Date: Thu, 17 Oct 2002 05:24:54 -0400 From: Eric W. Subject: Dreams and Satin Sheets Chapter 8 Dreams and Satin Sheets By: Eric W. Disclaimer: This story is a work of pure fiction created by my imagination. Certain parts of this story will contain sex between consenting adult male partners. This story is homosexual in nature and should only be viewed by those over the required age in your area. If you are reading this story and are not of that age then I do not want to know so please don't tell me. Author's Note: Hey Peeps, I am impressed that you are still reading this story. Both of you. LOL. Ok so please let me know what you think of this chapter, cause I need some input to decide where to take the story. And for those of you who are wondering at this point, yes I am begging for feedback. So here we go ... And I sincerely apologize for the long wait for this chapter. It has been a long few weeks. Ohh yeah and visit my website. Chapter 8: Decisions, Decisions Scott's POV God I'm never gonna get all this shit done before tomorrow. There is no way that I am going to be able to get packed and everything in order before the flight tomorrow morning. We are leaving on our vacation tomorrow morning at 11 am and I am so far from being ready. Josh seems to be taking everything in stride. I envy him so much sometimes, but I fall deeper in love everyday. "Baby, where are you?" I heard Josh call from downstairs. "I'm in the bedroom," I yelled downstairs. I was in the middle of trying to pack my suitcase when I felt those familiar arms snake around my waist. Then I felt those soft lips on my neck and all of my anxiety drained away. Josh turned me in his arms and looked in my eyes. "Baby, Stop Worrying!!" he said, "Everything is gonna be fine". "But there is just so much stuff I have to get done and I know I don't think I am gonna be able to get it all done by tomorrow morning." I said then let out a sigh of frustration. "Don't worry about it. I want you to go downstairs and fix yourself a glass of wine and go out on the patio and relax for a while." Josh said and then kissed me softly on the lips. "But I ..." I said but was cut off. "I'll take care of things I know you are way beyond stressed and this vacation is supposed to make you relax." He said while wrapping his arms back around me. "No get that cute ass of yours downstairs." I reluctantly went downstairs and instead of wine I decided on a margarita. So I got out the blender and busied myself with making margaritas. After I had finished that then I walked upstairs and found my swim suit in the bathroom. After I had changed I went back downstairs, grabbed my margarita and went out to the pool. I was laying back on the raft and my margarita was almost gone. I was simply laying there with my eyes closed and thinking about how I became so lucky. I realized that I had everything I always wanted. A beautiful home, a nice car, the sweetest, most caring, loving, sexy, all around great boyfriend. Life is good, except for my family. They had decided that I shouldn't be gay and I disagreed with them. My family was complex and strange, if you mess with one of us then you mess with them all. Except I wasn't included in that group anymore. I had felt like I was the glue of the family, that without me they would all fall apart. Obviously that wasn't the case, they seemed like they were doing just fine without me. That hurt a little, actually it hurt soo much, but time had dulled the pain that I only realized was there infrequently. I remember holding my nieces and nephews in my arms and feeding them. Laying with them until they fell asleep. Fixing bottles in the middle of the night. Those were the times I missed. I had a different life now, but there were parts of the old one that would always haunt me. I was brought out of my reverie by a hand snaking around mine. I loved over to see Josh standing beside me and grinning like an idiot. I also noticed that my margarita was gone. I leaned over to kiss Josh but I didn't quite make it. The next thing I knew I was surfacing and hearing Josh laughing. "You are gonna pay for that pretty boy," I said while wiping the water out of my eyes. "Ohh really?" he asked while backing away. "Ohh yeah," I said then lunged at him. This started a water battle that continued for about 15 minutes. Then we decided to go sit on the patio and watch the sun set. After that we turned off all the lights and locked all the doors and went upstairs to go to bed. When I walked in my bedroom I saw my bags were packed and sitting by the door. The list I had made earlier was laying on the nightstand and everything was checked off. "I Love you soo much boo, Thanks for helping." I said then kissed him. "It's what I'm here for baby, now let's get some sleep." He said leading me to the bed. We disrobed and crawled into bed. We cuddled up and went to sleep to prepare for the long flight in the morning. * * * * * * * "Delta Airlines Flight 536 direct to Atlanta is now boarding on gate 11." The voice said over the loud speaker. "Come on baby, that's us." Josh said while picking up our carry on bags and started walking towards the gate. "Ok, Ok, Don't rush me they just started boarding we got plenty of time." I said while trying to remember