Date: Thu, 04 Mar 1999 07:11:59 PST From: ANGEL Subject: In Love with a Killer In Love with a Killer It was just another ordinary weekday like every other day, but today was a day not to be forgotten for the rest of my life. I just graduated from the polytechnic and now I am awaiting my entry to the university. Years of pursuing my interest in medical science really deprived me of leisure. This included the awful loneliness that I felt when the night descended. Tonight, I just couldn't sleep. Perhaps, I am just too bored to rest. I tried to ask my pals out but all of them had their dates. I just put on a T-shirt and jeans and wandered out of the house. I walked along the road to the mall until I stopped at the cinema. It was almost 11.30pm but the late night show was still on. I bought the ticket and sat among couples watching Titanic. I have seen the show but I just wanna to be around with people. I guess I just feel too lonely. When the show ended at around 2.30am , I rushed out of the theatre and tried to relieve my bursting bladder. I was angry when all the toilets in the cinema was closed. Most guys just gave up and peed at the field behind the cinema but I just went on searching for an opened toilet. I was ecstatic when I found one of the secluded toilet unlocked near the storeroom of the cinema. As I was about to walk into it, I heard muffled cries and a cracking noise coming from one of the stalls. I was shocked when I saw the reflection of a tall big guy dragging a body in the mirror. I was frozen still while I started to broke into cold sweat. To my horror, the guy caught the glimpse of me and I dashed out like a crazy bull and ran as fast as I could towards the nearest exit. I heard his footsteps so close behind almost feeling his hand gasping my jacket but I managed to get out of the cinema and hailed down a cab and fled . As I turned around , I saw his face. His face was angular , string and broad. He was almost 6" tall and obviously a sinewy man. He was mad or mad-looking, perhaps he knew that I saw what he had did. Although I was so scared and freaked out, there was this unusual sensation that came over me. I realised that I found him attractive. I was unable to sleep that night. I was too scared to tell anyone or go to the cops. Strangely, I kept having images of his face in my mind. The fear I had towards him seems to instil a weird kind of excitement and obsession in me. I felt real sick the next morning. I was astonished and nervous when a few cops appeared in front of my door after I got up. They knew that I was one of the last visitors to the cinema and wanna to question me on the murder last night. They saw me pictures of the victim and bombarded me with all sort of questions. I saw in the picture that the dead guy had his neck broken. I guess the cracking sound that I heard came from his crushing bones. This thinking made me go blue. The cops were impatient at my vague answers and I told them that I did not see anything. They were skeptical but they left after informing that I will be summon for further questioning. I felt so lousy. Not only I got myself in trouble with the cops. I might be killed by the guy I saw last night. The phone ranged and I picked it up; "Hi brad, u awake??...I need some help on my homework..u might comin down to the library...." James was talking away until he realised that I am not responsive. "hello?? U there man?? U heard wht I said??" he asked impatiently, "ya..I heard u Can I meet you there an hour later?" I answered "Ok see u there!" I put down the phone and went to the showers. The hot water really warm me up. I don't feel as cold as just now. I looked awful. Must be too tired and shocked. I forced myself to dress up and ride on the bus. As I was dozing off in the bus, I thought I saw a guy staring at me. I ignored the stares at first but I realised I had seen those eyes before. The eyes were so blue but hard with fiery like someone who want to eat u up. As I looked more carefully, I almost freaked when I realised the killer was on the same bus as me. I was so scared that I was soaked in sweat in an air-conditioned bus. The bus was crowded so I guess he couldn't get near me but the thought of him finding me so easily was uncannily frightening!! Abruptly , I alighted the next stop but he did not. I was a bit relieved because I thought he might not recognise me after all. That night was so dark. I took a cab to the library and I was so relieved to see James. I guess I feel safer with someone. We had hours of revision until it was night again. I was going to take a leak in the washroom. I was apprehensive from last night event but was brave enough to go into the cubicle. After relieving myself, I heard the opening of the toilet's main door. I thought it was another user but I saw a pair of boots stopping right outside my cubicle. I froze and hoped that it was James who want to fool around with me but I knew James wore Nike shoes that day. Before I knew, My cubicle was slammed opened and a huge strong pair of arms wrapped around me as I tried to escape. He was just too strong for me. Before I could scream , he opened my mouth with his big palm. He held me closely to him , so