OF LOVE AND CHANCE
Chapter Eight: IN THE FAMILY WAY
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I walked down to retrieve Sorrow for our counseling appointment and
watched in awe as he and Chance performed their magic with those
children. They were truly a Godsend to those poor tykes,
and together, they made such progress. I found myself hating to
interrupt them, but I knew the counseling had its place as well.
Sorrow gave many of the children hugs goodbye before joining me on our
walk back to my office. Of course, he hugged his buddy Chance,
too. I smiled, feeling so glad they found one another, noting
they really brought out the best in each other. I wondered if
there might be something more to their story someday, but decided it
really did not matter. As long as they were happy, I was happy.
We began the counseling session with prayer, just as we usually
did. Sorrow had requested this on our first session, and I was
humbled by his faith in me, as I was the one he wanted to lead his
counseling sessions. After our prayer, we began talking about
everything that has happened through the week, recapping his progress.
"I remembered something this morning."
Sorrow started, smiling, though tears filled his eyes. "It was the day David shot himself.
He came to my room and talked to me for a little while."
His tears began to flow down his cheeks as he paused. "We talked about some of my action figures I
was playing with, and then he sat me on his lap and hugged
me tightly. He told me how much he loved me and how much I meant
to him." He began to cry at this point, as tears streaked
down my own cheeks. "The thing
is, I have blamed myself for so long, thinking that if I were only a
better brother, David might still be here with us. For some
reason, I blocked this whole day out of my mind. But now, as I
am remembering it, I know he loved me. He loved me, Mic."
I held Sorrow in my arms as we shared in this revelation. I
thanked God for bringing this to the surface of his memory,
knowing that another part of the healing process would now begin.
"Sorrow, babe, that is fantastic!"
I soothed, gaining control of myself somewhat. "All this guilt you have been feeling over
David... now you know you can let it go. Let it all go, sweetie."
He sighed and relaxed in my arms. "That's it, Eric. Now, doesn't that
feel much better?" I asked, with excitement edging in my
"Yeah, Mic. It feels
wonderful! I know he loved me and that we had made our peace
before he died." He raised his head, smiling through his
tears. "It's like this huge
heaviness has been lifted off of me. David loved me. He
really loved me." He swallowed hard. "I still miss him terribly, but today, all
my memories of him have been fond ones... not ones where we were
fighting or arguing... but ones in which we were laughing, playing,
talking, and being good brothers to each other. Remembering him
this way is so much easier on me."
I was so happy to hear this. My young man was really making
progress, and I knew a great way to channel his feelings. I went
to my desk and retrieved a book. "Sorrow,
honey, this is a journal. In it, you can draw or write anything
you want. I think it might be a good way for you to express
yourself and give the things you are dealing with focus. It is
for your eyes only, unless, of course, you want to share the journal
with someone else. That is totally up to you, though."
I grinned, handing him the journal. "I thought maybe you might want to write
down your memories of David... maybe even write him a letter."
"Yeah. I would like to remember
everything as I am right now." He smiled.
"Well, why don't you take some time
and work on your journal, then. Take all the time you need, and
when you are finished, you can go see Chance and those kids who are so
crazy about you."
He grinned wide as I said this. "You
really think so?"
It was so sweet, his modesty and
humble nature. "Honey, I know so. Those children
absolutely love you both. Jew said they asked about you all day
yesterday. They really look forward to time with both of their
big brothers, Eric. You are making a huge difference in their
lives, on that you can be certain." His smile spread ear to
ear. "Of course, I am simply
positive Chance is crazy about you, too." I added.
With a content smile, Sorrow began his journal. About an hour
later, he was ready to rejoin the children and his dearest friend.
I just want you to know how much I love and miss you. I have
written down everything I have remembered today, of all our times
together. Those memories are treasures because you are a part of
them. I even drew a picture of us together. I am not the
best artist in the world, but I am still pleased with the
captured how I feel about you, anyway.
I am a big brother now, working with some great kids. They all
have unique problems, but Chance and I are doing all we can to help
them. Being a big brother is sweet, but, I think you will always
be the best big brother anyone could have ever had. God knows how
much I miss you. I was not always the best little brother, and
for that I am truly sorry. Somehow, though, I know you loved me,
regardless of the childish arguments I would start.
I really wish you were here to meet Chance. I know you would love
him as much as I do. He has been a guiding light for me, my own
little angel here on earth. He is so full of hope, and I am
finding myself to be hopeful just by being near him. He is
quite special to me, to say the least. Even Pop loves him.
See, Chance led me to my new family, one God made for
us. There are so many wonderful people living with us, and they
all love Chance and me unconditionally. We
even have two dads! Dad and Daddy are really
something special, and I love them deeply. Pop and I are finally
some time together, and I think he will be a great friend. Man, I
you could be a part of my life, too, David.
Things were pretty messed up for me for a while, but since I met
Chance, life has been turning around. I'm sad to say that I had
been hurting myself and was thinking about suicide. I even
thought for a long time that you hated me and that I was the reason you
did what you did. Today, though, I remembered the last time I saw
you really alive... before you were just living off the machines...
when you came to my room that last time. I don't know how I could
have forgotten it, but it is a memory I will now keep in my heart
I honestly do not know why you did it, David, but I still love
you. I always will. I was mad at you for a while for
leaving me. Then, I was mad at myself for not being enough to
hold you here. You were everything to me, big brother, and when
you died, I was left with nothing. I'm not mad at either of
us now, though. Yet, I still miss you, nonetheless.
I wanted to be exactly like you, just in case you didn't know
that. I thought you were the greatest, even better than candy
(which if you remember was a big deal for me back then). I
remember all the great times we had playing in my room and in the back
yard, like when you would make us a tent by draping a quilt over two
chairs. Man, you were so special to me. Though you
were ten years older, you still were willing to make the time to play
with me. I remember you even would tell some of your friends,
had more important things to do than go out with them, only you were
staying home to
be with me. Big brother, you really did make me feel
special. I had not felt that way again until the day I met my
Something Chance, my angel, has been saying to me is finally starting
to make sense. He keeps telling me I need glasses so that I can
see myself as everyone else does. Maybe that is what you needed,
David. Maybe if you could have seen just how important you were
to me, you would still be here today. God knows, I really miss
As I look back, I realize you honestly were all I had. Just so
you know, I appreciate every single thing you did for me. You
really loved me, and all of your actions toward me expressed this...
how could I have forgotten all that you were to me? You were more
than just my big brother, you were my hero.
That is what I want to be for the kids we work with... someone who
takes the time to be there for them... someone they can look up to...
someone who loves them... just like you were for me. I guess that
is what I really wanted to say in the beginning. I want to
dedicate my life looking out for and helping others, trying my hardest
every day to live up to the big brother you were to me.
There is something we have to do tonight, my dads, my angel, and
me. Believe it or not, we all dreamed about it. That in itself is
hard to fathom, but there is more to it. I'm not sure how or
why, but I am changing, David. I can
feel it inside of me, as every day I become more and more
different. I am also becoming aware of things
somehow... I really can't explain it just yet, but I know that Chance
is like me. The two of us have a purpose to fulfill
together, but we're not sure what it is yet. I just wish you
could be here to see it when the time
finally comes. You'll be with me in my heart, so I guess that
will have to do.
Well, I guess I should get back to the kids, then, so I will
close. I have a feeling, however, that this is the first of many
letters to you, big brother. You always were easy to talk to, you
With all my heart and love,
Your little brother, Sorrow
was gettin' a bit worried 'bout Sorrow cause he was gone a bit longer
'n usual. But, he comed right on in with Mic just a little while
after that. I could tell by that smilin' face of his that it was
a good day talkin' with Mic. He was carryin' some kinda book with
'im, but he just throwed it down soon as he saw me. He runned
straight up to me, a
pickin' me up and swingin' me round in a circle as he hugged me real
tight like. "I finally
understand what you mean about the glasses." he said, grinnin'
at me all big like. "I promise,
Angel, I'll try harder."
I wrapped my arms 'round his neck, huggin' 'im back, while he kept
holdin' me up off the ground. "Well,
it sure took you long enough to figure that out. I thought that
'n was kinda easy." I laughed. "I's real glad you's finally seein' what
I's talkin' bout though." I kissed 'im on his cheek.
"My big ol' angel's gettin' lots
better ever day, ain't ya!"
"Little by little, Angel." He
gived me a real big hug then. "Thanks
for believing in me and never giving up, no matter how stupid I may be
I laughed and knocked my knuckles real easy like on his head. "You's a bit thick sometimes, but I don't
reckon you's ever stupid, Sorrow. In fact, I knows you's real
smart like in there. You's gonna be knowin' lots more stuff 'fore
"Just don't ever leave me,
Angel. I could never live without you." he said,
restin' his head on my shoulder.
"You ain't never gonna get rid of me,
ol' boy. I's always gonna be right with ya." I
knowed he was real worried 'bout losin' me for some reason right
then, so I squeezed 'im tight as I could, restin' my head on
his. "We's gonna always be with
one 'nother, so don't you fret no more 'bout it. I ain't wantin'
to be nowheres without ya neither. We's 'posed to be together
'n all anyways. You's knowin' that, too, just like I do."
"I know, Angel, but it is nice to be
reassured." He told me. We was just a
snugglin' up like
that there for a few minutes, then he kissed me on the head. "I guess we should get to work, then.
Just know I love you, Chance."
I smiled at 'im real big like. "I
love ya too, Sorrow." I's lookin' at 'im like he was right
then, but in my head all sudden like, I's also seein' what he's
like after it all happened. I knowed he's gonna be real special
I guess I's gawkin' at 'im too long or somethin', cause Sorrow looked
at me all curious like. "What's
up, Angel? Is something wrong?" He was all worryin',
'em wrinkles bunchin' up on his forehead.
I just giggled at 'im. "Nope.
Nothin's wrong at all, Sorrow. Everthin's just like it oughta be
I reckon." He was a lookin' like he wasn't believin' me or
nothin', so I just grabbed 'im by his cheeks 'n pulled his face close
mine. "You's gonna have to quit
all that ol' worryin' 'n stuff. Else you's gonna look real old
you's even growd up." He grinned, but I knowed he's still
not sure. "If 'ere was
somethin' wrong, I reckon you's 'd know 'fore anybody, cause I'd be a
tellin' ya first."
He winked at me. " You'd better."
He then looked at me all questionin' like."Why were you staring at me, then?"
"Well, maybe I's just wantin' too look
at that ol' mug of yours for a bit. I can look at ya if I's
wantin' to." I said all smart like, but he knowed I's just
playin'. Then, I told
im, "Maybe I's thinkin' you's
awful pretty or somethin'."
He turned all red 'n then started laughin' and pushed me easy like on
the shoulder. "Oh, whatever,
Humper! Let's get the guys fed."
We was helpin' some 'em kids with eatin' 'n all, when I knowed he's
there. Sorrow did too, cause he looked at Timmy 'n said, "I'll be right back, little guy.
Daddy!" he called out, 'fore he even turned 'round.
He then runned over to Daddy, huggin' on 'im all big like.
I's smilin cause I knowed Sorrow was knowin' more 'n more of that other
stuff, just like me. I told 'at little Sarah I's comin' right
'n then run over to Daddy, jumpin' up 'n huggin 'em both. "I's awful glad to see you here today, but
I don't reckon I knowed you was comin' 'fore you got here."
Daddy hugged us both in 'em big ol' arms of his, laughin'. "Well, I was packing this morning, but I
got to missing my little men. So, next thing you know, I was
here. I called your Dad, and he should be joining us
shortly. I thought we might have lunch together if that is OK
with you guys."
"Spending any time with you and Dad is
more than OK, Daddy." Sorrow told 'im, wrappin' his arm
'round Daddy's back. "We are
almost finished helping everyone with lunch, so it was just about
perfect timing. Besides, I have some news I want to share with
the family." The way he was a smilin', we could tell it
was somethin' good Sorrow's a talkin' 'bout.
"Let's finish feeding those kids,
then." Daddy smiled. Then, he looked at me 'n
Sorrow, "You may have to tell me what
to do, though, boys. I've never actually fed someone else
before... well, besides your Dad, but that isn't exactly the same
thing. We use our fingers or lips..." he
said, gettin' all dreamy eyed thinkin' 'bout Dad.
Sorrow 'n me both laughed, and I told 'im, "Daddy, it's right easy, just like feedin'
yourself, only you's feedin' somebody else instead."
Sorrow 'n Daddy got real tickled at that for some reason, which I still
ain't quite sure why. Then, Daddy pat me on my head. "Son, never change. You are such a
special little guy, and you make every single day more and more
Sorrow then said, "I have to agree
with Daddy, Angel. You definitely make life more enjoyable."
I's feelin' all proud like after they said all that stuff.
Me 'n Sorrow showed Daddy what to do to help feed 'em kids, 'n Jena got
tickled at Daddy. He was carryin' on somethin' fierce with 'em
kids, but they was all likin' it lots. I reckon Daddy's kinda
silly sometimes, but it just makes ya love 'im even more. I
knowed 'em kids sure did love 'im. Not like me 'n Sorrow 'n Dad
Just as we was finishin' cleanin' up, Dad was a strollin' in. "Lunch is not going to be the same once you
boys start school." He grinned. "I want to enjoy all the family time we
Sorrow 'n me hugged Dad, then Daddy kissed 'im real long like.
'Em kids started laughin', but it didn't bother nobody or nothin',
cause we all knowed they didn't mean nothin' by it. 'Sides,
even Jena 'n Jew was gigglin'. 'Em dads of ours can't never
get near each other without bein' all over one 'nother. I guess
they's just too much in love. I knows I's hopin' to be like that
with somebody someday, and I reckon then I done knowed who it was gonna
We ate us our lunch, then. Sorrow told us 'bout his 'memberin'
David 'fore he died, and we was all real happy for 'im. That's
why he was smilin' all big like. I reckon he's a thinkin' I's
just playin' 'fore, but I's all honest. Sorrow was real handsome
when he was a smilin'. I guess I's true sayin' he's handsome
even when he was all
sad like. But, I knowed I liked seein' 'im like that, with one of
great big grins spreadin' way 'cross his pretty ol' face. It just
made me feel awful good for some reason.
We talked 'bout all kinda stuff, but I reckon we all just liked havin'
that time together. We's a family, so I guess that's what we's
'posed to do anyway. Soon as lunch was finished, Daddy 'n Dad
us all big hugs bye. Then, Jena made me 'n Sorrow study hard in
'em books, cause I had to take that ol' test for that school
the next day.
Sorrow raked me on 'em hot coals 'n back 'fore we's finished, and my
was a hurtin' I'd used my brain so much. If that weren't bad
enough, Jena gived me some of 'em tests to do again. Then, she
had Sorrow askin' me 'em questions, but I knowed I was gettin' lots
better at answerin' 'em. Good ol' Roe had made sure of
that, and I was tellin' myself to be sure 'n give 'im a great big hug
Jena checked all my tests, and I was just plumb full of 'em
nerves down in my belly. She looked like she's awful upset with
me or somethin', so I's real worried 'bout it. "Chance! What am I going to do with
you?" She said all flat like. Then, she walked real
slow up to me. 'Fore I knowed it, she hugged me up. "Give you a great big hug and kiss I
guess. You did fantastic, babe!" She said all happy
like, 'n I let out a big ol' sigh. "You should have no trouble at
all tomorrow, so no more worrying about it."
I was right happy, then, but Jew and Sorrow was 'cited even more 'n I
was. Jew picked me up 'n kissed me on the cheek, tellin' me how
proud he was of me. I reckon that's the first time he ever kissed
me really, but I knows it meant a lot to me comin' from 'im. I
liked ol' Jew a bunch. Sorrow hugged me all tight 'n told me I's
like 'at ol' Einstein fella. I laughed to myself a thinkin'
my hair stickin' all out like his's doin' in all 'em pictures. To
be all smart 'n stuff like he was, I don't reckon he knowed how to use
'im a comb.