if we did everything. After boarding and making sure we had properly stored out things we sat down and awaited take off. The flight attendant went over all the usual flight bull and then we taxied out onto the runway. Now flying isn't one of my favorite things to do but I didn't have a fear or anything. Josh seemed very at ease and before we knew it we were sailing towards Atlanta. After about an hour we landed in Atlanta and switched planes. We were then ready to make the 3 hour flight to Montego Bay. The flight attendant brought Josh and I a glass of champagne and we made idle conversation for the remainder of the flight. The airport wasn't as crowded as I imagined it would be and soon we were attempting to hail a cab outside the terminal. After about 15 minutes we were on our way to the hotel. Josh had been pretty tight lipped about the vacation, so much so that I had no idea where we were staying. About 20 minutes later the cab turned into a parking lot and I then saw where we were staying. "Oh My God, Why didn't you tell me were staying at the fucking Ritz Carlton??" I asked Josh while hitting him in the arm. "Because I wanted to surprise you," he said while rubbing his arm. We got out and walked into the lobby of the Ritz Carlton Rose Hall, It was beautiful and Josh smiled watching me look around the extravagant lobby. He walked over to the desk and then returned with a keycard. "Ready?" he asked me. "Yeah, I think I wanna take a nap after that flight." I said stifling a yawn. "Ok boo, let's go" he said and we walked off toward the bank of elevators. The room was very extravagant and overlooked the ocean but at that moment I didn't care how anything looked. The flight had taken a lot out of me and I was quite tired. I walked through the suite and into the bedroom. I walked over to the balcony and opened the white French doors and then began taking off my clothes to get into the king size bed. After I had stripped and had snuggled in between the sheets I wondered where Josh was. I waited for him to join me but, drifted off to sleep without him. **Josh's POV** Scott was in bed asleep and I had a few things to make sure were perfect for tomorrow night. "Yes, I am calling to confirm my reservations for tomorrow night at 7." I said into the phone, "Yes dinner for two, Thank you very much. That taken care of I went out onto the balcony of the main room. I breathed in the salty air and just stared out over the water. Tomorrow will tell me what I need to know. I will know how I'm gonna spend the rest of my life. My mind started to drift to Scott as it usually did whenever I had a free moment. We had only been going out for about five months, but it felt like I had known him my entire life. Whenever we were together it felt like we were as one. It was almost like the "twin syndrome". You know how if one twin is hurt or hurting or whatever, then the other can feel it. That's how it is between Scott and I, if I am feeling down or frustrated he can instantly tell. And he always makes it better. I have never felt this way about anything or anyone in my entire life. I don't know how long I stood there but I decided I would go join my man in bed. Scott was curled up on the bed and I stood there leaning against the door frame. I said a silent prayer to let everything turn out ok. I disrobed and crawled into bed beside Scott. He immediately snuggled up to me and I breathed in his scent. Scott always smelled soo good. It wasn't soap or shampoo or cologne. This scent was uniquely Scott and I loved it. I snuggled my face into his neck and drifted off to sleep. **Scott's POV** When I woke up Josh was snuggled up against me and he had his nose stuck in the crook of my neck. It was usually how we woke up and I always woke up first; mainly because his breath tickled. It was dark out and the moon was shining out over the water. I got up and went into the main room of the suite. I found the room service menu and ordered up some food. I then woke up Josh and went to take a shower. I didn't even pay attention to the time until I had gotten out of the shower but it was 6 am. We had slept all evening and through the night. I was kinda excited because today was the day our vacation would really start. And I had no idea what Josh had up his sleeve. When I returned to the bedroom Josh was sitting on the bed munching on some fruit. I laid down beside him and he fed me a piece of banana. We ate some more fruit and then he kissed me and took his coffee into the bathroom ti take a shower. I walked out on the balcony and looked out over the ocean. I could barely see the waves breaking on the shore but it was just very relaxing. I sat down in one of the deck chairs and sipped my coffee. Josh joined me soon and we just sat there in silence enjoying the relaxing environment and one another's company. After a few moments I moved over to Josh's chair and sat between his legs with my head laying on his chest. The sun was starting to come up over the water and feeling Josh's arms around me and his heart beating and his breathing was one of the deepest experiences of my life. We simply sat there, occasionally expressing our love for one another, but simply feeling the other's body was expression enough. After about