down at State. It was Easter week-end and practically everybody from the dorm had gone home for the week, but I had stayed on campus. Well, Monday night I was feeling all lonesome, so I decided to investigate the downtown area and find someplace to get a beer, or whatever they'd sell me, and try to just find somebody to talk to for a little while. I ended up in a bar. I had no idea at all it was a gay place. Hell, at that time I'm not even sure I knew, then, that there were gay bars! I went in and sat at the bar. The bartender came over and I asked for a Bud. He grinned real big, he laughed and he said, "Yea", laughed again, and then sat the beer down. I tried to pay for it, but he told me, "No, keep the money kid. I don't want to be accused of selling beer to minors." He just gave me the fucking beer! He never charged me for it! I sat there and started drinking it when I saw him motion to some guy back behind me. I thought, oh shit, I'm in trouble for drinking the beer!" "You thought maybe it was some kind of a cop or something?" "Yea, I really didn't know. I just knew I wasn't 21 yet and I knew I was too young to be in there drinking. Well anyway, the guy came over and sat down beside me. Big man, I mean big! Stood probably six foot three or four, weighed probably 225 or so, and looked like one of the guys now on TV in those crazy wrestling matches. Anyway, he sat down and was real friendly. We talked. Talked about a whole bunch of shit, then he started asking me about college and if I dated and that type of stuff. He finally asked me if I had ever fucked a girl. I told him yea,-yea I had. I told him I date, ---got to remember I did not have any kind of an idea of where in the hell I really was. Never saw anything going on that would have made me wonder about what kind of a place I was in." "So you still did not know that was a gay bar?" "No, hell no! I was too fucking stupid to know that! Anyway, when he asked me about fucking some girl, then he asked me, "Hey kid, ever wonder what it feels like to her when you stick your rod up in her?" I looked at him, like I didn't understand what in the hell he was asking. I said, "What? What?" Well with that, all of a sudden there were three more guys standing around us. Where in the hell they came from, and how they knew to show up there, beside us right then, I never did find out. The big guy, found out later his name was Ben, the other guys called him Big Ben, turned to the other three guys and simply said, "He wants to find out!" I looked at him and asked, "I what? I want to find out what?" Keith silently motioned for their bar tender to set up a couple of fresh beers, as he continued to be mesmerized about what Roy had gone through that night. "One of the three said, "OK, we'll show him." The other two both said, "Yea." Big Ben then just said, "Hey come on kid, we've got some stuff to show you!" He had been real friendly and until the girl talk, everything had been real, I don't know,--real level I guess! Everybody sat their beer bottles down on the counter, and Big Ben said, come on, we've got some good stuff to show you. Yea, I will admit I was kind of wondering what in the hell was going on, but hey, everybody had been really friendly and I wanted someone to talk to for the night, and so I figured, OK, I'll see what they are talking about. One of the guys, Nick, he asked me if I had a car with me, and I laughed and told him hell no, I was a college kid, I could hardly afford to peddle a bike, and then he said, "Oh, OK you can ride with Zack and me." I looked at him and kind of asked, "Ride where?" Wrong answer I know, but he said, "Oh,---over to my place." Yea right! His place! Zack and I rode in his car, we had a very friendly conversation about my going to school and stuff, and Big Ben and the other guy, Tom, they were in another car. When we got there, only like maybe two blocks away, I sure as hell found out real quickly this wasn't Nick's place. It was some trashy apartment, above some repair garage, that I found out later they just rented together, so they could use it like they were this night!" "So it really wasn't anybody's real place?" "No, hell no! Just a dump that they all paid for so they'd have this, well what I later called, their rape room." "Oh shit! Oh Roy, you didn't know what you were in for did you?" "No, hell no, I sure didn't! Everybody was real nice to me until they opened the door, and then Big Ben took hold of my arm and said, "Come on in kid, it's show time!" "Come on in kid, it's show time! Nick, let's see just what this kid's hiding under these stupid looking college clothes." Nick immediately started unbuttoning Roy's shirt and then moved onto his Levis. Roy kept asking and kind of now yelling, "Hey wait! Wait! Hey what's going on? Stop that, don't do that!" Big Ben then turned and looking down at Roy, since Roy was about 6 or 7 inches shorter then Ben, he said, and with no kind and gentle tone to his voice, "Start doing as we say kid! You just became ours for the night, so just shut the hell up and do as we say!" It was right then that Roy realized that Zack and Tom were now completely undressed and they were coming