Chapter 11: Aftermath
I think I'd only been lying there about a half hour when I felt Sean try to roll over. I pulled back a little to give him room. He rolled and was facing me; his eyes were open.
"Hi." I whispered.
"Hi. I'm sorry. I didn't mean to wake you up; I just needed to change position."
"You didn't wake me up."
"Are you OK?"
"Yeah, Sean, I'm OK. Just layin' here thinkin'"
"OK... You sure you're OK, Mike? What're you thinkin' about?"
"I'm OK. I'm thinkin' about the three of us; everything it means."
"What do you mean?"
"I'm just wondering where this is all heading and if I'm ready for it."
"Where do you think its heading?"
"I don't really know. I know we started something that will change all of us; I'm just really hoping it's a good change. I guess if I'm honest with myself, and you, I'm a little scared."
Sean sighs. "I know... I'm a little scared too. I don't know what tomorrow's gonna bring; I don't know what I want it to bring. I've never felt like this before, Mike and I sure as hell never thought two guys could make me feel this way."
"What are you feeling, Sean?"
He paused for a few seconds. "Safe. I know it sounds stupid, but yeah, safe."
"You are safe. Jake and I will never let anything hurt you. It's not stupid to allow yourself to feel loved, safe and secure."
"I guess... I just never thought being in bed with two guys would make me feel that way."
"Well, you're in bed with your best friend, who loves you with all his heart, and his boyfriend who loves him with all his heart; and who loves you too. There's just a lot of love floatin' around; it's hard not to be affected by it."
He smiled. "Yeah..."
"Sean, everything you ever thought about how your life was has changed. It's not easy to deal with that all at once. Your relationship with Jake has changed drastically too, and you both will have to find a way to adjust and move forward. I know you love him with everything in your soul; I can see it when you guys are together. He loves you the same way." I paused, looking at him. "You made out with your best friend; it's gonna change your relationship, that's just how it works. But you both are strong enough to make it a good change; something that makes you closer."
"Is that what you've been thinking about; seeing Jake and I kissing? I would never come between you guys; it would tear me apart if I did."
"Partly that. I mean it was hot as fuck to see, but yeah it got my attention. I mean I understand it; I've been on the receiving end of one his no holds barred kisses. I love it when he just let's himself go and just goes into the moment; it's fucking incredible to experience. I don't see how anybody could not just melt back into him. There are amazing moments that he just gives every ounce of himself and you feel honored that he chose you."
"Yeah... Fuck, I know what you're saying. I've never been kissed like that in my life; it was like he was trying to pass his soul to me. I'm sorry, Mike, that it made you feel bad; but honestly, I'm not sorry it happened; it was a kiss I'll remember my whole life." He looked at me kind of sheepishly.
"Sean, don't be sorry. I know exactly what you mean. Any jealousy on my part is my problem. I'm the one that got this all going. I was fulfilling his fantasy. I don't regret it; it was amazing. I guess what it comes down to is I'm willing to share his body with you, but not his love. I know he already loves you; he loved you first, but he's in-love with me; and I'm not ready to lose that."
He just stared into my eyes for awhile. "I don't think you'll ever lose that. And besides, I'm not in love with him. I'm not looking to be in a lover type relationship with you guys; I just like how you both made me feel and I'd like to experience it again. I don't know if it's possible to have that though; to experience you guys this way and not have it fuck everything up. That scares me. I don't want any of us getting hurt."
"I don't want you getting hurt either, Sean. I guess what it boils down to is we all three have to talk to each other and decide what the next step is; what everyone wants. I know this type of thing has been done, and it's worked out. I just don't have any experience with it. I guess if we laid out ground rules it would probably work out better, but I just don't know. I'm still kind of scared of losing him. If it was always the three of us, and not just you two, I'd handle it better."
"I want it be the three of us; that's what made it so good. I'm not looking for a boyfriend; I'd like to have a wife eventually. But what worked is that it was the three of us. I'm not looking to move in with your guys, but I would like to be able to come over and have even just a little of what I felt tonight; and I don't mean just the sex. You guys together made me feel so wanted."
"OK, I see where you're going. I think I could deal with that. If Jake and I are going to be having 3-ways with anyone I'd prefer it was you. I trust and respect you a lot; doing this with you made it a lot easier, and a lot better. So basically what I guess we're trying to accomplish is Jake and I continuing on as we've been, but having hot, sweaty, loving, erotic, caring weekends with you."
He grinned big. "You hit the nail right on the head, dude. And thanks for what you just said; it meant more to me than you probably realize. I feel the same way about you. But yeah, what you just said; you just yanked the thought right outta my head and put it into words."