an hour we decided we would get dressed and start the day. "What are we doing today baby," I asked Josh while I started looking through my suitcase. "We doing whatever you want to do," he said flopping down on the bed. "Well what if I just want to stay in bed with you all day," I said while laying down mostly on top of him. "Sounds like paradise to me," he said pressing his lips against mine. We laid on the bed kissing, groping, and whispering quietly. Needless to say we didn't get much dressing done. But a half an hour later we had decided we were going to sit on the beach and work on our tans. So we put on some trunks and got tanning lotion and oil and all the essentials for a beach outing and took the elevator downstairs. After walking out the back of the hotel and out to the pool area we made our way down to the beach. The sand was soft and warm even though the sun had only been out about two hours. So we spread out our towels and lay down. "Can you put some oil on my back baby," Josh asked me. "Sure," I replied. I squirted some of the oil on my hands and began massaging it into his soft skin. I worked my way over his back and started down the back of his legs. The feelof his hard flesh beneath my fingertips was amazing. The oil allowed my hands to slide smoothly up and down his muscled legs. After spending more time than necessary putting oil on Josh he repeated the same process for me. After we had soaked up a few hours worth of sun we decided to go back to the hotel and take a dip in the pool. It was a beautiful day out and there were a lot of people at the pool. We got into the water and swam around for a few minutes trying to cool off our hot skin. Then we decided to lounge around under an umbrella. "I'll have a margarita please," I told the waiter. "I'll have the same thank you," Josh said and then we relaxed back into our chairs. I realized all of the sudden that I had nearly achieved the impossible. I was relaxed. It was the first time that I had actually forgotten about all the stuff that has been happening over the past few years. My family, my job, being alone, I wasn't worried about any of it. I turned to look at Josh and I took his hand in mine. "Thank you baby," I said while looking at him. "For what boo?" he asked confused. "For bringing me here, for loving me, for being you," I said. "You don't have to thank me, I love you boo," he said while kissing my hand. "And I love you baby," I said. We sat there and sipped our drinks and watched the people playing in the pool. After about an hour we decided to go up to our room and just lounge around. We took a shower and sat around watchin TV in those fluffy hotel bathrobes. Josh had told me that we were going out for dinner tonight so we both started getting ready about five thirty. "What should I wear?" I asked Josh who was busy picking out his clothes. "You should look sexy," he said grinning, "don't wear anything" "ohh god," I said and then threw my socks at him. "What?!?! That's the sexiest thing you own," he said dodging my socks. "Come on Josh, be serious" I said whining. "Relax boo," he said wrapping his arms around me. "Wear your suit." "I didn't pack my suit," I said "Boo, think about it, who packed your bags?" he said grinning. "Ohh ok," I replied sheepishly. By 6:30 we were riding the elevator to the lobby. We walked through the glass doors to find a black limousine. As we walked towards it the chauffeur opened the door. "Good evening sir" the chauffeur said. "Josh is there something you want to tell me." I asked turning to him. "Tonight, we are riding in style," he said smiling. **Josh's POV** I was so nervous that I thought that my stomach would tie itself into a knot and kill me. I looked over at Scott and he smiled at me. He seemed so relaxed and genuinely happy. I just hope that would continue for the remainder of the evening, and the rest of our lives as well. Dinner was excellent and we mostly ate in silence. I looked over to Scott and saw him eyeing the desert menu, but I had other plans. After I signed the credit card receipt we made our way back to the limo. I had arranged a little dessert on the beach not far from the hotel. The ride from the restaurant was quite fun and left us both a little flushed. We got out of the limo and I gave the driver a hefty tip, thanked him for his services, and then told him to that he could go home. We walked down to the beach and Scott saw the blanket spread out, the candle lanterns, the stereo, and the dessert. Then he looked over to me. "Tonight, I thought a little more private dessert was in order," I said while leaning in and kissing him. "Mmmmm, I like the way you think," he said then kissed me back." I noticed the two guys from the hotel staff making a discreet exit after starting the cd player. After a few minutes of kissing we began to sway softly and Scott laid his head on my shoulder. I felt his fingers twisting my chain around my neck. We danced for a couple of songs then went to sit on the blanket. I rummaged around in the basket sitting there beside me and I found the two champagne flutes and the bottle which was perfectly chilled. I also found our dessert which was chocolate covered strawberries. I sat the items on the blanket and then picked out