Date: Tue, 19 Feb 2019 13:43:03 +0000 From: Daniel Berasaluce Frías Subject: The cockroach man - chapter 3 - LOSING IT ALL AND WINNING. Chapter 3 -- LOSING IT ALL AND WINNING. Nifty is the constant source of all your erotic dreams. All kinds of fetishes can be found here. We don't want this website to ever stop. Think for a minute if you can afford it and help sustain Nifty with your donations. Freedom can move your life and it can be seen even in the hardest conditions, together with love and friendship, happiness and beauty. Have a look at the life of eight beggars who live together at: www.luces-delatierra.blogspot.com.es or in English at: www.lightsoftheearth.blogspot.com.es Once we were home, he told me please to first show him round the house. -I don't want to order you today. I need to be sweet with my brother --he added. It took us twenty minutes to move through all the rooms in my house, our house too if he wanted. He praised every single piece of furniture, everything which was decorated with luxury. We also went up the stairs and once he had seen everything, I turned to him and sweetly kissed his mouth again. Then I told him. -Hope you fuck me soon, Robin. -Don't you have any servants? -I have five, but they come in the morning hours when I am at work. They leave me lunch and dinner prepared. I'm not hungry now, if that's your worry. You can fuck me, please. -I won't order you today but just suggest you. Why don't we have a coffee first? Naked if you want. -I want the cockroach to return, Robin, but today I only want to give you my sweetness, and the best of me. Ok, let's go to the kitchen and I will prepare coffee, but as I do, I would like you to sit comfortably naked in the living room waiting for me to finish. I'll take everything off when coffee is made. And I wonder: well, Robin, your body's so perfect that I would like to touch you, can I? -Wonderful, my hot Zach. Then, we'll touch each other. It was again a wonderful show to see my brother's perfect body once he was totally nude there in the living room. Then I entered the kitchen and finished coffees, brought them on a tray and once they were on the table I started to strip, and Robin, who was already naked awaiting me started to shamelessly jerk himself off again. How hot to always see him horny at me. My erection then was one of my highest. I sat and started to drink my coffee and soon I started to grope his naked chest, and then I saw my brother grasped my cock and started to masturbate me as with his other hand he groped my balls fondly and sometimes came up my chest and sensuously rubbed my nipples. It was such great fun that I had to do the same to him and I told him ok, he could jack me off if that was his wish but I would do the same to him. -Please, Zach, you've made me cum too often. Now it's me that wants to make you cum, only me now please. He was jacking me off for three minutes and I saw then how long I could hold it but my surprise soon was greater when I saw him arching his back, coming to my dick and starting to blow me! -Robin, I don't want to deny you any pleasure, but are you sure about this? -Every day in my office I had the increasing need to know the taste of my brother's cock. I've told you I've never been fucked, that's true, but I have sucked cocks many times and you will know now what fun it is to be blown by a boy. -My sweet Robin, I won't deny you anything. I really appreciate you now, so please do whatever can be fun for you, but I desperately need you to fuck me. -Have fun now in your dick, brother, and meanwhile you can think it twice. I needn't fuck you and it will surely hurt you and I don't want to give you pain. -Maybe I like losing, degrading and everything because I am a masochist. Who knows? I might even enjoy the pain. And I will certainly surrender my ass to my brother and it must be today, Robin. And this is an ultimatum. If you don't fuck me today, I'll try to find a gay bar and someone willing to fuck me, so you can fuck me later. You know how happy I am with you. Will you let any other boy to be first to fuck me or could you please give me the greatest gift of being for the first time incestuously fucked, as I wish? -Ok, Zach, I see I have no chance; I compromise, I'll try. But if I did fuck you, I hope you keep your desire of us sleeping together tonight. -It's a deal, my hot brother. He was obviously enjoying the taste of my cock and I was surprised seeing how long I could resist, even though being blown by my brother, who I had though insensitive and cruel, but had surprised me as a sweet person after all, was the greatest fun I'd had in life. I hadn't had many previous blowjobs, but some I had had, about ten times. But this pleasure was supreme as I really waited being fucked. I saw in his face that he had heeded my ultimatum and knew I was sufficiently stubborn to be fucked tomorrow by some other boy if he did not fuck me first. But I saw he was convinced that I needed my brother's dick to open me up. It was fire in my dick that slowly started to