close I heard his heart beating and against his hard chest. He closed the door and looked at me. He was the murderer!!!! I tried so hard to free myself from his arm lock but he was just too strong. He did not speak a word but he took out his sharp dagger and placed it against my chin. Obviously he wanna me to stop struggling. He snuggled into his jacket and took out a note, written; IF U TELL THE COPS ANYTHING, I'LL KILL U!!! U KNOW I CAN FIND U EASILY! I WILL FOLLOW U UNTIL I AM SURE U DON'T GO SNOOPING ON ME!! He threw the paper into the toilet and flushed it. He let me go and I just sat down there to recover my fear as he strolled out the room like a professional. I was fraught with fear and my legs were too jelly to walk. It was weird that I felt warm and sensous when he held me. Although I was so scared he killed me, his strong arms around me were just so assuring. From that day onwards, he kept following me . From home to the mall to the disco to the cinema. He just never left me alone. I just so nervous the first few times but eventually I just got used to his presence. There was even this excitement in me when I tried to escaped his scrutiny and saw he frantically looking for me. It was like a secret security guard by my side but he was a deadly one I know. As weeks went by, there was this weird relationship that developed between us. Everyday, I will make sure he caught the sight of me before I embark on my daily activities. When it rains, I will deliberately leave an umbrella around for him. I even got him a present which I left in the alley as he followed me. I was thrilled when he secretly kept the present. Strangely, he never speak a word to me or anyone and I am just to scared to talk to him . He was incredibly handsome. He had this very masculine look and his muscular stature. You can even see his rippling muscles straining against his threadbare clothes. He had such a pair of deep-blue soulful eyes. Sometimes, I think he can speak through his eyes. He always like to wear his black leather jacket over his body tight- tees, he also like to wear dark blur or black jeans with those black boots. Everything of him is dark-coloured. He exuded a kind of mystery and strength and sensuality that drew me to him. I realised I had fallen in love with him. Tonight, I was anxious as I didn't see him following me into the alley. Perhaps, he lost me in the crowds just now. I slowed my pace and tried to strolled as slow as I can just to let him to caught up with me. Suddenly, a group of guys , punks I guess jumped out from a corner, he pushed me into a dark corner. One of the big guy threatened me with his knife and wanted me to hand over my wallet to them. I do as they want but they got so pissed off when they found only ten bucks in my wallet. Before I could respond, they rained punches onto me. I was so frightened and painful that I guess I just could not scream. They even kicked me in my stomach as I tried to crawl away from their assault. The big burly guy sent a punch across my face and his ring on his finger seared across the edge of my left eye. All I saw was blood gushing down my face and me trying to cover the fresh wound from another cutting punch. To my surprise, the second punch never came. I heard cries from the guys as I saw one being flew across the alley. The rest just collapsed like dead flies after a few minutes. Then, I saw him, my guardian angel standing tall in front of me. He carried me up in his arms and I passed out due to the agonising pains. When I'm awoke, I saw him cleaning my face, his eyes were so sympathetic as thought he was consoling me. My tears just went down my face as I realised that I am a whimp that could not even protect myself from a group of teenagers. He saw me crying and he took me into his arms and he just held me as close to him as possible while I weep the hell out onto his chest. He just stroke my hair and my back as though he was hushing me. I just went quiet as I feel his warm in his chest and the comforting warm he gave me. It was so comfortable to rest in his embrace that I fell asleep in his arms. In the morning, I found myself still in his embrace. I guess he never let go of me that night. He was there with me all through the night. He fell asleep as he hugged me. I tried not to wake him up and I was so full of love and admiration for what he did for me. No one or Never I thought anyone will love me and protect me as he would. I was staring at his sleeping look , so cute and serene. I could not resist but kiss him on his chin. I was stunned when he looked at me after I kissed him. However, he just kissed me back and he tighten his embrace and we felt united at that moment. He removed my clothes with such gentleness and dexterity that I didn't know I was naked. I could feel his hard thick muscles cushioning my body. His monstrous strength complimented by his gentleness and I was just lost in his touch and embrace. I could feel him inside me. He was so gentle yet so strong. He just went on and on like hours before I could feel an overwhelming hot sensation inside me. The feelings I had was unimaginable and out of this world. I felt him resting atop me but his love still inside me.