Date: Fri, 11 Aug 2006 03:09:19 EDT
From: Buontempi@aol.com
Subject: He Made Me Feel Young Again

I was in my early fifties and a widower for just over a year.  Having a
great marriage and family, I was able to suppress my physical attraction
towards men fairly well.  But it was always there. I had made a conscious
decision in my late teens that I wanted a straight life, no matter how
strong my, what I now know was, gay feelings. It wasn't easy to suppress,
as anyone that is gay or even bi-sexual knows.

Feeling depressed and lonely, I began masturbating thinking about young
men again.  I began to feel horny all the time, but I was no longer
interested sexually in women at all.  One night I went to one of the
Indian Casinos in CT. I couldn't concentrate so I left and just went
driving around.  The sexual tension was driving me nuts.  I was near
Groton and I saw this XXX Book/Video store.  I parked the car and was
very nervous about going in.  After sitting in my car for what seemed
like an hour, although only five minutes, I finally went in.  I noticed
that there were viewing booths in the back of the store, so I bought five
dollars in tokens.

I went in the back which was very dark.  The aisle was U shaped with
booths all around the corridor.  There were a few men walking slowly
around.or standing against the wall.  One of them, I noticed, was
massaging his cock through his jeans.  That got my own cock stirring.

I went into a booth and watched a couple of gay flicks and got a raging
boner.  I went in and out of a couple of more booths.  At one point and
older guy like myself opened the door and wanted to come in with me but I
wouldn't let him.  I was beginning to feel guilty about being there so I
got up and left the booth intending to leave the store.

 As soon as I headed towards the door to the booth viewing area a very
handsome young man came through the door and we locked eyes.  or was it
my imagination?  So I thought.
I walked back in, turned around to look at him again and went back into a
booth.  I was shaking like a leaf because this young man excited me so.
In my wildest dreams I never really thought he would follow me in.  But
to my pleasant surprise the door opened.  I had put some money in the
video and a gay film was showing.  He quickly and confidently came in
shut the door, pressed his hot body to mine, wrapped his arms around me
and kissed me like I have never in my life been kissed.  No woman had
ever made me feel so ecstatic.

He pressed his groin into mine, and opened his mouth and moved his
tongue to open my lips.  His tongue danced with my tongue causing my
cock to bursting with the best feelings that I have ever had.  he groped
me and I groped him I felt his long hard cock through his jeans.  I was
in heaven just feeling his body next to mine.  he had a very sexy thin
mustache and I licked it with my tongue,sending explosive feeling of joy
throughout my body. He unzipped my pants and took out my hard cock.  Both
of us are well endowed, but mine is bigger.  He felt my cock in his hands
and stroked me a bit.  I was mesmerized by all of this but I was still
nervous and guilt ridden.  He looked at my cock, and grinned, lifting one
eyebrow in satisfaction as to what he saw.  He asked me if he could suck
me.  I was too nervous and told him so.  I told him I wasn't comfortable
there.  he then asked me to come to his apartment, so I agreed.  I
followed his truck for about fifteen minutes over the bridge with so many
mixed emotions.  Ever since a little boy of eight years old I had wanted
to be with another boy or man and now it was happening.

When we got to his apartment we walked up the stairs and I then realized
how young he was and how handsome he was.  I was six feet tall, two
hundred and twenty pounds, salt and pepper hair and balding.  He was
twenty three years old five feet nine, one hundred and fifty pounds.  He
had thick brown hair, light smooth complexion and a wonderful smile.

He closed the door and turned around and kissed me again, never wanting
to let go and neither did I.  We didn't know where to put our hands
first, the feeling were so intense.  He took off my shirt and I took his
off.  Then he began to kiss my nipples and down to my navel  I opened my
belt and he unzipped my pants dropping them to the floor.  He got on his
knees and felt the outline of my hard throbbing cock, through my
briefs, with his mouth.  I grabbed the back of his head and was rocking
back and forth towards his mouth.  He then pulled down my briefs letting
out my eight and a half inch long by six inch around uncut cock.  He
looked up into my eyes, ( I can still see that look today) smiled,and
took my cock into his mouth.  I was elevated to a new dimension in my
life.  Years and years of suppression were now unleashed.  He sucked me
for a short while, I was ready to explode.  I told himthat I was about to
cum, expecting him to stop, but he didn't. He looked up into my eyes
again this time with my cock in his mouth.  There was a longing in his
eyes telling me, for some unexplainable reason, that he wanted me as much
as I wanted him.  My cock could take no more so I shot my load into his
wanting mouth. To say that it was the one of the best orgasms that i ever
had would be an understatement.

He stood up and I undressed him. I loved the look of his cock. It was
cut, around seven and a half inches long thick like mine but a lighter
smooth skin.  Thinking of it now has my own cock throbbing again.  I was
not into sucking and he understood so I stroked him and felt his
wonderful balls.  He took me over to his couch sat me down, we were now
both naked, and sat on my lap, putting one arm around my neck and the
other on my left shoulder. he then brought his wonderful full lips to
mine and we kissed again.  we got so hot into our kissing that our mouth
were opened so wide as if we want to swallow each other.  I caressed his
shoulders, his back, his thighs and of course stroked his cock and
caressed his balls.  I stroked him until he shot his load all over my
chest and stomach.  We pressed our bodies together and stayed there for
forty five minutes.

It was now around one o'clock in the morning and I had over an hours ride
back to my home.  I needed to leave but I didn't want to and he didn't
want me to either.  He gave me his phone number and we agreed to meet
again in four days. This was the beginning of many, many more discreet
meetings that lasted for almost four years.  To this day I miss him, the
second love of my life.