become lava and it had to finally explode and descend down his throat. As he was drinking my semen, he told me, he wanted to do it every now and then. I assured him that since he had fun with my dick, now it was his to enjoy as often as he wanted and told him I hoped now he would fuck me and I jumped to the floor and showed him my ass telling him please to do it. -Ok, I will. Hope you like it. Get on all fours, please. -Be it as you wish, my dear Robin. And unhibitedly at last he drove his long cock into my ass. I was not prepared for such pain and suddenly I thought I was not a masochist after all. I was a man; it was not the time to be his filthy cockroach, not today at least for Robin did not want to humiliate me today. Not knowing that he was hurting me, thank God I managed to hide it to him, he pierced me again with one of his sweetest smiles and instantly he kissed me with love. I thought as he was kissing me that other men had been fucked before and had stood the pain, even, I was sure, boys fucked by my brother's long dick. As he was still kissing me and touching my whole body I thought that the psychological pleasure of being incestuously fucked would make me resist the pain. And Robin loved me. I had to give myself completely to my brother. I wanted the cockroach to return but I was a man now and had to show him my manhood. I remembered well how he had told me the first day that he wanted to steal my virility. But I just thought in that moment that being fucked, instead of diminishing your virility, increases it because a real man is a man not only able to withstand great pains but also a man capable to admit his sexual compulsions, his real desires, and my desires now were being with boys and constantly having sex with Robin. So I gritted my teeth and somehow withstood the pain, easier being constantly kissed. And at last it stopped hurting me. I didn't tell him anything for I didn't want him to know that it had hurt me previously. I just yelled in happiness: yeah, brother, keep on fucking me. But those words made him so horny that he only took two more minutes to blast a first load which fell in my ass like a balm, as if he had just turned a cockroach into a real man. -You've made me feel proud to be your cockroach for some days, Robin; now I feel the pride of a real man, which I have also become today thanks to you. You will stay here today, won't you? -Zach, if you want us to sleep together, I can return later and leave you alone now. -I don't love you yet, sweetheart, but I need to love you. And I sincerely entreat you not to leave, today or any day. Look Robin, I like boys more than girls now and you above all. I need you. I want us to share the house. -I also have a house, not as luxurious as yours and... -As ours --I interrupted. -As ours if you want. You know I love you and if you want me to stay, I will. But what I was gonna say is that we could also sleep some days in my house, which could also be ours. Our other house, I'd call it. Well, I'm not hungry but maybe you should eat something. -I won't. And since it is still too early to go to bed, where I would entreat you to fuck me again, we could spend the afternoon naked watching porn. I'm only sorry now I have no gay or bisexual movies. -I also like girls and you too. We can get horny at the girls' bodies and at the same time commenting on the boys' bodies. Or we could watch gay porn on the computer, for I guess you have a computer at home. -I have. So we can watch some old heterosexual movies I have here first and later watch gay porn in my room. He nodded and we spent the afternoon watching porn, first in my living room, getting horny at both boys and girls. Later we went up to my bedroom and shamelessly searched for gay porn now. Formerly we had been jacking off, each with his own dick, but in my room, as I was easy with my brother now, I grasped his cock and jacked him off and he did the same to me. Thus we were for a couple of hours and we shot two loads till it was dinner time and now we were hungry and ate the salmon my servants had left me for lunch. Both our boners were highest, clearly saying we were both satisfied of the events today and horny as hell knowing now we were going to a new battle in bed. I had beseeched him not to have a shower and we started to share the same bed again. It was the first time I was in bed with a boy and first we sensuously kissed and touched for minutes till at last I said. -I'm lucky enough Robin, that you made me know the taste of your feet. But your pit scent has been driving me crazy the whole day. So I want to lick them first and shoot my first load with them in our bed. -Do what you want, my hot Zach. The smell of pits also drives me crazy. And I want you to start cumming. I was licking his pits for no longer than five minutes for the taste was so good that it made me soon blast my first load that night. After cumming I praised Robin's animal smell and told him I would like him to smell more often like this. He answered that he would also like me to smell