Date: Fri, 8 Apr 2011 19:34:09 -0700 (PDT) From: Trish Riddle Subject: A Voice from the Past Chapter11 Warning: This story is fiction- all names were made up. So if there is anyone out there with these names, I don't know them. If you do not like the idea of male relationships, then please do not read any further. This is my first story, so please let me know how you think I'm doing. I have been reading the stories on Nifty for about three years, and decided that I wanted to give it a try as a Nifty writer. I would like to know what you think... so send me an email, and let me know. Please add the story title in the subject line. I want to thank the few that have taken the time to email me. Good or bad I would like to know that you are reading my story. I want to thank Joe for all the help he has given me throughout this story. Without his help, I probably wouldn't be as far into the story as I am. I also want to thank Jere for taking the time to edit the story for me. Now, get comfortable, read the story, and I'm hoping that you enjoy it! A Voice from The Past Chapter 11 "Travis Wilson?" Jimmy asked, looking as his father. "Yes, James, the man was Travis Wilson. You have to understand that when Travis and I first started seeing each other, I was not going to hide this from your mother. With her being pregnant, I didn't want to have anything happen to the baby. I didn't know till she was about to give birth that she was carrying twins. I knew after the babies were born, I would talk with her. I never got the chance. She died giving birth to you boys," Daniel said, with tears in his eyes. "How can you say you loved her while seeing Travis? You didn't love her," Jimmy said. "I did love her, and a she still has a place in my heart. I will always love her. After all, she gave me my boys...," Daniels was saying, but Jimmy cut him off. "Your boys; you have a funny way of showing your love for your boys," Jimmy said. "James, you will not speak to me like that. I want you to listen to me," Daniel said. "Alright, you have five minutes," Jimmy said. "Okay, Travis and I did sneak around the whole time I was with your mother. It was easy, as we were partners; so no one questioned us being together all the time. Travis was the first guy, and only one I have ever done anything with. I thought there would never be any other guy. He was wonderful! He always knew he was gay. No one in our families knew about us. So keeping the secret was something with both wanted. After your mother died, things changed. Travis wanted everyone to know about us, and wanted to come out of the closet. He wanted to get married, and live a happy life with me, and you boys. He had grown to love both of you, and he wanted to be a dad to you boys, as well. I still didn't want anyone to know. I had just made Lieutenant. It couldn't be known that I was a gay man, and was going to be married. So I told Travis that we could not see each other until he got the idea out of his head that we would be married. One night, he came to see me. He told me that if I didn't take him back, he was going to tell everyone on the force about us. That scared me! I didn't know what to do. A couple days later, I found out that you were gay, and I lost it. I didn't want you to go through what I was feeling. So I thought that if I treated you the way I did, you would think twice about being gay," Daniel was saying, when Jimmy interrupted and said, "Think twice about being gay? Did you really just say that? I had no choice in being gay. I want you know that I would cry myself to sleep at night, because I thought you hated me for being gay. I wished I wasn't, just so you could love me," Jimmy said, tears rolling down his face. "Oh, James, I didn't hate you! I never hated you!" Daniel said, going toward Jimmy, who stepped behind Andy. "Then why did you want to shoot me; only Jeremy came home first," Jimmy asked. "Oh, my God! I didn't want to kill you or your brother. You two have been my life! The only thing I had to hold onto. I lost your mother, and then Travis. I didn't want to lose you two boys, also," Daniel said. "Then what happened that night?" Jimmy asked. "Let's sit back down and I'll tell you," Daniel said, sitting down, with tears in his eyes. "I had try to get Travis to see that I didn't want our secret out. He insisted on it. I had to come up with a way to keep my secret buried. So, as much I didn't want to, I had to plan a way to get Travis out of my life." Daniel had to stop, as he thought back to that terrible night. Jimmy looked at Andy with a worried look in his eyes, as well as a few tears. Andy even has some tears. "I called Travis and told him I wanted him to come over. We would talk about coming out as a couple. I told him you had plans, and Jeremy was at camp. We would have the evening to ourselves. I had it planned, and I was scared to death! After that night, my life was going to change. I was starting to have all kinds of doubts. I didn't know if I could do it. Would I be able to kill a man? I have shot and killed people before, but that was work-related. I told him to come in the kitchen door; I would have it unlocked. I sat there waiting on Travis, with the idea running through my head. I would say it was a break in; that I came home and heard someone in the kitchen. Knowing you were out, I got my gun, and went into the kitchen. I sat there at the table waiting. Finally, I heard the car pull up. My hands were sweating, and I was so nervous; could I do this? Could I take a man's life, just because I wanted to keep a secret? Would I get away with it? Slowly, I heard the footsteps coming to the door. My hands started shaking, as the door slowly opened. I didn't even give him a chance to say anything; the door opened, and I fired the gun. One shot to the chest. Someone fell to the floor. Then, the next thing I knew, in walks Travis. `Daniel, baby, what was that sound' Travis asked. I then realized that I just shot someone else. I looked at the floor, and the breathe just went out of me. My Jeremy was laying there on the floor. I jumped down to the floor, and he was still alive, so I cradled him in my arms, praying that he would be okay. He looked at me with tears in his eyes, and said, `Why, daddy?' What was I to tell him? Then he coughed, and said, `Tell Jimmy I love him.' Then he died," Daniel said, putting his head in his hands, and breaking down in sobs. "Jeremy said that? Why did you have to be so selfish? We could have talked it out about you and Travis. You didn't need to do this. Now, I will never have Jeremy to talk to again. He loved me! He did not care I was gay! He loved me!" Jimmy said, crying, and running out of the visiting room. Daniel got up, as if he was going to go after Jimmy, but Andy stopped him. "Don't think about it! He needs time. After he has time to think of what you told him, and to do some healing, maybe he will come back to see you. I wouldn't blame him one bit if he didn't," Andy said. "Andy, will you take care of my boy?" Daniels asked. "Yes, I will! We love Jimmy! My whole family loves him. My son loves him like a big brother," Andy said. "I will be gone for a long time. I am going to sign a confession telling the whole story. I am going to plead guilty. I will sign papers making you Jimmy's legal guardian, if you would like," Daniel said. "I would love that; only I would want more then guardianship. I would like to adopt Jimmy. I will try to get him to come see you again; maybe after the trial is over," Andy said. "Thank you, Andy. I do love James." Daniel said, in tears. To be continued