I 'sided I's gonna pick with Sorrow some. "So, you's tellin' me you think I's ugly?"
I said, actin' all hurt like. "And
after I done told you you's pretty 'n all."
Sorrow's eyes got all big, cause he thought he done hurt my
feelin's. "No, Angel.
That's not what I meant at all. You are anything but ugly."
He said, pettin' me on the arm, all sorry like. "Hey, when did you say I was pretty?"
Then, I reckon he 'membered it. "Oh,
yeah. As if." He laughed. "Joking does not count, Humper."
I smiled at 'im REAL big, sayin, "Who
says I's jokin' 'bout it?"
He's a lookin' at me like I's just crazy or somethin'. "Yeah, right." I just kept on
grinnin' 'n smilin'. "You
weren't joking, then? You really think I'm attractive?"
"I guess you's never gonna know now
you done called me ugly ol' Einstein."
He was squirmin' when I's tellin' 'im that. "Angel, that is so not funny." I
kept on a smilin while he just kept on a squirmin'. " And, I did not mean it like that, anyway."
He kept on lookin' at me thinkin' I's gonna give in to 'im. "Angel, come on, now. Tell me."
Then, Sorrow grabbed me up 'n started ticklin' me. I's laughin'
so hard, ain't no way I coulda told 'im nothin' noways. "OK. I'll tell ya." I says to
'im finally. He quit ticklin' me 'n I grabbed his face in my
hands, pullin' it close to mine. "Maybe
I's pickin', but maybe I's serious. Guess you's gonna have to
figure that 'n out on ya own, ol' boy."
Sorrow looked like he's not knowin' what to think then. "That is so wrong." he said
finally. I just smiled at 'im some more. Then, he laughed, "I'll get it out of you sooner or later."
Then, I started gigglin', tellin' 'im, "Later.
LOTS later. Like when we's both real old." He just
shaked his head at me, givin' up for a bit, I reckoned.
Jena told me 'n Sorrow we could do whatever we was wantin' to for the
rest of the day, so we read some of 'em stories to 'em kids.
Course, I's actin' 'em out. I liked doin' that, and 'em kids sure
seemed like they did too. Even Jena and Jew was down in that
circle listenin' and a laughin'. It was just good ol' fun if
you's askin' me.
Then, we played us some of 'at Simon Says 'n that ol' goose game.
We's all havin' fun with those, 'specially 'em kids. Course, we's
there for 'em kids anyway, so's I guess that was OK. When it was
time for us all to get goin', all 'em kids gave us hugs bye.
Knowin' 'em kids had a good ol' time 'n that we helped 'em out somehow
was the best part of doin' what me 'n Sorrow did.
Daddy met us out in the lot, so me n' Sorrow 'n Dad rode on home with
'im. 'Fore we left, Jena bragged all big 'bout my tests, which
made Dad 'n Daddy real happy. I reckon she was right nice really,
and I's startin' to like her lots more. Course, she wasn't
pickin' on my Daddy, neither.
As we got in Daddy's car, Sorrow looked over at me, all sad like.
"So, are you gonna tell me now?"
"'Bout what?" I's actin'
like I's not knowin' what he's talkin' 'bout.
He pulled me up close to 'im, lookin' me right in the eye, tryin' to
look like some sad ol' pup. "You
know what, Angel."
I's thinkin' to myself Sorrow's real
handsome if he's a smilin' or not. 'Em sad ol' eyes was somethin'
else, if you's askin' me. "I
reckon you's a smart boy,
Sorrow. I knowed you can figure this 'n out." I
laughed. He just whined 'n pouted all the way home, still
thinkin' I's gonna give in to 'im for actin' all sad like. But I
knowed his game alright.
Thursday was so busy. I had left to pack as Killian and the boys
went on to the mission. Jena was engaged in her practicum work
with Jew, and Ethan had morning classes. That left only me to
begin the packing of our old home. I started in the living room,
which actually did not take nearly as long as I thought it would.
Within an hour, everything was wrapped, boxed, labeled, and neatly
Next, I moved into the kitchen. I had just finished wrapping the
dishes when I received the phone call. This was one errand
which I looked forward, smiling to myself as I began the drive
there. Along the way, however, the anticipation of it all began
to grow. I was a
complete bundle of raw nerves by the time I arrived. With one
look, Nana began giggling. Grams just smiled, knowing me all to
well. I was so glad the two of them had agreed to help me out
"Kanawha, darling, I believe you need
to take yourself a few deep
breaths." Nana snickered. "Lord, child. He loves you,
so what are you so worried about?"
"I know he does. But, he is
everything to me. This has got
to be perfect, because he deserves nothing less than that."
responded, as panic began to seep from my every pore. "I want to
create the most romantic evening Love could possibly imagine."
desperate, and the two of them just stood there smirking. "You
don't understand, I love Killian so much. I just have to find the
way to let him know how much he means to me."
"I swan, Kanawha." Grams
chuckled. "Listen to
yourself. HE LOVES YOU, and YOU LOVE HIM. That IS
perfect. How much closer to perfection can you get than to have
the love you feel for someone returned." Grams said,
gently patting my shoulder. Of course, Grams made
complete sense. But, I was not quite ready to give up my quest
for the ideal evening. Seeing this, she
continued sharing her insight. "It is
just my humble opinion, but rather than trying to be so flashy, why do
you not try simply being yourself. I could be wrong.. after all I
am getting rather old... but it seems to me that YOU are the man he
Nana, wrapped her arm around my back. "Honey, your Gram's is right. Just
think about it. The two of you were made for each other.
What could possibly be more romantic than spending an evening with the
person who completes your soul?" Then, she grinned.
"Besides, from what you told us of
your plans, I believe my little man
is going to be awestruck and speechless! That in itself will make
the evening one of the most memorable days in his life."
I knew she was trying to help, but her last statement had me
worried. "Well, I was kinda
going for THE most memorable day in his life."
Nana let out a hearty laugh, then pat my cheek. "Dear, I know my Kal far better than I know
myself. For that reason, I feel safe in saying that's just not
happen. See, you have already given him THE most memorable day
in his life. It was the day he fell in love with you." She
paused, letting her words sink into my often thick skull. "You've accomplished your goal already,
child. Everything else is icing on the cake."
I had to smile, for her logic was flawless. As I reflected, I
I felt the exact same way. Grinning widely, I pulled Nana and
Grams into each of my arms, hugging them tightly. "Thank you both
for helping me. I am so thankful you both have decided to move
here with us, because we would be totally lost without your
know I sure would be."
They both tenderly smiled, then Grams replied. "We would not miss this for the
world. Now, let's go see what you have in mind."
With that, we went on with our mission. After an hour and a half,
all the preparations had been made.
I drove back to the townhouse, and continued packing, but my mind kept
wondering to my love and our sons. Finally, I ran from the house
to my car, heading to where my heart desired to be.
I called Killian, who answered his cell abruptly on the first
ring. "Love, I was just
thinking about you." He chuckled. I was immediately
reminded of just how right Grams and Nana were. No matter what we
did, the time Love and I spent together would always be romantic.
Our hearts would never let it be any other way.
"I just had to hear you voice,
Love. I hope I didn't disturb you too much." I said
Killian let out a big sigh. "Actually,
I was just getting ready to call you, Love. I guess great minds
I smiled, feeling the
tingles inside that were stirred from the sound of my lover's soothing
voice."And great hearts feel the same. God
only knows how much I love you, Killian. It is simply to vast for
me to fathom." The image of his smiling face played over
and over in my mind. "I miss my
family, so I was wondering if you thought we might be able to arrange
having lunch together."
"You know, with the boys starting
school soon, and you going back to your job on Tuesday, I was thinking
just that." He softly chuckled in that sexy way of his,
sending shivers down my spine. "Did
I mention how much I love you? At least a million times this
morning, you have crossed my mind. I don't think you could ever
satisfy my need of you, Love." I knew he had that grin of
his on his face. "Of course, it
is most enjoyable when we try."
I giggled. "Keep that up,
Love, and I will take you out to that garage bay and cover you with oil
The melody of his laugh made my heart content. "Or I might just strap that tool belt on
you. MMM... I remember the sight of you all to
well." His soft, husky voice was stirring me with a
"Love, honestly, I am going to
get a speeding ticket if you keep doing that. You don't know how
"Oh, but I do, Love. Believe me."
He softly interrupted. "Hmm...
Just wait till I get home."
"Yeah, I can't wait to get you home."
I chuckled. "I wonder if that
will give us enough time before the meeting this evening."
"With as much anticipation as I am
feeling right now, I do not believe it will take that long at all."
"I know the feeling, Love."
I replied honestly. "Well,
maybe we will have enough time for round two, then." I
"Is that a threat, or a promise?
You know, it better be a promise!" he snickered.
Love and I continued our conversation until I was pulling up into the
parking lot. We agreed to meet where the boys were working.
Excitement overtook my senses, and I literally sprinted in desperation
to see our sons.
Sorrow knew my presence immediately, just as Chance always did.
Though Killian and I had been blessed with many gifts, I felt certain
that they were nothing in comparison to those developing in our
sons. 'Such amazing children.'
I thought to myself in pride and admiration. Their hugs were just
what I needed, one of the things I had been longing for all
morning. Killian's kiss was the other, which I lovingly accepted
as it was offered.
Our time together was wonderful, but then again, it always was. I
suppose it was just our way, the way of our family. We each
seemed to crave whatever time we could find to be with the
others. The simple act of eating together seemed to make our
bonding that much stronger. Love said that just as we required
nourishment for our bodies, our hearts, minds, and souls needed
sustenance as well. Our family meal time seemed to satisfy
all of these needs at once.
As our lunch time ended, I reluctantly left Love and our sons to
complete their work, while I returned to packing at the
townhouse. On the way back, I stopped and retrieved the items
Grams and Nana so kindly helped me pick out for a romantic day with my
love on Monday. Once back at the townhouse, I smiled as I had
found the perfect hiding place for them.
I had just finished packing everything up in the kitchen when Ethan
arrived. "Hello? Big guy,
where are you?" he called from the living room.
I stepped from the kitchen into the living room, smiling. "Leave me to get all the hard stuff done,
and you show up just as it is all but finished."
Ethan grinned, quickly making his way towards me. Wrapping his
arms around my waist and resting he head in my chest, he sighed. "It seems like ages since we've had time
for just the two of us. Not that I am in any way complaining
about Shaft and Kal, but I miss my special time with you."
I wrapped my arms snuggly around the man I so fondly regarded as my
little brother. "I suppose I
can forgive you for not being here to help me with this kind of warm
reception." I joked.
"Despite the smart ass that you are, I
still missed this." He smiled, looking up at me.
Then, he laughed. "See, I told
you that eventually you would move in with Kal. And to think you
thought I was crazy or something when I mentioned it."
I grinned, remembering all to well the conversation. "Yeah, but I seem to remember telling you
that I would never be that far away. We are only going to be down
the hall from each other, Eth. Our rooms are side by side, you
know. That is even closer than when we lived here."
He laughed, his eyes lighting up as he did so. "I still cannot get over how all of this
has worked out. Sis is going to get married someday... sooner or
later, they will have to set a date. I am in love with the
most remarkable man I could ever imagine. And, you have
literally found the man of your dreams, along with two of the greatest
kids I think have ever existed. What's more, we have all the
members of the family, to boot." He contemplated this for
moment, then let out another hearty laugh. "Finally, to top it all off, we have those
your sons call pets."
"Oh, but Chips and Domino love you."
"Far too much, I'm afraid."
he quipped. "Seriously, though,
I never imagined our lives would turn out as they have."
"I know what you mean, Eth."
I replied, agreeing wholeheartedly with his words. "I knew we each had our own paths to walk
in life, but who would have guessed our courses were so closely linked,
almost to the point that we all walk together."
"In the family way." He
added. "I guess we walk
together in the family way."
His statement humbled me as I felt the power of the message it
presented. Tears formed in my eyes as I looked at him, pulling
him close to me. "I love the
way you said that, little brother. No matter what we face in our
lives, we will have our family there to support us. We will never
be alone again." A thought crossed through my mind as I
said this, and I marveled at the importance this would one day have for
Ethan. With Shaft's condition, I knew he would need the loving
support of family at some point in their future. A few tears
trickled down my face, but Ethan gently wiped them away.
His eyes were flooded with tears, but he smiled despite them. "Let's not think about that right
now. Whatever time we have, I will be blessed in sharing it with
Shaft." He softly replied, practically reading my
thoughts. It never ceased to amaze me just how intuitive Ethan
was. He and Mic had a special gift in seeing into people, and I
knew they would both be instrumental in helping many through their
"Love, the boys, and I have
something very important to do this evening, Ethan. I believe your
intuitive nature and Shaft's attention to detail could prove to be
valuable. Do you think you could both join us?" I
explained to him about the dreams the four of us had shared, and the
conclusions we had gathered from them.
"Wow! It must be really
important for you to be there, then." He replied. "Count us in, big guy. We will do
anything we can to help."
Ethan and I packed away my room, and then his. We began with
Jena's, but it was time for our men to be coming home soon. For
that reason, we decided to call it a day. Ethan called Shaft,
telling him he would be by to pick him up shortly from the animal
hospital. I then headed over to the mission to retrieve my little
family. Though I loved the idea of seeing them all, to be
truthful, my mind was on one thing. The quicker I had Killian
home, the quicker I could have him all to myself. It was well
worth the effort!
After our lunch together Thursday, I quickly finished up my paperwork
then headed out in the van. As Kanawha had to return to his work
on Tuesday, I arranged to take Monday off to spend time with him.
For that reason, I wanted to make this day spectacular, something he
would always remember. As I arrived in the downtown business
district, I pulled over to the parking garage where I was to meet Nana
I was so excited as I stepped from the van. "Nana! Grams! I am so thankful
you agreed to help me with this."
Nana chuckled, "Kal, honey, we would
not miss this for the world. It is not everyday we are asked to
help out our grandson." Then, she sized me up. "I believe you are in that hyperactive mode
of yours again, aren't you, child?"
Grams snickered as I blushed. "I
suppose I am Nana, but I just cannot help it. Love means the
world to me, and I really want to knock his socks off with our day
together." I enthused.
Grams gave me a tight hug. "Kal,
I know my grandson well, and I can assure you that he is completely
sockless now that he has your love to make him complete."
Maybe my mind works in unusual ways, but I envisioned my love looking
frantically through our drawers trying desperately to find him a pair
of socks. The image had me tickled. "Sorry, just an odd mental image, there."
Then, Nana shocked me. "Perhaps socks
are not the clothing you are really seeking to remove from Kanawha."
I was seven shades of embarrassed, which only brought about hearty
laughs from the peanut gallery.
I laughed, deciding to play along with her ploy, trying to turn the
tables on her. "Well, I guess
that was a big part of the plan, Nana."
"I imagine that is an easy task for
virile men your age." Grams replied, completely stone
faced. "I would wager that if
you simply suggest sex, my Kanawha would be ready and waiting."
I was completely mortified at this point. Grams let out a loud
chuckle. "I swan, Kal.
You made that much too easy. Let that be a lesson to you.
Never try to pull one over on a senior."
Nana joined in the laughter. Then, she kissed my cheek. "There, that's better. Now you are
more rational. Lord knows, we would never get anything
accomplished with you being so hyper." I had to agree with her
on that. "So, child, what are
your ideas?" she asked, returning to the nurturing Nana I needed
I became again somewhat embarrassed. "You
will probably think it is corny. Promise me you won't laugh."
They both readily agreed, so I explained my ideas, probably going into
far more detail than was needed. When I finished, they were both
Grams was the first to respond. "How
long have you been planning this, Kal?"
"Honestly, the idea crossed my mind
first around five minutes after Love and I met in the bookstore.
Since then, I have toyed around with it, developing more details."
I construed. A flash of panic then struck
me. "You think it is silly,
don't you?" I said in defeat.
