Date: Mon, 11 Sep 2006 15:44:55 +0000 From: John G Subject: Watching Pete All rights reserved. Other than downloading one copy for personal enjoyment, no part of this story may be reproduced or transmitted by any means, except for reviews, without the written permission of the author. Comments on the story are appreciated and may be addressed to the author at word-grrrrrrrr@hotmail.com This story contains descriptions of consensual sexual contact between adult males. If you are not of legal age to read such material please leave now. My own fucking son calls me an old man. "Hey old man.." Old man...at thirty fucking seven..? Trouble is, I know it's true. Or at least, getting that way. We had Pete early - way too early. Me and his mother weren't more than seventeen when I got her pregnant. Long time ago. We stayed together for maybe twelve, thirteen years, but by then we'd had enough of each other for a fucking lifetime... I thought she was a bitch then, and I think she's a bitch now. We could have stuck it out if she hadn't been so set on a bigger house and bigger car and all that shit. Bigger fucking everything. I stayed put – same house, same car. Just no wife and no son. A couple of years later, no fucking job either. Old fucking man seemed about right. I drank too much, I guess. Nothing much of a life really. He said it again, "Hey old man..." I didn't recognise him. It was a dark night – my sort of neighbourhood didn't much go in for street lighting. A few too many beers didn't help either... He shoved his face close up against mine. "...it's Pete, for fuck's sake." A shake of his head. He tried again. "Fuck's sake. It's Pete." And that was that. Pete meant to stay, it seemed. Bag over his shoulder, he pushed in, storming from room to room, muttering to himself as he remembered the house. My house. Used to be his house, too. I dragged myself round after him. Just watching and wondering what the fuck was going on. "OK old man. Let's have a beer." We did. More than one. I remembered my boy. Pete looked nothing like me at all. Never had. If he took his looks from anybody in the family, it was the old bastard who'd threatened to cut my balls off if I didn't do the right thing by his daughter. The old bastard who was exactly the kind of guy I'd spent most of my life avoiding. Pete and I said pretty well nothing to each other. I was out of the habit of small-talk. He just sat, seeming happy with the silence and the beer. Still a grin on his face, sprawled in my favourite chair. Not a care in the world, it looked like. A tough guy - just like his fucking granddad... Somewhere along the line he'd got himself a broken nose. Rangy and muscled, with short cropped hair, Pete looked like the sort of guy you wouldn't want to cross. Never short of women, I'd guess. He looked at me. "I'm gonna stay for a bit." I cooked him up some eggs and bacon. It was going to be my supper, but I could do without. "Place is a shit heap..." he said, as I sorted out some bedclothes. "...fuckin shit heap." He looked me in the eye. "Fuckin hell, old man. Can't stay in shit like this." ****************************************************************************************************** Pete was in charge. No doubt about that from the start. And he expected me to work as hard as he did. As I fought my way through a hangover that first morning, he banged and crashed his way round the house, sweeping and scrubbing like a whirling fucking dervish. A dust storm of activity. Bad-tempered as fuck, he'd grunt out tasks for me to do, and then grunt out a couple of choice obscenities when I didn't do them to his liking. "Jesus, old man, just fuckin do it." I just fucking did it. But I did something else too. Even then, right at the beginning, that very first day, I watched him. I looked at him. I scarcely could keep my fucking eyes off him. For eight or so years now I'd kept myself to myself. Kept the world out, kept me in. And here, suddenly, was some fucking kid – my son – bringing a dazzling, flashing, blinding burst of energy and youth and sheer fucking animal excitement into my dead life. After all this time living in my own mess, the house began to feel and smell good again. He'd given me some cash, and I'd bought what he wanted. Polishes, potions, lotions. The place was big – built for a family – and I'd just pretty well left everything in place when they'd gone. Watched it decay, through a haze of beer and smoke and self-pity... He had plans, my son. "The fuckin place's fallin down..." he told me over his beer. "I'm gonna get some timbers in and put a new roof over the porch." Pete didn't ask me. He told me. Pete sure as hell wasn't a modest guy. Sometimes he wore shorts, sometimes not. Maybe a tee-shirt. Maybe not. The first morning, he woke me at dawn with a mug of coffee – fucking dawn, for chrissakes – dripping wet from the bath, towel round his neck. He tugged the sheet away from my face. "Fuck's sake old man – you look like