and next he told me he wanted to suck my cock one more time. -My hot Robin, I've still had no chance to suck your tasty cock as your brother and man now. The blowjob this morning as your cockroach does not count. You can do it again, if that's your wish, but why don't we sixty-nine? He agreed and I changed the position so my mouth could be level with his cock and was first to suck it, but two seconds later, he started to blow me again. It was heaven to be sucking a cock not being a cockroach now, though I knew well I wanted the filthy incest to return every morning. At the same time his tongue was driving me crazy a second time, more knowing Robin reveled in the taste of my manhood. It was the first time in my life that I sixty-nined and I knew well I could not hold it for long, as sure as I was that Robin was close too. So we decided to finally cum, me with the thrill of knowing I wanted my brother to fuck me a second time and I told him. -Ok, my hot Zach. You're the sexiest boy in the world. I will fuck you. This time he lasted for more than twenty minutes and now I was sure that it would not hurt me again. I didn't fall in love that first night but with his fucking me, I was close. He was all I needed for the rest of my life. When he finally shot his load, I told him. -Now I hope, Robin, that you stay here forever. And please never forget to often treat me as your cockroach. I really need it and it would be heaven to give you a morning blowjob at E-mole every day. -Zach, if you really want me to stay here with you, you won't give me blowjobs at the office, but in this house, where we can comfortably be naked, blow each other, I could trample you and so on. -Ok, my sweet Robin. Since the following day I had no obligation to suck his cock in his office, I wanted to surprise my brother in a different way, and after knocking at his door at eleven, I went in showing him my car keys and told him. -Here you have the keys of the Mercedes that has been mine so far but now it's yours. You can look through the window and see your car, Sir --finally I was calling him Sir again. He smiled at me and I was sure I could always call him the way I chose to call him. He told me. -I hope you never repent of what you have just done, Zach. -Never, Robin Pollock --it was always moving to call my brother by the name he should have had-. I can always buy a new car. And I feel better losing things so you can earn them. Please my hot Robin. Don't forget the cockroach when we finally return to our house. -I will not forget it, Zach, since you need it. I'll be every day your sweet brother and your sir. Hope you call me both sir and Robin, depending on what I might be doing to you. One more thing: we will leave today at 2 and will head to our house. But it will be you driving what is now my Mercedes. And you will be the only driver till you buy a new car. -Right, Robin, Sir. And just the next day, I would buy a white Bentley car, which was my car, but the Mercedes was now my brother's car, but our car, and either of us could be driving it. As soon as we were again in our house, we stripped and Robin told me to 69 first and after we came he ordered me to become his cockroach one more time. So I lied on the floor and moved my arms and legs the same way a moribund cockroach must be doing. He overjoyed in watching me like that and trampled me as if he were finishing me off. I was a good while like that till at last, as he wanted, I shot a new load. And after that, he told me. -My sweet Zach, I've just taken a decision for I love you and if someone ever does it, it has to be you. I want you to fuck me. -Robin, sweetheart, I never told you but the first time you fucked me really hurt. I don't have to do that to you, are you sure? -We will try, Zach, just look at my ass and hope you get horny. Come on, brother, try. The vision of his sexy crack almost made me shoot a new load, I couldn't believe Robin Pedler, or Robin Pollock, as I had begun to call him now, was surrendering his ass to me. But I took a deep breath and tried. And as soon as I drove my cock in his ass, he told me to please stop, it hurts too much. So as I was sure I never wanted to rape my sweet brother now, I took it instantly out. He apologized to me but told me we would have more attempts. That day we were constantly having sex, both before bed and in bed. I began wondering whether I could finally put my house under his name but was never certain that I should do it. I suggested that the next day, in his office, at least we could jack each other off and we also started a new routine of enjoying sex with each other at work. Once in our house, he asked me again to try and fuck him and I had a new attempt and this time my brother could stand my cock inside him for five minutes till he asked me again please to take it out. I told him I had no need to fuck him, but he told me no matter how many times it took him to be opened up by my dick, but I would finally cum inside his ass. Thus we were trying for a week, some days more than once, till