Date: Wed, 12 Aug 2020 02:44:07 +0000 (UTC)
From: ozorli65@aol.com
Subject: All for Terry (36)

This story is different than i normally write. It's a love
story. My first.

I was going through some old boxes of things and found some
adult magazines I used to have.  I hadn't seen them in years.
As I went through them I saw a wrapped package and there were a few more
in there. But these were covered in plastic. The guy in the cover of
them, I had actually met a few times. Before I knew who he was of course.
But I always thought he was the most gorgeous man I had ever seen.

As I mentioned, I had actually met him a few times. It turns that we had
worked in the same building. And it wasn't until sometime later that I
found he was the guy in my magazines.
This story is for him. A kind of 'What if' story about a guy I wanted for
many years, but fate never made that fantasy come true.

This is for Terry. Where ever he may be.

Enjoy....
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All for Terry
(Chapter 36)
... The Dinner...

... I was to meet Terry that evening at the pier again. The pier where he
found me again. At that same restaurant. Then we would have dinner and
just talk. Try and see if we still had the connection that I knew I had.
I figured it was more him trying to re find it.
I was scared of it, to say the least. For I knew how I felt. I knew that
my heart was still his. And would always be his. No matter what came of
this meeting. He had little to lose. But i, everything. What was left of
my heart for one. But just to see him again seemed to be the overruling
authority to my worries.

He wanted to meet around 4 to 4:30. We could walk the pier or beach and
then over to the restaurant. Then A nice meal and a walk on the beach
near the pier after. I know he was hoping for it to go well enough that I
would want to trust him enough to try and rekindle what was lost.

"Will it?" I pondered myself

I got there at closer to 5 traffic was a bit of a Bitch getting to the
beach itself. I called him to say I was stuck, but would get there as
soon as I could.

"That's okay" he said
"I will wait for you sweetheart"

He said he would be at some shops up the street from the pier. And just a
few blocks from the restaurant. He said to send him a note when I was
there and he would find me. I got there and parked. At the parking
structure a block west of the shops. I then raced down to the street and
sent him the massage that I was leaving the parking facility. I crossed
the street and headed down the block to the main street where the shops
were. I received a message back telling me what store he was in. I turned
right and headed up the street. The store was on the right another block
up.
When I reached the store Terry was already coming out if it. He had a bag
in his hand and he stopped when he saw me. He smiled when he did see me.
And there it was. The smile I adored looking back at me.

"Hey there" he said as I stopped a few feet from him
"Hi" I said back a bit nervous
"Did you buy something?"

He looked at me and then lifted up the bag. He again smiled as he held it
up. Then he handed me the bag.

"Here" he then said
"I got you something"
"No. You don't.." I started to say
"Yeah. I know. But I wanted to"

He then said he was going to give it to me later at dinner. But decided
now was as good a time as any. He handed me the bag. I wanted to just
push it back and say no. But knew that he would not accept a refusal. So
I opened the bag and pulled out the wrapped item. It was a cup. I could
feel it was even through the wrapper. So I gave him the bag as I
unwrapped the item. It was a cup. But it looked familiar. It was just
like the cup he had given me after our trip together.

"Do they sell these?" I asked

He smiled almost gleefully. Then he said that he had had it fir a few
days. That he had ordered it from them. From the town we had been to
together. The very last time I was happy.

"No silly" he said
"I have had it for a bit"
"When I saw you again. I just knew"
"So I ordered it"

I felt a tear begin to well up in my eye. Then looked at the face I
loved. And told him he didn't have to. But again he was insistent.

"Nonsense" I huffed
"Now you have two"

I was again thinking of protesting the act again but he quickly stopped
me. Saying he wanted me to have it. That he was hoping that it would
bring me back to the nice times we had there together. That he really
enjoyed that time. And he knew I did.
It did make me think of that glorious time we spent. That long wonderful
weekend when I was laying on his arms. Lost in him as I always wished.
That last night there, I never wanted to leave. I never wanted that time
to end. But it did and I was brought to where I was for the longest time
now. I felt that ache in my heart creep up again. That deepest longing
for him that had never gone away.
Then I felt his hand on my arm. It woke me from my lost trance that I was
pulled into. I looked at him again. Finally noticing his polo shirt that
hugged his body. Showing off those arms of his. So strong and beautiful.
He had on grey jeans that were nice fitting, but not too tight. I then
moved my eyes back to his stunning face.

"Come one. Let's go" he then said
"Thanks" I said to him.

He handed me back the back to put the cup back I to. I gently wrapped it
up and we started to walk again. Heading up the street towards the
restaurant. We stopped at another store there before dinner. He wanted to
get a shirt. So we stepped into the clothing store and looked around. I
fiddled through the racks as he found something to try on. He placed
several over his front so I could see. I took he wanted my opinion on
them. I smiled lightly as he placed them against his chest. Asking me
which ones to try. I didn't want to choose as to make him put in
something he may hate later. But nodded when i saw one that I thought
would look good on him.

"Great. I will try these guys on" he said

He headed to the fitting rooms and I followed him as I knew he would want
me to see them. I waited for him as he stepped into one of the small
rooms. Terry came out a few moments later so I could see the shirt on
him. It looked great on him. But then again anything seemed to look great
on his body.