a strawberry and brought it to Scott's lips. He wrapped his lips around the fruit and closed his eyes. I looked at his face and watched the look of instant pleasure cross his face. He slowly chewed, his eyes still closed. He opened them and looked at me and smiled. I had long since learned Scott's love for chocolate. We ate our fill of the sweet fruit and were relaxing on the blanket looking at the stars. Scott's head was laying on my chest with my arms wrapped around his abdomen. We weren't saying anything just enjoying being together. The cd player began to play a different song and I knew it was time. As the opening lines of the song began I took Scott's hand and we began to dance closely on the soft sand. As we danced I was singing softly in his ear. When winter comes in summer When there's no more forever When lies become the truth Ohh ya know then baby That's when I'll stop lovin That's when I'll stop lovin you Scott looked up into my eyes and I saw into the depths of his soul. I saw all the hurt, the pain, and above all else I saw his love for me. I continued to stare and those crystal entities stared right back at me. I removed my hand from his back and reached into my pocket. I concealed the object in my hand and stopped dancing and looked at my angel. I took a deep breath and began to speak. My voice sounded if it were someone else's as it came out but I knew it was me. I looked back into his eyes and the everything else faded away. "Scott, I cannot express what you mean to me. As you know I do have many things, and I do have some money. I would say that I am not rich, but I could never say that at the same time I'm looking at you. Before I met you I simply went through the motions of life but I did not live it. As cliché as I may sound, when I met you that day I felt my heartbeat for the first time. Everything had new meaning new dimensions and I felt alive." I said softly with Scott's hand in mine. I took a deep breath then continued. "I never want to lose that feeling Scott. I never want to feel that way again, so alone and so disconnected from life." The song entered the bridge and the guitar solo drifted out over the sand. "Scott, will you promise to keep me from that feeling, will you marry me?" I asked opening the small velvet box. I looked up into his eyes and saw a cloud of emotions. **Scott's POV** My mind was racing, in that instant my entire life flashed before my eyes. I saw my family when I was younger. My friends from college and I being together. Then I saw when my family turned away from me. When the man I thought was my soulmate turned away from me and married another. From that point my life seemed to spiral downward and I couldn't remember being truly happy. I just bought nice things and tried to compensate with clothes and shopping sprees but nothing filled the void my family had left. Nothing until Josh. He had loved me for who I am and not what I am. He saw past all my flaws and continued to love me no matter what I did. We would fight occasionally but we would always make up before we went to sleep. He took me places, bought me things, but was that enough to make me marry him? I had thought I was in a relationship forever but I was mistaken. I still have the invitation from his wedding in which he married the woman that he left me for. Did I really want all that to happen again? As I stood thinking I heard the song playing and I realized that Josh was everything to me. It wasn't the things he bought me or places we went, but it was the little things. Like when he packed me a lunch and always left a little note on a napkin; or when he helped me clean house because he knows what a compulsive neat freak I am. Those were the things I loved most about Josh. He always did things for me and they seemed effortless. I looked up into his eyes and realized that I had been thinking for a few moments and I saw the worry in his eyes. The fear and he looked on the verge of tears. In that instant I realized that he was nothing like my ex, and that he would never leave me. I took his face in my hands and wiped those tears away and said, "How could I not marry you". I heard a sigh of relief as he slipped the platinum band on my finger. Then he picked me up and started spinning me around. When he finally decided to put me down he looked at me and I didn't think he could stop smiling if he tried. "I love you so much Scott," he said softly. "I love you too baby, and I always will," I said then leaned in and pressed my lips on his. The champagne continued to get warm, the stereo played on, and the waves were coming in to shore. The entire world continued on but neither of us cared because there's no place I'd rather be. To Be Continued... I Know what you guys are thinking, `bout damn time. Well I know I know and I cannot apologize enough. But there is chapter eight and only god knows when I will get out the next chapter so I'm not making any more promises. Because if there aren't promises then there can't be disappointment. Y'all let me know what ya think. E-mail: storymaker19@hotmail.com Website: http://www.angelfire.com/wv2/storymaker19 Songs Used 1. N'Sync -- "That's When I'll Stop Lovin You", No Stings Attached, copyright 2000 Jive / Zomba Recording Corporation.