one day I saw him gritting his teeth and determined to stand the pain till the end. He just told me to go on, no matter how much it hurt him. It was five hard minutes till at last he told me it didn't hurt him anymore and begged me to continue for now it was pleasant. When I finally came in his ass, I began to be aware of something. His resilience, his stubbornness, his sweetness... all of this had made the miracle: I had also fallen in love! But I would not tell him, for now I really had to ponder whether I could give him everything. He noticed me sweeter with him than any other day and told me. I said nothing and continued having sex with Robin, Pedler or Pollock, the boy I was in love with now. So the next days, as we continued fucking sweetly, fucking each other for he had told me he did not want me bottom and now it was exquisite pleasure for him being shagged by his brother, I started to seriously meditate, always hiding him the important fact that I was in love with him. Could I trust my brother, Mr. Robin Pedler? It was true that he had started with me with the clear aim to deprive me of everything and humiliate me for life. I could be the greatest of fools if ever I put my house under his name, couldn't I? At the same time I could clearly perceive that I had been given a drug I would need for life: losing, mostly if it was losing everything. I need you; I love you, Robin. I want to keep on losing and maybe losing it all, I could win. I thought briefly about trust: what does it mean? Do other couples trust their partners? Does love make you blind or you have clearly seen in your partner's eyes that he is trustworthy? Could I really know whether Robin's love was true if I didn't first give him everything I had? And I was sure that if he betrayed my confidence after all and took my house, I would certainly cry in bitterness, but because he would have been playing with my feelings, not because of the house itself; I could certainly buy a new house, or even find another job, if my brother were a bastard after all. I spent two weeks thinking about all this till at last, and always hiding it to him; I took the necessary legal measures to put my house under Mr. Pedler's name. And one day after work I told him we'd better have something in a bar for I had to tell him something. So there we were at The Cave again. -Robin, here you have the papers which clearly show that my house now belongs to Mr. Robin Pedler. Forgive me, but that's your legal name and I couldn't give it to you with the name of Robin Pollock. -Then it's our house, Zach and... But I had to tell him something more. -But you know, Robin: I still have to give you something more which you desired but never asked me: my love. Because it is true that I love you, deeply brother, if you think that it makes sense that two brothers love each other. Now you can do anything you want with me for if I had not done this, I could never trust you. -Zach, the sweetest of brothers, the most courageous of men, the greatest of people and so many more superlatives that I could add. I grew up without any family and now I have the brother I never knew I had. And of course two brothers loving each other makes sense, cause we agree and harm nobody. Now I will show you that you can trust me. The house has my name but it's ours, ours can't you see? I'll never betray you, Zach, I love you, please trust me. He had told me all that with perceptible tears in his eyes and I didn't give a damn about people and approached my lips to his and kissed him there, in the terrace. When we returned to our house, legally his house, but always ours, he was sweeter with me than any other day, still unable to believe that I loved him. But he could soon see it and neither of us was ever top or bottom. We spend the days fucking each other, sucking each other's cocks and of course kissing and always sleeping together. From playing like a cockroach, for he was always sure that I loved being his cockroach, I soon started to be his dog. He threw objects away for instance and I walked on all fours and barking till I picked them up and brought them to him, usually kissing his cock in gratitude, which could lead us to a new blowjob or any other thing he preferred. But his favourite animal was the cat. I started growing a moustache which he called my whiskers and he poured milk in a plate and I drank it in his presence, always purring in joy as I drank. So I was many animals for him. I was his cockroach, his dog and his cat, always losing my dignity for him, though he told me I had a lot of courage to live the way I wanted and I never lost my dignity with other people. Ten years later, we continue together and I love remembering my first days with him, with my brother, the man I love. I realize now how losing it all, I had won it all. I need a moment of the day to degrade and show him my degradation but the rest of the day I need the sweetness of a brother and boyfriend. Now I also have the brother I never had and a partner at last. I love Robin Pollock.