Date: Wed, 28 Oct 2020 18:47:54 +0000 (UTC)
From: ozorli65@aol.com
Subject: All for Terry (38)

This story is different than i normally write. It's a love
story. My first.

I was going through some old boxes of things and found some
adult magazines I used to have.  I hadn't seen them in years.
As I went through them I saw a wrapped package and there were a few more
in there. But these were covered in plastic. The guy in the cover of
them, I had actually met a few times. Before I knew who he was of course.
But I always thought he was the most gorgeous man I had ever seen.

As I mentioned, I had actually met him a few times. It turns that we had
worked in the same building. And it wasn't until sometime later that I
found he was the guy in my magazines.
This story is for him. A kind of 'What if' story about a guy I wanted for
many years, but fate never made that fantasy come true.

This is for Terry. Where ever he may be.

Enjoy....
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All for Terry
(Chapter 38)
... A Love Restored ...

... I stepped into Terry's place. There was a hallway that opened up to a
big opened room. The kitchen, dinning and living room all in one. The
only separation was the specter island of the kitchen. The furniture was
nice and almost mid century modern. There was a wall of glass tow the
aide and two sets of glass doors out to a balcony that wrapped around the
corner of the room. The balcony had trees with lights in them and some
chairs there.
"Wow" was all I could say

He looked at me queerly. Then realizing I had not been to his place
before.

"I am sorry sweetie. I thought you had been here before" he said
"It's okay" I said back
"You barely knew me"

He told me to put my things down. That we will take them to the spare
room later. Then he went to the kitchen and grabbed some glasses. Saying
he was going to open a bottle of wine. I looked at the kitchen as he went
into it. Then to the glass doors that lead outside.

"Can we go outside?" I asked
"Sure baby. Go in I will be tight there"

I walked across the living room and then to the doors that lead outside.
I unlatches them and opened the doors. As soft breeze hit me I sighed. It
felt nice. I looked out to to see that the ocean and lights of the
harbour near ot were visable from where he lived. It was a stunning
view.

"Wow!" Really nice
"Great isn't it?" Came Terry's voice from behind
"Yes. Its wonderful"
"Here. Come sit" he then offered

He handed me a glass and then we sat down. There on the outdoor sofa.
Looking out to the lights beyond. They were beautiful, but then I looked
at Terry. It was just a glance. But enough to tell me he was still more
beautiful than the lights below. More beautiful than anything in my whole
life. And I felt my heart fill with all that love I had for him.
He smiled at me as I looked at him. Then he leaned in and tapped his
glass to mine. Then he toasted me and the moment we were having.

"To you sweetie." He started
"To you and giving me a chance"
"I thank you for that"

Then he drank. I also drank as I looked at the city to the south of us.
Then sat back into the couch. Terry put hus arm behind my head abd I felt
it against me. Knowing ot was his arm I moved into it and moved in
closer. Then I just lay me head to his shoulder. Felling hope for the
first time in a long time. Hope and safety.
I then felt as he turned gis head and pressed his lips to my head and
kissed my head. A soft kiss that he held to my head for a long moment.
And there was again that ache in my chest that only he could bring to me.
So I nuzzled to hus shoulder more. Taking in hus scent as it waifed over
to me again. And then we just sat there on the balcony. Not talking much.
Just enjoying each other's heat. Amd we just sat there for near an hour.
A few more sips of wine. Then he suggested we get to bed. That he would
make one up for me in the spare bedroom.

"We should get some sleep" he said
"Come on. I'll make up the spare bedroom for you"

I knew and appreciated him doing that. Yes I loved him and yes I wanted
to be with him again. But I was still scared.and he got that. So he
wanted to make sure not to push me.
He kissed my head and the we got up. Then we headed back inside and he
took the glasses to the kitchen. I grabbed my bag and he lead me to the
spare room. I placed my bag in the floor as prepped the bed for me.
Then he lead to the the hall bathroom. I grabbed my overnight supplies
and then stepped into it. He stood at the door for a moment as i prepared
to brush my teeth. He came in and kissed my head again.

"Gets some sleep" he said
"Good night baby".
"Good night Terry" I said back

Then he turned and headed into his bedroom. I looked in the mirror as he
left me there. The light coming on from the door to the master bedroom. I
sighed as I kind of hoped he would say to sleep in his bed with him. But
I knew we were both wanting to play it safe. Even though I wanted to feel
the heat of his perfect body next to mine.
I finished in the bathroom and walked down the hall to the spare room he
had set up for me. I pulled off my pants and shirt. Changing into a night
short for sleep. Its more of an old beat up 't'. But it got the job done.
I then got into bed and lay my head down. I looked out the door and down
the hall to the light from gus room. I turned and clicked of the light
from the bedside lamp and pulled up the sheets. Then I took a breath and
tried to close my eyes. But I found myself just looking up at the
ceiling. I noticed there was a swirl pattern on it. Then i looked at the
long thin floor to ceiling window in the corner of the room. The only
window there. The curtains covering it were not thick and I could see
fuzzy lights beyond them.
I sighed again and turned my head back towards the door. I noticed he had
turned out his light and was probably off to sleep as well.