"I've been accused of far worse trying to get into somebody's head. I'm sorry about laying this all on you. I'm really bad about analyzing the fuck out of things and you made the mistake of asking if I was OK." I grinned at him. "I'm glad we talked though; I feel a lot better."
He gave me a slight smile. "I do too. I know a lot of things changed me tonight, but I'm good with it. I'm happy. Thank you."
"You're welcome. I'm happy too. We just have to hope our boy over there is happy."
"I am happy, but I'd be a lot happier if you two hens would quit cluckin', just kiss each other good night and go the fuck to sleep."
Sean spun his head around, "You fucker! You've been listening this whole time?"
Jake giggles. "No, Sean, I haven't. I just woke up a few minutes ago; hearing you two cluckin' away. And as for the sweaty, loving, erotic, caring weekends? I completely agree. Now shut up and go to sleep. Jeez."
Sean and I both laughed. I stopped first, "I guess the master of the house has spoken." Sean laughs again. "Sorry we woke you up, Sir!" They both laugh.
"It's OK; just don't let it happen again. Now would you two just kiss and make up and go to fucking sleep, please? I need my beauty rest, dammit!"
"Yes Sir!" Sean and I leaned in to each other and had a nice, deep loving kiss. After about fifteen seconds we pulled apart and smiled at each other.
"Finally! Damn. Now maybe I can get some sleep. Goodnight you two; I love you both."
We all finally went to sleep, Sean and I cuddled up with each other, and Jake spooned up behind Sean, with his arm over both of us. What a group we made. My last thought before I fell asleep was that of the maid walking in on this. I smiled and finally went to sleep.
I awoke and looked at my watch; 9:07 a.m. Not too bad, I decided. I had a man lying on my chest; I just wasn't sure which one it was. I looked down and saw the soft, blond, fuzzy hair. Sean. I kind of chuckled to myself; he was sleeping the exact same way Jake does, leg thrown over mine, his head on my chest, and his arm holding my side, softly snoring into my nipple. No wonder I woke up every morning with hard nipples anymore. I lifted my right arm up and laid my hand down on Sean's head and rubbed his soft, blond hair with my fingers, just like I do with Jake. Figured what the hell, when in Rome... I caught movement out of my right eye and looked up. It was Jake. He was standing at the end of the bed looking at me with a huge grin on his face, and then he winked at me. I smiled up at him.
Almost whispering. "Damn, baby, that's a Kodak moment if there ever was one. He looks so sweet and happy lying there. I know how he feels..."
"Yeah, well... I just seem to bring that out in Marines, I guess." I whispered back.
He smiled even bigger. "Yes you do. Because you're a good man, and I love you; don't ever doubt that. That right there? It doesn't bother me at all; in fact it makes me really happy. I want you to grow to love each other as much as I love you both. I want us to be kind of a family; if that's OK with you."
I thought about it for several seconds before replying. "I don't know why, but I think I'd like that too. For some reason it feels comfortable to me; and I never thought something like this would."
He smiled and winked at me again. "It's because you know we both love you and would do anything for you; and we know the same is true about you. It just feels like the right thing to do."
"When did you become so wise, young man?"
"I have two awesome teachers."
Sean moved his head a little and spoke in a sleepy voice. "Now who's cluckin' like an old hen?"
Jake giggled. "I am. And you will address me as, `Sir', fuck stick."
"Not in this or any other lifetime, cum breath." They both giggled. "And I didn't hear you complainin' any when my fuck stick was down your throat." I laughed.
"Well it's kinda hard to talk around that Vienna sausage."
"Don't you mean it's kinda hard to breath around that bratwurst?" This could go on forever I decided.
"Guys! Guys! Jeez, I'm tryin' to enjoy my morning here. Agree to disagree." They both laughed. I pulled my hand off Sean's head and reached out for Jake's hand.
"Hey! Put that back, please, it felt really good."
"Hold on; I want to hold something else for a minute."
"If you can find his, you can hold it." He giggled into my chest.
I held my hand out to Jake and he took it and squeezed it. We both smiled at each other then he bent down and kissed me. He pulled away then kissed Sean's head. After he stood back up he let go of my hand, winked at me again and starting walking out of the room.
"Where're you going?" I asked him.
"Just to get some coffee started. I need some caffeine; and I know you two do. I want to be able to stand being around you guys." He grinned at me and continued walking.
Sean yelled out, "Yeah! Go make your men some coffee, boy!" Then softly to me, "OK, you can put your hand back now. I like that." I rolled my eyes and put my hand back on his head and went back to running my fingers around his blond fuzz. I sighed and thought, wow, this could get out of hand at times.
"You OK; why the sigh?"
"I'm fine. It wasn't a bad sigh, just a sigh."
"Oh, OK. Just checkin'..."