across the room toward him with some rope in their hands. "Here Ben, let's get his shirt off and then we can rope him up to the rack while we find out just what he's got to offer us." With Roy still trying to find out just what in the hell was going on, Nick finished unbuttoning his shirt, and finally got it off of Roy. Roy was starting to get very, very concerned since he still had no idea of what in the hell was going on, and Zack then said, "Here Nick, put this on him, I don't think we need to listen to him wine all night long." Zack then handed Nick a gag and as Big Ben held one hand and Tom restrained the other, Nick tied the gag around Roy's mouth so that he couldn't say anything. "Good, that's better!" Zack said. "Hey guys, tie his hands up on the rack, and let's get these pants off of him." Ben and Nick stretched Roy's arms up so that his wrist came close to the hooks on the X frame, and with Roy's back now firmly placed up against it, the two men tied him tight so that all he could do was stand there and now wonder just what in the hell was going to happen to him next. He was totally under control of four men, that he had only met, probably 10 to 15 minutes ago. Scared shitless, too! Actually Big Ben was the only one he felt like he had even talked to very much. All of the other three had just "happened", all of a sudden back at the bar. As Tom got Roy's shoes off and then pulled his Levi's down, he made some cute little comments about the bright red briefs that Roy had on, just before he then pulled them down too and said, "Oh shit man! This kid is hung! Shit man, look at that wonger he's got!" Tom immediately grabbed Roy's dick. "I'm going to get this fucker stiff, I swear I will!" Tom stated, as he put his mouth over the tip of Roy's very soft and flimsy dick, but yet a dick that Tom had already realized could, and would, grow into a dick of admirable size, once it was encouraged. As Tom was letting Roy feel the warmth of a man's mouth around his dick, and also the sucking feeling that a good strong throat can give it, Ben was caressing Roy's head and neck with his enormous hands and was so very gently kissing his neck and the sides of his face, as he told him, "Hey boy! You are doing good! Real good! You are really going to learn some good stuff tonight, some real good stuff." Roy wanted to, so badly, so very badly to yell, "Stop, stop", but he had lost all self control when he had been gagged and roped up to the X frame. Now knowing that he was in for some big trouble, he was really regretting his decision to go downtown and see if he could just find someone to spend some time with and have someone to talk to. He knew he sure was with someone, four in fact, but there sure wasn't any conversation going on. He realized he was now the rag doll for four guys that were definitely into things that he had never even heard about! The sweat was pouring down his sides from the fear that he was now having. Roy was only 19 and he was quickly becoming a rag doll for four men that were all at least 20 to 25 years older than he was. And as far as size went, the guy they called Tom, he was about the only one that even came close to his own five feet eight and 155 pounds. Of course Big Ben was, big! Too fucking big to try and argue with! To Roy, Nick looked like he was probably about twice his own age, he looked like he was probably 38 or 39, and obviously some kind of a gym instructor or something that helped him keep the body of about a 20 year old. Zack, Roy just couldn't tell. Roy tried to figure him out based on some other black guys that he had known back home, but Zack looked so much older than any of them. It was just too hard to figure out if Zack was one of the younger guys or if maybe he was the oldest one. His face said one thing, and his body yelled young and athletic, all the more loudly! Roy did not know, but right then was just hoping that whatever age he was, he had some smarts about him and would not let the others hurt him any. Zack was the softest spoken person of the four, and that's what made Roy rather pray that Zack would be his savior, in this whole funny mess he had now found himself in. As Tom was working on getting Roy to give him a real boner, and Ben was gently talking to Roy and trying to convince him that he was in no danger, just a very strong learning experience, Nick was on Roy's left side, and was biting on Roy's left nipple. He was biting, then sucking, and biting, then sucking. Roy was feeling each bite and each suck! Zack was doing exactly, ---- the same thing, to Roy's right nipple. It was as if Nick and Zack were in complete harmony in doing the biting and the sucking right on musical cue. Nick's right hand was anxiously groping and feeling the inside of Roy's left butt cheek. His fingers roamed and moved, so that he could pull on the firm butt muscle and at the same time give Roy, what he hoped, was a very enjoyable experience of letting a man feel his most private area. He realized using the term, "letting", was not really a very accurate term, since Roy was now being forced to offer his entire body and his entire existence over to these four men, that he truly