"How do I look?" He of course asked
"Its nice" I answered
"Really?".
"Oh yes. Fits very nice on you"

I considered reaching over and touching his arms and shoulder. But pulled
back after the king about it. I was obviously super nervous about this
'date'. Still scared that the slightest thing would go wrong and I would
be back where I started.
He was glad I liked it. Giving me that smile that melted me. Then he
bought the shirt and we headed over to the restaurant. We were seated on
the outside patio area that overlooked the ocean. It was very nice. It
was like a balcony out from the place with several intimate tables.
We sat and the waiter came over to take our drink order. The guy was
young and almost Twinkie like. And obviously gay. He smiled at me and
then looked over at Terry. I glanced at the kid. Jimmy was his name. His
eye brow cocked up as he looked at the stunning man I was having dinner
with.

"What can i get you sir?" He asked
"Can you get us a bottle of wine please" Terry started

He looked at the young waiter and then continued to speak to him. Seeing
the guy staring at his shoulders and arms in his shirt.
"What do you want baby?" He asked me

He was letting the guy know he was with me.i softly smiled at him, then
answered him.
I asked for something red. "Maybe a merlot. Is that okay?"
"Anything you want my love"  he came back

I could see the look on the twins face. Almost a defeated look. But he
smiled and then said he would be back with that. Then he turned and left
us there.
There was a breeze coming from the ocean that caressed my face. I saw as
it moved though his dirty blonde hair. Whisping at it at the top. I then
looked at Terry again. He eyes were sift and gazed at me with live and
hope. Then he leaned over the table a bit. He started to talk about us.

"I am so happy you came sweetheart" he said
"I was worried you might not"

I was going to say something, but his words cut me off. He wanted to
again apologize for what had happened between us. That he never meant to
hurt me. That it was a stupid thing to do to me.

"Please, please, please accept my apology" he started
"I assumed that you were like all the others"
"And I was wrong. So wrong"
"And your friend pointed out. I am an asshole and a narcissist"
"She didn't.." I started to say back

But again he cut me off. Placing his hand to mine on the table. It was
the first touch between us in a long while. And I felt it throughout my
body. A tingle that moved from my hand and up my arm and through my spine
down to my toes.

"No. She is right" he said stopping me.
"I am a narcissist."
"All this silly attention from those pictures in that stupid magazine"
"And that's what I have living by all these years"
"Pushing people away that may not have deserved it"
"You certainly didn't"

He continued with saying that maybe if he wasn't so full if himself over
it that he may have found someone ages ago. Thia made me think that he
may want to look up some old flames and blow me off again. I know my
thoughts may be foolish, but as this has not gone well for me as it was,
it was what was running through it.
And Terry must have noticed the look on my fave and grabbed my hand
again. Reassuring me that he wanted me to be okay with us and what was
happening between us now.

"Amd all this has lead me to you" he then said
"You and that wonderful opinionated friend of yours"
"She made me see that you are the one I need"

He stopped as the waiter came with the drinks. He saw that Terry had
grabbed my hand and was holding it. He smiled at the obvious romance of
it all. I could see the delight 'awe' in his face. He held the bottle and
opened it. Then poured a little into one glass. Terry pulled from my hand
and took the glass. He pulled it to his nose and sniffed. Then took a
drink. He tasted it. Then he said for the guy to pour me some.

"Try it." He said
"Want to make sure you like it"

I grabbed my glass and smelled it as well. It was woodsy smelling. A hint
of like almond or something nutty. Then I tasted it now. It was good. I
nodded to him that it was. Then the waiter poured more into our glasses.
He asked us if we wanted to order. I hadn't even looked at the menu. And
seemed to get that.

"I'll give you two a few moments" he said with a wink

Then he turned and left us there. Terry grabbed his glass and offered up
a toast. I lifted mine and waited for what he had to say. And it was
sweetie.

"It has taken a slap in the face by someone I didn't know to show me what
an ass I was" he said
"But it's made me see that you are the one i want"
"You are the one I need"
"And I hope you will give me a chance to prove I am the one for you"
"What do you say?"

He looked at me and waited for my answer. I could see in his eyes the
question in them. Waiting for me to say what he wanted to hear. He was
softly gazing at me. No smile or frown. Just his beautiful face gazing at
me lovingly.

"I promise, your speed" he added
"And what ever you choose I will abide by"

I looked at him again. Studying his face again. Like many times before.
There are a few creases on his brow. A few lines now around his eyes. A
few years older than when we first met. Older but still stunning. His
eyes were soft and kind as he looked at me. His face rougher as he had
more facial hair. More rugged, yet still beautiful. His lips slightly wet
from the drink, a quickly kick of his lips.
Oh those lips I longed to kiss again. Soft wonderful lips that I
remembered their taste, even now. In Just looked at his face. The face I
adored. This man I still adored. And he seemed still have feelings for
me.

"Does he love me?" My head questioned
"Does he?"

I then felt that ache returning back to my chest again. That ache that
only belonged to him. My Terry. And in my head it answered him. In my
heart it answered his previous question.

"Yes my love. Oh God yes!" It screamed
"Okay"

And then my mouth repeated it. It repeated what my heart did. Then I
lifted my glass to meet his. I lightly smiled back at that gorgeous face
of his..them touched the glass to his.

"Okay" I said
"Okay Terry. I will try again"

He smiled back at me. Then we both drank. His eyes staying me. And mine
on his. My heart began to thump in my chest again. I was going to do
this. We were going to do this. A hope to try and have a relationship
again.
Terry waved at the waiter, who came back and took our order. And then we
sat down to a nice dinner. Not taking much. Just enjoying our food and
our eyes in each other....
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To be continued