shit." Pete didn't much bother about closing doors either. Showering or shitting, Pete was there to see. And I saw. Whether he was dressed for a night at the bar or wandering half-naked about the house, Pete was absolutely, utterly sure and confident in his own skin. He simply didn't give a damn. If I looked like him I figured that neither would I. A couple of days after getting here, Pete brought my dawn cup of coffee. Dripping wet as usual, he sniffed the air. "You smell like shit." he grunted. "I've run a tub, and you ain't getting out till you're fuckin spotless." He scowled, daring me to complain. "Pants off and in the fuckin bath, old man." He stood there waiting. "Jesus, old man, just do it." I just did it. He didn't leave me to it, either. Pete had decided I needed cleaning and that was what he was going to do. I crouched red-faced and shrivel-cocked in the sudsy water, as he rinsed the soap out of my hair. "You need a fuckin haircut. Jesus, old man, you need more sortin than the house. Bit of self-respect, for fuck's sake." He scrubbed my back, then round and across my belly and chest. "You stopped eatin, or somethin?" He washed me as if I was some snotty-nosed kid. I don't know when anybody, man or woman, last saw me naked. Far less touched me. His mother, I guess. Pete scrubbed and manhandled me clean, muttering to himself rather than me, "Jesus, look at the state of you, for chrissakes." Pete spared me no blushes. Thank fuck I didn't get hard. There's not much to see when I do, but thank fuck anyway. I was raised shy. Always fast to redden, easy to embarrass. Even with his mother, I'd kept myself pretty much covered. I guess I didn't feel I'd much to show off. Or so she said, before she left. "You're all shrunk up, old man." He grunted a laugh. A quick swipe with the towel across my backside. "Gonna get you somethin to wear that ain't dirty and ain't fallin to bits." His bed was strewn with some old clothes from when he was a kid. I'd kept everything, or rather, I hadn't thrown anything out. He chucked me a pair of shorts. "Remember these? They gotta fit you. Jesus, I used to wear them every fuckin day of my life." I stepped into Pete's old blue cotton shorts. Faded, a bit threadbare, soft against my skin. Big and loose, like the ones Pete wore. They felt good, and I felt good. He didn't offer a shirt, and I already knew better than to ask. Pete had inherited his granddaddy's temper. Looking me up and down, scowling, then a shrug. "A bit better, I suppose." Grudging praise, more for himself than for me. "Get some sun and fresh air on you. Some decent food in that scrawny fuckin belly." Shaking his head, and scowling again, " You're quittin smokin." No doubt about it, Pete was a world-class scowler. At first, we didn't talk much. We sure as hell didn't ask each other anything. He told me what he wanted to happen, and I tried my best to do it. My very best. I was in awe of this new presence in my life. Grunting, criticising and complaining – Pete took my fucking breath away. On the rare occasion when he thought that I'd got something right, he'd grunt "Said you could do it." Usually he hadn't. He'd ruffle my hair and sling his arm over my shoulder. "Gotta cut that fuckin hair." Skin against skin. He came up behind me, arms around my belly, lifting me off the ground. "Still a fuckin skeleton," he whispered in my ear. The heat and contours of his body against mine stayed with me for the rest of the day. ****************************************************************************************************** At night, after Pete had gone to bed, I got in the way of wandering about the house. He'd bought some workout stuff and some weights. I sat on the bench and tried to figure out what each piece was. I tried a couple of weights, imagining him stretching and lifting. Muscles straining, sweat on skin glinting. Hidden in the shadow of the half-closed door, I looked into his bedroom. A shaft of moonlight bathed him a washed-out blue-white. He was naked, sprawled out, sheet pushed aside. Masturbating slowly, lazily, like he was in a dream. Or I was in a dream. I couldn't not watch. Jesus. I watched. I watched him till he finished, till he came. Ribbons of silvery cum glistening and glinting in the moonlight. Softly grunting and moaning like some fucking animal. Some beautiful fucking animal. I came, too. In the dark shadow of the door, my hand buried in my shorts, I came almost without knowing it. I watched him till, cock softened and cum dried across his belly, his breathing slowed into the gentle rhythms of sleep. Once, in the first few days, after a night in the bar, he brought a girl home. Shadowed again in my hiding place by his door, I listened to her moan as she took him in her mouth, licking and sucking. I watched my son's big cock slide into her. I watched him bury his face in her breasts, sucking her nipples, his hips thrusting and swaying as he fucked her. A long slow hard fuck. I