did not even know! They were getting to know each and every square inch of him, but yet he had no way of knowing anything about any of them! Zack's left hand was exploring the butt crevasse from his side. Roy could feel his butt cheeks being spread apart as Nick and Zack each pulled toward themselves. Roy could feel each man moving his fingers closer and closer to his cherry asshole. He simply knew that at any moment one of them was going to be getting right up at his hole and would be probably trying to put his finger up in there. Roy simply had never thought about some guy putting his finger up in his ass, and he did not like the idea at all! It scared the hell out him! He just didn't know what would happen to his ass if someone did stick something, even a finger up in there! He tried to yell "Stop, Stop", but the gag was way too successful. His fear of one of the men sticking a finger up in his asshole was only partly correct. He never imagined the thought that they may rather work in harmony and both of them stick his hole at the same time! He realized that as Nick started to slide his finger in, that Zack was doing the same thing at the same time! Roy thought he was going to go into a complete state of shock as he realized that Zack was pulling his ass hole one direction and Nick was doing the same, and they were opening his hole far enough so that they could each put a finger up in his ass. As he was freaking out about what was now happening back at his ass, Tom was still enjoying the pleasures of being the first man to bite and chew on Roy's dick. Tom was quickly being successful in getting Roy, and Roy's rod, to react to his mouth and his sucking, as he had hoped for. Roy's soft, ---never been sucked on stick of meat, was now starting to show, in a very strong fashion, exactly how large it could get. As Tom gripped a strong hand on Roy's bag, of what Tom felt like were two golf balls, he pulled off of Roy's rod and said to nobody in particular, "Look at this fucker, look at this!" Big Ben had taken all of his clothes off, and Roy saw him come back toward the X frame and look down at his cock as Tom expounded about it. "Shit man, shit!" Big Ben said as he looked over Tom's shoulder to take a good look at the young dick. "Shit man, he is hung isn't he!?" Then looking up toward Zack, Big Ben continued, "Hey Zack, you better look at this one! Yours just might not be the biggest fucker in the room anymore! Look at what in the hell this little white guy has got! Fuck man, I think it's longer than yours!" Roy was completely embarrassed that he was totally naked, tied up to a big wooden X frame, had two guys fingering his asshole and now had all four of them looking at his cock and making remarks about how fucking big it was. He felt like he had been placed out on Main Street for everybody to look at! "Well fuck!" Zack said. "The fucker has got a rod and a half on him, don't he? Shit man! Somebody measure that fucker! I need to know if I've lost my place as the biggest. That damn thing better not be bigger than mine!" Tom jumped up and said, "Hey Ben! Suck it! Get it good and hard man! I'm going to get the tape and see if Zack just ain't the biggest after all." Big Ben immediately threw his mouth on Roy's dick and made it feel like some kind of a major sucking machine, like something to pick up flood water from a basement floor, was sucking on it. Roy could feel the power in Big Ben's throat! All of a sudden Roy kind of admitted, to himself, that what was now happening on his dick was feeling pretty good. He had stuck it in the end of a vacuum cleaner hose once to see what that suck could feel like, but he knew Big Ben had about four times the sucking power than that vacuum did. He was still scared and was still trying to yell past the mouth gag, but for only a slight moment he did tell himself, "Shit he feels good!" Then he immediately reminded himself that, that was a guy, not some gal, doing that on his dick, and that can not feel good! Tom grabbed the measuring tape out of a gym bag and told Big Ben to, "Let me at that dick, let me measure it." Tom and Big Ben joined together and stretched the tape out along the top of Roy's hard-on and Tom said. "Oh shit man! Hey Zack, it's right at nine and one half! If I push it up against his gut just a little more, I can find that extra one half inch I need to dethrone you from being the king of size!" Then wrapping the tape around Roy's rod, Tom said, "OK, OK! Zack's still the winner. This one is like five inches around. Zack, you still measuring at least six around?" "Yea he is!" Nick chimed in. "And don't forget about that fucking baseball he uses as the head on that dick! That fucker must measure eight inches around all by itself! I swear, every time I take that thing up in my ass I feel like I'm getting fucked by some dog that just tied with me. When he pulls that back out of my ass, I swear I just got fisted instead of fucked!" Roy was way beyond belief that he had become the center of attention of four men, and that they were even measuring his dick and being so straight forward about talking about his cock like it was a table lamp or something! Big