Grams hugged me tightly again. "Kal,
I think it is honestly one of the most incredible things I have ever
heard. I am so thankful Kanawha has you for a mate."
"So, you think it is worth a shot,
then?" I asked, unsure of the idea myself.
"Child, you will knock poor Kanawha so
far, he will be orbiting Pluto after this." Nana
I sighed with relief. "Oh,
thank goodness. I was really worried I would have nothing
worthwhile for Monday."
Grams gently took my arm, and Nana followed suit, taking my other
arm. "Let's put this plan into
action." Grams grinned, leading me towards the
We had four stops to make in total. As we finished up, Grams
giggled as she looked into my buggy. "Do you think that will be enough?"
I pondered it a moment, then grabbed ten more. "Maybe your right. But this should
definitely do it."
Nana bellowed in laughter. "Kal,
honey, I believe Grams was being sarcastic. Perhaps you are going
a bit overboard with these." she gently stated, pointing into
"I don't think that is possible, as
far as Love is concerned." I smiled, thinking of how
wonderful my Kanawha really was.
We finished everything up, and I loaded the items for Nana and
Grams. "Don't worry Kal, we
have a safe, puppy-proof place to store these until you are ready for
them." Nana said as they climbed into her car. "We will see you at dinner. Just
enjoy the rest of your day, honey."
I shut their car doors for them, and waived as they drove away.
Then, I headed back to the mission, smiling contently that everything
was set. I prepared a few skills checklists before calling it a
As we exited the building, I was happy to find Love there waiting on
us. I figured he was anxious to get home. Lord knows I
was. As I thought about this, I remembered what Grams had said,
and I had to laugh. It was true. Kanawha was always ready,
willing, and able, but, then again, so was I. Sharing in the
pleasures we created together was something I always desired.
Chance and Sorrow quipped back and forth about something as we drove
home. I had to remind Love of the speed limit a few times, and
his grinning face was priceless. As we arrived home, we hugged
the boys and told them we would see them at dinner. They giggled
as we rushed into the house. Half-way up the steps, we were
greeted by 'the grandpups' as Love called them, so we stopped to pet
them for a moment or two. Then we headed to our room.
It took maybe a minute for Love and I to disrobe, but that was a minute
too long. Are need for one another was far too great. The
first time of bliss came rather quickly. The second one, however,
took much longer. Our urgency had dwindled down somewhat, so we
were better able to enjoy our exploration of one another's
I'm not really sure which it was. Perhaps Roe was right in that
spending time apart made us better appreciate our time together.
Perhaps our continued practice was making us better lovers. Or,
perhaps our love was growing by leaps and bounds with every passing
minute. Whatever the reasoning, the results were the same.
Be it holding hands, cuddling, kissing, or pleasuring our bodies,
neither Kanawha nor I could ever get enough of one another. That
unyielding desire and passion was always present.
We were ready to rejoin the world just as dinner was placed on the
table. Shaft and Ethan met us in the hallway, each of us
displaying knowing grins of understanding. They, too, experienced
a growing need for the other.
As we sat down at the dinner table, the rest of the family smirked at
the four of us. Finally, Ethan spoke up. "What? Is there something wrong with
us wanting to spend time as a couple?" I believe they were
fairly shocked by his sudden boldness.
"Actually, guys, we all think it is
quite romantic." Cole smiled. "We were discussing what a joy it is to see
you four so happy. As far as spending time as couples, I sure
it is OK. Jena, Jew, Allen and I are double dating this evening,
you know." She laughed.
"Oh." Ethan replied,
tinged somewhat from embarrassment by his comments. "I would apologize, but I can't quite get
the words formed around my foot."
Everyone laughed and said they understood how it must have seemed to
us. They, in turn, apologized for any misgivings. Dinner
resumed, and we had a great time discussing our day and plans for the
evening. Mic, Hela, Grams, and Nana were going shopping, and Roe,
as usual, had a date lined up for the evening. After cleaning up,
the six of us said our goodbyes and departed for the meeting.
Chance and Sorrow were
sharing playful banter during the ride to the meeting. Ethan was
snuggled close to me, as the back seat was rather full, but I did not
mind the closeness in the slightest. Kal and Kanawha kissed at
every stop, which had us all giggling.
The twinkle in Sorrow's pale blue eyes as he jested with Chance brought
a smile to my face. He was improving so much, and there were few
signs of any depression at all now. Though he and Chance were
both such loving young men, they both possessed a rowdy, playful nature
as well. This was becoming more and more prominent as Sorrow
progressed in his recovery.
I was brought out of my thoughts as Sorrow pulled me close to him in a
hug. "I'm glad we get to spend
some time with you two this evening." His smile was spread
wide across his face, which I thought made him extremely
Ethan seemed to notice this, too. "Well, if that isn't a million watt smile,
don't know what is." he grinned, speaking low enough so that Kal
and Kanawha could not hear the conversation. "You may find a few admirers this
evening. Just remember, say 'no'." My darling man
then became rather serious as he looked into my eyes. "What are we going to do if someone tries
to cruise on them?"
Sorrow laughed quietly. "I
hardly think that will happen, guys. I won't be attracting any
attention, not like that anyway. As for Chance, I don't believe
he is interested. So, it is hardly anything to worry about."
Ethan and I looked at Sorrow in amazement. He honestly had no
idea how handsome he was, especially when he smiled. "I wouldn't count myself out if I were you,
guy." I replied softly, stretching my arm around his back,
rubbing it gently. "You are far
more attractive than you realize."
"You think?" he said in
"Does the term 'eye candy' mean
anything to you?" Ethan interjected. Sorrow rolled
his eyes, blushing a bit. Ethan pat his hand that rested on my
shoulder. "I think that is a
pretty accurate description. Believe me. You will
turn some heads, not that I am so sure I like that fact."
Then, my lover thought for a moment, nervously biting on his lip.
"Maybe you should try not to smile...
not at all, in fact. I would really hate to see Kanawha hurt some
guy for moving in on one of his sons."
Chance laughed. "You
should've seen Daddy with 'em people at that ol' store. He'd 've ripped
'em into little pieces if they'd 've done somethin'."
I recalled Chance's retelling of Kanawha's protective nature while they
took him shopping the first night he came into our lives. I
realized that was a serious possibility, though I still found it
amusing. "Well, hopefully it
will be more like a real meeting rather than a gay mixer."
I half-way joked. "Besides, we
are here to help out. There must be something going on, so maybe
we are just overreacting, Ethan."
Ethan sighed. "Lord, I hope
so. I guess I am just being overcautious. But in my
defense, I worry about our young men."
Sorrow pulled Chance upon his lap. He then reached around me and
yanked Ethan sideways, wrapping his arms around the three of us in a
tight embrace. "That is why
Chance and I love you guys so much. You two are more like us than
anyone else in the family. Well, besides Dad and Daddy, but that
is in a totally different way."
Ethan giggled. "You mean in
age?" He asked.
"Yeah, I guess that is what it
is. You guys know what it is like to be teens."
Sorrow thoughtfully stated.
Ethan and I were flooded with laughter, but I guess we did look the
part. Actually, we acted the part quite a bit, too. They
had no idea that we were both actually older than their dads, and I
wondered what this knowledge would do. I suppose they never
connected that Jena and Cole were our twins, not just our sisters,
which would make us older than dirt in their teen perspectives. "Well, guys, I think that is the greatest
compliment either of us has ever been given." I grinned,
winking at Ethan. "One of these
days, we are going to have to tell them." I whispered.
Soon, we arrived at the meeting place. It was an old bar and
grill in the downtown business district. Evidently, the group
rented it out for the Thursday night meetings. When we first
walked in, I believe everyone was a tad surprised. There was no
one who seemed to be over twenty, save an older gentleman who I figured
was in his mid fifties.
A rather attractive young man, I wrongly guessed to be between 18-20,
excitedly up to us. He vigorously shook Kanawha's hand. "I can't believe you actually came,
Kanawha. Man, this is great!" He then turned to shake
Kal's hand with equal enthusiasm.
"Nice to see you, too, Kal. And you brought some company. Kewl."
he replied happily.
Kanawha looked rather relieved, for whatever reason, as he smiled at
young man. "TJ, I would like
you to meet two of our good friends, Ethan and Shaft." he
introduced, pointing each of us out.
TJ smiled warmly, greeting us both with firm handshakes. "It is nice to meet you both."
Ethan and I returned similar pleasantries.
Kanawha continued his introductions. "These are
our sons, Chance and..."
"Sorrow! Is that you? How
have you been, guy. I haven't seen you for a couple of
years. Man, you have really grown some." TJ grinned,
placing his hand on Sorrow's shoulder. "You filled out nicely, too."
"You two know each other?"
"Yeah, Dad. We went to grade
school and middle school together. Well, kinda, anyway.
See, TJ is a couple years older." Sorrow explained.
"Your in high school?"
"I start my junior year next week, and
I turn sixteen this fall. A lot of people think I look a little
older than I really am." TJ replied. He then turned
back to Sorrow. "Hey, you'll be
a freshman! Maybe we will see each other around, do lunch and all
"That would be great."
Sorrow smiled, and I believe TJ was rather dazzled by our Sorrow.
"Oh, where are my manners. This
is my angel, Chance. He will be a freshman, too." he
said, as he wrapped his arms around Chance's waist from behind.
Seeing this made me smile, for our boys were rather cute together, at
least I thought so.
TJ shook Chance's hand, looking him over for a moment. "I don't believe I have met you
before. I would definitely remember if I had. I never
forget a face, especially one as adorable as yours."
Chance blushed as TJ turned back to Sorrow. "Your
a lucky man, that's for sure."
Sorrow seemed worried, as he tried to clarify their relationship.
"Well, we're not..."
But, Chance interrupted him. "We's
both lucky, I reckon."
Ethan chuckled lightly, for Chance only further insinuated that they
were a couple. "Let's just hope
the misunderstanding continues." He whispered, leaning his
head on my shoulder. "That will
save us a lot of worry." I grinned in agreement.
TJ smiled at Chance. "I
would imagine so. Having each other and two nice guys for
fathers..." He trailed off, becoming a little confused.
We all began laughing. Sorrow finally spoke up. "TJ, that is a long story, one I will
be more than happy to share with you."
"I look forward to hearing about
this." TJ replied. "But,
I guess I should tell you a little about our group and introduce all of
you." He looked at Ethan and me again. "I don't believe I have seen you guys
around school, either. Will you both be new freshmen, too?"
We adults in the group found this very amusing. "No, bud. Ethan and I go to a
different school." I replied. "We actually go to the university."
"Really?" he asked somewhat in
disbelief. We both nodded our heads. "Well, that's kewl. We have three
members that have just began college. They were seniors at the
high school last year but have agreed to stay and help us out."
"They are both really smart guys." Sorrow started. "I think they skipped ahead a few
grades or something." Kal and Kanawha were beside
themselves, as were Ethan and I. We all fought hard to stifle our
grins and laughter.
Studying us a little
further, TJ smiled. "Well, that would explain it."
"So, tell us about this group, TJ."
Kal said, changing the subject.
"Oh! Sorry about that. You are
probably wondering why I asked you two to join us. I suppose I
should start out with the whys of the group." TJ
began. "Two years ago, a few
gay students were being harassed. I guess you may think it as
nothing out of the norm for high schools, but the harassment was very
severe for these guys." Tears formed in his eyes as he
gathered his thoughts. "Miles,
one of the gay students, was attacked walking home from school one
afternoon. At least, that is what the police gathered. They
found his body in the woods a few days later, and the word Fag was carved into his chest. His
murder, just in case you were wondering, is yet to be solved.
Anyway, two weeks after Mile's body was
found, his boyfriend, Terry, hung himself in his garage."
"Before all this happened, there were
very few of us who were
willing to stand up and be counted. With all of the harassment,
we tried our best to hide ourselves in the normal student body."
he explained, looking at each of us as he spoke. "After Miles' and Terry's deaths, though,
we all felt like such cowards. Jake, Bobby, and I got
together. We recruited a few others and
began this support group. For the most part, we function with no
support whatsoever from the school. They will not even let us
meet there after classes or before home room."
He paused and looked around the room
at the group. Then, he returned his focus to us.
"The school responded to the deaths with a zero tolerance policy, but
all they really do is overlook everything that happens. What we
try to do in the group is to give each other encouragement and
understanding. During school, we watch out for each other and try
our best to educate the student body. Most of them do not listen,
but at least a few have. We have four non-gay members, so I guess
that makes the effort worthwhile." TJ smiled. "We have thirty-two members in all,
counting Max over there." He said, pointing out the older
gentleman. "He owns the building and
allows us to use it on Thursday nights."
TJ looked at Kal and Kanawha intently. "That is why I invited you here. See,
we want to get adults involved in making our community a safer place to
live. Most of us do not have support at home, and many are not
even out to their parents yet. There are only four of us who are
even old enough to vote, so we are not taken very seriously."
He continued to hold his gaze on Kal and Kanawha. "You both seemed like such nice
people. The way you were holding hands and being affectionate to
one another in public made me think that perhaps you guys would
understand and want to help us out. See, we could also use advice
with our problems from an adult's perspective. The way you two
are with each other, well, I found it inspiring. I felt you would
be ideal role models, and you would be safe to invite to a gay teen
group meeting." He looked at the group again. "These guys have been through so much
already. I don't want to add to it by inviting someone here who's
only interest is to hook up with some hot
teen action." Pointing
to Kal and Kanawha's hand-holding, he continued. "From seeing this, I knew you two had
everything you wanted in each other. You just seem like our best
hope for getting things going in the right direction."
"Walk it hand-in-hand." Kanawha
mentioned to Kal. Then, he hugged TJ firmly. "We will do all we can. Thanks for
the vote of confidence, by the way. That means a great deal to
"I think it is very noble of you to
do this. It shows great character." Kal smiled. "I think it is a worthy cause in itself,
but the fact that our sons will be attending this school and live in
this community makes your
even more important to us."
TJ was elated. "I just knew
there was something special about you both from the moment I first saw
you in the park. I just know things are going to get better from
Running into TJ was interesting. Though he was a couple of years
older, I knew him somewhat from school and sports. TJ was a great
baseball player, and he was the shortstop for the high school
team. I had always thought of him as a nice guy, but I knew he
was magnificent when he told us about his cause.
He introduced us to everyone in the group, and we all spread out to
talk with them. Chance stayed at my side, holding my hand
tightly. TJ kept grinning at the two of us, and I knew he assumed
we were a couple. I never did mention to him our actual
relationship, though I did explain about our dads. He was really
cool about it, and even commented on how fortunate we both were in
having such wonderful fathers.
TJ pointed out Jake, one of the group founders, and talked about him quite
fondly. It was obvious TJ deeply respected him, in almost a
worshiping way, to be honest. I wondered if there might
have been more
to this. He led us over to Jake, making introductions before
gallivanting off to check on the other members.
As he retreated, I looked at Chance who joined me in my grin. TJ
was a very handsome guy, and he had a heart of gold. He stood
around 5'11" tall, about Dad's height. His hair was dark like
Shafts, though straight rather than curly. His eyes were a warm
brown, and they twinkled when he laughed. TJ had a slim, yet
athletic build, much like what you would expect from a shortstop.
I sat down to talk with Jake and
Kevin. There were no other seats around, so Chance sat on my lap,
which brought a wink from TJ who was checking on us from across the
room. Jake was a big guy, bigger
than Daddy, actually. He stood at 6'7" with a very broad
build. Daddy was very muscular and defined, where as Jake was
more stocky. His dark blond hair was cut in a flat top, and his
eyes sparkled any time he smiled. He was a nice looking fellow, I
thought, but I was not interested in him in any way besides maybe
Kevin, on the other hand, stood around 5'9" with red-brown hair cut
much like Ethan's. He had light brown eyes and lots of
freckles. He was such a nice guy, and he was very effeminate,
much like Roe, I thought. I was not interested in him either.
"No offense, Jake, but you look like
you should be on the football team." I smiled.