watched, mesmerised, astonished by it all... My cock jerked as I came, in the dark silent shadow. Came more than I ever came before in my life. My cock harder than it had ever been. ****************************************************************************************************** "I hated you for fuckin years after you and her split up." Beers in hand we sat on the half-built porch. I said nothing. What could I say? "Week before we went..." he was talking softly, face sullen, "...I'd swore at her, and she sent me to my fuckin room till you got home." Pete took another gulp of beer. "I was fuckin stickin up for you, for chrissakes. She got real mad, and said you were a fuckin loser or somethin." Another mouthful of beer. "You remember?" I shrugged. Nothing to say. "Sure you remember." His eyes on me, now – face shadowed and closed. "You fuckin bastard. You came up to my room and shouted the fuck at me. And I was crying and saying it was me stickin up for you." I couldn't look at Pete – head down, I just waited. Probably I remembered. "You grabbed me over your knee and gave me the hardest thrashin ever. And I was cryin and kept sayin it was for you, and you kept fuckin whackin me." His fists were clenched. "Fuck's sake, old man. You could have kept me. It wasn't my fuckin fault." Pete looked at me. Eyes bright with tears, half-drunk like me. Nothing more to say. We sat with our beers till late. I heard his whisper behind me as I left to go to bed, "I was takin your fuckin side. You shouldn't have let her take me." I cried myself to sleep. I guess Pete did too. We were both drunk, but I had a lifetime of holding it. Pete didn't. In the early hours of the morning, just before dawn, I went to his room, going right in for the first time, kneeling beside his bed. Reaching over him, I gently lifted the sheet away from his belly and thighs. Exposing him, his cock lazy and heavy across his belly. I tried to memorise every fucking line and plane of his body, every muscle and contour. Pete simply took my breath away – I drank him in, breathed him in. Just looking... I came later, in my bed. In my hand. Jesus. ****************************************************************************************************** "Like, she was your first?" Pete asked. "She said you were just kids?" Too many questions, all of a sudden. Slumped on the porch, as always, late into the night, with too many beers in our bellies. Pete's money, wherever it came from, had treated us to a couple of steaks on the grill in the backyard. The July heat was still fierce, even this long after dark. We sprawled on the old easy chairs he'd dragged out from the living room. I had to tell him something. I told Pete that the first time his mother and me did it, we made him. Pete grunted, starting another beer. "Beginner's luck." Pete lay back in his chair, easy and relaxed, eyes closed, humming a tuneless tune. We opened another couple of beers. For the next couple of hours, till he slouched off to bed, I looked across at him, and remembered that first time with his mother, and what had come of it. Who had come of it. ****************************************************************************************************** There didn't seem any pattern to Pete's schedule of works. He'd tell me what to do, and I'd do it. Truth is, after a couple of weeks, I began to get into Pete's way of working. Just sometimes, I had the right tool, or drill bit, or nail or whatever ready when Pete needed it. "Fuckin old man's a master builder all of a sudden," he'd shake his head, "Jesus!" He'd say, "Get us a beer then, for fuck's sake. I got to think of everything?" I fetched, carried, steadied ladders, hammered nails, whatever the boy wanted. I was always close by, always watching, just waiting for Pete to say something, or to shout at me or curse me. Or, just sometimes, miraculously, to not curse me. "Jesus. That's actually straight, old man. You sickenin for somethin?" Or, "Steaks not burnt tonight. Not sure I can eat it this way..." Sometimes, I'd turn and see him looking at me. He'd hold my eye for a couple of beats, then, scowling, he'd grunt, "What you lookin at? Jesus, old man." I always reddened, looking away, and he always laughed. He'd grab me from behind, hoisting me up, squeezing me tight. "Skin and fuckin bones. Maybe I ain't workin you hard enough." He'd ruffle my hair, and laugh as I dodged away, blushing. I couldn't not look at him, couldn't keep my eyes off him... I knew that he knew that. Of course he had to know that. But I just couldn't not do it. He'd say, "Left my bathwater for you." Pete would shave, still naked and dripping, while I soaked and watched, my knees pulled up to my chest, hiding myself. He'd shake his head, "Bath's supposed to be relaxin. Jesus, look at you." Sometimes he'd shave sitting on the edge of the bath, telling me his plans for the day to come. "Hold the fuckin mirror steady, for chrissakes." One evening, he said, "Can't stay here