Ben went back onto Roy's rod as Tom asked Nick and Zack how that asshole was feeling. "Oh fuck man! Fucking tight, fucking tight!" Zack remarked as Nick then asked Tom if he'd grab some grease for him. Ben heard the request and said, "Hey wait guys! Wait! Don't put any grease on his ass yet. Let me eat him out first! I want to eat some good college boy ass before we get him all greasy! OK?" "Now you're talking man, now you're talking!" Tom strongly remarked as he heard Ben's remark. "Lay him down on the bed and tie his arms and legs down. Let's all have some supper. Let's eat ass!" In unison, all four men worked together to untie Roy from the X frame and lead him over to the bed, where they laid him down on his gut, and pulled both arms up and chained them to the wrist hooks, and did the same thing to his legs as they chained them to the ankle restraint hooks. Roy did not know how to act. He knew he was in real danger of really having some funny stuff done to him, but he was totally helpless in trying to tell any of the guys that he did not want to do this stuff. The idea of them laying him down so that they could all get to his ass was really scary to him. He really did not know what to expect next! He did not know what they were going to do to him! "Oh shit man, look at that ass!" Ben stated as he slowly slid his hand down through the crevasse of Roy's butt muscles. "Oh fuck! We haven't brought one like that up here for a hell of a long time man! Damn, that is hot!" Nick added as Zack chimed in, "Oh man, I have not been in some tight little ass like that for months and months now! It's about time I got some new tight meat to slam into. I'm ready for that!" "Zack, you get it after the rest of us have had it! Once you open it up enough to get that damn baseball dick of yours up in there, it will be so damn open that none of us will be able to feel it on our dicks! You keep your big dick out of his ass till we've all had our share, understand?" Zack playfully looked at Tom, slapped at his dick and said, "Shit man! That fucker of yours ain't so fucking small! I'm sure every ass you've ever fucked after I got done with it felt pretty fucking good to you, so I'm going to fuck him whenever I get the chance. OK?" Big Ben laid down with his face placed neatly on the crevasse of Roy's ass. He put one hand on Roy's left cheek, and his right hand on the right cheek. As he moved his face in closer and closer, he pulled each cheek just a little farther apart. He blew some air onto Roy's cherry hole. He felt Roy quiver as the air hit its spot. Ben stuck his tongue out and got his first lick and taste of Roy's bare bottom and it sweeter spots. Roy knew that Ben, that great big bear of a man, the one that he just a few minutes ago met at the bar, was the same person that was now laying on his bare butt, and he was the same man that was now licking his butt. He was the man that had pulled his ass cheeks apart far enough so that he could force his face in-between his cheek muscles enough so that he could actually put his tongue on his asshole. Roy felt Ben's tongue start to slide into his ass. "I have a man putting his tongue up inside of my ass! Oh my God I can not believe this! Oh my God I never thought of this ever happening! Oh my God I can not believe this! Oh shit man, I'll never be able to admit that this happened to me! I can not believe this! Oh man, a man just does not put his tongue in some other guy's ass!" Nick had positioned himself on Roy's right side and was gently licking Roy's rib cage up and down as he reached under him and grabbed Roy's cock and balls and played with them. Tom was on the bed beside Roy's left, and he too was licking and rubbing his torso as he watched Ben eat out Roy's asshole. "Hey Ben, how's that going down there? Some good eating man?" Ben couldn't talk. He had a mouth full of ass and was giving an ass full of tongue, but he did manage to grunt a "Yea"! Zack had moved himself up to the top of the bed and was now positioned where his crotch was now directly in front of Roy's face, with a leg stretched down along each side of Roy. Taking hold of each side of Roy's head, Zack pulled his face up so that he could see into his face, and Roy could see into Zack's. Smiling, Zack asked. "How you doing? You OK?" Roy did not exactly answer, but he did look at him with somewhat of a little pitiful puppy face. Zack again asked. "Hey man, you OK? We're not doing nothing to you that you won't want again and again, over and over. We're just helping you learn what the real world is, and letting you find out for yourself how fun some stuff can be. You OK? We're not hurting you any, are we?" Roy attempted to agree, by shaking his head, that true, they were not hurting him any. "You quit the yelling a little bit ago. If I take that gag off of your mouth, do you promised not to yell? You'll be able to breath easier if I take it off, but you've got to promise me that you will not yell! OK?" Roy looked up at him with a very pitiful face expression and indicated a "Yes"! He was trying to tell Zack that he would not yell, and yes, he wanted the gag off! Zack looked at him then added, "OK, remember! You