His face became rather blank. "Well,
I used to be, up until we started the group. After I outed
myself, though, everyone I thought were my friends turned their backs
me. I guess fags and football do not mix." he
laughed, but I knew the pain that existed behind it. "None of them were brave enough to say it
to my face, though. They only made crude comments behind my
back. Not one of them wanted to hang out with me after that,
either." Though he was definitely hurting over something,
I knew this was not what was really bothering him. I thought
through sharing experiences, he might open up.
I held onto Chance tightly, who gently stroked my hand he still held in
his own. "Believe me Jake, I
know what it is like to
be lonely. I had no one until the day I met my angel."
Chance smiled at me and rested his head on my shoulder. "I was going through the worst part of my
life, and I had even considered killing myself." I looked
my angel in the eye. "If you
shown up when you did, Angel, I hate to think of what might have
"I's glad when I met you, too.
You's the only real friend I's ever had." Chance grinned,
wrapping me into a hug. He looked at Jake and Kevin. "See,
I's just an ol' street rat 'fore my dads found me. I didn't have
me no home or nothin' like that. I know what you's talkin' 'bout
with people actin' like you ain't nothin' 'n all. That's just
what most of 'em did when they seen me." He gazed into my
eyes once again. "I was awful
you, Sorrow." Chance said bashfully, resting his head on
Jake and Kevin smiled at each other. "You are just too adorable."
Jake said to Chance. "I imagine
it is hard to be sad around someone like you."
"He has worked miracles in my life."
I glowed, knowing what a blessing from God I held in my arms.
Chance blushed and smiled. "It
ain't all like that. You's done lots for me too, Sorrow.
I's a might lucky you came in 'at mall when you did. 'Else I'd
still not have no kinda friends. I reckon I's be an ol' sad
sack if 'n it weren't for you."
Kevin and Jake laughed. "Chance,
doll, you are so precious. I absolutely love the way you say
things. You have to meet Alex. He will simply love you."
Kevin raved, standing and motioning for Chance to join him.
Chance looked at me, somewhat uneasy. I kissed him on the cheek
and whispered in his ear. "Go
ahead, Angel. It will be fine."
He grinned widely. "All right,
then, but you's better save me my ol' comfy seat." he replied,
patting my leg gently.
"I don't know, Chance. I might
just take your seat and give you mine in trade." Jake
Chance looked him in the eye, smirking. "Then I's might just have to hurt ya.
I might be small 'n all, but I think I's could take ya."
That reminded me of his confrontation with Blade, and I laughed. "He's right, Jake. Don't let his size
fool you. You can ask Blade about that sometime, if you don't
Jake looked stunned. "You mean
Blade, the freshman on the football team?"
"The one and only. He so had it
coming to him, though." I chuckled.
Jake put his arm on Chance's shoulder. "I am definitely going to have to get to
know you better, then. It seems you are full of surprises."
"I reckon that'd be nice."
Angel smiled. Then he looked at me. "I's be back for my seat in a minute."
With that, he followed Kevin.
I was enchanted as I watched him make his way across the room. He
simply oozed kindness, putting others at ease almost immediately.
That was only one of a million things I loved about my angel.
"You really love him, don't you?"
Jake asked, pulling me from my trance.
I pondered the depths of my feelings for my angel, and tears filled my
eyes. "With every fiber of my
being. He is my everything."
Jake wrapped his arm around my shoulder and looked at Chance.
Then, he turned and stared into my eyes. "Boy, he sure loves you. It's written
all over his face when he looks at you." He sighed. "What I wouldn't give to find a love like
I was getting ready to explain our relationship, when I noticed TJ
looking over at us, again. From the look that was in his eyes, I
understood. "I believe you
already have that, Jake. Maybe you are not aware of it, though."
"With who?" Jake asked in
bewilderment. I turned his head to TJ, who smiled and made a
casual waive at him. Jake's responses mirrored that love. "TJ? No, guy. We are just
friends." he grinned, still looking at his friend.
"Look, believe me or not. I can
tell he loves you. Can you be honest enough to tell me how you
really feel about him?" I asked.
Jake became tearful and looked down at the floor. Softly, he
replied. "You know, he is the reason I
outed myself. He was so passionate about forming this group, I
couldn't say no. I just melted when he looked at me with that
sad, lost puppy face he makes sometimes." He raised his head and
me. "Seeing him happy was worth
loosing every other friend I thought I had, though. Even the
shit I get from my parents is all worthwhile when I see him smile
during our group sessions. He's a really great guy, you
know. But, I don't think he feels that way about me."
I grinned at Jake. "My question
was, how do you honestly feel about him?"
"He is so beautiful. Not just in
his looks, but who he is as a person. He's just too far out of my
league." He said dejectedly.
I laughed, and he looked at me quizzically. "First of all, you are quite a handsome
fellow, yourself. But, you also seem like a nice guy, so I do not
see the problem. Secondly, you never did answer my question,
Jake. How do you truly feel about TJ?"
"Well, I don't know."
Jake hesitated. "Look, what if
he doesn't love me, too?"
I turned his head back to TJ and softly spoke, "But, what if he does? What if he
feels exactly the same way about you, but is just as afraid to tell
you? What if you both wait too long, and you end up loosing your
chance to be together? What then?" He looked at me
with uncertainty. "Look, you
can believe you are lonely and pining away for the people you thought
your friends. Or, you can be honest with yourself and admit that
you are in love with a wonderful guy named TJ. That is truly the
loneliness you feel, because you want him to love you in return,
right? The best part of it all, though, is that he does,
Jake. I just
know he does." Jake and I talked for a few more minutes,
as he slowly worked up his nerve to do what he had been longing to do
for over three years.
Chance came bouncing back. He took one look at Jake and then
glanced over at TJ. "You's ever
gonna tell 'em or not? I knows that'd be one thing he would be
smilin' 'bout for the rest of his life. He's lovin' you, Jake."
Chance took Jake's head in his hands. "Don't be doubtin' 'n all now. You's
gotta try. All you's gotta do is tell 'em. It's what he's
been a waitin' for. What you's been waitin' for too, I reckon."
Chance pulled him to his feet. "Now
get to tellin' 'im." He still
looked nervous, but Chance motioned for Jake to bend lower and lightly
kissed him on the cheek. "Don't
be givin' up on what you's dreamin'
'bout. Ol' TJ's the one for you. Now get to tellin' 'im how
you's a feelin'." Jake smiled and slowly made his way to
TJ. He turned around twice on the voyage to his future mate, but
Chance and I both sternly pointed back to
TJ. Finally, he was standing beside TJ, who was obviously happy
be near Jake, the guy he secretly loved.
Angel sat back on my lap and wrapped his arms around my neck, resting
his head against mine. "These
ol' fella's gots lots of troubles. At poor ol' Kevin has a dad
'at ain't too happy with 'im bein' all gay like that. Alex,
Kevin's friend, he got throwed out of his home cause he told 'em
parents of his 'bout 'im likin' Kevin. He's got 'im some friends
who's lettin' 'im stay a night or two with 'em each week, though, so's
he's got 'em somewheres to go each day. I told 'im he could come
stay with us, but he says he's fine. Least he ain't out on
'at ol' street. Mike's this fella who's gettin' all beat up by
'em mean ol' boys livin' near 'im. We's found a big ol' boy
that's livin' not too far from 'im that says he's gonna start walkin'
with Mike when he's gotta go somewheres. 'At Jeff should keep
safe for a little bit."
"At least Jake and TJ's problems were
somewhat simple to fix." I smiled, turning Chances
attention to the two of them holding hands, waiving at us. We
both waived back and chuckled. "I
think they make a nice couple."
"They's meant to be together 'n all,
just like us, so's I know they's gonna be real happy now."
"Well, maybe not exactly like us,
Angel." I replied with a wink.
Chance looked at me seriously. "They's
'xactly like us."
I was thinking of a way to explain this to Chance. I reflected
upon everything Jake and I had discussed
as I looked at the two of them together, hoping to find the answer
there somehow. However, before I could respond, Angel looked me
eyes. "Yep." was all he
"Yes, What?" I
asked. He just looked at me with this wide grin,
tapping his knuckles lightly on my head. Then, it hit me. "You mean, what we
were talking about earlier?"
He put his forehead against mine, looking me directly in the
eyes. "I's gotta show you
somethin' first, though." He raised his hands to the sides
of my head, and I understood. The vivid images flashed through my
mind, and I smiled at him. "Now
you knows all of it."
Worry lined his face as he awaited my reply. "You two make a lovely couple."
He seemed relieved. "Well, I
reckon you's got you one fine
lookin' boyfriend, too. Awful handsome." Chance
I laughed and tickled him lightly. "Oh, you think so, do you?"
He squirmed, laughing hysterically for a moment. I stopped
tickling him as he gazed into my eyes, flashing me a lopsided
grin. "Nope." He
modestly. "But I knowed you's
That was such an understatement. To me, he was the most beautiful
thing I have ever encountered. "That
I do, Angel. That I do."
Slowly, Chance and I shared our first real kiss.
"Have you noticed that most of these kids
look older than us." Shaft whispered softly in my ear.
"That and the fact that most of them
are quite a bit taller than we are." I giggled. "Most of them, though, have asked me if we
were new freshmen. The other's thought we might be
sophomores." We had
talked to at least seven group members so far, and were waiting for the
current two to come back to the table.
My lover laughed. "We really
are going to have to tell Sorrow and Chance at some point, honey.
I just hope they still want to hang out with two old geezers like
That thought sent a panic clear to the core of my being. "Lord, what would we do if they
didn't?" I was very fond of both our young men, and I
truly enjoyed our unique relationship with them. "I would miss them terribly, because I, for
being with them."
Shaft looked a little concerned himself. "So do I, Ethan. I just hope they
don't think we have lied to them or betrayed them in some way. I
mean, the only reason why we haven't told them is so that they would
have someone in which they felt they could confide... Someone
perceived to be close to their age who would understand."
He looked at me seriously. "Do
you think we have deceived them? I pray they do not feel that way
when we tell them the truth."
Before I could answer, Dwayne and Carter were back, bringing us all a
soda. Dwayne and Carter were brothers, Dwayne being a junior,
while Carter was a freshman. To me, they did not look anything
alike, nor did they have many similar mannerisms. Carter was 6'3"
and lanky, while Dwayne was 5'9" and very muscular. Carter had
dark hair and pale skin, while his brother was light blond and well
tanned. Neither was what I would call physically attractive, but
both very kind hearted... which I believed made them quite
nonetheless... only in totally different ways.
was more concerned about your physical needs, such as offering you a
chair or a soda. Dwayne was more emotionally oriented, offering
understanding and compassion. Dwayne was a straight boy, while
Carter was gay.
"Thank you, guys. That was
so kind of you both to get us drinks." I smiled. "I still think it is wonderful that you
come here with your brother like this, Dwayne. I imagine Carter
thankful for your support."
Carter blushed. "Actually, I
have only been here two other times. Dwayne comes regularly, and
he was the one who twisted my arm to get me to attend."
Shaft grinned and pat Dwayne's shoulder. "Good for you. I take it you were
learning more about the gay life to relate better with your brother."
Dwayne hung his head in embarrassment. "Well, it is nothing heroic or anything
like that. Carter is my best friend. I knew he was gay long
before he ever told me. I wanted to be ready to help him when he
needed me." He looked up at his brother and smiled. "He has always been there for me, so it is
only fair for me to return the favor."
I chuckled. "We both have
sisters that we feel the same way about. So, we know exactly what
"Did they come with you tonight?"
Dwayne asked, in a supportive manner.
I, for one,
was glad Jena had not attended the meeting. I knew I would never
have heard the end of her kid-sized jokes had she known so many of
these guys assumed we were their age or younger. "No, we came with friends."
I pointed out Kal and the big guy. "Those two over there are Kal and
Kanawha. Kanawha is the taller one." I looked and
saw Chance and Sorrow sitting in a chair together, pointing them
out. "Those two over there, they
are their sons, Chance and Sorrow. Chance is the smaller one."
"You mean the two guys kissing?"
"What?" I replied,
turning to see our little men indeed kissing. 'What the hell? ' I thought to
myself, totally blown away. Finally, I was able to speak
again. "Well, I'll be."
muttered. "I guess Chance was
not misleading anyone with his comments, after all."
"I think they are adorable
together." Shaft giggled. Then, he noticed my blank
expression, for I was not sure how I felt about the turn of events at
this point. "Honey, it was
bound to happen. They are every bit as made for one another as
rest of us couples are. I just wonder how their dads will take
the news." I knew Shaft
was right in his observations, but you have to realize, I never saw
this coming. Maybe I was naive, but it was a shock for me.
"But, they are brothers, aren't they?"
Dwayne asked, somewhat appalled by the idea of incest.
I laughed, seeing the look on his face. "Well, no, not really. Kal and
Kanawha are their
dads because they are the men who took them in, gave them a home, and
them. But, Sorrow and Chance are not brothers, at least not
biologically." I looked at Shaft, suddenly wondering about
it myself. "Honey, what will
that do legally when they adopt Chance and have permanent custody of
"They will be Sorrow's legal guardians
and Chance's parents. I am not sure, but legally, I still
do not think they will be brothers." Shaft replied,
starting to see the twist in all this. "I honestly have never thought of them as
brothers, more like best of friends." When, Shaft said this, I was
completely fine with the idea of Chance and Sorrow being in love.
I had considered them Kanawha and Kal's sons, and our little men.
I never truly conceptualized them as being brothers, though. I smiled at my
darling Shaft, assuring him that he had eased my mind completely of any
concerns I might have held. He winked at me, snuggling his head
on my shoulder.
"How long have they had them?
I'm not meaning to be rude, just being curious." Dwayne
"Not quite two weeks."
"Oh, well that is totally different,
then." Carter smiled. Dwayne joined him with a
similar grin. "They were not
raised like brothers or anything. It would be like your
boyfriend's parents letting you live with them. Only, they treat
you as if you were one of their own children."
Carter's explanation caused visual images to flash through my
mind. I cringed at the thoughts of our little men having
sex. Then, I envisioned Big Daddy Kanawha giving them both sex
talks, and I was assaulted with strong bouts of laughter. I
suppose I was totally overreacting, as usual. I mean, they had
just shared their first kiss. That's all. As I contemplated this further, I
knew our boys were pretty responsible. I decided that I, for one,
would have faith in them to make the right decisions for
themselves. I knew wholeheartedly that they would come to us for
guidance as it was
needed. Of that much, I was certain.
"Yeah, now that is not gross at
all." Dwayne laughed. "How
long have they been in love?"
"Very recently, I would imagine."
I replied. "This is actually the
first we knew of it ourselves, so I suppose just moments ago." 'Were there signs to this budding
relationship that I missed?'
I asked myself. 'Ethan, you
are usually so intuitive. How could you have missed this one?'
Then, I decided that it did not matter. They were in love, and
that was now a reality. I glanced at them, holding hands and
gazing at one another with that lovestruck look. They honestly
were adorable together, and I was happy for them.
"See, that is what I want for Carter."
Dwayne smiled. "I want him to
find a nice guy and fall in love. After next year, I will be away
at college, and I cannot stand the thoughts of him being lonely."
"Dwayne, I'm not ready for anything
like that. I'm still admitting to myself that it will be a
guy." Carter explained. "I really appreciate the thoughts behind
it, and maybe I will be ready before you leave for college."
"Well, at least promise me you will
make a friend. Mom and Dad just don't understand, Carter.
You have to have someone to turn to when you need help."
Dwayne said, hugging his brother.
"TJ was right. The one thing I
have noticed with many of the guys comments is that they have
little support from their family." Shaft quietly
noted. "Maybe there is
something we can do to help change that."
"I sure hope so." I said,
remembering my fear when I first came out to Kanawha and Jena.
They were completely supportive and understanding. My mother and
father had a bit of difficulty accepting things. In fact, my
father still had little to say to me. At least mom finally came
around. "Sometimes, though,
people just are not able to see past the differences to see the person."