He moved his lips down and kissed my chest. I smiled and caressed his head. I guess it had it good points too. Jake was gone for a while; I guess he was enjoying the wonders of watching coffee brew. When he finally came back in, he was carrying two cups of steaming coffee. When he got to my side of the bed Sean looked up at him and smiled.
Jake smiled at us. "Don't get used to this, I'm nobody's maid, but here ya go." He set both cups down on the nightstand. I was waiting for the smartass comment from Sean, but none came.
"Thank you, Jake. That was sweet of you."
"Yeah, Jakey, thank you. I appreciate it, brother."
I was almost stunned; I guess they did have their thoughtful sides with each other.
"You're both very welcome. Now drink that shit so we can get outta here. I'm hungry." And the moment was passed. I laughed to myself.
"Yeah, me too, but I gotta hit the head before we do anything. You guys might not want to be in here for this."
Jake and I both moaned. "Thanks for the warning, brother."
"Hey, I'm tryin' to be good here..." He smiled at us.
I pulled my hand off Sean's head and tried to get up. "On that note... Let me up, ya big stud. I want outta here. And let me go piss first before you kill the bathroom."
They laughed and Sean sat up so I could get out of bed. I grabbed my coffee, kissed Jake and bolted to the bathroom, grabbing a pair of underwear on the way. They were laughing behind me.
In about a half-hour we were all cleaned up, dressed and ready to go. I told Jake I was sick of having breakfast in the hotel; we needed to find a good restaurant for breakfast food. Sean jumped up saying he knew just the place, so we followed him. The boy knows food; I can say that for him. We had a terrific breakfast, some great coffee and good conversation. I was watching Jake and he seemed so alive; so happy. It was nice to see. We finished breakfast, left the restaurant and just started walking around town. We passed a men's clothing store and it hit me that we'd never gone clothes shopping yesterday. I grabbed both of their shirts and brought them up short. They turned around to look me. I grinned and pointed to my right.
Jake moaned. "Oh hell, he spotted a clothes store."
"So what? Is he like a clothes whore or somethin'?" Sean grinned at me.
I laughed, "No, I'm not a clothes whore. I told Jake we were buyin' him some new civvies to wear, but we kinda got sidetracked yesterday."
Sean laughed, "Oh I see how it is; I'm just a sidetrack now."
I looked him right in the eyes. "Shut the fuck up and get in the goddamn store."
He grinned back at me, and then snapped to attention. "Sir! Yes Sir! Right away, Sir!"
He gave me a full-on Marine salute, left-faced and started walking into the store. Jake and I were howling with laughter behind him. We walked all around the store looking at everything, Jake and Sean finding several things they liked. Sean wasn't about to accept me buying anything for him until Jake told him it was pointless to argue and to please shut up and save us the grief. After they both had picked out several things they wanted to get, I had noticed a Levi section and went and looked. I found what I was looking for and went back to find them. I pulled them both to the side so nobody could hear us.
"Guys, I know this sounds bad, but do an old man a favor and hear me out. You are both so incredibly sexy, and you both have killer asses." They blushed. "I have this thing for guys in 501's; always have. Let me buy you both a couple of pairs. You may not even be in them for long..." Jake blushed.
Sean was non-pulsed. "Sure, what's the big deal? I wear 501's all the time back home. They're comfy, and I like the button-fly." Then he gave me an evil grin. "And yeah, they make my ass look really good, too." It was my turn to blush and he giggled.
Jake laughed and then took a swipe at the back of my head. "And quit callin' yourself an old man, dammit!"
"Yeah! What he said!"
We went and got the jeans and then checked out at the cashier. We lugged our new purchases back to the hotel and went upstairs. I watched as they took the clothes out of the bags and compared notes on everything. I smiled to myself; it was like Christmas morning. Boys; I guess we never really do grow up.
We spent all day together, laughing, having fun and actually finding time to talk about last night and what we all wanted from it. In the end I guess we'd worked something out; though I wasn't entirely sure how it would play out. I did actually have high hopes for it, even though it was so foreign to me, but in a way it seemed like it was the thing to do. I loved Jacob with all my heart, and he somehow had managed to assure me that he loved me the same way. Sean was just going to be an added bonus; the third member of our new family. That's how Jake looked at all of this; we were a family now and he wasn't about to let anyone fuck it up.
Jake and I took Sean back to the base at about nine thirty and dropped him off. Jake told me he could just stay there too, since he had to be there in the morning anyway; and it would save me having to drive him out in the morning. I told him it wasn't a problem, and I wanted some private Jake time anyway. He smiled and nodded and we bid goodnight to Sean and headed back to the hotel. Jake and I made love to each other that night. No sex, no loud moaning, no screaming, no cum shows; just sweet love, and I fell asleep with him in my arms feeling that all was right my world again.
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