promised! Listen, ---if you yell, we'll have to make you sorry you did! Understand?" Roy looked up and shook his head, "Yes!" Zack removed the gag! Roy took a big deep breath! He then looked at Zack and asked, "What are they going to do? What else are they going to do to me?" "Nothing bad man, nothing bad! Everything that is going to happen to you yet tonight is all going to be good! Real good!" "Oh God Roy, I can not imagine something like that happening to a guy the very first time he has gay sex. Roy, what in the hell did you do then? How long did those guys have you?" "Well first, ---then what did I do then? I laid there and learned how to get fucked in the ass by four guys, all with big dicks, including that big headed dick of Zack's. While they had me in more fucking positions than I think I have ever used since then, they each made sure they all got their own respective load of the "little college boy" cum, and they each made sure I knew how to suck a dick, good and deep! And yes-that did include that fucking rod of Zack's and that head that Nick called a baseball. Thank goodness Zack was the calmest of the crew. If one of those other guys had been using that dick on me, I'm sure I wouldn't be walking right yet! I'm sure my throat would have been totally torn out completely! Zack knew he had a big dick, a really thick dick, and he sure as hell knew how to let a guy use it." God Roy, I can not believe this! How long did they have you there?" "Till five the next morning! They knew the dorm door was locked till five, so they figured they had me, ---they'd just keep me till then! Nick and Zack drove me back to the dorm, but they dropped me off about a block away. They said they didn't want the car seen on campus. That was the longest block I had ever walked. I kept wanting to reach back and feel my ass to see if it was bleeding or not. It felt like it should have been. It was sore! I finally understood the term, "Sore Ass!" Roy, what time was it when they took you to that apartment? What time did that all start?" The closest I can figure, it was about 8 or 8:30 when we left that bar. So they used me for about 8 hours straight! I swear there was not one minute during that time that somebody did not have their hands on me, or in me somewhere. And after they laid me down on that bed, there was somebody in my ass constantly! First one dick, and then when he pulled out, another one went in! They were fucking me while I learned to suck. I got fucked and I got fucked like hell! I even got double fucked once! I got fucking raped man, for hours and hours!" "Did you ever tell anybody what happened to you?" "No! Not then anyway! I hid out for the rest of the week in my room and hardly ever left it! Slowly, very slowly, I did start realizing that what Zack told me, "We're not doing anything to you that you won't want again and again, over and over", was so fucking real true! He was so right! You know, it was only during part of that next week that I had any concern about what had happened to me. Each day I just kept getting more and more excited about how I had been taught gay sex, and every day my wanting it again got stronger and strong. By the time the next week-end got there, I knew damn well I wanted to be treated that same way all over again. I wanted those four guys to find me and do me all over again just like they did that night, `cept this time, I wanted to be able to tell `em to do it again, do it again! That first night I was so fucking scared, ------I wish now I had really understood how great everything was really going. I do know that after they took the gag out of my mouth, I was still scared, but now that I think back about it, I do kind of think I was wanting more and more. More up my ass and more down my throat. Damn, I was just too damn scared to know what a great place I was in that night. I never imagined that for years after that, I'd be begging for a group of guys to treat me like that all over again. Keith, I didn't know it that night, but that one night really has turned out to be the greatest night of my whole life! Damn man, I want it done to me all over again! And I've wanted it done to me again, ever since that next week-end when I finally realized how fucking good they had really treated me! I had four of the greatest guys treating me, and I was just too damn stupid to know it! Damn man! I wish I had been smart enough that night, to understand that what they were doing to me was really a gift, ----a gift I'd remember for the rest of my life! Never got fucked around with, like that again. I did find Zack again later in the semester, and he and I turned out to be lovers, for three years, till he had to move to New York. Now I get to play around with him, just a few times a year, whenever he can come out here, or I can go back there! Damn this long distance stuff! We've talked about that night often and a lot. We have some good thoughts about how we met! I just can not believe that I really did have the night, that most gay guys beg for, and I was too damn stupid to know what was really happening to me! Today, I wish I could be lovers to all four of those guys! I want it again!"