"Honey, just have faith and keep
trying. Someday, he is bound to come around. And, if he
doesn't, at least you made the effort. That is something for
which you can hold your head up proudly. The way I see it, he is
the one missing out on the wonderful man you are." Shaft
soothed, wrapping me in his arms.
"So, you have problems with your
parents, too?" Carter asked, as Dwayne leaned forward to
assume a supportive sitting position. I smiled to myself,
thinking what a wonderful therapist Dwayne would one day make.
"My father. He has found the
idea of having a gay son to be more than he can withstand, so, we
rarely speak. I still try, but it really hurts when he just
ignores my olive branches and walks away." I sighed.
"Mom and Dad are like that with
me now. Before, though, it was worse. They would try to be
nice for a moment, but would then start yelling and screaming about me
being a nasty, perverted faggot." Carter said sadly.
"At least they are not yelling
anymore. They just ignore the fact that I even exist. When
Dwayne and I went school clothes shopping, Mom gave him the money,
saying 'This is for you, son, and
for your brother.' Any reference to me is through Dwayne,
and I am always his brother,
never their son."
Carter teared up
and turned to Dwayne. "I am so
sorry you have been stuck in the crossfire. It is not fair for
you to have to suffer as you have been, especially on account of
me. I still think you should abandon ship while you have the
Dwayne held Carter close, rocking him gently. In that moment, I
found them both to be truly beautiful, thinking any girl and guy the
two of them respectfully found would be quite lucky. "I would never betray you the way Mom and
Dad have, Carter. I would gladly abandon them if we had other
options for a place to live." Dwayne then began to
sob. "I ache every time I know
you are hurting, little brother. I just wish I could make them
Dwayne's words reminded me so much of how Jena reacted with our
parents. She was the only reason my father even tolerated my
presence. Jena had refused anything to do with him so long as I
was not welcomed in 'his' house. I looked at Shaft, and we both
stepped over to the boys, hugging them gently.
"Dwayne, if you and Carter ever need a
place to stay or someone to talk to, just come to our house."
Shaft soothed. "We will do all
we can to help, buddy."
I pulled out a pen and two slips of paper, writing down our phone
numbers and address for each of the boys. "Use these any time you want, guys.
You are more than welcome to stay, or even to just come over and hang
out. There honestly does not have to be a reason for you to call
or come by at all. Just know we are here for you."
Dwayne cuddled Carter to his chest as he looked at shaft and me. "Thanks. We may just take you up on
the offer, sometime."
"Anytime." Shaft smiled, gently running his fingers
through Dwayne's hair. "You both
are always welcome."
'How could someone treat such great
kids so horribly?' I wondered, again reminded of my
father. In that moment, my eyes were opened to something Shaft
had been telling me since our first night together. I did not
need Dad's or anyone else's approval. I had spent most of my life
trying desperately to feel like I had lived up to everyone's
expectations. As I held my lover's hand, I realized that he was
completely right. I needed to live my life by my own standards
and learn to give myself the approval that I really needed.
I kissed him passionately, and his smiling face greeted me in the most
endearing of ways. "Might I ask
why I am being blessed with a kiss that fantastic?"
"Because YOU are so fantastic."
I grinned back. "Till my dying
breath, I love you, Shaft."
Shaft's face brightened as we drew closer to one another. We
ended in a kiss of unyielding passion. We were rudely brought
from our union, however, by the ramblings of two smart asses.
"We's can't take you guys nowheres
without you's gettin' ready to go a humpin' on one 'nother."
I turned to see Chance widely grinning, proud of his banter.
"Yeah, you would think you guys could
get a room or something if you need to do that." Sorrow added
"Oh, like you're ones to talk."
They both blushed quite a bit. Chance finally quipped. "Well, I reckon kissin' and a humpin' 's
two different things. We's just kissin'. You's grindin' up
'n all that stuff."
Shaft grinned. "So you
say. How do we know what you boys have been doing?"
Chance and Sorrow both wore matching looks of shock on their
faces. "I don't reckon we's
gonna be doin' nothin' like that stuff no time soon. We's still
just kids, really. All's we did is just kiss 'at one time over
"Just because we know we are meant to
be together doesn't mean we are planning on being together right away." Sorrow replied,
taking Chance's hand. "We have
our whole lives ahead of us. I suppose that will happen at some
point, but it will be when we both feel ready for that level."
Then, he grinned. "Honestly,
I'm not sure we even know exactly what to do when we get to that level."
Shaft and I smiled at each other, then grabbed the boys into a big
hug. "Oh, thank God!"
Shaft cried out in relief. "You're
right, guys. You have your whole lives ahead of you. When
the time is right, you will know. Just wait for it."
"Yeah, just like your dads did."
I looked at Shaft and winked playfully. God help me, but I loved
him so much. "Just like we did,
Chance laughed. "Well, it
ain't like we's stupid or nothin'. That's what we's plannin' on
doin'." Then, he grinned at Shaft and
me. "I reckon we's learned lots
of stuff from ya already. I knows we still got lots more
to learn yet."
"Anytime we can help you, don't
hesitate to come to us." I smiled. "However, if it is a question regarding
sex, I think you should ask your Daddy."
Both Chance and Sorrow bellowed with laughter. "Now that will be an interesting talk!"
"But knowing Kanawha, it would be very
thorough." I giggled.
Chance shot out with laughter. "I's
reckonin' poor ol' Dad 'd be just too shy like to be tellin' us much
'bout stuff like that 'n all." Then, an impish grin
crossed his face. " That'd be
who we oughta ask, then!"
Shaft chuckled. "Just promise
me that if you ever ask Kal, do so in front of me. I have to see
sweat it out! That would be too good to miss." The
idea was funny, though I could still see the big guy lecturing the
boys. One thing about Kanawha, he never did anything
half-way. He went at everything full force, which was one of the
most endearing things about him. I just knew our boys would know
way more than they ever desired to know once he was finished with his
sex talk, and that thought still made me giggle.
As my senses came back to me, I turned and smiled at Dwayne and
Carter. "Sorry guys. I
guess I should make some introductions. Dwayne and Carter, meet
Sorrow and Chance." I said, pointing out each person
during the introduction. "Dwayne
is a junior, while his brother Carter is a freshman, like both of you."
Chance was his usual charming self. "Well, I reckon it's right nice to meet you
two boys." He smiled, shaking their hands. "I hope we's all seein' ya 'n stuff
in that ol' school." Both Dwayne and Carter smirked as
Chance made his unique impact upon them.
Sorrow looked them over, then glanced at Chance, grinning. "I have a feeling we will see each other
quite a bit in the future." He shook the two brothers'
hands. "It's nice to meet you
Chance stepped over to Carter and placed his hand on his
shoulder. "You's gotta get over
bein' all shy like and start to talkin' with some of 'em boys that's
here. There's lots of 'em that's needin' to find 'em some
friends." He looked at Dwayne, then back to Carter. "All your brother's a wantin' for ya
to do's just try. You's a nice ol' guy, only ya gotta let 'em
other fellas know 'bout you 'n all. Ain't no reason to be scared,
cause 'em fella's is just like you. They ain't gonna be all mean
to ya or nothin' like you's mom 'n dad's bein'. You can't give up
on account of 'em." Chance rubbed Carter's arm
supportively. "I just knows
gonna have lots of friends if you'd try talkin' to somebody."
Carter looked bewildered, which had Sorrow chuckling. He wrapped
his arms around Chance, explaining, "Angel
gets ahead of himself sometimes. He's pretty insightful, I guess
you could say."
Chance replied, winking at Sorrow. "I reckon we's both like that."
"I have to say," Dwayne
said, with an expression of awe across his face, "that is an amazing talent you have."
Chance just smiled. "You ain't
met Dad 'n Daddy yet. Now they's somethin' else."
"You two will meet them in just a few
minutes," Sorrow added, "right after Jake and TJ come by."
Shaft rubbed my back lightly as I had to agree with what I knew he was
thinking. "Our two boys are
probably even more made for each other than any of the rest of us could
ever boast." I lightly said.
"Relieved that I won't be hit on?"
I chuckled, as Love smirked at my reply.
"Hey, you can't fault a guy for
wanting to protect his family." He grinned. Then,
his face went serious. "Love, we
really have a lot to do
here. These kids have some serious issues. I can feel it
all... their pain, confusion, hurt, grief... it is overwhelming."
I surveyed the group that was around us, reaching out and being flooded
with images of horrible memories. "They have been through so much,
Love. I just pray we can make a difference." I
replied, grasping tighter to my lover's hand.
Kanawha smiled in that sexy way of his, wrapping me in his arms.
His kiss was a welcomed comfort, though it attracted some
attention. As we broke our lips apart, Love and I had an audience.
"Wow! That is really
sweet." a young man softly said. He stood around
5'3", with auburn hair and bright blue eyes. His skin was pale,
and his frame was small and delicately thin.
Kanawha grinned at him. "We
need to introduce you to our sons, then. They seem to find our
He gave a weak smile. "Well,
it's almost like a fairytale to me." He looked us over
shyly, then grinned a little more. "I have never met an older gay couple
before. I'm glad I know they exist, at least."
Love and I both laughed, the idea of being an 'older gay couple'
playing images through our minds. "I don't know that we are ready to feed the
pigeons on the park bench just yet, but I appreciate the complement all
the same." I chuckled.
"Old at 26." Love noted
"So you guys are 26?" he
asked. We both nodded our heads, and he giggled. "Honestly, I didn't think you were that
old, but then you said you had sons, so I assumed they were here with
you, out in the group somewhere. From that I figured you had to
be much older."
"Actually, Sorrow and Chance are both
here. They will be freshmen." I smiled, watching the
confusion gather around his face. I laughed, explaining our
"So, are either of them gay?"
Love and I smiled at each other. "Well,
actually they both are, though I am not sure Chance has figured that
for himself yet. They both love each other a great deal.
is like they are best friends, almost brothers. Other times, it
is much deeper than that. But, Love and I both know they will
eventually fall in love with one another." Kanawha
explained. "They are destined
to be together, in a very special way."
"They have enriched our lives so much, too, despite the problems each
of them have faced." I added. "Truth is, they have helped each other
through most of this. We have just offered our love and guidance
as needed. The whole family has, really."
"Wow! They are two lucky guys,
if you ask me." He replied. He scanned through the
group. "Most of the guys that
come here have no one at home to offer any kind of understanding or
support. We do what we can, but we hardly know everything.
Many times, all we can do is listen. Some of the problems are too
far beyond what we know to do." He turned back to us, a
worried look spread across his face. "That was one of my fears when we started
the group. TJ and Jake believed that something was better than
nothing, and I still have to agree with them. I just wish we were
better trained in dealing with some of the problems."
"So, you must be Bobby, then."
"Yes. Sorry, I guess I should
have introduced myself." he grinned, blushing a bit.
"I am Kal, and this is Kanawha."
I laughed. "I suppose we should
have introduced ourselves, as well."
A look of realization spread across Bobby. "Oh, so you are the guys TJ has been going
on about for the last week. Ha! I should have figured that
out." His smile was enchanting. "He was right, you know. You do seem
like a wonderful couple."
As we talked, Love and I were both amazed to find that little Bobby was
a seventeen year old senior. He looked so young, but then, I
thought of Ethan and Shaft. I just knew they had to meet Bobby.
It happened all on its own this time. I was hit with images of
Bobby's experiences with his peers through his high school years.
Tormentors was a more accurate description. He had been pushed,
shoved, tripped, degraded, threatened, mistreated, beaten, humiliated,
and even locked up in a locker on a few occasions.
Love caressed my hand, as he was sensing my state of mind. I pat
Bobby on the shoulder. "You've
been through a lot, haven't you?"
He smiled at me. "Yeah, I guess
I have had more than my share of run in's with bullies and those with
closed minds. But, I have learned and grew from the
experiences. They have helped me to understand what so many of
the others have been going through." He looked over at a
few other boys. "Some of them
have had it far worse than I have, so I consider myself lucky."
Kanawha winked at me, assuring me that Bobby was emotionally in tact,
so I did not pursue the issue with him further regarding his
experiences. "I imagine these
boys are fortunate to have a friend like you to be there when they are
in trouble." I bragged. "I would think they are lucky, too."
His grin kept spreading across his face. "TJ, he is the charismatic one, the one who
leads everyone. Jake is the smart one, the one who finds
information and sources of help. I guess I am the understanding
one, the one who identifies with much of the suffering."
he explained. "Not that TJ and
Jake have not suffered, but I guess with my size, I am a much easier
Love smiled at Bobby. "I would
wager that you are the strong one, the one who holds them all
Bobby, in turn blushed. "That
is what Jake and TJ say, but I don't really see it like that."
He then looked over at the same boys again. "Say, I was wondering if you would maybe
listen to them and see if you could help those guys. I've gotta
tell you, it is hard to get them to open up. I am just not sure
what to do for them." His worry was evident, and I grew
more impressed by this young man by the minute.
"Anything we can do to help."
Bobby led us over to meet Dakota and Juan. Dakota looked to be
around 5'8" with light blond hair and brown eyes. He possessed a
stocky build, and was a sophomore this year. Juan had dark brown
hair and gray-green eyes. He stood at about 5'10", but was very
thin. He was also to be a sophomore.
Bobby engaged them in conversation, but their depressed states were
evident. He made his introductions of Love and I.
"It is nice to meet you both."
I offered, as we shook their hands.
"Yeah, hi." Dakota said
"Nice to meet you, too."
Juan added softly.
The two nervously looked around, then sat back down in their
seats. Love pulled Bobby, himself, and I up three chairs.
Love looked at me a moment, then took my hand, caressing it
gently. "So, are you boys
looking forward to the new school year?" he asked.
"Yeah, right." Dakota
scoffed. "Another year of being
the joke. Only now, I get to be the joke alone."
"At least you are not the punching
bag," Juan replied. "or
I looked at Dakota as he prepared to retreat into his own world.
His disheveled clothes spoke volumes. I knew that expression he
wore. It was the one I had when my parents died. A few of
his memories played in my mind. I saw the anguish with which he
lived, as so many of his peers ridiculed him. There was one
constant in the images though. "You
miss her a great deal, don't you, Dakota?"
His eyes glazed over with tears. "She's
been my best friend since as far back as I can remember. Now,
she's gone, and I just don't know how to live without her. I am
reminded of her every day, at least a hundred times a day. Just
little things, but they bring back so many memories."
I reached out and pat his hand which fidgeted nervously on the
table. "I know what you
mean. When I lost my parents, I guess it took around three months
before I realized they were never coming back. For so long, I
spent most of my time in grief-stricken tears."
Love squeezed my hand softly. "Boy,
I remember those days. It was so hard to even think
straight. It seemed like everything reminded me of my parents,
Grandpa Brightmoon, or Grandma and Grandpa Darkstorm." He
looked at me sadly, smiling as best he could. "I still think of them often, but I guess
it has become a little easier over time."
Dakota began to open up, as Love and I shared our experiences.
The poor kid was so stricken with grief. His friend, Rebbecca had
passed away in late May, dying from an aneurysm in her brain.
>From what he stated, Love and I both knew he felt guilty for
As he broke down in tears, I brought him to us, Love and I holding him
in a tight embrace. Love soothingly told him everything was going
to be alright. As he calmed down, we explained about many things
he could expect to experience during his recovery.
The numbness he had been feeling was giving way to sorrow. I told
him he could expect to be angry at times, as well. Love explained
that he would probably ache for Rebbecca for a while, wanting to be
alone and taking little interest in things around him. We both
assured him, though, that he would find a new meaning or purpose to
enter life again.
Love smiled at me, then suggested that Dakota dedicate this year in
memory of his Rebbecca. Dakota then began telling us about things
he and his friend had planned on doing. He also told us about
some of the causes she believed in and moral issues she felt strongly
about. Love smiled, asking Dakota to think about doing some of
these things in honor of Rebbecca. He seemed much more hopeful
after this, but I gave him our numbers and the number to the mission,
explaining about some of the services we offered, often freely to
anyone in need.