"Why am I here?" I just softly said to myself
"I love him. More than the wide world"
"But I don't know if there will be anything again"
"He is trying. I do believe that"
"But I am so scared of getting hurt again"

I felt a sniffle and then a tear pool up on my eyes. And again I sighed.
I looked up at the ceiling again. The swirl patterns seemed to almost
move as I watched them. I knew it was a trick of the eye. My mind
assuming movement in the pattern. And I found my eyes trailing along the
half circles.
I lay there softly breathing.my heart had slowed it racing pace from
before. But that ache was there and very strong. I swear I was going to
drop dead from a sudden cardiac event. I again turned to the window as I
lay there. And sleep would not come. So I huffed out a breath of
disgust.
Then I moved and sat up at the edge of the bed. I looked at my phone to
see I had been laying therr staring at the ceiling for near 45 minutes.
But it didn't matter, I just couldn't sleep. Be it fear, nerves or
whatever was eating at me. So I got up and headed out to the kitchen to
get some water. I went to his modern kitchen and then grabbed a water
from his fridge. I opened it up and took a drink.
As I stood there I heard a distant rumble. I stepped int the living room
and looked out the expanse of glass that was the doors and windows. I saw
a distant flash. Then moments later the rolling of thunder again. I
walked over to the doors and looked out to the scenery. The lights of the
distant city and the flashes of the electric light show in the sky. Just
standing there in my shorts and a t-shirt.

"Hmm" I sighed again

I then unlatched the door and opened it. There was a cool breeze from the
distant storm blowing in. I decides to just step outside and sit for a
bit. Or at least until I got sleepy.
I sat there on the balcony just gazing at the ominous yet beautiful
storm. From the more frequent flashes and thunder it appeared it was
headed this way.
I sat there in awe of the breathtaking power and beauty of mother nature.
I was there sitting on that balcony, alone. How I wanted to have Terry
sitting next to me and just holding me in his strong arms. But he wasn't.
And it brought a tear from me.

"I love you" I said out to the thunder.
"You are my everything"

Tears started to flow again. I just somehow had thus dread wash over me
as I looked out to the exploding sky. I drank some more water as I just
stared out to the sea of charcoal gray woth splashes of light. Unsure of
what I was supposed to feel. I leaned back against the sofa and somehow
lolled off. Maybe it was the distant thunder that calmed me and help
sleep fall. But I was out in minutes.
I found myself somehow floating above land. Looking down on the city
below. Lights twinkling from the cars moving down there. Still I heard
the thunder off in the distance. And the cool breeze seemed to chill even
more. Getting very cold around me. And then as I looked out before me
there was something moving a figure or something I could not clearly make
out. It stopped my forward motion. And then I fell. The rush of speed and
wind lashing about me as I plummeted from my heights in the sky.

"Noo. Stopp!" I cried
"Stopp!"

I flailed about in mud air as I continued to fall. Then it got black and
I felt water all around me. Enormous amounts of water. I moved about
trying to gain my bearings. But the darkness was all consuming.

"Help. Help me!" I cried out.

Then from the bleakness surrounding me I heard a voice calling to me. A
soft familiar voice. He said that he was there, calling out my name. He
said to reach for him.
Then I saw an arm push out to me from the darkness. I grasped at it.
Feeling it's warmth and heat in the cold of this place. The voice started
to say 'im here. I'm here'

"I am here baby" the voice said
"Its okay. I am here"

My eyes shot opened as I cried out. The darkness fell away and I could
start to see again. I looked to the voice amd my vision saw Terry. He was
sitting there next to me. Sitting on the edge if the bed. I looked at
him, confusion and fear in my eyes. But at least the fave that greeted me
was his.

"I am here baby" he said again
"You against. You're here with me"
"It's alright"

I gazed up at his face. There was a bit of concern on his brow. But he
still managed to give me a soft smile.

"What? What happened? I blurted
"You are okay" he said again
"Your safe here."
"You just had a bad dream. That's all"

I looked at his beautiful face and then down to his naked chest. His
shape as gorgeous as ever and I just wanted to reach out and touch his
perfect body. But dared not to do anything. I was just happy he was
there.
I then looked passed him and notice the room was different from where I
fell asleep. And I recalled ine moment where I was in the balcony. Or was
i? Now I wasn't sure if anything.

"Wait. I was..." I started to say
"Yes. You were asleep outside in the balcony." He replied
"It was raining and you were a bit wet"

He then said he carried me back into the house and dried me off. And he
brought me to his room to make sure I was okay.

"What we're you doing outside?" He asked
"I just couldn't sleep" I answered back
"I am sorry"
"Its okay baby. Just making sure you are alright"
"You were calling out in your dream"
"Nightmare" I said back

Then I told him what it was. And how his voice lead me back to reality.
But how cold it was in there. And how cold it was now. He said I was
probably cold due to being outside. He then suggested I try and sleep. He
got up and i thought he may just leave the room. Then I felt cold again
and i shivered.

"I am cold" I said to him

He stepped back to the bed and then told me to move over. So I did. He
climbed into bed with me and told me to lay in my side. That he would
hold me and keep me warm. So I did. That's when I noticed my shirt was
gone. He said he took ot off me as it was wet from rain. Then below that
again I was naked. So I know he took off my shorts too.
Then he moved in behind me. His body then pressed to mine. I felt the
heat of hus wonderful body. I felt the hairs in his torso as they tickled
at my back. It was wonderful and most of all warm. I sighed and pressed
myself against him. Taking in his heat as Terry held me.

"You are safe baby" he said
"I will always keep you safe"
"I promise"

He stroked my hair and then kissed the back of my neck. That kiss sent a
deep glorious heat throughout me. And I did feel safe. So safe in his
embrace.
I was again in moments. Lost in Terry's embrace. And I never wanted to
leave it....
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More to come