for ever, you know." We were sitting on the porch, drinking beer, both of us silent as ever. Just sitting. Day over, exhausted and sweaty in the sultry heat. Me watching him looking up at the sky. Me watching Pete's cock outlined in his loose cotton shorts. No matter that I saw him naked a dozen times a day. How could I not still look and look, wondering and imagining and needing? After our beers we slept a couple of hours where we were, till he wakened me, "Time for bed, sleeping beauty." It was what I used to say to his mother. ****************************************************************************************************** It was at that hour of the night when the darkness seems most absolutely black. Kneeling by his bed, I waited, impatient now, for the first tiny ray of dawn to light the room. We'd had a bellyful of beer the night before, and Pete was deep in sleep, lost to the world. I tried to imagine my way into his sleeping mind, trying to spy on his dreams and thoughts. I tried to imagine being him. The thing I needed most in the whole world was to know what it was like being Pete. The first faint morning glow washed across his naked body. Squinting, I could just make out the flat hard planes of his chest, the ridges of belly muscle swooping down to the ghostly shadow of his cock, rooted in its dark patch of sweat-tangled hair. Tonight I just had to know. Know and feel and touch. I simply fucking had to. Slowly, scarcely breathing, terrified now beyond life itself, I leaned over my son's body. Just one finger, that's all. Just one touch. Just to feel it. Slowly, gently, amid the silence and dawning light, I touched Pete's cock. I ran my finger along the length of it, the mysterious, heavy length of it. Jesus. Perhaps I closed my eyes, storing the memory of it, the shape and size and smell of it. Every contour and every fucking inch of it. I must have closed my eyes. Jesus. I'd just closed my eyes. "Chrissakes, old man. What the fuck you doin?" It was Pete, now clear in the watery light, looking down at me, swinging his legs past me as he sat up. It was Pete, on the edge of his bed, feet firmly planted either side of my kneeling body, One hand on my wrist, the other locked tight on my shoulder, he trapped me firm and in place. I could see the growing rage in his eyes, across his brow. No escaping now. "Fuck's sake, old man." Again, "Fuck's sake." Pete spat the words out. This storm of anger had been a long, long time brewing. I guess I was crying just a little, eyes down, face flushed scarlet. His cock and balls hung, languid and heavy, just inches from my face... Then, with the ease of a man lifting a child, he pulled me up, off my knees and over his lap. Hands on the waistband of those threadbare old shorts, dragging them off, jerking them past my jutting erection. I was sobbing now, pleading with him. I had no idea what I was asking for. Whatever Pete wanted, I guess. I hadn't been physically hurt in years, but Pete hurt me now. No gentleness and no mercy - Pete's anger filled, cascaded through the room. With each slap I cried out, sobbing his name. He was strong, and he held me tight and smacked me harder and harder, over and over till the pain seemed to reverberate through my entire fucking body. With each blow, my cock slid back and forth, slippery between his thigh and my belly. I came with a juddering spasm, gasping and dazed with the pain and need and shock of it. Pete swung his legs, and me, onto the bed. Handling me like some old rag-doll, he dragged me up the bed, squirming and snivelling, red-faced and wide-eyed, as I tried to cover my cum-slicked cock, to keep it hidden from him. His anger flared again, his voice hard, "Stay fuckin still, for chrissakes. Just do what I fuckin say for once in your fuckin life. You never fuckin listen." Arm roughly over my shoulder, he pulled me close into his side. He spat on his palm, smearing it along the length of his cock, slowly, lazily bringing himself to full erection. He grunted a laugh in my ear, cupping his balls, stroking his cock, thick and hard in front of me. "This is what you want to fuckin see. You should have fuckin kept me, old man. Seen it all you wanted then." Pete watched me, as I watched him spray his cum over my belly and chest. He turned his body towards me, pushing his engorged cock hard against mine. "Got you well fuckin beat, old man. Jesus. Just fuckin look at you. Pathetic fuckin cunt." He rubbed his spit and cum over my hardon, and I came in his hand. We just lay, side by side. I watched his face, haloed in the bright dawn sunlight, as it slowly, slowly relaxed, anger and pain draining from him. His eyes now half-closed, his voice was low and tired. "Just let me get some fuckin sleep." A moment later, a second thought. Taking my hand, he pulled it down his belly, pressing it against him. With his cock, my son's cock, warm and thick and heavy in my fist, I watched him fall asleep. He was gone by the time I woke.