During our talk with Dakota, Juan had sat there taking it all in.
Tears streaked his face as he hugged Dakota tightly. "You don't have to be alone, you
know. I will gladly be your friend if you will have me."
"Look, it's not your fault, OK?"
Dakota soothed. Juan broke down into deep sobs. Slowly,
Dakota brought Juan over to love and I, sitting him on Love's lap where
we all embraced him. Dakota smiled at Love and I. "You can trust them Juan. Tell them
what is going on."
Juan cried for some time, as he kept saying over and over that he was
too ashamed. Some of his experiences began playing in my mind,
and I knew why he felt such shame. "Juan, honey, there is nothing you could
ever do that would make either of us not care about you, or love you
for that matter. You may think we are crazy, but we both love
Slowly, he lifted his head, looking me in the eyes. Seeing my
sincerity, he reached out and hugged me tightly. Through his
sobs, Juan began. "Some of the
guys in my neighborhood are rough. They beat me up when they see
me out somewhere. Even at school." He paused,
sobbing heavily. "I can live
with the beatings, but its the other stuff."
Love looked at me, and I nodded my head, answering his unasked
question. As tears filled his eyes, Kanawha asked the tough
question. "What kind of stuff,
His cries increased dramatically. We comforted him as best we
could. Finally, Juan spoke up. "When they have beaten me down, some of
them force me to do stuff." I wanted so much to stop here,
but I knew he needed to get this out. "They make me give them head."
His sobs became strong again. "The
last time, one of them tried to..."
Visual images of the experiences again raced through my mind.
Once, Juan was even attacked in one of the stairwells at school.
After being forced to service his attackers, they urinated on
him. There was another disturbing fact about that memory, and my
stomach churned when I realized what it was I was seeing. Then,
the image of the last attack ran through my mind. One of the boys
was ripping Juan's pants down to rape him. Luckily, someone was
coming down the alley, causing his attackers to flee before the act was
actually started. I thanked God for that much, at least.
"It's alright, honey. They
didn't. And, your safe now." I soothed, but in my
heart, I was wondering for how long. "Juan, buddy, listen to me for a
minute." He looked up at me, trying his best to control
his sobs. "Why have you not
gone to the police about this?"
"No!" he cried. "I can't do that. My family and
everyone else would know about it, then." His fears seemed
to subside some, as he explained. "They have to tell my parents, and in my
neighborhood, everyone would know about what happened to me."
He looked at me sadly. "I just
want to forget about it. I want to get over it and move on with
"But, we have to do something."
Love softly replied. "We have
to get that trash off the street so you and everyone else are safe."
"If there is another way, then maybe."
Juan said sadly. "But, I can't
go to the police."
Love and I both knew this was like riding a dead horse. Juan was
not willing to report this, and without his cooperation, nothing would
come of it. I said a prayer as I wrote down our numbers and
address for him. It was one of those times where I had to trust
in God to handle the situation.
"Maybe we can figure something else out. Just promise me you will
hang on, and you will call this number to talk with my friend Mic
tomorrow. Call us if you need anything, and don't go out into the
streets alone. And, at least think about going to the police some
"Yeah, sure." Juan
replied, drying his eyes.
"And, just so you know. None of
this was your fault, Juan." Love said, patting him on the
shoulder. "You have to believe
that, buddy. None of this was your fault, and no one can hold
this against you." Juan gave a half-smile at this. "Love and I still love you, if that means
anything. There is nothing that could ever change this."
He brightened up a bit, hearing Kanawha's words. "Actually, it does." He hugged
I noticed another small kid who kept glancing at us. He seemed in
his own world, though. "Who is
that?" I asked.
Dakota looked, then replied. "That
is Wyatt. He can't hear you though, cause he's deaf."
Dakota looked at us. "None of
us know sign language, so we communicate with him on paper. I'll
explain to him what went on here, cause I know he will be asking."
Wyatt was an adorable young man. He had light brown hair that was
sticking out all over in a messy style. His soft green eyes
shimmered in the distance. I motioned to him, and he stood,
walking to join us. Wyatt was around 5'6" tall with a stocky
build, somewhat chubby in fact. Like I said, he was adorable.
As he approached us, his hands began moving. Oddly, though, I
knew the patterns from somewhere. Somehow, in my mind, his arms,
hands, and fingers appeared as lines, and I became overwhelmed.
The patterns were the same as the symbols I had seen every time I read
someone. He asked if I knew sign language. Before I could
think, my hands replied that I did. Wyatt's eyes lit up, and we
"I didn't know you could speak sign
language." Love smiled, rubbing my shoulder.
"Love, neither did I!" I
replied amazedly. "But, the
motions of it... they are the symbols that I see." I
Love chuckled, and I joined him in his laughter. "I guess you were right, Love. God
makes a way for his will to be done." Kanawha noted.
This made me smile. My Love had grown so much, and I realized he
was leading me as often as I was leading him. We were equals,
walking our path hand-in-hand.
Dakota smiled and asked me what Wyatt was asking, so I interpreted it
for the group, as they all had become interested in what Wyatt had to
say. When one had something to ask Wyatt, I would ask it for
them, telling him Wyatt's reply. At one point, I asked Wyatt if
he would like to meet some of our family, and he was delighted. I
looked around and spotted Sorrow.
We, as a group, headed over to meet them. I introduced everyone,
interpreting for Wyatt. Sorrow and Ethan introduced Jake and the
others we had not met. Dwayne smiled and said something to Sorrow
and Chance about amazing talents.
"Kal, when did you learn to sign?"
"Oh, Dad's just gifted in knowin'
'bout 'em languages 'n all." Chance offered. "Well, this 'n, anyway." He
smiled at me. "You's gonna know
one more of 'em 'fore long."
I looked at our son perplexedly. "You
knew I could do this?"
Sorrow chuckled. "Yeah.
We both did. Didn't you?"
"Um, no." I said in
Love hugged me from behind, laughing lightly. "We have amazing children, Love. With
all we have been through, how can you be surprised?"
Thinking about this, I had to agree with my love.
TJ was real happy seein' Dad could talk with 'at boy Wyatt. "Now, I know inviting you two here was a
Godsend. It has been so hard to include Wyatt in the group,
because it takes so long to write everything down. By the
time you have it written, other things have happened that you yourself
miss and cannot relay to him. "
Dad smiled at 'im, sayin' "I am
honored to be here. You have a great group of guys, TJ."
Daddy wrapped his big ol' arms 'round Dad from behind 'im. "I agree with you, Love. This is a
TJ smiled, 'n Jake come over to 'im, huggin' im up like Daddy was doin'
to Dad. "Well, it could be
better. Do you guys have any ideas on how we can improve it?"
I got to thinkin' 'bout that, 'n 'fore I knowed it, I's shootin' off my
mouth. "Well, you's all talk in
little groups, which I reckon is alright 'n all. But I figure
you's need to do some of the talkin' in one big group."
They looked like they's thinkin' 'bout what I's sayin, so I told
'em. "Like 'at ol' Mike fella
who's gettin' all beat up 'n stuff. 'At Jeff said he'd be a
willin' to come over 'n walk with 'im so's he'd be all safe like.
I reckon you'd 've found ya more of 'em boys willin' to help if he was
tellin' everybody 'bout what was goin' on." I looked at
Dad 'n Daddy. "Like when we's
all eatin' at the table. Everbody tells 'bout what's goin' on 'n
stuff. I don't reckon most of these ol' boys gots 'em a family
like we do, but I reckon that's what they's needin' when they's comin'
Daddy smiled at Ethan. "In the
'At ol' Ethan started laughin'. "Somehow,
I knew that would come back on me."
"Well, that's what I's sayin'
really. You oughta be more like a family 'n less like a group,
seein' that's what they's all needin'." Then, I got to
thinkin' some more. "You say
they won't let you all meet at that ol' school none. We's don't
really meet none too much, 'cept when we's eatin. I guess we do
some stuff together 'n all, but mostly we's just all eat together 'n
stuff. Why can't you fella's bring you somethin' 'n eat your
lunch together like we do when we's workin' at the mission? Then,
you's all got lots of time to be talkin' with one 'nother. They's
gotta let you eat, so's I don't reckon they can keep you from meetin'
if you's eatin'."
Sorrow come up 'n hugged me up, kissin me on the cheek. "I think Angel is right, guys. What
these boys need is a family, something from which they feel they belong
and are loved." Dad 'n Daddy said they thought so,
too. So did Ethan 'n Shaft. I reckon my family was a
stickin' together. I just knowed that was what these fellas was a
needin' to do.
'At Wyatt fella started movin' his hands all fast like, 'n Dad told us
what he's a sayin'. "Wyatt says
that you do not all have lunch together at the same time, but you
could all eat breakfast together. From there, everyone who has
lunch the same times could sit together and discuss further what was
started in the morning. He says that he thinks everyone would be
safer eating lunch together, too. He says that if you all planned
your schedule right, everyone could have at least one buddy in each
class to be of some comfort and protection."
I hugged 'at fella, thinkin' Wyatt was pretty smart. Him a
talkin' with his hands 'n all like that was kinda neat I thought.
I told Dad to tell 'im so, 'n he just smiled back at me.
Some little guy named Bobby come by, 'n Jake 'n TJ told 'im what we was
talkin' 'bout. He thought on it a minute or two, then
smiled at me. "So, which son
"I's Chance." I pointed
at Sorrow. "This'n is Sorrow."
"Well, Chance, I can see why your dads
are so proud of the both of you. That is an excellent idea."
that little Bobby guy said to me.
He went over to 'at Max fella 'n got 'im a microphone like we's got in
the movie room at home. Then, he asked all 'em boys to move their
chairs round in a circle. Bobby asked me to come up 'n talk
to everbody, but I's a bit nervous 'bout that. Sorrow come up
with me, though, 'n he held my hand while I talked with 'em.
I told 'em all bout how I's livin' 'fore, 'n how I met Dad 'n
Daddy. Sorrow told 'em 'bout us meetin' at that ol' mall 'n
'bout his life. Then he told 'em how he's livin' with us
now. We both told 'em boys 'bout our family 'n all the stuff we's
doin' together. Then we told 'em 'bout what all we's talkin' bout
'fore 'n what that Wyatt guy said with his fast ol' hands 'n all.
Somethin' else come cross my mind, so I told 'em 'bout it too.
Our family was all different kinds of people. None of us was the
same or nothin' like that. I told 'em they might wanna talk with
some of 'em other kids that might not be gay or nothin', but still
feels like they's different. I reckoned lots of 'em kids got
picked on 'sides gay ones, and I figured they might be interested in
helpin' make things better for everbody. I knowed they'd get lots
more help that way, anyhow.
I guess they liked what I's sayin', cause they all started talkin' bout
it 'n sharin' other kinds of stuff together. I smiled cause
they's soundin' an awful lot like a family to me then. They
talked like that for a good bit, then 'at little Bobby fella said it
was time for some fun.
They all started singin to music, lookin on this tv readin' the words
'n all. Some of 'em sang alone 'n some of 'em sang
together. I's surprised when Sorrow got up there to sing, but I
reckon that was a real pretty song. He said his Pop used to sing
it to 'im 'n David when he was little.
the music started, he grabbed me by the hand, takin me with 'im.
He walked over to Jake 'n TJ 'n he started singin'.
Ben, the two of us need look no more
Jake kissed TJ. Then, Sorrow looked at me.
both found what we were looking for
a friend to call my own
kissed me, all soft like. Then, we walked on to Alex 'n Carter 'n
never be alone
you my friend will see
got a friend in me
you’re always running here and there
feel you’re not wanted anywhere
you ever look behind
don’t like what you find
one thing you should know
got a place to go
fella's started cryin' but hugged 'im while he's singin to em.
They knowed he's tellin' em he's their friend 'n all. Then, we
walked up to Dad 'n Daddy 'n Ethan 'n Shaft.
used to say, I and me
it’s us, now it’s we
hugged Sorrow, cause they knowed he was talkin' bout us bein' a family
'n all. Then
we's standin' in front of some of 'em other fella's. A few of 'em
was ones 'at come over with Dad 'n Daddy.
most people would turn you away
fella's was cryin too, but 'at Juan guy hugged Sorrow real tight like
'n told 'em thanks.
don’t listen to a word they say
don’t see you as I do
wish they would try to
sure they’d think again
they had a friend like Ben
The song was over 'n all, but 'em boys just kept on cheerin' for
Sorrow. He was a real good singer, if you's askin' me, cause he
sounded like one of 'em ol' angels. But I reckon those words was
to 'em boys. I knowed they's meanin' an awful lot to me 'n
all. They kept on cheerin' though, so Sorrow sang one more song,
but this 'n he sang just to me. He had me stand right 'side 'im
'n he was a lookin' at me the whole time he's a singin'.
YOUR MY ANGEL
found my way out of the darkness
After all this time
Now I see your smiling face
Looking back at mine
I was always told
That love can be blind
Now I understand that
Love can be kind
Cause you're my angel
Gotta make you see
I'm the one for you
You're the one for me
Cause you're my angel
let you know
Now I've found you
I'm never letting go
Cause you're my angel
I'm weak or in despair
But it's enough to know
That you are always there
And I'll love you cause you
Can see inside my soul
You bring me comfort
When I'm standing
Cause you're my angel
Gotta make you see
I'm the one for you
You're the one for me
Cause you're my angel
let you know
Now I've found you
I'm never letting go
you're my angel
my angel and
You're always there
You're always there
I was always told that
Love can be blind
Now I know that
Can be kind
Cause you're my angel
Gotta make you see
I'm the one for you
You're the one for me
Cause you're my angel
let you know
Now I've found you
I'm never letting go
you're my angel
I's cryin' listenin' to 'em words, cause they was like Sorrow had been
when he was all sad like. He was really thinkin' I's the reason
he was gettin' all better like. That song even said I's his
angel, just like he's always callin' me 'n all. I reckon I knowed
he was meanin' all 'em words 'n that was what was meanin' so much to
me. When he was finished, he gave me a big ol' kiss which was
REAL nice, if you's askin me. 'Em ol boys was a cheerin' big time
then. So was Ethan 'n Shaft. Dad 'n Daddy was smilin,
clappin' for us I reckon. I kissed Sorrow one more time, then
we's went back 'side our family, lettin' some of the rest of 'em boys
When we left that meetin', I reckon we all had us a bunch of numbers to
be callin', checkin' up on some of 'em boys. We was 'bout half
way home I reckon when 'at TJ called my little pocket phone. I's
'cited somebody's a callin' me, so's I answered it real fast
like. Sorrow was laughin' at me, though.
TJ told me he was real glad we all come to that meetin' and thanked me
for tellin' 'em what I was thinkin'. He told me to tell our dads
he'd be callin' em later to tell 'em thanks 'n I did. He told me
to tell Sorrow he sang real good, which I did. Sorrow got all red
like, but told TJ thanks, puttin his head next to mine listenin' to 'im
talkin' with me. Then, he asked if me 'n Sorrow wanted to go to a
movie with 'im 'n Jake the next evenin'. He asked us to see if
Ethan 'n Shaft wanted to go too.
I let Shaft talk to 'im, while I asked Dad 'n Daddy if we could
go. They told us we could, long as we's careful. Daddy
winked at me 'n Sorrow, tellin' us how proud he was of us for helpin'
'em boys 'n all. So did Dad.
Shaft talked to TJ, he asked if he could use my phone to call 'em
brothers 'n see if they was wantin' to go. Lots of 'em boys had
pocket phones 'n I's real glad Daddy got me mine then. That
Dwayne fella was awful 'cited 'n so was Carter. We 'cided to ask
if Dakota and Juan wanted to go with us too, so Shaft called 'em both
'n they said they'd come too. We's gonna have a great ol' time
We got home 'n Sorrow 'n me took 'em pups out 'fore we got ready
for bed. I gived Roe a hug, tellin' 'im how everthin' went today
while I was practicin' with Sorrow. I thanked 'im for his help,
huggin' him again, and he kissed me on the head, tellin me I's
It was gettin' late, so we washed up 'n brushed our teeth. Dad 'n
Daddy tucked us in, sayin' prayers 'n all like usual. They kissed
us both 'n went on to bed too.
I's a bit worried 'bout that test I's gonna be takin'. Sorrow
kept tellin' me I's gonna be fine, but I's still nervous 'bout
it. He kissed me REAL good like, then I snuggled up to 'im,
puttin' my head on his chest. He just held me real tight like 'n
we's sleepin' for I knowd it.
When I woked up the next mornin', Sorrow was watchin' me, scratchin' my
back real gentle like. He smiled 'at great ol' big grin of
his 'n I just knowd he's the prettiest thing I's ever saw. "Morning Angel." He said all
happy like. "Do you feel any
I wasn't none to worried no more 'bout that ol' test cause I just knowd
I's gonna be just fine with it. "Honest,
I's feelin' lots better now. I reckon my big ol' angel 'n pillow
done chased all 'em nerves away." I's smilin' right back
at 'im. "I knows you's what I's
needin' to feel better 'n all. You do lots of stuff for me too
Sorrow, whether you sees it or not."
He run his fingers in my hair 'n pet my face. "Anything for you, Angel."
Then, he hugged me up real tight. "God knows, I'd be completely lost without
"We's family, you 'n me. We's
part of this big ol' family 'n part of Dad 'n Daddy's family too.
But we's our own little family, 'n I knows we's forever. So I
don't reckon you's gonna be lost no time too soon." I told
'im, pushin' his hair out of his pretty ol' face. Then I
laughed. "Even if you was, I'd
just find ya 'n whip you up 'fore wonderin' off on me. I could
take ya, you know."
Quicker 'n I's could blink, Sorrow flipped me over 'n was pinnin' me
down on the bed. Then he started ticklin' me somethin'
awful. "Oh, you think now, do
you? I don't know Angel. I believe I might just be able to
take you back."
I was laughin' real hard then, but I still told 'im, "Only if I's lettin' ya."
Then he tickled me real strong 'n I was squirmin' everwhere. "So you are just pitying me, are you?"
Sorrow said laughin'.
>From out of nowhere, 'em pups jumped up on 'at bed 'n started lickin'
us both. We's both laughin' real hard 'bout that.
Finally, we got 'em all calmed down like. "Honest, I think 'em ol' pups can take us
both real easy." I says to 'im.
"I know you're right on that
one. I guess we should take them out." Sorrow
smiled. 'Em pups perked up when he said take 'em out. I guess they
knowd what that meant then. Sorrow climbed out of bed 'n turned
'round 'n picked me up in 'is arms, liftin' me out of 'at bed. I
kissed 'im mornin', but I don't reckon it was near as good as the night
'fore. "Maybe we should brush
our teeth first." Sorrow said, knowin' we both tasted kind
of funny like.
After we brushed our teeth 'n swished 'at ol' nasty blue stuff 'round
in our mouths, I kissed 'im again. "That was lots better." I says
He looked all serious like. "I
don't know, Chance. I still don't think we have it right."
Then, he kissed me again but lots longer that time. "That was much better. I still think
we need to practice, though." he said smilin' all big like.
"You's gettin' to be an awful lot like
Dad 'n Daddy 'n 'em boys." I laughed at 'im cause he
turned real red like. "Let's
get these ol' pups outside."
We headed down the steps and through the kitchen to take 'em pups
out. Dad 'n Daddy was gettin' ready to make breakfast for
everbody with Hela. They all gived us hugs 'n 'em pups licked 'em
all good mornin' too. Then we took Chips 'n Domino on
outside. After they was finished 'n we fixed em breakfast, me 'n
Sorrow run up to our room 'n took us a shower. He helped me find
somethin' to wear 'n we got dressed. By then, they's just about
finished with breakfast. Ethan 'n Shaft met us on the steps, both
of 'em laughin' cause me 'n Sorrow just took us a shower. I
reckon they's just payin' us back, so we just laughed with 'em.
Jew 'n Jena was already in the kitchen, and he picked me up huggin'
me. They both kissed me, wishin' me luck on that ol' test.
I hugged 'em both back 'n thanked 'em for helpin' me.
We all had us our breakfast, talkin' 'bout last night 'n all.
Everbody seemed like they had 'em a good time. They all was real
interested in hearin' 'bout that meetin'. We 'cided to ask TJ if
they could all come with us next time. Our family was good 'bout
helpin' each other, so I reckoned 'em other boys could use all of us.
Everbody hugged us bye. They all wished me luck on 'at test 'n
stuff. We rode over to the school talkin' 'bout everthin' we
could think of I guess. When we got there, Dad gived me a big ol'
hug. "You'll do just fine,
son. Don't worry about it and try your best. That's all
anyone could ask of you." he said 'n kissed me on the
Daddy picked me up 'n gave me one of 'em big ol' hugs of his. "We're always proud of you, son. We
love you more than you could ever know." Then he kissed me
on the forehead too.
Once Daddy set me down, Sorrow hugged me all tight like. "I'm not going to wish you luck, Angel,
because luck has nothing to do with it. I know you will do
fine. Just have faith in yourself." He kissed me all
soft like 'n hugged me again. "We'll
be waiting for you, Angel. I love you."
I knowd they was the best family a boy could ever have. I smiled
at 'em all 'n told 'em I loved 'em. Then I went in to take that
ol' test. It was a real long time till I's finished. I
reckon I knowd most of 'em questions from practicin' so much. I
wasn't nervous or nothin when they asked me 'em questions out
loud. I wasn't even gettin' all mad bout havin' to write out that
ol' English stuff. I's just real calm like knowin' my family was
waitin' for me.
When I's done, that lady took me back out to my dads 'n Sorrow.
She said it'd be 'bout an hour, so we all decided to go get us some
lunch. We went to this place 'n got us some tacos. I ain't
had no tacos 'fore then, and I was havin' a time eatin' 'em. So
was Dad, but Sorrow 'n Daddy seemed like they's doin fine. Ever
time you would try to bite one of 'em suckers, they'd just fall apart
'n all the stuff would fall out of 'em on your plate. Dad got us
two some forks 'n we ate 'em like what he called a taco salad.
They's real good, just awful messy.
"So, how do you think you did, Angel?"
Sorrow asked me 'fore he started eatin' his next taco. He was
awful cute cause he had a little bit of that white stuff on his
cheek. I wiped it off of 'im laughin'.
"I reckon I did just fine. I
knowd lots of it from practicin' 'n all." I told 'im.
"Son, we're both proud of you
regardless of your scores." Dad said.
Then, Daddy got this big ol' grin on his face. "But, knowing how smart you are, we will be
able to gloat about those scores of yours. I just know you did
I laughed 'bout that. "I don't
know if I's 'd go that far, Daddy, but I reckon I did good enough to
get in that school." Then I smiled at Sorrow. "I's got me a little faith in myself."
He smiled 'n kissed me on the cheek. "No where near as much as we have in you,
That made me feel real good. I guess that is part of bein' family
too. You believe in one 'nother helpin' each one believe in
hisself. I just knowd that's what they's doin' for me.
After we's finished eatin', we went back to that school. That
lady took us back in this room to meet with this man and another
lady. He said he was Mr. Jackson, the new principle. She
said her name was Miss Cooper, and I thought she seemed real nice 'n
"Chance, we were impressed with your
scores, as you did quite well on your tests. However, you made a
few notes that we found rather interesting, particularly on your Math
and English tests." that Mr. Jackson said.
"I just knowd I should've not done
that." I whispered to Sorrow. He took my hand 'n
rubbed it all easy like.
"Well, Chance, we are glad you did."
Miss Cooper said, hearin' what I's sayin' to Sorrow. "It is our understanding from Miss Lafferty
that you want to be in classes with your friend Eric. Well, Eric
is in several advanced placement classes." I wasn't for
sure, but I figured since Sorrow was so smart 'n all, he was in 'em
classes for 'em real bright kids. I guessed then we wasn't gonna
get in none of 'em classes together.
"Don't look so downhearted,
Chance. On your math test, you made a few comments I found very
enlightening about your true potential. On one set of the
problems, you were asked to select what all you could buy with
the only five dollars you had from the local restaurant. You
answered the questions correctly, but your note was priceless."
He laughed. Then, he told my dads what I had said 'n I got real
embarrassed. "He basically said
that if it were him and he only had five dollars, he would not waste it
on a single meal. He said that a jar of peanut butter and a loaf
of bread would feed him for several meals, which he felt was the better
choice." Mr. Jackson smiled real big like at me. "Honestly, son, you're right. Your
note let me see that you have the ability to think beyond the scope
many in your age group cannot even begin to comprehend. For that
reason, I am going to allow you to be placed in the math and science
classes with your friend Eric." Then he looked at
Sorrow. "I trust you will help
your friend if he has any trouble."
Sorrow smiled real big, huggin' me tight like. "Yes sir. But, I honestly don't think
he will have much trouble at all."
"With as much as he has accomplished
in ten days, I believe you are right." Miss Cooper
said. "Chance, your paper was
wonderfully written, but it was your note that really spoke to me."
She smiled at me. "It was in a
completely different voice than the paper, one I believe I heard you
using while talking to your friend. Personally, I find that voice
to be heartwarming, true, and quite unique." She got real teary
like all the sudden. "What you wrote in your note, however, was
very moving. You have a great understanding about family, Chance,
and your ideas about helping those boys came across beautifully.
I wish you luck in that." Then, she smiled again. "In the advanced English, we are going to
be doing a bunch of creative writing assignments and persuasion papers
about social issues. I think you will do just fine, so I am
allowing you to enter the AP English class with Eric, as well."
Then, she grinned real big. "That
means you and Eric will have all of your classes together, Chance."
I's cryin' I's so happy. I run 'round the table 'n hugged 'em
both, thankin' 'em for lettin' me be with Sorrow. They both
laughed 'n told me they's lookin' forward to havin' me in that ol'
school. "I think our students
can learn a great deal from Chance's unique perspective."
Mr. Jackson said to my dads. "It
will be an honor to have him."
After we was finished in that office, we was all so 'cited 'bout
everthin'. We all got out our pocket phones 'n called all of the
family to tell 'em what happened. I called Jew 'n Jena and told
'em 'bout all they said. They was both real happy. Dad
called Shaft 'n Roe 'n Ethan, tellin' them 'bout it. Daddy called
Grams 'n Nanna 'n Hela, which we could all here Hela yellin' she's so
happy. Sorrow called Mic 'n Cole, 'n Cole said she'd call Allen
'n tell 'im the good news.
Then, I called Pops while Dad called Valerie 'n Ed. "Pops! Guess what?" I
says to 'im.
"The school burned down and you didn't
have to take your test?" 'At ol' Pops was gettin' silly, I
I laughed real big thinkin' bout that. "No. I got in 'n they's lettin' me
take all 'em same classes as Sorrow!"
"Wow! Chance, that is fantastic
news!" he was real 'cited like, too. "I guess we will have to do something
special after we go shopping tomorrow. So, what does your dads
and Eric have to say about the genius in their midsts?" Me
'n Pops talked for a little bit, then he talked with Sorrow some.
Dad gave me his phone, cause Ed 'n Valerie was wantin' to talk to me.
"Chance, darling. We are so
proud of you." She said to me. "You are a miracle in the making, just like
"Buddy, I am so happy." Ed
said, all 'cited like. "I don't
know what I am going to do having two helpers that are smarter than I
am. Maybe I should just turn the business over to the two of
I just laughed at ol' Ed. "I
reckon you's know way more 'bout all that stuff 'n either of us
do. 'Sides, we like workin' for you boss." I told
'im. We talked for a bit, 'n Valerie said to be sure 'n bring all
'em boys by 'fore we went to the mall so's we could eat dinner.
They's gonna fix up somethin' special for me.
After gettin' off all 'em phones, we all went 'n got in the car.
I wondered where we was goin', cause I knowd it wasn't the way home or
nothin' like that. Then, I seen that big ol' wheel ride thing 'n
I knowd just where we was at.
Dad 'n Daddy took lots of pictures of me 'n Sorrow as we was racin'
'round that ol' track in 'em little cars. That was so much fun,
even more than the time 'fore when we come there. It wasn't near
as crowded, so we gots our turns lots faster. We rode lots of 'em
rides too. This one nice ol' lady even snapped a few pictures of
me 'n Sorrow 'n our dads for us. Daddy won Dad a teddy bear 'n an
ol' fox throwin rings on 'em bottles. It wasn't no real fox or
nothin' like that. It was one of 'em stuffed 'n's like that ol'
teddy was. Sorrow won me a stuffed little rabbit
throwin baseballs at this circle thing. I 'cided I's gonna call
'at bunny Lucky, which Sorrow thought was real funny with me namin' it
'n all. Me 'n Dad didn't win none of 'em games, but we had fun
After a while, it was time to be gettin' back to the house to meet
Ethan 'n Shaft since we's meetin' all 'em boys tonight. We asked
Dad 'n Daddy if they was comin', but they said we should have a night
out with just us fella's. I kinda wanted them to come with us,
but me 'n Sorrow figured they was wantin' to spend 'em some time
alone. We giggled a little bit 'bout that, but we sure tried not
When we was gettin' in the van to leave, Daddy picked on Shaft, askin'
if he was sure he could reach to work the gas 'n brake. Ethan
told 'im, "Believe it or not, smart
ass, shorter people drive every day." He then hugged 'im,
asking if they's sure they was not comin' with us.
Daddy just laughed. "I guess
Love and I will find something to entertain us. You boys have a
good time, and be careful." We hugged both our dads bye
then headed out to pick up the rest of 'em fellas.
When we got to their houses, we told 'em to see if they could
stay the night and to get 'em some clothes. All of 'em was 'cited
about havin' a sleep over 'n all. I reckon this was my second
one, seein' how Sorrow had stayed with me 'fore he moved in 'n
all. After we picked up Dakota, we headed over to Valerie 'n Ed's
They had fixed us up some fried chicken 'n broccoli. There was
macaroni 'n cheese 'n all kinds of other stuff. 'Em boys liked
Valerie 'n Ed a good bit, 'n they told 'em both how good that food
Valerie come by 'n told me 'n Sorrow, "You
boys have fun tonight, and remember: Help comes from places where
you least expect it."
I knowed she 'n Dad both saw stuff 'bout people in their heads 'n
all. Me 'n Sorrow did too, but what we was seein' was
different 'n what she 'n Dad was seein' somehow. We didn't have
to wait too long to find out what she's meanin' though.
After eatin', we all thanked 'em for our meals. They wouldn't let
none of us pay for nothin', cause they said it was a dinner special for
me doin' so well on my tests. I had to 'xplain to 'em other boys
'bout it 'n they seemed impressed or somethin'.
We went to that game place first. Ethan was beatin' most all 'em
boys. Sorrow was pretty good at 'em kinda games, but I reckon I's
better at 'em. He was better 'n me at 'em games we was playin'
earlier though. I beat that TJ 'n Sorrow kissed me. While
he was kissin' me though, that ol' Blade 'n 'em other fella's come down
the mall. They was broodin' when they seen 'im kissin' me, but
I told Sorrow I'd be right back, and I guess he thought I had to pee or
somethin'. I walked down that mall till I found em boys. "Look, Blade. If you's got somethin'
to say to me, then say it. 'Else you should just go on.
Sorrow's been through lots of things, though. I don't reckon he
needs to be hearin' your ol' mouth 'bout none of it neither. None
of 'em other fella's do for that matter. " Then, I looked
at 'im real serious like in the eyes. "You say somethin' to Sorrow or 'em other
boys 'n I'll not be so nice to you this time. 'Specially if you's say
somethin' to my Sorrow."
He looked at me all mean like, then said, "Whatever, fag." When I looked
back at 'im all mean, he told 'em other fella's, "Come on guys. Let's go."
Then, they just walked on.
I went back to Sorrow, kissin' 'im when I got there. We played us
some more of 'em games for a while, all laughin' 'n havin' us a good
ol' time. Then, it was time for that movie to start, so we headed
We paid 'at girl again through that hole, then gave her back 'em
tickets soon as we got inside. I still thought that was kinda
silly. Sorrow got us both a big popcorn 'n a soda to share.
He said it would be lots more fun like that. Carter 'n Dwayne sat
together, with that Juan sittin' side Carter 'n Dakota sittin' 'side
Dwayne. Ethan 'n Shaft sat next to Dakota, 'n I was 'side
Shaft. Sorrow was 'side me, then Jake 'n TJ was 'side of 'im.
'At movie was real good. It was 'bout all these people
disappearin' 'n all. They's 'd show up dead 'n all later on, but
nobody could figure out who was killin' 'em or why they's gettin'
killed. In this one part that was real scary like, Sorrow put his
arm 'round me 'n I snuggled up to 'im. We heard some fellas
sayin' some rude stuff, but they was all quiet like when any of us
would look 'round. I seen that ol Blade in there, and he was a
watchin' me 'n Sorrow.
I's real surprised when it turned out to be this ol' lady who was a
killin' all 'em people. This movie was good, but it wasn't
nothin' like 'at last one with the guy with 'at ol' knife. I felt
kinda sorry for 'at ol' lady cause she wasn't right in the head, bein'
all crazy like. They killed her though cause she tried killin' em
When the movie was over, we all got up and headed outside. We was
talkin' 'bout that movie when these big ol' fellas came up to us,
callin' us fags and sayin' they's gonna whip up on us. Me 'n Jake
'n TJ was ready to fight 'em, but Sorrow said they wasn't worth it or
nothin' like that. The other fella's agreed, so we was turnin' to
I's turnin' back 'round cause somethin' told me to be careful.
One of 'em guys was gettin' ready to hit Sorrow in the back of the
head. 'Fore I could do anything, though, that ol' boy went flyin'
cross the lot with somebody stuck to his legs. I's real surprised
to see it was 'at ol' Blade.
'Em other boys was right there, starin' down 'em boys that was pickin'
on us. "I think you guys should
go before you get the shit kicked out of you." Blade told 'at
fella who was gonna hit Sorrow. Seein' all of us, I reckon 'em
boys got scared 'n took off.
Blade was all scuffed up, bleedin' 'n all, so I took my shirt off
'n gived it to him to put on 'em scrapes. He looked at me all
mean like, then he grinned at me, givin' me back my shirt. "I don't want to ruin your good shirt, but
I wrapped it real tight 'round his arm. "Well, you can't go 'round bleedin'.
I reckon I's oughta be thankin' you for lookin' out for Sorrow.
Why'd you do it though? You's mean to us 'fore."
He looked at me 'n Sorrow for a minute. "I guess for fags, you two are alright."
He was grinnin', so I don't reckon neither of us was mad cause he
called us fags. Then, he put his hand on Sorrow's
shoulder. "Maybe I am all wild
'n crazy about your boyfriend." He said to me. "Or, maybe what you said hit the right
nerve. Look, I am an ass, and I know it. I won't deny that
or try to make excuses. I am who I am." Then,
he looked at Sorrow. "No matter
what, fag or not, you will always be one of us, Sorrow. We look
out for our own." Then, he looked back at me. "I guess we can even tolerate that mouthy
little boyfriend and body guard you have, Sorrow. Just don't be
such a stranger."
He was walkin' off, 'n Sorrow looked at me. I shook my head at
'im, smilin'. Then Sorrow run over to 'em and asked if they
wanted to come over to the house 'n stuff with us. 'Em other boys
said they needed to be gettin' home, but Blade 'cided he would come
with us. Shaft offered the other guys a ride home, and they's
'cided it was lots better 'n walkin'.
It was crowded in that van, so I's sittin' on Sorrow's lap.
Dwayne was sittin' on Blades lap, too. He giggled a few times
then finally said, "Look, you don't
have to be so tense. I'm not gay. My brother Carter is."
Blade got embarrassed 'n started laughin'. "I guess it shouldn't matter, and maybe it
won't with time. Right now, though, that makes me feel a lot more
We laughed 'bout that, and Sorrow seemed like he was hopeful for
Blade. He snuggled up to me, real close like. "This is all because of you, Angel.
You inspire people to be better." he whispered in my ear.
I just looked at 'im like he was crazy. "I don't reckon I did much of nothin',
honest. He just 'sided to be a real friend I guess is all."
He kissed me on my neck real easy like. "I don't know, Angel, but I love you for
It was quite a surprise to be rescued by Blade of all people. I
thought to myself that miracles would never cease, but then I was
reminded of my life. Miracles were a very real part of it, so who
was I to doubt the workings of God. Blade watched Chance and I
quite a bit while we dropped off the cronies. When we were
finally on our way home, he spoke. "You know, I believe this is the first time
that I can ever remember you being happy."
I was elated, wrapping my arms tightly around Chance. "That is all because of my angel. He
brought me back to life, I guess. I know he gives me every reason
I have to smile."
He thought a moment. "I have
known you for years, Sorrow. But, now, I realize I really don't
know much about you at all. I'm sorry for that."
"There is a lot about you I am sure I
don't know either, Blade. Maybe we will finally get to know each
other for real this time." I smiled. Dwayne and
Blade began talking about football, which was a subject he could talk
As I sat there, I became aware of the critical role Blade would play in
a major event. Chance smiled at me. "Yep, I's knowin' that now, too. He's
gonna be a hero to lots of people, all cause you help 'im find his way."
"We, Angel, we help him find his way."
I grinned. "Who would have
guessed before, though?"
"Not me, that's for sure."
Chance giggled softly. "But, I
reckon everybody has a savin' grace to 'em. Blade ain't no
When we arrived back at the house, Dad and Daddy met us on the porch
along with Domino and Chips. The pups attacked everyone with
their friendliness, and even Blade found them to be fun. "I suppose we owe you a big thanks for
standing up for our son." Dad said to Blade.
"Not really. I owed him and
Chance one, anyway. I was the ass who harassed him at the
arcade. I'm sure you have heard about me." Blade
Daddy laughed. "Well, at least
you are honest. I can respect that."
We introduced everyone once inside, and I think TJ and Jake were
especially fond of Hela. Blade, on the other hand, found Roe to
be quite amusing. I think everyone did really. Mic talked
some to Juan, saying it was nice to put a face with the voice. I
assumed he had called her like Dad asked him to do last night.
Everyone, however, really liked Grams and Nana. For older people,
they were so much fun.
TJ asked Dad and Daddy if they would bring the whole family to our next
meeting. Then, he went over to Jew and started talking
baseball. Jew, of course, was more than willing to oblige.
Jena and Cole were ogled by Blade and Dwayne, which they both found to
be amusing. Ethan and Shaft called them both cradle robbers,
which prompted Jena and Cole to chase them, creating a most humerus
We all went up to the movie room, which all the guys, including Blade,
thought was impressive. Hela and Mic brought up some snacks, and
we all played board games with the grown ups. Then, Grams and
Nana entertained us with stories about their past adventures as little
girls. Like I said,
everyone loved them. They were just awesome people. We all played around with
some music for a while, and Domino and Chips howled again every time
Soon, it was time for bed, as Chance and I had to work feeding the
homeless in the morning. All the boys asked if they could help,
so I called Ed. He was thrilled to have so many volunteers.
Blade said he would come, too, once Chance cornered him. Even
though I knew how Blade would one day turn out, he was still a bit much
to take at times.
We pulled a bunch of mattresses into the movie room, and even Shaft and
Ethan joined us in our sleep over. I snuggled up, resting my head
on Chance as we normally did. Blade, of course, had something to
say about it. "Do you guys
always sleep like that?"
"Yes, why?" I replied,
expecting some smart remark.
He laughed. "Well, it is kind
of cute, actually. You look like two puppies or something."
Then, he laughed even harder as he looked around the room. "I have definitely been hanging around you
fags for too long."
That prompted it, and the war was on. It was the biggest pillow
fight I imagine ever existed. After about twenty minutes or so,
we all settled back down, deciding to get some sleep.
"Thanks man." Blade said
to me. "This has been fun."
TJ was snuggled up to Jake, both on their sides. "I have to agree. This has been a
real blast." TJ enthused. "We should do things like this more often."
Everyone else made similar comments, except for Dakota, who was sound
asleep beside Blade. Blade pulled the covers over Dakota and
smiled at me. "I guess you are
"You mean, for fags?" I
"No." He smiled. "I mean for people. You are all kewl
regardless." I kissed Chance goodnight, and Blade
chuckled. "I could live without
that, though. You guys are worse than my parents."
We soon all fell asleep. As morning came, we were all awakened to
the smells of breakfast. I noticed Shaft and Ethan were
missing, but figured they had gone to their room for privacy. I
prompted the troupes to wash up and get downstairs.
As we entered the kitchen, I saw Shaft and Ethan were actually up, and
they had taken Chips and Domino out already. They were the one's
fixing breakfast. "Don't look
so surprised." Ethan laughed. "I did most of the cooking for your Daddy,
Jenna, and me. Trust me, you will love it." he said,
handing us all platters to carry to the table. Dad and Daddy soon
joined us. Everyone else filed in shortly thereafter.
TJ looked at Dad. "So, you guys
seriously eat like this all the time? Together, I mean."
Dad smiled. "Yes, buddy, we do."
Daddy, of course had to get a hug in. "It is a great way to start the day, being
surrounded by those you love and who love you back."
We had scrambled eggs, bacon, ham, hash browns, gravy, biscuits,
muffins, but no grits, thank God. They were not very good, that
was for sure. To my dismay, Daddy brought each of us guys a bowl
of those grits. Chance and I giggled along with Dad. "Eat up boys." Daddy said.
They all looked at the grits for a minute, swishing them around with
their spoon. Then, they all tried them. Chance and I both
swallowed hard, quickly reaching for our juice. "To family." I smiled, then
downed the juice swiftly.
As the boys followed suit, Chance mouthed "Drink lots of juice." and they all
Breakfast had a lot more conversation than usual, seeing as we had so
many friends with us. There was always something new to learn
about another person. I guess our family knew this all to well,
for they seemed to always ask about everyone else. It was one of
the things I had grown to love about living in the old hotel, actually.
Once breakfast clean up was finished, we all headed upstairs to various
bathrooms for quick showers. Then, we all dressed quickly and met
in the living room. Shaft and Ethan were coming with us, as were
Dad and Daddy. We all loaded up in the van and headed to work.
Pop was there waiting on us. I introduced him to everyone, and he
seemed pleased that I had made some new friends. He looked at
Chance and me a moment, then pulled me off to the side. "Did you finally tell Chance how you felt
about him? I can tell there is something different there."
"Well, not exactly." I
said blushing. "We just both
figured out how much we meant to each other, I guess. So, you
knew?" I asked him.
He just laughed. "Eric, it was
apparent to me when I came to pick you up at the mission. I could
tell you loved Chance, but Chance's love for you practically screamed
at me." he smiled. "I
think it is wonderful, and I am glad you are happy. That is all
that matters to me." Then, he looked at Angel again.
"Besides, I love that kid. He
just has that way about him."
I laughed in agreement. "That's
why he's my angel, Pop."
Ed had everyone started with a task, while Valerie had Pop, Dad, and
Daddy helping her out front. It seemed like it took no time at
all till breakfast was finished. We then boxed everything up and
had it ready to hand out.
Soon, the masses were at the door, and everyone soon learned why Chance
and I found this to be such a wonderful job. I don't think I have
ever seen Pop smile so much, not that I really had much experience
seeing him over the last several years. Nonetheless, it was nice
to witness. Blade even seemed like he was enjoying it, that is,
until some of the homeless teens came in.
"Man. I didn't realize guys our
age lived out on the streets like that." He commented
Chance pat him on the back. "I
used to be one of 'em Blade, till Dad 'n Daddy found me."
Awkwardly, he wrapped his arm around Angel. "I didn't know, Chance. I feel like a
real shit now for picking on you before."
"I don't reckon you knows much 'bout
somebody till you get to know 'em really. You's gotta listen to
'em and share with 'em stuff 'bout yourself 'n all." he
smiled. "Lots of 'em is good
people really, just had 'em some bad luck 'n all."
Blade began talking to a few of the teens, and I wrapped my arms around
my Chance. "Angel, I
swear. It is you who inspires people to be better."
He just laughed at me.
Pop, Dad, and Daddy talked with several of the older crowd. They
introduced many of the guys to someone, involving them all in a
conversation here or there. It was really nice to see, as they
were each becoming involved in helping out others. Ethan and
Shaft were talking to this one elderly lady who kept patting them on
the cheeks, telling them how cute they both were. A couple
of the teens were talking with Jake and TJ, who seemed to be
enjoying the conversation, too.
Valerie came up behind us and looked at Blade, as he laughed and
carried on with a couple of homeless teen boys. "See, you never know who God will choose
to be a source of help."
"He's gonna be somethin' special to
lots of these people someday soon. I just hope we's can get 'im
ready like we's 'posed to." Chance smiled.
"I have no doubts you will, boys."
she grinned. "Helping Blade is
but one of many things you two will do. There is a great purpose
God has called you for, boys. But, along the way, you will help
many people. I believe you know about one of them already."
I smiled at her. "Yeah.
Chance let me in on all of that last night. I'm just glad things
will get better then. They are really nice people, you know."
"There are still a few surprises for
you yet, my darlings. Just never give up trying and always hold
tight to your faith." she said softly.
Valerie went out to refill everyones cups with coffee, and Chance and I
took out juice for anyone who wanted some more. It was busy, but
in a wonderful way. It was like we were building a real
community, in a way like our family was made. There was a great
deal of caring and understanding that was passing around us.
Everyone seemed to be more focused on someone else rather than
themselves. It was nice to see happening.
Pop came to Angel and me, thanking us both for inviting him. He
seemed to understand just how important this work was to so many
people. I was proud of him, actually.
Once everyone was fed, we began cleaning up. It did not take too
long since there were so many of us working today. Chance and I
carried out the trash along with TJ and Jake. "Another great day, Angel." I
wrapped him tightly in my arms. "Though
I wish it were more, we at least made sure they were all fed."
Chance kissed me gently, and I began to tingle all over. It
happened every time he kissed me. "We's at least makin' some difference in
their lives. That's more 'n they had 'fore all this, anyway."
he smiled. "I reckon they's all
happy 'bout it, so's why can't we be happy too?"
Two very big arms lifted Angel and I up off the ground, pulling us into
a vice grip of a hug. "Thanks
for letting us come today, guys. I think we learned more than we
bargained for today." Jake said softly.
"I suppose we get too wrapped up in
our own problems sometimes that we forget about everyone else.
Having someone else to turn to makes it a whole lot easier."
TJ added, grinning at Jake. "It
was nice for someone to turn to us for help, too. It makes you
feel worthwhile, I guess."
I grinned at both of them. "That
is what it is all about, guys. Family that is. You always
have someone to turn to when you need them, and there is always someone
who cares for and loves you. In return, you do the same for your
family." I kissed my angel on the head. "That was what Chance was meaning.
This is what the guys from the group need, a way to find the family
they are missing at home."
We talked for a few more minutes, then made our way to the van.
We all went back to the house to get cleaned up. Pop followed us
in his car, bringing Ethan, Shaft, and Juan with him. Once
cleaned up, we all went to the mall, as I needed to find some clothes
for school. I have to say, it was a fantastic time. We were
all bonding, becoming friends. Soon, I knew we would be like
this completes chapter eight. Thanks for reading, and please
know what you think. Chapter nine will be coming soon.
Words and music by Walter Scarf and Donald Black ©
Words and music by Mikey Graham ©